#it pisses me off how popular this person is despite posting problematic stuff every other day. the anime ruined everything im so mad

[koumeowkami]

guys can we NOT actively support artists drawing incest pretty please

[kaypeace21]

i’m a survivor too, and i found that certain scenes/stuff will said just really struck me as ‘csa-survivor’-like? i felt a bit uncomfortable about headcanoning it happening to someone else, especially for a fandom as wild as this one, but your metas have really been a comfort to me because they’ve been able to pick out and explain things that i couldn’t necessarily find the words for myself.

and yeah, i would love to have a character like me that is powerful and who finds love and who gets a happy ending. the people who call the theory disgusting always kinda hit wrong with me because although csa is a difficult subject, we shouldn’t be ashamed about sharing it. they sound like they’re trying to say that it’s a bad topic to talk about and implying that it can’t happen to kids, which uhhhhh-

(i’m sure that’s not what they mean, precisely, but it’s still what they sound like, and i wish that they would stop implying that we can’t exist, especially in popular media. we do, and i’m not gonna pretend we don’t, and if they feel uncomfortable with the topic they can just use the block button. we deserve to have some well written representation just as much as anyone else. also, i really really hope that will gets a happy ending.)

anywayyyy i love your theories and i can see your post in the tag so i think you’re fine?? have a good day ❤️❤️❤️

SORRY, this ask took so long to respond to. It always warms my heart to hear other survivors speak and say they found comfort in my theory.

Yes, I think I and a lot of c*a/r*pe victims (subconscious or otherwise) were triggered by some of the symbolism/visuals in s1-3. And s3 made it hard for most of us to ignore the past imagery- since s3 wasn’t as subtle.

I get why people have reservations about the theory. But the debates to the contrary are usually just plain offensive. Or people trying to be respectful but being the opposite. There’s the obvious bad-apples . I got many anons after part 1 of my DID theory saying it “ruined/tainted byler”, and “if that happened to Will i’ll stop shipping byler” , or that it  “ruins the best gay character” ,  and to “remove the post immediately”. And this was when I was open about being a gay c*a victim. I obviously blocked them. Many survivors don’t come forward because they’re afraid people will see them as “tainted”, “ruined”, “ just their trauma”, or blame them for what happened. So yeah, it pisses me off when people say similar stuff about Will (and thus other c*a victims). Not even diving into the messed up psychology about byler/mileven shippers (knowing i was a lesbian c*a victim) but purposely spreading bs rumors about me being a p*do that was into Will/Noah-all because of the theory. -_-

Then there’s the people who try to be “respectful” but literally do the opposite.

I’ve heard numerous times it’s somehow “less offensive” to just use r*pe imagery to make monsters scary. Rather than have  the monsters have that imagery cause Will created the monsters from his memory/imagination-and st is a story of Will healing from that trauma. SORRY- I disagree. Using the worst experiences of peoples’ lives (and triggering their trauma) for no real purpose- except to make their monsters scarier to the normal/general audience who haven’t gone through it so won’t be triggered like us - is MORE OFFENSIVE to victims! NOT LESS! At least to me.

Then there’s the people who say “c*a should never be talked about (in stories).” Which I disagree with. V*ctims have already been told by ab*ser’s  and enablers of the ab*ser- to never talk about what happened to us  . So it rubs A LOT of us the wrong way when people say this.  Because (subconscious or not) you remind some of us of the people who used to hurt/silence us. People say this -simply for their convenience (like ab*sers) and cause deep down they’re uncomfortable with our existence and equate the despicable act to us the innocent v*ctim ...or just want to deny the horrible reality of the situation (like many enablers who deny the truth and hurt us because they don’t want to accept reality) . And 1) It brings us back to a time where they told us to NEVER talk about it- and makes us feel like we did something wrong when we didn’t! 2) Every psych professional says with-holding/keeping the ab*se a secret is detrimental to our mental health.

Plus, there’s a HUGE difference between sugarcoating/minimizing trauma or WORSE glamorizing, condoning, or romanticizing C*A in stories (ex: pretty little liars) VS showing how the action is wrong, causes trauma, but showing recovery and happiness is still possible for v*ctims.  if the story shows how accurately traumatizing it is (instead of minimizing/glamorizing it)- it’s incredibly rare for that character to get a happy ending. Having a story about recovering from that type of trauma and finding happiness despite such hardships would be amazing for US survivors! We rarely get stories with a happy ending-  it’s more harmful to us survivors to never see ourselves get happy endings in tv/film/books. How can some survivors (in a dark place) think there’s a light at the end of the tunnel- if it’s never shown?Also if Will has DID too- it’s good mental health rep, along with queer rep (and survivor’s rep.) All 3 groups rarely are treated well or get happy endings in media. A lot of people may feel more heard, seen, and a bit more hopeful for the future - If Will (and other characters) get a happy ending.

