#it has been ahwile

[scooby-unsolved]

hallween is on monday

[mariatesstruther]

okay but a fic following tommy in jackson as he watches sarah’s look-alike grow up and have her baby. maybe he develops his own relationship with this girl and her kid, and it helps him deal with losing sarah??????? perhaps????? stay with me!

like we see how hard it was for joel to see her just once in 1x06. assuming tommy’s been in jackson for years, which i do, he has probably watched this young woman grow into an adult, getting struck with that pain of distant familiarity every single time he sees her. i imagine it would lowkey torture him until he truly confronts his grief over sarah and the life she could’ve lived

and imagine when she—im gonna name her kiara bc i hate when characters don’t have names—gets pregnant. tommy has to watch as kiara’s belly gets bigger and bigger, watch as the jackson community frets over her hand and foot because jackson takes extra special care of it’s pregnant residents, watch from the sidelines as kiara gets a future that sarah will never have while looking just like her

but THEN maybe he gets to know her a little bit???? maybe kiara knows he does housework and eventually asks maria if anyone can help fix-up and baby-proof her little two-bedroom house to prepare for the little one. maria knows tommy would be the perfect man for the job, but she also knows that he keeps careful distance from kiara on purpose

she sees the way his shoulders tense and his easy expression drops every time she’s in his line of sight. she saw how one time, when kiara had come over to talk to maria while she was sitting with him, tommy could barely handle looking at her up close: he ended up staring at his plate and clearing it—even the squash medley, which she knows he fucking hates—until he had reason to leave the hall completely.

but there truly is no one else she would rather help kiara; the only other person that does housework as good as tommy is fuckin jacob, and jacob is seth’s best friend, which means he’s a lowkey bigoted asshole that will only do “favors” for maria if he gets something in return. she, frankly, doesn’t want him anywhere near kiara. so maria still talks to tommy about it, and because he’s the most selfless loving man she’s ever met, he agrees. they talk about backup plans and what tommy should do if he gets too triggered—they’ve been working at distress tolerance and detecting when his mind is going fuzzy, so he knows to get straight to their home and wait for maria when it happens. privately, maria talks to kiara and tells her that tommy is still dealing with some stuff that triggers him and might need breaks once in ahwile; she knows to go get maria immediately if this happens

so tommy helps kiara out, and along the way they get to talking and being more friendly with each other. kiara reveals that she’s extremely nervous to be a mom, that she’s doing it alone (the asshole that was with her split jackson when he foundnout because men still be menning in their apocalypse). she tells tommy that she’s never been more scared to do anything in her whole life, and she lived alone as a young girl in FEDRA-run QZ

and suddenly, tommy realizes he has had almost this exact conversation before. with joel. he remembers standing by and watching joel freak out over baby-proofing their place, raving and ranting: how am i supposed to do this, tommy? we have too many fucking cabinets—look at all of these fucking cabinets! aye, im gonna ruin her. and tommy had been speechless in the face of all that fear. he knows how scared they both were, and he knows what he would’ve wanted to hear then, too. with the gift of time and wisdom, he finally knows what to say

so he comforts kiara, and by some miracle, it actually works. he tells her about joel raising sarah alone, and how terrifying it all seemed, right up until she actually got to them: he tells her how all that terror turned into love the moment he held that little ray of sunshine in his arms. he tells her about how sarah used to be what he and joel called a boo-boo magnet, constantly falling over and knocking into shit, always having bumps, scrapes, and bruises as a result. most importantly, he told kiara, she was always just fine: as long as she felt loved, sarah was always just fine. kiara’s baby would be just fine, too

and this convo changes kiara’s whole perspective, her whole vibe. tommy see’s the difference in her now, when he spots her in the dining hall or walking across town with a hand on her belly, tense with excitement instead of anxiety. he feels the difference in himself, too: he’s no longer struck with the abstract pain of remembrance as he sees her, now. he just feels honest friendship, true familiarity, and a rush of fond protectiveness for her that reminds him of the way he felt for sarah. it doesn’t hurt, or at least not the same way. it feels good, knowing kiara as kiara, not as the ghost of his niece. it feels right

she always makes sure to stop and talk to him when they cross paths, asking him about his work around town (or teasing him about he and maria, because at this point they’re trying to keep it lowkey but. kiara knows. talia knows. half of jackson suspects it and kiara wants the inside scoop okay so SPILL tommy just tell me!!!!!). somehow, tommy has developed a good relationship with the girl he thought he’d never have the guts to speak to

when kiara is on her last couple weeks of pregnancy, mostly bedridden and definitely ready to give birth, she asks tommy to stop by once every few days to have lunch or dinner with her. it always suprises him, but he always goes. they talk mostly about raising children: how different it seems to be post-2003, how scared kiara still is even despite her new confidence, how tumultuous sarah’s first few months were. he realizes, later, that he hasn’t talked about sarah this much to anyone but maria since she’s passed. he finds their conversations ease the ache in him more than avoiding kiara ever could’ve

when kiara has the baby, tommy accidentally becomes a quasi-godfather-uncle-grandparent without even having been asked. it’s clear that, from their time together, kiara is very fond of him—judging from the way her baby, kelsey, always settles down and stares at him in wonder whenever he’s around, it’s clear she likes him too. when kelsey becomes old enough to smile, she’s never ever around tommy without grinning and giggling, enamored by his silly face and silly voice and silly mustache, which she’s always trying to pull off. when kelsey becomes old enough to walk, kiara can’t bring her anywhere near tommy without the toddler trying her best to baby-sprint over to him. more than once, she’s fallen smack-down onto her face and gotten right back up, arms outstretched to tommy as she continues determinedly to toddle over. when kelsey becomes old enough to speak, she’s constantly calling for him and babbling to him when kiara finally brings her over. kelsey can’t even really pronounce her t’s until she’s three, so for awhile she calls tommy “mommy,” and kiara thinks it’s hilarious. she’s called mama anyway, so it doesn’t really matter to her that her baby calls this semi-random grown man mommy. everytime, it makes tommy want to simultaneously laugh and cry

by the time joel shows up, kelsey is six and not-so-obsessed with tommy anymore. her and kiara still join him and maria for dinner at least once a month, and kelsey has distant memories of calling tommy mommy, then uncle mommy, then finally naming him tim-tam-tommy when she turned four, the nickname for him that still stuck. he thinks about warning joel about her, when they talk in the bar, because he sure as hell could’ve used a goddamn warning—but the conversation goes left, so they never get there.

