#it look sooooo good in the dark sooooo very summer

[breakbleheavens]

And I scream, "For whatever it's worth I love you, ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?"

CRUEL SUMMER The Eras Tour — Paris, France (Night 1) | May 9, 2024

[saintblk]

*ೃ— INDULGENCE | ROY HARPER + KALDUR’AHM

warnings: foul language, drug and alcohol use, mfm intercourse, dubcon (reader is drunk + nonconsensual creampie), threesome, p in v, double penetration, manipulation of you squint, unprotected sex (use protection pls!), overstimulation, multiple orgasms, use of pet names (all gender neutral), roy x kaldur (established relationship), college au — gender neutral afab reader, considered to be black + thick

word count: 3.9k

note: RAH ITS FINALLY OUT. i been wanting to finish this for sooooo long:0 if there are any pronouns please don’t hesitate to let me know ! i proofread like three times but there is a chance that i may have missed something. lmk what you think! i might do a poly drabble/series if ppl really like it🙈i think this was more for me than anyone else but enjoy;3

had to repost cause it wouldn't show up in tags the first time:(

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YOU WERE OUT of your element — that much you knew. in your three years of college, never had you been invited to a frat party and it seemed convincing yourself you weren’t missing out on much finally paid off. because you truly could not see the appeal of the environment before you. it was hot–no, humid. the entire house stunk of sweat, alcohol, weed, and something else you couldn’t quite put your finger on. the air was charged with hormones and filled with so much smoke you weren’t sure how there was enough oxygen. not to mention, the amount of times you nearly threw caution to the wind to fight the third guy who used the tight space as a reason to grope you.

it had to be a lie when people talked about how fun and crazy a party was. a ruse to rope other people in to make a big house feel like a small, stuffy room. the reason for your attendance that night and your very best friend was donning a screwface that went quite well with her dark red dress as her gaze stayed attached to the man who’d invited her. he had one hand wrapped around a bottle of beer, and the other around the neck of the girl he was sucking face with.

“i told you, he’s not serious about you.” you tried to reason with her over the loud music. “let’s just split and you can forget about him-”

“fuck that. i’m gonna stay and show him exactly what he’s missing out on,” she decided before eyeing the crowd of people. “you can chill, grab a drink or something.”

rolling your eyes, you make your way to the drink table and find mini bottles of tequila. packing several of the untouched bottles into your shoulder bag, you make your way to the more quiet, mellow staircase. finals had just ended; a reason for this raucous soiree, though you much rather spend the night and every night over the summer break locked up in your room, binging trash reality tv shows. you supposed you couldn’t expect everyone to be like you, to not want to spend their night trying to get around multiple people all standing in the same hot room, acting on impulsive desires and liquid courage.

you blew a raspberry and scanned the room once again, catching sight of your friend grinding on a man you hadn’t seen before, and you were sure she hadn’t either. certain you were going to have to keep an eye on her so she didn’t get into anything potentially dangerous, you leaned your head against the nearest wall and got comfortable. eventually, you’re joined by a couple who decided the steps behind you were as good as the privacy of a bedroom. you could hear the man whispering empty promises to his female companion. how he was serious about her and only her, with each one of her complaints shushed so he could continue his inebriated ramblings. after downing three shots and placing the empty bottles on the floor beside you, escape came in the form of the 6’3 hunk who happened to be in your poli-sci class. kaldur’ahm smiled warmly at you, taking note of the exhausted look on your face.

“are you enjoying yourself?” he asks anyway, standing in front of you so as to not block the staircase.

with a scoff, you look down at your perfectly manicured toes in a pair of heels you couldn’t help but think were being wasted on this event. it wasn’t as though you could ever look kaldur in the eyes anyway. kind soul that he was, he still managed to intimidate you with his build and height, and the only time you could appreciate his god-given looks were from afar when he wasn’t looking at you.

“i’d literally rather be anywhere else…” you drawl while fishing another nip of tequila out of your bag.

though you can’t see it, too busy avoiding his gaze, he feels bad. despite living in the very house, he could never really keep his friends from throwing insanely wild parties that always ran too long.

“would you like to join me upstairs? roy thinks it’s quieter there but i don’t think there’s a difference.”

a smile comes over your face, and without meaning to, you let your eyes flick up towards his. when he offers his hand you don’t see a reason why you shouldn’t take it until you catch sight of your friend, pressed up against the guy she was so ready to swear off not even an hour earlier. you open your mouth to argue that you should keep an eye on her only for her attention to shift for a moment towards you. the thumbs up she gives you is encouragement enough, and you keep yourself from rolling your eyes when you place your hand in kaldur’s.

he guides you through the bodies littered up the staircase and standing around the rooms none of the guests were allowed to go in. his skin is warm and surprisingly soft and you inwardly swoon when he squeezes your hand. you find that the once booming music becomes a low thump on the walls, matching the bass when he leads you into his room. still loud, but not enough to egg on the headache plaguing you. sure enough, roy greets you with one of his lopsided smirks while he busies himself with rolling a fat blunt. the involuntarily bashful smile you respond with reminds him of the reason why you’re really there and why kaldur had gone downstairs in the first place.

“hey pretty,” he greets with a quick once over of your figure. “you look like you been drinkin’.”

you shake your head and fiddle with your fingers, anxious under his gaze while he lights his blunt. “m-mm, i’m fine.”

“do you have to smoke in here?” kaldur griped as he approached the redhead.

“what, you gonna be mean to me in front of company?” roy shot back smoothly. “i’ll even let you take the first hit since you clearly need to relax.”

kaldur waves him off and bats away the hand that reaches towards his waist as he walks towards the couch on the other end of the room. you take the seat beside him and take out your phone to let your friend know where you are and to call when she’s ready to leave.

“be careful,” you hear roy warn. “kal gets pouty when he’s tired.”

“i’m not tired and i don’t get pouty,” he bites out much to your amusement.

“no? you weren’t just being fussy about wanting me to get ready for bed?”

fed up, kaldur simply sinks in his seat and crosses his arms over his chest. while thinking about how adorable their dynamic was, you notice roy’s gaze lingering on you again. it was no secret that he was just as attractive as kaldur and when the fact began dawning on you is when you began reconsidering your presence in their bedroom.

“you don’t look too happy yourself.” he gets up and plops down on the other side of you. “what’s got you down, sugar?”

your lips twist as you recount your night up until then. somehow, you suppose under the influence of alcohol, you don’t seem to notice or care how close the two men have gotten. roy’s arm found its way on the back of the couch and kaldur was sitting close enough for his knees to be knocking against your own. the cannabis from roy and the sweet vanilla just barely filling your nose from kaldur give you a heady feeling, the mixture of their scents nearly as intoxicating as the liquor in your system. somehow it’s just as hot as it was downstairs and your heart is starting to thump erratically in your chest.

“your friend is an asshole-”

“don’t say that.” you chide just before emptying another bottle. “she just really likes this guy.”

“she abandoned you,” kaldur joins.

at the thought, your shoulders slump and your eyes get just a little glazed. with a maudlin mind, you can’t help but consider their words ringing true. did she really care about you? about the fact that you were extremely uncomfortable at parties? social butterfly that she was, couldn’t she have taken one of her other, far outgoing friends? you sniffle a little, overemotional and perhaps a lot more drunk than you thought you were. but they’re both there to place strong hands on your thighs in consolation; squeezing and rubbing maybe a little too close to your hips, you’re too far gone to care. perhaps part of you knew what they were up to, how sleazy they both really were. but to have been wanted by two very hot guys at the same time was a bit uplifting in the moment. you turn to roy first who moves your braids back over your shoulder.

“y’know, we can make you feel better.” he husks and caresses your cheek.

you can feel kaldur’s breath fanning against your ear now as he hums an agreement. it sends goosebumps down your arms and an insatiable fire up your spine. a soft, breathy moan slips past you, encouraging him to press his lips against your throat and draw out more of your saccharine sounds. the upturn of roy’s lips against the corner of your own is what makes you close your eyes in anticipation. your eyebrows are furrowed and your hand is clutching desperately to his shirt, he’s sure there’ll be strains and wrinkles on the fabric. but he thinks it’s all worth it to see you practically on the edge of tears for a single kiss. when he finally does kiss you, it’s a quick, soft peck that forces a whine to erupt from you.

kaldur rolls his eyes at the sight, “stop toying with her. give her what she wants.”

“nuh-uh,” he snickers. “not until she asks for it. tell me what you want, y/n.”

“w-want you to kiss me,” you gasp when he nips at your jawline teasingly. “plea-please, roy.”

“so well-mannered,” he hums sarcastically. “think you should be rewarded for that?”

you nod frantically, just as he wraps a hand around your throat. you watch him wet his lips, following the movement of his tongue before he starts to pull you closer. roy kisses you once, then again, and finally presses the fervent kiss you so richly deserve on your waiting lips. you moan approvingly as you lean into him. all the while, kaldur’s exploring hands dance towards the jewel between your thighs. unconsciously, you spread your legs further and further until he has his hand up your dress, palm pressed up against and cupping your heated center. your moans are muffled through roy’s mouth, as you buck your hips to feel something, anything.

“so needy…i’m willing to bet you haven’t been touched in so long.” kaldur husks, slipping a finger past your damp panties to rub your throbbing clit.

a choked mewl fills the room as delirium begins to seep into your brain. he lets you grind against his fingers, frenzied and fiending for release. roy pulls away from your lips in time for kaldur to slide two fingers into your sopping cunt. the both of them relish in the sounds they’re drawing out from you while they work on marking up your neck. your senses go into overload when another set of fingers begin rubbing on your clit again. between the tongues dancing on the skin of your neck, clashing with one another every so often, and the assault on your lower lips, you’re being driven crazy by the two men.

your climax arrives like a wave crashing against your body, incapacitating you and forcing your every thought to be nothing but fuzz and static. the party has long since flitted from your worries; it’s simply you and two people who want you more than anything in that moment. the garble of nonsense you spew makes roy chuckle as he plants hot kisses up your jaw. kaldur is still going with slower strokes despite the way you burst on his fingers.

“look at the mess you made,” he breaths and pulls his fingers into your view. they’re coated in your essence, though neither of them seem to mind when roy tugs his hand towards his mouth.

you watch with glossed eyes, filled with arousal as he licks kaldur’s fingers clean. the lewd act has you clenching your thighs together to sooth the returning ache between them, only garnering kaldur’s attention once again. with a hum, he cups your chin with the hand covered in a light sheen of saliva and turns you towards him.

