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davidfjones9999 · 2 years ago
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Muscle Mantra ISO ACE Isolate Protein Bar
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glitterybutter · 2 years ago
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chishiyasleftnut · 2 months ago
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Oh my god this took longer than I expected, I am so sorry (。•́︿•̀。)
As requested by a few people in the comments on PART 3, here is part 4 to the phase 2 Chishiya fic I've been working on!
It includes everything from angst to fluff to smut at the end. What's not to like? (•̀ᴗ•́ )و I hope you'll all enjoy it!
Stuck With You (part 4)
(Read part 1, part 2, and part 3 here)
🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 Genre: Smut, angst AND fluff. (look at me go)
Warnings: smut and gun violence. Includes penetration (female receiving), unprotected sex.
Pairing: Chishiya x fem!reader
Plot: After sleeping together twice, Chishiya began ignoring fem!reader, making her mad with worry. Does he hate her? Did she do someting wrong? Or perhaps something else was going on, something she had completely missed?
3349 words. 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
The discussion of what you were never came. Out of fear of making your cramped living conditions more awkward than necessary, you decided not to push it and just live in the unknown. You didn’t need to define the relationship, you told yourself. You were soooo cool with keeping it casual and undefined.
With that mindset, you both continued your life at the camp as if nothing had happened. A part of you had expected there to be more touching but no, Chishiya’s behaviour seemingly completely reverted back to how he was before that fateful stormy night, never letting down his guard and showing even a sliver of vulnerability.
Every night you went to bed next to each other, crammed into a two-man-tent and your bodies somehow not connecting anywhere at all. Every morning you woke up to the tent empty as Chishiya would leave the shared space as soon as his eyes were open.
You rarely spoke much either, which wouldn’t have affected you if you hadn’t slept together twice. Although you had no intentions of confronting Chishiya with this, it did hurt you that he by all appearances felt as if nothing special happened - as if you were just a sex doll he could use when he needed to get off.
A part of you tried to defend Chishiya. Maybe he had little experience with romance - or even friendship? You had never seen him interact deeply with anyone before so that could be an explanation. He didn’t exactly seem like the lovey-dovey type either. Yeah, it wasn’t personal, you said to yourself to calm your anxiety. This was just how he was.
Although your little camp at the outskirts of Tokyo seemed like a perfect, isolated place right after the Beach’ end, the two of you had noticed more and more people in the vicinity of your tent over the past week. It started off with the occasional sound of rustling bushes and glimpses of people appearing far away, but lately you had had actual run-ins with strangers. To your luck, none of them were an immediate threat. Still, the camp didn’t feel safe anymore.
“Come with me,” Chishiya one day said during breakfast.
His words took you by surprise, mostly because you were embarrassingly deep into your thoughts about your relationship (or lack thereof) and had completely zoned him out. You quickly began chewing the big bite of protein bar that you seconds prior had mindlessly stuffed into your mouth so you could reply, but Chishiya continued before you had a chance to clear your mouth.
“Come on. We’re doing a supply run.”
The request was unusual, as Chishiya always did supply runs on his own. His usual reasoning was that you were too slow and that it would be safer if he could quickly be in and out of the city instead of having to wait around for you.
“I thought you liked doing that on your own?” you questioned once you had finally swallowed the lump of chocolatey protein bar.
“I do,” he said while gathering his things. “But not today. Hurry up, I don’t want to wait all day.”
You wanted to pry for an actual answer, but knew it was fruitless. Instead, you quickly finished your breakfast and picked up your bag so you could accompany him into Tokyo.
As expected, your walk to the nearest convenience store was both silent and uneventful. Even though you had a million questions running through your mind, you had no way of articulating them in a way that wouldn’t make you seem desperate. As much as you craved closure, you also didn’t want to scare him away. Hence, you decided silence was best.
When you arrived at the rundown and almost empty 7/11, Chishiya held the door open for you. As you walked in you paused in the doorway with wide eyes. Instantly, you felt bad for complaining about the type of supplies he brought back. In your mind, convenience stores were always filled to the brim with food 24/7, but it seemed as if the situation in the borderlands were way different than in normal life. This convenience store looked at if it had been raided consistently for months, the shelves nearly empty and the floor covered in broken glass.
“Is there even any food left?” you asked while staying in the door-opening, completely overwhelmed by the chaotic emptiness of it all - an oxymoron you until now had never experienced before.
Chishiya pushed past you with a gentle hand on your lower back, ushering you inside. The sudden physical contact sent goosebumps all over your body, making every single small hair on your arms and legs stand up straight. God, you had missed being touched more than you knew.
“I’m sure there’s some left. Help me look.”
Once you recovered, you assisted Chishiya in finding any food that wasn’t rotten. To protect your sensitive nose, you decided to completely avoid the open refrigerator section that in the normal world housed delicious tuna-mayo onigiris and microwave-heatable freshly made meals, all of which you knew wouldn’t have lasted even a week without spoiling.
With quiet steps, you walked up and down the aisles, looking for anything edible. The little, orange shopping basket that you were carrying slowly got filled with various types of instant noodles. Once you were very dead-set on which brands and flavours were worth eating, but you had to throw that all to the side now. The selection was limited, and it was not time to be picky.
With the basket now housing a decent selection of instant noodles in all shapes, colours, and sizes, you turned the corner and stumbled into the candy aisle where Chishiya’s eyes were expertly scanning over the sparse selection. He never brought back too much food out of fear of attracting the wildlife that had slowly taken over Tokyo together with the greenery.
You watched as his hand reached out for a pack of strawberry gummies - his favourite, as you had come to learn from the many times that he had exclusively brought back strawberry flavoured candy instead of the superior tasting grape. However, instead of grabbing the strawberry flavour, he instead picked up two packs of the remaining neighbouring grape variant, quickly putting it into his own shopping basket. As he went to walk away, presumably to find food that wasn’t just candy, he turned in your direction and caught you looking.
“Is something wrong?” he questioned with a raised eyebrow. You gestured down to the grape flavoured candy in his basket.
“I thought you liked strawberry,” you pointed out. “Why get grape?”
“I wanted to try something new,” he eventually said in a casual manner, causing you to roll your eyes out of annoyance.
“I’ve complained about the lack of grape candy for weeks and suddenly you’re willing to try it?”
Chishiya had just opened his mouth to presumably give a flippant reply, when he was interrupted by the deafening sound of gunshots from the street outside the store. Instinctively, Chishiya put an arm in front of you, using his own body to shield you from the far-away shooter. You both stood still as statues, using every sense to figure out how close you were to danger. As the gunshots came to a halt, you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding.
“Okay, I think that- AHH!”
A loud, high-pitched scream left your mouth before you had a chance to stop it, as a much closer round of shots completely took you by surprise. Chishiya quickly pulled you with him on the floor behind the cash register, hugging your back tightly against his front and covering your mouth with his hand to keep you quiet.
“Shhh,” he hushed lowly into your ear, his warm breath tickling your skin. “Be quiet.”
The next few minutes were tense, as neither of you had any visuals of the shooter due to your sheltering behind the cash register. You therefore used the only sense available to you to find any auditory signs that would indicate the location of the shooter. Much to your dismay, you before long heard the store bell chime as the door got opened. The shrill of the bell was followed by the sound of a pair of hefty military boots crushing the many glass shards scattered on the floor.
You were shaking in Chishiya’s arm, trembling with fear as you inaudibly prayed that whoever was now in the store with you would just leave you alone. Chishiya hugged you so tightly against him that you were almost suffocating, his hand surely leaving a red imprint on your face. Despite the physical discomfort, his firm embrace also worked to ground you, calming you down and keeping you quiet.
It didn’t take long for the stranger to leave the store again, possibly disappointed by the lack of victims to shoot down. You both waited a few extra minutes just to be safe, before Chishiya finally let his hand fall away from your mouth, allowing you to take a deep breath, fully filling up your oxygen deprived lungs.
“I should never have taken you with me,” he mumbled while standing up, visibly distraught in a way you hadn’t seen before. Long gone was his usual nonchalant demeanour, his normal indifference replaced by panicky eyes and shallow breaths.
Still sitting on the floor, your shaken mind attempted to connect the many jumbled up puzzle pieces. Chishiya was scared. You had never seen him scared before, so that alone was adding to the confusion. It had gotten to the point where you didn’t even know if he cared about his life. And then it finally clicked: He wasn’t scared for his own safety; he was scared for yours.
“Wait, you asked me to join you to protect me?” you asked while he with a strong hand helped you up on your feet.
“I thought it would be safer than leaving you at the camp, but clearly it was not.” Chishiya walked back around the counter and picked up the dropped shopping baskets with food, neatly packing the content into his bag with uncharacteristically shaky hands. “The camp didn’t feel safe anymore. Too many people around. What if the wrong person saw you all alone? I couldn’t risk it.”
You were in shock, unsure of how to take that in. You had spent the past week worrying over Chishiya’s sudden indifference to you, and here he was admitting he cared? No scratch that, he didn’t just care, he was worried about you. This changed everything.
“I thought you hated me,” you stuttered out, still completely overwhelmed by this new revelation. “I thought I had done something wrong and that you hated me for it.”
“I could never hate you.”
Your eyes met in what felt like a tender embrace, Chishiya’s deep brown orbs showing softness and sincerity in a way you had never could have imagined. He meant it, you were absolutely sure of it.
Calmed by his newfound gentleness, you slowly helped him pack up the supplies gathered from the convenience store, your mind gradually making sense of the past week. You were pulled back to reality when your hands picked up the little plastic bag of grape flavoured candy.
“You got these for me, didn’t you?” you asked, feeling the final puzzle piece clicking into place.
“I did. I should have gotten them earlier.”
“You should have,” you declared amusedly, suddenly finding humour in his previous stubbornness. “I’ve been begging for a while, you know.”
Your remark made Chishiya smile, but for once it didn’t seem like he was laughing at your expense. Instead, he seemed fondly entertained by you, a dynamic switch you hadn’t seen coming.
Together, you walked back to the camp. The walk was silent, but this time it wasn’t an awkward silence. Instead, you both enjoyed the other’s company, using the quiet time to mentally and physically decompress from the intense past 30 minutes you had shared. Eventually you reached the camp again, flopping down in front of the unlit fireplace and immediately going in on the treasured grape candy. Chishiya didn’t comment on it, but just observed how you practically swallowed one purple gummy after the other.
As day turned to night, you both climbed back into the tent with your bellies full of a variety of instant noodles, ready for the best sleep of your life after an emotionally exhausting day. You followed Chishiya, as he laid down on the sleeping mat, sighing when you finally allowed yourself to feel the body aches that were a near constant lately. Chishiya noticed your little sigh, and gently pulled you in closer to him in an attempt to soothe you.
“Are you okay?” he asked, his voice barely more than a whisper.
“Yeah. Just tired,” you replied, matching his low tone. It felt like the right volume to speak at in the darkness of the tent.
Chishiya ran his hand up and down your arm, attempting to lull you to sleep. It was tempting to allow yourself to drift off, and yet you stayed awake, not wanting to miss out on this side of Chishiya. 
“I haven’t done this before,” Chishiya finally said, turning his head to look at you. His words confused you.
“We’ve cuddled before.”
“That’s not what I meant.”
“Then what did you mean?” you asked, the confusion apparent in your voice.
Chishiya gestured broadly to the two of you. “This.”
You hummed in acknowledgment, finally understanding his vague remark. You had been right in assuming that he had little experience with anything deeper than sex.
“Do you like it?” you finally asked, holding your breath as you awaited the answer.
Chishiya took his sweet time to reply, leaving you suddenly feeling worried that you had somehow managed to completely misinterpret everything that had happened that day. Luckily, he eventually opened his mouth again.
“I do.”
And with that, you let out a sigh of relief. Thank God. Without thinking, you placed your lips firmly against his and initiated a kiss. He reciprocated, although somewhat hesitantly at first.
“I thought you were tired?” he asked in between kisses, his hands slowly gaining courage as they began exploring your body.
“Not that tired,” you said as you rolled on top of him, straddling him and pushing his body firmly down on the sleeping mat without your lips leaving his.
Chishiya didn’t need any more convincing. He quickly flipped you back around, your body thumping hard against the mat as he forcibly pinned you down under him. His hands got rougher as they ventured all over your body, exploring every curve and soft patch of skin that he could reach.