when joel sees kiara and kelsey for the first time, it’s hits him as hard as it once did tommy

tagging @ameerawrites because i feel like u always indulge in tommy trauma brainrot with me and @clickergossip bc this idea started on tommy day :)

[dolmimi]

so uh, i've been wanting to dye tomi's hair for ahwile now.... and i just realized....she has the colors of the bi flag. happy pride ig <3

also i'm posting this on mobile, so this might be lq on desktop lol

[vinnylyn]

Brunch with Kitty

Vinny: Hello kitty

Kitty: olleh

vinny: Its been ahwile

Kitty: yes it has..

Vinny: Its nice to see you again

Kitty: Yes Perhaps

---The end of brunch---

[joe-moi]

I think Joe has also been hanging out with Charlie heaton in NY and maybe Natalia. They don’t get spotted by pics that often but some times there are sightings. I also think he’s planning more music or a small tour which is why he seems to be working in the studio a lot more?!? I’m so excited for his Djo career to take off but I still wanna gatekeep him for ahwile lol

He’s got to do something to keep himself busy. A tour would be amazing! A third album would also be great 👀

[its-ashley-95baybe]

Be careful girl. There is a whole GC on twitter that has been talking about reporting you to tumblr for ahwile and they have several thousand members. I got kicked because I said something that they made me realize I was an anti in disguise but they are not nice people. They are also trying to figure out where Kmichelle works and they have some of her fanfiction saved and trying to prove she is a danger to childern. They do not like former valdayas. It use to be fun to be one but they are on a withunt lately. Anyone who is an "anti" They got my twitter supsended and i barely had any tweets but they kept reporting me. Its not good. I just wanted to warn you.

See now this is a true risk of security. Thank you so much for letting us know. @kmichelletho is out here doing her things and I will not let some bored kids threaten her well being. Girl can we just live life and enjoy our time how we want? Like it ain’t that serious 🙄

[russolaw]

Poor thing has Cushings (better than addisons)

Shes got a small tumor in her brain, something wrong with her heart, high blood pressure

And she already had stones in her bladder, liver problems, and joint issues

Shes been on liver medication for ahwile and now she has to have 2 more meds

My poor girl

[skenpiel]

so fucking pissed. oh i am SO fucking pissed. im gonna go hold my big clown doll and have it sing to me so i wont be so pissed.

[keilemlucent]

hey loves 💜 thank you for all the kindness on this week’s chapter of ll :’^) i Love You All

i have, unfortunately, overextended my shoulder and arm from typing so much and will be taking a lil break over the next few days to let it rest proper and get back to writing as healthily as i can :’^) 

in the mean time, i need to EAT some fics up. please reply with your fave fics, your own fics, anything. im going on fic rec mode baby 💗💗💗

[signalwave]

why does tumblrs im tab look like its from 2006 @possumcult

[object-show-headcanons]

Balloon (ii) is terrified of being put in any leadership position again and will freeze up if he’s forced into one

CANON THO FR LIKE KICK THE BUCKET KINDA IMPLIED THAT NA I THINK??? /genq it has been ahwile since i've seen it

[heyyylittlemo]

Small details in 19 Days that keep me up at night

((That I feel rarely gets talked about))

-Mo Guan Shan & The Zodiac Magazine

This chapter was pretty early on in 19days—So that must mean Mo Guan Shan has done this a lot more since, right??😳 and he didn’t even rlly know HT that well at this point so...he must be in heat on the low for HT by now 🥵🥵

So it canonically confirms at least a base physical attraction from the start—and c’mon if this isn’t the most relatable thing ever. Soon as I get an attraction to someone I’m a bit piqued to find out their zodiac. Mo Guan Shan’s hidden curiosity for HT is lwk so cute.

It def suggests that MGS has an under the surface lvl (where he can’t even detect it) pull to understand and get closer to HT.

Mo Guan Shan dreaming of He Tian

I know it was passed off like a “joke” and a “nightmare” but cmon this gay as hawlll

Who DOESN’T dream of their crush?? Dreams usually are about things we heavily think about and/or what we thought about before bed—and I can’t help but to think OX was onto smth

Not to mention, this has high bottom-denial energy. Literally. Like he was soooo trying to avoid getting a shot at the docs bc it was in his ass, why??? Like sir...ur fragile masculinity that was created from ur inner homophobia towards ur own bottom reality was def crashing at that second

N Why he got pain in his tushy??? In this dream?? N ppl bullying him like that abt it lmaoo who irl be saying those things?? Things like “aren’t in the guy who got a shot in ur ass” and “haha I’d like to see you with ur ass in the air~” even tho the translation and the way it was written can be said to mean that these bullies are literally finding it funny that his ass was in the air I have a feeling it was censored and rephrased to hint at its actual implications,, I feel like these guys were actually trying to jokingly solicit Mo in gay acts thru him bottoming—in reaction to the needle butt-scenario. I feel like OX wants us to read between the lines.

And if you see it that way, it really makes it seem like Mo is having a sexuality crisis here. And I think it’s what OX was building up to around that time bcuz it was around after the kiss happened.

It rlly makes me believe MGS genuinely thinks getting a shot in his ass will somehow societally and with unspoken words “expose” him and miraculously express to others that he likes it up the ass—bcuz u cannot tell me that dream and what those bullies were saying weren’t his damn paranoia demons talking

I think a dream interpreter could stretch it enough to say that the bullies are a metaphor of his own insecurities towards his homosexuality and particularly towards his upcoming bottoming feelings. Like he’s legit scared of a hospital needle in his butt—this is not straight behavior. And then we have He Tian to the rescue—(and do you see his look and his flirtatious line) and omg he’s gripping the shit out of his ass in the dream. He’s both being bullied for his bottom-ness and guilty-pleasure getting one rubbed out by He Tian. Like ok, have ur cake and eat it then bitch.