And even though st has many themes- like say homophobia. To try and hand-wave all the disturbing  r*pe imagery away  as ‘Will is just gay so the monsters are like that”. IS SOOOOOO offensive. Trigger warning for examples. I’m sorry what part of Max saying when Billy had c*nsensual s*x it’s “good screams” but when possessed by the mf he causes Heather to do “bad screams” read as gay???! Having the possessed ch*ke/dr*g people before throwing them in trunks (like it’s implied Lonnie did to Will -since Jonathan checked Lonnie’s trunk for Will in s1)?Tying their arms and legs up/ g*ging  them and  getting on top of them and saying “stay VERY still it’ll all be over soon”-before a monster shoves it’s tentacle into someone’s mouth and inserts a goo - just gay??? Similar to the sentient vine/shadow monster forcing itself down Will’s throat. Let alone Will saying things like “he made me do it”, “i felt it everywhere”, or being tied to a bed and screaming “help! stop! it hurts! let me go!” While Jonathan is the only one who’s visibly triggered by this and has to literally turn away and hug someone . Or barb, billy, and El spiting up a white liquid from their mouth (similar to will spitting up a slug and lying to his mother about it ).El/billy touching a suspicious looking slime with their hand and looking at the substance confused . El drawing Papa with 3 legs (the middle one being shorter) ,  trying to undress in front of the boys , and Benny saying “I think she’s been ab*sed or something”.The theme of ab*sive dads- brenner , Lonnie, and Neil . Even when the demogorgan (called in d&d the “deep father”/ in the show “a man without a face”) attacked Barb it’s chopped up with scenes of Nancy having c*nsensual sex (the monsters are doing the opposite symbolically). There’s way more examples but NO- to try and hand wave /equate ALL OF THIS to just “gay imagery” or an “a*ds metaphor” is WAY more problematic. And just offensive (specifically to gay people) than just admitting what it may actually represent. R*pe imagery and gay imagery is NOT THE SAME THING!

Also ST has never been a kid show- maybe rewatch the show and see the rating of tv-14 . Goodness sake- s1 has a st*ged su*icde, k*dnappings, m*rder, discussions of physics, h*mophobia, and s*x (with stancy in s1 & jancy in s2-s3). S2/3 discuss at their finalies recovering from tra*ma . S2 had gra*ic de*ths,  a man causing a women br*in damage/ and faking her m*scarriage, and a gang of vigalantes k*lling criminals. s3 had critiques on capitalism /media/s*xism, many d*eaths, and questionable imagery like the prior seasons. The Duffers constantly reference  movies & events from the 80s (capitalizing on 80s nostalgia /subverting 80s motifs that middle age people  from that time remember)! Those people were their intended age demographic . Most 80s centric refs go over most kids’ heads (heck a lot went over my head too since I wasn’t alive in the 80s XD).The Duffers even said in the book “worlds turned upsidedown”  “it’s not a kid’s show despite having kids”. And maybe it’s a coincidence but when Lucas in s3 hands Will the “devil’s baby” firework (a hint about Lonnie) he says “18 and over only.” Which idk is a weird/random af line unless it’s foreshadowing that the show will get darker about various themes- and maybe even change ratings.

I get people wishing nothing bad ever happened to Will or Jonathan. And being apprehensive and not trusting the Duffers to do such a story justice (cause it’s difficult to do). But personally i trust them to do so tastefully with tact and not be exp*itative, (overly gr*fic) or offensive to v*ctims. You can disagree and think the show is about something else (or not trust the Duffers)- but it’d be great if people could stop using these other messed up talking points. While trying to appear ‘(fake) woke’ and like they care for victims- cause we see through it that you really don’t.

Have a lovely day anon ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

Update- I just really agreed with and appreciate the tags in this reblog

[alinkbetweenportraits]

57, 52, 10, 3, 4

Mun-Directed Questions About Roleplaying!

3.) What’s something you like about how you write?

I can be the biggest fucking meme and literally nobody cares.

Honestly idk. I guess it’s fun to write Albie as a kid his age who makes dumb mistakes and learns from them. And these things aren’t always obvious even for me, an adult woman. When you reach that point in life where you really start to feel the consequences of your own actions, you learn fast that there’s a lot more grey area than you realize. You notice that people around you aren’t as perfect as you thought them to be, you’re more normal than you think, and that there’s no solution to a perfect world because nobody knows what the problems are in the first place. The best you can do is manage yourself and try what you can. Seeing Link try to come up with his own answers to his problems and grow as a character as a result really does feel like the both of us are on an adventure, if that makes any sense. And he’s actually matured a bit since I first started writing him. By much? Not really. But he’s making progress for sure.

4.) What’s something you dislike about how you write or wish you were better at?

