#is the highlight of my career im glad to have made a character you like so cute you want to share it with others in japan

[umineko-blog]

Beato Sisters!!!!!

[leenaur143]

Bad Lawyer & Crazy Dog, an unconventional love story

JUST FINISHED THE LAST EPISODE OF LAWS OF ATTRACTION!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Okay this is your HUGE spoiler warning because I have so many thoughts and my love for this show knows no bounds but I don't wanna take away from the magic of living it through on your own so go watch it!!!

Overall episode rating: 9.5/10

Overall show rating: 10/10

I was so tempted to take away points for that SILLY GUITAR AND THE SINGING 😭🤣 but it's fine they can't help that they're in love dhhxhdj

So, currently writing this at midnight just after 2/9/2023 which was Tinn and Charn's wedding day!!!!!!! These two goofs have come so far and yeah, couldn't be happier for them 🫶

I took a pause in the middle of the episode to collate my thoughts and here was the list I made about the first half:

1. the mma boxing unconventional fight between tinn and nawin, it was giving 'youtube boxing: worst bits!' but it made me laugh so its fine 😭

2. thee having no one truly there for him except tan - his fellow bodyguards didn't even back him, meaning ever since he started working for tan's family he truly has known no one who cares and loves him deeply which 🥹😭 how did he manage to stay so kind through all that

3. thattep that psychopath.

4. nawin being the best character ever

5. how similar nawin and charn are (one just has a few dozen more braincells than the other

6. how charn planned that entire plot knowing the risks not only to his physical self but knowing he could be risking his entire career but he's ready to do that as we saw when thattep called him to prison 🤧👏

7. the one guy that said you dropped the soap in the prison showers 🥲

8. tan using his annoyingness to his advantage and celebrating being banned from an airline - the most tan thing to do tbh

9. thee and tinn link up AGAIN!!!

10. the wedding talk made me emosh.. the entire proposal (lets ignore the singing but even that wouldnt wipe the huge grin off my face as i was watching it) i love the storyline of the song though (hats off to that tumblr user who explained the story behind the song, this was perfect

11. emotional during the seeking of blessings from charn's mum

12. grandma is a gem 💯

13. maya and rose doing so much to help the people they love - they truly are the MVPs

14. tongkhao's dream living on 🥹 all she wanted on Tinn's birthday was for him to be happy and start a family with someone he loves, and he did it 🥹😭🤧

Also, completely ignore the fact that I skimmed over the whole exposing scene because it was decent but I knew, I just knew Charn wasn't gonna die today and a bullet wouldn't be the thing that ended him so IM GLAD I WAS RIGHT 😭

The wedding! OH THE WEDDING 🥹👏 It was beautiful, just everyone who loves them there and present in form or in spirit - seeing the dolls and knowing Tonkhao was there just 🥹 maybe I'm just an emotional wreck but this episode really got me in my feels

I did laugh my butt off when they were taking wedding photos because why so stiff 😭🤣 It served prom in a nice way WHICH IS FINE it was just looking a bit awkward and hence it was funny 🤭

Also I could write entire essays about Tan's storyline but the fact that he never held any resentment for his dad even after all of THAT is just astounding, and it highlighted how even though Thee and Tan are very different, down to their core values, they're the same which is why they're perfect for each other

Speaking of perfect for each other, seeing Rose and Maya get engaged!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH I WAS SO HAPPY FOR THEMM

When Tinn said 'one day' concerning the conversation about the legality of same sex marriage in Thailand, I got in my feels again as you can probably gather is a common theme here, and I realised how much good shows like this promote.. and yeah I won't waffle on too much about that but it was really powerful 🥹

All in all, if we learnt anything from Laws of Attraction, I'd comfortably say it would be... how to say doll in Thai 🤣 (WHAT? It sounds so amazing! tuktā (pronounced too-ka-ta), it's a much better word!)

No, but seriously, what a show, I'd definitely recommend watching it and I hope, whoever is still reading my midnight rambles, enjoys it as much as I did 🫰

[idk-i-just-really-like-tsc]

Happy New Year ✨✨✨

It’s almost 2023, so let’s celebrate the good things that happened to us in 2022! List ten amazing things that happened to you this year and then send this to ten people who brighten your day!

thank you for the ask this is such a lovely idea and way to show gratitude!

1. I got closer with my friends and made new ones!! Both people here on tumblr and my real friends at college and I’m very thankful for that <3

2. I got to travel a lot and see new places! Traveling is one of my favorite hobby and I was so glad to see so much of the world this year. (tsc related i got to see rome <3 for malec)

3. despite struggling with my mental health i took a LOT of classes and kinda kicked ass in (some of) them yay education

4. I learned more about myself, my values and what I want from my life and I’m excited about that!

5. This is so dumb but watching my tv shows!!! I started watching greys in October, had 911 and 911 lone star throughout the year and shadowhunters is always my show before bed so i can see my good friends the tmi gang <3 in 2023 im going to tally how many times i watch shadowhunters 1x12

6. I got to read a LOT of fanfiction!!! specifically works of @khaleesiofalicante (i love you Dani!!) but fanfiction in itself is so so cool because it gives existing characters a whole new realm and it’s awesome and it’s my coping mechanism.