Mo Guan Shan Staring at He Tian

This was a moment leading up to the kiss. MGS was staring (probably admiring while also judging and heating up over HT) He Tian while he was playing BSKTBall—and As a BL writer myself can’t help but to think HT noticed MGS very not-straightly stare at him with a sort of sexual attraction he had towards him on the field.

Like cmon?? I doubt OX writes lines like these for no reason.

I feel like...at least irl...The eyes usually give it away if someone is interested in you or not. you can always see if someone is checking you out and noticing you in a different light like it just has different vibe and feel to it. OX was def trying to show and not tell with this panel that MGS has noticed HT and stares at him in the way we all hope he does. We don’t really get to see and (and I guess it keeps us on our toes and keeps us wondering if the little redhead could actually be falling for HT)—so it’s very subtle, but it is there, and once you notice it you’re like d a m n this makes the kiss scene so much more hopeful (at least for me).

I think this was the push that gave HT hopes to kiss MGS in the first place and it gets overlooked. How do you think HT own curiosity peeked? I think as a community we often think abt Mo and how he developed feelings or will develop feelings for HT but rarely do we ever questions The Who what when where and how He Tian came to like Mo himself. I have my own feelings about them that I can’t explain in this post, least it gets off-topic, but I think it’s very important.

I think his comment “Do I really disgust you that much” makes more sense in this context, of MGS giving HT some reassurance through non-verbal ques. HT was already under the impression that MGS was egging him on with his staring so it can warrant some of He Tian’s confusion. HT probably is pursuing MGS bc he probably senses some lvl of homosexual tension from Mo, and it’s exciting to him. Not only that, but MGS is exciting in his character. So I think HT was also relatively new to this venture and kinda spontaneously kissed Mo out of his own curioustes to explore their attractions and to get a grasp of what Mo was feeling.

It also makes me think HT and MGS experienced some undeniable pleasure or unspoken moment that could not be denied within the kiss as attraction and when MGS then decided to go agaisnt that with violence it only further hit HT, who knew MGS was lying to himself. I mean, it’s a classic BL moment. The two kiss, obviously feel smth (probably couldn’t show much of that due to censorship so had to pass it along as a 100% unsatisfactory exchange) and then one, feeling too much all at once and isn’t comfortable with their confirmed suspensions abt their sexuality—denies everything to the other causing further tensions especially sense both know how eachother really feel despite the others denial. And then the rejected one downplays the kiss’ seriousness to soothe their ego knowing full well the kiss meant smth. So they both internalize what the other said and both feel rejected, but both actually liked it. It’s a classic.

I truly feel that if it wasn’t due to censorship, that the kissing scene would’ve looked a lot more consensual than so forceful and wrong. Like it would’ve been taken as an tension filled “experimentation” that we see a lot in BLs and it only further ties into why MGS would be so bashful whenever the kiss is mentioned, and why HT can use it As a leverage over Mo (“don’t make me kiss you again”) bcuz it brings them back to thy moment where HT experienced some “answer” between Mo and that answer was fulfilling even tho it cannot be fulfilled and probably HT is hoping that maybe one day if he teases him enough about it they can share another kiss one that is a lot less rushed and now that they are closer, will lead to a better result.

Anyways those are my speculations. And I actually have written a short story based on these assumptions(focused on the kiss—and it’s also leading up to a jealously fic) but ofc I haven’t written it in ahwile haha. Just thought it was worth sharing since I noticed 19 days has been updating pretty “eh” lately.

[daddynegandesires]

Secrets chapter 3

Summary: ellies birthday and mothers day is coming up as emotions and pent up anger are spiraling between you, negan, and jack while more and more secrets begin to unfold.

18+

Warming: nsfw, fluff, kink, depression, abuse

Sorry for the late update on this chapter its kind of a short one ive just have been going through some personal things and havent found the motivation to finish this one yet.❤ i hope you all like it!❤

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You and negan haven't spoke in a few days ellies birthday is today and you have been busy decorating. Negan is suppose to be picking up the cake at the store. jack has returned back from his "business trip" withq an odd hickey on his neck that keeps gawking at you everytime you speak to him. You want to avoid conflict because you arent so innocent yourself after what happen with negan last time you saw him but thats just not who you are....you have to confront him but you also dont want to ruin ellies day infront of everyone.

"Hey jack, do you mind helping me with this streamer" you called out to him from the ladder

"Sure hun" he took the streamer from your hand taping it up to the wall

"Thank you.....uh negan should be here soon with her cake" you said folding up the step ladder

"I could of went and grabbed it" he scoffs

"I uh..well sorry i didnt know it was a big deal" you try to laugh it off politely

"Dont even worry about it...." He walks past you ramming his ahoulder into you heading outside

Negan had arrive with the cake and so did a few of ellies friends and your mother. You and your mothers relationship really has never been that great but you try to make peace with it for ellies sake. Negan came in with a huge gift box all wrapped in pink with a bow.

" i thought we agreed nothing crazy" you whispered to him

"Whaat...can i not spoil my girl" negan grins at you

Ellie runs out of her room her eyes light up at the size of the gift her dad got her.

"Mommy look at this...its humongo!" She says messing with the bow

"I see honey..dont mess with it yet" you giggle

"Where is your boy toy.." His tongue slides across his bottom lip

You kept silent while negan stared you down waiting for a response but nothing came out his eyes were burning a hole through you he always knew when shit was up.

"Ah i see....the silent treatment" folding his arms

Negan walks off to go play with ellie and say hello to a few people when your mother walks up to you.

"Hey mom..." You say emotionless

"What is negan doing here.." She asks

"Mom...please dont. Thats ellies dad. I told you we are trying to work on things for ellies sake" you say annoyed.

"Well...once a cheater always a cheater. Im just saying" as she sips on her cup of wine walking away

A few hours have passed and ellie got to blow out her candles and eat cake. Jack still hasnt said much to you throughout the whole party and its more than obvious that negan is starting to catch on im just hoping he doesn't notice the hicky on his neck. Ellie has been bugging you about negans gift so you were going to let her open it.

