#it especially pisses me off when the argument is because they weren't paying attention

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Am I an unreasonable and self-centered pc? Or are my brothers argumentative for no good reason?

[kanmom51]

Ok, this might be a bit controversial but even though I side eye many "jeonlous" moments on yt or other media because they literally just zoom in on jk's impassive face, I have seen some that seem legit. I think there is some truth behind it all, meaning that it is possible that jk is a bit possessive, especially when it comes to minimoni or even Taemin for some reason. I mean, he has said he had trouble sharing and it is not difficult to imagine this would also apply to his relationships.

This is not to say that he thinks Namjoon or any of the other members are a threat to his relationship with Jimin because that would be ridiculous. It's just that maybe sometimes he doesn't like some of their skinship (for whatever reasons we don't know) and the rest of bts is probably aware of it. I mean, that clip you reblogged where Jimin sneakily looks at jk and then proceeds to touch namjoon's thigh doesn't have many other explanations. He probably knew what he was doing 😂 There is also that part of their live post billboard 2017 where something was going on with jikook and namjoon.

Actually, I think this is true for both jk and jm, even if it is less obvious/frequent. Maybe I'm crazy but I got the same kind of vibe from Jimin in the black swan mv behind when jk was hanging off of tae.

I don't mean to imply they are toxic or anything but they are young adults and while some telenovela like narratives going around are just insane, i don't think it is fair to assume that their relationship is perfect and that they don't do things that annoy each other or that they don't have behaviors that aren't exactly ideal or 100% healthy. Especially because problems are bound to rise if they are a couple but constantly have to act as if they weren't because their relationship is not public.

I know you are really open minded so I would love to read your thoughts on this 💜

Where do I start here?

Controversial is good.  I like me a good controversy once in a while, as long a it’s not offensive.  It makes for good discussion.

No, I do not believe and definitely don’t like the Jeonolous narrative out there.  It makes for fun YT content, but it’s toxic and paints JK as this possessive ass, which I don’t think he is.

I have addressed this in the past, and said that I don’t believe in this narrative, but on the other hand I do see JK and JM as human beings, and as such, not perfect and prone to natural human behaviour and reactions.  

Even those who are not prone to jealousy, that are in the best of relationships, can get jealous once in a while. 

Another thing we need to remember is that what we spot as jealous can be something other than the obvious possessive jealousy we automatically tend to associate that word with.  It could be something like annoyance or discomfort in a situation. 

The dictionary definition of ‘jealous’ is:

feeling or showing an envious resentment of someone or their achievements,  possessions, or perceived advantages.

 feeling or showing a resentful suspicion that one's partner is attracted to or involved with someone else.

fiercely protective of one's rights or possessions.

 As you can see, what we call as jealousy can contain within it several meanings.  There is possessive jealousy.  There is jealous of one other’s advantage, such as their connection with someone else.  There is jealous not of the connection with the other, but the ability to showcase that connection (being able to be free with the other, while you have to hide your own connection), and there is what I call the classic jealousy, when there is a suspicion your partner is attracted to someone else.

With all those there is also a spectrum of levels of jealousy, from low level jealousy to toxic jealousy.

JM & JK’s relationship doesn’t live in a vacuum.  If we believe they are in a loving gay relationship, well they are living that relationship while being K-pop idols in SK, a highly traditional society.  They are in an environment you are not supposed to have a romantic relationship, let alone an unthinkable ‘gay’ relationship. So, showcasing such a relationship, for them, is problematic, and could be dangerous, to their careers and even their own personal safety.  It can be detrimental not only to themselves, but to the band and all the members.  So, as a whole, they have to hide it.  And that in itself can also be a point of friction.

Another thing to point out is that jealousy can also be a facet of insecurity, in yourself and/or in your relationship.  The stronger the relationship, the more secure you are in your connection, the less jealous you will be.  I think that this is something to take into consideration when we look at JM & JK, especially in the early years.  

Also, not every time that JK pokes his cheeks with his tongue does it mean he’s jealous or angry.  Not every behaviour should be interpreted as jealously.

Saying all that, I have seen several occasions that stood out to me, and I find hard to explain.

The 4th July 2015 fan meeting incident is one of them.  The way JK reacted to RM taking a hold of JM was not only jealous behaviour but it was such an extreme reaction and effected JK’s behaviour with the fans as well, which was really unprofessional, and uncharacteristic.  

Same vibe but not as extreme was JK during BTS Bomb after KBS music bank 1st place 9 May 2015.  moody JK when he’s eyeing Jimin interacting with Hobi and Jin, also the way JK averts his eyes when Jimin looks his way. He’s not happy. Mood changes when Jimin pays him attention pulling him by his shirt.

Both of these were, at least as far as I am concerned, before JM & JK’s relationship progressed into something ‘more’.  This could be a kind of ‘I want that’ or ‘why are you giving him attention and not me’ jealousy.  Whatever it was, it was a clear reaction to JM’s interactions with another member of the band.

Another one I think about was 3rd April 2017 – BTS Front row live entertainment interview.  

This one intrigues me. I watched and re-watched the full interview several times, and for the life of me I can’t see what happened there between JM and Hobi that triggered JK’s reaction?  JM’s placating look at JK, like telling him nothing happened… this one is used a lot to create the JK jealous narrative, and to be honest, I really don’t know what happened there. When JK turns back, JM looks into the camera with an uneasy gaze.   Something was going on there, no idea what it was.  Was it jealousy?  Was it something else between them? Idk, but it was a curious moment.

The issues JK has with Taemin. We do know that something happened between JK & JM the night JM performed with Taemin (if it had to do with Taemin we don’t know).  

We have also seen JK’s reactions to Taemin & Jimin together.  I do think there is a dislike there, it can stem from jealousy, but it can also stem from simple dislike of the man.  We have no way of knowing.  It’s kind of who came first, the chicken or the egg.

The clip I reblogged, and that you mentioned anon, is something else to me.  Yes, JK’s reaction is of uneasiness, even anger, but the feel I get here is that this is a JM kind of teaching moment, and JK reacting to that. It feels like JM wants to teach him a lesson for some reason, and JK crossing his arms and look at JM kind of radiates anger more than jealousy to me.  The way JM stretches out his hands, the look on his face before he puts his hands on RM’s thigh, the way he looks back before and after to make sure JK is looking.  He was there to teach him a lesson.  That was my impression.  We have no idea what happened before or after.  We have no idea why JM decided to do this, but JK’s reaction to me was more pissed off than jealous.  That’s the vibe I got.

I have seen JM reacting in a manor that looks like jealousy on occasions.  The one I can think about is the Vlive where JK is sitting in front of Tae, JM on the other side of the table, and Tae is using JK as his play thing.  The way JM looks at them, the way he storms out the second the live ends, the way Tae pipes up immediately, looking like he’s off to follow JM.  They all paint a jealous or angry reaction.  

JM was clearly bothered but I don’t think of this as JM being jealous of Tae & JK.  I think the bond between those three is strong enough. Again, this was one of those questionable moments.

Bottom line –

JK & JM are human beings, and as such exhibit normal human behaviour.  

Jealousy can be considered as a normal human behaviour, and can also be seen in healthy relationships, as long as it doesn’t become toxic, obsessive, overbearing or controlling. I will even go so far as to say that there are those who thrive on jealousy.  Jealousy is a way for them to feel their partner loves them, a way to get reinforcement that they are wanted/loved.  Again, this is something that can turn toxic, but not always.

Jealousy has different facets.  You can be jealous of someone, jealous for someone.

Do JK or JM sometimes show jealous behaviour. Seemingly they do once in a while.

Does that make one or either of them jealous monsters?  Does that make their relationship possessive or toxic?

By no means what so ever!!!!!  

It’s natural, it’s human, they are human.  Their relationship has ups and downs. It holds a beautiful bond filled with love and care, but also may hold insecurities and arguments and everything a normal relationship between two human beings will hold.  

We just need to give them a break.

It’s ok to ‘analyze’ behaviours, but it’s not ok to demonize either one of them.  See the behaviour, talk about it, but also remember we only see part of the picture, the edited version of what is going on between the two.

 And first and utmost remember they are human beings, just like the rest of us.  Don’t hold them up to ridiculous standards because they are ‘idols’.