A moan slipped out of your mouth and into his when his right hand snaked down your body and into your pants, his fingers connecting with your already sensitive clit. He didn’t slow down, instead creating a consistent rhythm as he circled around the needy bud. Your hips instinctively moved against his hand, only further prompting him to continue.
“You like that?” he mumbled possessively into your ear, his fingers pressing harder down on you. “D’you like how I make you feel?”
Unable to use your words, you instead moaned louder. Quickly, Chishiya used his left hand to cover your mouth, suppressing any sound that came from you.
“So eager already?” he asked smugly. “I need you to quiet down, princess. We don’t want the entire forest to hear us, no?”
Once you were subdued, his hand left your mouth and instead journeyed down south to assist his other hand in freeing you of your pants. Once unzipped and unbuttoned, you helped him slide your jeans off by lifting your hips off from the floor, watching as he threw the pants to the side before sitting in between your spread legs.
His fingers traced teasingly along the trim of your panties, carefully avoiding the places that were desperate to be touched. After minutes that felt like hours, he finally trailed down from your belly button to your core, noticing how wet the fabric was.
“Desperate, are we?” he asked amusedly.
“Hurry up,” you mewed, closing your eyes to focus on the faint sensation of Chishiya’s fingers tickling your most sensitive area.
“Desperate and commanding. I better get going, huh?”
To your luck, Chishiya promptly helped you out of your underwear, throwing them over to your pants before immediately delving his long, slender fingers into your core. You moaned, quickly covering your own mouth as you remembered his warning minutes prior.
In a manner that was simultaneously careful and eager, he made sure you were adequately warmed up and stretched out, before pulling off his own sweatpants and boxer briefs in one go. Your eyes connected with his hard length, your mouth almost salivating at what was to come.
Chishiya didn’t waste any more time, his collectiveness wavering as carnal desires took over his mind. He climbed on top of you, spreading your legs to each side of him before lining his hardness up at your entrance and pushing himself in right away.
You both gasped as you got used to the sudden change of sensation. Your walls tightened up around his dick, hugging it tightly in a hungry embrace. Chishiya buried his face in your neck, fighting against his animalistic urges to remain at least somewhat in control. Once at least moderately grounded, his hips began moving against yours, his cock pumping in and out of you rhythmically and filling you both up with continuously building layers of pleasure.
Without realising it, your legs tightened around his body as you slowly but steadily felt yourself get closer to the edge - closer to the release you so desperately needed after the rather hectic day you had just experienced.
You didn’t even notice when Chishiya bit down on your shoulder in an attempt to keep himself from finishing, his body continuing working towards its goal of getting you closer, and closer, and….
“Fuck, I’m coming!” you eventually moaned, your vision fading to black as you felt pleasure rushing through your body, all your senses focused elsewhere leaving you completely oblivious to what was going on in the real world.
As the wonderful sensation sadly came to an end, you felt Chishiya collapse down on top of you, his deep voice grunting into your ear as he too came, filling your core up with his cum. For a while, you stayed in this position, both recovering from the short but intense escapade you had just shared. Eventually, Chishiya rolled off you, landing on the hard mat with a thud.
A part of you feared what would happen next. The last time you slept together, Chishiya spent the entire week after on ignoring you. You weren’t sure if you could survive that treatment again. However, to your delight, Chishiya gently pulled you back in close to him, hugging your tired body firmly against his.
“I needed that,” he mumbled, his voice already sounding calm and sleepy. You chuckled a bit, but nonetheless nodded to show agreement.
“Me too.”
Chishiya yawned and pulled you even tighter against him, hugging you like a child would hug its favourite plushie. Just as he was about to fall asleep, you decided to ask the question that was weighing heavily on your mind.
“You won’t ignore me again, right?”
He opened his eyes, looking a bit confused before he understood where you came from.
“No,” he said, grazing your forehead with his lips before closing his eyes again. “I’ll never ignore you again.”
That were the last words you remembered before you gently lulled to sleep, his reassuring words calming the last few anxious thoughts running through your mind and finally allowing you to succumb to your exhaustion.
I’ll never ignore you again.
The phrase played over and over again in your mind as you slept, even appearing in your dream. And you believed him. You really did. This was the start of something new.
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littlebluespoon · 11 months ago
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Isolated ~ Stuck (Octo!König) Ch 5
Apologies for the longer wait, I had uni and family and new tattoos to deal with and I also tried to make this chapter longer.
But here we are, chapter 5
König reaches out to you. You reach out to someone else.
2K, MDNI 18+ stalking, mentions of vomiting, hybrids and all that jazz.
🤦🏻 knew there was something I’d forgotten to put in the notes.
Perle is German for Pearl and kleiner artz is German for little doctor
A03 link - https://archiveofourown.org/works/51314596/chapters/131934805
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It had been weeks since you received the pictures. You were going to throw them in the pile of rubbish for the incinerator but realised that would leave a chance for other people to see them and if whoever this was found out you’d thrown the pictures out well, you didn’t want to think about it. You scavenged a box from recycling and shoved everything from the first ‘gift’ to the pictures in it and kicked it under your bed. Out of sight and hopefully out of mind was what you were going for.
By the time you had dealt with the ‘gifts’ and rechecked your room for any signs of another person or hidden cameras you had missed breakfast. It was a big deal though as you were spending the morning doing inventory and ordering supplies, busy work that kept you at your desk where you knew you had a stash of protein bars. Where you were supposed to have a stash of protein bars. Either you’d miscounted how many you had left or you had a thief. Your thief had to be Gaz, the fox hybrid had a habit of stealing when he was bored. He never took anything that was important to you or work related, usually food or clothes he knew you had spares of. You’d had to hunt him down several times to find your missing hoodies and socks. It seemed you were destined to go hungry until lunch today. 
The knock on your door was unexpected. You were off medical duty today in order to stock count so no one should be coming to you for medical care,
“Who is it?” you call out through the closed door.
“It’s me Perle, can I come in?” the heavy, Austrian accent gave him away. König. It was here you realised you’d never actually spoken with him, too him certainly but never with. You’d never heard his voice. 
Another knock startled you, “König? Yeah, come in,” You got up and made for your med kit, you might be off duty but you’re still the only one on base with the training needed for König’s medical care and considering your past experiences you were expecting the worst.
A muffin. Your favourite muffin. König was holding your favourite muffin. He was holding your favourite muffin? You stared at him as he crossed the doorway, assessing him. No blood, no missing or extra limbs, no limp, no obviously broken bones. He didn’t need medical attention from what you could see. Unless it was something embarrassing and private but unlike other soldiers on base you didn’t think the Colonel was the type to sleep around and contract several STDs. 
Confused, you just continued staring at him until he offered you the muffin,
“You missed breakfast this morning. Thought you might be hungry.” He gave a small shrug as he handed you the muffin.
“I did. I am,” you give him a bright smile, “Thanks, these are my favourite too!” munching on the muffin and assured that he wasn’t in danger of passing out on you, you settled back behind your desk and gestured for him to sit too.
“So just a muffin that brought you down or do you need something from me?” you ask around a mouthful, thinking that maybe this was a more routine medical issue.
“I can’t come and see my favourite Kleiner Artz?” his eyes scrunch up underneath his mask, it’s a small sign that tells you he’s smiling. Ghosts’ eyes do the same, that how you know, “You missed breakfast and it was pancake day, you never miss pancake day so I wanted to check on you. Noticed your teammates didn’t come see you, is that how the legendary 141 operate?” His concerned tone is what you notice most, it sounds genuine enough but there just something about it that leaves you on edge.
“Ah, you’re scouting.” Throwing the wrapper in the bin before mustering your professional voice, the one you use on superiors who try to refuse medical treatment, “While I appreciate the concern Colonel, my team and I operate just fine. I’m quite happy with my working conditions and no, I’m not interested in a pay rise. Does that satisfy you?” plastering a fake smile on your face you wait for him to dismiss himself, even though you don’t technically have to conform to the PMCs ranks you feel it’s disrespectful to fully dismiss them. 
He slowly shuffles towards the door, stopping and shaking his head before closing it behind him. Like he had something else to say however you didn’t have much time to dwell on it as you had supply forms to be completing. 
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It was after 3pm before you had finished all the forms which meant if you wanted them ordered today you had to hand them to your lieutenant personally, which was no easy task. Figuring one of the sergeants might have seen him at some point you stop by their shared office first,
“Hey, has LT been around today?” standing in the doorway you watch as Soap lines up a spit ball with Gaz’s head,
“Something about meeting with the Cap and paperwork. Probably in his office.” Comes the reply from Gaz. Just as he looks up towards you Soap sees his moment and fires, hitting Gaz right above his eye. 
“Ha, that serves you right for eating all my snacks. I’ll be back, gotta get these to LT before four.” You walk off, throwing a wave behind you and keeping an ear out for the chaos that often followed the two.
Just as Gaz had said, Ghost was in his office. Cursing at paperwork and idiots and probably every officer on base by the sounds of it. Knocking on his door you waited for the command to enter and give him your request,
“Supply forms sir, there’s a few of them that are urgent. Should probably take priority over field reports.” You hand him the forms, knowing he’d take the opportunity to do anything other than read recruits reports.
“Thanks, I’ll get them in tonight,” he puts them on top of a pile but doesn’t dismiss you as expected, “You missed breakfast. Everything solid?” he asks.
“Yes sir, just overslept.” You give him nod, keeping it short so he has less time to sense the lie.
“Alright, let me know if you need anything though yeah?” He doesn’t dismiss you until you acknowledge his indirect order after which you make a beeline back to your office. You always feel like Ghost sees your soul whenever you stand in front of him like that and you need some time to decompress. Especially with the paranoia from last night still lingering.
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Your office was a safe space, despite all the physical trauma it sees, it’s where you go to centre yourself. To just be. For you it’s a sanctuary of hope, of where you do your best work and in the moments where there’s no emergency to be dealt with its tranquil and peaceful. With the rain tapping against the window and all your paperwork done, you settle in to enjoy a quiet moment. Closing the door and with your back against it, eyes closed and just breathing. In, out. In for one, two, three, four, five. Out for one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten.
The silence you can hear is a rare thing on a military base. No shouting, banging, not even a vehicle passing. Just the rain. And? Bubble wrap? Focusing on the sound, pop, pop, pop. It’s not a gun, you’re far too familiar with those and it’s not bubble wrap. The sounds are too long, it’s like someone blowing a bubble with gum and then it pops. The sound echoes in the empty hallways so you settle for counting the pops until you can’t hear anymore; one, two, three… seventy two… ninety five… one hundred and sixteen. The pops eventually faded and after the last one you opened your eyes. Your office the way you left it, except for one detail. A peach envelope.
There, in the middle of your clean desk lay a nightmare and all you could do was stare at it. Frozen. Your door was locked. You double checked. You always double check because of all the medications in it. Your door was locked and your window doesn’t even open, the key to it being lost forever ago. Your door was locked, how was this envelope on your desk. What else had this person done? Where else had they been? How? Where? When? Who?
The questions swirling around your head left your heart rate climbing and your hands shaking. You could barely open the envelope because of the shaking. As you tore it open you took another moment, in and out. Breathe in, breathe out. Getting a hold of yourself before you read it. As the shakes slowed you could make out the typed writing;
My Dearest Heart,
I hope you had a pleasant rest. Mine was wonderful, dreaming of you. I hope that pleasant dreams were the reason you missed breakfast and not anything nasty. You looked so worn down when I saw you in his office, I do hope he isn’t making your life difficult. Oh My Heart, I hope you know that I would do anything for you. I would damn the world if it was what you wanted from me. I’ve left you some presents in your drawer, hopefully this time that dreadful fox doesn’t steal them. I can’t have My Heart going hungry after all.
With all my love,
Your Soul
Retching you lunged for your bin, throwing up what little you had eaten that morning. They had been following you. You knew they were watching but they had followed you this morning and you hadn’t seen them. What good was a soldier who isn’t aware of their surroundings? How could you have missed them? The halls were empty, they should have been obvious but they weren’t. Unless they weren’t physically following you? Could they be watching from the cameras? Could the be using other people to follow you? You were all trained military personnel, there were hundreds of ways to follow a target, you knew that. They could be anywhere. You might have never even seen them in person. 