"Ellie open it up over here sweetie so everyone can see" you say smiling

Ellie quikly rips the hot pink rapping paper off and squeals in excitement as she realizes its a electric scooter that she has been wanting. Negan was standing by your side with his hand sneakily rested on your lower back with a huge smile on his face.

"Oh my god you got me that scooter!!" Ellie begins jumping up and down

"Negan....those cost alot" you whispered in his ear

"dont worry about it....i got it taken car of" he says sternly

"Lets take it outside!!" Negans runs over and picks it up in excitment with all of the kids following him outside to ride on the scooter. You were throwing away dirty plates when jack came up to you

"So you want to explain why you and negan have been so close" he quietly says to you

You instantly start to burn with rage as he asks you that knowing he has been keeping things from you too and the fact his assistant melissa has been speaking to him inappropriately. You were holing the knife in your hand for cutting the cake reminding you of the incident that happened between you and negan once you found out he was cheating. you froze and gripped tightly on the knife thinking of how to approach this.

"You're a fucking whore..." He spat at you

"Jack.....get the fuck away from me" you quietly say

"Yeah i bet thats what you want.....so he can fuck you" he says through gritted teeth

"Its. Ellies. Birthday.....fucking knock it off we can settle this later" you slowly set the knife down unclenching your fist

Jack stands there glaring at you with his jaw clecnhed before giving up and walking away. You let out a sigh of relief and pour yourself a glass of wine. You take a sip closing your eyes feeling like everything is going in slomotion in that moment when you here yelling outside and notice its negan and jack. You drop your glass spilling your wine everywhere running outside.

"Back the fuck off man!" Jack yells with his fist balled up

"Ohh...you really want to go there dude..." Negan laughs

"You are fucking (y/n) and i know it!" Jack lunges towards him throwing a punch hitting negan in the face making him stumble

Negan catches his balace reaching up to his face touching where jack punched him in the mouth realizing he is bleeding negan licks the blood off his lips and lets out a sinister almost scary deep chuckle.

"Oh...you fucked up." Negan lunges towards jack football tackling him to the ground he starts punching jack over and over again blood all over his fists

"Negan!!!...no! Stop!" You rush over trying to pry negan off of jack

"Negan stop for ellie please!" You begin to cry struggling to finally get him off causing you to fall backwards with negan on you

"You are a dead fucking man!....now get the fuck off my property..." Negan threats

You push negan off to go check on jack you try to get jack to respond to you and see if he is okay but he just spits in your face shoving you away causing you to fall before you know it negan charges back over and starts beating the shit out of him all you can do is scream at them and cry. Through tear filled eyes you notice the cops rushing up the street pulling into the drive way the last thing you remember is the cops pulling negan off and everything went black.

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Jack and negan were both arrested but were soon let go apparently i had fainted due to stress and dehydration they kept me in the hospital until i was better. You kicked jack out of the house and you haven't spoke to negan since ellies birthday. Things have been rough being alone for ahwile and ellie was getting upset about not seeing her dad.

Text from negan:

Hey....im coming by

You looked at your phone to see a text from negan but you just ignored it and continued to cook some food for ellie. There was a knock at the door you sighed annoyingly before unlocking the deadbolt and opening the door to negans innocent brown eyes staring back at you. before you could give him a chance to speak you shut the door in his face but he quickly caught it in time with his foot in the doorway before it closed.

"Negan...ellie should be home. She is still upset" you sigh

"Thats okay i want to make it up to you two" he says pushing the door open coming inside

You just stand there silent with your arms crossed untill you hear ellies bus coming down the road and before you know it she busts through the door yelling.

"Mommmyyyy! Happy mothers dayzz!" Ellies runs up to you handing you a picture she made at school

"Awe...thank you sweet heart its gorgeous" you took the pink paper from her smiling and when to hang it on the fridge

"Look i want to take you two out to dinner...its mothers day and you deserve it..look i know i fucked up but that asshole had it coming" negan says

"Negan dont.....go ask Ellie she is the real one you need to be apologizing to not me" you stare at the ground avoiding eye contact.

"Ohh ellie daddy wants to talk to you!" He walks off to her room

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You, negan, and ellie were all out at dinner at your favorite steakhouse enjoying your meal when the waiter brought a bottle of wine

"Negan....i cant afford that" you quietly say

"Ah ah....you deserve it i mean you are the best mom ever" he winks at you popping the lid off pouring wine into your glass

"Thanks..." You shyly say before taking a sip

"So.....the school fired me" negan cleared his throat

You choked on your drink hearing the words that had just came out of negans mouth

"What?..how come" you say wipping wine off your chin

"Well....they dont want me as a coach anymore since what happened at ellies birthday. They say its wildly inappropriate and against policy to still have me there" he bites in his steak

"What are you going to do..." You ask worried

"Ohhh no biggie i always have things taken care of" he smiles at you

"If you need anything im here..." You look up at him

" i know....thank you" he reaches across the table holding your hand

The three of you finish up dinner afterwards you all go for a late walk through the park. It felt nice to get out and have some fresh air after what happended at the party. Your phone kept buzzing off the hook of texts from jack you kept trying to hide it from negan to not let him worry. You felt bad hiding it from negan but you knew it would start a fight but you also didnt want to let jack go without some talking. Negan took you and ellie back home ellie ran inside and got ready for bed.

"I know he is talking to you..." Negan says sternly while placing one hand against the wall beside your head

"Negan....can we not talk about this right now" you say turning your head away from him

"No!...you will look at me when im speaking to you" negan grabs ahold of your chin forcing you to look at him

"Yes....yes im still talking to him.." You say embarassed

"Why....he is such a load of whoreshit....im standing right infront of you (y/n)...im here now! Take me back please. Im an honest man now!" Negan growls

" get...off of me!" You scream and shove him away from you and begin to walk angrily down the road

"(Y/n) get back here now!...where the fuck do you think you are going!" Negan trys to catch up with you when it suddenly starts raining

"Negan stop trying so hard!...this is going nowhere!" You say crying

"Why do you keep saying that!...i want this to work!" Negan finally catches up to you grabbing you by the arm spinning you around

"......well i dont..." You choked on those words as they slipped out of your mouth it felt like your heart had just stopped for a split second it killed you to say that to negan but it had to be done

"You....dont want this." He said quietly and upset with rain drops running down his perfect face

"Negan....i.... I cant. You have to let me go" you say caressing his face" you said giving him a half smile with a single tear rolling down your cheek

"W....what about ellie.....thats my babygirl" Negan begans to tear up pulling you into a hug

"You can still be in ellies life.....i start therapy next tuesday" you say ending the hug

"You can talk to me (y/n)" negan sniffles

"There are just things that just feel easier letting out to a stranger sometimes..."