7. I became even closer to achieving my dreams. Not to be cheesy but i am applying for a Dream internship very very very soon and everything i did this year career wise was really amazing and helped me grow!

8. i think i did a good amount to get out of my comfort zone! even tho it was so scary it did help me grow as well and my 2021 self would NEVER believe what I’ve accomplished!!

9. I realized my worth and have come into myself more! I think knowing yourself is really important and I think I’ve done a good job at establishing who I am (this is similar to #4 but I’m proud of myself) I feel like you can even see this on my blog a bit because I’m not JUST tsc anymore I talk about my life sometimes

10. SOBH!!!!! sobh was one of the highlights of my 2021 and 2022 year and im so thankful for the laughter and the tears it gave me and how much I looked forward to Mondays because of it (and 911!)

here’s to 2023 yay tumblr!!

tagging (sorry if you’ve already been tagged and no pressure!) :

@khaleesiofalicante @becauseshesmiledatme @magnus-the-maqnificent @queenlilith43 @dustandducks @alec-not-alright-wood @tea-and-a-clandestine-agenda @elettralightwood @make-me-ur-aphrodite

Anyone else feel free as well to join!

[thirdtidemouse]

YOU. IM GOING TO GET YOU.😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭i hope you dont mind i showed my friends this comment because it actually made my day... you and the others on hildablr leave the most lovely supportive tags all the time it makes me smile each and every time but holy moly what a treat to open my notifications to😭

it honestly means so much coming from someone of so much talent like your writing is genuinely phenomenal and your fics have been one sucker punch of awesome after another this week.. i havent yet got round to reblogging all of everyone's posts because i want to spend the time to properly comment on each one but it has been the highlight of the past 6 days seeing them pop up😁😆

im so glad you picked up on all that stuff!! i had so much fun breathing in a bit of life with the colours and ofc i had to include vicky and ol eddie who show up a joyful amount in your writing and by god i have to catch up on fireflies over the wall because i dont think iv properly said yet but those two melt my heart you have such a knack for these characters 😢😢😢meiri is the sweetest heart of all

i'm not joking when i say in the ideal future where i keep doing illustration as a career i will remember your comments for ever and ever. making art for myself or for school is great but sharing it with like 5 people online is so inspiring and fun and it motivates me so much to know people actually for real like what i'm doing not just for a grade etc 😭

@sketchbookweek DAY 4 - SECRETS

another late one im so sorry but IT TOOK ALL DAY OK!!! here is a comic for you about johanna and kaisa and growing up a lesbian. they are 14 here in the middle of a pe lesson

i normally prefer sketchbook having just met as adults (fully grown up and still dorky losers) but given they both presumably grew up in trolberg (and depending on kaisa's age) its not unlikely they at least knew each other

im learning to be more experimental and try more sequential stuff... i'm specialising soon in illustration and the tutor showed me some really inspiring student work im enjoying drawing a lot rn *smiley face*

the actual hilda comics are a major inspiration for me i love luke pearsons panels and pacing and everything its so fun to read

i know this is a big one but still it might look rushed bc i have work in the morning (xmas is round the corner and i work in a supermarket god help me...) but wanted to get this one out... i'm still a day behind but there is more in the oven.. peace and love :P

[radiorenjun]

hi! this is so awk and random but i've been a silent reader of ur fics and i just wanna say that i absolutely love ur fics~ i was trying to avoid eine kleine bc it said major character death and i didnt think my heart could take it, BUTTTTTT i caved in and read it anyways and- ITS SO SO SO SO GOOD!!!! i like how it wasnt just from the princess' pov but we got to see glimpses of renjun's thought processes and feelings too. the way the relationship built up and the betrayal at the end was unexpected which made the story so interesting and kept me hooked till the end. i cried ugly tears but who didnt :')

i've also been hooked on 'i dont need it' since the beginning and i've probably re-read them about 5-6 times now bc of how good it is. and no matter how many times i read it, still ugly tears for both jaemin and y/n. i love soulmates au but this just have to take the cake!! i'm so so so in love with ur writings ♡ i hope that you're doing well and yeah, keep up the good work (why do i sound like a teacher wth how do u even encourage someone 😭)