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The letter burned a hole in your combat pockets until you could make it back to your room after lunch. You had to constantly remind yourself not to reach to check it was still there and hadn’t fallen out. Lunch was quiet, with the Lieutenant still drowning in paperwork and Soap running a demolitions class for recruits it was just you and Gaz. Until he had to run before he was late for a meeting and it was just you, alone at your table in the noisy mess hall, picking at your food until you deemed you’d spent an appropriate amount of time being seen by people.
Walking back to your room, your legs felt like lead. Like they were getting heavier with each step. You took the longer route back, sticking to hallways that were always populated, saluting where necessary and saying hello to other people just to prolong your pain. You didn’t want to go back to your room. It’s peace had been ruined. You didn’t want to go back to your office, it too being soiled.
Your feet kept you along the familiar paths, pulling you closer with each step as your mind wandered. Lists of people. Theories about how. Questions about why. With your head buzzing with paranoia and questions, you didn’t even notice when your feet stopped outside a door and your hand had already knocked,
“Enter.” The gruff voice called out through the wood. Breathe in, breathe out. The questions in your head stopped abruptly as you opened the door and stepped through, the click of it echoing in the room. Breathe in, breathe out. Looking at him across the room, the one person you feel certain your stalker can’t be, one last big breath in and out,
“Lieutenant Riley? I need your help sir.” Your voice shakes, your whole body tensing, as if preparing for a fight as your hand reaches into your pocket and pulls out the envelope. He stands slowly, reaching out for the letter as he assesses you, he watches as your body collapses the second the paper leaves your hand.
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iftheshoef1tz · 5 months ago
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the stars and spaces in between
Summary: Eris Vanserra is on the run from his responsibilities, separated from his traveling party in the unforgiving snows of Svalbard. Things get more complicated from there. For @azrisweek 2024 Day 2: Familiars.
Rating: E
Notes: This is a fusion fic with the series His Dark Materials by Philip Pullman. You do not need to have read that series to understand this fic. I have explained all that needs explaining from that universe in this fic, but basically: every person has a daemon (pronounced demon) that is a physical representation of their souls. As children, daemons can change forms, but when a person reaches puberty, it settles into one form that is supposed to be a clue as to their inner character. Also, this is a prequel to a fic I will be writing soon, so…forgive me. You’ll know why.
Thanks to @yanny-77 and @queercontrarian for their beta reading; to @acourtofladydeath for telling me how long a person can walk with a sprained ankle (I’m sorry i ignored your guidance); and to @secret-third-thing for cheering me on when I realized I put the sex scene in the wrong place. Title is from Many Are the Stars I See, But In My Eye No Star Like Thee by Ursine Vulpine and Annaca.
The brutal sky above him is grey and endless. Lying on his back, winded and trying to ignore the pain in his ankle, Eris Vanserra takes his time memorizing the exact shapelessness of his environment.
In his ear, a sigh that’s more of a hiss.
“Shut up, Gizem,” he says, voice calmer than he feels, but his daemon’s hissing continues anyway.
When he sits up, his fingers are starting to get cold, even through his thick gloves. There is also faint cold radiating up through the seat of his pants.
“You couldn’t have watched your feet while you walked?” Gizem’s disgust is evident, and Eris glares down at his knees.
“If you hadn’t been curled in my hood,” he begins, and the quality of Gizem’s hiss is different this time, slightly guilty.
But in the end, it doesn’t change things: he is at the bottom of a moderately-sized crevasse, isolated by a face of sheet ice from the tiny village he had stopped in two nights ago. This morning, he had left to see a fascinating trail marker favored by the inhabitants of this area without any climbing equipment. He has no food beyond a handful of protein bars stashed in his pockets and a half-empty waterskin.
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rambleonwaywardson · 5 months ago
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Clegan Astronaut AU - Part 7
Masterpost
AU Summary: the boys as modern day NASA astronauts. Taking place in 2025, Bucky is about to head to the moon as mission commander of Artemis III while Buck is CAPCOM at NASA. Established relationship (obnoxiously in love).
Author's Note: the next chapter will be launch day! (I'm excited). For now, some mission prep, some quarantine shenanigans, some Gale pining for his husband (as usual).
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November 4 Nassau Bay, TX
Gale’s life is about to go haywire. 
He has just about 48 hours before his days stretch longer than ever, including 8 hour shifts as CAPCOM, reviewing Artemis 3 mission protocols, keeping up with Artemis 4 mission protocols, the odd media interview, and the occasional training exercise when NASA figures they can squeeze just a little more productivity out of him. Plus the added emotional weight of having a husband in space. 
Which he should be perfectly capable of coping with.
For over a decade, he’s had a boyfriend in the service, flying fighter jets, or orbiting the earth on a massive and yet isolated space station. He’s also done all of those things himself and never batted an eye. The only difference now is Bucky is no longer his boyfriend. He’s his husband. 
He’s his everything.
And this time, he’s not going to be even within the gravitational pull of the planet that Gale is stuck on. No rescue operations if something goes wrong; just the redundancy of a small space capsule and appropriately over-engineered suits and equipment to protect his fragile human body until he can make it home. Home to Gale. Where he’ll be waiting. Totally not an anxious mess.
Because he’s fine. He’s Major Buck Cleven. Not only is he a devoted husband, but he’s a professional adrenaline junky, a competent capsule communicator, a good engineer, and a skilled astronaut. He’s known across the agency as calm, cool, and collected. Level-headed. Aloof. Generally unphased. Always has everything under control. 
That’s the image that he has constructed, the little self-portrait puzzle that he’s been putting together piece by piece since he was a child. Buck Cleven is fine. Will be fine. Has always been fine.
Buck Cleven wakes up alone in the morning, his eyes blinking open with the sunrise, and every day that Bucky isn’t here, he misses the warmth that should be at his back. He breathes deeply, rubs his eyes, turns onto his back, stretches his arm out across the empty side of the bed. Pepper, who was lying curled up at his feet, pops up excitedly and moves up beside him. She licks his face, making him laugh and scrunch his nose at the same time, and he scratches her behind the ears and under her collar where he knows she likes.
Then they start their day. Gale forces himself out of bed, throws on some joggers, a plain tee shirt, and his running shoes, and he shoves a protein bar down his throat. Pepper jumps around at his feet, nearly tripping him, as he grabs her leash from the hook by the door, and they head out into the crisp morning. 
Gale has always liked quiet. A funny thing for a military pilot to say. But flying a plane is its own kind of peace, even when it’s not peaceful at all. He’s always felt calm and in control up in the air. But on the ground, he needs to force himself to slow down. There’s too many things to do, too many people that need him, too many problems to solve. Too many worries. Not enough air. 
Sometimes Bucky – laughing, dancing, drinking, gambling, foot on the gas and not slowing down Bucky Egan – is his peace. Somehow, against all odds, Bucky makes him breathe easier and think clearer, letting him be vulnerable and tired and shy when he isn’t allowed to be any of those things to the rest of the world. But Bucky isn’t here. So a morning run is the only thing Gale has to clear his head. 
No music. Few other people out and about this early. Just him and Pepper and the morning breeze. They first run around their neighborhood, and Gale focuses on the feeling of his feet pounding on the pavement, air being pulled in and out of his lungs, sweat dripping down his neck. He focuses on Pepper bounding along excitedly at his side and laughs when she gets distracted by a bird or tries to playfully jump up on him. They end up at the narrow boardwalk along the bay, run along it for a few minutes, and it’s here that they stop.
Gale lets himself collapse down onto the wooden boardwalk, his legs dangling over the edge, feet hovering above the water’s surface. Pepper lays beside him, her head in his lap, and they breathe in the salty air as they watch the water ripple in the early-morning sunlight, sending up dazzling reflections that Gale could stare at for ages. It’s one of those peaceful moments that reminds him of how special their little blue planet can be. 
“Just a few more days, Pep,” he says, and she smacks her tail happily against the ground. “A few more days until John heads to the moon.”
By the time he’s stepping out of his car at JSC, Gale has showered, shaved, eaten breakfast, changed into his flight suit, and is carrying a travel mug full of black coffee. Everything he felt when he woke up, the loneliness and the apprehension, gets shoved into a mental bin labeled ‘off limits’ the moment he gets to work. Those things have no place here.
As he walks across the parking lot, looking down at his phone as he runs through his schedule for the morning, his coffee is suddenly plucked right out of his hand. He looks up through his dark aviator sunglasses to see Marge walking beside him, matching him stride for stride in her skirt and pumps. She’s scrunching her nose in disgust as she swallows. “This dark enough for you?” 
“Could be darker.” He snatches his coffee back and takes another sip, looking at Marge pointedly over the rim of the mug. 
“Have you talked to John?” She asks. 
“A couple days ago. Why?” Gale has only gotten to speak with his husband a handful of times since he started quarantine. Every time, it manages to lift a weight off his shoulders and stir up his nerves all at once.
“He’s about to launch himself off the planet at hypersonic speeds. An emotionally healthy person might be a little nervous.” She tilts her head and makes a tsk sound. “An emotionally healthy spouse might be a little nervous for him.” 
“He’s ready,” Gale says simply. “I’m ready. I’m fine, Marge.”
Marge sighs and narrows her eyes at him. He might fool everyone else, but after a lifetime growing up together, Marge can read him like a book. Something as small as the way he flicks his eyes away from her as he says it, the way he works his jaw the littlest bit, tells her all she needs to know. “You’re lying.”
“Hey, at least I’m good at it.” Gale takes off his sunglasses and props them on top of his head, smirking at Marge in that cocky way that says I’m charming and I know what I’m doing and you just need to trust me. Even though he knows that look doesn’t fool her. “You’re the only one who needs to know,” he tells her in a hushed tone. 
The only one that needs to know that breathing is getting harder the closer we get to launch. That I wasn’t prepared for how much more difficult this would feel than every other mission we’ve ever been on. He can’t afford to let that type of emotion show. He has a job to do and he’s going to do it.
“I’m gonna talk to him tomorrow, after the press conference,” he assures her.
“Yes, the press conference.” She sighs, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. They’re at the door to building 1 now, the JSC headquarters, and Gale holds the door open for her. “Really hoping it’s less of a disaster than last time.”
“It’ll be fine,” Gale insists. “The crew will be over video call. So Curt can’t try to fight anyone this time.” 
The joke falls flat on the Public Affairs Officer, and she shakes her head. “Right, it’ll be fine. Listen, remind the rest of your crew that we have the Today show interview this afternoon.” They stop outside the small conference room where Gale is starting his day, and Marge straightens up with a hand on her hip, pointing a finger very close to his face. “It should be a fun one, but I want everyone on good behavior.” 
Gale chuckles as she spins on her heel to head back to her office in building 2. “I don’t think it’ll be a problem,” he calls as she walks away. He’s right, for the most part. The Artemis 3 and 4 crews are like night and day, despite being equally qualified professionals. Artemis 4 is a good group of young men and women who love to have a good time, but they’re nothing like Bucky’s rambunctious crew.
Gale, Sandra, Helen, and Macon. That’s who’s hitching a ride to the moon on Artemis 4. Gale and Helen will also both serve CAPCOM shifts for Artemis 3 starting in a few days, and they have been working tirelessly to make sure they know that mission inside and out. But today isn’t about that. Today is all about A4.
After a morning meeting discussing some updated mission logistics, the crew heads over to building 9, the Space Vehicle Mockup Facility, where full scale mock-ups of the ISS and Orion are housed for training. Gale can feel his whole body thrumming in anticipation, because for the first time today, they get to see the in-progress mock-up of Gateway, the first space station to orbit the moon. One of the main goals of Artemis 4 is to rendezvous with the Gateway modules that will be separately launched and already in lunar orbit, just waiting for a crew to add the habitation module and activate its systems. They will spend several days on board the station before Gale and Sandra descend to the lunar surface in the Starship lander, and Helen and Macon will remain on the station to conduct research and continue setting up.
Wandering through the Gateway mock-up is like getting to go on an exciting field trip. Unlike much of the other Artemis experiences, which are more like survival training. The mock up is still a bit rudimentary, but they can see all of the important things: where they’ll enter after docking Orion; where the Starship lander will dock; where they’ll sleep, eat, exercise, use the bathroom, perform basic medical procedures; the work benches where they'll be able to run experiments; and where all of the life support functions will be located.
“Welcome to paradise, crew,” Gale says as the other three follow him through the various sections. He points at a window in the HALO module. “Just imagine through that window you can see the surface of the moon. And in the distance, sunrise over the Earth.”
