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I don't miss him I fucking hate him but I miss the way he could make my brain shut down
#just. numb#it didn't rly work the last few times so not worth it but#i'm always sayin i hate him but rly i think i just hate who i become around him#not as in a switch but just. me. slipping right back into my old role.#i think there was a time when he'd be. at least sorta nice to me. occasionally. he doesn't do much of the love bombing when it's me#but a few times he did. probably so i'd keep chasing that high for the rest of my life#that i do miss. but it's not him really. just the person he pretended to be for a while or maybe just who i made up in my head#i know he never really existed (for me. it's for doll only) but i really fucking miss him#i miss feelin like i'm worth somethin. even if it's just the money i could make him or getting him off#still more than i'm now#spdrvent
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ask game!! ⭐️, 📚 or 🎶 or if there’s another u rly want to do then do that one :D
Hi Robyn!! Thank you for the ask <33
These are... mostly Lambert-centric snippets. Oops! I didn't plan that, but he lives in my brain 24/7 so I suppose it only makes sense that he appears so frequently in my writing.
⭐️ share a snippet where a character is the best at something.
The drive was only two hours in total, including stops. But Geralt was tired of his reading being interrupted by Lambert's loud chatter and his shrieking laughter as he threw the disgusting blanket he dragged everywhere onto Geralt's lap. Lambert thought Geralt's reaction was a riot.
"Lambert," Vesemir warned for what felt like the one-hundredth time that afternoon. "I will stop the car. This is your last warning. Stop bothering your brother."
Geralt felt queasy as he flicked the dirty blanket off his book and back to Lambert's side of the truck. Lambert was quiet for all of five minutes before he began pestering Eskel instead, kicking the back of the seat. Eskel did not give him the attention he was searching for and simply moved the seat forward without further acknowledgement. It only took Lambert's tiny legs a few more swings to realize he could no longer reach the back of the seat in front of him. "Noo, put it back!"
Lambert's voice felt like nails on a chalkboard to Geralt as he slapped the palms of his hands over his tiny ears to block out the shrill whining of the five-year-old next to him.
(Lambert is the best at being annoying during family outings... especially if it involves more than a 20 minute drive. But hey, he's five here, who can blame him? Also, yes. He is a blanket kid.)
📚 share a snippet where the character is being academic/is in an academic setting/is showing off their knowledge.
If there was one thing Lambert was known for, it was finishing what he started. It didn't matter if it was a personal project, coursework, or an argument; if Lambert started something, he was never known to be the first to back down or leave it unfinished.
He cursed through his teeth at the eraser-worn page in front of him. They were given the entire four-hour lab period to complete their work; Lambert was determined to take advantage of it even if his classmates rarely did. Balling his fists tightly in his hair, yanking harshly in frustration, Lambert felt tears prick the corners of his eyes. He was the last person in the eerie classroom, short of his TA.
The clock ticked mockingly in his ears as the remaining ten minutes of class marched on. There was no way Lambert was finishing this lab before he and his TA had to leave.
He glared at the chalkboard with the results that still, for the seventh time, did not match the numbers on the pH meter in front of him or the aggressive handwriting scrawled on his page. He did not want to have to finish this over the weekend or gods forbid, hand it in as is. No, Lambert was top of his class the last two semesters; he would not let this impact his final. They were only halfway through the semester, he couldn't afford to use up what he liked to call his 'one designated fuck up' before he was off for the reading week. He couldn't afford that hanging over his head, not with his scholarship on the line, not when this lab was worth twenty percent of his final grade.
(AKA: Top Ten Photos Taken Moments Before Disaster... and by disaster, I mean Lambert having a breakdown in his Organic Chemistry lab.)
🎶 share a happy moment. ANY happy moment. You must have ONE.
Aiden looked down at him with concern plastered on his face. He watched as tears streamed down the sides of Lambert's face, past his ears. He couldn't sense anything amiss, so why was he crying?
Lambert pulled Aiden back down onto the bed beside him. "It's stupid," he said as they laid on their sides, faces mere inches apart, limbs tangled and intertwined so that neither man knew which foot belonged to whom. Lambert watched Aiden study his body language and found nothing. He was okay. He was more than okay.
Lambert was happy.
"I just love you so fucking much, you know?" Lambert choked, brushing a loose strand of hair from Aiden's eyes and tucked it behind his ear.
Aiden fought a losing battle. "Yeah, I do," he whispered, swallowing his words, afraid that someone might hear and take it all away.