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Janis & Jimmy

Janis: [Morning after the snap incident] Janis: I can't fucking do this, I can't be around her Jimmy: come out Jimmy: I will too Janis: 🚬 break? Janis: someone's getting smacked otherwise Jimmy: & my teacher won't even hear me go so fuck it Jimmy: gimme a sec Janis: God bless that deaf bitch Janis: wish I was, soz Diego Jimmy: how shit is it? Jimmy: 1-100? Janis: can't be anything but 100 Jimmy: let's go then Jimmy: we don't need to be here Janis: I really thought she'd stay home Janis: how can she sit through this but not when they all were talking about me Jimmy: fuck knows Janis: this is a fucking joke Jimmy: least Mia ain't in your class Jimmy: her smug face is Jimmy: you'd knock her out Janis: do you think she put her onto this or Janis: how is she this stupid, Jesus Jimmy: I bet she weren't like 👎 Jimmy: Or OMG BABES NO!!😱😱 or whatever Janis: 🙄🙄 Janis: never mind whatever the fuck he actually said Janis: got the gist Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: it's bollocks Jimmy: that he said it & she fell for it Jimmy: what they're all saying now too Janis: it'd be alright if she just hated me this much Janis: whatever Janis: but it ain't alright she's this fucking thick and gonna just let herself be treated like this by him and everyone else laughing rn Jimmy: you should tell her Jimmy: nobody else is gonna Jimmy: it don't have to be now though, doubt he's going anywhere yet Janis: I tried Jimmy: alright Jimmy: like I said, fuck it then Jimmy: you did your bit Jimmy: let's go anywhere else Janis: there's nothing I can do Janis: if she wants to be this much of a fool then why should I care Jimmy: fuck knows what she wants Jimmy: but yeah, there's nowt else you can do Janis: Attention Janis: that's why she ain't crying now Jimmy: 🙄🙄 Jimmy: she's getting it Janis: yeah Janis: but us too Janis: who asked Jimmy: I'll knock him out again however much attention I get Jimmy: worth that Janis: if I have to see him again Janis: swear Jimmy: is he that much of an idiot? Jimmy: proper question Janis: definitely Janis: why else would he do all this Jimmy: then he'll get what he fucking gets Janis: yeah Janis: ugh fuck this Janis: I'm out Janis: do you have painkillers too by any chance Jimmy: 'course Jimmy: never know when my dad's gonna kick off, do I Janis: 😞 Janis: fuck all of this Janis: let's go Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: nobody's at mine til tonight Jimmy: we can go there for now Janis: yeah Janis: good Jimmy: 🐶💕 will sort you out Jimmy: you'll be alright Janis: just distract me okay Jimmy: I promise Jimmy: challenge accepted, okay Jimmy: always Janis: thanks Janis: seriously Janis: as if this wasn't shit enough Janis: I'm sorry Jimmy: it's nowt Jimmy: I love you Jimmy: I wanna do more Jimmy: leave it out with your sorry too Jimmy: you ain't done nowt wrong Janis: what can I say then Jimmy: just come with me Jimmy: it's alright Janis: okay Janis: I love you Jimmy: I'm outside your classroom Janis: ready to run Janis: undoubtedly calling the behaviour team rn Jimmy: I'm about ready to kick the door in & shit everyone up Jimmy: probably shouldn't but Janis: 😂 Janis: that'd be pretty funny Jimmy: then I'll do it Jimmy: owt to cheer you up, girl Janis: you're so cute Jimmy: [does the thing cos little shit] Jimmy: 💕 Janis: [run boys run 'cos not allowed to physically stop you leaving] Jimmy: [🚬 when they a safe distance away lol, he'd pass it straight to her cos gentlemanly] Janis: ['you're the best'] Jimmy: ['you'] Janis: [shakes head like nah] Janis: already feel better for not being in there Jimmy: ['you are'] Jimmy: 👍 Janis: hey Janis: come here Janis: [kisses please] Jimmy: [says ILY out loud after & then more kisses after that just because] Janis: ['I missed you'] Jimmy: [says it back because obvs same] Janis: why is everyone shit but you Jimmy: everyone's a dickhead Janis: [nods] Janis: why can't everyone be you Jimmy: only one of me, soz Jimmy: but I am all yours so Janis: yeah? Janis: say that again Jimmy: [says 'I'm just for you, baby. All yours.' in her ear] Janis: [makes an oh noise legit] Janis: I'm yours Jimmy: [cue even more kisses cos can't not when she's so hot like] Janis: you're Janis: a very good distraction Jimmy: 🥇 or nowt Jimmy: I accepted the challenge Janis: [look of love] Janis: I'm glad you did Jimmy: I weren't gonna say fuck you Janis: long as you do, say what you like Jimmy: [is giving her such a sexy look] Jimmy: come here Janis: [does] Jimmy: [a really hot make out sesh like imagine he's pushed her up against wherever & everything it's a mood] Janis: ['We should go'] Jimmy: [just nods cos what are words] Janis: can we walk yours from here? Jimmy: yeah Janis: first Janis: just Janis: more Jimmy: [does because no arguments here ever but especially right now] Janis: [being really extra 'cos the frustration in general rn] Jimmy: [likewise cos 1. challenge accepted and 2. living for it shamelessly like soz everything is shit but not for how hot this is] Janis: ['you're the only thing that matters'] Jimmy: ['you'] Janis: ['this, then...show me'] Jimmy: [yet again where are you lads cos there's no stopping him rn makes me lol] Janis: I wish this was all we ever had to do Janis: none of the other bullshit Jimmy: right now it is Janis: [holding his face to hers 'promise'] Jimmy: [says it back obvs & seals it with a really good kiss for emphasis] Janis: [taking his hand 'cos come on lads] Jimmy: [walking & handholding as per] Janis: never been gladder you live so close Jimmy: never been gladder that we're going to mine instead of yours Jimmy: never been glad actually Jimmy: until today Janis: seriously Janis: Ian ain't a 'come home for lunch' type is he Jimmy: [lols because so much no & shakes his head] Janis: 🙏🙌 Jimmy: we're lucky if he comes home for tea Jimmy: loads of time Janis: again, glad rn Janis: take as long as we can get Jimmy: you've got forever, remember Janis: [smiles] Janis: 'course 👻 boy Jimmy: I love you, alright Janis: I love you Janis: do you ever think like Janis: how this happened Jimmy: 'course Janis: it's fast Janis: isn't it Jimmy: I don't know Jimmy: shit happens fast Jimmy: it can change in a second Jimmy: just the one Jimmy: someone's there then they aren't or you've got nowt then you do Janis: yeah Janis: guess I'm not used to good shit happening that fast Janis: the bad stuff, all the time Jimmy: me too but Jimmy: again, I'm glad Jimmy: like you said Janis: yeah Janis: shouldn't question it Janis: just Janis: enjoy it Janis: right Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: & let nowt ruin it Jimmy: ever Janis: [nods] Janis: it's the only good thing right now Janis: I need to keep it Janis: and you Jimmy: me too Jimmy: I tried so fucking hard with my ex you know 'cause I thought it were Jimmy: but it weren't Jimmy: you're different Jimmy: this is Janis: not like you're alone in that, remotely Janis: can only end one of two ways, when you think about it Jimmy: I didn't wanna think 'bout that though Jimmy: the end Janis: who does Janis: enjoying it whilst it lasts, the moment, the journey, whatever Janis: I'm the weirdo because I don't let myself 'cos I can't think of anything but Jimmy: you are a MASSIVE weirdo, always saying it me Jimmy: but I get it, I think about that loads too & the start Jimmy: how it did, what I did, what I could've Janis: yeah Janis: just Janis: yeah Janis: least this didn't start too fucked up Jimmy: it was always good Jimmy: just Jimmy: I couldn't tell you Janis: it made it less complicated, I think Janis: least we had a label even if it was fake, like Jimmy: & it's not like you were gonna come into the CG order a coffee & I could Jimmy: or at school Janis: I get it, I'm an unapproachable bitch Jimmy: it's not you Jimmy: I don't do that Jimmy: I don't let myself with any of that shit Janis: girls come to you, yeah Janis: bit of a brag but I'll allow it Jimmy: [nudges her playfully] Jimmy: that weren't what I meant but alright yeah Janis: [nudges back] Janis: I know what you meant Jimmy: 'course you do Jimmy: it's the same for you Jimmy: it's on our terms or nowt Janis: exactly Janis: usually the latter Janis: easiest for me Jimmy: why that lad's crying Jimmy: that & I hurt him Janis: 😂 yeah you did Janis: & he has to fake date my sister Jimmy: at least it was fake for us both when we did it Jimmy: or she's more convincing than either of us were, I don't know Janis: nah Janis: I mean it's mutually beneficial 'cos she's getting the attention she wants Janis: but she clearly thinks he likes her too, whatever he's said to win her 'round Jimmy: nah she ain't getting the attention from you Jimmy: that's what she wants Jimmy: like you're gonna beg her not to do it Janis: 🙄 Janis: yeah 'cos I well loved him Janis: girl code, babes Jimmy: it ain't about him Janis: he'll be 💔 Jimmy: sure he'll be relieved Jimmy: easier to drop her when you don't come running in a bit Janis: honestly Janis: give it up already Janis: if you knew me at all Janis: how are we thinking this'll work Jimmy: I get it Jimmy: I'd do anything to make you pay attention to me if you weren't Janis: yeah right Janis: you just wanna fuck indie Janis: i told you no Jimmy: I mean it, I would Jimmy: & yeah obviously I do, she's really fit & decent to chat to Jimmy: older woman too so 💕 Janis: shut up Janis: you're a dickhead Jimmy: alright I'll just here me & my thoughts, not chatting just 😍😍😍 over her Janis: I'll just be leaving Jimmy: [pulls her close to him] Jimmy: you can't, you promised Janis: I can do whatever I want Jimmy: go on then Jimmy: do whatever you want Jimmy: right now Janis: ['yeah right' and drops his hand and keeps walking] Jimmy: [offers her a 🚬 which we know is a ploy to make her come back lol] Janis: [smoking in silence] Jimmy: don't be jealous Jimmy: I wanna fuck you too Janis: actually piss off Janis: not in the mood Jimmy: come on Jimmy: don't be a dickhead Janis: don't talk to me Jimmy: don't ignore me Jimmy: how about that Janis: why would I want to talk to you rn Jimmy: 1. 