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triggeringtommy · 4 months ago

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gonna hav to up the dosage of my antipsychotics and it's scary bc ik my vraylar only goes up from 4.5 to 6mg and it's hard to handle my symptoms rn im hearing voices and thats always been an issue when i get stressed but its been terrible lately like so bad that i cant ignore it anymore and im very triggered bc around this time 4 yrs ago i entered psychosis for a good couple of months right before i turned 18 and im getting facebook memories of the shit i posted and it's fucking triggering

#bipolar schizoaffective disorder is my most recent diagnosis and its very cool to have a name for what im goin thru #like lately ive been hearing a man yelling in my head really awful shit #and then theres a woman trying to calm him and soothe me AND him and its fucking scary #i hear voices constantly rn and it never shuts off its so hard to fall asleep #i thought i heard my neighbor screaming my name when i was walking my dog butttt nobody was near us and they dont know my name #my dog didnt react so i knew it wasnt real but it was so real to me i got scared and had to go back inside #it fucking sucks being mentally ill like this i feel so aloneeee in itttt #nobody quite understands bc they dont live it so they dont get it in my family

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