- 🥑

WOAH WAIT IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG I WAS TRYNNA FIND THE RIGHT WORDS TO RESPOND TO THIS. THANK YOU FOR HAVING THE BALLS TO TALK TO ME OML IVE NEVER HAD THIS LONG OF A FEEDBACK IM SO GLAD U LIKED IT OMG EINE KLEINE IS BASICALLY MY PRECIOUS IM GLAD IT WAS WORTH UR TIME. Omg idni it's been so long since I've heard that name deadass that fic was the start of my writing career omg I don't have the balls to reread that out of pure cringe 😭 it was so messy imo but I'm glad u had fun DO INTERACT MORE IN THE FUTURE THO THIS WAS FUN HAVE A GREAT DAY BESTIE

Omg sensei encourage me more im ur student now 🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️ THANK U THO THIS WAS THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY LITERALLY

[bcydbeaulieu]

for @kahlilravishans, my wife’s, bday || part 8 of 8

ok so this is it… the end. this was going to be second but i thought why not end with this. this is where it is going to get a bit emotional… so if you don’t want to hear all the gay that i am about to say then just look at the pretty edit. emily you are not allowed to skip this so buckle up babe… because you know how i can get when i decide i want to gift you some words… ok here we go!

ok so funny story… i wasn’t gonna start out this way but i was going through the early days of our tag and well i wished you a happy bday a year ago.. specifically while you were trying to get through interludes. so can you believe its been a fucking year since icos and our 12 hours skype sessions. those were the days were our relationship grew from “still had some chill” to “are you sure you two aren’t dating” so damn that book series. but seriously just needed to point that out. now here comes my incoherent babbling about how much i love you and how much you really mean to me. 

so, i’m pretty sure everyone knows the story of how me and emily met. god knows we talk about it enough. but it wouldn’t be an emotional emily and laura post if i don’t mention it so lol. i remember it, that february day, oh god. so she idk follows me or finds my blog and at the time i had a neil url and she just starts yelling at me on the chat. that stupid fucking messaging system. and of course i just start screaming back. and in the back of my mind i’m thinking how do i get this nerd girl to keep talking to me about our foxes and really i didn’t have to do much bc we exchanged numbers (she made me get a whatsapp) the next hour. and guys look.. i didn’t do this type of stuff before. i randomly talked to people and the only person i kept in contact with was my irlbff. so emily was not a normal occurrence. but anyways she asked if she could call and my heart was like beating out of my chest cause omfg what the fuck but of course i said yes and that’s how i find myself outside mid day on a february in texas walking around my front yard, my backyard, and yelling about literally everything we had in common at the time. 

now, i thought this girl is awesome and every part of me wanted to keep talking to her but i just knew that we’d talk for a month a few at max and then you know that thing would happen where you just lost connection, even tho i felt like i had just found like part of my soul. 

not what happened. the next week or couple of weeks we had our first skype session.. it lasted 6 hours yall. like who does that with someone they just met. fast forward to late august of 2016 and there we are getting into icos against our better judgement and there its kind of history. with our 12 hour skype sessions. and us eating dinner and breakfast together on opposite ends of the world and in complete different timezones. and i don’t know if something just clicked then cause we were already too close for our situation. but after that it was like i knew that this wasn’t some fluke this was real. and i HAD found a part of my soul. and god that’s cheesy but it’s fucking true. i’d run to the end of the world for this girl. and i’d do it multiple times. 

so that’s part of the story i guess. but i’m not done talking and emily i’m sorry babe but you know how i get i’m gonna write some more here so really buckle up. 

when i say i love you emily, i truly mean it with every part of me. i’ve never had a relationship like i have with you and the ones i had that came close don’t even touch to what we have. you’re so much more than my best friend and i don’t have a word for it and i don’t think words could justify it. but you keep my world spinning sometimes and then others you can make it stop. you are my rock when i need someone to ground me. you are the light in my life when i can’t seem to even get one positive thought in my mind. you support me through everything that i do and truly believe that i can be great at my career and in life in general. and i don’t know where i would be without you. 

you’re a good listener. you give great advice. and sometimes you just help me to stop thinking. you do so much for me and i hope that on the flipside i’m doing everything that i can for you. our relationship isn’t perfect and i’m glad it isn’t im glad that we can talk as honestly as we do and that we don’t keep anything from each other. and sometimes i’m amazed at how honest we can be bc so much of our relationship is over text or phone and its so easy to not say things when you’re not in person. but i would never let myself not be fully myself with you and that comes down to even the parts of me that i don’t want anyone to see. 

i’m also so happy that i’m the person that you talk to even when you don’t want to talk to anyone. i can’t believe i’m that person for someone, that person that even when the world is too much i’m not. that you trust me enough to be that person… it means… literally everything to me. 

you are always the highlight of my day, your snaps, texts, stupid messages, emojis, the fact that we’re each others screensavers. god that is freakin gay wow. i wanted to go through posts and like remember our relationship for the PAST YEAR AND A HALF CAN YOU BELIEVE LOL. but haa its like 55 pages and i don’t think i could summarize the best points cause they’re all just so good. we’re fucking legendary sometimes, you know. god this is a mess. this girl knew there was a hurricane happening in texas before i could tell her and has been the most dramatic about it. so if that says anything. 