'cause I wasn't serious & you know that so 2. why wouldn't you Janis: I said, I ain't in the mood Janis: just leave it Jimmy: no Janis: You're so fucking annoying Jimmy: You are Janis: no I ain'r Jimmy: yeah you are Jimmy: what's this mood for? Janis: what you think Janis: you ain't stupid Jimmy: you ain't Jimmy: so stop Janis: I'm going for a run Jimmy: [stands in front of her & looks at her like stop it woman] Janis: [raises her eyebrows like are you serious] Jimmy: talk to me Jimmy: this is bollocks Janis: I've told you already Janis: got nothing else to say about it Jimmy: fuck's sake Jimmy: I didn't bin off school for you to ignore me Jimmy: tell me what's wrong Janis: Jesus, listen Janis: you've pissed me off Jimmy: you've pissed me off Jimmy: so what Janis: so I want some time to myself Jimmy: piss off then Janis: trying to Janis: [moves past him] Jimmy: [keeps walking like alright then] Janis: [going to the park obvs] Jimmy: [is going home obvs] Jimmy: at least take the dog with you if you're going Janis: Polite Janis: but I will Janis: she's probably desperate Jimmy: 👍 Janis: you bringing her or what Jimmy: I'm going home Jimmy: give a shit about her Janis: well no shit but she'll be there Janis: you want her walked, could at least drop her Jimmy: like I said, give a shit Jimmy: you're the one all 🐶💕 Janis: you know she needs walking or you wouldn't have said so just do it Jimmy: you're doing what you want & I'm doing what I want Jimmy: which don't include ferrying the dog about Jimmy: come and get her if you're bothered Jimmy: or don't Janis: fine Janis: I won't Janis: ain't my dog Jimmy: 👌 Janis: be stubborn and give yourself more work to do later Jimmy: I ain't giving myself nowt to do Janis: Cass then Janis: worse, whatever Jimmy: [shrugs] Janis: [🙄] Jimmy: I ain't meant to be here right now she ain't gonna miss what she weren't gonna have Janis: whatever, you'll be the one in the house with her when she's going mental Jimmy: yeah I will Jimmy: so you can leave it out Jimmy: not your dog or your problem Janis: I can have an opinion Jimmy: & I can ignore it Jimmy: loads of that going on Janis: sure you can Janis: and I'm not ignoring you Jimmy: [🙄] Janis: I listening to everything you had to say Janis: not my fault it weren't funny Jimmy: not my fault you brought her up Jimmy: or take everything really seriously Janis: yeah well you know what to do if you don't like it Jimmy: do I? Jimmy: what the fuck is that then Janis: you're doing it Jimmy: you're doing it Janis: I'm going for a run Jimmy: I got that the first time you said it Jimmy: & I get why Jimmy: even though it's bollocks Janis: how is it bollocks Jimmy: you're pissed off at me for nowt Jimmy: that's bollocks Janis: well sorry but that's how I feel Janis: what you want me to do about it Jimmy: I've told you Janis: talking isn't gonna help when you're just telling me I'm wrong Jimmy: It ain't my fault that you are Janis: see Janis: why Janis: why would I do this with you right now Jimmy: why would I wanna fuck someone else Jimmy: never mind your sister Jimmy: sort yourself out Janis: hold on Janis: you gave the reasons lemme scroll up Janis yeah obviously I do, she's really fit & decent to chat to older woman too so 💕 Janis: there you go, welcome Jimmy: & I've given you loads more reasons why I wouldn't Jimmy: why don't you trust me Janis: it ain't about trust Jimmy: why don't you believe me then Janis: what's to believe, you said what you said Jimmy: I've also said that I don't want anyone else & I fucking love you Jimmy: loads of times Janis: yeah Janis: they don't cancel each other out Jimmy: yeah they do Janis: I don't think so Jimmy: well what the fuck do you want me to do? Jimmy: I can't keep defending myself for something I ain't done & wouldn't Janis: I ain't asking you to Jimmy: this is such bollocks Jimmy: whatever Jimmy: go Janis: fine Jimmy: 👍 Janis: fuck off Jimmy: fuck you Janis: you Janis: you started it Jimmy: you did Jimmy: it ain't my fault everything's shit Jimmy: don't take it out on me Janis: yeah well you're meant to help Janis: not add to it Jimmy: you added to it Jimmy: just let it go Jimmy: it was a stupid thing to say, alright Jimmy: but like I said, you brought her up Janis: like I didn't know anyway Janis: you didn't have to say it Jimmy: it ain't even about her Jimmy: it's about you reckoning I would Jimmy: that there's something to be jealous of Jimmy: yeah, she's fit & not a total dickhead, but that don't mean owt Jimmy: loads of girls are Jimmy: I'm with you Jimmy: I want you Janis: Then go talk to them Jimmy: shut up Jimmy: I don't want to Jimmy: I wanna talk to you, you dickhead Janis: you haven't tried Janis: so go Jimmy: stop Jimmy: I've been with other girls, you know that Jimmy: there's nobody like you Jimmy: & I've never felt like this Janis: [is just looking at him like] Jimmy: [all the intense looks from him too like BELIEVE ME BITCH ILY] Janis: can we just Janis: forget it Jimmy: I don't know Jimmy: can you? Janis: alright, if I wanted to talk to a teacher I'd go back Jimmy: piss off Jimmy: I'm being serious Jimmy: are we gonna have to keep doing this or what? Janis: just don't say stupid shit again and we won't Jimmy: alright Jimmy: challenge accepted Janis: I'm being serious Jimmy: me too Jimmy: I didn't mean to kick all this off Jimmy: I say stupid shit sometimes Jimmy: but I'll try not to Janis: whatever, it's done with Jimmy: okay Janis: I don't wanna fuck you still though Janis: sorry Jimmy: then don't Janis: I can't Jimmy: so it's not done with Janis: it is Janis: just Jimmy: it isn't Jimmy: there's still a problem Janis: I just don't feel great about myself right now that's all Janis: that ain't all you is it Jimmy: no Janis: no what Jimmy: it's not me Jimmy: do you want me to beat the shit out of that lad again? Jimmy: 'cause I will Janis: no Janis: it's not gonna stop him doing what he wants Jimmy: I meant what I said earlier, owt to cheer you up Jimmy: anything for you ever Janis: you just can't fix this Janis: but it's nice that you care to try Jimmy: I can't fix anything Jimmy: escape, remember Jimmy: that's all there is Janis: yeah Janis: the foundation of all solid relationships I'm sure Jimmy: never seen one Jimmy: I'll let you know if I ever do Janis: 👍 Jimmy: in a bit then Janis: where are you going Jimmy: home Jimmy: unless you're gonna run around my garden we gotta part ways Janis: bye then Jimmy: yeah Janis: [skip 'cos nothing to say] Jimmy: ? Jimmy: what was that? Jimmy: too much of a queue Janis: yeah something like that Janis: don't worry 👍 Jimmy: don't be a dickhead Jimmy: you know you can go to the front Janis: wow, perks Jimmy: 👍 Janis: plenty overpriced coffee places in this town Jimmy: & you walked into mine so Jimmy: what is it? Janis: now I need a reason Janis: soz, didn't know I had to book in Jimmy: to walk in & straight yeah Jimmy: out* Jimmy: bollocks don't you have a reason Jimmy: go on Janis: you know I don't even drink coffee Janis: what you think Janis: I was there to see you, dickhead Jimmy: I know that Jimmy: & now you don't wanna Jimmy: so what's wrong? Janis: you're busy Jimmy: & Janis: and Janis: it's not that important, obviously Jimmy: whatever Jimmy: piss off again then Janis: don't talk to me like that Jimmy: at least I'm talking to you Jimmy: this is just bollocks Janis: to tell me to piss off? Janis: yeah no need Janis: message received loud and clear Jimmy: to tell you to stop Jimmy: this Janis: what