“You know, it hurts a little to be so close and not be able to touch down myself,” Macon laments as he looks around. “But this ain’t bad.”
“Not at all,” Helen agrees.
“I can feel it,” Sandra grins, patting Gale on the back. “It’s gonna be good.”
They just have to get through Artemis 3 first. 
November 5
Cape Canaveral, FL
The final pre-launch press conference takes place mid-afternoon the day before the scheduled launch. Bucky, Curt, Rosie, and Alex sit together on one of the couches in their flight suits, mic'd up with a camera in front of them. Projected on their TV screen is the JSC conference room, packed with reporters. At the front of the conference room is a big screen projecting their video, so the reporters can see them as well. Marge is there moderating, along with Harding and some of the other Human Spaceflight team members.
Once the team at JSC has finished outlining the launch expectations and mission timeline, Marge opens it up to reporters. The crew gets the typical questions: are they ready?; how are they feeling?; what will they be doing during this or that part of the mission?; what are they looking forward to the most?
The first reporter to direct a question at Bucky starts by congratulating him on his marriage. Bucky thanks her even as he braces for an onslaught. But she goes on to ask him if he’s given any thought to what his first words will be as he steps onto the lunar surface, as the first man to step foot on the moon since the 70s. He laughs and says “Not as much as I should. I have some big shoes to fill, but I’ll give ya somethin’ to write about.”
Questions about him and Gale find their way into the conversation, and they’re generally innocent but they still have Bucky fidgeting and clenching his jaw. Curt can feel him tensing and leans over, covering his mic with his hand. “These fuckers are just jealous cause every one of ‘em has a crush on your husband,” he whispers, and Bucky has to bite his tongue to keep from laughing as Alex answers a question about the observation tasks he and Rosie will carry out in orbit.
“Bucky and Rosie,” one reporter says at some point. “I know you’re both big Yankees fans. Have you seen the clip of Aaron Judge talking about you during an interview yesterday?”
Bucky and Rosie share a quizzical glance before shaking their heads. A few days ago, they had enthusiastically celebrated a Yankees World Series win, the first since 2009, beating the Dodgers in 4 out of 7 games.
There’s movement and muffled voices as the reporter leans over to talk to Marge, who is nodding her head and grinning. One of the staff members takes the reporter’s phone and puts it up close to the camera, so the crew can see the video playing on it. Aaron Judge, Yankees outfielder and MLB All-Star, is nodding as a reporter mentions the two astronauts about to head to the moon, celebrating the Yankees victory in quarantine. She asks if he has anything he’d like to say to them.
“For sure,” he says. “I’m really excited about the Artemis program myself and look forward to following along with their mission. Even better that we’re sending two Yankees fans up there.” He looks into the camera. “Bucky and Rosie, wishing you all the best. Good luck up there, doing amazing things that just blow my mind. We wish the whole Artemis crew a safe mission, and we’d love to have you guys out to a game next season.”
Bucky laughs in amazement, star-struck, and he and Rosie high-five over top of Curt. They’ll be talking about this for days, no doubt. Marge makes a mental note to engage with the video on social media.
They’re almost home-free when one of the last questions of the day once again gets pointed at Bucky. “Major Egan,” the reporter says. “You’ve been getting a lot of attention around this mission due to your sexuality. I know you’ve spoken on it at length before, but do you feel any extra pressure as discourse heats up ahead of launch? How do these comments, especially the negative ones, impact your mindset?”
Bucky bites his cheek and nods, takes a deep breath. “It can be disheartening, seeing people get so wrapped up in the wrong things sometimes,” he says honestly. Then he all but lies. “But no, it hasn’t really affected my mindset too much. In this line of work, I can’t afford to let that kind of thing get to me. I know who I am, and who I am is a damn good astronaut focused on my mission.” At least that last part is mostly true. All the turmoil around his sense of self can weigh on him all he wants in his daily life, but once he’s locked into his spacesuit or strapped into a fighter jet, it all has to go out the window. That’s how he’s always been. That’s the only way to survive. 
“God, I just want to fly,” Bucky groans in exasperation once the cameras are off and the others have moved off the couch, letting him stretch across the whole thing as he covers his face with his hands. “I just want to fucking do my job and fly. Why does it all have to be so political?”
“At least this was more… controlled,” Rosie points out as he hands one of their support team members his mic. He carefully unclips Bucky’s as well.
Bucky rolls his eyes behind his hands. Not at Rosie. Just at… the whole world. “Why does it even have to be an issue. Why does it fuckin’ matter.” He rubs at his cheeks, his eyebrows, grips his hair, and then rests his hands over his chest as he stares at the ceiling. “I’m a pilot. Why does it have to matter who I married? I serve this country, and no one ever gave a damn before. People callin’ me a fag and all. What is this? The fuckin’ 60s?”
“You could… I dunno, like, reclaim it,” Curt says as he plops onto the opposite end of the couch, lifting Bucky’s feet and letting them rest across his lap. 
Bucky lifts his head to look at him, his eyes narrowed. “What?”
“Ya know, the word fag,” Curt tries to explain. “If they’re gonna call ya that anyways, just own it.”
“I-“ Bucky doesn’t even know. He shakes his head. “What- How would I even do that?”
Curt is quiet, resting his chin on his hands as he leans his elbows on top of Bucky’s legs and stares off into space. He’s quiet for so long that Bucky thinks he’s not gonna follow up with that thought after all. But just before Bucky is about to let his head fall back to the cushion in despair, Curt giggles. In a concerning kinda way. And grins to himself. “Astrofag.” The word bubbles out of him in a laugh, like he barely meant to say it. 
Bucky’s face could not contort into more of a ‘what the fuck’ expression if he tried. “Astrofag?”
Alex and Rosie are laughing uncontrollably, but Curt just nods seriously. “Yeah. Astronaut. Fag… astrofag.”
“You drunk?” Bucky asks. 
Curt shakes his head slowly, still staring off towards the wall, chin still propped on his hands. “Haven’t had alcohol in days.”
“Hmm, must be withdrawal then.”
Alex shrugs. “It’s not the worst idea.”
Bucky looks at him, betrayed. “Oh fuck off,” he says, and he drops his head back to the couch cushion, throwing his arm over his eyes. 
He must pass out for at least a little while, cause next thing he knows he’s being woken up by a rubber football hitting him in the stomach. His eyes shoot open as his hands automatically scramble to catch the ball. “Hey astrofag,” Alex calls out. “Your boy is on the line.”
Bucky squints at the bright lights above, but is vaguely aware of a ringing noise coming from his phone. The clock on the wall says 6pm. The time he scheduled with Gale. “Oh god,” he mumbles, half tumbling off the couch as his long legs try to stand him upright. He makes it to the table, where his phone is sitting face down, on the final ring. He nearly misses the accept button in his haste to answer the FaceTime call. 
“Hey,” Gale says, his eyes lighting up when he sees Bucky. The corner of his mouth quirks up in a small, fond smile as he chews on a toothpick, sitting at the desk in their bedroom. Bucky recognizes the historic plane prints on the wall behind him: A B-17 Flying Fortress, a P-51 Mustang, and a Bell X-1, the first aircraft to exceed Mach 1. 
“Aren’t you a sight for sore eyes.” Bucky grins, immediately feeling better as he sits in one of the chairs at the table. Gale looks tired and soft, his hair messy and hanging over his forehead, no doubt from running his hand through it too many times today. Bucky wants to wrap him up in his arms so bad. “You playin’ hooky, Buck? Tomorrow’s launch day. Shouldn’t you be at the space center scrambling around like a crazy person?”
Gale doesn’t answer but instead suddenly looks downwards, laughing, and the camera gets jostled around as he repositions his phone. Bucky catches a glimpse of Pepper trying to insist she’s a lap dog, half climbing over Gale’s legs. He gently shoves her off with a faint “no Pep.” She whines loudly. “Don’t you start.” Now is not the time for a screaming Husky. He pauses, though, looking down at her, and he must decide that she looks pitiful enough because he sighs deeply and relents. “Okay, fine.” Then the phone camera is shaking again as he leans it up against the back wall. Next thing Bucky sees is a camera full of excited Husky leaning across the desk, her nose bumping against Gale’s phone. 
“Hold on, girl, come back here.” Gale pulls her away, and Bucky is graced with the hilarious sight of his husband, mostly covered by a husky that’s half as big as him, peeking over Pepper’s head. His voice is muffled by her thick fur. “Say hi do Daddy, Pep.” 
Bucky grins and says “hi Pepper,” but all of a sudden his stomach is doing weird somersaults at the sound of Gale saying that. ‘Say hi to Daddy.’ Some weird feeling he can’t explain wells up in his chest. Some sort of longing or loss or nostalgia or hope for a future that he isn’t sure they’ll ever be able to have in this line of work. Too busy. Too dangerous. Too unreliable. Next day never guaranteed. A future Bucky has never even been sure he wants, but one he might’ve liked to daydream about. He breathes deeply, pushing the thought aside. Who knew that sending yourself into danger as a married man made you feel things. 
But Gale is shoving Pepper back to the floor to lay at his feet, and he looks back up, completely unaware of how his words are sticking in Bucky’s brain like pins in a cushion. “I watched your press conference. You did a great job.”
“Oh. Yeah, thanks.” Bucky huffs, trying to mentally shake himself off. “I just wish they’d stop askin’ about… things that aren’t about the mission.”
“I know, darlin’. I-” Gale pauses, squinting at Bucky as he raises a glass of water to his lips. “You’re still in your flight suit?”
“Mmm,” Bucky nods, thankful to have an out. It’s not that he doesn’t want to talk to Gale about his media problems. He just doesn’t have anything left to say. And pity isn’t what he wants. “Fell asleep on the couch and no one bothered to wake me. Hey, you had an interview with the Today Show right?”
“Yeah. It was a good time actually.” A small part of Gale always wanted to be a teacher of some sort, and he loves sharing things he knows with people who are interested. “We got to show them the simulators. Let them try the controls. Scare them with the alarms.”
Bucky remembers when Artemis 3 got to do something similar with Today the previous year. How he missed the fun and simplicity of those types of interviews, when reporters mostly just wanted to know about the mission and the rocket and the capsule. “Better days,” he sighs.
“Oh! And we got to show them around the new Gateway mockup,” Gale adds. “Which is incredible, by the way.”
“Can’t believe you get to set up Gateway,” Bucky pouts. “God I’d love to see it.”
“You get to be the first man on the moon in decades. Stop whining.”
“Astrofag!” Curt suddenly yells as he walks into the common room. Bucky hears Gale choke on a sip of water, but he doesn’t see it because he’s already covering his face with one hand in embarrassment. “What are- Oh, Buck, didn’t see ya there.”
“Hey, Curt.”
“I’ll just be over there,” Curt motions to the couches, where Alex is drawing in his sketchbook and Rosie is quizzing him on protocols. 
“Astrofag?” Gale is arching his eyebrow higher than Bucky really thought it could go.
He waves his hand dismissively. “Curt thinks I should reclaim the word fag or somethin’. Since people wanna throw it around like it’s 1964 and not 2024.”
“Not his worst idea.”
“Alex said the same thing.”
“Not sure I’d say it in front of the press, though.”
“Oh believe me, I will never be saying it in front of anyone.” Bucky is gay. Everyone knows he’s gay. But he is not that particular kind of gay, whatever that means. He takes a deep breath, ready to move on.
“So, big day tomorrow,” Gale says. And immediately regrets it. Obviously tomorrow is a big day. Bucky does not need to be told that tomorrow is a big day when he’s the one strapping himself onto the top of one of the world’s largest explosives. Gale shakes his head at himself, feeling like that awkward teenager again that doesn’t know how to flirt.
Bucky just bites at his bottom lip and half smiles, though, amused that his husband, who is known across the country for being charming and so sure of himself, doesn’t know how to carry on a conversation.
“Ya know, I was thinking,” Bucky replies. “You’re basically the reason I made it this far.”
Gale does this thing where he tilts his head just the littlest bit and licks his lower lip, and it makes Bucky want to kiss him. “Yeah? How’s that?”
“Woulda failed differential equations without you.”
Gale can’t help but laugh. “John, you would’ve failed every math and physics class without me. Some of our professors had to go out of their way not to fail you.” 