“Perhaps it is true that we do not really exist until there is someone there to see us existing, we cannot properly speak until there is someone who can understand what we are saying in essence, we are not wholly alive until we are loved.”

This quote, this fucking quote ok wow. like ya do shit for yourself and you can create your own happiness blah blah like cool but babe sometimes you are the thing that makes me feel alive. and knowing that there is someone out there that loves me as much as i’m 100% you do keeps me going day to day. i’d swim across the damn fucking ocean for you. and one day we’ll get to see each other in person and it’ll probably be the best damn time of our lives and i can’t fucking wait for it bc it’s gonna happen. and we’re gonna road trip with son and yell at each other about music and scream in person about our favorite characters and spend hours reading together and probably some times on our computers not talking, bc honestly half our skype sessions are us just silently soaking in each other’s company and i wouldn’t change that for the world. 

you are without a doubt one of the most important people in my life, if not the most important and i can’t explain how it feels to have someone that knows me as well as you do and to have that in return with you. i love that as our relationship has grown it’s gone from we have all these things in common in fandom to we have certain fandom things in common but our lives are intertwined and even if we had nothing like that in common it wouldn’t matter. i know you have class on wednesday, i know you can’t skype in the early hours of morning but you will take my call. i know you live in the middle of nowhere and it takes like an hour to get to the city. i know your dad is australian but 50% of the time i hear him speak it’s with that terrible american accent. and well here…

The things i know about emily: she hates coffee but she will try every concoction she can to stay awake while reading, she loves her new puppy even though she said she wasn’t that attached, she has way too many comics (this girl set up a store on ebay ok), she is the most indecisive person to ever grace the earth, her books are arranged in alphabetic order correctly but only after i made sure they were correct, she loves rock music and can’t stand pop, she’s one of the most gorgeous people in the world but doesn’t believe it (uhm she should tho), she…. ok i could go on forever and i can never do those questions on tumblr bc i know everything about her. 

omg this should prob end soon, but like ok emily this is just a mess and i’m sorry but just if you didn’t know i love you more than anything and i hope you have a wonderful day and that we have many more bdays of yours to celebrate even when you don’t want to celebrate them. i’m so glad that you messaged me that day bc there would be a hole in my life without you. you’re amazing, incredible, outstanding, kind, hilarious, an asshole, and like my soulmate. also i’m listening to stand by me while writing this (the power rangers version) so just… i’m about to cry with how much you mean. 

to emily: i love you i love you i love you. and i will love you until the stars i’m looking at now and the ones you will see when you’re reading this can be looked at while we sit with each other outside one of our houses. and i will keep loving you through the distance and the ocean and the fights and the tears and the stubbornness of the world for not letting us be closer in the first place. you have undoubtedly changed my life for the better. you have made me a better person. more confident, happier, and somehow calm. there are days when you make my heart race (gay) and days when you make me still. (raven cycle much). you are my person (lol grey’s) and you are the first person i think of in any situation (laura no we don’t want to hear about this emily girl in australia). so baby girl, again i hope you have the best day and obviously the best life and i’m just so glad that i get to be a part of it even from so far away. i love you (to the moon and back and all that shit) <3

Oh, won’t you take me from this valley To that mountain high above? I will pray, pray, pray Until I see your smiling face. I will pray, pray, pray To the one I love.

[relationshipadviser-blog]

Louise Redknapp: Strictly put the fire back in my belly but it didnt break up my relationship

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Louise Redknapp: Strictly put the fire back in my belly but it didnt break up my relationship

For 19 years, the former Eternal star gave up everything to play housewife to her famous footballer husband. So what does it feel like to have walked out on that life and reinvented herself?

The night before I meet Louise Redknapp, I go to see her in her latest West End show, 9 to 5 The Musical. She plays Violet, the character made famous by Lili Tomlin in the classic 1980 film, and in many ways the most obviously feminist character in the story. Redknapp herself is very enjoyable to watch, stomping around the stage, furiously pointing out that men get promotions for laughing at the bosss jokes while she is not even thanked for making the coffee. But, not long ago, this casting would have seemed bizarre.

Redknapp has been in the public eye for a quarter of a century, but she has never exactly been associated with feminism. After studying at the Italia Conti stage school, Louise Nurding, as she was then known, shot to fame at the age of 18 in the early 90s girl group Eternal, and then cemented her celebrity status by achieving that ultimate 90s ambition, marrying a footballer Jamie Redknapp, the son of manager Harry. Their telegenic union the pretty pop star and equally pretty sports star predated the Beckhams, but the Redknapps were a less flashy proposition. When their first child was born, in 2004, she quit her by then solo music career to live in what she frequently described as domestic bliss. Redknapp came across as sweet, unthreatening and a bit bland, and seemed destined for a contented life as a Surrey housewife with her two sons, Charley, now 14, and Beau, 10, living among the footballing dynasty. But then, in 2017, Redknapp did something that no one expected: she walked out of her marriage.