have I done? Jimmy: what have I? Jimmy: why don't you wanna see me or chat to me Janis: you've got plenty of people to chat to Janis: you're fine Jimmy: shut up Jimmy: none of them are you Jimmy: I miss you, alright Janis: nah you don't Jimmy: yeah I do Janis: yeah right Janis: well I came to see you not the other way 'round Jimmy: It ain't my fault that you went for the world's longest run Jimmy: right past my house & away from me for ages Jimmy: just finished, did you? Janis: shut up Janis: that's just an excuse Janis: you're over 'chasing' me Janis: fine Jimmy: you shut up Jimmy: I waited for you Jimmy: you never showed Jimmy: if anyone's over this it's you Janis: well how was I supposed to know Janis: I'm not a mindreader Jimmy: nah, just my girlfriend Jimmy: why would I want you around? Jimmy: what the fuck Janis: you said you were going home Jimmy: you said you were going for a run Jimmy: so I was waiting for you at home Jimmy: weren't invited, was I? Janis: no Janis: whatever, this is all beside the point now Jimmy: for you, maybe Jimmy: I got your message loud & clear is the point Janis: no, yours Jimmy: what have I done other than let you go on a run? Janis: you tell me Janis: actually don't Janis: don't need to hear Jimmy: what the fuck are you on about? Janis: you're loving getting consoled, don't lie Jimmy: the dog's the only one missing you other than me Jimmy: so nah, I ain't Jimmy: she can piss off too Janis: yeah 'cos that's what I meant Jimmy: what then Jimmy: you gonna say I'm flirting with customers now Jimmy: 👴👵💕 Janis: don't take the piss out of me Jimmy: I ain't Jimmy: I'm asking Jimmy: what's your issue? Janis: how fast you're moving on Janis: that's my issue Jimmy: 1. didn't actually realise you'd dumped me, tah for letting me know Jimmy: 2. I ain't moved on to nowhere or nowt Jimmy: 3. fuck you Janis: I haven't but you're fine and I'm Jimmy: stop saying I'm fine Janis: saying what I saw Jimmy: soz for not crying into the lattes Jimmy: trying to keep my job Janis: stop taking the piss Janis: I'm trying to talk to you properly Jimmy: stop telling me I'm not being serious Jimmy: that's how I feel Jimmy: like shit Jimmy: but I'm working so I can't just Janis: don't say it like that's what I want to see either Janis: you don't have to fucking Janis: flirt with your coworkers though that isn't part of the job description Jimmy: sort yourself out Jimmy: I'll say it again & mean it as much if not more Janis: fuck off Janis: patronizing prick Jimmy: it ain't patronising to tell you that you're acting mental right now Jimmy: it's how it is Jimmy: I can't talk to someone I walk with now? Jimmy: since when's that been part of the deal Jimmy: work* Janis: there's talking then there's that Janis: I know the difference okay Jimmy: nah you don't alright Jimmy: she has a boyfriend she lives with & who dropped her in Jimmy: I have a girlfriend who's a massive dickhead but I love Janis: doesn't mean you can't fancy each other Janis: does it Jimmy: It means I fancy you Jimmy: more than anyone Janis: okay Jimmy: just come back Janis: I can't Janis: I feel stupid now Jimmy: please Jimmy: I can't do this without you Jimmy: any of it Janis: can you come outside Janis: just for a second Jimmy: I'm due a break Jimmy: you can have 10 minutes Janis: okay Janis: hold on then Jimmy: alright Janis: I don't think I'm far Jimmy: 👍 Janis: I'm sorry Jimmy: me too Jimmy: I really am Janis: you shouldn't have to be Janis: you didn't do anything Jimmy: I should've dragged you back with me Jimmy: or called Jimmy: or owt else so you know that I didn't want you to fucking go Janis: it's okay, I was telling you to leave me alone Janis: you didn't have much choice Jimmy: but you also told me not to let nowt ruin this Jimmy: I fucked up Jimmy: & I'm sorry Janis: I promised too Janis: so Janis: my fault Jimmy: yeah but like you said, I was supposed to make shit better not worse Jimmy: my fault Janis: you do Jimmy: ask yourself how you feel right now Jimmy: it ain't good Jimmy: so nah Janis: only because I kept myself away from you and I convinced myself of Janis: all kinds of shit that isn't true Janis: it wasn't you Jimmy: just take the apology Jimmy: I need you to Jimmy: I need you Janis: alright Janis: do you take mine too Jimmy: 'course Janis: okay good Janis: come out then Jimmy: [does] Janis: [reunited and it feels so good] Jimmy: [longest hug ever excuse him] Janis: ['I missed you so much'] Jimmy: [says he missed her too & loves her so much & just is not letting go and ugh] Janis: ['I love you, I'm sorry I'm so stupid'] Jimmy: [all the reassuring words & touches 'cause you're so not stupid babe we get it] Janis: ['don't dump me'] Jimmy: ['don't you dump me'] Janis: [shakes head, 'I would never, you'll have to dump me, sorry 'bout it'] Jimmy: [shakes own head & is just looking at her like] Janis: ['but not now, please'] Jimmy: ['not ever'] Janis: ['have to kill me then'] Jimmy: [looks at her like challenge accepted & gives her SUCH A Jimmy: KISS] Janis: ['I really fucking missed you' and more 'cos duh remember you only have 10 minutes lads] Jimmy: [if there was ever a time for the pulling her closer thing it's during this make out so] Janis: [all the ilys] Jimmy: [and all the I missed yous & need yous & sorrys too] Janis: ['can I see you properly after work?'] Jimmy: ['Yeah. But stay too, just for a bit. Just'] Janis: [nods, stroking her thumb over his bottom lip] Jimmy: [is 😍 but also a soft boy trying not to cry cos thank fuck everything is okay again] Janis: [little kisses all over his forehead, cheeks, nose etc] Janis: ['I'm really not gonna let it happen again, I swear'] Jimmy: [nods cos what are words but also I believe you bab] Janis: [hugging 'til he has to go] Jimmy: I don't want to Janis: I know Janis: make me a smoothie, I'm staying for a bit, remember Janis: just also not getting you sacked from this one Jimmy: 👌👍 Janis: [one last intense kiss 'cos you dramatic] Jimmy: [just giving it everything like its gonna be years before you can do it again & not hours] Jimmy: alright Jimmy: come on Janis: [handholding walking in bitch] Jimmy: [walks her to the blatantly best seat for being near him and squeezes her hand before letting go & leaving her there but all the looks as he makes this smoothie bitch] Janis: I forgot to say Janis: you look even better in this uniform, bt Janis: w Jimmy: yeah? Janis: mhmm Janis: [obvs looking back] Jimmy: did you dress up for me? Jimmy: 'cause you look Jimmy: [indecent looks rn excuse him other customers its not for you] Janis: [😳] Janis: obviously Janis: told you I was coming here to win you back Jimmy: its Jimmy: it would have worked Janis: would have? Janis: 💔 Jimmy: if you'd just come in & Jimmy: I don't know what your plan was Janis: 🤷 Janis: maybe I'll tell you Jimmy: [brings her the smoothie even though he's not a waitress lol & all the eye contact & lingering hand touch when] Janis: ['tah' 'cos what else can she even rn help] Jimmy: [says 'enjoy' in such a voice like how dare you boy] Janis: I take back what I didn't say Janis: you are flirting with the customers if that's how you're doing it Jimmy: [lols from where he is back at the counter oh boy working hard as per yeah] Janis: 😏 Janis: you're cute Jimmy: you're hot Jimmy: & I just Janis: focus, babe Jimmy: I am Jimmy: on you Jimmy: [sends her a fire sext cos any excuse for a throwback] Janis: this is how trouble starts Jimmy: I've told you before, I'll get in trouble for you Janis: I know Janis: but I've gotta be good for you right now Jimmy: you are Jimmy: you're the best Janis: you Janis: even if you are making me miss you more than I already did Janis: which was so much Jimmy: it just wasn't long enough Jimmy: we need more Jimmy: of everything Janis: yeah Janis: when are you working to, actually Jimmy: 3 more hours Janis: ugh Janis: well, could be worse Janis: lasted this long without actually dying Jimmy: & I'm already dead me Janis: they'd probably recommend a ☕ Janis: but I know the truth Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: you know what I need, girl Janis: are you planning on being this distracting the whole time? Jimmy: It ain't my fault if you're easily distracted Jimmy: [gives her A LOOK as if to prove it cos little shit] Janis: it's entirely your fault Janis: thank you Janis: own it Jimmy: you Jimmy: looking like that Jimmy: making me just want Janis: Jimmy Janis: you can't tease me for 3 whole hours Jimmy: don't challenge me Janis: I can't take it right now Janis: I just Jimmy: let's think of a plan Jimmy: there's gotta be a fire alarm we can set off or some shit Janis: 😂 Janis: better yet, I'll just start a real fire Jimmy: probably don't burn down my livelihood Jimmy: much as I wanna be with you right now Janis: spoilsport Janis: