#it is not homophobia to break them up lmfao

[philtatosbuck]

lots of people in the 911 fandom showing their ass about bisexuality and the "validity" of relationships right now so uhh buck's relationships with women were no less valid than his relationship with a guy and the end of that relationship is frankly not anymore shocking than the end of his relationships with those women. if you're going to act like a freak about it when you were some of the people actively hating on every single woman who breathed near him.......... i fear this might just be karma for you!

[xx-cringe-factory-xx]

Im bored so I am once again talking about stuff I barely understand\d and Im too scared to talk to the hs discord cause it feels like others make me uncomfy cause their fixed morals and actual ability to understand and explain things better than me lmao.

How I see my class and aspect as a thief of void

(alos may talk about lunar sway (mine is prospit leaning), read to find out!!)

woah okay sooo im gonna start with aspect cause that's easier for me to understand and explain why i think it's litterally me.

the voidy stuff!

so the only ways Ive seen void explained is "confusion, unaware, subjectivity" and vague stuff like that whish uh, yeah it's right ig, both light and void are based around their own understanding of things. but it feels like others focus too much on that. void players tend to be confident in what they do understand(or at least I am), even if it may not be a lot or very useful.

cannon examples being: equius with robots, roxy with actually quite a bit(others relationships, the window things, ect.) uhh cant remember any void players lmfao,

also another thing people tend to ignore is that they are hard to understand/ make sense of. once again with equius just overall being veiwed as "oh no, its THAT guy" and roxy just cannonically being imposible to explain/read by dirk. also he never even asked??? so that's part of the issue people dont just ask, most void players would just answer if people asked. like dude??? we dont fucking hide how we feel, its just that others dont even like, put in effort to know. alsowhile im kinda on a tangent about how people dont ask, void players are kinda like "dont ask, dont tell." (haha refference to homophobia) unless they see it as important or relavant. I alos just dont have a lot of oppinions on things that do actually affect me, but that is prolly jsut more of a me thing than void as a whole.

(btw, I am going to take a quick break to go pee before I get into my class, and I will not reread this till after I post it, so I may think of things I wanna change or add, which means i will prolly just be reblogging it everytime i think of somethign knew lmfao)

uh Thevft thievery and tax fraud

(my laptop is overheating slightly, i only have three tabs open)

okay quick thing on why Im not a witch and why I think online quizes keep forcing that apon me with some random ass aspect (THE ASPECT CHANGES ALMOST EVERY TIME :SOB: )

witches tend to not understand that they're doing something wrong/ they just see that what they're doing MIGHT help them, so they do it. they over all do their best to do what they think makes sense without like trying to explain why it makes sense ig(?) witches also dont seem to have many strong oppinions on others outside of every one of their friends is the best, or every one else is either unimportant and does not matter enough to even CONSIDER taking into account when coming up with a possibly confusing plan. while thief's tend to get ahead of themselves they do understand that a complicated plan can go wrong WAY more than a simple one, arvhams razor or whatever.

as explained in the silly brochure thingy that i have spent too much time rereading (lnked on the masterlist thing for classpecting posts in pinned thingy) thief's are also working on higher stakes. focused on an end goal instead of the specifics of what leads us there. which unfortunately leads us to completely ignoring why and who we might've hurt to get us to the end goal. also in the brochure thing it mentioned how thief's work against what they think is how society works (?) (meenah wanting to live on a moon cause of reasons I cant remember, and vriska just in general viewing people as just boring or unimportant) for a thief, theirs them and then theirs everyone else with zero overlap. when a thief get's to close to being like their perception of everyone else they force themselves out of it so it becomes a weird cycle of "woah these people are great" and "these people are making me soft, uhoh gotta fix that"

when in relation to my lunar sway, I'm a prospitian. (woagh) which yikes black and white thinking, and I think i fucking need a good reason for doing things. or at least a reason I think is good. lmao

prospit theif of void(conclusion??)

all together I tend to get uncomfy with people actually understanding and being set on things ESSPECIALLY MORALS. i overall view most people as more mature than me. as in they understand what they view as bad. I like philosophy and the open ended questions that come with it. I'm not really attached to any specific religion or ideas. I do like absurdism on solipsism though. subjectivity is a huge thing for me, it's just that others usually are super strict on what they see as real or true. honestly my only rules/morals for myself are dont hurt others unless it's necessary, and anything is okay as long as you feel good about it and arent ACTUALLY hurting others (as in fuck around and find out, BUT DO NOT ACTUALLY TOUCH OR INTERACT WITH PEOPLE WHO TOUCH REAL KIDS OR ANIMALS YOU SICKF UCK)

anyways uh yeah im a theif of void, i am making all of thisup based on a game thing that didnt even explain it properly in the og webcomic.

I love you (/??) bye

[smashtbh]

Daddy Issues

Jonathan Byers x M!reader | fem aligned + minors dni!

not my gif!

req: “ Hi! Me, again :) so... What if Jonathan dad finds out that his son dating with male reader, so he gets like really mad and goes to threaten the kid, but he founds him with the reader, and he gets like really mad and shit but the reader tells him to piss off and comforts Jonathan? I don't really see fic about Jonathan's daddy issues witch is actually weird i always thought that's gonna be something big for writers :o. “ — @russainweed (you are carrying my account rn ily)

oooo angsty. let’s do it. (im making this little note here after ive written this and im sorry to say i lowkey hate it lmfao)

CW: this got a lot heavier than i meant for it to, homophobia, the use of the f slur, lonnie being a piece of shit, threats of violence, lots of crying, there’s comfort i promise.

pairing: Jonathan Byers x M!reader.

he/him pronouns are used to refer to the reader.

a/n: jonathan byers is my boyfriend its canon. 😁 also just a thank you for all the support my account has been getting recently! you guys are the best.

word count: can’t check rn sorry 😭

“So… tonight?” Y/N’s voice comes through the phone, and Jonathan smiles.

“Of course.” Jonathan replies, moving the phone to his other hand. “My mom wants you over here for dinner by 6, you know how she is if you don’t show.”

There’s a sweet laughter that comes through and Jonathan sighs to himself. “I’ll be there, tell her not to worry.” Y/N says and there’s a crackle on the line.

“I’m not worrying! I know you’ll be here.” Joyce’s voice comes through, and Jonathan quickly peers his head around to see her at the other phone.

“Mooom!” Jonathan groans.

“Hi momma Joyce!” Y/N exclaims. Jonathan face palms and Y/N laughs again, listening to the annoyed mumbling. “I’ll be over, baby. See you later!”

“Kay, bye.” Jonathan hangs the phone back on its stand. He uses a hand to push through his hair and huffs a laugh.

There’s quick walking coming in his direction. “He calls you ‘baby’?” Joyce asks, with a giddy grin on her face.

“Mom.”

“You two are just the cutest.” She squeezes his cheek and walks away.

Jonathan is trying to set up the kitchen table when Joyce comes over with a box. “Forgot to tell you I found these,” she drops it on the table. “It was on top of the fridge. All the photos we took from last year’s winter break!”

She picks up and few and spreads them across the table. One of Jonathan kissing Y/N’s cheek, another of Y/N and Will trying to waltz, and more of Y/N and Joyce baking cookies.

He smiles down at the glossy pictures, filled with laughter and closed eyes. He picks one up, it’s of him and Y/N dancing in the living room as Will was bopping his head to the music. He’s trying to relive the moment in his head when there’s a loud knock on the door.

Assuming that it’s Y/N, Jonathan happily sprints to the door — the photo of them in his hand. He opens it with a stupid grin that quickly turns into a frown.

Lonnie.

“What are you — “

“Where’s your mother.” It’s more of a statement than a question, and Jonathan gets a chill up his spine.

“She’s — she’s cooking.” Jonathan mumbles, instinctively closing the door a bit. Lonnie grabs at it and pries it wide open.

“I’m starvin’.” He breathes, marching past Jonathan and towards the kitchen.

Will is sitting on the couch watching a cartoon and he immediately stiffens when Lonnie walks into the living room. “Hey, kiddo. How you been?”

Will looks to Jonathan and then back at Lonnie. “I’m fine..”

Joyce walks in and her expression is similar to Will’s. Their faces painted with similar confusion. “Lonnie? What the hell are you doing here?”

“Just wanted to stop by, grab somethin’ to eat. Jonny boy over here said you were cooking.” Lonnie shrugs and starts to stalk towards the kitchen.

Jonathan looks at Will and then at his mother. Then, panic hits him.

The pictures.

God, no. Please, no. Go straight for the food you fucking bastard, please.

“The fuck is this?” Jonathan hears as he chasing after Lonnie. Too late.

He tries to come up with an excuse, but there really isn’t one when the photo that Lonnie picks up is the one of Jonathan kissing Y/N’s cheek. “My — it’s.. they’re photos.”

“No shit.” Lonnie says, venom in his voice. “Why the fuck are you kissing this guy?”

Joyce runs in and grabs the photo out of Lonnie’s hand. “That isn’t your business.”

Lonnie tries to reach for it again, but Joyce pulls her hand away in time. He swears and turns to Jonathan. “Shoulda’ known you were a fucking faggot.”

Jonathan freezes. He isn’t sure what to do. “Shoulda’ known from the moment you told me you never had a girlfriend back when you were in school.” Lonnie continues. He scoffs before adding, “You’re disgusting.”

Joyce is caught off guard by his words, and Lonnie is able to grab the photo out of her hands. He brings it to Jonathan’s teary eyed face and rips it in half.

“No! — “

“You’re disgusting.”

He drops the two pieces to the floor and Jonathan catches them midair, his tears flowing freely now. He can’t hear much, but he can tell that Joyce is telling him off — screaming at him to get out.

Jonathan runs to his room with the torn photo, desperate to fix it. His shaky hands are trying to find the tape in his desk, but he can’t bring himself to calm down.

He’s breathing hard and crying — choking on his sobs. He gives up on looking for the tape, since he physically can’t bear to do it.

He crumbles to the floor and curls into a ball. He’s sobbing into the fabric of the jacket he has on when he realizes there’s rapid knocking coming from his window.

“Let me in, Jonathan — “ He hears the voice from outside plead.

Jonathan looks up and everything is blurry and the sounds around him are warbled by his own cries, but he squints at the window.

He doesn’t know if he wants to open it though. He feels like he’d rather cry and wallow in self pity. He’s disgusting.

He sobs harder into his own shoulder when he’s suddenly picked up and cradled.

“Hey — you’re alright. Breathe, baby.”

He knows that voice, and he clutches to the body that’s holding him together. Keeping him from shattering to pieces. From being torn apart like that photo.

The body starts rocking back and forth, and Jonathan finally starts to calm down. How’d he get in? There’s a kiss placed on his forehead and he finally opens his eyes. “There you are, love.” Y/N whispers, it looks as if he was crying too — and Jonathan frowns.

“Were — “ There’s a sniffle that interrupts his own sentence, “were you crying?”

Y/N huffs a laugh, and there’s a tight smile on his face “Says you.” His face turns serious. “What happened?”

Jonathan doesn’t know where to start, so he turns over in Y/N’s arms to reach for the ripped photo. He hands it to him and bites his lip in an attempt to not cry.

“What.. who — “

Jonathan shakes a bit.

“It’s alright. Hey — see look, we can just tape it back together, or — “ Y/N reaches for the camera on the table, “we could just take another.” He smiles at Jonathan.

Jonathan smirks, Y/N feels alive again. “We could.”

I’m disgusting. He frowns.