“was that not enough?” he inquires, gazing deep into your eyes and you can’t find it in you to look away. “do you want more, angel?”

all you can do is nod before leaning up for a kiss. his lips are soft and sweet and make you feel like you’re floating in the air. while kaldur’s tongue delves into your mouth, roy is helping shift you on the couch. you let them move your body as though you were nothing but their plaything, and soon enough you’re seated in kaldur’s lap with your back pressed against his broad chest and your legs spread. with your head twisted to continue locking lips with him, you don’t notice roy kneel on the floor in front of you until his hands come in contact with your thighs again.

simultaneously, kaldur’s hands flit from your waist up to your chest. tugging the straps of your dress down and allowing it to pool at your waist, he cups both your braless mounds and begins to massage them. your panties are removed next, abandoned somewhere behind roy. both you and kaldur pull away to watch roy press hot, open mouth kisses on his way up to your pearl. his hair tickles the skin near your knee but that’s soon forgotten when his lips come in contact with your labia. your mouth falls open with a sharp gasp, and for a moment roy considers drawing this out. but just the sight of you, in his boyfriend’s arms, pretty, and waiting and so very patient, he doesn’t think he could deny you of what you want any longer.

his tongue laps vigorously at your clit, only moving down to fuck your hole every so often. he groans at the taste of you, determined to make you cum again so he could share the taste with kaldur. your mind struggles to focus between the pair’s actions, only to allow pleasure to take over and blanket your senses. while roy indulges in your soaking cunt, kaldur pulls your head back so take your lips into his own.

you moan into his mouth with each of roy’s actions but kaldur doesn’t mind. he swallows your lewd noises, snaking his tongue past your teeth and seeking out your own pink muscle. calloused fingers tweak and twist your nipples before one hand begins to slide downwards. with your ankles locked behind roy’s head, the ginger struggled to feast the way he intended to. that was the case until kaldur spread your pussy lips for him, giving him full access to every part of you.

when your second climax approached, roy didn’t bother slowing down. he nipped and sucked on your clit relentlessly, watching with gleaming eyes as you were overcome with an earth shattering orgasm. you shook and thrashed in kaldur’s arms, whining as roy continued to abuse your overstimulated parts.

only when he needed to breath did roy come up from between your thighs. reaching up past you, he cupped the back of kaldur’s head and pulled him down. you watched hazily as the two met for a sloppy kiss. the taste of you on roy’s tongue found its way onto kaldur’s taste buds. he groaned, deep and low before delving his tongue into roy’s mouth.

“taste so good,” kaldur mumbled before pressing a kiss to your shoulder.

“think you’re ready for more?” roy inquired as he gets up and rids himself of the white marina he’s wearing. you nod dazedly much to his disappointment. “use your words, pretty.”

“yes, wan’ more.” you blurt, “please gimme more.”

kaldur leans into your ear, lips brushing against the cartilage. “get on your hands and knees, angel.”

you do as he says without hesitation. before long you find yourself looking up at an equally naked kaldur while roy, who also stripped himself of the rest of his clothes, inspected your backside. a wad of spit fell from his mouth onto your swollen sex and his hand followed to spread his saliva. just as a moan fell from your mouth, you felt something prod against your bottom lip. looking up, you noticed kaldur easing his girth into your mouth. quickly, you began to suckle on his tip before he continued pushing into your mouth. he filled every crevice, pushing past your uvula and hitting the back of your throat.

“you can take us both, can’t you?” he asks, so soft you can’t bring yourself to do anything but hum an agreement.

as if on cue, roy’s thick mushroom head eased it’s way into your cunt. he parted your gummy walls, suppressing the noises building up in the back of his throat. your walls were quivering and warm and sucked him in like you wanted him to stay inside you forever.

“fuck…” he grunted, eyes closed and eyebrows furrowed. “f-fuck baby you’re so tigh-tight.”

incapable of replying, all you could do was let your eyes roll back and take both men. ecstasy enveloped all three of you, encouraging you to chase the high you all desperately craved.

so when roy’s hips began to stutter and his movements slowed down, you took it upon yourself to fuck him back. it only proved to help when kaldur found purchase on your braids and began thrusting into your mouth. the recoil from his movements were strong enough to help you send your backside into roy’s hips.

“bein’ so good.” kaldur grunted over you only to pull himself out of your mouth. “but i need you to look at me, angel.”

while he slapped himself against your lips, you managed to drag your eyes back up at him. the pleased hum he let out only sent you further into an oblivion you didn’t want to find your way out of. the simple thought of being able to satisfy both men seemed to take you to rapture and beyond.

with kaldur in your throat, all that told of your orgasm was the garbled noises you made around him and the way you clasped around roy. he groaned as you gushed around him, soaking the both of your thighs and the couch underneath you.

“already?” he snarked, pulling out as kaldur’s movements slowed. “what d’ya think kal — should we give y/n a break?”

“not yet; not until i get to be inside them.”

sea green eyes bore into your’s, making the depth of your abdomen twist with need. the hand that held your braids slid down to caress your face and ran a thumb over your bottom lip.

“you’ll let me do that, won’t you angel?”

an eager nod soon has you trapped between two large bodies, incapable of remembering what exactly led up to this. with kaldur below you, holding your legs open, he pushed into you until he was bottoming out. roy, who stood before you, took a step closer and placed his tip against kaldur’s shaft. the red headed man slowly worked himself into you.

“w-wait, i can’t–” you squealed once it dawned on you what roy was attempting, and proceeded, to do. “s’too much!”

“‘course you can, baby.” he grinned down at you. “y’said you could.”

the stretch came with a slight burn since your body had never experienced any of this before. your innocence was what previously kept you from indulging in desire, and what now allowed you to welcome it all the same.

you could barely breath as they lay inside you, granting you the chance to get used to the feeling. surprisingly, disregarding all the patience he possessed, kaldur was the first to move. with an unrelenting grip on your thick thighs, he thrust upwards, eliciting a groan from roy and a gasp from you. roy was quickly following suit, he and kaldur both eager to please you and one another.

you were soon reduced to a mess of nonsensical noises and high pitched whines. every touch sent a wave of heat through your body; it was too much and not enough all at once. sweet release came and left and came again, but it did not stop both men from fucking you like they were possessed. in that moment you were nothing but an object to them; a hole for them to use that happened to have a pretty face. and you were treated as such.

you had past the point of fucked dumb, incapable of doing anything but wailing from the growing intensity of every orgasm that followed. tears danced down your cheeks and attempting to form the simplest thought was fruitless. all that remained in your mind was the everlasting feeling of lust and gratification.

trapped in hedonism, both your companions increased their relentless pace. each of them were far too occupied chasing their own highs to worry about you. roy, who had wrapped a hand around your neck, kept his eyes closed as he approached release. meanwhile, kaldur nipped and sucked on your neck while thrusting into you from below. his grunts and deep groans reverberated against your skin, eventually filling your head along with roy’s guttural sounds.

“taking us so well,” kaldur praised in your ear. “ we should keep you around, huh? you want that angel?”

after receiving nothing but whines and moans in response, kaldur canted his hips and ground himself up into you. you shrieked in ecstasy, gushing around both men for the nth time. the only difference however was the feeling of roy pulsing against both you and kaldur.

the latter shifted his attention to the red head, “make them ours roy. cum in–”

your protests cut him off and came in the form of incomprehensible babbles that made it all the more easier to ignore. leaking from his tip, roy thrust inside once more and emptied his load inside you. kaldur was prompted to do the same, biting down on the nape of your neck as he finished off with one final stroke.

even when they pulled out, you still felt filled to the brim. the cum slowly seeping out of you was testament to that feeling. the two men who had just finished rearranging your insides stood over you, looking down at their work. their sexual magnum opus lay on their couch, breathing heavily and still attempting to come down from several orgasms.

kaldur took it upon himself to get you cleaned up and into some fresh clothes while roy returned to smoking his blunt.

“should we drive them home?” he inquired, watching kaldur gently wipe the tears off your face. “or were you serious about keeping them around?”

“have you ever known me to joke about anything, roy?”

chuckling, roy took one final drag from his blunt and proceeded to join them in bed after putting it out. you soon find yourself pressed between their bodies once more. this time it’s in an embrace that warms your aching muscles as you surrender to lethargy.

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[fandomzwriterk]

Can you do a sfw (or NSFW if you want) if Smoke and reader having an argument and Smoke tries to make things right with the reader?

A/N: oh absolutely I will! Also mentions of JohnShi and RaiLao!! (We stan MK1 ships here)

Warnings: pretty much chill except a few harsh words

A Little Smokey

Tomas, you, Hanzo, Kuai Liang, and Harumi were spending the hot summer afternoon on the training floor of the building, as it was the only room with no walls and a roof over with shade. Kuai wasn’t having it, being that he was burning both on the outside and on the inside. Tomas was dying from the heat as well, both him and Hanzo on the other side of the room to stay away from Kuai’s heat. This was bad even for you, and having Bi Han around would make it easier but sadly no, he’d gone rouge and left you all behind to work with Shang Tsung. The heat was bad today, the five of you practically out of commission for today. Even Liu Kang wasn’t having fun either, he and Geras were burning up too.

“What I would give to find a giant pool of water right now.” You spoke out loud

“Yeah I’d feel so much better and not like I’m burning inside.” Kuai added

“Hold on I have an idea!” You hear Raiden say from a distance away

“What is it?” Tomas asked

“Let’s go ask Johnny if we can use his pool! He’s always saying we can use it since he’s almost always never around.”

“Fuck it I’m in.” You answered sitting up speed walking to Raiden and Kung Lao

“Me too.” Kaui added as he got up and sprinted over with Harumi behind him

“Alright fuck it we need an off day.” Tomas replied

And sooooo…

It took a little time to get to Johnny’s place, with the group also trying to see if Kenshi wanted to go as well. Unfortunately they couldn’t find him, so they resorted to going anyways.

“Ah yes finally free cooling!” You cheered as you, Kung Lao, Raiden, and Tomas went running through the door and into Johnny’s open door

“Oh hey guys I heard you-“

You four didn’t get far, crashing into someone a little ways into the house and falling to the floor. You fell on Tomas while Raiden and Kung Lao rolled to the side but right on top of each other. To your surprise, it was Kenshi, swearing a pair of white swim trunks patterned with pineapples, no shirt while having dark sunglasses covering his eyes.

“Kenshi” You shouted

You shot up from Tomas’ grip, going to hug Kenshi since it’s been awhile since you two interacted at all.

“Hello Y/n it’s good to see you too. I see you brought the whole team.”

He gently elbowed your side, noticing he was looking in the direction of who was at the door.

“So let me guess… it’s Raiden, Kung Lao, Y/n, Tomas, Kuai, Harumi, and Lord Liu Kang.”

“Good guess my friend you know us all too well.” Kuai responded back to Kenshi

It took a few minutes for everyone to get their clothes off, most of the boys just walking around shirtless with some sort of shorts on. You could see Harumi gawking at her husband Kuai, and you felt the same about another brother of the Shirai Ryu.

