#it gives me such a nostalgic whiplash??? like am i the only one experiencing this?? why am i acting like i was part of the plot 🧍🏻‍♀️

[shunsuiken]

i will never shut up about how fucking SAD the op for jjk s2 is because what the FUCK 😭😭😭😭

[attack-on-my-emotions]

Sometimes things just hit you like a train out of nowhere. Getting hit isn’t so bad...

At the point I’m at now, I’ve only experienced about a month and a half of following BTS. Previously I had times where I ran into their name, but never thought twice about it.

There’s the Haikyuu!! video that had Not Today as their song perfectly edited to clips of the anime (still one of my favs)

There’s the video of what parts AoT characters would sing in Dope (because you always end up down that rabbit hole eventually)

There was the Snapchat “here’s a list of k-pop songs based on your zodiac!” news page, I had Mic Drop

Seeing a “BTS dance fits with any song” video, which was the Fire dance

There was the time earlier this year where mother was watching TV and BTS were on it. She even asked me “do you know who BTS is?” I said no, kind of a lie because I had Dope and Not Today on my Spotify at the time. It’s true I didn’t know them, not like how I do now

To roaming the mall with a friend to get our steps in, going into an anime centered store, and seeing posters of BTS on a table, a week in to when I started to understand who they were

To the next time at the mall and being in a store and hearing Boy With Luv

From me seeing the BT21 characters at Hot Topic and recognizing “oh Jin likes the dog (alpaca) one” from seeing it in some videos to finding out they were the ones to create them

How I’ve been watching their goofy videos, music videos, and went through all their songs on Spotify. Added the ones I liked from first listen, and still now I keep going back after hearing songs from videos and adding them as well as I get into them. Let’s talk about the time I first heard Pied Piper okay? I liked it right away, looked up the lyrics eventually, saw what they meant and went “.....oh...umm” yeah it was too late at that point XD

To explaining it to my friend, showing her some music videos, ended up showing her the goofy videos as well, and she’s in the process of listening to songs and watching videos I send on her own, and making references at our weekly DnD game night that confuses the rest of the group

Seeing the Bring The Soul movie (8/11) with that friend, getting to see some Armys face to face in the area, seeing a dad with the Koya headband, taking peaks at my friend who I noticed had her hand by her face sometimes (she was tearing up), being so invested and comfortable in the movie I forgot I wasn’t at home, and almost started singing to Magic Shop during the credits before I remembered I was in public

It happened so quickly that I get whiplash trying to figure out how I fell so hard. I saw a video of a group of kids dance to Boy With Luv at their school gym, wanted to know how accurate they were to the choreography, saw the practice video of BTS. Saw a live video of them at Britain’s Got Talent stage (yes, the one that got deleted), from there my days were filled with watching as many videos as I could to get to know these 7 men

It also gives me the nostalgic feeling of when I was a teenager, finding a band I liked, that gave me something to look forward to in my life that was so dark I didn’t see a future for myself. I get the same feeling when I watch BTS. They enhance my existence, it might be small and insignificant to those around me, but to me it means everything. I am no longer someone who needs to cling to other’s existence to prove my own self worth to myself. Now I can walk on my own, but it’s good to know I’m not walking alone when I have them by my side 💜