“Why’d you do that?” Y/N asks, referring to Jonathan’s face. He cups his jaw, opening his mouth to say something — when suddenly, there’s yelling in the hall.

A loud crack comes from the door as it swings open, revealing a very red Lonnie.

“You. You’re that fuckin’ guy.” He whispers, almost to himself. Joyce is behind him, it’s almost as if you could see the steam coming from her ears.

“Leave them alone, asshole!” She yells, storming to the phone to call the police.

Y/N sets Jonathan into a sitting position against the wall. “Yeah.” Y/N says, connecting the pieces as to why Jonathan was freaking out. “I am.”

“You’re a fucken — “ Lonnie yells, but Y/N interrupts him.

“What? A homosexual?” He shrugs, “At least I’m not a fuckin’ screw up like you.”

“You better watch your mouth, boy.”

“I don’t listen to dumb fucks like you.” Y/N walks towards him, leveling his height with Lonnie. “If I were you, I’d get the fuck out of here.” He points down the hall.

“Before the police find you dead.” Y/N says under his breath.

Lonnie squares his shoulders. Y/N thinks he’s going to punch him or something, but he turns and stomps down the hall. He swings the front door open and leaves with a loud bang of it closing.

Y/N almost laughs, before remembering Jonathan is behind him. He turns and runs towards him, still slumped against the wall. He’s shaking and there’s dry tears on his cheeks.

“You’re okay.” Y/N says. “He’s gone.”

“I know. I know.” He mumbles.

Y/N sees Joyce through the window, cursing and screaming at Lonnie who’s driving off, hopefully for good.

Y/N turns back to Jonathan, who calmed down. He’s breathing evenly with his eyes closed. Y/N caresses his face, lightly tapping on him. “Sweetheart.”

Jonathan hums in response, leaning into his hand.“Why’d you come through my window?” He whispers.

“Well, you guys weren’t answering the front door. I know why now.” Y/N says, combing through Jonathan’s hair with his fingers.

Jonathan sighs.

“I love you.” Y/N suddenly whispers.

“And I love you, Y/N.” Jonathan smiles, almost giggling.

Y/N pulls Jonathan into his arms, and leans against the wall. They’re sitting there for a couple of minutes before Jonathan breaks the silence.

“Can we take the photo now?”

“Of course, love.”

Y/N grabs the camera and sits next to Jonathan. He lets Jonathan hold his face and gently kiss his cheek. Y/N takes the photo and sets the camera down, turning to kiss Jonathan properly.

“I’m keeping this one.” Y/N mutters.

“Absolutely not.” Jonathan says, snatching the photo away.

They laugh and it’s easier to breathe again.

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[meredithdoesfandoms]

MARRIAGE/ WEDDING BYLER HCS!!!!!

ok hot take, will 10000% proposes first

mike is upset cuz he thinks its not “manly” for him not to be the one to propose :(

will is very comforting ofc cuz he’s will <3

omg and they are both total bridezillas, the entire party is so over it

they cant decide who will be in whos wedding party, so they literally put everyones name in a hat and they pick

mike’s groomsmen have blue ties, wills groomsmen have yellow ties, MIKE AND WILL WEAR GREEN TIES

FLOWER GIRL ELEVEN!!!

hopper walks will down the aisle, nancy does the same for mike

DUSTIN IS BEST MAN FOR MIKE AND STEVE IS BEST MAN FOR WILL

(both bachelor party’s end up being total shitshow, mike and will go home early and watch a movie)

after the wedding mike and will are too tired to go and party or whatever, so they fall asleep cuddling on the couch

ROBIN IS THE LIFE OF THE PARTY AT THE RECEPTION

platonic stobin organizes the after party

steve: “dustin u cant here drink ur a minor, stop” dustin: “im 24”

jopper, jonathan, nancy, max, and lucas give speeches that bring everyone to TEARS

murray crashes, but nobody complains

SAME WITH ARGYLE LMFAO

the cake is a chocolate vanilla marble :)

will gets very overwhelmed during the reception, and he and mike go for a walk outside to calm down

they can hear the music from the parking lot, where they share a slow dance :’)

its a spring wedding!!!!!

hopper has the entire police department ready to fight any homophobia in a 10 mile radius

joyce insists on dancing with will, its sweet but will is MORTIFIED (its basically the s2 snowball preparation scene)

mike insists on the dumbest fucking music playing during the reception, max has to BEG him to let her take over the playlist

the rings are very simple- wills is gold, mikes is silver

LUCAS IS RING-BEARER SORRY

their vows are BEAUTIFUL

will puts his heart and soul into his, he practices for HOURS and ends up saying them perfectly

mike is the exact opposite, he also put all he had into his, but he was so emotional that it just came out as a stuttering, slurred, mess

will was scared mike didnt care as much about the wedding or the vows, and he was dead wrong

MIKE AND WILL ARE STRAIGHT UP SOBBING THE ENTIRE CEREMONY

joyce and jonathan cry so much because will is finally happy :))

mike byers. mike byers. mike byers.

mike was scared to ask will if he could have his last name, because he thought will would find it “less manly” of mike

but will breaks down SOBBING because this man who he loves to the end of the earth wants to be his, and share his name

but this is ofc followed with many “are sure”s and “you dont have to”s

to which mike responds every time “but i WANT to”

thats all i have!!! PLEASE send more requests in the asks, i will 100% do them :)))

[kittenkatbar]

here’s my BIG vol. 2 hot take/prediction/long ass word vomit that is also kinda a character analysis:

i don’t think will is going to be the one (traditionally) vecna’d.. i think it’ll be mike.

will has trauma—that’s obvious. BUT will also has a connection to the upside down that seems to be.. different than we all previously thought. the more you look at how much he’s survived when other people touched by the UD haven’t, the more it starts to look like will might be able to use that as a strength. the mind flayer didn’t want him to die, and i don’t think vecna does either. i think vecna wants will with him, by his side, and i think that’s been getting set up the whole show with will’s connection/survival/being the first one taken to the UD/the UD reflecting that day by being stuck in time. will also has secrets, yeah, but he fully plans on telling mike. we see that with the painting and with the speech he gives on the car. hell, he doesn’t even want to keep el’s secrets/lies for her. kid’s over that shit. he’s putting it off, sure, but he still fully plans on saying SOMETHING to mike, hopefully a confession bc i want byler to be canon so so so bad, but i just do not trust any show not to queerbait anymore lmfao.

MIKE, HOWEVER.. whew. that boy has got some deep-seated, buried secrets that i honestly don’t think he intends to share. he obviously (to me) does not love el in a romantic way (but i fully believe he loves her platonically), as we see with him constantly avoiding saying that he loves her (hell, even the valentine in her little mike shrine says ‘like.’ even the flowers said ���from.’). he doesn’t want to tell her that he isn’t in love with her and constantly keeps lying to her, and probably himself too.

now, like i said: as a queer person who has seen it too many times, i fear queerbaiting. however, i’m going to throw caution to the wind for a minute. i, personally, also read mike’s character as really struggling with internalized homophobia. i think that the s3 “it’s not my fault you don’t like girls” fight wasn’t just him being frustrated, i think it was him projecting. i think mike can tell by that point that he himself either doesn’t just like girls, or doesn’t like girls in the way he has been told he should. he spends s3 spending time with el in a way that seems like a deflection—pulling her away from everyone so it’s obvious he’s with her, then breaking apart kisses to sing and be silly even though it seems to annoy her. he’s controlling, and to me it reads less as him wanting to control el.. but to control the narrative. can’t possibly be queer if all you do is make out with your girlfriend, right?? he’s frustrated when hopper tells him to put space between them, but he does it. which is weird, because mike obviously has issues with authority figures and very rarely does what anyone tells him. he’s yelled and punched hop before, he’s sassed him constantly.. but.. hop just gave him an out. he can blame not being around el on hop. he can be outwardly frustrated about it, without having to remedy it. el dumps him and he looks a little hurt, acts a little angry, but he doesn’t go talk to her. he doesn’t try to make it better. he goes to the mall with lucas and will to try to buy his way back into her good graces, but he doesn’t put in any real work. at least, not like he always does after he and will fight. when he has the big fight with will later, he goes after him. will is different for mike, but it’s almost like the roles are reversed from what mike thinks they should be. he treats will more like you would (traditionally) treat a love interest, and el more like the best friend. a fight with will? immediately trying to fix it. a fight with el? mike is brooding, but almost acts like it’ll resolve itself, similar to how he was with lucas in season one. the only time he says he loves el, is when he’s panicking. and again, i fully believe he loves her.. platonically. i would also be super torn up and panicking if any of my friends were about to do something that could kill them, and i think when you’re wrapped up in all that emotion it’s easy to mistake it for romantic love. however, even then.. i don’t know that that’s what mike meant.

mike says he loves her and he can’t lose her again, which yeah? of course! she’s important to him! everyone around him took that as romantic.. but i don’t know that he meant it that way? he loves his friends, he doesn’t want to lose them. even taking this out of a byler lens, that has always been the case for mike. he refused to give up on will across the first two seasons, he couldn’t lose him. i don’t think it’s a stretch to say he’d feel that way about anyone in the party, but that doesn’t mean it’s romantic. now for the big but.. he said it. out loud, in front of everyone. he can’t take it back now because walking that back could 1. make him look “suspicious” and cast doubt on everything he’s been doing up until now with el 2. hurt el, who he does care about. he never says it again. later, when she says it to him and kisses him, he stands there looking like a lost kid at disney who just rode dumbo 5 times, puked from too much cotton candy, then found out it’s not the most magical place on earth. so, i while i think mike meant it when he said he loved el, i think he meant it platonically.. which is why he can’t say it now, in a romantic context. he smiles like the fucking sun when will says he won’t join another party, but he can’t show that same emotion when his girlfriend kisses him and declares her love? seems like mike is just full of secrets, even before s4.

so, season four. when we hear el’s letter being read out, there’s a few key things to note, imo.

mike has never thought critically about the obvious lies el is telling him. he knows el. he knows el is weird, which is fine!! the whole party is weird! but weird kids don’t usually become popular. i mean, it can happen.. for instance, i wasn’t popular, but i sure as hell had friends in every group in high school and hopped lunch table to lunch table, but that was the 2010s and this is the 1980s, where groups were a bit more defined.. “forced conformity,” if you will. but mike doesn’t bat a lash at her fitting in perfectly? at being good at math suddenly when she’s literally never been properly educated? at being perfectly fine when they all are thinking that hopper is dead? that’s off. that’s so far off for mike, the kid that could tell will wasn’t okay by a flinch/facial expression. i think mike was being willfully ignorant. it’s easier to pretend everything’s okay—that el isn’t lying, that they love each other, that mike isn’t facing some internal turmoil. status quo, holding up the views of what his reaganite parents and the general public in the 80s expect of him. pushing all of his “otherness” into playing DnD, actively fighting to keep the deeper issues out of sight and out of mind. willful ignorance to keep himself safer, a very common tactic for a lot of queer kids.

