#it feels like burnout but specifically tied to emotions and how i present and communicate them and also affects the energy i have | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

opheliac · 2 years

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the thing about me and autism is i will continue the hangout long into the night even though i am so drained because all i really need to do is drink water and sit in the group silently while spacing out looking at the pretty glassware and i will tune in 45 minutes fully recharged

#i need to be autistic for at least 10 minutes every day to keep my brain balanced and healthy #no but really masking does do its mark on me and i started noticing it awhile ago and paying more attention #interacting with so many people in professional settings for so long so many days a week broke me a little i think #it really messed with the energy i need to like convey emotions to others the way you're supposed to so they would believe me #bc otherwise its a blank face with a nonchalant tone uttering absolute horrors and breakdowns and theyre like ??? something doesn't add up #idk if this makes sense to anyone else or even any other autistic perso #it feels like burnout but specifically tied to emotions and how i present and communicate them and also affects the energy i have #to even care in return #and i work on monday too so 😒

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