“Hey Y/n come on! You’re so slow!” Kung Lao shouted

“Cannonball!” Both you and Raiden shouted as you both ran to the edge of the pool before jumping in

“Incoming!” Johnny shouted as him, Kenshi, and Hanzo jumped right on top of you both

Almost everyone was in, except Harumi, Kuai, and Tomas. You couldn’t see what they were doing very well or hear what they were saying but it seemed like Tomas was nervous and asking a question. What you didn’t know at all was that Tomas was asking questions, about you.

“Just go to her and say ‘I like you’ to Y/n. That’s all you gotta do!”

“But-“

“Your brother is right Tomas you just have to say those three words to her and she’ll fall on her knees for you.”

“And what makes you so sure she will?”

“Just trust us.”

And so Tomas bid Kuai and his wife a quick farewell before slowly walking to the edge of the pool, quickly spotting you in the middle with Raiden, Kung Lao, Johnny, and Kenshi around you like they were fawning over you. It made him frustrated, after all he did like you but it was a pain to deal with four different guys at your feet as well.

“Y/n!” He shouted

You quickly looked behind you, spotting the handsome assassin looking right at you from outside the pool. You quickly swam over and pulled yourself out of the pool, standing in front of the grey haired man you admired.

“Can we talk over there?” He asked pointing to an open area behind him a few feet away

“Sure!”

You followed him to the spot, your eyes drifting to his ripped chest and bulky arms. He was attractive, and your eyes couldn’t stop staring at all of him. However, his attitude quickly turned when you didn’t expect it too.

“What are you doing with those four?” He grumbled

“They’re my friends Tomas I like talking to them and joking around with them.”

“Well I don’t.”

Where was this coming from? You’ve never known Tomas Vrbada to have clashing personalities with anyone else in the Shirai Ryu… well except Johnny. Yes he was Tomas’ favorite actor and Johnny’s even asked Tomas to star in things with him, but there are times where Johnny oversteps like he did before with Kitana and her sister Mileena some odd months ago.

“So?”

“So? I know for a fact Johnny and Kung Lao will try for any girl within ten feet of them, while Kenshi and Raiden will get to you slowly, hoping you slip one day.”

“And we’re just friends! What wrong with that?”

Now you were confused and annoyed, you’ve always been friendly with the champions of Earthrealm long before you realized you’d have feelings for Tomas. Were those feelings a lie now? This wasn’t normal of Tomas, to be angry and annoyed with someone.

“What’s wrong with it? Y/n the four of them like you why else would they always be around you?!”

“For your information Tomas they don’t. I know that for a fact, and there’s no reason to speculate it. Why are you mad about it? You know I don’t like them either! I like you!”

Before Tomas could even react, you started to turn and walk away.

“Wait Y/n!”

Tomas shot an arm out, holding onto your wrist as you both stared at each other.

“You like me?” Tomas asked

Oops. You didn’t mean to say that out loud.

“Yeah?”

“I-I thought that-“

“Tomas how blind are you?”

“What?”

He let you go, and you smacked yourself in the face with your hand. Oh so Tomas wasn’t as observant to other relationships as well as he said he was.

“Tomas… oh my god.”

“What? What’d I do?!”

“You are so clueless.”

“To what? What’d I miss? Clearly they like being near you cause you’re a girl!”

How were you gonna say this since Tomas’ perception of a “relationship” was a boy and girl… but that was not the case with the four guys you were both talking about.

“Tomas… Kenshi is in a relationship with Johnny and Raiden is with Kung Lao.”

The weight of his own stupid assumptions hit Tomas in the face. Well, there went his bragging rights of saying he knows everyone and everything about everyone there.

“Okay… I see… my bad.” He answered covering his face with his hands

Poor Tomas had just been hit with the classic “the four guys are gay and the girl is actually not any of their crushes”.

“I am so dumb aren’t I?”

“Yes you are Tommy.”

“H-Hey! Don’t call me that in front of others!”

You just laughed, even though you felt a little hurt at Tomas’ blind views of how you felt about him and your friends.

“How can I ever repay you back?” Tomas asked moving his hands away from his face

“You don’t have to Tomas. Just know it’s always you.”

He smiled, feeling heat in his cheeks as you went and grabbed both of his hands in yours.

“I feel bad and I want to fix what I said.”

“You don’t have to. We both messed up in this situation, I should’ve told you a while ago when the boys came out of the closet.”

Tomas held back a laugh. You felt better knowing you made Tomas smile and laugh, forgetting about your small disagreement from earlier. You didn’t regret telling Tomas your feelings, not one bit.

“Ready to cool off?”

Tomas held your hand in his, taking a step past you to bring you both back to the others. You heard someone go “called it” and someone else add “Johnny” in the crowd of your friends. Kuai Liang and Harumi were smiling at you, Kuai holding in what seemed like a perfect joke.

“About time brother.”

“I hope it went well?”

“It went just perfectly.” You joked

And so Tomas and yourself walked over to the edge of the pool, right before Tomas grabbed your waist and jumped in with you. You could feel his grip on you even under the water, you knew he wasn’t ever going to let you go. You both came up for air, Tomas shaking his head to get the water out of his short grey hair, while you pulled back your hair. He treaded water next to you, smiling as his grip got a little lighter. His smile was wide, quickly looking to the four boys mentioned earlier and sighing.

“I like you.”

“I like you too.”

The end…

[what-gs-watching]

"I'm just a boy in a neon suit, standing in front of a girl, reminding her that Notting Hill is her favorite movie."

GANG. I went to see The Fall Guy and it was SO. FREAKIN’. GOOD. Like, sooooo good.

I have to admit, I’ve been a bit disillusioned with movies for the past few years. The industry has changed and like, really, do we need so many fucking movies about APES? Apes? For real? I do not understand why they’re making like 90% of the shit they’re making and I used to love to go and see absolutely everything and I haven’t felt that way in a while. 

Y’all,in the summer of 2008, there was Ironman, Dark Knight, and Pineapple Express. That was the height for me. That was the last time I felt really tuned into what was going on at the movies. 

The Fall Guy reminds me a lot of that summer. It would have fit perfectly. I would have seen it at least three times, we would have wandered into showings a few minutes late because there was nothing else going on that day and we wanted to get out of the heat and just have a good time. It feels nostalgic, and I love that. 

Wherein, Ryan Gosling plays Colt, a stunt guy for a popular movie star, in love with Emily Blunt’s camera operator turned director Jody, who's trying to make her first movie, after Colt suffered a terrible injury on the job and basically disappeared.

I’m gonna be Stefan for a second - this movie has EVERYTHING! Car chases, adorable couple moments, a dog that bites people in the junk, karaoke, a dopeeee neon suit, explosions, a dead body, movie quotes, friendship, and, obviously, a shit ton of incredible stunts.

ALSO! Hannah Waddingham. Shout out to that gorgeous amazon woman for being charming as hell and also a ridiculous villain. Girl, you are on fire and I want to see you in literally everything.

But my favorite part? Jody explaining the plot of the movie she’s making while forcing Colt to perform a stunt that sets him on fire, over and over, in front of the entire crew. Obviously, the movie plot has parallels to their brief affair, and she’s calling him out on abandoning her so very publicly, hiding her hurt behind the details of her movie couple, Aliena and Space Cowboy (which, LOL). And he takes it on the chin, and he tries to answer her as honestly as possible in between takes, burning and thrown against a wall. It’s funny and a little bit cathartic and a little bit sad.

Once she finally decides he’s down with the stunt, he climbs into a truck to leave and the radio starts blaring Taylor Swift’s “All Too Well”. He starts singing along and remembering their time together and ya boy starts to cry but is then interrupted by Jody asking “are you crying to Taylor Swift?” and the whole thing was absolute perfection. They had me in the palm of their hands, after that. 

And that’s like, pretty close to the start. The rest of it is madcap and fun and Ryan Gosling really is a fucking powerhouse. He’s Noah from The Notebook, he’s Ken, he’s a fucking mouseketeer and he’s always so, so, so, so good. The man is a national treasure. I will follow wherever he goes because it’s always wonderfully entertaining.

It’s really just two hours of the perfect movie going experience. And the confusing thing is, it seems like the studio didn’t realize what they had? I remember the first time I saw a preview for it, it was supposed to come out in March which is when you dump out tepid movies no one’s really dying for. But then they moved the release to May which made more sense, summer movie season, but man they are not touting this movie the way they should. 

It’s universally appealing! The chemistry between Colt and Jody! The full on absolutely crazy action sequences! The banter! 

It’s an incredible summer movie. And it put me in a great mood. I need more of that in my life, and I bet y’all do too. Maybe I’ll go again, and pretend I’m a youngin’ just looking for something to do for the afternoon, ignoring my terrible adult obligations. That’s what movies are for, and I’m glad The Fall Guy helped me remember that. 

Ryan Gosling, you wonder.

[seekforwarmth]

hello and welcome to the second fic rec of the year featuring works that i’ve read and loved during the past weeks. as always, please check tags before reading. if you liked the fics please reblog their posts, leave kudos and write a nice comment. happy reading! 🔒 = only for ao3 users rec tag | more rec lists

— harry/louis —  

໑ A Deal by @allwaswell16​ (T, 898, acquaintances, harry potter au, slytherin harry, gryffindor louis) absolutely amazing. it made me scream out loud and to want more from them in this universe but honestly, it’s perfect already as it is. a bit of flustered harry with confident louis to make your day brighter.

໑ I Like You Venti, Venti Much by Blinding_Lights  (G, 915, strangers to lovers, coffee shop au, valentine’s day) super sweet and lovely! i love how both of them were mesmerised by each other lol.

໑ forever&more by @forthetherapyy​ (G, 1k, established relationship, valentine’s day, long distance relationship, covid) absolutely gorgeous! their letters to each other were so sweet (please check out the author’s art for them!) and their love for each other was palpable even when they were not together. i read this on valentine’s day but i’m still sobbing abt it.

໑ Art Isn't Paint, It's Love by @faithinwalls369 (T, 2k, established relationship, valentine’s day, art exhibition) this was so beautifully written. the atmosphere was absolutely stunning and their love story was even greater.

໑ you could take a lick (but it's too cold to bite) by cinnamons / @sunbellylou​ (E, 2k, established relationship, pwp, summer) this was so hot that i even wanted an ice cream for myself even though i haven’t had one in years.

໑ I could be lucky by yourlionheartx / @djtommotomlinson​ (G, 3k, strangers to lovers, meet-cute valentine’s day) so sweet and funny! the end had me swooning. so, so lovely!