it seems to me, however, that what mike does pay attention to is what el writes about will. will whose drawings are still up on his wall, will who he hasn’t called or written to despite giving him the biggest mike wheeler smile before he left. i think he doesn’t write or talk to will for a couple reasons. mike probably thinks if he doesn’t talk to will, he can get over whatever these feelings are he has. he doesn’t want to feel that way and he doesn’t want to call it what it is, so the best way to get over it is distance. ignore it, it’ll resolve itself—like when he fought with el. he’s trying to push a friendship lens onto feelings he knows are at least a little bit more than platonic. maybe he also is afraid that if he does talk to will, he might say or do something wrong. mike isn’t known for being the most emotionally intelligent, but he’s always been far more in tune with will than anyone else.. what if he oversteps? but he still gets news about will, i highly doubt that’s the first letter where el has mentioned her brother. i’d even take a guess that mike has asked after him a handful of times, via el. which brings me to el talking about the painting, about there being “a girl” will might like. i don’t think el had even given a thought to will being queer (she has her own shit going on and the only people who have ever insinuated it were mouthbreathers, so why would she?), but also i highly doubt she’s seen him around with girls if will’s response during the presentation means anything. which to me, that means he’s been private/shy/flustered about the painting enough that el assumed he had a crush.. and it’s the 80s and el doesn’t think he’s queer, so must be a girl, right?

but then.. will is at the airport. and mike doesn’t hug him. and will has the painting. i’ve posted about this already, but i’m going to go a little more in depth here. i don’t think mike knows he has a crush on will. i think he knows he feels something, it’s different and it’s more than friendship. it scares him. he distanced himself because of that. so: no hug. because a hug is giving in, is feeding that feeling that he thinks he shouldn’t have. he sees what is obviously a painting in will’s hand. i don’t think he even slightly makes the connection that it’s for him, because mike is often a ‘forest through the trees’ kinda guy. he asks about it, maybe somewhere deep inside, hoping it’s for him.. but will was just weirdly received with a back slap and so: will doesn’t give it to him, he brushes mike off. mike looks detached during all of this, like he can’t allow himself to feel happy to see will or confused that he brought the painting or sad that it’s not actually for him (even though it obviously is). because if he feels those things, then.. well.. they’re real. so he’s disappointed, but detached. convincing himself he doesn’t have any different feelings for will, that the idea of the painting being for a girl doesn’t make him feel a little bitter. because if he’s bitter then he’d have to figure out why, and he just can’t let himself do that. so everything gets pushed away to the back of his mind, but he still acts weird. because even if mike doesn’t know or acknowledge it yet, he’s still a little hurt in this moment.

then we’re at the rink, and el’s been caught in her lies. when will tells mike, his immediate reaction is to lash out and then.. then he calms down a bit. he’s worried for el, of course, but will seems more worried than he is. his sister is in trouble, so that checks out.. but mike seems not as concerned as i’d expect? i think this is like when hop made him lie about nana.. will just took some of this huge weight off of mikes shoulders. now it’s not on mike for willfully ignoring el’s lies to keep the façade going now, it’s on el for lying. el is now the deceitful one, it’s not mike lying to himself—its el lying to mike. a bit later, when he and will fight, i think it’s half projection and half mike feeling hurt. he ignored the fact that el’s story didn’t make sense.. and el got hurt. i mean mostly emotionally but i roller skate and the way she fell in the rink would fucking HURT. he’s telling will that they’re friends, stressing the word like he’s trying to convince himself that’s all he feels. he’s angry, he’s panicking, he’s lashing out. classic mike, and it almost always feels like a defection when he does it. he asks why it’s his fault, when will never tried either—which is valid to an extent. maybe not a sound argument, because mike tried with el (whether or not that was part of suppressing his feelings for will and lack of feelings for el), but still a valid one. and honestly? i think if will had tried.. mike would’ve folded immediately. after this fight, after they’re back and he and el fight.. he goes to will immediately. he folds. he needs will, especially when he doesn’t have el to distract him from how much.

we get the “you didn’t have to/you never say it” parallel. we get the “team” the “best friends” conversation after el is gone. it’s harder for mike to hide his feelings when he doesn’t have el to project them onto. he cares about el, and so does will—immensely. they want to save her because they love her (in a non-romantic sense). but this conversation isn’t about el, this conversation is about them. they’re setting things in motion to rescue el, but they’re talking about their relationship, they’re reconnecting. will grabs the painting, which shows intent to give it to mike, to confess. but mike is still pushing the friends narrative, even if he’s letting himself fold a little with the “best friends” and the soft glances and the admittance that will is different to him than everyone else. that he missed him. that he needs him.

the car scene proves exactly how much mike needs will. mike needs will to tell him that it’s okay to tell el that he doesn’t love her romantically, even if that’s not what will is actually saying (from will’s perspective). will is obviously gearing up to tell mike he has feelings for him, starting to lay the groundwork to soften what i think will assumes will be a big blow to their friendship. but will is brave and will is kind and will is so full of love for his best friend, so he’s going to tell him anyway. friends don’t lie. i don’t think will even sees this as a lie, maybe not even fully a secret at this point because he is planning to tell mike.. he just has to do it. but mike? mike is full of secrets. he takes will’s speech as a go-ahead to tell el that he doesn’t love her like that, but that it’s okay. he needed will to tell him that it’s okay to not be in love with el, in love with a girl. but he’s still caught in a tangled web of lies that he made for himself, and i think mike is terrified of pulling one string in case it all unravels. mike is good at secrets, he has been since he hid el in his basement. but secrets fester, especially when you have no intention of letting them out.

SO: mike has fought monsters, has trauma, has watched people die. mike has always come back to will, has used will as his anchor. as long as will is okay, he’s okay. but mike is harboring secrets, letting them rot inside him. he doesn’t want to be queer, he doesn’t want to be “othered” in a way that might make him lose his family, his friends, possibly even will—his anchor to feeling okay. so he bottles up everything to try to control the narrative, but he’s grasping at smoke because he’s not in control. he’s never been. the upside down has had a chokehold on all of the kids for years and right now, vecna is driving the bus. the new trailer proves that with will’s line: “he won’t stop.” but as we know, will was never explicitly on the kill list. he’s been taken and possessed and had a fucking awful run, but he said it himself: not him—everyone else. the upside down wants will, whether that’s the mindflayer or vecna, or if the whole plane is a big sentient.. thing.

i think will is going to be taken by vecna (i also think vecna may have been involved in taking him in the first season, as well but that’s a different can of worms), but i don’t think he’s going to be actually vecna’d. i think it’s mike. i think everything i’ve laid out here has been building up inside of mike for years (and i didn’t even go into how much he was ruined in s1 trying to get will back, or how he dropped everything when will wasn’t okay in s2 and stayed by him the whole time).

the kid’s got a lot more than just skeletons and monsters in his closet, and i think it’s going to get him into hot water. mike is called “frog face” by bullies, we’ve all seen the little frog plush—and i can’t help but thinking about that anecdote about a frog in a pot. if the heat is gradually turned up, the frog won’t notice it’s being boiled alive.

i think we’ve had four seasons of michael wheeler sitting in a pot—and the heat has been slowing increasing. vecna is about to boil mike alive.

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Can you tell us about that gender bent midsummer night's dream production you did lights for?

Oh boy oh baby oh boy ive been waiting for this one

So in 2019, I ran lights for a Free Shakespeare in the Park production of Midsummer that took the characters of Lysander and Helena and genderswapped them. Lysander became Lysandra, and Helena became Helenus. And dude???????? It changed...SO MUCH??? It literally lives in my head rent free, i still think about this production every goddamn day. More under the cut.

When Hermia’s father insists that she marry Demitrius or face death, it becomes much less a matter of a man exerting control over his daughter as if he owns her, although it still definitely is that, but now takes on a new dimension. Egeus has delivered an ultimatum: be straight or be killed. Absolutely fucking terrifying, and for modern audiences especially, the stakes suddenly become much more personal and much more real. (We also kept a running tally of every family who left in the middle of the show when they realized it was gay LMFAO our highest record number was 18 families in one night. Gotta love PA!) So in the scene immediately following that, you get this really gorgeous tenderness in the “how now my love, why is your cheek so pale” scene, you know the one. The agreement to elope, the overwhelming joy that comes from the notion of leaving your homophobic father and going to live with your girlfriend’s accepting aunt...it’s good, it gave me the warm and fuzzies.

The Helenus comes on, and oh boy oh boy oh fucking boy. Because in the first scene, you have this line from Lysandra about Demitrius promising himself to Helenus, and Egeus looking absolutely horrified at it, and Demitrius denying it fervently. And Helenus is lost, confused, and desperate, and he’s seeking comfort in two other openly gay people, his childhood best friend and her girlfriend—and the’re both leaving athens. Together. When he gives that fucking goddamn how happy some o’er other some can be speech (which ive had memorized since i was eight because its so unbelievably fuckign good) it’s absolutely HEARTRENDING. Demitrius was his, and they were in love, and then demitrius got cold feet and backed out, and now hermia and lysandra are leaving too, and helenus is going to be alone in athens.

Then you get helenus and demitrius’s first scene together, the “you draw me you hardhearted adamant” scene, the “spurn me like a dog” scene. And this scene was hard for me to watch every single night. Because, now forgive me for getting a little personal, I struggled with a lot of internalized homophobia for a pretty significant portion of my life. And there was this awful heartwrenching moment the actors did where demitrius grabbed helenus by his shirt and their mouths were inches apart and demetrius like tore himself away and stumbled away shouting and it just...i’ll say, okay, i named my sword demitrius(That’s not a euphamism, I have a sword hanging on the wall of my apartment named demitrius, I intend to name all my swords after shakespeare cahracters)because of this character. I don’t like demitrius within the text, i think he’s an asshole LMAO. But this version of demitrius really just grabbed my heart ripped it out of my chest and stomped on it, because he wasn’t a misogynist freak, he was a real dude struggling with some serious significant internalized homophobia. It gave him a reason to reject helenus, it gave him a reason to pursue hermia, and it gave him an actual in-depth character reason to be a dick other than just...hey, this is demitrius, he’s a dick to women.

One of the worst and best scenes every night was the fight scene. Now the fight scene fucking gets me, no matter what, but with the sexuality dynamics, god, it’s just so fucked up. Because when demitrius first starts acting all lovely-dovey towards helenus, there’s this awful heartbreaking look of longing on helenus’s face, and then when “oh, spite, oh, hell” comes bursting out, ur heart breaks ight the fuck along with him. Not to mention now here’s hermia, who ran away from her father to be with her girlfriend, to escape the confines of heterosexuality, so they could be together, and now lysandra is turning away from her and trying to get all cozy with helenus. Helenus’s heart is breaking because he thinks that he’s being betrayed by his own community, being mocked for something that they above all else should support him for. Hermia’s heart is breaking because she’s losing the one person she sacrificed everything to be with. Lysandra and demitrius are fine lmao they’re asleep, they don’t know whats going on.

But like okay. Okay. god. Okay. listen to me. When theyre all running exhaustedly through the woods and they eventually collapse on the ground, sound asleep, and puck comes out with the cure for the spell...he cures them both. HE CURES BOTH LYSANDRA AND DEMITRIUS. Because unlike in the original text, demitrius doesn’t need to be under a spell to love helenus. He loved him all along, he never stopped loving him, he just...wouldn’t let himself. So wheras in the heterosexual midsummer, puck usually cures lysander but not demetrius, in this version, you have them both being cured, both being brought back to themselves. 

And when they wake up, and the lights went all purple and blue and soft and the music started playing (it was fucking moon river. The music was fucking moon river please im going to cry) and they’re all just standing there, holding the person they love, swaying softly, whispering in amazement at their fantastic dream…”are you sure that we are awake?” oh my fucking god. Oh my fucking god. Oh my god.