I meet Redknapp, 44, in a room in the Savoy hotel in London, just above the theatre where she is appearing in 9 to 5. As well as performing tonight, she will spend the afternoon finishing work on her upcoming album, Heavy Love, her first in 18 years, which will be released in October. Whatever emotional toll her divorce which was finalised in December 2017 has exacted on her, it has certainly motivated, or freed, her professionally.

Redknapp as Violet Newstead (centre) with Natalie McQueen and Amber Davies in 9 to 5 The Musical. Photograph: Simon Turtle

In tight black trousers, ankle boots and a loose dark top, her hair long and highlighted in various shades of gold and auburn, she looks almost identical to how she did in her pop heyday. She embraces me with the easy warmth of one who is very practised in the art of making strangers like her.

Did you see the show last night? Did you like it? Its fun, right? Oh good, Im so glad. You liked it, right? she says with more nervousness than I had expected: she was the one, after all, who chose a new storyline, and walked away.

We talk about the show, and Redknapp eagerly brings up how timely its revival is, off the back of the #MeToo movement. She insists she never experienced any sexual harassment when she was working as a 90s pop star and appearing in mens magazines: Maybe because I was so young, she suggests, which isnt the most credible reason. Or maybe because [Eternal] were so successful so quickly, so the record company cocooned us, she adds, which seems more plausible.

And yet she does feel a personal connection to 9 to 5: You know, its about female empowerment and I think Im at a stage of my life when I really need that, to stand up and be strong, she says.

Although Redknapp makes frequent references during our conversation to her gang of girlfriends, seeing her onstage the night before was the first time I had seen her surrounded by women since her Eternal days. For the past 20 years, whenever she was photographed she was invariably with her husband. I tell her it always surprised me that she was never part of the group of high-profile wives and girlfriends of other footballers, given how ready-made she seemed for that role. But she was never photographed out having a laugh with Colleen Rooney and Cheryl Cole. I think Jamie, being that slightly bit more old school, didnt want any of that. His sport is what comes first, no circus around it. So I just kept to myself, she says.

When Redknapp confirmed, in September 2017, that her seemingly perfect marriage was over, the circus around the two of them could hardly have been more hysterical. While the British public is very used to footballers leaving their wives, no one seemed to know what to make of the narrative being reversed.

It was more mutual than that but, yes, I moved out, she says, carefully, when I ask if she initiated the divorce. She was followed by battalions of paparazzi every night and the celebrity press tutted at her late nights on the town (to the theatre, where, at the time, she was starring in Cabaret).

With Jamie Redknapp in 2010, seven years before they split up. Photograph: Paul Grover/Rex/Shutterstock

At around the same time, Wayne Rooney was accused, again, of infidelity when he was caught drink driving with a young woman who was not his wife. But whereas Rooneys actions were treated with a benign just-Wayne-being-Wayne shrug by the public, Redknapp was nationally castigated for having a midlife crisis and abandoning her children. Did she notice the disparity between the coverage of the two stories?

I did. I felt it. And I felt really, really bullied. It made me want to scream. Just because I went back to work and my marriage wasnt working out doesnt mean I wasnt with my kids, she says with a rod of fury in her voice. And, yeah, when I was in Cabaret I wasnt putting them to bed every night, but its no different to a man in the City working late.

Or Jamie doing late-night football commentary? Yeah, on A League of Their Own. Jamie would then take the kids on holiday and the papers would say: Oh, what an amazing dad. And he is an amazing dad; I cannot say a bad word about Jamie when it comes to being a dad. But no one patted me on the back when Id taken the kids on Easter holiday on my own for the past 10 years. Jamie had to work doing the football, it was school holidays, so Id take them on holiday and never once did anyone say: What a great mum. It was really tough sitting back and not speaking up.

There was such widespread bafflement at Redknapps decision to leave her marriage that there was inevitable speculation about why. Many cited Strictly Come Dancing, on which Redknapp had appeared the previous year, and its record of ending relationships. Strictly put the fire back in my belly, but it didnt break up my relationship. After 20 years of marriage, it takes a lot more than that, scoffs Redknapp.

It was also suggested that Redknapp was having an affair with the model Daisy Lowe, who had appeared on Strictly with her. Redknapp reels back against the sofa when I mention this.

I really think the double standards were coming into play there, she says. Because people were adamant there had to be a specific reason for you leaving your husband? She nods: Yeah, and Daisy and I only went out together four times or something. So the idea [that I left my husband for Lowe] I remember my kids saying: Mum, are you going out with Daisy Lowe? And I had to say: Guys, no. I became peoples morning entertainment while they read their paper on the train and ate their croissant. I tried to laugh it off, but the damage these stories were doing to me and those around me was huge.