This is arguably true, but it can never be proven. Bucky Egan was not a stellar student. Buck Cleven spent countless hours tutoring him, or at least trying to. Trying to convince John to pay attention long enough to actually be tutored – ‘no Bucky not in a dirty role play kind of way.’ – a task that became both far harder and far easier – ‘study with me for 30 minutes and I’ll give you a kiss’ – once they started dating. Arguably, Bucky started improving significantly with Gale’s help, and arguably, Gale dragged him along with a white-knuckle grip and a sometimes concerning level of loyalty that could in fact be referenced as the reason Bucky got his B.S. in engineering at all. 
But Bucky was also the exact right mixture of decently intelligent and flat-out charming, with an excitable and distracted air about him that made his professors think that if he’d just apply himself properly, he could do amazing things. Bucky was always good at getting on people’s good sides. He was good at getting extra chances. He didn’t always need it, but here and there, those qualities may have saved him from having to retake a course or two.  
And it turns out they were right anyways. If he applied himself properly, he’d fucking soar. 
Bucky shrugs smugly. “Well now I’m going to the moon and my professors are stuck teaching calculus to idiots who can’t tell a sequence from a series.”
“So, idiots like you,” Gale clarifies.
“Yes,” Bucky agrees. “But I’m going to the moon so it doesn’t matter anymore. Ain’t gonna be no sequences and series up there. That’s what we got mathematicians and engineers for.”
“You are an engineer.” According to his degree, at least. 
Bucky shakes his head though. He hasn’t thought of himself as an engineer in years. “I’m actually the best damn pilot this town has ever seen.”
“And so humble,” Gale snickers. 
Curt pipes up from across the room. “Gotta fight me for that title, Egan.”
“Alright, let’s have it out on the moon then.” Bucky turns to look at him, motioning between them as he stands up so fast that the chair he’s sitting in falls over backwards. He sets his phone face-up on the table so Gale is looking at the ceiling and raises his fists. “Me and you. Landing a tin can in one-sixth G.”
Curt hops over the back of the couch and puts his hands up in front of him, throws a fake punch in Bucky’s direction as he steps closer. “You’re on.”
Gale’s voice interrupts from the phone speaker. “I believe I was the first to outrank both of you, so doesn’t that make me the better pilot?”
Curt leans over top of the phone and points a finger at the camera. “Stay outta this Gale. This is between me and ya bitch ass husband.” He throws another fake punch that lands softly on Bucky’s shoulder, and Bucky flinches backward dramatically. 
Alex and Rosie are chanting “fight fight fight fight” in the background.
“You’re just mad cause you both know it’s true,” Gale asserts. 
Bucky picks up the phone again. And the chair. He spins it around backwards in front of him and sits in it with his legs straddling the back. He smirks at his husband.  “Excuse me but are you gonna be the first gay man on the moon?”
Gale smirks right back, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his desk. “As you said, you’re just an underpaid guinea pig.”
“Yeah,” Bucky says, as Curt gives Gale the middle finger over his shoulder before wandering back over to the couches. “The first gay underpaid guinea pig to land on the moon.”
Gale pulls the toothpick out of his mouth, using it to point at Bucky. They may be married, but they have never been above a little competition. “And you really think that’s because you’re the best pilot around?”
“Damn right I do.” 
“If that’s what gets you through the day, darlin.’”
“Buck’s sassy today,” Curt loudly whispers to Rosie and Alex. 
“Oh it gets me through the day alright,” Bucky says cheekily. “It’s getting me to the moon after all.”
“Send me a postcard, would ya.”
“Anything for you, angel. I’ll sign it ‘best pilot at NASA.’”
Gale rolls his eyes. “Your call sign shoulda been PITA.”  
“What?” Bucky scrunches his nose in confusion.
“Pain In The Ass. P. I. T. A.” Gale enunciates each letter and blinks at Bucky innocently.
Bucky nods thoughtfully, propping his elbow on the back of the chair and resting his chin on his hand. “Yeah, but I’m a pain in your ass.”
“We’re all screwed aren’t we,” Alex sighs as he scribbles in his notebook. 
Rosie hums before saying, with an incredible nonchalance, “Actually, I believe Gale is the only one getting screwed.”
“Actually,” Alex counters, not even looking up. “He’s not getting screwed cause Bucky is here. So maybe that’s why he’s cranky.”
“Gale’s cranky a lot anyways,” Rosie rationalizes. 
“Maybe you should do something about that Bucky,” Curt says, far too loudly. He leans over to look at Alex’s drawing, but Alex tilts it away, making Curt fall across his lap as he tries to follow it.
“I’m right here guys,” Gale cuts in, and Bucky glances at him, almost bursts out laughing when he sees how hard he’s blushing.
But messing with his husband is a favorite pastime, so he looks Gale dead in the eye when he replies, “Oh I plan to do something about it. It’ll be the first thing I do as soon as I get home from the fuckin’ moon.”
Gale hides his face in his hands and groans. A month from now. That’s a long time to wait. For anything.
A lot can happen in a month.  
“Alright,” Gale says, pulling his hands away. “That’s enough humiliation for one day. You better get some sleep, astrofag.”
“I know you are but what am I?” Bucky sticks his tongue out, and Gale just shakes his head in exasperation.
They bring themselves back to reality, composing themselves, and the moment lingers. “Well,” Gale finally sighs. “I’d say good luck now, but I’ll be right there with you tomorrow.” He starts his shift as CAPCOM during the launch countdown. He’ll be the one communicating with the crew as they shoot into orbit.
“Lookin’ forward to it, angel.” Bucky takes a deep breath, taking in the sight of his husband for the last time before leaving the planet. “Guess I’ll see you in the stars.”
Part 8
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cloned-eyes · 2 years ago
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Lean on me a little longer
AN: This is straight up depression hours my friends. Very much self-indulged and very heavy. Seriously, don't read if you're in a negative head space already.
Pairing: Crosshair x gn!Reader 1.8k
No mentions of outer describtion in anyway
Warnings: (experienced) disorderd eating, self-starvation. Very clear hints of (past and current) suc!c!dal thoughts/ tendencies by both the Reader and Crosshair. Nothing is disscussed out loud, nor depicted in a graphic manner but be warned. Ends on a positve note.
Description: Reader get's Crosshair to eat, after observing a very concerning behaviour.
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You worried about him; quite a lot actually. Crosshair probably wouldn't appreciate your worries. Getting defensive at every slight display of concern from anybody really. He didn't seem to appreciate anything any longer since he was back with the Batch, not even being here still. Of course his brothers had noticed and maker they tried to do something, anything , but the wounds endured from all the things that had happened - all of what had been said and done - were still fresh. Too fresh for them to handle any sort of healing or rebuilding when it came to their interpersonal relationships. Hunter, maker you knew he was the most effected by this whole thing, tried to make things right. You saw how he gave it all he got, desperately for rekindling the relationship with his brother. But neither he or Crosshair were ready for that just yet.
While the snipers behaviour never had been out-going affectionate at any point, you knew that what he currently displayed was severe. Very severer. The self-isolation had been something you cold tolerate at first, accepting that he needed space to sort anything out but after more time had passed by you noticed that it wouldn't get better, in fact, it got worse. You knew that Crosshair thought of himself as smart. Admittedly he was, cunningly so and really observant. It was something that gave him a sense off superiority. It was true, his senses were superior in that field but it also gave him a blind eye on the fact that he wasn't alone with those skills.
You yourself were quite observant when it came to certain behaviour patterns and the once you had picked up on him left a foul taste in your mouth. You didn't like it. Not one bit.
The sniper probably thought he was slick. Granted his brothers didn't seem to notice, bit you did. You did notice how he stopped eating, how the intake of food got less and lesser with every meal that would pass by. How he not only physically isolated himself but also mentally zoned out more and more often. How his whole being became more tense with every day, how his jaw tensed the whole time. How his teeth ground against each other and his stomach growled out of hunger while he slept and how he wouldn't fill it.
You heard it. You saw it. You felt it. And as you looked at Crosshair the man before you vanished as nothing but the husk of a prior self looked back at you. Maker, you wouldn't let it go any further from here. You wouldn't let him drown, wouldn't let him break after everting endured. If he wanted it or not, you would go into battle for him.
The Marauder was dead silent due to the fact that only you and the sniper currently were on the ship. Sighing heavy you straightened yourself, mentally preparing for the interpersonal assault you had planned on Crosshair. Would he put up a fight? Of course he would and it would be a messy one, but you wouldn't let him win on this. He wouldn't walk away from this, from you.
Armed with a high sugar protein bar you knew for a fact he liked way back when things were a bit more normal than right now, you made your way into the back of the ship. Movement carefully placed as you walked up to him. He said at the stairs of the gunners nest, cleaning his rifle obsessively while lurking in the shadows. Maybe he hoped that he would simply disappear into them if he sat in them long enough.
He didn't bother to look up at you at first. Eyes kept glued shut on the weapon in his lap. You simply stood there and waited. The advantage was on your side since you had him pretty much cornered. There would be no escape route past you and the only other available one was the exit lid of the gunners nest but he wouldn't be quick enough for that. You knew that and he probably too should it come so far.
Eventually he shot you a glance. It was meant to hold annoyance, to be hard and intimidate you. It did nothing to you. His eyes lacked the spirit, they were dull and you could see right through it. Face sharper than it should have been the hunger he endured due to self starvation finally crept through the cracks of his facade.
“What?”, he hissed, like a cornered rattle snake ready to strike.
Pulling your hand out of your pocket you held the protein bar up to him. He locked at it as if you pointed a blaster at him, ready to blast his insides out. It probably felt like exactly that for him being that you had figured out what he was doing. And of course he tried to deflect at first, to bite to get you away from him. The look his eyes held said it all.
“What am I supposed to do with that? I'm neither a kid nor a dog you can bribe with this sorta thing”, he mocked you. You didn't care.
“Eat.”
One simple word. You had spoken it in a tone that didn't allow any kind of denying you. Crosshair glared at you. His jaw tensing around his toothpick.
“The others might haven't noticed yet, but I did. You don't actually take in any food. Eat”
Like a wounded wolf he glared his teeth at you. Hitting directly into a sore spot and pushing further. By the way his body moved and tensed, how his mimic flaired up you knew that this was about to get messy. But you had to push through that too, for his sake.
“Who do you think you are to tell me what to do? I don't care what my brothers did to make you think you hold any weight of saying around here. But let me be very clear with you. I don't want anything from you. You don't hold any significance to me, so quite frankly, I don't care about what kind of kriffing delusions you come up with. Leave. me. Alone”, he hissed at you. Words drenched in pure venom, spilling out of his mouth.
They hit you, yes. A bit harder than expected but you could manage. You held the glare he spat at you, not lowering your extended arm either, not backing down one bit. Blinking slowly you gently tilted your head. An innocent gesture that seemed to irritate him even further.
“There is nothing in this galaxy you could possibly say to me that I haven't said to myself at one point. Nothing you could do that I haven't already done. I know what you're doing. I did the same to myself and worse once I crossed over a certain point. A point I wont let you cross, ever. Not as someone who just happens to know you, not as a friend, not as someone who cares. Eat”
Dynamics shifting he now held your glance. The last flare up of his unyielding nature, stuborness engraved deep into his bones. His eyes spewed hate. You let his fire rage. Let him try to burn you down. But the fundament your world stood upon was made out of the ashes of the same hateful flames. Flames that had been your own. Flames that had nearly succeeded in devouring you.
After an eternity his eyes dropped. You had won. A victory you celebrated internally as to impede feeding his already raising feelings of humiliation further. Not wanting to push him into the opposite direction of where he needed to be.
He took the bar and lacked any kind of spirit in his movement. He simply took it. No glances, no remarks, no harsh pulling away.
You watched as he rotated the bar a few times in his hands, stomach now audible growling at the sight of food. He looked so fragile, like a wounded animal that had lost it's lost ounce of will to fight back.
You sat beside him. And as you pulled the rifle out of his lap he'd let you. He also let you help him unwrap his protein bar as his trembling hands failed to do so themselves. There was no further need for words, both of you already knew anything worth knowing.
Once he took a bite of the bar a few tears spilled out of his eyes, shoulders beginning to tremble violently. Your hand found his back, travelling up to his neck to gently pull him closer to you until his head softly collied with you own.
