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scribblingface · 8 days ago

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it feels like there's no way to talk about it that doesn't sound stupid and melodramatic but it's fucking me up so bad to lose my seasons. this is about the fourth or fifth year in a row of atypical weather, but this year instead of being unpredictable it was just consistently predictably hotter in every single month. this november we've been getting october weather. in october it was like late summer. in late summer it was like it was still july. in july it was so bad I hardly left the house. like it feels like someone I know died. it feels like even the things in life that should be consistent and reliable, the aspects of the natural world far bigger than myself, are just shifting sand under my feet

#like I still remember years ago when it was a comfort in any times of personal trouble to be like #at least I've always got these immutable things to rely on. I can always count on beautiful cool october days with bright leaves #I can always count on one season following the next bringing me the same things each year #I can rely on the same seasonal foods and my december snow and the deep unbroken peaceful cold of january #and now that's just not true anymore #it might never be predictable and consistent over the longterm again in my life #it certainly won't be what I grew up with #it's so unfair I want to explode everything #me posting

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