Redknapp or Louise Nurding as she was then with her Eternal bandmates in 1994. Photograph: Tony Larkin/Rex/Shutterstock

In order to understand the end of a marriage it is necessary to understand its beginnings and, for all the lurid speculation, the path that led the Redknapps to divorce was all too prosaic. When they married in 1998, she was at least as big a star as him, but she happily gave up her music career to be a wife and mother: It took me so long to get pregnant the first time four years so I was just so in love with my little boy, she says. And, for the first seven or eight years, it was quite nice to not have to worry about where your records going, or if people like you. But as time went on, Id drop the kids off at school, go home, walk the dogs and then go home and think: I have five hours until school pick-up. Thats a long day. It was fine when they were young, because Id pick them up at 12. Then it changed; theyre at school and doing sport, Jamie was doing his thing, and there was pure panic. I was lonely and I felt like I had nothing to say.

Redknapp and her ex-husband have been careful in speaking only positively of one another throughout their divorce, but hints of other narratives shine through the cracks. She refers to him as a family man and their marriage as traditional, and while he grew up in a close, old-fashioned family, she was the daughter of a very independent working mum, and, yes, maybe subconsciously, she agrees, that might have created some problems between them. She was not a football fan (No, never, she says, firmly and proudly), so I ask if it was ever a tiny bit dull being ensconced with the Redknapps, given that her then husband, father-in-law and husbands cousin, Frank Lampard, are all football royalty. I think I just got used to it, she says with a winning smile.

Redknapps explanation about the split is that she had low self-esteem and didnt feel able to say she wanted to start working again, and in no way was that her ex-husbands fault. I wish Id spoken up and said how I felt, but I thought everyone would think I was nuts and say: Why are you low? Look at you, youre so lucky.

But if you had spoken up, would Jamie have been OK with you going back on the stage and in the studio? She pauses: I dont know. But at least Id have known I tried, she says.

So it was easier to leave than to say anything? Her voice drops: Maybe. We women dont make it easy for ourselves.

Given Strictlys record of ending relationships, I ask if she agreed to be on the show because she saw it as a way out of her marriage. You know, I like to think no. I like to think not at all. I think I just went into Strictly looking for something to do.

These days, Jamie still lives in the Surrey family home and Redknapp is a few minutes away and they share custody of their children. It is clear that she feels liberated by her divorce, so I ask if she plans to revert to her maiden name. She looks poleaxed by the suggestion. Ummm no. Its such a mum thing, but the thought of not having the same name as my kids, I could cry thinking about it. But maybe if Jamie gets married Id have to change it I dont know how that works, she says with an anxious giggle.

This leads us to talking about dating, and whereas Jamie has been photographed with several women, Redknapp has remained single. Its really hard for women. Im beginning to think Im never going to meet anyone Ive not been out for a meal, just me and a guy in a restaurant, in two years. That makes me sound really sad, doesnt it?

It takes a while to get over a 19-year marriage. Yeah, I think its easier for men, she says.

With her dance partner Kevin Clifton on Strictly Come Dancing in 2016. Photograph: PA/Guy Levy/BBC

It doesnt upset her when she sees her ex-husband out with other women (But, yes, of course, its hard for the boys. I tell them, Dads a single man and hes doing nothing wrong, she says). Sometimes, though, it is a bit strange. The day before we meet, he was photographed with the British model Lizzie Bowden, who was widely described in the press as a Louise Redknapp lookalike. It is kinda weird! And then I start looking at them thinking, Do they look like me? But hes got his taste, she says with a shrug.

I like Redknapp. Yes, she has that tendency, common to graduates of stage school, of affecting immediate intimacy, but there is an emotional honesty to her that is almost certainly born from the ordeal of the past two years. It is impossible not to cheer for a woman who for so long was defined in relation to others first a pop group, then a husband taking the risk to strike out on her own. And although many were surprised when she left her high-profile marriage, there has long been a more independent streak in her than her hotter-than-average girl-next-door image suggested. She did, after all, leave Eternal in 1995 after their hugely successful debut album to launch her solo career.

Id just had enough, she says. We were very different and had different directions. We werent harmonised. Girl bands are tough.

Does she mean they were fighting? Not fighting, just, um, different, she says, diplomatically.

She talks excitedly about her plans for the next decade: more albums, more musicals, and, of course, bringing up two teenagers.

But what Id really like to do is buy the rights to a movie and produce a stage show from it, she says.

Any in particular? Thelma and Louise, she replies, and smiles.

Louise Redknapps new single, Stretch, is out now. She appears in 9 to 5 The Musical until 29 June

Read more: http://www.theguardian.com/us

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Louise Redknapp: Strictly put the fire back in my belly but it didnt break up my relationship

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Louise Redknapp: Strictly put the fire back in my belly but it didnt break up my relationship

For 19 years, the former Eternal star gave up everything to play housewife to her famous footballer husband. So what does it feel like to have walked out on that life and reinvented herself?