A moment went by, then another and eventually he melted into the shared contact. He ate the bar slowly, softly sniffling between the bites. All it took was a quick glance from your side to know that it took him everything to not instantly devour the food in his hands. It was his way of regaining the last bit of composure in him.
Softly caressing the side of his scarred head with one hand, your other one found his free one, instantly inter whining both of your fingers. His body shook violently but eventually stopped.
You said there for a while. Wordlessly, connecting only through touch. He let you hold him. Sighing heavy once in a while, eyes closed as he allowed himself to receive affection. Neither of you knew how long you sat like that but it didn't really matter. You would hold him as long as he needed to, now and in the future. You wouldn't let him give up on himself.
At one point he shifted slightly.
“My head hurts”, he croaked out. Voice hoarse, sounding like it hurt him to speak. You'd understand. “My heart too.”
You pulled him even a little more close.
“I know”, you cooed softly, “I got you”
“Will it ever stop doing so?”, he asked after another short silence.
“I don't know. But it will soothe over time”, you answered him truthfully. It never stopped hurting for you. As said, once you crossed a certain line there was no hope of ever getting rid of all of it. A small part would always remain, but it was okay. You learned to live with it. Learned to live because of it. Realizing that there were people you had come to love out there that you wanted to share your short existence a little while longer with. Bath yourself in the warmth of their their love for you and the fortune to exist in this very moment with them, enjoying every second.
Crosshair only hummed. “I'm tired”
“Then lean on me a little while longer”
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jazz-bazz · 9 months ago
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a fluffy raindrop inspired by my first synthesis step that didn't work because of the same reason it doesn't work for rain... the difference being i didn't get a picnic under the stars... also instead of getting a day off, i skipped half a lab day to get to band practice for an event... the luck these ghouls get *sigh* im jealous...
creds to @sexy-sea-basss for the lake picnic idea! 🖤
didnt plan on posting this today but after the heartbreak that is @alwaysjustmina ‘s whispers (love it so much) 😭… @webbyghoul and i figured we’d need raindrop fluff asap
The Day Off
The week can’t get any longer if you ask Rain, and it’s only Tuesday. He’s been working on just this one step since Wednesday last week, which is already ridiculous, especially the 3 days spent trying to isolate a product, or at least something. They’ve got to have something because on Friday Mist will ask for a weekly report. They’ve been losing sleep and surviving on energy drinks and protein bars, though sometimes Dew would stop by with ‘healthier’ snacks. 
The problem is not with synthesizing the substance, he thinks, although they wouldn’t know, they haven’t taken any spectrums yet, because the substance just don’t want to be isolated from the rest of the shit. They’ve tried all sorts of of solvents, n-Pentane, ethylacetate, diethylether, in various ratios, but nothing is working. The fucking polar nitro group they have in their substance is making it harder to isolate, even if they manage to do it the yield wouldn’t be good. They could change the starting material and methods, but they need to talk about it with Mist first when she’s back from her work trip, probably sometime later today. But damn if he isn’t going to wear themself out by trying their hardest. 
They’ve talked with Mountain and Swiss too, asking for ideas and opinions, even chatted a bit with Cumulus. But none of their suggestions work, it got closer with the ratio of solvents that Cumulus suggested, they could already see a bit of difference in the TLC he did earlier, but it’s still not separated enough for the column chromatography. Now they’re just sitting at his desk fidgeting with Bap, sometimes bringing it close to his nose so they get Dew’s calming scent.
“I have returned from the hell known as human science convention with old men who has no respect for women!” Rain suddenly hears, Mist is back, there may be a light at the end of the tunnel.
“Mist! Hi, how was the trip?” Rain asks, to be nice and even though he’s dying to ask her about their problem.
“Rainy, darling! It was annoying, they keep not believing me when I said I’m a participant in the convention and not the catering staff, ughhh. But enough about me, you seem down, what happened?” Mist sees the tired look in Rain’s face, the dark circles under their eyes, and the slump in his shoulder, not to mention the way they were staring into space clutching that crochet plushie of his when she first came in.
“Oh, Mist, nothing is working, I’ve been trying to isolate my product but none of the solvent ratios I tried worked, I even asked Cumulus and Mountain and Swiss and they have no idea either. Could I maybe get permission to redo the reaction with a different starting material? I can even propose to you a new reaction mechanism to get the same result right now, I have thought a lot about this, it just doesn’t work with this one. Or even if it works, the yield would be bad, and-“ 
“Rain, Rain, stop for a second. Take a deep breath, come on,” Mist smiles softly at her protegee, “Okay. You’re good?”
“Yeah, maybe, I don’t know,” Rain sighs.
“Here’s my decision, you are hereby dismissed for today, and also tomorrow, go get some rest, spend a day in bed, go swim, whatever, you’re far too stressed. You can show me your idea on Thursday. And because I know you’re just gonna stay here and stress some more. I will get Omega to let Dew off early and distract you, maybe you’ll even get your first kiss from him today. Got it?”
“Wait, what? No I can do it, we can discuss it now and because it needs to be cooked overnight I can do it today and tomorrow start with the work up, I’m fine Mist,” Rain pointedly ignores the last part.
“No, you’re not. You need sleep and to eat more than coffee and candy bars. My decision is final, you are hereby banned from this room and the labs for the rest of today and tomorrow, go pack your things,” Mist says while gently pushing on Rain’s shoulders to get them to their desk and start packing up, “Meanwhile I’m going to call Omega. Your things better be already in your bag when I get back.”
With a sigh (so much sighing today) Rain starts to save all the documents on his computer and shut it down, stuffing their journal and tablet and the rest of his things into their rucksack. And then he waits for Mist.
“Your knight in shining armour will be coming in about 15 minutes!” 
“More like in hoodies and ripped jeans,” Rain mutters.
“Aw don’t be so glum, Rainy darling, your project will be fine if you take a 1.5 days rest, you know. Then Thursday you can start with a fresh brain!”
“I guess… Thank you Mist, best boss I could’ve ask for,” Rain goes to hug their mentor.
“Hello my dearest loveliest bestest friend ever in the whole wide world both here and below! Thank you for the day off because Aether’s been getting all up my business today, and I am half a second away from burning his journals,” Dew announces as he barges into the office, “I have plans that involve a lake and snacks from the diner with no chemical reactions in the vicinity. Up and at it, bestie!”
“Fucking hell Dew, how can you still have this much energy?”
“By sleeping on time and eating enough food to sustain myself through a day full of quantum equations, which you should’ve done by the way, would be wonderful on those eyebags.”
“Oh fuck off.”
“Nah, you’re stuck with me because we are besties and you can’t live without me, literally, because we are roommates. Let’s go!”
They stop by the diner to get some food to go, and then their apartment to drop of their things and freshen up, Dew also gets his picnic blankets and a couple of towels and change of clothes for when Rain inevitably jumps into the lake and splash him.
There’s this one secluded lake on the edge of the town that Dew found on accident. Usually they just go to the lake at the Abbey complex, but he feels like this one would be perfect for Rain to wind down without anyone watching, the way to this lake is a bit complicated and requires a bit of hiking, which neither of them minds, they both love to be in nature no matter what.
After parking the car and hiking, Dew asks Rain to put on a blindfold just before the bend that would reveal the lake. It’s because he wants to set up the picnic blankets with food and tea lights he brings for a romantic date under the stars, as it was already getting dark, they got to watch the sunset at the parking lot.
Rain agrees with a bit of grumbling, and with Dew’s guidance they walk together to the edge of the trail heading to the beach, where Dew then leaves Rain for a bit while he sets things up. He talks with Rain the whole time, to reassure Rain that he’s still there, just random chatters mostly, like Aether being annoying that day, the plans the pack has this weekend to go to Zenith because it’s bingo night, the last hockey game they watched, and whatnots. Rain has to admit, it is relaxing to just chill like this, even without being able to see anything, he can already feel the stress seeping out from their body.
“Okay, Rainy, you can take off the blindfold.”
When they take it off, the first thing they see was Dew holding a bouquet of lilies (who knows where he got it from) with a big smile on his face, and then behind him the picnic he set up, complete with a background of the lake and the starry night sky.
They spend a few hours there, snacking on the food while talking, kissing a bit (more like a lot) because there’s no one here and they can forget their running joke of not dating (they are both very serious about keeping up with it), taking a dip in the lake (Rain), and admiring the view of an unglamoured water ghoul in their natural habitat (Dew) before being pulled in by said water ghoul for underwater kisses (best thing ever if you ask Dew).
Then at about midnight they both get out of the water and dry up using the towels Dew had packed, and after finishing the snacks they pack up the blanket and tea lights and knick knacks they bring.
“Thanks for today, Dew,” Rain smiles while leaning in for a kiss, which lasts awhile, before they both pull back and rest their foreheads against the other’s.
“Anything for you, baby,” Dew smiles back, “Now, you ready to go home? We need to get some sleep, I know you have tomorrow off but I still need to come in after lunch for a bit. And you are not allowed to come with me, in fact I am ordering you to stay away from campus, go sleep in, swim, read, whatever, as long as it’s outside of a 5 km radius of the campus. Got it?”
“Yeah yeah, whatever,” Rain smirks, ”Let’s go, I need cuddles in my bed with you.”
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eirinstiva · 10 months ago
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About emotions and science: A Study in Scarlet
Happy birthday Sherlock Holmes!!! and the best way to celebrate it is reading A Study in Scarlet from my dear friend John H. Watson, M. D.
One of the reasons I love this story is the introduction to Watson, his experience as a soldier and the loneliness that embraces him:
The campaign brought honours and promotion to many, but for me it had nothing but misfortune and disaster.
Poor Watson. The campaign left him physical an emotional scars
I had neither kith nor kin in England, and was therefore as free as air—or as free as an income of eleven shillings and sixpence a day will permit a man to be. 
Oh no. He's traumatised, alone and with no money.
I was standing at the Criterion Bar, when some one tapped me on the shoulder, and turning round I recognized young Stamford, who had been a dresser under me at Bart's. The sight of a friendly face in the great wilderness of London is a pleasant thing indeed to a lonely man. 
First we had Watson talking about his loneliness and the consequences of his wound, then Stamford appears as a light and then Holmes like fireworks. Too many emotions for a start and I love that.
Now the scientific part! Guaicum test One of the first presumptive tests for blood developed. It relied on guaiacum (a resin isolated from trees) in combination with hydrogen peroxide. If a stain turned blue when treated with these reagents, it was considered a positive result indicative of blood. According to this source "The historical record credits Izaac van Deen (1804-1869), a Dutch chemist and physician (...), with having discovered the test in 1861. It was only two decades later, in 1881, that the future Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (1859-1930) graduated from the University of Edinburgh with a Bachelor of Medicine and Master of Surgery. The test was less than three decades old when Doyle wrote the story."
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[ID photo: Guaiacum officinale flowers. Four light violet flowers with five petals]
Acid stains on skin There are many factors related to the final colour of a acid stain. It depends on the type of acid, concentration, your own colour skin, temperature and so on. Skin contact with nitric acid leads to specific yellow-to- brown-stained wounds by binding with complex proteins (xanthoproteic reaction) and forming a yellow substance called xanthoproteic acid. Trichloroacetic acid (the one used in chemical peeling) leaves lightcoloured scames. I met someone who had a brown stain in her hand after burning accidentaly with hot sulfuric acid. Sometimes if you have sensitive skin, diluted acids can leave pinkish stains like in my case. That's why you should handle with care acids. Many of them are colourless so it's easy to mistake them for water, and that's why in lab you should label every single container with the contents, even water!
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anxiously-going · 7 months ago
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I know I've mentioned before about Pike and Scotty being latch key kids and having dealt with food insecurity in the past and whatnot and in the bit I'm editing Jim mentions that Scotty knows about Tarsus which did get me thinking about how that would have come up.
I think there is some strong evidence of Scotty having food related trauma in the films, in Beyond the first place he takes Jim when he asks for a tour of the Franklin is the mess hall. Even when we first meet Scotty there's a lot of implications going on.
Immediately he's going off about having to "live off protein nibs", when Spock Prime calls him by name he responds "Unless there's another hardworking, equally starved Starfleet officer around", and his reaction to finding out Spock is from the future is "That's brilliant! Are there still sandwiches in the future?".