but fine, I'll sit here and drink my drink Janis: 😇 Jimmy: & think of a plan to get me off early Jimmy: I'm serious Janis: 🤔 me, on it Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: tah nerd Janis: shame all your grandparents are too far north to kill off Janis: 'less you can cry hardcore on command, and you know, bit of a rep to get Jimmy: & already 💀 Janis: your boss don't need to know that Janis: that's 4 funerals you can 'go' to, play your cards right Jimmy: an evil genius you Jimmy: why are we pissing about though let's just kill Ian Janis: two dickheads, one stone Janis: like the way you think, boy Jimmy: & there's my mum too Jimmy: add her to the fake funeral list Janis: oh yeah Janis: 'less she's gonna show up at some point, give the game away Jimmy: not here Janis: that works then Jimmy: like I said, add her to the list Janis: 👍 will do Janis: you aren't deathly allergic to anything they might have here, by any chance Jimmy: if I say I am that'd probably get me sacked Jimmy: health & safety gone mad, like Janis: ah true Janis: too risky Janis: just have to fake a medical emergency and put you as my contact Janis: bye mum and dad Jimmy: 👋 Jimmy: soz but not really Janis: lmao this is when I tell you I've got a life-threatening illness Janis: #trapped Jimmy: 👻 club Jimmy: first rule, you gotta be dead or dying so Janis: this is what they make lifetime movies about to scare suburban mums Jimmy: 😂 Janis: #goals always you Jimmy: 💕 Janis: also good smoothie Jimmy: won't tell you it's basically off the menu from here Jimmy: don't wanna 💔 Janis: 💔 my heart too Janis: don't feel special now Jimmy: baby Jimmy: it's still got secret ingredients Jimmy: don't need 🎻🎻 Janis: 😏 hmm Janis: might survive then Jimmy: you have to Jimmy: you've promised Janis: obvs I'm a well untrustworthy bitch though Jimmy: bit late to let me know that now but Jimmy: alright then Janis: like you didn't Jimmy: I trust you with all my heart, you know Janis: shh Janis: don't be so cute Jimmy: could be taking the piss Jimmy: what do you know, girl Janis: it's still cute Janis: and everything, obviously but we don't need to bang on about it Jimmy: 'course not Jimmy: everyone knows we're #goals Janis: sick of how #goals we are Jimmy: you are or the 🌍 is Janis: 🌍 Janis: never me, idiot Jimmy: good Janis: you know how much I love you don't you Jimmy: yeah but Jimmy: say it though Janis: Jimmy, I love you so much I feel like Janis: not loving you is impossible Jimmy: don't not love me Jimmy: ever Janis: I can't, I mean it Janis: but I don't wanna either Janis: it's just Jimmy: I get it Jimmy: I do Janis: it's a lot, right Jimmy: yeah but Jimmy: it's meant to be Jimmy: so that's good Jimmy: it means it's real Janis: it is Janis: that's good then Jimmy: if we're not scared we don't care enough Jimmy: that's what I reckon Jimmy: & if we don't feel like we're gonna 💀 then we're not 💕 enough Janis: I'm alright going with that too Janis: better than admitting we're actually mental or whatever Jimmy: we're that too Jimmy: massive fucking weirdos Janis: [lols from her table] Jimmy: [is heart eyes cos] Janis: should I go walk the dog to kill some time Jimmy: I don't want you to go but Jimmy: you should Janis: I'll come back Janis: promise Jimmy: okay Jimmy: [comes & gives her keys purely so he can touch her again when he does] Janis: [tries to give him a restrained goodbye kiss] Jimmy: [goes for it because he's not gonna get sacked just for that] Janis: 💕 Janis: now I get to see my real bae Jimmy: at least let me finish saying bye before you're thinking about her Jimmy: bit rude Janis: 😏 Janis: okay you can continue Jimmy: no, I can't Jimmy: not how I want Jimmy: so to be continued, baby Janis: 😍 Janis: alright, make it hard to move when I gotta walk out Janis: see how it is Jimmy: #goals Jimmy: as always Jimmy: but seriously Jimmy: I already miss you Janis: I miss you more, trust Janis: try not to lose your dog whilst I'm shamelessly distracted, like Jimmy: & I'll try not to get sacked Jimmy: again Janis: [tattoo insta] Janis: is she actually serious Jimmy: ? Janis: [sends it] Jimmy: shit Jimmy: why Janis: because she's that much of a fucking idiot Janis: because she wants as many shitty tattoos with shitty people as she can Janis: I Janis: Jesus! Jimmy: him too Jimmy: I know he's got some already but Jimmy: fucking hell Jimmy: where'd they even go to get it done Janis: I know my mum didn't do it, that's for sure Janis: probably made my brother 'cos who's believing she's close to 18 Jimmy: yeah exactly Jimmy: & he don't look like he is either Janis: more than her but yeah, probably not Janis: it's so stupid Janis: how long has it even been Jimmy: a week? Jimmy: I don't know Janis: actual joke Janis: 'cept they're taking it too far and no one but him is laughing Jimmy: 🙄 Jimmy: should've hit him harder Janis: I should Janis: for fuck sake Janis: so what, this is real now yeah, we're all just pretending Jimmy: where is he? let's go knock him out Janis: ha Janis: with my sister, not that he wants to be apparently Jimmy: at yours? Jimmy: easy then Janis: nah Janis: I'm at home Jimmy: bit rude of 'em not to be in smacking distance Janis: seriously Janis: she's gonna be in for it when she gets home though Janis: my big sister's here and she's fuming Jimmy: I can guess which one Jimmy: giving out those #mumvibes Janis: yeah, not your fave so you don't have to rush over Jimmy: she's still hot though Jimmy: let's not be hasty 'bout this Janis: funny 🖕 Janis: if you can calm my ma down you're welcome like Jimmy: I'd have a crack at it Jimmy: ain't got much experience though Jimmy: mine was Jimmy: never calm Janis: yeah Janis: she ain't really Janis: but not like this Jimmy: tell her at least she ain't married to Ian or never been Jimmy: comforting that Jimmy: for all of us Janis: ew Janis: enough incest flying 'round here Jimmy: is there? Janis: ugh, right Janis: could've got away with that Janis: someone would say it eventually Janis: my sister, the mum one, married our cousin Janis: I know Jimmy: fuck Jimmy: you're not taking the piss right now, are you? Janis: sadly not Janis: 😑 Jimmy: how did that come about? Janis: that's what we'd like to know Janis: well everyone is #overit now 'cos how this family does Jimmy: & they're like married & shit? Janis: yeah, kids and everything Janis: it's fucked Jimmy: not to be that dickhead but Jimmy: is that allowed Janis: apparently so Janis: who knew Janis: had a quick google of that beforehand I guess lads Jimmy: well shit me Jimmy: you really are living that 🍀 dream Jimmy: I'm #shook rich girl Janis: shut up Janis: it ain't me it's just my family Janis: I told you they're fucked, hardly the worst Jimmy: do you want me to come over, for real? Jimmy: for you Jimmy: not them Janis: yeah Janis: I'm trying to talk to her but Janis: you can imagine how well that's going Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: I'll be there in a bit Jimmy: soon as I can Jimmy: thank fuck I opened at work this morning Janis: 👍 Janis: better if you miss the hysterics Janis: would if I could but you know Jimmy: owt else I can do? Jimmy: it's so fucking Jimmy: caught me unawares but Janis: 'less you've got a laser you're probably good Jimmy: I'm just pleased to see you, babe Jimmy: nowt like that in my pocket soz Janis: 😂 Janis: you're such a dork Janis: thanks Jimmy: mr 😎 me Jimmy: you've got the wrong lad again Janis: come over anyways, yeah Jimmy: alright Jimmy: but I ain't getting a tattoo done Jimmy: don't like you that much Janis: don't be that 😎 Janis: only one it couple at a time, please Jimmy: it would help me remember your name though Jimmy: sort it out, Grace, you've really fucked me over Janis: you ain't putting my name next to barrys Janis: not 2nd best ever, tah Jimmy: ❌ his out first Jimmy: you know you're 🥇 Janis: that'll look like maybe you thought that was my name Janis: like whoops, take 2 Jimmy: it would suit you Jimmy: really pretty Janis: 😏 Janis: so elegant Jimmy: 💕 Jimmy: spare my blushes when I call his name out too so Jimmy: tah Janis: hmm Janis: so accomodating me Jimmy: must be why I miss you so much right now Janis: yeah? Jimmy: unless you can think of any other reasons Janis: if anyone's out here listing what's so missable about me, it should be you Jimmy: maybe when I get there Jimmy: if you're Jimmy: nice to me Janis: you know you're the only person I'm nice to Janis: you should feel special, baby Janis: you are Jimmy: you Jimmy: nobody even pays me Janis: if that was your subtle way of asking Janis: rude, at this point Janis: tbh Jimmy: I ain't asking you Jimmy: but like if you fam really wanna be #extra Janis: don't worry Janis: all eyes on princess grace rn Janis: you won't be getting a look in Jimmy: 👍 Janis: not with me