Then everybody comes storming on, theseus and hippolyta and egeus and such, and demitrius has that line...that fucking line… “The object and the pleasure of mine eye Is only Helenus. To him, my lord, Was I betrothed ere I saw Hermia. But like in sickness did I loathe this food, But as in health come to my natural taste, Now I do wish it, love it, long for it, And will for evermore be true to it.” DUDE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME THAT’S SO GOOD. Because unlike with the magic flower route, he actually is returning to his natural tastes. This is the story, this is his story, this is him giving up on his attempts to hide that part of himself. This is him accepting who he is and wishing for Helenus, loving him, longing for him, will forevermore be true to him….god. It got me every single fucking night. Every goddamn single night that line made me tear up.

And then they all got married and it was lovely and beautiful blah blah its a comedy everybody gets married you know the drill <3 but yeah, i still think about that production every single fucking day of my life. I dont think ill ever stop thinking about it.

[izzyspussy]

okay so i love reddie as like. a concept but i can't do horror movies so i can't watch it, and i've never read the novel. with that in mind: do you have any cute reddie fics i could read without knowing anything beyond the very basics of the plot of it?

I am glad to do this! Disclaimer though, I uuhhhh. "Cute" is not usually in my list of Things I Am Looking For when choosing a fic, so... proceed with caution I suppose. Anyway.

*Pennywise voice* C'mon, Anon, come take your fic...

Canon Compliant (To Degrees) But Not Dependent on Context

I killed a clown. AMA! T, outsider POV, post-canon (Eddie lives)

This could be read as AU, or it could be read as the characters just keeping the real events on the DL. So honestly, however much you may or may not know about canon it can be applied or not as you see fit. I read it (for the first time) before seeing Chapter 2 myself.

I (39M) got stabbed twice today and now I want a divorce. Help?

little pieces of the nothing E, post-canon (everyone lives)

Canon doesn't really come up except in passing.

After Derry, Richie and Eddie start hooking up in secret. Richie knows it's never going to be anything serious—and he's fine with that, really—but sometimes Eddie makes it too easy to pretend otherwise.

Every Crease and Slope M, post-canon (everyone lives)

This one could be described as "cute" I think! Again, canon doesn't really come up.

“Get your foot out of my armpit,” Eddie says, shoving Richie away. “What the hell are we watching?”

“I’m so glad you asked,” Richie says. For a moment, his stomach twists nervously. But the truth is, he knows he has nothing to be worried about, not anymore. “Who here likes to objectify men?”

Shotgun T, post-canon (Eddie lives)

I don't remember but I don't actually think canon comes up at all in this one. And it's cute! Richie fake dates his PR manager to make Eddie jealous because they are both stupid lmfao.

The TRASHMOUTH got off a good one last night … in a spontaneous wedding ceremony with RUMORED GIRLFRIEND Anna Gonzales!!! Spotted hand in hand outside the famous Graceland Wedding Chapel in Las Vegas last night, our favorite raunchy stand up staple was being anything but TRASHY with his new bride.

Change Partners T, post-canon (Eddie lives)

For this one you mostly just have to know that there was an evil clown and it was scary, and made Richie even more scared of homophobia than he might have been otherwise. His phone gets stolen, hacked, and leaked.

"Rich," Eddie says heavily. Meaningfully, and Richie holds his breath, both afraid and hopeful that Eddie is about to say something really sappy, like I always knew and it didn't matter to me, or you know I support you no matter what. Eddie takes a deep breath before he speaks, and Richie closes his eyes, braced for it. "I didn't look at your dick pics."

we were the pretenders E, post-canon (Eddie lives)

It's porn! Only relevant canon: Richie fell from several feet in the air, likely resulting in minor injury.

He watches Richie twist again, the shift of muscle beneath his t-shirt, and then, possessed by some impulse he doesn’t want to examine too closely, says, “I could give you a massage, if you want.”

when everything feels like the movies E, post-canon (everyone lives)

Canon is relevant in this one, but not directly, plenty of context is provided, and the plot of the fic is separate from the plot of canon (it's just character development and romance, babey!).

If he were anyone else, this would be the moment for him to ask what the hell Eddie is doing: in California, generally, and showing up at Richie’s door with a stack of luggage and no explanation, specifically. It’s an interrogation that Eddie has been dreading mostly because he doesn’t actually have any good answers.

Don't Break Character M, post-canon (everyone lives)

I have read this fic three times! I love it! There is one moment that is basically an easter egg for canon info, but you won't miss anything if you don't get it.

It takes one day for a fan to notice. WAS ANYONE GONNA TELL ME RICH TOZIER IS A HE/THEY OR DID I HAVE TO READ THAT IN HIS TWITTER BIO MYSELF??

Eddie Kaspbrak, Office Uncle Extraordinaire T, outsider POV, post-canon (Eddie lives)

I also read this one for the first time before seeing Chapter 2. It has easter eggs for canon(s) as well, but the POV character knows less than you do so those are just fun extras.

Eddie's coworker finally convinces him to bring his elusive spouse to an office party. It goes about as well as you might expect, which is to say spectacularly.

Alternate Universe

Paparazzo, Please M

Cute, cute, cute! But with a suitable amount of angst to make it readable to me lmfao.

Eddie is Richie's first and favorite paparazzo.

hello 911, would you like to hear my dick joke? M

This fic has everything. Cuteness, jokes, making out, grievous injury, Stanley Uris...

Eddie is a 911 operator and Richie takes getting minorly stabbed as an opportunity to get flirty. Much to everyone's chagrin, it works.

HONEY, LET'S GET MARRIED! T

Who doesn't love an ensemble cast and a fake marriage?

Richie offers to marry Bill so he can get financial aid for grad school, Eddie loses his marbles, and Stan makes it his problem.

cherry red E

When the characters think they're in a porno, but then the author makes them fall in love lol RIP.

As it stood, Eddie knew exactly what sort of person he was. He was a shitty, neurotic, repressed as all hell pretentious asshat, and he made every single decision every single day of his life based off of that knowledge. Sure, deciding to get screwed was a weird - but perhaps inevitable - lapse, but he thought he’d chosen the person to screw him quite well.

Just Friends T

When everyone in your life knows you're in love, including the children.

Richie brings Eddie home for a good-old-fashioned family shindig. Everyone thinks they're dating. And it gets worse.

Hope this satisfies your curiosity, Anon! I would say I hope you don't get dragged into the gutter with the rest of us, but I would be lying. Enjoy!

♥ Jack

[lesbian-kyoru]

Quick question, but in your Lesbian!Kyoru AU, how would Tohru find out fem!Kyo turns into a cat? And how would Tohru react if she thought about the fact that she's falling in love with a woman whose name is similar to her mom's?

well to start with the second question, tohru falling in love with kyo in the actual canon story is already FILLED with mommy issues so i think in a lesbian kyoru AU that just becomes even more obvious hdodjdjdjsjsjj

this is interesting to me because, while the parallels between kyoko and kyo (both in personality and in their place in tohru’s heart) are super clear to the reader imo, i’m not sure it’s ever a similarity that tohru spends a lot of time thinking about herself. uo points out to tohru that they have the same hair color, and there’s also the moment during the “rescue tohru from grandpa’s house” chapter where kyo echoes kyoko’s advice to be selfish sometimes. but god.....no tohru is so repressed i don’t think in canon she really stops to think about this, and if she did she’s not letting herself think about it for long LMFAO

however!! in a lesbian kyoru AU i think those parallels could potentially click even more clearly to tohru in a way that she can’t avoid? it just requires less synthesizing information—or rather, more importantly it’s just so blatant that tohru can’t :)) and pretend she doesn’t notice it......idk i really don’t mean this in a creepy Freudian way where tohru has an Oedipus complex 😭LMFAO but i think it would be neat and poignant to have tohru reflecting on how kyoko’s best qualities are also traits that kyo has (their bluntness, courage, recklessness, hearts of gold, etc.), even if it’s in less obvious or more awkward ways :’)) and the names and similar designs might make that connection more clear for her. as people, i think we are almost cyclically drawn to the same kinds of people, and tohru isn’t an exception. (i mean. kyoko, kyo, rin, uo!! like tohru just has a type of person that she is chronically drawn to lmao)

wrt how she’d react if she thought about this, i think the natural place it would take her is fear. because drawing the connection between kyo and kyoko, even in positive ways, ultimately leads tohru to thinking about her mom’s death, of her mom leaving her. and with that, her overarching fear of losing kyo in the same way follows. these parallels and similarities would add to tohru’s panic about the abandonment just repeating itself over and over, and if anything it would actually intensify both tohru’s desire to break the curse and never let go of her mother’s memory—because if she can let go of her mother and fully love kyo, then that also means that she’d lose kyo and have to inevitably let go of him in the exact same way. so maybe it’s honestly for the best that tohru never dwells on this connection too much in canon, because she’s going through enough emotional trauma as it is and she doesn’t need more LMFAO

coming back to your first question! this is actually something that trips me up about a lesbian kyoru AU because obviously you can’t do the exact same first chapter in this scenario! a thought i had is tweaking the first transformation to be kyo still crashing in, but in the midst of her fighting with yuki—it’s yuki that tohru first crashes into, followed by shigure. to get into kyo’s first transformation, i thought about utilizing the mailman who shows up after that?? maybe kyo fucks up and trips and ends up bumping into the mailman, and that’s how we get kyo to transform as well (you would have to mindwipe the mailman after that i guess but. that’s takaya’s problem not mine right now djdjsjsjjsj) another thought i had was you could even have kyo’s cat form be something that we are only told about but never actually see. it makes me think of how kyo’s true form actually only makes one appearance in furuba, and yet it’s still a fact that looms large over the entire story. also i think that plays into highlighting how, in a lesbian kyoru AU, the curse is not actually the thing keeping them apart!!! it’s the internalized homophobia!!!! those are some of my main ideas for dealing with that change, but if i ever actually wrote a full AU i’d want to explore a bunch of options before settling on the specifics

[purplesurveys]

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surveys by seachaange

What do you do when someone is talking to you about something you don't care about? I listen and try to ask questions or add my own input so that they can see that even though I personally don’t care about the thing they’re talking about, I’m invested in them.

What is the best pizza place in your neighbourhood? Erm, we don’t really have a lot of independent pizza joints, actually. Most of the ones I see are chain restaurants like Pizza Hut and Domino’s. The best pizza I’ve had is from Vu’s at Marco Polo, but it’s been a whileeeee since I’ve had their food. Mama Lou’s pizza is also good.

Do you have Photoshop installed on your computer? I do but I only had it installed for school. I have no personal interest to learn it.

Are there any teachers you have that you are close with? I wouldn’t say that. I’m kinda chummy with one of my English teachers from high school - like he knew about me and Gab and supported us, I show my support for his art, we greet each other every now and then, etc - but we’re not ‘close.’

Do you have friends that play field hockey? No.

What about soccer? Not friends but I do know a number people who play football, yeah.

Do you think homosexuals are leading a bad lifestyle? This question aged like milk, didn’t it...

What do you think of the iPad? I remember when it blew up like crazy. It was such a revolutionary thing back when it was new, so much so that my dad even felt the need to buy one. It was fun when the hype lasted; but nowadays I don’t know people who would still seek out an iPad other than artists and law/med students, lmfao.

Do you put lotion on after you get out of the shower? I don’t.

Do you have any concerts on dvd? A lot, but they’re of concerts from a time when DVDs were still a thing. I haven’t had a new DVD in around 7-8 years.

Do you still have a VHS player? I think my parents have thrown theirs out already.

Has anyone ever given you a promise ring? No.

Do you send postcards to people when you go on vacation? I don’t. But aw, this made me remember when Jo did a summer exchange program in London and she sent postcards to Aya in the few months that she had been away. I thought that was sweet.