The night before I meet Louise Redknapp, I go to see her in her latest West End show, 9 to 5 The Musical. She plays Violet, the character made famous by Lili Tomlin in the classic 1980 film, and in many ways the most obviously feminist character in the story. Redknapp herself is very enjoyable to watch, stomping around the stage, furiously pointing out that men get promotions for laughing at the bosss jokes while she is not even thanked for making the coffee. But, not long ago, this casting would have seemed bizarre.

Redknapp has been in the public eye for a quarter of a century, but she has never exactly been associated with feminism. After studying at the Italia Conti stage school, Louise Nurding, as she was then known, shot to fame at the age of 18 in the early 90s girl group Eternal, and then cemented her celebrity status by achieving that ultimate 90s ambition, marrying a footballer Jamie Redknapp, the son of manager Harry. Their telegenic union the pretty pop star and equally pretty sports star predated the Beckhams, but the Redknapps were a less flashy proposition. When their first child was born, in 2004, she quit her by then solo music career to live in what she frequently described as domestic bliss. Redknapp came across as sweet, unthreatening and a bit bland, and seemed destined for a contented life as a Surrey housewife with her two sons, Charley, now 14, and Beau, 10, living among the footballing dynasty. But then, in 2017, Redknapp did something that no one expected: she walked out of her marriage.

I meet Redknapp, 44, in a room in the Savoy hotel in London, just above the theatre where she is appearing in 9 to 5. As well as performing tonight, she will spend the afternoon finishing work on her upcoming album, Heavy Love, her first in 18 years, which will be released in October. Whatever emotional toll her divorce which was finalised in December 2017 has exacted on her, it has certainly motivated, or freed, her professionally.

Redknapp as Violet Newstead (centre) with Natalie McQueen and Amber Davies in 9 to 5 The Musical. Photograph: Simon Turtle

In tight black trousers, ankle boots and a loose dark top, her hair long and highlighted in various shades of gold and auburn, she looks almost identical to how she did in her pop heyday. She embraces me with the easy warmth of one who is very practised in the art of making strangers like her.

Did you see the show last night? Did you like it? Its fun, right? Oh good, Im so glad. You liked it, right? she says with more nervousness than I had expected: she was the one, after all, who chose a new storyline, and walked away.

We talk about the show, and Redknapp eagerly brings up how timely its revival is, off the back of the #MeToo movement. She insists she never experienced any sexual harassment when she was working as a 90s pop star and appearing in mens magazines: Maybe because I was so young, she suggests, which isnt the most credible reason. Or maybe because [Eternal] were so successful so quickly, so the record company cocooned us, she adds, which seems more plausible.

And yet she does feel a personal connection to 9 to 5: You know, its about female empowerment and I think Im at a stage of my life when I really need that, to stand up and be strong, she says.

Although Redknapp makes frequent references during our conversation to her gang of girlfriends, seeing her onstage the night before was the first time I had seen her surrounded by women since her Eternal days. For the past 20 years, whenever she was photographed she was invariably with her husband. I tell her it always surprised me that she was never part of the group of high-profile wives and girlfriends of other footballers, given how ready-made she seemed for that role. But she was never photographed out having a laugh with Colleen Rooney and Cheryl Cole. I think Jamie, being that slightly bit more old school, didnt want any of that. His sport is what comes first, no circus around it. So I just kept to myself, she says.

When Redknapp confirmed, in September 2017, that her seemingly perfect marriage was over, the circus around the two of them could hardly have been more hysterical. While the British public is very used to footballers leaving their wives, no one seemed to know what to make of the narrative being reversed.

It was more mutual than that but, yes, I moved out, she says, carefully, when I ask if she initiated the divorce. She was followed by battalions of paparazzi every night and the celebrity press tutted at her late nights on the town (to the theatre, where, at the time, she was starring in Cabaret).

With Jamie Redknapp in 2010, seven years before they split up. Photograph: Paul Grover/Rex/Shutterstock

At around the same time, Wayne Rooney was accused, again, of infidelity when he was caught drink driving with a young woman who was not his wife. But whereas Rooneys actions were treated with a benign just-Wayne-being-Wayne shrug by the public, Redknapp was nationally castigated for having a midlife crisis and abandoning her children. Did she notice the disparity between the coverage of the two stories?

I did. I felt it. And I felt really, really bullied. It made me want to scream. Just because I went back to work and my marriage wasnt working out doesnt mean I wasnt with my kids, she says with a rod of fury in her voice. And, yeah, when I was in Cabaret I wasnt putting them to bed every night, but its no different to a man in the City working late.

Or Jamie doing late-night football commentary? Yeah, on A League of Their Own. Jamie would then take the kids on holiday and the papers would say: Oh, what an amazing dad. And he is an amazing dad; I cannot say a bad word about Jamie when it comes to being a dad. But no one patted me on the back when Id taken the kids on Easter holiday on my own for the past 10 years. Jamie had to work doing the football, it was school holidays, so Id take them on holiday and never once did anyone say: What a great mum. It was really tough sitting back and not speaking up.