(Canon Divergence, Alive Aiden fic. Probably going to be the next thing you see on AO3... whenever that may be)
#the witcher fanfiction#lambden#lambert witcher#aiden witcher#snippet ask game#ask game#☀️#sol scribbles
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hi!! i've kinda been going through your blog for the past few weeks and can i first say that its incredible!!! i love noodling over worldbuilding so reading all your ideas and the clear amount of thought you put into each headcanon is wonderful and very inspiring as a fellow the-woodland-realm-deserved-more-lore enthusiast haha
im fascinated by the regencies of the princes! it surprised me since ive never encountered that hc before but it makes complete logical and practical sense for a realm so large in its prime!!! i'd love to learn more about that? esp bc (at least from what i was able to find) youve only mentioned it for turhir and rly talked about arvellas's 🥺
thank you!!
Dear Anon: I love you so much! <3 I am flattered and honored and grateful you have discovered and enjoyed my Thranduil/Thranduilion content! Any interest shown in my OC Princes sends my writer's heart to the moon!
Writing my Thranduil/Mirkwood headcanon posts always take a large amount of time, research, and plotting to write. Unfortunately, they get much fewer notes compared to other "off the cuff" Thranduil metas, which kind of sucks but I've learned to make peace with it. What keeps me going is the supportive messages I receive like yours. <3
Please feel free to take whatever you might find useful from my headcanons to inspire or write into your own fics. (This applies to anyone reading this.) I have an "open source" policy on the HCs I write and don't require credit (even though a heads up would be appreciated, 'cause I'd love to see your stuff!). I just want to help fellow writers in the Tolkien fandom.
Your question about the regency of the Thranduilion princes is SUCH a great one! I actually have a WIP draft discussing the different jobs of the princes, in response to another excellent Anon ask. But your question got me so excited that literally at midnight last night I started working on an HC for that immediately. It was worth the shortened sleep, but I think I can have it completed and posted in a few hours. Since I can't tag you on it, I hope you're watching! :)
And finally...
youve only mentioned it for turhir and rly talked about arvellas's 🥺
OMG you really read through all of it, didn't you? Have I told you I love you yet?
#sotwk answers#anon asks#kind anons#sotwk headcanons#thranduil headcanons#thranduil#tolkien#the hobbit#lotr#mirkwood#mirkwood elves#silvan elves
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pictures of ANGELINA PETROVNA TARASOVA have been showing up all over my feed, and considering the last time they were #trending, it was due to a claim that a ghost had contacted her via ouija board — i'm not likely to unfollow anytime soon. with their silk , satin gown & high platform heels that bring her higher to the heavens, i'm not surprised to hear that they are considered part of the NOUVEAU RICHES. after twenty six years, they've managed to garner a reputation for being more sanguine than hedonistic, but their critics say that they're more loquacious than seraphic when they aren't too busy focusing on their pink tipped fingers laced up in secrecy ; leaving red kisses and confusion everywhere you go ; the battle between godhood and motherhood. when they aren't occupied with their work as a true crime host, they've been sighted chasing ghosts & trying to annoy demons , creating fun stories to tell her daughter . reputation.com has taken to calling them HELEN OF TROY in order to avoid a lawsuit ( again ).
QUICK STATS!
FULL NAME : angelina petrovna tarasova GENDER : cis woman ASTROLOGY : aries sun , pisces moon , sag rising PRONOUNS : she / her ORIENTATION : bisexual & biromantic
HISTORY !
there you are : a perfect little angel born with a silver spoon . you're a daughter so prayed for , so wished for , and the only child of two highly esteemed entrepreneurs . your whole life is already planned ahead of you : keep your head down , stay in the books , and take over daddy's company once you graduate from law school .
but ? you want more . to be able to run amongst the wolves , and dance under the moon . you're a rebel without a true cause ; something especially evident when you enter your emo phase in middle school . screamo even becomes a new staple , much to the disapproval of your father .
( tw : pregnancy ) tensions heighten even more after you find yourself pregnant ; the result of a spur - of - the - moment decision with your best friend to lose your virginity . remember in mean girls when they said : " don't have sex , you'll get pregnant " ? yeah , coach carr didn't lie . but , you're excited ! you ? bringing in a small life ? sign me tf up ! too bad your dad feels differently ; he's upset , and throws you out of the house , telling you to never talk to him again . it's a relationship that hasn't been repaired since , but it's all worth it when you see the smile on your little bub's face .
and motherhood absorbs you . . . it's a 24 hr job ! who doesn't love sleepless nights amirite ( wrong . they make her cry ) , but in the midst of delusions & chaos you begin to find more interest in true crime and ghost stories ? maybe it's the mama bear that comes out , a primal instinct to keep your daughter safe from any potential harm . or maybe ? it's just your hallucinations taking over , that make you feel like somewhere , there may be a ghost .
it takes you a few years to rly expand on your interest , but later is better than never . you start your own true crime show ; it begins as a small podcast , but grows into an actual show with a big audience ! and with heightened interest ? you become even more chaotic . going into haunted houses and trying to provoke ghosts becomes a hobby , and mascara , freckled skin , and pigtails become a strength ⸻ acquiring the art of storytelling become a reality , as a silver tongue grows so smooth you emerge as an orchestrator of ( fun ) chaos .