"I love you....." Negan says bresthlessly

"....i love you too but from a distance.....i have boundaries set now negan"

You and negan began to walk back to the house getting inside you hand him a towel to dry himself off. Negan follows you to the bedroom.

"There are still some of your clothes in the closet...." You say facing away from him

"You still have some of my old clothes here...." Negan opens the door seeing his shirts still hanging in the same spot before he moved out

"I didnt know if you still wanted them or not..." You say nervously

"Its okay. Thank you" negan takes off his soaking wet shirt switching it out with an old faded band shirt

"You can sleep on the couch if you would like..." You offer him

"You sure you are going to be okay with that?" He raises an eyebrow at you

"Yeah....plus its been lonely here just me and ellie" you chuckle handing him a blanket

Negan takes the blanket from you before turing around to open the bedroom door to leave. As soon as the door shut you quietly sobbed making sure it wasnt loud enough for negan to hear. You wiped your tears away before getting yourself ready for bed. You tossed and turned for most of the night your head filled with unnecessary thoughts and cenarios. You just wanted all of this pain to go away you dont know what you are doing with yourself anymore the only thing that keeps you holding on is ellie and negan.

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[belovedbangtan]

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𝚂𝚄𝙼𝙼𝙰𝚁𝚈:  It’s your boyfriends birthday!! You’ve had this night planned for ahwile but when Jungkook comes home seemingly more exhausted than usual, you decide to make sure his needs come first. 

𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙽𝙸𝙽𝙶𝚂:  Language, Sexual Content: grinding, teasing, nipple play, choking, pussy slapping, fingering, squirting, PRAISE, oral sex (m and f receiving) unprotected sex (be safe!), Dom!jk, Sub!Reader. 

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“He should be home soon, yeah?” You ask Jimin as you squish the phone between your ear and shoulder. Attempting the perfect loose curls at the same time.

“He just left from practice and he’s headed your way. We’re meeting at the restaurant at eight right?” He asks, and you confirm.

“He has no clue! He still thinks it’s just you and him, which I don’t think he’s mad about,” he scoffs sarcastically.

“Whatever he’s going to be so happy to have everyone he loves there! Okay I'm gonna finish up, I’ll call when we’re on our way!” You say before ending the call to focus on your hair before Jungkook gets home.

You spent a little more time on your makeup since it was a special occasion, adding false lashes to make your eyes pop. Something Jungkook really looks forward to when you’re looking up at him from your knees. You crafted a subtle smokey eye in addition to the false lashes, nothing crazy, but you know Jungkook will disagree. Anything more than your usual is always a big deal to him; you know he’ll appreciate it.

Finally completing your hair and styling it, you rush to your room to throw on the dress you had bought specifically for this night. The fitted black dress clung to your curves perfectly, accentuating the parts of your body that were Jungkook’s favorite. Giving yourself a once over in the mirror, you finally deem yourself sexy enough to make him want to undress you as soon as possible; that was the goal after all.

Finally hearing the front door close, “Baby?” he calls out and your feet move quicker than expected. You inhale dreaming of wrapping your arms around his neck and pressing his lips to yours. He left so early that morning; you weren’t even awake to properly send him off. His day was long and he was extremely busy, not even having much time to text you. You knew it was a rough one for him. 

When you round the corner and your eyes fall upon his tired ones, your feet move even faster. You can’t help but notice how absolutely exhausted he looks. He always did an amazing job at hiding how tired he really was, but the darkness under his eyes and the slouch of his shoulders told you more than you needed to know. You make a mental note to make sure he gets some rest this week, he clearly needs it.

His arms are quick to pull you into his chest, pressing soft kisses to your temple as he holds you. You giggle when you feel him press his nose to your hair and inhale deeply. You let him take in the subtle hints of coconut and vanilla bean before leaning back slightly in his arms. Your hands slide from their place on the back of his neck to the front of his face. Cupping his chin delicately as his eyes lock with yours, “Hi baby,” He coos pressing his lips to your nose.

“Happy Birthday,” You whisper as you lean in, pressing your lips to his finally. Even after being together for over a year, kissing him still managed to give you butterflies. His fingers dig into your waste, pulling you in greedily. You grin into the kiss, knowing where he wants this to go. You kiss him deeply before taking his lower lip between your teeth, tugging gently.  When you pull back, he sighs poking the inside of his cheek with his tongue.

“We have reservations, baby.” You sing, mimicking him and pecking his nose before stepping back.

“You expect me,” his voice is low and it instantly has you pooling between your legs, he leans back on his heal, drinking you in, “to leave here,” his reaches out for you once again, you let him this time, “Without fucking you into the mattress? While you look like that?” His face screws up, showing his disappointment and confusion. You press your glossy lips together into a fine line, sighing as his fingers tighten around your jaw. His eyes lock onto yours, clouded with lust. He cocks your head with his hand to expose your neck to him. The second his lips touch the juncture where you neck meets your shoulders your vision gets hazy and you remind yourself to breathe. Kisses mixed with kitten licks and love bites as he makes his way up to your ear. You regret not wearing panties, because your sure there is a mess between your legs already. Feeling your watch buzz on your wrist your eyes widen. If you were going to make it to dinner, he needed to get ready now.

“Baby, as much as I love this, we’re going to lose our table.”

“Looks like I’ll have to have you for dinner then,” He whispers into your ear as his hand slides over your breast, pausing when he realizes you don’t have a bra on. You moan as soon as the words leave your lips. Why the fuck didn’t you go with you’re first plan for his birthday ; having a fuck fest as a birthday present clearly would have been the right choice.