໑ I Choose You by @disgruntledkittenface​ (NR, 3.6k, established relationship, domestic fluff, tiredness after work) omg i read this on valentine’s day but i’m still thinking about it. it was sooooo freaking awesome! it’s like those fics where you don’t feel you’re reading abt made up characters but rather you’re looking through the window of their house and you’re seeing what they’re doing (respectfully though lol). this was amazing.

໑ 🔒 (your smile is) on every face by @justanothershadeofblue​ (T, 5k, strangers to lovers, famous/not famous au, meet cute) absolutely amazing! loved the characterisation and in general, Harry’s journey to become a Louis fan.

໑ Running Through A Cloud Of Steam by @allwaswell16​ (M, 5.7k, friends to lovers, soulmates au, body swap) a fun way to find who your soulmate is. and even though i knew what is going to happen, there were so many elements that made the fic to stand out for me, especially when it switched to Louis’ POV (but Harry’s was just as great!)

໑ Warm Chilling by @larryyouknow​ (G, 7.8k, strangers to lovers, countryside au) as i was reading i could feel the breeze in my face as if i was in the countryside, which honestly what a nice place it sounds. i liked the easy banter between Louis and Harry, and of course i loved all the animals. lovely reading, check it out!

໑ Kalopsia by delsicle / @eeveelou (M, 9k, established relationship, dark au, very very dark please read tags and author’s note) so well written and well thought. it’s very heavy so be careful if you don’t like dark aus but if you do, you’re gonna love this one. i’m planning on rereading this during halloween if not before bc it was really good.

໑ let me be your good night by @levelofcharm (E, 10.5k, strangers to lovers, valentine’s day, rich louis, waiter harry, read tags) i loved the characterisation here (especially Louis’), it was very close to my heart. and in general it was so good, so entertaining to read.

໑ Obsessive Love by Jennifer_Kaid / @poetsreprieve (E, 11k, strangers to lovers, prison au, dark harry, innocent louis) i felt like watching a series when i was reading this. i could read more abt this universe with no hesitation, it was amazing.

໑ kiss me in your chevrolet by cinnamons / @sunbellylou (E, 11k, established relationship, road trip au, read tags) ahhh this story was amazing. it tele-transported me to a new era completely. my heart ached for Louis but i loved how cherished he was by Harry, unconditionally. came for the smut, stayed for the feelings.  

໑ Souls; Plural, Parallel by LadyLondonderry / @londonfoginacup (T, 19.6k, strangers to lovers, soulmates au, one night stand, pregnant louis) such a cute concept and a extremely fun way to tell it. i fell in love with several things during my reading, especially how lovely Louis was towards Harry.

໑ lovin' online by @levelofcharm and @pleasing-louis (NR, 27k, established relationship, frat boys au, sex tapes) i loved every second of this. their relationship was so lovely and admirable, there are very sweet moments during the fic, but there’s also smut which was hot HOT so you’ll find a good mix here.

໑ he was sunshine, i was midnight rain by wildestdreams / @thelavendrhaze (E, 30.8k, exes to lovers, a/b/o regency au, artist harry) ahhh this one was angsty but so entertaining because of all the jealousy going on. tbh i thought it was shorter bc of how fast i read it.

໑ Maybe You'll Like the Way I Am by @lululawrence (NR, 55.8k, neighbours to lovers, a/b/o fake relationship au, medical conditions, read tags and author’s note) what a beautiful story, a must read for hurt/comfort lovers! it’s angsty but fun and romantic. it touches heavy topics but in a very natural way.

໑ Perfect Storm by @cherrystreet (E, 80k, exes to lovers, fake relationship, wedding, hawaii) i loved this fic so much! i love discovering old fics that feel timeless. the characterisation was on point and there were so many moments where i felt my heart squishing.

໑ nothing quite hits like you by @outropeace (E, 80.8k, enemies to lovers, a/b/o dark academy au, curses, read tags) this fic was quite the journey. i don’t know how else to explain it. if you’re into fantasy and genuine rivalry between Louis and Harry, you’re gonna love this one.

໑ Darling, so it goes by @disgruntledkittenface  (E, 195k, strangers to lovers, royalty au, grace kelly au, actor harry, prince louis) i learned so much with this fic! it was very entertaining and i could only put it down when it was strictly necessary but it didn’t feel as long as it is. i could read more abt the future of their family bc i’m sure they’d have the best anecdotes, especially as parents.

— rare pairs / categories —  

໑ Guitar Cutie by cherrylarry / @beelou (girl direction, niall/harry, G, 632, strangers to lovers, meet-cute) such a lovely and sweet story. a great story to get you in a good mood.

໑ Winds Blowing Westerly by @ladyaj-13 (niall/louis, G, 655, friends to lovers, canon compliant) definitely loved this one! it made me think of several scenarios that led them to that point. very cute!

໑ Melting into You by cherrylarry / @beelou (liam/zayn, T, 1k, established relationship, valentine’s day date) this was very cute! they make a wonderful family with their two little girls but it was so sweet to see them have a day for them.

໑ we're right here in this room by flicker_album / @niall-official (niall/shawn mendes, G, 2k, strangers to lovers, coffee shop au) very soft and sweet! a perfect meet cute with amazing setting and characterisation.

໑ a sudden desire by edensrose / @holdingthornsandroses (louis/agent whiskey, E, 2k, strangers to lovers, nurse louis, pwp) this was so hot and sexy! the summary says “save a horse, ride a cowboy” so you can imagine what happens and it’s perfect.

໑ Doc In My Box by @homosociallyyours (girl direction, E, 2.6k, established relationship, doctor harry, pwp) so intimate and sexy! i really loved the way the author captured the trust between the couple in subtle ways.

໑ count me in by @disgruntledkittenface (girl direction, zayn/harry, NR, 3k, established relationship, a/b/o au, proposal) this was so lovely and cute. it reminded me how important it is for people to give something that the giftee is going to really enjoy. and it was nice to see a glimpse of niall and louis’ life.

໑ when we're finished saying nothing by @disgruntledkittenface (girl direction, M, 3k, established relationship, a/b/o au, pre-rut) this story was inspired by “written all over your face” and the author did a terrific job. it has so many great a/b/o elements that really make sense with the story. absolutely amazing.

໑ reckless serenade by @thepolourryexpress (girl direction, E, 4k, established relationship (or is it?), college au) this was very cute and sexy! perfect for valentine’s day but also any other time of the year!

໑ feel my body come alive by eynap / @panye (niall/shawn mendes, E, 10k, established relationship, a/b/o au) absolutely lovely, sweet, and romantic. it’s the author’s first a/b/o but it was so natural.

໑ Blind Date by @ladyaj-13 (ot5, G, 14k, strangers to lovers, reality show au, model louis) this was very fun and entertaining. everyone’s personalities just clicked and it was great to see how on board they all were with the relationship.

[unwantedalien]

THE FAMILY

Today is the day. The day I met Kim Ji Sooks sons. So apparently he has SEVEN SONS NOT TWO OR THREE BUT SEVEN OF THEM.

Good lord, how does one man pay for all of them?

It has been a week since I've met Kim Ji Sook, and yesterday he wanted my permission if he could propose to my mother. For marriage. I did say I was fine with it, but I just wished he wouldn't propose to her at all. I know it's a selfish wish, but I don't want him in my life nor do I want his sons.

"Mi-Rae we're here"

I looked out of the window and blinked. Once then twice

"Omma is this a hotel?"

"yes, this is, it's one of the restaurants he owns, this is where we are meeting them".

"Oh my lord"

Omma simply smiled at me and got out of the car, and I followed behind.

"I have to take a picture of this"

I clicked a few pictures and sent them to Emi and Minhyun.

"They are going to be sooooo mad at me once they see them"

I kept my phone back in my pocket and followed my mom and Kim Ji Sook inside the grand hotel. I understood then why mom wanted me to wear something a bit nicer than a summer-vibes frock, I mean, if I knew it would be this GRAND, I would have definitely worn a suit and tie and match with the butlers.

As the three of us entered, there was a butler who asked for our name and some other stuff. I was too busy admiring the interiors of this hotel. This looked more like a palace than that of a hotel. A huge chandelier that looked silver and gold shimmering from the lights above hung from the ceiling. The ceiling itself looked grand somehow. The floors were a dark colour. A large red carpet was laid which lead visitors to various places in the hotel.

"Mi-Rae"

I turned towards omma, who had a soft smile on her face.

"Let's go"

I smiled back while telling her why I found this place pretty and why it should be a palace instead of a hotel.

We were led to a private dining room on the 3rd floor, the room was at a far corner. I looked around and realized that there weren't many people on this floor. Just a few janitors keeping this place clean and the security seemed really tight, like holy shit, I looked like I was entering a maximum security prison, are we going to get interrogated?

 'Welp I lived a good life, I should send a final goodbye message to my friends' I thought.

Kim Ji Sook stopped in front of the door and looked at us, "well" looked at me and said "meet my sons" and opened the door dramatically.

My eyes fell on one man. His eyes widen and stood up, pointing at me

"YOU!"

"Oops"

Well, this should be fun.

"Mi-Rae-ah do you know him?"

My mother was... surprised to say the least, I mean, I was too! 

"uhhhhhhhhhhhh by passing?"

"YOU MADE ME STEP ON DOG SHIT"

"That was her? lol servers you right for calling her stupid" 

He had a cute smile, with cute dimples, he looked maybe a year older than me, if not the name age.

On tree boy's other side, was a very, very handsome guy, he looked really familiar, and was meddling with his phone, not even looking at me.

"THOSE WERE BRAND-NEW SHOES, YOU BRAT"

Tree boy pointed at me again.

"You shouldn't point at people, and those were MY SHOES!"

The one next to sleepy boy said out loud, accusing tree boy of stealing his shoes.

"TAE YOU TOLD HIM?"

Ah, finally a name for handsome boy, Tae,

"You gave me an expired candy cane and a note that said please you expect me not to?"!

"That-THAT ISN'T THE PROBLEM! THAT GIRL MADE THEM DIRTY!"

This was a sight to see. 

A circle table, where Kim Ji Sook, and Omma had sat in their seats, and with me sitting right in front of tree boy. 

'Tae' was to my right, in other words, tree boys left, then sleepy boy, then the... guy with the cool band tee, and... another pretty boy, then a mature guy who I was sitting next to on the round table, next to me was omma, then Kim Ji Sook and... a cute guy, it was only tree boy who had the most similarities with Kim Ji Sook.

I would have spoken to one of them, but they kept talking over each other, fighting over... banana milk?

I looked at Kim Ji Sook with an 'are these really your sons?' Look. He just smiled at me and nodded before looking at the boys and saying.