though, obviously Jimmy: if that was your subtle way of binning me off Jimmy: try again Janis: I meant the opposite Janis: can have my full attention if you're distracting enough Jimmy: when aren't I? Jimmy: not even a challenge Janis: was only a maybe earlier Jimmy: come on Jimmy: you know how much I want you Janis: Good Janis: 'cos before this drama I was so bored without you Janis: and now I just need to Janis: not think, for a bit Jimmy: easy Jimmy: I'll make you not think for as long as you need Janis: I love you, yeah Jimmy: you'll love me more in a bit Jimmy: I promise Janis: I know Janis: can't lie and say you've ever let me down there Jimmy: ain't about to start now Jimmy: you might think about me though Jimmy: that alright? Janis: I always think about you so Janis: just gimme something really good to remember later Jimmy: you're still be feeling it later Jimmy: least I can do Janis: I need that so bad right now Janis: always Janis: I wanna feel you all the time Jimmy: me too Jimmy: not just saying it 'cause you need it Janis: good Janis: don't Janis: you have to want it just as bad always or there's no point Jimmy: like I said, you know how much Jimmy: I really want you Janis: yeah but Janis: I like reminding Jimmy: you can have 'em all Jimmy: physically Janis: just no tattoos yeah Jimmy: 💔💔 Janis: 😏 so gutted I know Janis: just aren't that #goals Jimmy: 🎻🎻 gonna make me 😢 babe Janis: you wish Janis: if you like pain that much I can think of plenty other ways to get you there Jimmy: go on Jimmy: I'll be there soon Janis: 😂 Janis: maybe I'll tell you when you are then Janis: if you're nice Jimmy: the deal is, you're nice to me & I'm nice to you Jimmy: that's it Jimmy: remember Jimmy: so it's up to you, girl Janis: I'm always nice Janis: what are you talking about Jimmy: best behavior 😇 you Jimmy: for now Janis: what about later Jimmy: 😈 please Janis: easy Janis: gimme a challenge Jimmy: patience Jimmy: there it is Janis: wow Janis: call me out Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: I like it Jimmy: you Janis: I like you too Janis: too much to worry about being hard to get or some stupid shit Jimmy: nowt turns me on more than how much you want me Jimmy: that's too much Janis: handy Janis: 'cos I ain't tryna hide it Janis: I wanna turn you on Jimmy: just not right now yeah Jimmy: I'm surrounded by people Janis: 😇 still Jimmy: 👌 Janis: even if it is hard work Jimmy: I get it Janis: nah Janis: always 😈 you Janis: leading me astray Jimmy: you're the #confirmed bad influence, babe Janis: only if you wanna side with Ian Janis: dog 💕 me Janis: she can be trusted Jimmy: you're definitely a bad influence on her Janis: 💔 Janis: how could you Jimmy: how could you Jimmy: one job Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 Janis: fine Janis: imma ignore you and focus solely on my dog training career Janis: bye Jimmy: 💔💔💔 Janis: you asked for this, boy Janis: questioning my dedication Jimmy: what if I asked for the opposite Jimmy: what are you gonna do? Janis: you didn't though so Janis: speak up Jimmy: alright Jimmy: I'm saying it Jimmy: gimme all your attention like you said Janis: okay Janis: could've thrown in a please but Janis: easily persuaded Jimmy: baby please Janis: 🤤 Janis: now you're just spoiling me Jimmy: I want to Jimmy: I miss you Jimmy: it's taking ages to get there Janis: don't it always Janis: amazed any potential suitors make it to the door Jimmy: that don't make me used to it Janis: I know you remember how best to pass the time Jimmy: tell me Jimmy: I wanna spoil you, I told you Janis: make a video for me yeah Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: alright Janis: I can watch it later Jimmy: you better if I'm putting all this 🥇 effort in Janis: promise Janis: I wanna watch it whilst you fuck me Jimmy: You're 💀 me Jimmy: you're so Janis: too much? Jimmy: perfect Janis: you Jimmy: you Janis: I can't even think about how good you must look right now Janis: but it's all I can think about Jimmy: [sends her some selfies cos nice like that] Janis: be here now Janis: like right now Jimmy: send me a 🐎 or car, rich girl Jimmy: even one of them cows would do Janis: they are fans after last time so Janis: probably make that happen Jimmy: they would be if they could see me now Janis: 😍 Janis: I can always take you to see 'em later Janis: feeling like putting on a show for more than me and the bus Janis: don't let the #fame go to your head, babe Jimmy: who could refuse an offer like that, babe Jimmy: especially 'cause you know I ain't letting anyone on this bus know owt Jimmy: it's all for you Jimmy: 🥇 Janis: just Janis: say that again Jimmy: what Jimmy: that it's for you? Jimmy: you know it is Janis: you know I like hearing it though Jimmy: you can hear everything when I get there Jimmy: I know you like that too Janis: you just know everything I like Jimmy: so far Jimmy: forever's loads of time Janis: you reckon I'll get bored? Jimmy: might do Jimmy: only so many times we can call Pete to spice things up for us Janis: 😏 Janis: know you two think you're special but Janis: whole world of barista boys out there Jimmy: good job 'cause Barry'll be 💀 can't rely on him either Janis: 😂 Janis: why it's so sensible going for an older man Janis: more sensible going with 👻 boy though Jimmy: I ain't giving you 🏆 for falling for me Jimmy: just good sense that Janis: hmm Janis: 👌 Janis: feels it Jimmy: bring more enthusiasm when you show me in Janis: make me Janis: you here though Jimmy: I will Janis: promises promises Jimmy: just telling you what's about to happen Jimmy: preparation if owt Jimmy: want you to be ready for me Janis: stop being hot when I'm trying to come get you Jimmy: this is nowt Jimmy: & why you gotta be ready Janis: I ain't ready Janis: wasn't Janis: for how much I want you Janis: all the time Jimmy: now who's being hot Janis: I mean it though Janis: I didn't know I could need anyone this bad Jimmy: me either Jimmy: you know I mean that too yeah Janis: yeah Janis: it is a bit different though Janis: you're special, I mean that too Janis: even if I thought someone was fit or whatever I'd go there and it'd just be Jimmy: you didn't feel nowt at all? Janis: like Janis: obviously physically, it's happening, even if it's not incredible it's still you know Janis: but I couldn't get out of my head Janis: idk Jimmy: why me then Janis: don't say it like that Janis: not like I planned it Janis: I thought it'd be same as usually, too Jimmy: I don't mean it like Jimmy: it's just Jimmy: you're so Jimmy: with me Janis: I dunno Janis: maybe 'cos we both knew it was fake from the off Janis: 'cos everyone else is pretending too Janis: but you have to pretend you ain't and work out if the other person still is so if it turns real for you, you know to hide it if it ain't for them Janis: it's a minefield init Janis: it took that away Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: I get it Jimmy: before I came here I felt like the only one of my mates being real about owt Jimmy: & Ian ain't been since who knows when Janis: yeah, exactly Janis: everyone bullshits about everything Janis: all the time Janis: why was I gonna opt-in for some more when I could do it better alone Jimmy: I'm so happy I met you Jimmy: that literally sounds fake but Janis: gonna say, don't start now Janis: sounds dead lick arse but Janis: you're just, real, as well Janis: I knew that at least before I knew you Jimmy: there's none of that bollocks with you Jimmy: it's why I could ask you do this Jimmy: not why I wanted to though Janis: why didn't you like Janis: freak out more Janis: when you knew I wanted it for real Jimmy: I'd done all that when I reckoned you didn't Janis: yeah? Jimmy: talked myself out of loads of shit then & before Jimmy: you reckon that was the first thing your sister had left at the CG? Jimmy: it was just the first time I went for chatting with you Jimmy: *some of her shit Janis: oh Gracie, how shaming Janis: still Janis: cheers for that, babe Jimmy: not forgiven for near throwing up on me but Jimmy: she did alright there Janis: you're such a baby 😂 Janis: but I like you anyways Jimmy: piss off Jimmy: you love me & I'm 😎💪 Janis: yeah, I do Jimmy: come here & show me Janis: how could I refuse an offer like that, babe Jimmy: you can't Janis: I don't wanna Janis: I wanna show you everything Jimmy: I need to see it Jimmy: & feel it Jimmy: every sense actually Janis: fuck Janis: yeah everything being you sounds pretty fucking good right now Jimmy: it'll be better than good Janis: I know Janis: what I don't know is how we're getting back to my room when I'm already so Jimmy: they're all inside Jimmy: let's be outside Jimmy: for a bit Janis: not just a pretty face Janis: but Janis: [comes into view and runs at 'cos no chill with this