“But, it’s your favorite restaurant baby,” you groan as his fingers pinch at your hardened buds, trying to get him to change his mind, “I even had a special cake made,” you whine letting a pout take over your lips. When he looks up, he sighs heavily, throwing his head back as he removes his fingers from your body. Instantly you curse yourself, who cares about a fucking cake when Jeon Jungkook wants to fuck you into the mattress, you think.

“I’ll get dressed.”

He notices how it takes a second for your face to react, almost as if you didn’t know how to react. He’s quick to lean forward kissing your cheek, “Thank you for making reservations, I’m sorry if I seem ungrateful,” He whispers and you nod gently telling him that it was okay, “I’m just tired today and I’ve just been looking forward to seeing you.” He says before pressing a kiss to your cheek and you feel like you want to cry.

You stand in the kitchen holding your phone, as you run his words through your head. If it weren’t for his close friends and family that were getting ready to meet you at the restaurant, you would cancel. Wondering how upset they would be if explained the situation, surely, they would understand if you told them he changed his mind about dinner. You eventually decide to tell Jungkook about everything, ultimately letting him decide what to do. It was his birthday after all, and you would hate to make him do something if he wasn’t up for it.

Your heels click as you round the corner to your shared bedroom, “Hey baby, I just wanted to tell yo��” you pause. Your heart on the verge of breaking as your boyfriend lays on your bed, half dressed but fully passed out. You knew he was exhausted, but you never expected it to be this bad. Clearly your mind being made, you decide to call everyone letting them know that the two of you wouldn’t be able to make it.

His mother laughs into he phone as you describe the current situation, thanking you for taking care of her son. Jimin tells you that he noticed how beat he was today but figured he would speak up if it was too bad. Like his mother, everyone ends the call with ‘thank you for taking care of him.” Your heart swells as the words are spoken. Your eyes start to sting as you think about how much you love this man. How you would do anything to make sure he is healthy and happy. Knowing that he feels the same way about you, you felt so lucky to call him yours.

You walk to the closet, getting out a blanket to cover him up with knowing damn well there was no chance of you getting the one he was laying on top of. As you cover him up, you slide your shoes off and lay next to him, pressing a soft kiss to his temple. The rhythmic sound of his breathing lure you into a slumber.

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Jungkook’s arms tighten around your figure, pulling you close. He inhales your scent deeply, a habit that he’s developed over time to calm his senses. His eyes peek open momentarily, noticing your peaceful face laying next to him. Taking a mental note to tell you how pretty your makeup looked tonight. His eyes flutter shut, and he tries to fall back asleep.

‘Why does she have makeup on? Why am I wearing a long sleeve shirt? Fuck, I’m so hungry. What did I even have for dinner?’ he thinks until suddenly it clicks.

“Baby! Wake up! We fell asleep!” He starts to rock you gently, panic lacing in his voice. You rub your eyes blinking a few times before meeting his panicked ones. You chuckle quietly before showing him the time on your watch.

“Its 2 in the morning, love.” You rasp as you slowly sit up taking his tattooed hand in yours. Still laughing at how confused he looked. Poor baby really sleeps hard.

“What the fuck happened?” he asks looking down at his partially buttoned dress shirt and the briefs that clung tight to his thick thighs.

You reach up to brush your thumb along his cheek bone, explaining that you had invited everyone to dinner. You tell him you were going to ask him if you should cancel because he seemed tired, but he confirmed your suspicion when you found him passed out on the bed. He signs leaning forward rubbing his hand over his face.

“I am so sorry baby, I guess I didn’t realize how tired I was,” He starts to apologize but you quickly start to shake your head. There will be none of that.

“No, don’t apologize. You needed to sleep. I don’t care if it was your birthday or not. We can have another dinner, baby. It’s not a big deal. I just want you to be healthy okay?” you tell him taking his hands in yours.

His eyes soften and the corner of his mouth soft raises up, “Have I ever told you how much I appreciate you?” He asks softly.

You chuckle quietly, “Yeah a time or two,” scrunching your nose as you lean into him, pressing your lips to his.

“I mean it. I love you so much, I don’t know what I would do with out you.”

“I love you too, Kookie.”

His hands find your waist and he gently tugs you onto his lap. Bunching your dress around your hips, you straddle him placing one leg on each side of him. His muscular thighs mimicking a literal seat.

Leaning forward you gently suck his ear lobe into your mouth, scraping it with your teeth before pulling back just enough to whisper, “I guess I can still give you one of your presents.”

You hear him swallow hard and feel his cock twitch at the end of your sentence.

“Yeah? I have a feeling I’m going to love it,” He breathes into your neck.

Your lips make their way to his cut jawbone, pressing into the skin getting closer and closer to his lips. Letting your hips glide forward and backward, his fingertips press harder into your skin with every movement. Just as your get to the corner of his mouth your flick your tongue along his lips before pushing his head to the side. His neck was among your favorite things on his body. Of course, because of how sexy it was, but mostly because you knew how weak it made him when you kissed the right spots. Starting just beneath his ear, you start working your way down. Giggling when you feel him thrust himself up into you. His left hand pulls you in closer while his right snakes to where your bodies meet.

His fingers glide along the inside of your thigh, and your thighs start to tremble with anticipation. He pauses pressing his fingers into your skin, you match him by letting your teeth sink into his neck delicately. He chuckles as he begins his descent again, hovering just above where you need him the most. Rocking your hips harder, you whimper when you press your clit to his middle finger.

“Patient baby, I always take good care of you don’t I?” his voice is like honey, if you weren’t dripping before you know you are now. You nod pressing a wet kiss to the spot you just bit. His middle finger taps on your clit again making your gasp. His bottom lip snug between his teeth, this is torture for him too. Agonizingly slow he slides his middle finger through your slit, your whole body seizing as he does.

“Mm fuck princess, is that my present?” His free hand cups your jaw bringing you to look him in the eyes. His pupils blown with hunger, insatiable for something only you can give him. Again, you can only nod, more aggressive than before. His eyes flutter shut when his finger circles your entrance, letting you know that he was done teasing.