"SHUT UP EVERYONE"

[chryzure-archive]

im sorry abt your surgery, ill be there in spirit to hold your hand if you need it <3 wishing you the best and hopefully its just a scare and nothing to worry too much abt!!

as for asks...

i always love your music taste so, 5 songs youve had on repeat lately that make you think of chryzure + chrysijacks? also, if they were each a pair of unlikely animal friends (ie, a pig and a monkey lol) which ones would they be? def feeling rabbit and cat for chryzure.

this question is a very self-indulgent one cus ive been going thru a huge superhero phase but, if they were superheroes which ones would they be? this could either be made-up or existing superheroes-- personally, i think chrysi would be an AMAZING black cat/felicia hardy, she has the white hair and the dark aesthetic to match it :3 i def think azure would be a mutant/x-men (no particular reason, it just seems to match him?) and jacks... well, jacks is just giving me deadpool energy. slutty antihero? i think yes. it'd be cool to know what kind of superhero abilities youd assign to them tho :33

thank you 🖤 please hold my other hand though, they’re cutting up my right one 🤧 hopefully there’s nothing to worry abt since my family has a history of the weirdness w/o the cancer..

chryzure songs:

so good right now // fall out boy (wanted the whole album to make me think of chrysigil, then it jst wound up being chryzure and chrysijacks coded…)

xyz // technoplanet (vv specific vibe, idk why, but instrumentals like this make me go crazy, go wild)

anicent history // the crane wives (teehee! in agony thinking abt them separated)

in my head // mike shinoda, kailee morgue ((bonus song, still alive // demi lovato because screamvi brainrot real….. jst saying the au goes wild!))

cartoon people // billie marten (the vibes themselves……)

chrysijacks songs (he’s more annoying):

chapstick // coin (sorry, juno…:(( sorry jacks ruined this for you)

summer // circadian clock, baethoven (biting him!)

blood in the cut // k.flay (sorry juno pt.2)

hold my like a grudge // fall out boy (part-time soulmate, full-time problem too real for chrysijacks…)

121U // day6 (I DONT WANT TO WANT YOU I DONT WANT TO LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!)

chryzure is kittybunny lovers all the time… they are doing this right now:

chrysijacks is kitty and fox… sorry, the legend of the archer and the fox is actually abt chrysijacks and chrysi’s the archer and jacks is the fox!! idk what was going on in the books, get ur facts right!

((more proof is that i had a chrysijacks song called the fox before the book came out + the lyrics imply jacks not wanting to be the fox and hunted down by the archer… explain this 🤨))

oh my god, i looked up black cat and you’re RIGHT, that’s sooo chrysi??? esp the probability thing… explains why azure’s gotten such bad luck over the years.

if i were to make chrysi her own superhero, hmmm….. i feel like she’d summon ghosts and stuff… ??????? idk, i’ve never thought abt it 🫢 i mean, the funniest option is totally that she can bring back the dead and summon ghosts and stuff, but she never fucking uses that in favor of bashing ppl’s heads in w a baseball bat. OH, wait, her fated abilities include causing fear and giving nightmares, so maybe i could do something like that!!! she can keep the ghost summoning thing if she wants. idk what name i’d give her. it’s so hard coming up w a good superhero name. nightmare is too basic + i’m sure there’s thousands of ppl w that superhero name 💀 oh well!

AZURE WOULD SOOOOO HAVE X-MEN VIBES. he gets to go to a special little mutant school and have like minded peers… little special princess boy 🙄 SOME people learned they inflict fear on ppl and had to deal with it ALONE, but it’s fine. it’s rlly okay.

his powers probably are jst spatial manipulation, but he’s good enough at it that it looks like it’s jst telekinesis… and also teleportation :) jst the idea of him tricking ppl he has one power when it’s actually another makes me go crazy, go wild!!! idk what his title would be either. this is HARD, how do comic book writers do it!!!

yes. jacks is a whore. fuck him. i want him dead in a ditch. his powers are making ppl love him and want to obey him? rlly? he gets everything handed to him on a platter???? killing him killing him killing him!!!! he’d be the villain that chrysi and azure have to take down first, but they get there and jacks is jst rlly lameand they’re like, “…….. okay, guess we’ll leave you alive….?” and now he’s a thorn in their side that doesn’t leave ://////

[merv606]

Mob Princeling!Daniel idea from your AU! What about an ABO take? 

So Omega!Daniel is the youngest/maybe only child of once powerful, now fading mob Boss (Cuba? lol) He reminds his BossDad very much of his deceased wife in looks and temperament, so much so that BossDad has pampered and cuddled him rather than raise another Boss. Daniel has been spoiled sweet - he loves nice things and is sassy (occasionally bratty) - but he’s a total sweetheart, kind, affectionate, and ridiculously pretty (think NINY!Daniel or Teddy!Daniel). 

So pretty that he’s caught more than just the eye of AlphaBoss!Terry of a rival mob (Irish of course!). Terry, under the guise of making peace between the feuding factions, requests Daniel’s hand or he will annihilate them all (he’ll save Daniel for himself though). BossDad agrees for the sake of uniting their mafia to become even stronger, and actually have a new Boss in Terry, and breaks Daniel’s heart when he barters him off to Terry - a man, an Alpha, Daniel doesn’t even know, and has only met once (strictly supervised of course). Daniel had been shy and skittish on that occasion when he saw Terry looking at him so intensely, and couldn’t understand why the scent in the air changed around him.

Daniel is barely of age and very frightened, especially on his wedding day where he learns how powerful and deadly his now husband really is. Might go a dark route and have his wedding night be absolutely horrible and Terry uncaring as long as (Terry) has what he desires, even though Daniel is broken by what happens (Terry puts him back together, but Daniel is never the same) Or Terry can be a gentleman Alpha and not consummate the marriage until Daniel falls for him as well - which won’t take long because stubborn and clueless as Daniel is, they have certainly scentbonded and Terry knows it’s a true match with the little omega. 

Either way, Daniel makes the best of his situation and Terry falls even harder for him, and dislikes when the little omega is not nearby.  Also: Daniel can cook really well in this AU and he wins Terry’s cronies over by his amazing kitchen skills. He also cooks when flustered and annoyed - which is often, thanks to his new husband. Terry considers himself a very lucky Alpha. Lol.

Oh sweet little summer child …. There’s ALWAYS an ABO take 😈

I have sooooo many mafia AU ideas - seriously - it’s a problem 😂

I do so love the idea of Daniel being a bartering chip - a way to strengthen their family by uniting it with another powerful one OR Terry manipulating the scenario to get Daniel - perhaps obsessed with having him from the first time he laid eyes on him.

The wedding night - let’s meet in the middle.

I HC Terry as someone who, ego wise, would want their partner to desire them, so no matter who he beds, he always shows them a good time - I mean, there’s also his reputation as well.

NGL - I also love the trope of big scary person who everyone fears (character A) with the pure sunshine person (character B)- you know the one - character b is the only character A is soft with.

Besides, I like my Terry on the more manipulative side than physically or sexually cruel TBH.

He may make Danny do things (sometimes it’s things Danny only thinks he doesn’t want - those are just things he hasn’t convinced Danny of yet though) but he’s going to make damn well sure Danny likes it (or comes to anyway).

So Danny is frightened - for the both act itself and because of the rumors about his husband and his ruthlessness - thinking it will spill over into their marriage bed.

Terry will reassure him - but he will be consummating their marriage that night - Daniel’s nerves or not.

So Terry strategically keeps his smaller husband off balance and his head swimming and unable to process really - poor Daniel is caught up in whirlwind of Terry’s passion and couldn’t say no even if he wanted to, he’s so overwhelmed. The gentle kisses quickly turn heated, Terry’s hands on either side of Daniel’s face as the kisses deepen and turn more heated and desperate.

Love the idea of Daniel cooking when he’s pissed - seems like such a him thing to do. Food - breakfast for the kids, coffee for Amanda - seems to be one of his love languages.

[meursaulty]

oops all wiz!

commentary below:

January - I made this when I needed an icon for my new wiz blog. I didn't have a pen though so I did it with my finger lol

February - I was obsessed with the divine paradox look!! I was still learning the ins and outs of digital so I colored all the flats by hand....... but I also remember being very proud of this

March - I drew SO MUCH stuff this month, but some of my favorite works were the little comic pages. I'd do more if they didn't take so long and if I actually had a story to tell

April - Full Mellori hype mode. I had a lot of fun with this even though I had to scrap the first concept and start over

May - Malorn brainrot came out swinging. I did this one on my computer, which has been broken this past year so that everything looks yellow on my screen. So let it be known I genuinely didn't know he was so pale until I looked at the post on my phone 😭

June - A piece from the scrapped wiz calendar. Looking back at this, I'm not sure how well it would do on paper (it seems too dark - i'd have to readjust the values). Tbh I'd still do wiz calendar if other people helped

July - Big art block summer but I wanted to paint something, so I chose pirate aquila. If only the quests were as good as the aesthetics... (hot take: the harpies are worse than the bumballoons)

August - Not much art because my mom was diagnosed w/ cancer and spent the month in the hospital (she is ok now). But i did manage to get some pirate sessions in! A lot of just sitting around and watching people's fits for inspo

September - Quick thing based on a photo i took last November from my old dorm, painted while moving into my new one

October - Trying to get back into the 101 obsession with good old Bonnie Anne

November - Based on a photo I took at school

December - Lowkey cheating because I actually did 95% of this in April, but i fixed it up a little December sooooo I say it counts? There are a *lot* of things I'd change about it now but it's still a vibe, also first time I drew 2 of my wizards interacting I think?

So this was the most I've EVER drawn. I took a long break (2017-end 2021), so January was the first time in literal years that I sat down to draw something, let alone post it publicly. The 101 community on tumblr has been so nice + tolerant of my brainrot that I really enjoy putting my stuff out there as a way to tell myself I'll stop messing with something lol.

Stylistically, I took a big leap. I learned with traditional media and I was taught in a more realism-oriented way, so trying to figure out what I wanted to do was super challenging... This explains why none of my stuff really looks the same, even after a year lol (and you can kinda see the traditional vibe in Jan.? Maybe?)

But anywayyy if you read all this, tell me: what fandom do you think I first started drawing for? I am SO curious what vibe I have

[bobapplesimblr]

Get to Know Me

(useless info edition!)

I was tagged by @prossims !! Thanks!!

1. What do you have under your bed?

Boxes of winter clothes! Which rn I’ll have to switch out and put the summer clothes in instead.

2. Favorite candy? (be very specific if possible)

Candy candy I like these heart shaped lollipops that I got from the Tiger store (they sell a lot of stuff including house stuff, art supplies, craft supplies, decorations, etc.) that are raspberry flavored. If I can include chocolate then it’s all about the Reeses peanut butter cups yall.

3. Describe your favorite shirt:

I have a few! My favorite shirts/sweaters are:

A dark blue long tshirt that says “L'océan Pacifique” that I got YEAARSSSS ago from Lidl(its similar to Aldi). I like it cause it’s just long enough to be worn as a kind of very short dress, and it helps with my fear of my shirts lifting/ridding up without me noticing, since this one is so long i dont have that problem, and the material is also super soft!