What do you think is the most comfortable shoe? Out of the pairs I have, my Onitsuka Tiger shoes for sure.

Have you seen Lady Gaga's music video for Telephone? That was suuuuuuch a big deal when it came out. Yes, I definitely have and I must’ve watched it a thousand times. Also rude, Beyoncé was in there too lol

If so, what do you think of it? It was so creative and a lot of fun to watch, especially for 2009 when artists weren’t exactly daring with music video concepts yet. I can’t believe they never collaborated again since.

What do you think of the septum piercing? It’s great.

Do you frequently skip class? Depends on my interest in the class/the professor, OR how tired I am that week. I skipped my psychology elective a lot because I didn’t think the instructor was all that great; and as much as I loved every single one of my history classes, there were a few sessions I voluntarily had to skip because I wasn’t doing mentally well. It really depends.

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When you're really thirsty, what do you enjoy drinking most? Water. Anything else wouldn’t be able to quench my thirst as well.

What do you find inspirational in the world? I think it differs based on what I need to see at a given time, I guess. At this point in my life, I like hearing from people who have risen from their trust and abandonment issues, because it’s what I’ve been going through as well. I probably never would’ve found something like that inspirational, say, 6 months ago, so it really depends.

When hanging out with your bf or gf, what do you like doing most? I’m a very ‘let’s spend time in silence’ type of person. I cherished it the most when my ex and I would go to a coffee shop and work for hours, in complete and comfortable silence; or when I would be driving and no words would be exchanged for nearly the entire ride. Even though I stay quiet, in those moments I’m actually very happy. Of course new experiences are great too, but I personally enjoy the conventional ‘boring’ stuff the most when with a partner.

What do/did you think of your high school? Teeming with homophobia, bigotry, and just your typical Catholic gatekeepy judgmental environment. I look back at high school fondly because of the friends I made, not because of the toxic environment they nurtured in there.

What is the dirtiest rap song you have ever heard? I don’t listen to a lot of rap. But as an 11 year old listening to Nicki Minaj’s Itty Bitty Piggy, I was immediately traumatized lmao. I still can’t listen to that song.

What about a dirty song in any other genre? Uhhhhhhhhh probably Drunk in Love?? Lmaoooo I’d die for Beyoncé a million times but I always skip that song. My asexual ass just can’t deal.

What is a genre of music you simply can't stand? One of them is techno.

What is, in your opinion, the best way of dealing with a break up? Being kind to yourself.

What flavour of Doritos do you like best? I’ve only ever tried the nacho cheese flavor, but I love that one.

Where do you do your grocery shopping? I don’t do the grocery shopping in the family but my parents usually do it at SM or at this local store we have nearby.

Would you ever go to a comedy club? Yes, with a friend so I’d be more comfortable.

Do you think Victoria's Secret is overpriced? I haven’t been in one of their stores in a while, so I can’t really say.

Do you still have a VHS player? Again, I don’t think so.

Do you have a tumblr? :))))))

Why is it that photography is becoming a trend? So this survey was made in 2010 and I can definitely confirm it was a crazy huge trend lol. Even I got into it and asked my parents to get me a DSLR back then. Anyway, I think it was because during this time, DSLRs had been slowly becoming a thing? and they were kiiiiiiiinda cheap - at least cheap enough to be accessible to a large amount of people - so it allowed people to play with different styles that were very unfamiliar at the time, like light painting, fisheye, close-ups, etc. And then at one point everyone had DSLRs and it just wasn’t as enjoyable anymore because everyone was doing the same kinds of trendy shots lol.

What is the funniest movie you have ever seen? I’m gonna go with The Proposal - Sandra Bullock was gold in that movie.

Did you watch American Idol this past season? No. Do they still air new seasons of that?? I stopped watching when the same guitar-playing, country-singing white men kept winning.

If so, how did you feel about the winner? It’s been more than a decade since I last cared for the show.

Don't you hate it when one of your earbuds stops working? Sure.

Do you have a normal landline, or do you use MagicJack? Holy shit I have not heard of MagicJack in a goddamn WHILE lmao, what a throwback. We had one, I’m pretty sure...but I never knew what it was for.

Do you even use a house phone anymore? Landlines are still common in the Philippines. Are they not in other countries? Hahahaha.

Would you ever consider dating someone who lived across the country? If I loved, trusted, and was committed to them enough, yes.

What was the most expensive restaurant you've ever eaten at? I wasn’t able to track the name but I’m pretty sure it was the fine dining restaurant in our cruise trip that my parents treated me to for my birthday.

Do/did you take foods classes in high school? My school didn’t offer such a class, but we had home economics and we were occasionally taught how to cook and bake certain dishes.

Do you have a tattoo? No, not yet.

If you do, describe the pain you went thru when getting it done. Eugh this is what I’m scared of :((((

Do you enjoy making hemp necklaces and bracelets? I’ve never tried.

Have you ever watched the show Strangers With Candy? I’ve never even heard of it before, I’m sure.

What is your favourite bookstore? Fully Booked, because their collection is expansive, always complete, and they let you take a book of the shelves and read it if you’d like.

Have you ever used torrents? Mostly throughout high school. I did use a torrent to download Midsommar recently, though.

How can we tell if you are in a bad mood? I go quiet.

How are you when you're in a really good mood? Complete opposite - I will be bubbly and chatty, especially in instances when I’m not really expected to be.

Are you nice to everyone, even people you don't like? Yes.

When you're bored in class, what do you do? I seldom found myself bored in class because I’m constantly furiously taking notes. But if the prof themselves are very boring and there’s nothing to take notes about, I go ahead and check my social media either from my phone or laptop.

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Would you rather go to Lollapalooza, Warped Tour, or Bonnaroo? As a teenager, I had always wanted to go to Warped Tour. As I’ve gotten older, though, the lineups for Lollapalooza have appealed to me more. Plus it’s in Chicago, soooooo a million more brownie points for that.

Do you have anything that is autographed? By who? Yeah, I have an autographed poster of AJ Lee. It was my most prized possession and I even placed it on a big picture frame and had it up on my wall for yearsssssssss, and then my mom had to take it down because of course it’s my mom and of course she had to do it.

Can you sleep when it's really hot? Welcome to summer months in the Philippines.

Do you know anyone who works at McDonald's? I think Carley does, but idk if that’s changed in the last few months. I don’t stay updated about her life, haven’t been for years.

Do you have a debit card? Yes.

What bank do you (or your family) use? I am not sharing that lol.

Would you ever hitchhike? I think I’m mostly open to it, though I will say I’ve read enough stories about murders that involve hitchhiking that make me a little scared of the idea, hahah.

Have you ever been kayaking? We did a boat thing in Palawan a few years ago but I’m not sure if that was kayaking or canoeing. Anywho, the experience was breathtaking.

Do you have a problem with swimming in a pond or lake? In the context of my country, yeah, because our natural bodies of water aren’t exactly...the cleanest, lmao. I’d feel much more comfortable swimming in a private beach.

Does anyone in your family go hunting or fishing? Nope. But maybe some of my relatives living in the US do?? Idk for sure.

What do/did you do when someone you barely knew asks you to sign their yearbook? We don’t really practice that. Only the really expensive, bougie, international schools here that have foreign students to begin with do that, I think.

In high school are you/were you in the plays and musicals? No.

Do you have a birdbath in your yard? No, we don’t.

Is the house you live in old or new? It’s fairly new; we had it first built in 2005 and we officially moved in 2008.

Where do you go when you need a new pair of sneakers? Depends on what brand I’m in the mood to buy.

Do you make New Year's Resolutions, or do you not even bother? I typically don’t.

Most annoying commercial? Haven’t been paying attention to them lately.

What does your favourite bathing suit look like? It’s just a simple black bikini but its overall shape and design is super cute and chic.

Do you like Silly Bandz? No.

If you do, how many do you have and what are your favourite shapes?

What do you think of My Super Sweet 16? I never watched it because I feel like I’d only get stressed if I did.

Do you have mini-blinds in your house? I have pull-down window shades in my room, not blinds.

Do you rent your home or do you own it? My parents own it.

What is your favourite song right now? Trigger by Hayley Williams.

Do you use Firefox? Nope.

Do you have a pool in your backyard? We don’t.

Do you have a gym membership? No.

Favourite field trip you've ever been on? Freshman year of high school when we went to two museums :)

[sinkingwmyships]

hEY BABY

im back at it again with

JJBA (VA) Purge AU (3)

yeeee this is the one abt the relationship scenarios ;)))

part 1 | part 2

i highly recommend checking out the previous parts first, if not this might be kinda hard to follow

between me and my 1.5 braincells we're trying really hard y'all so pls go easy on us show some support ;_;

OKAY

(oh yea a heads-up no ships are decided yet so treat all these relationship scenarios as hcs (yea imma make AUs inside an AU lmfao))

tw: (1 mention of) homophobia, referenced past abuse, bullying (??)

1. fugio

the first scenario that popped into my head is that Fugo and Giorno go to the same university (for some reason Gio's parents can afford to send him there, idk he probably got financial aid or sth, and then after he killed them (😳 awkwardddd) he's probably using their life insurance in fear of it running out). and Fugo doesn't really care for Gio bc he's a rich boye and he has his quality™️ elite friend circle so why bother himself w a nobody. but in reality all of Fugo's friends are either only on a social level (u know those ppl who you're friends w but u won't necessarily have deep convos w them or choose to hang out w them n stuff), or they're fake and only hang out w him bc of his wealth & status, or bc their rich parents are friends. plus (im referring to the anime backstory here), after the scandal w that professor who sexually harassed him, many ppl secretly hate him and talk shit abt him behind his back due to homophobia.

but anyway, Fugo's plotting against all those biches :) so where does Giorno come in? Gio, being this innocent poor boy who doesn't have a home to go back to, lives on dorm. and let's just say Fugo does too bc he doesn't have the best relationship w his demanding parents, so he was overjoyed when he finally talked them into letting him move from home into the dorms instead. (side note he prolly doesn't Purge his parents bc he needs their money.) so Gio and Fugo know of each other, but not acquaintances or anything.

and then

one day when Fugo's either

running into trouble with some authority figure at school again

just minding his own business and planning his Purge targets

Gio walks in on him, and he's either like

"omg Fugo r u ok do u need help what happened"

"omg Fugo idk what happened between u and ur targets but Purging ain't good, pls reconsider"

and Fugo, having the short-ass fuse that he does (plus probably having his pride wounded and just general mistrust of the ppl around him spurring him on):

"stfu u know nothing about me, but now you've seen this i guess it wouldn't hurt to kill you too"

"stfu u know nothing about me, ur probably one of those happy asshats that have no need for Purges, reconsider?? haha the only thing i'll reconsider is if i'll add u to my kill list" (bc if Gio reports him or sth, Fugo & his fam can get into trouble, since his targets are probably rich and/or influential ppl, but it isn't Purge time yet, so it can be considered malicious intent and/or attempted murder i guess, and so anyone who has any beef w the Fugo fam can bring them down) (i know nothing abt law don't come for me)

and then Gio is like "fuck dis shit im out" and he skrts tf out of there, but sadly Fugo ain't lying 😔 the day of the Purge comes, and Giorno was just trying to barricade himself inside his dorm room when suddenly, Fugo pulls an FBI OPEN UP and breaks inside using all his high-tech weaponry n stuff (i'll share my hcs for chara design later!!). Gio is freaking out so he jumps out the window into the streets, even risking going outside during Purge just so he can get away, but oh 🅱️oy is Fugo stressed tonight. and he literally hunts Gio down and almost kills him

uNTIL!!!¡!