“Please Kookie. I need it so bad,” You beg, resting your forehead against his. He lets out a breathy laugh, as his fingers sinks inside of you. Your moans mixing, bouncing off the walls of the moonlit room. He pushes your body back so he can see the masterpiece between your thighs, he knows it has to be a beautiful mess at this point. You lean backwards resting your hands on his knees so he has a full view. He grunts, licking his lips when he sees your juices running down his fingers. Eagerly he  lets his ring finger join his middle, pressing them up into your walls as he slowly drags them out of you only to press them back inside. Skillfully he spreads you open with his pointer and pinky finger. He brings his other fingers to his mouth, his eyes flick to yours while he covers his fingertips in his spit. A string connects his fingers to his mouth as a voracious smirk forms on his lips, groaning when you instantly tight around his fingers. His wet fingers move to your swollen bundle of nerves, turning his hand upwards, he slowly starts to tease.

You throw your head back, as your chest arches forward towards him. His fingers moving in perfect harmony with each other.

“So fucking beautiful,” he rasps never ceasing his assault on you. You lift your head up and find his, completely drunk on everything that you were. That’s all it takes for you to find your release. The knot in your belly comes undone, and your whole body starts to shake on top of his lap. Feeling yourself gushing around his fingers, the lewd sloshing sound fills your ears. Jungkook wraps his arm around your waist to pull you close as you come down. Resting your head on his shoulder, his lips find their way to yours, pressing into them passionately.

His boxers now soaked with your essence, you cant help but feel a little guilty. His cock is straining against the material, this was his birthday damn it. With that thought, you plant your feet on the floor. After shocks of your orgasm still evident as your thighs tremble every now and again, earning a proud grin each time he notices. Standing up tall, you take the bunched-up material of your dress and you slowly drag it over your head. If you thought he was hard before, you were wrong. His tongue prods at the inside of his cheek as he leans back to rest on his forearms. The moonlight reflects dangerously off of his sweat covered abs. His unbuttoned dress shirt falling to his sides haphazardly. Framing the masterpiece as if they were sculpted by Michelangelo himself.

Falling to your knees, his eyes never leave you. Your fingers tuck under the waist band of his shorts, and you tug them down instantly. No more teasing, he deserved gratification now. Your attention is immediately brought to the precum pooling at his tip. Bringing yourself forward, you flick your tongue along his slit gathering the salty liquid. His eyes instantly flutter shut. Smiling you, swirl your tongue around his tip a few times before wrapping your hand around his length. Running your hand up and down, you take a second to admire how beautiful he his. How beautiful his cock is. You’ll admit when you first got together, everything about him was beyond compare; he was perfection. You were so wrong to assume that he had to be lacking in sex department, there was no way someone could be that perfect and have a nice cock. Clearly, you were wrong. So. Very. Wrong.

“You okay baby?” His voice is sweet, snapping you out of your reverie.

“Mhm,” you giggle, “Just thinking about how perfect you are.”

He starts to laugh at you but the sound is cut off by a guttural moan as you take him all the way into your mouth. Pushing him all the way to the back of your throat. His fingers lacing through your hair as you linger, tears forming in the corners of your eyes. You pull yourself off breathing hard, a string of spit still connecting your mouth to him. You wipe away your spit with your hand, using it as lube to pump him in your hand. Taking him into your mouth again, hollowing out your cheeks you bring your head up and down, with your hand following closely behind. Resting your free hand on his abs, you can feel them contracting beneath your gentle touch. As his fingers tighten in your hair you lift your eyes up to look at him.

“Fuck,” His eyes lock on yours, he brushes your stray hairs behind your ears so there is nothing stopping him from taking in this view. His cock in your mouth was in his top 5 favorite things to see, but when you add your stunning eyes and dramatic lashes it was enough to finish him on the spot. He reaches over and grabs his phone, angling it down towards you. He licks his lips as he looks at the picture after he takes it, knowing it’s going to come in handy when he’s traveling.

Seeing spots in your vision your close your eyes, taking him deep one more time and moaning when you do. The vibrations from your throat have him dazed, his eyes rolling back into his head. You feel his cock start to swell, then suddenly his fingers are firm in your hair pulling you off him. You instantly pout, but you’re met with his swollen lips on your own.

“I wanna cum somewhere else tonight Princess,” His voice is harsh.

“Could have came down my throat too, ya know,” you quip.

“Who said I’m not going to, just want to cum in that pretty little pussy first.” He reaches down slapping your core swiftly before bringing his hand back up to your face.

“Yes sir,” you gasp, the shock from his sudden slap sending a surge of heat through your body. His eyes light up at the nickname, loving when you let him have complete control.

“Mm such a good girl for me,” his hand wraps around your throat while the other grips your upper arm. Bringing you from your knees to standing in front of him. His grip around your throat tightening slightly as he presses his lips to yours again. When he’s finished kissing you he turns you in his arms, holding you close to his chest. His fingers returning to their spot on your neck pulling you impossibly closer as leans over your shoulder looking down your body. His free hand traveling down slowly, tugging at your hardened nipples and massaging each of your breast in his hands. Your head leaning back on his shoulder, you start to imagine the way his tattooed fingers looks at they trail across your body. You know it looks as good as it feels. Passing over your navel, his fingers around your neck tighten when he hovers above your sweet spot. Dragging his fingers along the delicate skin, getting close but never actually touching your clit. You can help the whine that comes from your lips.

His nose ghost the shell of your ear before he whispers, “What baby? Tell me what’s wrong,” He asks letting his teeth scrap against your ear lobe, mimicking how you teased him earlier.

“t-touch me.” You manage to choke up. His hand tight enough to make all of your other senses go wild, but not enough for to be breathless.

He clicks his tongue and you intuitively know why, “Wanna try that again, Princess?” His tone a little harsher as he presses his lips to your temple.

“Want your cock so bad Sir, please fuck me!” you whimper feeling a tear dribble down from the outer corner of your eye onto his shoulder.

A dark laugh comes from his chest, rocking against your body, “Princess is so fucking needy, she’s crying for my cock.” He sighs reaching up to wipe the stream of tears from your face, “since you asked nicely,”

Before you can process the words, you’re being tossed onto the bed on your back. He crawls over you with his eyes void of anything besides love and lust. Slotting himself between your thighs, he takes your legs and pushes them forward so your knees are close to your chest. He takes your hands and places them on the backs of your thighs to hold yourself for him. As his hands free, he leans down and licks a stripe through your folds. Pressing his palms into you as his mouth attaches to your clit.