Now this can be interpreted as the first time Scotty's done without, but I don't think it is. In part because of his reaction to Keenser saying that he's the equally starved Starfleet officer. "You can eat, like, a bean and you're done! I'm talking about food, real food."
To me, this is an indication that the protein nibs probably were enough for Keenser or at least more filling to him than to Scotty. Which brings me to Jim's conversation with Scotty.
The thing with Jim is he always going to try and level, he is always going to try to avoid isolating and cornering people. That's especially true when it comes to things that are similar to his own traumas. Even moreso because there is a stigma around food insecurity trauma.
I tend to think that Jim got together with Scotty and sat down to file a formal complaint about the time between food shipments to the outpost and the quantity and quality of said food along with the protein nibs situation. And it's in conversation about this that Jim let's him know why he's wanting to do all of this. He let's Scotty know about what he's been through to ease those feelings of isolation and to let him know he wasn't alone in these types of experiences, to validate that it was a thing to be upset about, it was a thing that was traumatizing to him. And that Jim understands and that he's never going to judge Scotty for having trauma responses about the subject. He tells Scotty that he and Len always have protein bars and the like on hand and helps him set up a few places around Engineering to stash snacks. And he goes out of his way to make Scotty as comfortable as he can be, because he knows what it's like when there isn't that support and he never wants anyone to face what he did in the aftermath of it all.
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mousemilf · 2 years ago
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> be me at 20
> anorexic druggie, so isolated i have no sense of normalcy, huge scholarship stipend to blow on stupid projects
> basically only comfortable eating raw fruits and vegetables but im scared of not getting enough protein and my hair falling out
> literally every vegan protein bar has a ton of unnecessary garbage in it
> recipes for high-protein versions of foods i miss, even low carb and low fat versions, start with disgusting shit like flour or coconut oil
> convinced i could do way better
> start getting into baking in order to create the safest foods possible
> before long im churning out 30 calorie oat fiber brownies and protein cookies made with pureed cauliflower and xanthan gum and shit
> edible only to a deeply sick person but i feel accomplished
> post my recipes on proana boards and they treat me like a genius
> every time im home alone for a few hours im doing my fucked up little kitchen experiments and cleaning up the evidence before my ex gets home
> its become a genuine hobby for me at this point
> i branch out into normal baked goods to bring to holidays and stuff and people like them
> my knowledge of substitutions transferred to real food and i can make things vegan or gluten free or whatever and people are so happy to have their dietary restrictions accommodated
> im the king of the world
> start getting enough calories to my brain from sampling all my normal baking projects and my brain starts working normal again
> get a job at a shitty franchise bakery decorating cookie cakes
> spend all my free time at work fucking around with the piping tips and watching youtube tutorials
> my job title there was cake decorator so i can stretch the truth a bit and i start working at higher end bakeries when i finally leave my ex and move
> genuinely love my job
> 5 years later, recovered, my own place and car and a career im passionate about
> started my own cottage bakery
> my first wedding client is in like two weeks from now
i wonder how the other girls from the proana recipe boards are doing now
#ic
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practically-an-x-man · 5 months ago
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☠☮☯◉∇ for Ophelia and Madison?
Absolutely! Thank you so much!!
Headcanon Meme
☠ - angry/violent headcanon
Ophelia: She's not a particularly angry person as a whole, or really a particularly emotional person at all. However, when emotion does hit her, it hits her hard. She's either completely chill or angry as hell, no in-between.
Madison: For a long time, it was hard for her to even accept that she was allowed to feel angry. She grew up in the 50s, and so there was a lot of pressure to be the gentle, demure housewife, and that resulted in a vicious cycle of frustration because that's just not who she is. It's also one of a few different roots into her self-isolating streak, since she was taught that anger could only be destructive and wasn't a "woman's emotion".
☮ - friendship headcanon
Ophelia: She's actually very good at making acquaintances and passing friends, but not great at connecting with others on a closer level. Upon a first meeting, she appears intelligent and witty but not self-absorbed, so people tend to enjoy interacting with her. But things tend to fizzle out on a deeper level because she's so hesitant to be vulnerable or open about her emotions.
Madison: It's well-known that she's got a bit of a shell, but once someone breaks through that shell, she'll defend them through anything. What's less well-known is how quickly people actually manage to break through that shell - she tends to keep up the facade long after they've actually grown on her, so other people struggle to get a read on whether she actually likes them or not.
☯ - likes/dislikes headcanon
Ophelia: She hates protein bars with a burning passion. When she was in college and first getting into powerlifting and hero work, she practically lived off them because they were a cheap, quick burst of protein, but she ate them to the point that she got sick of them and now she can't touch them. She'll stick to yogurt or protein shakes when she needs that quick boost.
Madison: There are quite a few foods that she actively dislikes but will still eat - it started with her upbringing, with the idea that she had to be polite and refusing offered food was impolite, and while she was living in the woods she just couldn't afford to refuse any calories. It's something she has to train herself out of once she's at the X-Mansion, figuring out whether she actually enjoys something or if she's just forcing herself to eat it.
◉ - Any other question of your choosing
Ophelia: She once briefly considered patenting her removable actuator design, thinking it would be a good tool for people with mobility issues, construction workers, electricians, etc.. She eventually decided against it, since she didn't want it to get out of hand or for any Doc Ock copycats to pop up.
Madison: She's a very good climber thanks to how long she's spent living in the woods, and once was dared to try and scale up the side of the X-Mansion from the outside. She succeeded.
∇ -. old age/aging headcanon
Ophelia: Despite the fact that she'll definitely have some chronic pain from all the injuries she's sustained over her career as Argonaut, she actually ages quite well physically-speaking. She's already in the habit of working out, stretching regularly, and eating well (she has to be, in order to keep up with those who have superpowers), so she's set herself up to be a fairly active and flexible old lady lol
Madison: She's likely to have some vision loss as she ages, since the mirrorlike reflectiveness of her eyes means she has very little protection from UV rays (and she's spent so much time outside without effective sun protection in the past). It probably will set in late and develop slowly, since her healing factor will slow the process, but her vision will begin to degrade in her old age.
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throughdarkeningskies · 11 months ago
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ok. tumblr sent my other post about this into the void. but ummm I'm going to talk about fangirl by rainbow rowell because it is a very important book to me but I take issue with SO MUCH of it and I wish it was different. so here have the longest dissection ever of a book I've read a million times
So brief context: cath, the central character, is a girl going off to college for the first time. She is a fanfiction writer, and is a BNF in her fandom (a fictional parallel to harry potter). She has mental health issues (textually anxiety, but I read it as undiagnosed autism, which we'll get back to later.) Being in college means, for the first time, that she'll be living life away from her twin sister, wren. the book charts her struggles with family, fanfiction and romance as she tries to navigate college on her own.
so point A is the racism. rainbow rowell is racist. this is known. I'm not going to go into it here, but her book Eleanor and Park is full to the brim with anti-Asian stereotypes. if u Google it you'll definitely find thinkpieces with explanations and screenshots, but take my word for it here, it's a shitshow. anyway.
so first off. there are no major characters of colour in this novel. cath in this book has an extremely limited social circle, due to the aforementioned mental health issues. by the end of the novel, she's only managed to make 2 friends that aren't directly related to her. u could argue that rowell gets away with it on these grounds, but she really, REALLY does not. I want to discuss the character of abel, who gets dealt an extremely shitty hand in this book.
abel is cath's boyfriend of 3 years. Relevant here - cath's family apparently grew up in an all-mexican neighbourhood, and yet this is as close to a Mexican character as we ever get. he appears to be the only significant friend she has, apart from her sister. is this an important relationship, though? no, not at all. they've broken up by page 75 of a 460 page book. is this upsetting for cath? not really, apparently. she doesn't even cry.
the first thing to note about this is that abel and his family almost never come up in the text without being related back to food in some way. abel's grandmother owns a bakery, and every time cath thinks about her boyfriend, she thinks about the cakes she gets from this bakery. she seems more upset to have lost access to abel's grandmother's cakes than she is to have lost abel. always, always, this relation to cake. no reflection on what their relationship was like. no happy memories. always just cake. a common criticism of white people writing POC is that the POC are described using words for food. rowell takes this a step further. described with food? no! abel is directly connected with food. you almost never see him out of this context, when he's mentioned at all.
the second thing to note is that this relationship is utterly inconsequential. you could edit this relationship right out of the book and lost nothing. it might even make more sense - cath's conviction that she is doomed to fail in a relationship would make more sense if she'd never had one. and this is extremely frustrating to me because from what little we see of it, this should be an extremely important relationship for cath, and deserving of far more than than the ambivalence it gets. The book brushes off their relationship as 'safe', as 'boring', as cath never really liking him, but it doesn't stick the landing on this point to me.
cath is deeply socially isolated. she struggles with anxiety to the degree that she cannot make herself go to the dining hall, and resorts to living off protein bars for MONTHS. she's terrified by everything and everyone. and not to out myself to the world here, but her struggles are deeply, soulwrenchingly relatable to me. so I speak from experience here when I say - there should be nothing insignificant about a relationship where she feels 'safe'. she's afraid to tell anyone about her fanfiction, in case anyone thinks she's weird. and yet not only does abel know about it, he reads it. he keeps up with it. we are told that he once got her a laptop charger for her birthday. it's laughed off as a boring gift - but cath is welded to her laptop in this novel. It's almost an extension of her. like yes as a gift it's 'boring' - but its practical, and its kind. abel KNOWS her, enough to get her things she knows she'll appreciate having. there is so much potential in this relationship that just goes completely untouched. It might be very true that they aren't romantically compatible, or can't make the relationship work long term - but that should have been explored!!! That is a genuine source of conflict that could serve as a great subplot, especially when paired with the other interpersonal issues that cath is having. like why, in a novel about your relationships with your loved ones changing as you grow up, is a three-year-relationship just... discarded? there's no weight to this relationship at all. it comes off as desperately shallow, and a bit.... amatonormative is the word maybe? misogynistic? yes you might be isolated with no friends and bad social skills, but you can't be seen to not have a boyfriend. that's a step too far.
OK. So now onto my next point of contention with this book. it is WILD to write an entire book revolving around gay fanfiction and then.... just not include any LGBT characters. at all. cath writes gay fanfiction nonstop for like 5 straight years and apparently never ONCE considers her own sexuality? her own gender? she reads gay fanfiction to her eventual boyfriend to calm herself down and... what, we never probe further than that? I know this book came out in 2013, so trans ideas might not have been as high on the radar, but... idk. I would LOVE to see a trans man's take on this book, because I could certainly see cath as one. but as it is, the book is just deeply, painfully cisheterosexual. all the time. the possibility of cath being gay comes up once, as a joke. other characters express suprise at her writing gay content, and cath always approves when they are accepting.... but no gay characters. not a one. it comes off as a bit fetishing, to be honest. yes, we'll obsess over the gayness of these characters. but an actual gay person? seems a bit unrealistic idk
I have other, smaller nitpicks with the book, too, which I'll just list:
- the actual 'fandom' isn't really portrayed that well. cath is isolated there, too. she posts her own fic and reads a little bit of other fic, and that's it. And while that's fine, it might have been good to at least nod to other types of fandom experiences. this fictional fandom is the size of Harry Potter's and there's no fandom drama? None?
- her final assignment, worth fifty percent of ONE class, is ten thousand words long? in UNDERGRAD???? is that real? are American colleges crazy
- she writes romantic gay fanfiction with her SISTER? Possibly spicy stuff? girl you do you but I would sooner die
- speaking of, there's some weird parallels drawn between the gay romance and the relationship between the sisters. stop that please
- medication is not evil stop acting like it is
GRRR okay done. you may now be wondering what I see in this book at all. so here we go.
- she isnt written that way, and I don't think it was intended on the authors part, but cath is one of the best portraits of a certain kind of autistic person I've ever seen. like before I had any inkling that I was, myself, autistic, I had ONE character in all of literature I could point at and say 'this person is like me'. and I could never really explain why until post-diagnosis. this is why reading one-star reviews of this book gives me hives. you don't understand her, you don't understand ME, shut up forever.