hello] Jimmy: [let's give them a sec to be extra af] Janis: [going hard with showing 'cos what a frustrating day in general and then you've got yourself all worked up oh lads] Jimmy: [likewise cos he's got one job which is to distract her & he REALLY wants to do it at this point] Janis: ['I've been thinking about you, about this, all day'] Jimmy: [when you're trying to be like yeah me too but it's basically just a moan though cos] Janis: [just nods 'cos same babe and gets them somewhere vaguely out of view/earshot of the house if you please] Jimmy: [very appreciated, takes this moment to send her the video as promised before he gets too distracted to remember] Janis: [sits in his lap 'cos always but facing him and not away] Janis: ['I want you to watch me watch you'] Jimmy: [his turn to just nod but the LOOK he'd give her though bye] Janis: ['feel me, Jimmy'] Janis: you said I had to be ready so see how well I did for you Jimmy: [says fuck softly & with feeling cos damn okay] Janis: how do you look that good Janis: better than I even imagined, God Jimmy: it's how you make me feel Jimmy: I was thinking about you & I just Janis: [in his neck, kissing and sucking and biting etc 'cos making her need a moment] Janis: what exactly where you thinking about me Jimmy: you were with me Jimmy: I always want you to be Janis: that's why you're eyes are closed Janis: you're pretending it's me Jimmy: yeah Janis: shit Janis: that's so Jimmy: you're so Jimmy: it made me just Janis: just like Janis: this Janis: [copying the video] Jimmy: [making all the noises he couldn't make then cos he had to be more stealth] Janis: you can have your eyes open this time too Janis: I'm here, baby Jimmy: [the eye contact though bitch] Janis: You feel even better than you look Janis: it's making me feel even more Jimmy: it's Janis: ['all for you'] Jimmy: [has to kiss her very intensely cos dying] Janis: the way you bite your lip Janis: [does it but on his not her own] Jimmy: [thank god she got them out of earshot cos so about that] Janis: [😏] Janis: your lips are very biteable, I agree Janis: [rubbing them softly with her thumb for that moment] Jimmy: you're nowt like you were in my head Jimmy: you never are Jimmy: you're so fucking Jimmy: I can't capture it Janis: but you've got me Janis: so you can keep on trying Janis: and I can keep being better and better Jimmy: challenge accepted, yeah Jimmy: but there's no better for you Jimmy: you're already the best, I mean that Janis: [pushes her thumb into his mouth a little with a smile, running it over his teeth and pushing it a bit further every time and just being hot af in general] Janis: the best for you Janis: you need me, don't you Jimmy: [sucking and biting on her thumb as and when & generally also being hot af about it while also saying how much he needs her] Janis: [moaning 'cos 'you look so fucking pretty when you do that' and sucking on his fingers to taste herself] Jimmy: [being loud af as usual and saying her name a lot] Janis: I wanted to make you cum with the video but Janis: it's really fucking hard to be this close and not just Janis: have you inside me Jimmy: we can do whatever you want Jimmy: I'm supposed to be spoiling you Janis: you are Janis: just fuck me, like you wanted to when you were touching yourself Janis: do it exactly how you were thinking Jimmy: like I've wanted to all day Jimmy: been thinking about all day Janis: how do you even get any work done Janis: when all you really wanna do is Jimmy: there's no second goes by when I don't wanna fuck you Jimmy: unless I am Janis: me either Janis: everything else seems like an even bigger waste of time now Janis: school, other people Janis: I just want this Jimmy: it's just white noise Jimmy: you're the only thing with sound & colour Janis: [the NOISE bitch] Janis: baby Jimmy: I really fucking love you Janis: I know Janis: and I feel it too Janis: You're all that matter to me Jimmy: like I said, I don't see anything or feel it Jimmy: nowt registers Jimmy: there's just you Janis: ['I- I better make sure it feels as perfect as it possibly can then'] Jimmy: ['you are baby' in such a voice with such a look] Janis: oh God Janis: you make me feel Janis: so fucking Jimmy: I'm not gonna stop until you cum all over me Jimmy: it's all I could think about before Janis: it is not going to take long, keep fucking me like that Janis: let me give you everything you want Jimmy: take everything you want too Janis: I am Janis: I don't even know how I can you're so Jimmy: you're unbelievable Jimmy: that's how Janis: ['you' but you can imagine how it's coming out rn] Jimmy: [says it back & likewise oh you two] Janis: so I'm gonna cum all over your cock but where are you cumming for me, baby Jimmy: where do you want me Jimmy: you said you've been thinking about this all day too Janis: well Janis: when I thought about it Janis: you bend me over and finish on my ass Jimmy: [just a noise of absolute agreement coming from him rn] Janis: ['you want that too, yeah?'] Jimmy: [says yeah & we know how it sounds & that he's gonna keep saying it a few more times with some swearing thrown in for emphasis of course] Janis: [goes harder as a result 'cos feeling how hard he's feeling it too] Janis: fuck baby Janis: you really want it Janis: make me cum for you Janis: you've got me so close, Jimmy Jimmy: [goes harder himself as a result of her being the hottest ever & OMG the intense eye contact goodbye] Janis: [all the I love yous rn] Jimmy: [& all the kisses cos overwhelmed] Janis: [imma let you finish lads] Janis: that was Janis: so good Janis: you're so good Jimmy: you are Janis: I missed you Janis: [cuddles] Jimmy: I missed you so much Janis: you should stay forever Janis: like this# Jimmy: that's the deal, baby Janis: good Janis: probably laws about keeping sex slaves Jimmy: [little lol] Janis: [feeling them dimples] Janis: you're so cute Janis: but hot too Janis: not fair Jimmy: that's why I'm #goals Jimmy: but it's only fair Jimmy: you're cuter & hotter Janis: [makes psh noise] Jimmy: take the compliment Janis: I'm not not Janis: I'm just disagreeing that you're not cuter and hotter Janis: that's all Jimmy: shut up Jimmy: you're so beautiful, alright Jimmy: there's no comparison Jimmy: & so sexy it's like Jimmy: indescribable Janis: you make me feel it Jimmy: you were before me Jimmy: school's shit but not that shit that I'll just draw anything Jimmy: anyone Janis: [😳] Jimmy: [all the kisses] Janis: you thought I was hot Jimmy: I ain't legally blind or owt Jimmy: you are Jimmy: but yeah I thought about you Janis: I thought about you too Janis: could pretend it was new boy shine though Jimmy: likewise Jimmy: all you paddy's are new to me Janis: exactly Janis: good cover, give us that Jimmy: 🥇 always us Janis: I'm just glad you asked me Janis: not some other random Jimmy: I weren't gonna ask anyone else Jimmy: I didn't need to ask you Jimmy: I just Janis: wanted to fuck me Janis: understandable 😏 Jimmy: I didn't know that was gonna happen, bighead Jimmy: but I'd get to kiss you at least Janis: what happened to taking the compliment? Janis: so fickle, you Janis: [but kiss, duh] Jimmy: that only works when I'm saying you're fuckable Janis: you saying I ain't now Janis: mean Jimmy: I'm saying I didn't know if you were gonna be when we signed up to fake date Jimmy: could've been a constant nightmare you Jimmy: instead of only sometimes Jimmy: [but kisses] Janis: please Janis: you knew I was 😎 Jimmy: alright yeah Janis: 😂 only Janis: *joking Janis: your crush wasn't that blatant actually Jimmy: piss off Jimmy: It weren't no crush Jimmy: I just didn't reckon you were an utter dickhead Jimmy: I've been wrong before though, it's alright Jimmy: I ain't 💔 Janis: [smacks him like oi but also loling] Jimmy: [makes a big song and dance like ow but also loling & then more kisses cos he loves it when she lols or smiles] Janis: whatever anyway Janis: you looooooove me Jimmy: I really love you Janis: how much Janis: right now Jimmy: [kisses her like this much] Janis: not bad Janis: gonna best myself, obviously Janis: [goes in harder] Jimmy: [a noise into her mouth] Janis: [smirky af] Janis: you wanna stay out here for a while longer Jimmy: do you? Janis: [nods and is hiding in his neck] Janis: I can't deal with them and this any more than I already have Jimmy: you wanna go? Janis: maybe we can go out Janis: or just Janis: not be here Janis: we can walk though, I don't have a plan Jimmy: shower with me first Jimmy: I've made a right mess of you Jimmy: & I'll sneak you in Janis: oh yeah Janis: [imagine lmao] Janis: that would be good right about now Jimmy: come on then Janis: come this way, can use the one in here and not be disturbed Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: [handholding & off they go]