A black tshirt with a funky yellow moon design on it. Again the fabric is really nice and it’s just really comfy for me.

My college hoodie, it’s black and SOOOOO SOFT on the inside. It has a really funky cartoon on the front, it kinda looks like a fish? and its yellow. The hoodies were supposed to be purple cause our class colors were yellow and purple but the purple hoodies would be too expensive so we just went with black. It’s so comfy and it has my nickname on the back. Funnily enough it also says 2021-2022 on the back because thats the year it was printed, and it was also the last year I spent at that school!

this super comfy and adorable sweater that is fuzzy on the inside, its  blue and has a cute ice and fire bears design on the front and its just so cute. Sadly it’s from a very controversial and terrible brand/seller, but I bought it long before I knew about the problems.

This very long sweater that has a bunch of Disney villains on the front. It’s grey and long and although the fabric is kinda rough on the inside I still love it and think it’s so cool. I got it years ago and in my first year of college I wore it to my animation class and my teacher look at me, chuckled, and said “The shirts animation students wear..” in an amused way, like it made him happy, and I was very happy about that. That teacher was awesome.

5. Are you completely sober rn?

Yes but I have been very drunk before! And it was super fun! A lot of sangria and exactly 1 shot. That shot made my snot turn blue which I didn’t know could happen!!! The shot was also blue btw. But honestly I just love sangria so much. And wine. It’s so good

6. What's the one thing that annoys you more than anything?

Being treated like I’m stupid and people that make anything into a joke. I have a very dear friend of mine that makes jokes about everything and anything and almost never takes anything 100% seriously and sometimes it really pisses me off, but I understand they don’t mean any harm, that’s just how they are, but it still gets on my nerves sometimes when I think back to interactions I’ve had with them. But again, they are a very dear friend of mine and I hold no resentment towards them in particular.

7. Have you ever gotten you tongue stuck to a cold pole during winter?

Nope, poles are gross! And I’m pretty sure that getting your tongue stuck on a frozen pole is an american thing. 

8. If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would it be?

;-; I want to be with my baby (bf). I want to hold him and cuddle with him and have comfy movie sessions. We’re a long distance couple.

9. What was the single last word you spoke?

Probably ‘Okay’ ? I was asking my mom if she needed me to defrost anything for dinner and she said no, so I probably says ‘okay’ after that and walked away.

Time to tag people!! >:D I tag @rebouks @simmersofia @salilaoceania @doodle-possum @simmer-rhi and @bastardtrait ! Feel free to ignore this if you don’t want to do this or have done it before :D 

[terrainofheartfelt]

Do u have any book and movie recommendations?

sooooo many. you might regret asking.

I love books very very much, just in case you didn't know, so let me fire off at random some of my all time faves with and without blurbs.

poetry: Devotions, Mary Oliver | No Matter the Wreckage, Sarah Kay | Leaves of Grass, Whitman | Post Colonial Love Poem, Natalie Diaz

nonfiction:

My Life in France, Julia Child --- her memoir of moving to France with her husband post WWII and her discovery of cooking and deciding to write her cookbook and it's so charming and so her and it's just a delight

Open Me Carefully, Emily Dickinson --- a chronological collection of letters, poems, and letter-poems Emily sent to her lover sister-in-law Susan Dickinson. it's intimate, playful, kind, passionate, and the editors do a great job of putting it all together. and you read it and just know that you are only skimming the surface of the deep love these two women had for each other i gotta lie down

What I Was Doing While You Were Breeding, Kristin Newman --- funny sexy travel memoir by a TV writer who spent her hiatus months in the aughts summers by traveling solo and having whirlwind romances and also her reconciliation between being the woman who can't be tied down but also wanting to build a life with a partner.

The Real Traviata, Rene Weis --- an opera book because me. a biography about Marie Duplessis, the French woman who inspired Dumas to write La Dame aux Camellias and therefore Verdi's Traviata and THEREFORE Baz Luhrman's Moulin Rouge. she had by the most objective accounts a difficult and short life full of fear and illness and abuse but also full of strength and color and love and I found it really moving.

fiction: aka the novels I am thinking most about right now.

House of the Spirits, Isabel Allende --- an all time favorite. a historical, multigenerational epic that left me staring at the ceiling after finishing it. and cemented Allende's place as one of my fave authors

The Sentence, Louise Erdrich --- it's about ghosts and independent bookstores and indigenous women and community and love and trust and the pandemic. great novel.

Sex and Vanity, Kevin Kwan --- people are always looking for who they should crown the modern Jane Austen, and it's him. it's kevin kwan. this is a modern remix of A Room with a View and it is funny and sexy and sweet and was a delight to read.

Beautiful World, Where Are You, Sally Rooney --- my favorite of hers. I love how the chapters of story are interspersed with emails between the two leads. yes there's romance, but the real center of this story is the friendship between the two women.

On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous, Ocean Vuong --- entirely lives up to the tumblr hype. possibly exceeds the tumblr hype. I told my best friend to read this book. which she did. then scolded me because while she agrees it's beautiful it's also so heartbreaking. truly some of the most beautiful prose I've ever read. I checked it out from the library but i really want a copy of my own to mark up.

Bright Young Women, Jessica Knoll (out Oct. 3rd) --- i got this ARC at the librarian convention. I'm in the middle of it right now but I have to talk it up because it is sooooo good. It's about women who meet because they have the worst possible thing in common: their best friend was murdered by the same serial killer. It hops around between the '70s and the present day, reads like a thriller, and the thesis is really about destroying the myth of the criminal mastermind, a la all those true crime docs about dahmer and bundy. I'm almost halfway through and the murderer is only referred to as "The Defendant." It's about taking the narrative away from him, the universal defendant, and recentering it around the exceptional women whose lives he ended and/or destroyed. Again, please check it out when it comes out this fall. But be forewarned that the subject matter is dark.

as for MOVIES, well, if I tried to make a list like the one above I'd be here all day, so why don't I just list a handful that I consider central to understanding who I am as a person:

Monty Python and the Holy Grail

The Life of Brian

The Blues Brothers

The Princess Diaries 1 AND 2

Little Women (2019)

Juno

The Holiday

Pride and Prejudice (2005)

Star Wars, the OG and prequel trilogies

and, last winter I stumbled across The Four Seasons starring Alan Alda and Carol Burnett, and I thought it was delightful.

[prettyboyeddiemunson]

Hey Sweetheart,

Sorry for the super late night letter. If you’re asleep already, I wish for you get the rest you need and to have the sweetest of dreams. I hope you wake up with a smile on your face and ready to take on the weekend. I’ve been thinking about you all day. Wishing I could have sent a letter earlier today, but alas. I realized you don’t know anything about me. That’s totally unfair to you, so here it goes:

I should probably start with the question everyone asks me first, I’m 5’10”. I’m in my late 20’s and a Libra. I have long dark brown curly hair, dark brown eyes, and pale-ish skin because I don’t go outside a ton during the summer. Oh if you look very closely (I do mean closely), I have freckles across the tops of my cheeks and nose. No tattoos (yet). My nose was pierced, I’m planning on getting it repierced eventually.

I love 70’s-80’s metal and rock. My favorite bands are Eagles, Anthrax, Kansas, Mötley Crüe, Iron Maiden, Black Sabbath, Ozzy, W.A.S.P., Twisted Sister, Guns N’ Roses, Scorpions, Metallica, Quiet Riot. I can’t play the guitar for shit but I want to learn. My guilty pleasure music is Musicals and Disney stuff (gotta satiate the childhood nostalgia). My favorite colors are maroon, black, and dark green. I’m very introverted (hints the secret admirer letters). I’m definitely social with friends, family, and whoever I’m in a relationship with. I play D&D every Sunday (except this month, we are on a break because holidays). Lost Boys, E.T., Lilo & Stitch, Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure, The Goonies, and Treasure Planet are my favorite movies.

I’ll never part with my converse or my black boots. I love to read and write. My dreams and imagination are so vivid it’s like watching a movie scene play out in my head. I’m an insomniac and a night owl. I’m definitely aware of how that’s a bad combo. I swear like a sailor but I try not to in the letters to you and I think I’m doing a pretty damn good job so far😉. I’m fiercely loyal and will not judge anyone. I trust only once. Meaning, I refuse to let my trust being taken for granted. I will take any chance to stand in the rain. I love campfires and stargazing. I love late night drives. I’m a dog person who ended up with a cat. I would die for her.

I’m super excellent at communication. I really hate yelling. If there’s an issue or a disagreement I’d rather work it out together, talking, then it turn into a screaming match. I’m a super affectionate person, it’s my love language for sure. Snuggles, cuddles, head kisses, cheek kisses, mouth/tongue kisses and tons of hugs. I have a niece who told me my hugs are pretty magical sooooo do with that information what you will. I love for whoever I’m in a relationship with to feel safe, like all the bad things world have disappeared. Sorry I know that was a ton. But If you have any questions for me (even if it’s the spicy not pg-13 variety, didn’t know if you would feel comfortable with me talking about it), I’d be more than happy to answer them.

Song to go with this letter: Wild Side- Mötley Crüe

-Your Secret Admirer

awwww thank you for sending this!! you have such great taste, in movies, music, and favorite colors. i’m also an introverted night owl, but I can be social with my loved ones as well. i’m just very shy at first until I get to know someone, then the fun, weird side of me will definitely come out!

i cant think of any questions right now, but i’ll ask some if any arise! feel free to ask me anything as well! i’ll answer, if im comfortable doing so!