2. abbacchio & giorno:

(SORRY I JUST LOVE DADBACCHIO & GIORSON SO MUCH)

Abbacchio is tasked w hunting down a certain rogue criminal, so he's la-di-da cruising thru Naples to get to Bucci's house, when suddenly this fucking kid comes running up to him with his hair and clothes all messed up and tears running down his face, and is like "pls help me sir i beg u i just need somewhere to hide pls i don't want to do this i don't want to die" and Abba's like "fuq??" but then he hears manic laughter and chainsaws revving and shit, and the kid sniveling all over his crisp™️ Purge suit looks like he can explode with fear at any moment (and plus Abba understands that nobody would ever run up to another person for help during Purge like this, unless it's really their last option), so he sighs, "fine. get behind me."

the kid drops to his knees and Abba can't help but think "aaahhhh fucking dead weight", but he said he'd help, so that's what he's gonna do. now ANOTHER kid rounds the corner but he barely looks sane, he seems almost possessed by something. *fighting ensues* but being a professional cop Abba knocks the kid out cold w a few swift moves, and when he drops to the ground that crazy expression finally leaves his face. he's already wasted too much time, so Abba turns to Kid 1 and is like "go back home brat and dont get into trouble again", but Kid 1 is still a trembling mess on the ground, and he says "i don't have any home to go back to."

subconscious Abba's like "well that's between you and god" but he knows he's basically this kid's god now (besides, there can't possibly be a god that would let things like Purges happen), so he's like, "fine. get in the car and DON'T get in my way" but THEN Kid 1 points to the passed-out demon child, "but we can't leave him here"

A: "he was gonna KILL you!!"

K1: "i know but he didn't mean it, he was just not thinking straight"

A: "Purges ain't where ppl think str8 kid, besides if he didn't really wanna Purge he wouldn't have geared himself up that well"

K1: “but he’s not a bad person. please, if we leave him out here in this state he’ll be killed for sure.”

at this point Abbacchio can't understand wtf Kid 1 is thinking, but for the first time in years he finds some of the humanity he was hoping to regain in Purge, so he's like "fine. haul him into the backseat. but you're sitting with him bc i got my shit in the front. and if he wakes up you're dealing w it this time. cool?"

Kid 1 nods, and surprisingly he has enough strength to shove Kid 2 into the backseat & get in after him. Abba is trying to decide what he wanna do w these kids, when his phone suddenly beeps, and in comes a new message from his superiors, "yo dawg u gotta hurry up and kill that Bucciarati guy, we'd better not catch u slacking" and he's like "yo Kid 1, can u fight?"

"uh, a bit. why?"

"well, that's what you're gonna do for me in return for my protection."

anywhooooo i imagine that later on, Fugo wakes up like "ugh wtf hello concussions????" and he sees Gio standing over him, and he snaps into defensive mode, sitting up and shoving Gio away and everything. but then he sees that Gio's hands are empty, save for maybe a bottle of water and a towel, and somehow Fugo's own wounds are all cleaned and bandaged, and he groans:

"dude, what the fuck are you doing? did i pass out? did you find help?"

G: "you got hit over the head pretty hard, don't move so suddenly."

F: "haha yea thanks i can feel that myself, anyway wtf were you doing?"

G: "uhhhhh... abbacchio patched you up but your face was really grimy so he told me to clean you up, and maybe give you some water?"

F: "no. i mean like what the fuck were you doing????? braincells hello?? kill me! i should be dead!!! is Purge over?? did the sirens go off before you can finish me?"

he suddenly notices how Gio just recoils and sits there with his eyes squeezed shut as Fugo shouts at him and flings his arms around. but he's seen how Gio defended himself against him, so he knows this guy can fight and is no stranger to Purges. this is the first mystery his 152 IQ has encountered in a long time, so Fugo reaches out to get Gio's attention, but then Gio jumps and slaps his hand away so hard Fugo feels his bruised brain jar. he pulls back immediately, holding his hands up, palms forward, finally kind of able to pierce together what's going on inside the blond's mind:

"sorry. wasn't gonna attack you. just... wasn't sure if you were listening to me, so i tried to get your attention."

"i was."

"okay. sorry." Fugo tries, but Gio is already standing up and leaving, glassy green eyes looking anywhere but at him. "wait! Gior— ugh??"

he almost faceplants the ground again. where's my stupid-ass helmet???? i need to be on balance mode stat. but then Fugo feels two arms helping him up, and he looks up to see Gio, frowning in distaste but still supporting him all the same. he feels bad for asking (as if he hasn't bothered this poor guy enough): "uh, so, what exactly happened while i was passed out?"

oh, honey...

a lot :)

BUT PLOT SPOILERS SO THIS ENDS HERE!!!!!! xD

ya know i might actually go w fugio after all :00 but if i do end up writing this, it will span over 12 hours / 1 Purge only, so even if there are ships they'll probably only be implied, instead of madly into each other by the end of everything :P

to be cont’d… 👀🔪 perhaps with other relationship hcs :0 or chara design?? who knows. suggestions?

feel free to drop any questions you have, or just scream to me in the cmts in general!! i’m happy to answer anything, from chara motives to backstory clarification, or anything else!! ik up to now these posts have just been walls of texts, so :’D thanks for reading thooooo 💖

part 4 | part 5

[karazrel]

the most irritating part about the whole wardrobe shift is their reasoning behind it lmfao i remember the eps talking about how its bc she matured now from who she was in s1-3 when she wore lots of button up to now where shes wearing 1k dollar worth of ugly dresses the implication that women less feminine clothing has something to about a woman's maturity absolutely enrages me!! they wanna no homo her so bad they come up w the most brain rotten ideas

Oh yeah I remember that, I truly can’t wait until shows/movies stop pretending hyperfemininity when it comes to superheroes is actually revolutionary and ~breaking gender roles~ or whatever other bs argument they’ve come up with to try and disguise their homophobia and misogyny. and that goes double for supergirl. like give me 1 good reason why they’d remove the suit padding or have her put on bright lipstick every time she’s SG as soon as she gets pants??? you’re telling me supergirl is gonna be picking out her favourite shade of red while people are dying and getting robbed?? she had it on in CRISIS!!!!!!! THE WORLD WAS BEING DESTROYED AND SHE STILL HAD TIME TO SLAP ON SOME LIPSTICK?!?!!!!????????? honestly 90% of their shitty writing and other issues can be directly linked to them scrambling to no-homo kara by any means possible and ending up with universally hated storylines like s3 and s5 or inexplicable character choices like everything happening w lena and kara this season

[swedemoved]

caffeine-fueled extravaganza under the cut

so! christine and religion!

for starters, christine is lutheran-christian! christine was born in sweden! sweden was converted from catholicism in 1527 to lutheranism, during the protestant reformation act by martin luther. it also converted most of germanic europe to lutheranism. the lutheran church of sweden was formed and remained the official religion of the christian state until the turn of the 21st century. 

the protestant reformation act: in sweden, protestant reformation was lead by gustav vasa, the elected king in 1523. this dude had friction with the pope and caused some problems. four years later, king gustav succeeds in making the diet of västerås accept his dominion over the national church. dude was given all possessions of the church, church appointments needed royal approval, and the clergy were subject to civil law. the ‘pure word of god’ was to be preached in churches and taught in schools, giving way for official sanction to lutheran ideas. the apostolic succession was retained in sweden during the reformation. lutheranism is also why the dacke war happened, so that’s a Thing.

what do lutherans believe, tl;dr: jesus christ is the promised savior in the old testament. they believe he is both by nature god and by nature man in one person. so. our mans is both. dope. lutherans are also trinitiarian. they reject the idea that the father, the son, and the holy spirit are different faces of the same person. the holy spirit proceeds from both the father and the son. lutherans also follow two sacraments instead of the usual seven; baptism and communion.

“luther believed that, to be a sacrament, a ritual had to be explicitly instituted for the church by jesus in the gospels. jesus does tell his disciples to go and baptize in the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit (matthew 28:19), and at the last supper as he breaks bread he tells them to "do this in remembrance of me" (luke 22:19). other rituals, while important, do not meet these criteria. they are rites but not sacraments. rites that are for specific occasions, such as marriage or ordination, take place during ‘occasional services.’” (article excerpt)

“eschatology - lutherans do not interpret the rapture as most other protestant denominations do. instead, lutherans believe christ will return only once, visibly, and will catch up all christians together with the dead in christ. the tribulation is the normal suffering all christians endure until that last day. heaven and hell - lutherans see heaven and hell as literal places.heaven is a realm where believers enjoy god forever, free from sin, death, and evil. hell is a place of punishment where the soul is eternally separated from god. individual access to god - luther believed each individual has the right to reach god through scripture with a responsibility to god alone.” (article excerpt)

lutherans confess that scripture is united with the power of the holy spirit and with it, not only demands, but also creates the acceptance of its teaching this teaching produces faith and obedience. holy scripture is not a dead letter, but rather, the power of the holy spirit is inherent in it. thus, christine takes her faith very seriously.

lutheran traditions: lutherans follow the sunday worship service, like many other religions derived from christianity. lutherans follow the liturgical calendar of: advent, christmas, the time after the epiphany, lent, the three days, easter, and then the time after pentecost. the festivals are nativity, epiphany, the baptism of our lord, the transfiguration, the annunciation, palm sunday, easter, the ascension, pentecost, holy trinity, all saints, and christ the king.

crosses or crucifixes?: both! they both symbolize the death of chirst for salvation.

christine’s relationship with religion, her thoughts and beliefs: christine really and truly believes her father is in heaven. she does not, however, believe that he sent her the angel of music, nor that the angel of music is her father. she is extremely devout and attends church every sunday, never misses it; regularly goes to confession and also goes to church for rites such as palm sunday, the ascension, etc. prays the rosary before bed. gustave daaé always made a point of taking christine to church when she was little; she keeps her faith close to her heart because of this, believing that it strengthens their bond. he also gave her a silver cross before he died. it is the last thing she has from him. 

she believes in sin and the repercussions of which. she does her best to follow scripture and be godly, but she’s only human. her attraction to other women is both something that excites her and frightens her; she doesn’t know what to do with it, simply put. she’s conflicted. one moment she’ll be bold, the next she’ll be worried she’s done something abhorrent. she has a lot of internalized homophobia, but only towards herself. she does not judge others; that’s god’s job. she is always accepting. christine is kind, considerate, and does not push her beliefs on others.

on the angel of music: she did, briefly, believe erik to be an angel. but that illusion was quickly shattered. she had her suspicions and doubts. devout as she is, christine is not as naive as people like to believe. after she unmasks him, confirming that he was only a man, she still considers him a gift from god; she treasures their relationship, both platonically and romantically. 

closing thoughts: honestly if you read even a sentence of this i wanna give you a hug lmfao uHHHHHH what do i have to say for myself......... i go on and on about how religious christine is but i’ve yet to Supply so. here we are. i love my babie.

[bloodstvin]

golden child , 𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐁𝐎𝐘 ; tell me what it’s like to 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓆𝓊𝑒𝓇. fearless child , 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄𝐍 𝐁𝐎𝐘 ; tell me what it’s like to ( 𝒃𝒖𝒓𝒏 ). 𝚘𝚑 𝚍𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚕. 

triggers : murder , ptsd mentions , war mentions... there’s probably more tbh.

𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒐𝒏𝒆.    𝒸𝒽𝒾𝓁𝒹𝒽𝑜𝑜𝒹 𝒾𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔𝒹𝑜𝓂 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝓃𝑜𝒷𝑜𝒹𝓎 𝒹𝒾𝑒𝓈.

nicholas was born in the very MIDDLE of a giant and extremely long lightning storm that eventually turned into a bigger storm. his parents are shelby forbes & andrew o’shea his mother says that once he was born the storm started to settle and the sun came out of the clouds. his parents were... normal. his mother was a teacher and his dad was a lawyer. nothing supernatural about them. his father was a serious man who didn’t talk much about his childhood his time in the military ( he served in the vietnam war ). 

nicholas was always a good kid. he didn’t necessarily belong to a particular clique in high school , he mainly just floated. he did sports because he was good at them and he was proficient in languages and other school subjects. he was good with his hands and when it came to hands on activities. but he was exceptionally good at art. he had a lot of imagination and creativity that you would be surprised by. he could have gone on to an arts school… but he didn’t.

when nicholas was sixteen he was out in the middle of a storm that nearly destroyed his childhood home. he was truly just making sure that all of their animals were safe and in the barn and weren’t still out running in the storm or injured somewhere. nicholas was struck by lightning in the storm. he nearly died but he DIDN’T. he was as close as you can get. his heart even STOPPED. when he breathed life and woke up – HIS FATHER was sitting at his side. that summer he really got to know his father for the first time in forever. 

nicholas had considered art school , it was a great passion of his and he was a damn good artist too. but things changed. when he got back to school after summer break school was the last thing on his mind. it was like his eyes had opened and could see for the first time in years. he did apply to art schools and got in to all of the ones that he applied to but his heart and mind were telling him to do something else.

𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒘𝒐.    𝑜𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝑒𝒶𝒹 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓈𝑒𝑒𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑒𝓃𝒹 𝑜𝒻 𝓌𝒶𝓇.

nicholas signed up for the army the day he turned eighteen. he met his future wife barely a week later. she was there when he left his small town for boot camp. they were very much a dear john love story. they sent letters back and forth when he was in boot camp and continued when he was sent around the world. he would come home for a week at a time. they eloped young and had one child not that much later. their love burned , though never got to burn out -- she died when their child was x years old ( will be decided when eldest child is taken ! ) nicholas was in afganistan at the time. 

two years later he married his current ex-wife. big wedding. they had two children together. 

he spent as much time at home when he could. he was not much of a presence in his child’s lives when they were young but he visited when he could and sent letters as often as he was able to. but letters only went so far. his wife just wanted help with their unruly children and his children just wanted a father. nicholas had an even bigger chance to leave after the incident that caused most of his team to die. ( he had signed up for x amount of years which has coincidentally came up after everything ) he wasn’t in the jeep when they went over the mine , but he was SUPPOSED to be and last minute he ended up staying behind with the others. he heard that explosion and his stomach dropped. some of those left alive after what happened left completely. nicholas didn’t. he did take a break after the incident. he went home , he attended his sisters funeral ( who died not that long before ) he grieved with his family as well as grieving for the army family he lost. but still , he continued on eventually and saw even more horrific things , saw his life flash before his eyes more times than he could count. sometimes he wondered why he kept on going and kept renewing his contract and then he remembered when he went back home and couldn’t deal with regular everyday life. 

niholas ended his contract with the army after a disaster with his then team. the person in charge had essentially put everyone in a horrible situation and surrounded by the enemy - a person that nicholas was supposed to trust with his LIFE. nicholas was left to get everyone out alive. and somehow , he did. he got everyone out alive with no fatalities and minimal injuries. nicholas was awarded a medal for his heroism , which he just called “ SHEER DUMB LUCK “ lmfao

𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆.    𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒾𝓉 𝑒𝓃𝒹 ?

nicholas and his wife divorce when he’s thirty-two years old. their marriage had been strung along for TOO LONG and it was obvious to almost everyone that they hadn’t had a good marriage in years. but also , what they didn’t tell everyone at first is that they both came out as gay during this time. sure , their relationship wasn’t the best but the bottom line is that they were both unhappy and trying to force happiness in a marriage that should have ended a long time ago -- or not even started at all.

nicholas had never questioned his sexuality. he assumed he was straight. he never had internalized homophobia or anything. it just wasn’t something he thought about. he did was his parents did because that was what he knew. he never even realized that he could have been gay until his early thirties. his focus had always been on other things , too. 

the day the divorce was official lifted a huge weight off of his shoulders. he hadn’t realized how much he had been holding in until that moment. the divorce was the best thing the two of them ever could have done.

he also started med school , which he breezed through. idk when , tbh. but he’s a pediatric surgeon now and one of the best in his field in nyc ! 

anyways.

last summer , the whole gang went on a camping trip together ( nicholas , ex wife , 3 kids ) in upstate new york. it was a great bonding experience for them and brought them all really close. but... 

nicholas’ youngest child ( age thirteen ) was “ mauled by a bear “ when he wandered off in the middle of the night. nicholas was the one to find him a little while off. there wasn’t even a body to bury - it was that bad. 

but it wasn’t a bear. or a coyote. though , nicholas doesn’t know anything about that.

𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒓.    𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝒷𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓃𝑜𝓌.

it’s been a year since his youngest child died. they’d be fourteen now. a day doesn’t go by where nicholas doesn’t think about the gruesome scene he happened upon. it gave him nightmares for months and made his grief so much worse. 

he started going to grief counseling a few months ago... but that’s as close to therapy as he’ll get. he definitely struggles with ptsd a lot and probably will continue to for the rest of his life. he’s still never gotten help for it. 

𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚  &  𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒏𝒔.

he’s related to the forbes family & is quite close to kathy forbes ! she’s basically his kid. 

he does a lot of work with foster kids , which is how he ended up fostering / adopting a few. 

he also used to take in multiple foster kids at a time , though he hasn’t done that in a few years now.

u can find him on okcupid ( winks @ jasper )

despite what happened to his youngest kid ..... he doesn’t know about the supernatural. he truly thinks that his kid died from a bear attack because that’s what it looked like. he’s just a dumb human , bois. 

he has a very old cat named floof ( his kids named her ) , a corgi named bear & a golden retriever named lily. 

he regularly struggles with ptsd , it’s a big reason why his marriage wasn’t working out. he never wanted to get help.

he’s struggled with alcoholism , especially after coming home. 

when he was struck by lightning , it left quite the scar on his body. which doesn’t even compare to the other scars he has scattered on his skin. 

he had a younger sister named theresa o’shea. she died due to wrong place at the wrong time.

there’s been A LOT of supernatural - based things happening in his life. but he’s never noticed any of them nor has he connected the things to the supernatural. 

he coaches his niece’s softball team on the weekends. 

personality-wise... he’s JUST A GOOD DUDE. he loves his family and he loves his kids so much. he’d do anything for his kids , tbh. he MEANS WELL but it doesn’t always come off that way. in the military he was hard due to the circumstances he was in. the tragedies that he has seen made him a little cold in the army but outside of that he’s soft. he doesn’t keep up with pop culture and technology. nicholas has a strong set of morals that he abides to – he’s known for his heroism , even as a kid before he got into the military.

he was born in england and lived there till he was fifteen -- when him & his parents moved to nyc. 

𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅  𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔. 

EX WIFE / BEST FRIEND. despite everything... they’re best friends. she’s his foundation that keeps him from slipping. also strong ... wlw & mlm energies. human. 

ELDEST CHILD. they’ll be 21-23 years old. pref a poc. human.

SECOND ELDEST CHILD. from second marriage. age 17 - 19. human. 

ADOPTED / FOSTERED KIDS. two total. any age. taken in within the past 10 years. human.

ARMY SQUAD. army squad ! they’ve been able to stay in touch throughout the years and are basically as close as siblings.

OLDER SIBLING. they’re just ..... so close. he really leans on his older sibling a lot for help with his kids. nicholas might be the glue that holds his family together but their older sibling is like ,,,, the life jacket that keeps him afloat. 

GRIEF SUPPORT GROUP. he’s been going for a few months now and while he doesn’t talk a lot .... it helps.

DATES GONE WRONG .... HOOKUPS .... EXES. even dads need sum love ! 

FRIENDS. he’s a very likable dude ! lots of friends ! he’s very charismatic and everyone tends to like him. 

CO - WORKERS. make him the hot surgeon around the children’s hospital he works at. everyone has a crush on him bc he’s hot ! af ! 

INTERN. they’d be his intern and wanna be a doctor / surgeon / they just wanna work with kids in a hospital setting. 

LIKE A YOUNGER SIBLING / CHILD. they were in the military together and he basically looked out for them and now they’re both in nyc. he still sees them as a kid , despite them not being a child. at all. 

HUNTERS. hunters who looked into the case involving his child being killed by a bear. they know that it wasn’t a bear... maybe they tell him at some point ? idk.

MURDERER. the person who killed his thirteen year old kid. could be vampire , werewolf... could even be a bitch or some misc creature. 

ETC. he coaches a little league softball team ... works a lot with foster kids .... he’s also cousins to a founding family so. connections. 

𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒔.

stats - tba.

pinterest - tba.

playlist - tba.

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Sexuality: No More to say and so over it

A few months after my long term girlfriend and I split up, I ended up in bed with Phillip, A nice guy that I’d known for some time. During the post-sex talk, he turns and asks “So does that mean you’re straight now?” 

“LMFAO” 

‘You’ve got a nice cock and I had a great orgasm, …..but you haven’t awoken anything in me that wasn’t already there. You cannot ‘make’ me straight and no one forced me to fuck you’ 

Infact, No one else would sexually awaken anything in me. Not the next guy after Phil, or the guy after that guy, or the girl after the guy after Phil. The list goes on and the list started waaaay back into my early teens. I've always been open, I was experimenting with drugs and people at a young age, I had a threesome with a guy and a girl when I was just 18. When I look back, I must admit that was very young for such an experience, but I just went with the flow. I don’t regret it, but I wish I had done it at a later age to really make the most of it and have the emotional maturity that you need to go with it. 

I’ve been listening to an interview with Kate Pierson (B52’s) and she has recently married her long term partner, a woman that she has dated for 15 years. She said that she had always dated men, and was even married before and that this lady came along and bang she was in love, just like that. Kate Pierson is now 71, So this is her 55-year-old self experiencing a major transition and shift in her life. Whilst trawling through the B52s back catalog online I read so many comments from random fans. ‘She's a lesbian’ ‘I never knew’ ‘But she was married to so and so’ and this is exactly the snooze fest that I am writing about today. Yawn...... If she spent 40 years with different men and now met a woman, perhaps shes just er just bisexual? And more importantly, shouldn’t we be interested in the music and her voice? As much as I love her, when all is said and done I don’t really want to think about the bedroom antics of a 71-year-old yknow.  

What is it with the labels?  

It’s like no one is comfortable until they know exactly which box you belong in, and if you stray from that box then their tiny minds scramble and system overload occurs. ‘ANNOUNCE YOURSELF AT ONCE’ ‘What are you?’ and ‘Don’t you dare have options or change, it doesn’t fit with the label I’ve prescribed you’.  

Before we label Kate a lesbian, how about we mention that she’s a brilliant talented vocalist with over 40 years in the band? Or is that how we are defining her now ‘The lesbian’?. *Insert laughing emoji here* 

“Bisexuals always get dumped on,” says Cynthia Nixon from Sex in the City...The Media has too labeled her a lesbian when much like Kate Pierson, she was in fact with men and entered into this new world later on in her life. It’s like now we must erase her whole previous life and deny that any man has ever come close to her! How dare she now turnaround and say she's’ attracted to men! How fucking dare she, she’s lesbian property now and she has no voice! She never said she was anything, You did!   