[ettadunham]

here's your weekly update of darkly absurd things happening in hungary... this time we're apparently fighting the weather!

so, some context: one of our biggest national holidays is in august, and there's this yearly tradition of putting on some extremely elaborate and most importantly, expensive fireworks in the capital city. there's been some arguments against this, especially lately, saying that no one really wants some perversely high-cost fireworks while there's a war next door and our inflation rates are the worst in the region, and just basically everything sucks and keeps getting worse... but our government is all about that image, especially when they're currently in a bit of a conundrum for walking back multiple promises regarding energy prices, and pissed off every independent contractor in the country with a recent law. (also, possibly they're going for some extortion - money has a tendency to go missing or go to certain people during big events like this.)

that being said, ever since there was this big tragedy about 15 years ago when a storm during the fireworks led to 5 dead and over 300 injured, they've been trying to secure the event more. which naturally also means paying more attention to weather forecasts. fastforward to this year.

with the information available and the necessary caveats when it comes to forecastings such as this, the meteorology center predicted a possible storm for the night. so the event was understandably cancelled.

...but then there wasn't actually a storm during that timeframe, because weather forecast is a dark sorcery of differential equations that we can only hope to approximate. (fun fact for you science nerds out there, meteorology is the science field where the chaos theory aka butterfly effect originates that explains how in certain systems small changes in our initial factors can lead to massive differences in our outcome. aka, why it's so damn hard to predict the weather.) regardless, the directors of our meteorology service were promptly fired by the head of technology in our government.

now, for people who know anything about meteorology, this looks like a ridiculous attempt to blame and punish someone for weather crimes. which really fits the whole authoritarian vibe we're going for lately anyway... but according to our government, they didn't get fired because of this forecast, it was just the "last straw" towards that decision.

and that just seems all the more revealing for me, because what would the government have against the meteorology service? unless the current heads weren't friendly to the ruling party, and the government wanted to switch them out for someone more sympathetic to them. someone who can help them siphon money out of yet another national service to their own pockets. love that!

anyway, that's it for the weather, reporting from hungary in the middle of a populist, proto-fascist storm is your favorite local tumblr corresponder.

[rogueofsoup]

My old high school had this bathroom policy in either my second or third year (I can't remember which) where we could only go between classes, but the breaks between classes were only three minutes long and some kids had to spend that entire three minutes going from one end of the school to the other. In addition to that, there had to be someone sitting in front of the bathrooms to watch everyone go in, or else you'd get in trouble when a teacher inevitably sees you walking out of an unmonitored bathroom. You'd also have to sign in the time you went into the bathroom and the time you left. We weren't even allowed to go during our lunch periods unless someone was sitting by the bathrooms next to the lunch room, which they rarely were especially during my lunch period. They'd set up big planks of wood and yellow police tape over the entrances to dissuade people from going in, and two of the four floors never actually opened those at all. If you had to piss and were on the second floor, you better not have it too bad because you're gonna have to go up and down stairs to see which fucking floor has open bathrooms today. I was one of the few people who actually ended up sneaking into the bathrooms while "going to the water fountain", and because my older siblings were notorious in the school for not giving two shits about your rules and could fucking school you in an argument about how idiotic and degrading the rules are, I was generally left alone.

One time I saw a girl demand to be let on the elevator to get to a floor with a fucking open bathroom, and when she was inevitably denied she said "I swear to God if you make me bleed all over my favorite jeans I will make your life a living hell" or something along those lines. That's when I learned one of the ADULT male TEACHERS didn't know how the fuck a period works. I was just passing by, I didn't expect to see an adult man in his late 40's or something go wide-eyed because he didn't fucking pay attention in middle school health class. Another kid with an elevator pass let her in.

There was also apparently this one kid (I never actually saw him since he wasn't in my grade, but a lot of people who had classes with mixed grades and more specifically the one he was in) who asked to go to the bathroom in the middle of class. When he was told "no", he apparently (according to the people talking about it) stood up and wet himself in protest. I'm pretty sure he got in trouble for it, though I wouldn't be surprised if his parent(s) took his side in the inevitable meeting the principal probably had with them.

The people who most often got away with going to the bathroom when they weren't supposed to were football and basketball players specifically, since the principal seemed to think of those two sports as his fucking religion. (There were three gyms in the school. THREE. And you couldn't go into ANY of them unless you were wearing sneakers/tennis shoes. They were his fucking shrine. He sacrificed the size and quality of both the auditorium and the theater room as well as the sizes of literally all the classrooms in order to put more time, effort, and love into the three gyms and two outside sports fields.)

For a brief time we were actually allowed to go to the bathrooms during class, and during that time I had to stand in front of an unmonitored bathroom for ten minutes waiting for someone to show up to their fucking bathroom duty, then somehow make it up to the third floor to find the bathrooms similarly unmonitored AND closed off, then went down to the first floor (since it was impossible for me to go up stairs at that point) to find the bathroom there ALSO unmonitored but unblocked, and decided "fuck it" and went in anyways because I had to pee extremely badly. It also didn't help I was on my period and cramps were starting to kick in (I don't usually get cramps, so it was really in general a really bad day). I got lectured when I got out because SOMEONE finally decided to show up more than halfway through the fucking period to monitor the bathrooms. I had signed in, so I signed out and got told I was in a lot of trouble. I don't know how I got the confidence in that point, but I somehow managed to tell them (not word-for-word, this was a few years ago and I only remember the gist) that literally no other bathroom I went to was open, and I'd rather break the dumb bathroom rules than piss myself. Discipline was threatened but never acted upon, and my theories about that are either that teacher was full of shit or they saw and recognized my last name.

I had one teacher for several years in a row that would look at any new bullshit bathroom rules and go "nah you good fam go pee when you want". Once I even saw him walk with a student down the hall and sit in front of the bathroom by the sign-in sheet just so they could use the toilet. I and a few other kids also took advantage of that and went in as well, and once we were all done and no one else was in the bathrooms, he got up and went back to his class. This man left his classroom in the middle of class to let his students use the bathroom. He was a fucking LEGEND. The trust he had in his students to behave while he wasn't in the classroom was amazing, and DEFINITELY founded in reality. Later the school made it so we'd have to get this app on our phones that we had to use as our pass to go literally anywhere and timed us on how long we were gone (the numbers would turn red after like 6 or 7 minutes and you couldn't stop it if you turned off your phone's screen to put it in your pocket and honestly that was really stressful), with some classes having to make the teacher approve the pass without accidentally deleting it then having to have the teacher stop class again to confirm you arrived back in class (again, without accidentally deleting it since a lot of these teachers were not in the slightest tech savvy). My awesome teacher's response to this was basically, "Just go wherever you need to go, I'll make the pass for you if where you're going needs it. If you're off to the bathroom, don't even worry about the pass. If there's a bathroom monitor there to make sure you have a pass, come back to tell me and I'll make one for you on your way back over there." I loved that teacher. I hope he's doing well.

Sorry about the long post, I just really wanted to vent and rant about some things that happened years ago that I still think about sometimes.

Not to mention the fact that Mrs. White isn’t qualified to teach. She should be required to take a remedial English course. “I have went”? please. It’s “I have gone”, Mrs. White. 

first, my kid would not sign anything without me seeing it first. 2nd, upon seeing it i would be at the superintendant’s office the next morning. then we would speak to the teacher. black folk gotta nip it in the bud.