- cath's relationship with the world of mages is textbook special interest. it makes her feel happy and safe, the one activity she can always turn to. she's been writing about it nonstop for YEARS. it's the bedrock through which she understands the world. she doesn't necessarily understand the way her sister has grown out of it, when cath hasn't. just the way in which this affects her relationship to other people is SO well done. cath not understanding why everyone else outgrew it when she didn't. her sister taking shots at the world of mages when she wants to upset cath, because that's the thing that will bother her most. at one point, cath submits a piece of fanfiction to her fiction professor for an assignment. objectively stupid? yes, of course. when the professor calls her on it, cath is most upset by the fact that she can't make her professor understand how important it is to her. other characters help cath understand why it was wrong, of course, but the point remains - she didn't turn in the fanfiction because she was being lazy or stealing, but because its the most important thing in the world to her. every single thought cath has about the world of mages reads as special interest to me
- cath being unable to visit the dining hall on own because she doesn't understand the rules, and can't Google them. she resorts to living off protein bars and peanut butter. she's only able to go to the dining hall after someone goes with her and shows her how. which. look. I avoided my college canteen for nearly two full years because I didnt understand the rules and couldn't Google them. I only got over it after someone brought me there for coffee two months ago. also developed weird eating habits because of it. maybe proves nothing but it was nice to see someone else experience that
- stunted social skills mean you don't make friends so much as you kind of drift into friendships. People adopt you, get used to you just because you're there
- the isolation. the loneliness. God I've never read another book that manages autistic loneliness like this one. the way that just showing up and going to class and having one (1) friend can be genuinely all you can do, the best you can manage, and it still leaves you so far behind compared to everyone else
- idk. I read a lot of YA when I was a teenager, and even when the characters explicitly did have mental health problems, there was always this fear of letting the characters struggle. of letting them be genuinely isolated from their peers. the weirdo always goes to all the parties. the lonely character always has a circle of friends. the loser always gets the girl. because no one could ever be that weird, that lonely, that much of a loser.
- well fuck you, man. some of us are.
- the way neurodivergence is handled in this book is kind. levi's probable dyslexia is treated in a gentle, nuanced way, and so is cath's father's bipolar disorder. I can't speak to what it's like to have either, but they're certainly not demonised here.
- I don't know. This is already long as fuck and I don't know if it makes any sense. tl;dr I wish there were more books about the autistic college experience. especially from a trans perspective
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exileseverafter · 2 years ago
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On Skykin, aka Sky Folk or Celestials
I’m doing some write ups on the giants (minigiants?) from my story The Exiles Ever After, for anyone interested.  Here’s Part I! 
Note: ‘Celestial’ is an archaic term rarely used in the current era.
The Skykin are so named because they primarily live in the Cloud Islands, floating structures that resemble clouds despite being solid. Their average height range is between 12 and 17 feet tall for adults. As a result, other kinfolk (particularly humans) tend to refer to them as giants. Using the term “giant” is controversial among the Skykin themselves, as it implies they are larger than “normal.”
Sky Folk who have been forced to leave the Islands and emigrate to the land, or those who choose to do so, are referred to as Exiles. Exile can occur as a result of a criminal transgression, financial issues, or even simple social pressure.
Physiology:
Skykin have the same range of skin and hair color as humans do. However, barring unusual circumstances such as albinism, their eyes are almost always gold. They live, on average, between 70-100 years and age at a similar rate to humans and Flower Folk.
Their diet varies widely based on the culture of their Island of residence. They are omnivorous, but tend to favor plant-based meals over meat ones on most Islands due to meat and poultry being expensive; beef, in particular, always needs to be imported and is considered a luxury. Eggs are common sources of animal protein, and goats are seeing increased popularity both as livestock and pets. 
Pregnancy lasts one year. Throughout much of their history, Sky Folk have had difficulties with birth and fertility rates. New advances in prenatal care, midwife practices and medical discoveries have helped to amend this issue, which has resulted in a small population boom in the modern era.
Due to their size, the average Skykin is a physical powerhouse compared to a human. While many dismiss this as unimportant, some will use it as an excuse to show off and perform feats of strength as a form of art. 
Politics:
The Sky is formally and collectively known as The Federated Islands of the Sky Republic. The Republic is a democracy centered in the Celestial Capital of Vox, a massive Sky Island located in the equatorial region over an ocean. All Islands with a population over a certain threshold have representatives in the High Senate of Vox. Larger Islands will themselves have a senate or a high council, while smaller, village-sized populations may have a mayor or elected magistrates.
The Republic was founded after the fall of the Golden Theocracy, a nation ruled by priest-kings and royal families entwined. While a less stringent adaptation of the Solarist religion practiced by the Theocracy is still widespread and dominant, a deep-seated mistrust of royalty and nobility lingers throughout the Sky. 
The process of Exile was designed, initially, to deal with criminal elements. If a crime is serious enough to mark the accused as a ‘social danger’ but not enough to merit prison or death, the accused is sent to live on the planet and left to their own devices. Children of Exiled will follow their parents unless relatives intervene. Some manage to integrate with human-dominated cultures, while others may live in isolation. Larger cities, such as Nautilus, may have neighborhoods of Exiled Skykin with buildings sized to accommodate them. Unfortunately, the practice of Exile has become more widespread, some seeing it as a way to dispose of business rivals by spreading rumors of ‘instability’ or ‘chaos.’ As self-imposed Exile will end debts, some desperate individuals opt for a life of uncertainty on the land over potential indentured servitude
Culture:
While Sky cultures vary greatly from Island to Island and among Exiled, there are common beliefs and traditions spread throughout the Republic. 
Much of their cultures center around creation of art, music, food and fashion. To create is the highest form of labor, and to strive to be the best is the purpose of work. A sense of competition, healthy and otherwise, fuels trade between Islands as a baker may seek to use “the finest sunflower oil made of the most beautiful flowers,” and the oil press will seek out seeds from “sunflowers of ancient lineage.” The baker will use the oil to create a pastry “in the shape of a great swan, filled with the finest custard and thousand-year crystallized fruit.” As a result, it’s not uncommon for human royalty and nobility to hire Sky artisans to design their wedding feasts or compose operas. (Such commissions are almost always done through a Merchant intermediary.)
The Sky Folk would deny that their size is exceptional in and of itself, but many believe it reflects something exceptional about them in the eyes of the universe and the Sun. They are largest, and from largeness comes grandiosity, luxury and excess. Everything one does, one must do in extremes. Epic poems may last hours. Fashions often reflect those of the lands beneath an Island due to trade and cultural adaptation, but often more lavish and outlandish even among the poorest Skykin citizen. 
Relations between humans and the Sky are chilly in the modern era. It’s believed among Skykin, particularly devout Solarists, that the land (often referred to as The Center of the Universe, to the dismay of some astronomers) is the core of corruption in the world, the source of ‘chaos,’ that which is unpredictable and destructive. And as humans and Flower Folk live on the surface, they are corrupted with social disorder that could lead to the downfall of the Republic if it spread. In turn, humans often see Sky Folk as arrogant, difficult to deal with, and all too eager to dump their problems (read: the Exiled) on human nations while claiming moral superiority. This, in addition to the innate issues when one kin is more than twice the size of the other, lead to Exiles being mistreated and sometimes turning to violence and bullying in retaliation. 
It is worth noting that physical violence itself is considered an aberration, the last resort of the weak, and most look down upon it. As arrogant as they can come across, the average Skykin is a “gentle giant.” Individuals, of course, vary. More to follow! 
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dontmeantobepoliticalbut · 2 years ago
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A Montana Republican is pushing a bill to bar those who have received a COVID-19 vaccine or suffer from "long COVID" from donating blood—a proposal some critics say could effectively eradicate the state's supply of blood.
Formally introduced in the Montana State Legislature on February 17, House Bill 645 proposes a misdemeanor offense for anyone who knowingly donates whole blood, plasma, blood products, blood derivatives, human tissue, organs, or bones containing "gene-altering proteins, nanoparticles, high-count spike proteins from long COVID-19, or other isolates introduced by mRNA or DNA vaccines, mRNA or DNA chemotherapies, or other novel mRNA or DNA pharmaceutical biotechnologies."
The legislation, which has yet to receive a committee vote, comes over what the bill's sponsor, Representative Greg Kmetz, described as fears from his constituents of ensuring a "safe" blood supply—even as experts assert that it is safe to donate blood after receiving a COVID vaccine or being diagnosed with COVID.
"Many of my constituents question just because we hear these two words, 'safe and effective,' a million plus times, does that make them true?" Kmetz asked colleagues in a hearing on the bill last week. "[...] These are the people that are concerned about our blood supply. These are the people that put me in this office. These are the people that I represent."
Kmetz has been backed by fellow Republicans, Rep. Jodee Etchart, who is the bill's requester, and Rep. Lola Sheldon-Galloway.
Many of the concerns pushed by the bill's proponents often cited uncredible or even biased information to support them.
Some who testified in favor of the bill claimed, without evidence, that friends and family died prematurely as a result of receiving the vaccine. There is currently no proof linking the COVID vaccine to premature death.
Another woman cited a Facebook post pushing claims that COVID-19 vaccines turned the blood of embalmed corpses into fibrous clots, a finding medical fact checkers have already debunked as the result of a heavily flawed study.
Others cited concerns over a spike in myocarditis cases among teens who received some types of vaccine, which U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) data found to be rare.
Meanwhile, opponents of the bill, which included multiple medical professionals, said its language was overly broad and would, in effect, decimate Montana's blood and organ donor supply.
According to data from the CDC, approximately two-thirds of Montanans have received at least one dose of the COVID-19 vaccine, while just 3% of eligible donors nationwide donate blood. Cliff Numark, the Senior Vice President of Donor Services for blood supplier nonprofit Vitalant, said the bill would cause "devastating harm" to the state's healthcare system, and potentially reduce the state's overall blood supply by as much as 80%.
Numark said there is no test available to verify whether the vaccine was in someone's bloodstream, making the bill impossible to comply with if passed into law.
In recent weeks, Vitalant has urged blood donors to come forward amid a shortage that has been worsened by adverse weather. Nationwide, the American Red Cross, which in January 2022 declared its first-ever blood crisis, says that someone in the U.S. needs blood and/or platelets every two seconds.
"Our blood is safe," Vicky Byrd, CEO of the Montana Nurses Association, told lawmakers. "Our scientists and our practitioners, we have to trust them. We know what they're doing."
While COVID-19 patients are barred from donating blood while infected with the virus—primarily because of the precondition for donors to be in "good health" when donating—all blood donation groups and the American Red Cross have maintained that it is safe to donate blood after receiving the vaccine.
"Blood donations from individuals who have received a COVID-19 vaccine approved or authorized for use in the U.S. are safe for transfusion," Red Cross officials told Newsweek in a statement.
"Similar to other vaccines such as those for measles, mumps or influenza, COVID-19 vaccines are designed to generate an immune response to help protect an individual from illness, but vaccine components themselves do not replicate through blood transfusions or alter a blood recipient's DNA."
"In summary, there is no scientific evidence that demonstrates adverse outcomes from the transfusions of blood products collected from vaccinated donors and, therefore, no medical reason to distinguish or separate blood donations from individuals who have received a COVID-19 vaccination," they said.
Though the bill's opponents said there was no evidence to support a ban on vaccinated donors giving blood, the bill's proponents said that was because studies have not yet been done.
From a practical standpoint, Numark said a ban would result in "unnecessary and unconscionable" death.
"This house bill would criminalize the act of attempting to altruistically donate blood," Numark said. "It would decimate the blood supply."
Newsweek reached out to Greg Kmetz for comment.
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lunapwrites · 2 years ago
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tonight, in conversations with my partner:
"can i interest you in some low-calorie protein bars?" "... i mean i guess? if the flavor's good..." "ok so they're called sus bars -- you know, like sustainance--" "i'm sorry, SUS BARS?" "--and they're supposedly only 100 calories." "IDK BABE SOUNDS PRETTY SUS TO ME." "yeah so they describe them as 'similar to marshmallow treats' except the ingredients are like... dairy protein isolate, almonds--" "SUS." "-- chicory root fiber, allulose, coconut oil, cricket protein, soluble tapioca fiber-- "hold on hold on, BACK THE FUCK UP!" "[giggling] what, the tapioca fiber?" "DID YOU SAY CRICKET PROTEIN??" "[fake surprise] what, you don't like it?" "yeah no you UNSOLD me at the BUGS IN THE FUCKING RICE KRISPIES."
which is how we discovered that APPARENTLY if you have a shellfish allergy, you may also be allergic to crickets (because it's included in the allergen list of this ACTUAL PRODUCT.)
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