I thought, ‘I get it! I get You, I just get it’. She’s attracted to people, they may be male or they may be female yet shes being kettled to a place she never asked to be. It really is that simple. Should her current relationship end, nothing stops her going back to men, dating another woman or even staying single. Your past partners do not mean that your future self is set in stone. It’s not difficult to understand really is it?  

But! And there is a But!  

Say Cinthia and her gf/wife did break up and she dated a man. She won’t find it that easy, because of what I call, the whole ‘lesbian fragility’ - Gay women who pride themselves on being with women and only women and god fucking forbid should you show any interest in a guy. Well, You are now damaged goods my girl. A sell-out, banished!....exiled from the pride....like the Lioness in last weeks BBC Planet Earth. How can you and the gay community ever really watch the L Word again together or listen to Ani Difranco in the same way? ‘It’s just not the same’ they’ll whine.  

I’m being serious. There is a reverse discrimination within the gay community! I’ve seen it first hand. I’ve seen a few women in same sex relationships end, then go for a guy and their ‘friends’ no longer feel the same way about them, there’s no time to hang out anymore and she is “too busy with her straight friends”.  

Awwwww did someone emasculate you? 

I’ve never really enjoyed the company of gay women if I'm honest. I always found their friendships forged on sharing of sexual preference rather than common interest, views or hobbies. I usually think their haircuts are shit and they present me with this feeling where they are unsure if they want to fuck me or fight me. Very awkward, not to mention its a very childish and incestuous scene.  

I have seen this so many times with women, either in a same sex or opposite and then switch later on down the line which is what I mean about experience and just understanding those around you. I think a lot of women are on the bi spectrum. Not all, no, but a lot are, and sexuality is fluid.  About three months ago my cock hungry straight friend told me she’d met some woman online and is now having the best sex of her life! Great, wonderful, Whoppie.  So how do I label her? …....‘Err Mary’......... I label her Mary. I can’t really call her cock hungry right now, so I’ll just label her ‘Hungry Mary’. 

One of my oldest friends is gay – full blown lesbian, never been with a guy but totally cool with every bi girl that has. She and I sit on a different part of the spectrum, but she gets it and like myself she gives those around her that mutual respect and safe space to be who they are. If she turned around tomorrow and said she’s dating a guy, I wouldn’t be shocked, not because she has ever indicated that she likes guys, but simply because people change.  

I know three guys that have also experimented with other guys, would identify as straight and two of the three have long term girlfriends and kids. I just think at the time they took the ‘any holes a goal’ attitude and like my younger self, just went with the flow. 

As we age and grow the fuck up, this should be more accepted and we should just allow people to do who and what they want without the questions, especially the silly questions. It’s really mind numbingly boring, not to mention so nosey!? Jeez, get your own life in order. Despite my ramblings, I'm actually a pretty private person.  I just don’t discuss my private life or anyone I’m dating, I have so many transient non-committal interactions with people that I just don’t feel I need to. 

 I’ve been chatting to some people for ages, and I still wouldn’t discuss parts of my life with them. I keep my circle so small, and If we don’t click like that, we don’t click like that. It’s cool, because there is far more to me and far more to you than who we have in our beds right? I cant imagine meeting someone and asking them, “so what are ya?” CRINGE. I’d die. I’ve got some friends that I’ve spoken to for years, we’ve had really great conversations and it’s never occurred to me to stop and ask ‘do you have a partner? Are you gay?’  

The small circle of friends that I have know me, they get me and that’s my safe space.  

I do find some of the questions and statements really annoying, and if I’m honest just plain weird. I have an irritating male friend in that likes to continually remind me that I’m attracted to women, and of course, there is no way that I can be attracted to men, because I’m not attracted to him..... *eye roll* Dick! It’s like me saying to someone, ‘but you said you like mixed raced girls, so why don’t you like me’ it’s really really weird and it makes me feel uncomfortable. Its uncomfortable because he cannot address or acknowledge his own fascination with bisexuality and cannot stop mentioning it every time he sees me? He makes out he is cool and open-minded, yet I seem to be the topic of convo or butt of his jokes. Address your homophobia or your weird unrequited sexualisation of me whatever the issue is. Seek help mate, Your issue not mine. 

I cannot recall being asked what two women do in bed, but I have heard of it being asked to other people. It’s hilarious. I honestly believe that if you are over 25 and cannot work that out then you have a really dull imagination and I’d bet you are not very experienced. Not necessarily in bedding two women at once, but just in experiencing people; hearing their stories, watching porn, understanding their anatomy and physiology. OR You are being a menace and condescending..... I’ve never seen two men at it live, but I’m pretty sure I know how it goes down ;-)  

Sometime ago I spent a fair amount of time at a bdsm sex dungeon helping out an old friend. Id mostly film her sessions, and now and then Id help out by giving some guys the odd little kick in the nuts etc. Boy, I could write a whole new blog on that experience LOL! I saw some things!  

Meeting all the different types of people that came in the dungeon really opened my eyes to the world of sex and sexuality and just what turns people on. You really cannot judge what people are into, and you’d never know. It’s funny, the ‘geezers’ that make the gay jokes about bumming are often the same ones that ask the women to wear strap ons ;-). People have their quirks and their kinks, they just hide it well BELIEVE me. 

I’ve seen a lot and I’m very open and not much phases me, but because I’m not phased, or excited by the gossip or the fascination of it all I'm over it. …....over the labels, the questions, the presumptions, opinions and the basic inability to let people do what they want in peace. So because of this I decided a long time ago that I’m actually over my sexuality and stopped speaking about it  back in my twenties. 

Yawn.  

No one owns me and no one dictates.

I’m not anything, I’m just me in that particular point of time. No path is set and I answer to no one except who’s in my bed. 

Keep your own truth

[tankun]

do u know any fics where jungkook is a brother of one of yoongis friends?

Hello, Anon!

Sorry for the wait, but it took me a while to go through all of my recs. I’m a little disappointed, because I know of two fics that would fit this request perfectly, but it appears they have been deleted. I tried looking for them, but I really can’t find them :{ (One was Yoongi sleeping over at his friends house and sleeping with his older brother (Jungkook), and the other was Yoongi and his friend had a project and then he ended up sleeping with his friend’s brother (Jungkook).. but I really can’t find them. 

I’m sorry :{

In hopes of making it up to you, I have a few fics that are… sort of along the same lines. Not really, but I tried.

Jungkook is Yoongi’s brother’s friend in this fic: 

Redolent by wickedqriosity  ║ Childhood to Lovers ║ Dom/sub ║ Mentions Underage Jungkook ║Jealous Jungkook ║ Jealous Yoongi ║ Flashbacks ║ BDSM║Bondage ║ Blindfolds║Spanking ║ Blowjobs ║ Deepthroating ║ Recreational Drugs ║ Drug Use║Alcohol ║ Self-Discovery ║ Daddy Kink ║ Angst ║

Jungkook is Seokjin’s cousin in this one:

nothing lasts forever but wouldn’t it be nice to stay together for the night by Saranghae  ║ Two-Shot║ College AU ║ Past YoonMin ║ Strangers to More║Depression ║ Heavy Making Out ║ Sexual Flirting ║ Sexual Content║Alcohol ║ Alcoholism ║ Referenced Homophobia ║ Slight Angst ║ No Smut║

Jungkook is Yoongi’s ex girlfriend’s brother.. As well as Yoongi’s stalker:

Hypoxia by SiriusOITNB (loudanaconda)▪ We Break Down Red║ Highschool AU ║Childhood Acquaintances ║ Stalking ║Unhealthy Relationship ║ Slight Dom/sub ║ Dubious Content║Obsessive Behavior║Alcohol║First Times║Blindfolds║Frottage║Barebacking║Bondage║Slight Fluff║Slight Angst║▪ A Rush of Blood And Sugar║ Highschool AU║Childhood Acquaintances║Stalking║Unhealthy Relationship║Dom/sub║Obsessive Behavior║Dubious Content║Possessive Jungkook║Jealous Jungkook║Alcohol║Cigarettes║Death Threats║Mentions Rape║Sadism║Masochism║Blood and Injury║Suicidal Thoughts║Humiliation║Blindfolds║Frottage║Barebacking║Bondage║Rough Sex║Blowjobs║Face Fucking║Spanking║Rimming║Slight Fluff║Slight Angst║

Yoongi and Jungkook are siblings by marriage in this one. I added it just because lmao:

Look What You Maid Me Do by Nasobem  ║ Two-Shot ║ Mentions Underage Yoongi and Jungkook ║ Enemies to Lovers ║ Siblings by Marriage ║ Crossdressing ║ Dom/sub ║ Barebacking║Spanking ║ Hair Pulling ║ Humiliation ║ Rough Sex ║ Lingerie ║ Rimming║Slight Angst ║ Homophobia ║ Cigarettes ║ Alcohol ║ Parental Abuse ║ Fluff║

And if you really wanna get silly.. Yoongi is Hoseok’s best friend, who is friends with Namjoon, who is engaged to Seokjin, who is cousin’s with Taehyung, who is best friends with Jimin, who is friends with Jungkook is this fic:

The First of Many to Come by Tankun║ Domestic AU ║ Married ║ Barebacking ║ Body Worship ║ Rimming║Overstimulation ║ Multiple Orgasms║Mild Humor║Fluff ║

It’s a really really minor detail though lmfao. I’m a nut job xD

I’m really sorry that I couldn’t give you exactly what you were asking for :{ Like I said those other two fics vanished.. There may be other fics out there in the same realm that I just don’t know about yet (I do have an almost 200+ queue list of fics to read.. so I apologize if I’m a little bit behind.)

I tried my best, Anon! 

[louisadmirer-archive]

you haven’t heard this rumor what?! basically there were screenshots of this convo happening between somebody and their friend who had known olly (?) or something like that. and so in it the friend talks about how olly said that louis initiated things cause Harry was too young and that niall was worried or smth cause he was afraid about what would happen w the band (i don’t think bc of homophobia, more like, they won’t make it and it’ll ruin things) (1/3)

the screenshots also said that apparently everybody (olly specifically, I think?, cause there was something about how he thought they’d just get hurt and be in pain cause he knew it would be difficult) was telling hl to break up but Harry WOULD NOT HAVE IT and was outright refusing to listen and all. (2/3)

a more nsfw part: apparently hL were caught shagging in a club and they just like finished or whatever lmfao and then went back to their friends and laughed about it like it was no biggie. (3/3)

ALSO! there was also another rumor I’ve heard somewhere about how apparently olly had a tiny thing for louis or smth and that makes everything 10x more ~interesting~ haha. i don’t believe this one cause like, i haven’t seen it first hand, but it’s a what if kind of headcanon to think. it makes me laugh a bit more when I see Harry taking olly’s hands off of louis shoulder to replace with his own and telling them to break up lol we love a theoretical home wrecker (jkjk I kid I kid)

ok first of all when you brought up niall i automatically thought of this tweet

and um wow that uh rlly checked out huh ? louis initiating things and niall being worried about it.

secondly, uh 

sixteen year old harry rlly believed in his gay icon shania twain huh

THIRDLY I HATE THE FACT THAT THEY’RE SO EXHIBITIONISTIC KSJDNFKD LIKE KEEP QUIET PLEASE

lastly, me as olly murs being in love with louis