FUN FACTS !
a lil adrenaline junkie if u may ! spends the majority of her time catering to her lil broke bestie , but when she's not ? she has such a need for speed omfg . . . catch her outside just racing ? for no reason ? drifting and spinning , and all of the fast and furious stuff . lover of anything fast ! ! but only not around her daughter . if she's there ? catch her going the exact speed limit or under bc she loves her too much to ever put her in danger yup !
embodiment of the meme with the little girl smiling as the house is on fire fr . . . she's a lil chaos starter ? will walk in the room and just instigate bc she can . wants to see the world burn !! and why ? we do not know . . . she is my rebel without a cause for no reason i wanna bonk her so bad dfnfjn .
speaks with a thick russian accent & curses like a sailor fr . you can be like " hey what's up " and she will dog you out i'm so sorry . . she's nice tho ! ! just very aries coded i fear .
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Totally random, but I didn't understand a thing about this recent chapter. Could u give a tldr on it? Cause the vibes I was getting kinda made me feel like Haru was toying with legosi? But I do get that legosi is a bottom to herbivores 😅
ugh i’ve been mulling over this ask literally all day, i would’ve answered sooner but i had ~responsibilities~ to take care of. anyway,
i’ll admit chapter 195 was a bit difficult for me to completely wrap my head around as well, and I’m not very good at analysis, but I’ll give my own interpretation on the chapter. tho this’ll prolly be longer than a simple tldr lol
also a disclaimer: im typing this the night before ch196 releases in japan, so any musings or thoughts i write in this post may be different once that chapter releases, but i wanted to write my thoughts down about this chapter on its own.
so in my “review” of ch195 i thought “good for her” bc it seemed to me that haru was trying to like, idk, reclaim some power or st from legosi by “scaring him” with suggesting divorce. perhaps she is toying with legosi, and honestly i think he kinda deserves it for leaving my girl out of all the action lol. haru should be allowed to scare him!
i think looking back to some past chapters may help explain haru’s logic:
in ch173 she mentions how powerless she feels bc she can only express her love in small ways, and not in these big dramatic ways that legosi’s been doing bc she’s not a big strong carnivore.
and it’s also been established that haru has pretty low self esteem and is also kinda... passively suicidal. so i think her actions in 195 are tied to that. in ch166, she mentions that before meeting legosi, she lived as if she was just “one out of 500 million rabbits”. no one special or unique. no one worth fighting or risking your life for. easily replaced. no one who would be especially missed.
so i’m sure legosi coming in and saying she’s special and how much he loves her gives her hella whiplash. i think these feelings make a resurgence in 195.
haru notices legosi’s newfound confidence & gets irritated bc she feels like she just doesn’t compare. what could such a radiant wolf see in her, a one in 500 million rabbit?
i also think that, even tho haru also loves legosi, if she just goes along with him, it sorta enforces their roles as “predator” and “prey”. it’s a wolf pursuing a rabbit, though it’s romantically rather than out of a desire to eat.
so if haru simply agrees to a happy life with legosi, it’s as if he “won“. the wolf got the rabbit. the predator got his prey. and aren’t they trying to surpass those roles? so haru defies that. she finds her own way to “win“. to not just simply be “prey“. so that’s why i think she wanted to scare him. it’s one of the few ways she can hold power over him.
she wants their relationship to be as equals. not as a “herbivore” and an “carnivore” but as haru and legosi.
so i interpreted haru’s “proposal” not as “let’s get married Right Now” but more as like, a promise that they’ll keep working to make their relationship... healthier i guess.
perhaps this is wishful thinking on my part bc it’s obvious they’ve still got issues to work out w/ their relationship but this chapter made me hopeful that these issues would actually get addressed and solved. tho at the same time im also rather frustrated bc this is the 2nd to last chapter, and it feels like they’re Just Starting to work out their relationship issues. rly hoping the last chapter leaves things rather open ended & doesn’t try to pretend that everything’s all sunshine & roses for them now.
#beastars#beastars spoilers#legoharu#beastext#legosi#haru#i hope this makes even a little sense lol#gladiodaddyo#i typed and retyped this like 3 times my thoughts are so scattered sdjflskjdkfj
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