#it feels soso stupid because I was in a room with many people who were a lot closer to him than me but I just cry easy
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grief is weird and dumb
#I’m okay everything’s okay#a friend who went missing a while ago was found#there was a kinda memorial thing for him tonight#I wanted to do a kinda retrospective on feelings here but I don’t know if I got that in me rn#we weren’t close but he was my friend yknow#doesn’t feel real and didn’t feel real during the memorial and probably never will bc we go long stretches without seeing each other anyway#but man am I bad at not crying#I’d been holding it together until the memorial by simply not thinking about it too much. today I couldn’t not do that because people were#talking about the memorial and I realised how much I’d been not thinking about it#and then when I was forced to face it by walking in there and sitting there while people talked about it I didn’t last 2 minutes#I was tearing up while I was walking in#I forgot to even consider tissues so I was making a lot of noise during some hymn and then didn’t get enough tissues bc it turns out when it#starts it doesn’t stop#it feels soso stupid because I was in a room with many people who were a lot closer to him than me but I just cry easy#it’s all just fucked up#I’m gonna miss him#there’s this book they’re gonna give to his family for people to write things in and I’m going to figure something out bc I couldn’t do it#while I was there. I would’ve just cried more trying to figure out what to write so I’ll go back later#but yeah. baby’s first taste of actual grief.#luke.txt
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