A lot of things. A lot more than people realize. I repeat myself waaaaaaay too much. I make a ton of basic grammar mistakes because honestly I’m not very good at the English language despite it technically being my native tongue. I tend to be inconsistent and easily distracted by other things. Sometimes I’ll go into too much detail about nothing, sometimes I’ll forget to acknowledge an important thing in the RP, sometimes I do both at the same time. I’m not the best story teller and honestly I go with my gut most of the time. My vocabulary is very limited, and thanks to aspergers I tend to struggle with basic communication issues. My writing isn’t very intricate or ornate like a lot of RPers, it’s the bare minimum. It gets the job done, but not quite the way I’d like it to. 

10.) What’s the hardest thing for you to write?

Romance. God, it’s hard. It’s really hard. Especially when you’re a teen. Romance sucks when you’re a teen. I can’t begin to tell you how awkward it was for me as a kid. I’ve had plenty of crushes, but I was odd about it. I usually crushed on the unpopular kids as opposed to pretty boys. They were usually sweeter and I could talk to them about video games and stuff without getting looks. It was never about looks for me, just infatuation and wanting someone to accept me better than I could ever accept myself, especially at the time. It didn’t help that I was an ugly kid. But Albie’s different than me. For one, he doesn’t have both my terrible childhood and adult romantic relationship experiences. He’s good looking, popular, and doesn’t have social handicaps like I did. At the same time, Link isn’t an arrogant kid. At least not in that sense. Even with the cards in his favor, just like any other teenager, he’s got his own insecurities, and it doesn’t help that the standards are higher than ever. Factor in the fact that boys are generally expected to be tough and emotionless as a whole and basically I had to write the opposite of who I once was, but on a realistic level. Of course I’m sure I flopped in that date with @luciombre‘s Zelda, I can only do so much when I know so little about connecting with others like that. But I’m kinda glad people thought I did a good job and there were tons of people interested in reading it at the time. I couldn’t believe all the messages I was getting every time we posted. It kinda helped my confidence a bit.

52.)  What’s a trope or plot you think is overdone in roleplay?

There are so many things holy shit. I’ll start with a few off the top of my head.

Unexplained romances - God, I hate this I hate this I hate this. Unless this is a trait your character has and it’s addressed in a normal setting, I can’t stand underdeveloped relationships that burst into marriage and five kids. Isn’t a relationship supposed to be an adventure? Where’s the thrill of it all? The drama and the tension? Why go so vanilla? I’m pretty much asexual and even I know you have to do some foreplay before doing the interesting stuff.

Bland Cultures - I can’t believe this is a thing that has to be addressed and I might be stepping on toes with this one but I have to say it. Look, my issue isn’t writing other cultures that aren’t your own. If you’re a white RPer who wants to write about African cultures or vice versa, by all fucking means do so. I mean, I’m half Lebanese and I think it’s fun to see these Gerudo interpretations on my dash, imaginary or not. Some of you guys get super creative with it and I’m honestly impressed by it. But a lot of times I run into people who give me the same Hollywood harem bullshit or generic tribal setting or typical shitty medieval peasant village without putting much thought into it. But why be afraid? Why are you hesitating over your character’s setting? This kind of stuff accounts for a good 80% of what kind of character they are and you have to really think about it. Be bold. Look up different aspects from music, clothing, writing, language, religious beliefs, ect. Don’t be afraid to learn new things and experiment by adding your own unique interpretations. Ask questions and offer your most honest answers. It’s not offensive, it’s part of writing and world building. So long as you understand the source material and its significance instead of putting it in for ””””Asthetic”””” I personally think it’s no big deal.

“But Clara if you’re Lebanese then aren’t you offended by the Gerudo race and how Nintendo has portrayed them in Ocarina of Time?”

The Gerudos don’t fucking exist there’s other religions in the Middle East besides Islam Lebanon doesn’t have a desert and ask anyone from the area about this and not a single sane person will care. 

Source: my passport 

Villains that aren’t evil - Or at least without a good explanation. Like come on, where’s the fun in that. It’s one thing if it’s an AU or a Magic Anon or something, but dammit don’t give my character cake. Punch his ugly face in and let’s rumble. I can’t believe some of you people out there are bashing on RPers for playing their characters as problematic in any way like they’re supposed to be. I don’t expect us all to bake pies together every RP. Put ‘em up and fight me, dammit!

Heroes that are suddenly evil - Yeah this one is similar to the above one. This one kinda sucks too because like we never get a real good reason as to why they turned evil either. People don’t understand that while it’s not impossible, it’s really fucking difficult to completely 180 someone else’s morals without at least one really, really bad day. The whole “You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become a villain” thing only works with enough development.

Anyways I’ll stop before I really piss off some people. Bottom line I can be an opinionated shit.

57.) What was your first roleplay character?

I absolutely refuse to let anyone see anything I wrote before 2015 and for good reason