[winderlylandchime]

Hello, how are you? I hope life is going good and that you are spending your Saturday relaxing. I am coming to you with just a tiny update on my brother as a proof of life but also because it made me laugh when it happened and I thought maybe you’d appreciate it since you are the one who told him ao3 has a lot of shows he’s a fan of…I feel like a snitch right now but he discovered 2 things about ao3 by complete accident. And that is omega verse and that some people write incest fics.. I got a text that just read ‘werewolf porn?!?!’ So that was a nice way to start my day. And then like two hours later he found out some people write about incest and I’m not gonna lie it took me a minute to convince him to continue using ao3. When I called him about it he said that he wanted to look into the other stuff he’s a fan of aince he remembered you told him so and he unfortunately discovered a dark side of it. So now he swore to himself that he’s only going to use ao3 for Britin. BUT he did also discover like a true grandpa with no social media presence that he got replies on his comments from you and Hannah Montana (his words, he only refers to them as that and I’m supposed to just know who he’s talking about) and he was very delighted because he didn’t realize it at all and then horrified that he didn’t realize it. He also got really mad when he realized you can’t leave kudos on each chapter which tbh, I fully agree. He’s genuinely still confused by ao3, It’s kinda like watching someone who is 60 try to use instagram or something like that. And then on top of that a few days ago he told me that he is worried that his love for qaf has died down since he hasn’t seen the show since he left and can’t watch it with the original soundtrack. And he was genuinely worried about that and then today at an ungodly hour I got a call saying ‘YOOOOOO BLONDIE WAS IN MR ROBOT!’ I don’t think he was even fully sober or even awake when he called me for that. Turns out he was at his friends house and his friend’s girlfriend had Mr Robot on and then she just left it playing while everyone hung out. And then Randy showed up on the screen and my brother -mid conversation with a friends new girlfriend who literally met him that day!!!- yelled across the entire apartment from the kitchen ‘BLONDIEEEEE’ and then apparently he proceeded to talk about qaf to the poor woman. I’m talking full breakdown, story lines, characters, actors, the fact that season 5 (and I quote) ‘sucks hardcore ass’…. So he got excited and happy to report to me that the love (and hyperfixation if we are being honest) is still very much alive. As if HE, the owner of many self made shirts, could somehow manage to escape it…And if you were wondering, yes he was wearing his Brian shirt during the party so I don’t know how he thought he was over his love for the show. Btw he was telling me about a fic of yours he was reading and he went ‘you don’t get it, they’re doing therapy together…Fuck I can’t believe real life Blondie is gonna be doing shit like this for a living now’ and that gave me a mini wtf moment because I completely forgot about Randy’s new career. So bottom line is: he is now scared to look up any shows he likes, he got a bit scarred because he didn’t read tags/doesn’t understand them AND he still talks about everyone’s fics the same way he did when he was living with me. Aka he just starts talking about it without any context or titles or links.

Dear sweet anon! I’m so sorry it’s taken ages to respond.

Oh sweet summer child brother anon! Yes, omegaverse and incest porn are on AO3… as he commits to using it only for Britin fics, warn him (or don’t!) about mpreg fics. Sooooo many pregnant!Justin fics out there and at least one pregnant!Brian fic that I can think of. All the wonderfully horrific fics on AO3 are exactly why I love it. Banning incest fics is a slippery slope to making any explicit content, especially queer explicit content (and all queer content is explicit to bigots).

I feel the anger about not being able to leave kudos on each chapter. And I also fully feel the excitement and joy of getting a response to a comment. Reminds me that I need to go respond to his comments!

I didn’t realize that one Mr. Randolph Harrison was in Mr. Robot, but there it is on his IMDb page!

Haha I’m only halfway sorry I put Justin in therapy so often in my fics because now Randy is on the other side of the couch!

I’m so glad his enthusiasm only temporarily died down. Unfortunately, it looks like you need to copy your DVDs for him because I got an ask a few days ago asking for resources to watch the series with the original (only correct) soundtrack and the fandom agrees that it’s no where to be found.

[lulupen2023]

This time we'll get it, get it right 1/2

And old story from my lj that I never posted here, I don't know why ^^ BEFORE READING: One day like many others the radio played a song, an AMAZING song (sorry, it’s an Italian one, but I translated the lyrics for you, if you want you can listen to it here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wU5ScW-02b4 ) that screamed ‘BELLDOM’ in my head since the very first time I heard it. Usually I don’t like Italian songs that much, but this one seems to be written for those two! Let’s say that this song practically summoned me to write this story. Let me warn you: this is NOT the kind of fanfics I use to write, there’s no fluff here (hard to believe, I know), it’s not a comedy, there’s not humour and it’s pretty nc17, too! I guess this is the most serious thing I’ve ever written, maybe because I strongly believe in that. Title: This time we’ll get it, get it right Setting: Summer/Autumn 2010 Pairing: BellDom (of, course!) Rating: NC 17 It’s a POV, but I’m not gonna tell you who is talking! ;P Disclaimer: I don’t know and own Matthew Bellamy and Dominic Howard, this has never happened (but it would be nice if it had). Plus, I don’t earn anything from it, just the personal satisfaction of writing it. The title is taken from ‘Exogenesis: Symphony Part 3 (Redemption)’ lyrics , by Muse… which is sooooo damn clearly a BellDom song! And it’s a songfic, with the background of ‘Son già solo’ (I’m already alone) lyrics by Modà. Feedback: Loves it like Matt loves bananas and Dom loves leo-printed stuff!

Summary: He takes me, he leaves me. He looks for me, he avoids me. He desires me, he rejects me. It’s time to make it all end… or start for real.

I: You'll be back(?)

To fall in love with a man, aka someone of your same gender, is extremely shocking.

To fall in love with a colleague is a disaster; there must be a reason why everyone says not to blend your private life with your working one!

To fall in love with your best friend is the worst thing ever that could happen to you… and the best thing  at the same time.

Guess what? I did those three things all at once.

Please, people, don’t tell me it’s wrong.

Not just now that he, this divine creature who impudently violated all three of those taboos, is on top of me with his hands in my pants and is bringing me to Heaven.

No one can do that like him!

“Faster!” I pant, already knowing that I can’t hold on much longer.

He pleases me and after awhile I throw my head back, breathe his name and explode with pleasure, as he takes all I have to give him.

After all, he has always done that.

When his expert mouth comes in to play, he sends me into Bliss once again.

This suite is illuminated just by a candle that is about to consume itself.

That’s better; he has always enjoyed doing this in the dark.

Troppa luce non ti piace

(You don’t like too much light)

Godi meglio a farlo al buio sottovoce

(You come better if we do it in the dark, in a low voice)

Graffiando la mia pelle

( Scratching my skin )

E mordendomi le labbra fino a farmi male, bene

(And biting my lips until it hurts, but in a good way)

Senza farmi mai capire

(Without never making me figure out)

Se per te è più sesso o amore

(If it’s more sex or love, for you)

He smiles, satisfied by his work, and kisses me, making me taste myself. Then the kiss turns more violent, he scrapes my lower lip with his teeth, as his nails scratch on my shoulders, my back, my arms, and because he is the one inflicting this pain on me, it becomes an indescribable pleasure.

“Turn.” he whispers to my ear.

I do so, but not before giving him another ardent kiss that seems to be a battle for supremacy.

I turn, with my stomach on the mattress, as he gets rid of the rest of my clothes and his own, too.

He straddles me and with a skill that can only progressively improve he prepares my body to welcome him inside.

For me it’s already enough; his hot breath on my nape gets me ready for him and when he slips inside me, when we become just one being, he fills me.

In every sense.

I enjoy these precious moments of pure happiness, moments that come at high price, because I’m going to pay for them with suffering that will last for weeks, maybe even months.

He pulls away from me, turns me onto my other side and drags me against him, as he pants heavily.

“I…”

He doesn’t end his sentence, he simply smashes his lips against mine.

For him does it seems it’s only sex what we’ve been doing for *years*?

But no, I don’t think so, it can’t be just sex!

He can lie to me as much as he pleases with his words, but his eyes, that are as changeable as his mood, can’t pretend, and I can clearly read love in his eyes; it’s the same love that there’s in my eyes. It’s a tough love, a torn love, a love that is constantly put to the test, a desperate love, but it’s love, nonetheless.

As he kisses me, I can’t help let a tear fall from my eyes and trace my face, because I already know what this kiss is the prelude of.

“I’d better go now.” he says and his tone is already colder.

Poi fuggi, ti vesti, mi confondi

(And then you run away, you dress up again, you puzzle me)

Non sai dirmi quando torni

(You can’t tell me when you will be back)

E piangi, non rispondi, sparisci

(And you cry, you don’t give any answer, you disappear)

E ogni quattro mesi torni

(And you come back every four months)

Sei pazzo di me, come io lo son di te

(You’re crazy for me as I’m crazy for you)

“Why?” I ask him as we both dress.

“You know why.” he answers as he puts his jacket on.

“Hell no, I don’t! I’ve been wondering that for years! Every fucking time I tell myself that it will be the last time, that I won’t let you get close to me again, but then I always fail, because I can’t resist you just like you can’t resist me, so why should we keep resisting each other?” I reply.

“Because it would be too complicated.” he murmurs so softly that I barely manage to hear him.

“Why? Isn’t it complicated this way?” I strike back as I feel my eyes become damp.

“I… I don’t wanna hurt you!” he shouts as he faces my gaze and I can see that he, too,  has tears in his eyes.

“But you’re already hurting me! What am I to you? Your favourite toy? Your personal amuse? A diversion to between all the groupies, between every girl you get laid by?” I scream at him, crying.

He stares at me with a hurt expression and assures me through his tears, “You’re nothing like that. And you do know that!”

He opens the door, and before disappearing from my sight, says, “I gotta go.”

Why does he leave? If only I knew it! It’s not due to the fear that someone could find out about us and make the news finish in every bloody tabloid.

No, he doesn’t give a fuck about public opinion; I’m the one who gets worried about that, but I know I could face it if he wanted that. The problem is that I have no idea what the bloody hell he wants.

I stand still, staring at that closed door. The heat of this night in Madrid, where we performed a few hours ago, is conflicting with the coldness that there’s now in my heart.

If I wanted to reach him, I would just have to cross the corridor and knock on his door.

It’s not a physical distance that separates us, it’s much worse, it’s a psychological one, an invisible wall that now we raise between us, once again.

When it happens, no matter all the days we meet each other due to the concerts, the interviews, the photo-shoots or any duty is on our agenda, we don’t let it show.

During those moments we’re bloody good at pretending we are inseparable best friends, as always.

Not even Chris has ever suspected something.

Once the charade is over, when we stop being Muse and simply become Matthew and Dominic again, there’s not a word, a smile, an understanding gesture between us.

Finally, one of us surrenders and then the walls cave in again.

Resisti, non mi stanchi

(You resist, you don’t tire me)

M conservi sempre dentro ai tuoi ri cordi

(You always keep me inside  your memories)

E poi brilli, non ti spegni

(And then you shine, you don’t fade)

Ci graffiamo per non far guarire i segni

(We scratch each other not to make the marks heal)

E sei pioggia fredda

(And you’re a cold rain)

Sei come un temporale di emozioni che poi quando passa

(You’re just like an emotional storm that when it’s over)

Lampo, tuono, è passato così poco e son già solo

(Flash, thunder, it’s been such a short time and I’m already alone)

It’s the story of my life.

I should hate him for what he does, for how he makes me feel, but I can’t.

Because those special moments we spend all alone, when there’s nothing else but us, when I find confirmation that my feelings are mutual, give me the strength to resist and keep waiting for him.

And for him it’s worth it, even if I had to wait my whole life.

He was already in my thoughts when I dated the first girls and then, when success knocked on our door, those thoughts turned into a passionate reality, a reality that has never stopped in the face of anything.

