#it masterfully recreates this problem for me in regards to everything i am involved in ever.

[lycheecreature]

ok listen it's like. i'm well past expecting to be "popular" in any real sense, and i don't intend to make content i don't genuinely care for just for the sake of marketability or whatever. but i mean i still have like. some longing. that it will turn out people just enjoy my work because its fun or well-made or whateverrr. so the problem is if i can't make a place for myself in a community my brain says "well this is because youre cringe and bad actually. and you should be ashamed and embarrassed." but the actual reason i can't build a larger community is probably because i have fucking awful charisma and didn't start developing actual social skills until i was what, like, 17?? i can be ok with that reality, but if my art is genuinely bad then what am i even doing here. anyways uhhhh sorry if i ever come across as strange and unpleasant?? because i often fear that's the case but i genuinely cannot tell at all because of the autism i guess :|