#it ruined the whole thing that this spoily thing basically threw us back into the main series cast of characters

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Oh lol this finally posted like two hours later lol? Sorry, bus wifi is a bit turbulent i guess. Ended up not being able to find which bus went to my old house and by then my blisters were so blistered that i dont think i could have walked the long distance from the bus stop to my house anyway. Like seriously being a bajillion stressfulnesses away from a reachable bus stop was the biggest reason that area messed with my mental health! Just being able to go places is already making me feel so much better! (Even if a lot of the other stuff here balances it out by being even more stressful lol)

Anyway i just ended up coming home for now and the one doctor i feel able to talk to (Mandy) is gonna be here tomorrow evening so i could ask her for bus directions and uhh whether im allowed to do this and all. I guess. It was a bit reckless i guess. Auuuuugh

Anyway now i have a preowned nintendo switch sitting in my room that i cant use for months lol. But a least its a weight off my mind knowing that whenever the preorder pokemon game arrives its at least gonna come to the new house and i'll definately eb prepared to play it immediately whenever i get to come home. I was gonna try and preorder the bundle that comes with the console but really i cant afford a sudden charge of almost 400 quid all at once in november. I can handle it better if i buy them separately even if it costs more overall. And really the special edition wasnt worth it cos its just like tiny barely detailed decals on the front and different coloured controllers. I could probably find the controllers separately on ebay somewhere a few months after it comes out.

And i dunno lol since it has the handhold mode and all, maybe i could plug it in and turn it on even without a tv? Dont have any games tho and i'd have to have internet access to do the eshop. But i dunno if it comes with any lil apps on it like mii maker and face raiders on the 3ds?

Ehh ill find out later i really need to lie down cos these blisters are HUGE! Its funny tho cos both feet hurt but it turns out one of them is like in that pre-blister ache and i caught it just in time, and then the one that hurt less has two giant blisters covering half of the damn foot. Immediately started actually feeling the pain as soon as the shoe came off and it wasnt compressed anymore. Like wowwww its a fuckin foot balloon! Euuurgh! Thank goodness i didnt actually keep on walking cos if this popped i would have been wrecked for the rest of the week! Just hope the swelling goes down now soon so i can go make myself some lunch or something. I Forgot To Consume Food Today, Whoops.

OH BUT I GOT A PIKACHU HAT! so food is optional compared to that, amirite?

Man i fuckin spent all my money im so dumbbbbb. Not literally all of it, but yknow. I spent what i could afford to spend but i did it all at once so thats no luxury purchases for the rest of thr month. I probably should have spread it out into smaller fun things to cheer myself up thru this hell life, but i felt like dropping the whole savings on a good deal for a cheaper Switch was a better long term investment. And now its a goal to work towards or a reward when im finally done here, yeah? And i can hug the box at least.

EVERYONE HELP ME THINK OF A NAME FOR MY NEW SWITCH, YO! like my laptop is Big Chonk and i imagine its gijinka form is a big buff blacksmith everyone's beloved big sister type lady kinda like Bismuth? And my gaming pc is Gizmo after my rotom gijinka, but like a red costume version cos its in those clicje Gamer colours. And then rotomdex gave us a canon red and black one so i guess i predicted the future! Oh and man im just realizing i never really gave a name to my ps4 even tho its been good to me? My old trusty ps2 was Stachie, Son Of Stacy. (The actual ps2 i had as a kid) Like i literally just had a paper mustache on it. And i pictured my 3Ds as a fancy butler type grandpa but i cant remember if i ever gave him a name? He kinda reincarnated through consoles cos seriously ive never had a nintendo console break ever and then i lost three 3DSes in the space of two years! By which i mean the second replacement lasted two years and then the third one literally broke three months after i got it. I started Ultra Moon when 3DS number 2 broke, and then as soon as i finished it i lost 3DS number 3. I THINK THAT SAYS A LOT ABOUT USUM'S QUALITY! Anyway the 3ds butler grandma is dating the ps2 mustache grandpa and i dont know why i feel so strongly about that but i just do. Maybe the laptop is their daughter? And i dunno maybe the switch could just be a reincarnation of 3ds grandpa again cos i feel so bad that he broke so many times. And lets say stache gramps now resides in the ps4,and i will put them together on the shelf when i get home and they can be happy. It must have been tough for one of them to be portable, thats like commuting a long way to work every day or something? Now the switch's dual nature means he can spend more time at home with his family! And maybe the ps4's multimedia features represent stache gramps learning how to use the internet and starting his own successful business from home and now they can live comfortably and his husband doesnt have to commute to an awful job just to support the family. And the kid they adopted is all grown up and being a lovely supportive laptop that plays many vidjagames just like her dads :3

WHY AM I SO INVESTED IN FICS OF MY CONSOLES also why did i make the nintendo gijinka the computer instead ACTUALLY WAIT SHOULD I MAKE THEM ALL POKEMON TOO??? i dont even have a fave ps4 game i could gijinkafy instead, i primarily played indie games on it XD

Oh also LIL STEVEN UNIVERSE FIGURES FOR THE MANTLEPIECE ruby and sapphire can watch over me with their super married energy and bless my queer life. Just look at them whenever i need to remember that some people do care about us and the world is making some progress towards equality, yknow?

SPEAKING OF WHICH i got volume 1 of tokyo ghoul re and seriously nothing has ever raised my hype and killed it so damn fast. Relateable trans character Toru, yay! Relateable trans character Toru getting molested by a creepy old man just to have the ~big shocking reveal~ of him binding his breasts and then getting listed as female in the end of chapter character profiles DESPITE LITERALLY HAVING A FLASHBACK TO HIM ENTERING THIS ORGANIZATION IN ORDER TO CHANGE HIS GENDER MARKER ON HIS ID. Like what the FUCK man! You've clearly written an outright trans character and you're just saying 'he's trans but i dont believe trans people are real lol'. There's no case of me reading too much into it when you have the character outright saying 'please just let me live as a man' and the story itself refusing...gahhh...friggin 'oh just a confused girl~' trope... Like wtf who on earth would react to being afraid of men by wanting to be a man??? If thats really where theyre going with this plot then thats even more insulting than just saying trans people arent real!

Anyway my feet are death and i spent too much money but otherwise my day was good.

Ok my blisters have blisters

I got SO LOST trying to find the preowned games store in the nonsense underground maze shopping arcade in town. And i already had all the skin cutopen on the back of my feet from getting lost two days ago, now i jist have blisters on the soles of them too and i really hope they dont pop because then im in absolute foot hell agony

ANYWAY im finally got nontondo swotch

And i cant even play it til however many damn months it is tilli can go home

So now im trying to find a bus or a taxi back home to i can just like.. Go inside my house for five minutes and sit on my bed and cry. And then hopefully be able to find my way back in time for curfew i guess. Sighhhh