Not even when I stayed with Gaia and he with Jessica, the most important romantic relationships of our lives.

Not even that managed to keep us apart, especially on tour, when the temptation is just too strong.

I look in the mirror and I can still see his scratches, my swollen and livid lips, the same marks I left on him.

I don’t even have to care that someone can see me like that, since I have no one to come back to. Plus, tomorrow all the marks will have faded.

I know I’ll end up going insane if I go on like this, especially now that there’s not Gaia anymore.

I feel so alone in the months that seem to last like years

I hate feeling alone. I’m not sure that I can hold on until he comes back.

Because I know he’ll be back.  

Tornerai, tornerai

(You’ll be back, you’ll be back)

  Altroché se tornerai

  (Hell yeah, you’ll be back) (End I)  

Notes:

Hope you liked it. If I was an angst lover the story would end like that, but...

[krenenbaker]

wait... I'm a more recent moot, too! I'm also going to answer these ^_^

My day has been alright! Catsitting for a friend, getting some groceries, a little writing... and my aunt is coming into town for dinner, so I'm looking forward to that!

My favourite animal... hm. I'd probably have to say lesser cats, as a general category. It's a little basic, but they're just so good! (However, I've also been really into pelican eels/gulper eels recently! I'm still learning more about them and the various species, but they're such silly guys!! I loves 'em!!)

Perogies!! I love perogies!! They're so versatile, and just so tasty. The can be savoury or sweet, boiled or baked or fried, have a variety of possible toppings, and are generally really good!

Hmm... probably either pink or (dark) green. I also really like orange and yellow, though... Honestly, my favourite colour changes frequently.

Autumn. Specifically early autumn, before the snow flies. The heat of summer has dissipated, and the harvest is right there. Some of the best scents become present at the time (like rain and fallen leaves), as well as some of the best foods (like squash and apple cinnamon). And the scenery outdoors is dramatically shifting on a daily basis in the most stunning way: the leaves and plants gradually shifting and changing colour, before dropping and decomposing, giving back to the earth in the constant cycle of death and life. It brings a balance to the world in a beautifully artistic way.

I love that I'm a quick learner - I tend to pick things up quickly and fairly easily. I also like my approachability :)

I... honestly don't remember. I've been here for a number of years (probably about... 8 years, give or take?) on a couple of different accounts. This one I made in maybe 2017 or 2018, during my SuperWhoLock era (ﾟωﾟ;)

An afghan blanket... probably not. Though, depending on who the villain is, maybe. (Could frog it and use the yarn as a weapon/trap, or maybe the villain just needs some comfort, and that's how they can be "defeated")

Ooh, creating things! Baking and cooking, sewing, knitting, crochet, embroidery, needle lace making, candle making, playing music, writing, and sooooo much more!

In the shorter term, I'd like to finish the twst cosplay I'm working on! (I'll probably post some more about it in the next couple of days!) In the longer-term, owning a house, and being financially secure enough to design and decorate it that way I'd like.

Avoidance. Absolutely. I remove myself from situations that make me uncomfortable, and I often suffer as a result. This may manifest as not contacting people, working too long on things in order to avoid negative responses on my work (perfectionism), and avoiding conflict in ways that are detrimental to myself and others.

I. LOVE. TEA. I take it VERY strong, with milk and either 1 or 2 sugars, depending on my mood. I like bubble tea too (either with pearls or red beans, and 30% sweet). I'm also a huge fan of lemon cordial with mint, and blackcurrent cordial (Ribena).

Oui! A black cat, and a goldfish! they're rather old - both about 16 or so years of age.

Yep! One younger sibling :)

It's... varied. My most listened artists on Spotify are dodie, Hozier, ConcernedApe (I listen to the Stardew Valley soundtrack when working on things), Julie London, and Elton John. I also listen to a lot of musicals, swing and jazz, metal (especially avant-garde metal and prog metal - I LOVE stuff like TOOL and Polkadot Cadaver), indie pop, classical/orchestral music (especially Mozart, Tchaikovsky. and Schostakovich), and Celtic music!!

Questions for my lovely moots<3

I'd like to get to know you lovelies better so I made 15 questions lol

1. How has your day been?

2. What is your favorite animal?

3. Favorite food?

4. Favorite color?

5. What is your favorite season and why?

6. What is something about yourself that you love?

7. What first got you on tumblr?

8. If you had to fight a villain with the first object to your left would you win?

9. What are a few hobbies of yours?

10. What is a goal you want to achieve?

11. What is your toxic trait?

12. What types of drinks do you like ( coffee/tea )

13. Do you have any pets?

14. Do you have any siblings?

15. What is some of your favorite music

Thank you<3

(Also, feel free to skip any questions you are uncomfortable answering. And please know that no one is obligated to answer any of these if you don't want to)

@i-like-forgs @twistwonderlanddevotee @keii01 @azulashengrottospiano @miguelism @saint-garden @benkeibear @soru-ya

(Feel free to answer even if I didn't tag you. Sorry if I missed anyone)

[mandoalorian]

Ahhhhhhhhh, the Maxwell x ps reader headcanons are sooooo good. I thank you for writing it and thank that anon for sending it in, us plus size/curvy/chubby girls need more love.👉🏽👈🏽 please may you do the Javier x ps reader headcanons. Love you 💖

Summer Dress [Javier Peña x Plus Size F!Reader]

Summary: Javier helps you find the confidence to wear something you’d never usually wear.

Warnings: body dysmorphia, sexual themes but nothing explicit [Rating: T]

Word count: 1,500

Note: I know you wanted headcanons but I hope this little fic is alright (or even better!) instead. I really aspire to write more one-shots for readers who are under represented in typical fics. I think it’s so important and if you’re a writer I encourage you to do the same! Reblogs appreciated to help a writer out💕

Colombia during the Summer was hot. No, perhaps hot was an understatement. It was sticky, sweaty and overwhelming at times. The other girls walked around in strappy tops and denim shorts, and you wished you had the confidence to wear those kind of clothes.

Yet, you walked through market stalls wearing an oversized jean jacket in attempt to cover yourself up. Deep down though, you knew you were going to receive some stares. But it was like every person you passed was looking down on you, their gaze burning into you, hotter than the sun on this very day. You had a terrible fear of showing skin, no matter how much you ached to strip off in the hot weather.

“Hermosa,” Javier’s rasp voice made you jump. He placed a large hand on the lower portion of your back and started to navigate you to a different section of the market. “You look like a lost puppy. Are you okay?” he whispered.

You nodded wordlessly before clearing your throat. Talking about your fear of undressing to Javier, out of all people, was the last thing you wanted to do. Of course, you’d been dating for a long time and you had no shame in undressing in front of him… it was just, you felt so vulnerable being out in public. The idea of exposing your body in front of all these strangers practically knocked you sick.

“Look Javi, that man over there is selling pomegranate.” you smiled, trying to change the subject.

Javier pulled a face and you laughed, knowing about his disdain for the tropical delicacy. He walked you over to the stall and you picked out some of the red fruit, placing it in your wicker basket.

“Sweetheart, see that man over there? He’s selling those summer dresses you always say you like.” you looked over to see where Javier was pointing. There was an older, happier looking man selling a variety of different dresses, adorned in beautiful butterflies and floral designs.

“They’re very nice Javi,” you replied softly but then felt your cheeks flush with heat. “But he might not be selling my size.”

Javier frowned and he furrowed his dark brown eyebrows together. “Wh— what? No. Come on baby, let’s go have a look.”

Begrudgingly, you followed, knowing just how stubborn your boyfriend was. It was pointless protesting.

You knew Javier meant well, but you couldn’t face the embarrassment of going over there with your boyfriend and getting let down over the market vendor not stocking your size dress. Not to mention, you knew how much it would irk Javier. He always got so mad and defensive over the discrimination you’d face on the daily. It was nice, having a protective boyfriend and all, but part of you wished he didn’t have to be defensive.

You knew about his past reputation, sleeping with the prettiest girls who had a more slender physique. Whilst you were learning to love and embrace your body, you found it easy to compare yourself to them. Javier chastised you for it. He’d tell you that you’re the most beautiful woman he’d ever seen, and he knew that the moment he laid eyes on you, he had to have you.

The cheery man greeted you both and Javier handed you his wallet. “I’m going to get a smoke, buy yourself something pretty.” he told you, his moustache grazing your cheek as he pressed a chaste kiss into your skin. You watched as he disappeared through the crowds of people and you huffed out a sigh, rubbing your temples.

“Hola,” you smiled nervously.

“¿Qué puedo hacer por ti hoy?” What can I do for you today?

You nervously looked amongst the colourful dresses, shocked to find that this one vendor was actually stocking your size. You took it from the rack and positioned it over your body and wow— you truly thought you looked gorgeous.

“Excelente opcion. ¿Le gustaría probarlo?” Excellent choice. Would you like to try it?

Ideally, you didn’t want to get undressed in the middle of a market, but there was still the deep resided worry that the dress wouldn’t fit. You offered the vendor a nod of your head and he showed you to the changing rooms.

The dress fit beautifully, showing off your arms and your legs. You knew you had the perfect set of matching heels that would go with it at home. It was like it was meant to be.

“Princesa,” Javier had returned, his chocolate coloured eyes gleaming with delight when he saw you step out of the changing room, still wearing the dress. “You like it?”

“Yes. Do you?”

His jaw was slack and he nodded his head slowly, spending a few moments drinking in your appearance. A smirk slowly crossed his lips.

“We’ll take it.” he told the vendor, handing him thirty pesos. You packed up your old outfit and denim jacket, and felt confident enough to spend the rest of the day in the dress.

You and Javier walked out of the market, hand in hand. To your surprise, no one was even staring at you. No one was judging your body, your skin or your curves like you thought they would. Nobody even cared. Everyone was just minding their own business and focusing on themselves, which honestly, made sense. After all, why would a stranger care about what you were wearing in the first place?

And even if they did look, even if they did judge, they’re not going to remember you. They have their own lives, worries and insecurities. And suddenly, in that very moment, you realised that this one summer dress had given you a whole new outlook on your life.

And you were happy.

“Cariño, as much as I love that dress on you, I can’t wait to take it off when we get home.” Javier practically growled in your ear, teasingly bringing his hand down to your ass.

You giggled in response, nudging him playfully.

“You’re my world Javi,” you smiled. “Thank you for always loving me unconditionally.”

Javier pouted jokingly at your soft expression but then burst out into a grin, the corners of his brown eyes crinkling with delight as he pressed a kiss into your lips. Javier was never really one to smile, but ever since retiring from the DEA and committing his life to you, he’d become a much happier and freer man. Words could never amount to how much he appreciated you for giving him the liberty to become a better man.

“Always my love,” he promised, giving your hand a little squeeze. “Always.”

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