“Fuck!” You scream out, attempting to maintain the position while your legs quiver uncontrollably. Leaning back up runs his hands up and down his length before slapping it against your clit a few times.

“Pussy is dripping baby,” he says mostly for himself, but you keen at this low voice and the way his eyes are fixed on your sex. He pulls back slowly before sliding himself inside you slowly, bottoming out and resting, letting you adjust to his size. You cover your mouth to try and mask the obscene noises. He leans forward, making you whimper louder, taking both of your wrist in his hands he holds them above your  head.

“You weren’t trying to hide those pretty noises, were you Princess?” His eyes narrow as he fucks into you hard. A moan rips from your throat bringing a satisfied smile to his face, “Mm, see that’s my girl. Tell me how much you love my cock.”

“Feels so fucking good,” You whine, tears escaping your eyes again as he sits back to spread your legs even wider. His snapping forward, his thickness massaging your walls so deliciously. Your breathing quickens and he can feel you tightening around him. Reaching forward his tattooed fingers wrap around your throat with the perfect amount of pressure, while his other fingers find your clit again. You close your eyes focusing on the way he feels inside you, feeling him start to twitch you’re thrown over the edge. Screaming loud as your release and your moans mix. The feeling builds in your core and spreads through your whole body, lighting up like a firework.

He collapses on top of your body, painting you in swollen lipped kisses. You slowly start pull out of your haze, running your fingers through his sweaty locks because you can’t find the words to thank him for the orgasm he just gave you. He slowly pulls out of you giggling at your whine as he does. Grabbing a cloth to clean you up. Once he’s finished he gets rid of the rag and comes to the lay next to you.

Leaning on his elbows, he props himself up, “That was quite possibly the best birthday present I’ve ever gotten,” he tells you leaning forward to kiss your damp forehead.

“Hmm, even better than the Gucci bag Jimin got you?” You turn into him.

He scoffs, “way better than the fucking bag, don’t tell him I said that.” He laughs.

“Good, because I have something else for you…” You pull yourself off the bed taking his hand in yours.

His doe like eyes locking onto you with purpose, “Oh yeah?”

“Yep, and if you hurry... I might let you eat it off of me,” you wiggle your eye brows before, jogging off into the kitchen giggling. Thanking the heavens you kept his special cake with you. Something sweet was exactly what you needed.

As you pull the cake from the fridge his eyes widen, swiping his finger through the frosting then popping it into your mouth. The sinister look in your eyes as you suck it from his fingers has him hungry for something entirely different. Before he can act on it you’re feeding him his cake, giggling because you know the bite was way too big.

“Do you love it?” You ask him, he nods with puffed up cheeks. Cutting a slice for yourselves, you hop onto the counter to eat it, not bothering to sit down at the kitchen table.

Jungkook takes the plate from your hands and sets it to the side as he slots himself between your legs. The corners of his lips raising into a soft smile as his hands wrap around your waist.

“I’m so lucky to have you.” His voice quivers for a second, instantly making your heart pound.

“I’m the lucky one,” you press a kiss to his lips.

“I'm serious. You take such good care of me and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this loved,”

“You make it easy, baby. Honestly, its the least I can do, you make me so happy,” You shrug.

“Thank you for everything you do for me, I love you so much.” His tone is serious as his eyes lock onto yours, a slight glisten in them tells you that he is pretty emotional right now.

“I love you more, Happy Birthday Kookie.” You tell him leaning in to kiss him lovingly.

Just as your sweet kisses start to heat up, you feel something wet and creamy smear across your neck. He pulls back licking icing from his fingers. You gasp and look at him with wide eyes, this fucker did not just smear icing on you.

“So what was that you said about eating it off of you?” He cocks his head before leaning in to clean up the mess with his tongue. Clearly, his appetite was insatiable, who were you to deny his hunger?

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOOKIEEE!!! 

[dimitrescus-bitch]

Dating Sonya Deville and Paige

Paige had Mandy and Sonya, the Bella Twins had you

The feud had been a great one and Paige was very helpful

At first, you didn’t realize it was because she liked you, then Brie’s husband pointed it out to you

Things were a bit awkward for awhile

In the time that you were busy being awkward, Paige and Sonya started hooking up

You suspected it, but didn’t find out until later

Sonya approached you with an offer to be friends with benefits

So, you agreed to that and it was a good thing for ahwile

One night, she invited Paige to join you, after asking you of course

They were both really attentive and loving

Paige asked you out the next morning

You started kind of dating Paige first, then Sonya came around to the idea of more than sex

Sonya kept up with a tough guy act for the first couple months

It was rough for you because that wasn’t your type at all

Once she realized that, Sonya dropped it

Paige made the post about your relationship becoming official 

That was when you separated from Brie and Nikki to do your own thing

You were already primarily a singles competitor

When Paige retires because of her injury, you take a break to stay home with her

Absolution turns into Fire ‘n Desire and Sonya feels kind of guilty for not being able to take time off too

When you return, you get to feud with Sonya and Mandy, which is fun

Paige has you move in with her and the two of you ask Sonya, but she doesn’t move in for awhile

She’s serious about trying to take things slow since she feels like she’s rushed things before

The two of you are patient and when the time comes for her to move in, you make room for her and give her time to say bye to Mandy

It’s hard on Sonya at first, but both you and Paige have nearly perfected comforting her

The only time that the two of you struggle to try and help Sonya emotionally is whenever they separate her and Mandy and tell them they can’t hang out in public anymore

Sonya’s heel turn puts her right in your path though and the two of you start up an alliance together

Your favorite part of working together like that is when you help her drop Dolph before going to ambush Mandy in a match

When Sonya leaves the WWE, she packs up her stuff and moves into the house that you and Paige had been living in together

[dailykagehina]

hey no new posts for ahwile , i have failed to share important messages since this isn’t my main account and since i’m black the news has been hitting me really hard, i’m going to be boosting and re-blogging, please forgive me