There was such widespread bafflement at Redknapps decision to leave her marriage that there was inevitable speculation about why. Many cited Strictly Come Dancing, on which Redknapp had appeared the previous year, and its record of ending relationships. Strictly put the fire back in my belly, but it didnt break up my relationship. After 20 years of marriage, it takes a lot more than that, scoffs Redknapp.

It was also suggested that Redknapp was having an affair with the model Daisy Lowe, who had appeared on Strictly with her. Redknapp reels back against the sofa when I mention this.

I really think the double standards were coming into play there, she says. Because people were adamant there had to be a specific reason for you leaving your husband? She nods: Yeah, and Daisy and I only went out together four times or something. So the idea [that I left my husband for Lowe] I remember my kids saying: Mum, are you going out with Daisy Lowe? And I had to say: Guys, no. I became peoples morning entertainment while they read their paper on the train and ate their croissant. I tried to laugh it off, but the damage these stories were doing to me and those around me was huge.

Redknapp or Louise Nurding as she was then with her Eternal bandmates in 1994. Photograph: Tony Larkin/Rex/Shutterstock

In order to understand the end of a marriage it is necessary to understand its beginnings and, for all the lurid speculation, the path that led the Redknapps to divorce was all too prosaic. When they married in 1998, she was at least as big a star as him, but she happily gave up her music career to be a wife and mother: It took me so long to get pregnant the first time four years so I was just so in love with my little boy, she says. And, for the first seven or eight years, it was quite nice to not have to worry about where your records going, or if people like you. But as time went on, Id drop the kids off at school, go home, walk the dogs and then go home and think: I have five hours until school pick-up. Thats a long day. It was fine when they were young, because Id pick them up at 12. Then it changed; theyre at school and doing sport, Jamie was doing his thing, and there was pure panic. I was lonely and I felt like I had nothing to say.

Redknapp and her ex-husband have been careful in speaking only positively of one another throughout their divorce, but hints of other narratives shine through the cracks. She refers to him as a family man and their marriage as traditional, and while he grew up in a close, old-fashioned family, she was the daughter of a very independent working mum, and, yes, maybe subconsciously, she agrees, that might have created some problems between them. She was not a football fan (No, never, she says, firmly and proudly), so I ask if it was ever a tiny bit dull being ensconced with the Redknapps, given that her then husband, father-in-law and husbands cousin, Frank Lampard, are all football royalty. I think I just got used to it, she says with a winning smile.

Redknapps explanation about the split is that she had low self-esteem and didnt feel able to say she wanted to start working again, and in no way was that her ex-husbands fault. I wish Id spoken up and said how I felt, but I thought everyone would think I was nuts and say: Why are you low? Look at you, youre so lucky.

But if you had spoken up, would Jamie have been OK with you going back on the stage and in the studio? She pauses: I dont know. But at least Id have known I tried, she says.

So it was easier to leave than to say anything? Her voice drops: Maybe. We women dont make it easy for ourselves.

Given Strictlys record of ending relationships, I ask if she agreed to be on the show because she saw it as a way out of her marriage. You know, I like to think no. I like to think not at all. I think I just went into Strictly looking for something to do.

These days, Jamie still lives in the Surrey family home and Redknapp is a few minutes away and they share custody of their children. It is clear that she feels liberated by her divorce, so I ask if she plans to revert to her maiden name. She looks poleaxed by the suggestion. Ummm no. Its such a mum thing, but the thought of not having the same name as my kids, I could cry thinking about it. But maybe if Jamie gets married Id have to change it I dont know how that works, she says with an anxious giggle.

This leads us to talking about dating, and whereas Jamie has been photographed with several women, Redknapp has remained single. Its really hard for women. Im beginning to think Im never going to meet anyone Ive not been out for a meal, just me and a guy in a restaurant, in two years. That makes me sound really sad, doesnt it?

It takes a while to get over a 19-year marriage. Yeah, I think its easier for men, she says.

With her dance partner Kevin Clifton on Strictly Come Dancing in 2016. Photograph: PA/Guy Levy/BBC

It doesnt upset her when she sees her ex-husband out with other women (But, yes, of course, its hard for the boys. I tell them, Dads a single man and hes doing nothing wrong, she says). Sometimes, though, it is a bit strange. The day before we meet, he was photographed with the British model Lizzie Bowden, who was widely described in the press as a Louise Redknapp lookalike. It is kinda weird! And then I start looking at them thinking, Do they look like me? But hes got his taste, she says with a shrug.

I like Redknapp. Yes, she has that tendency, common to graduates of stage school, of affecting immediate intimacy, but there is an emotional honesty to her that is almost certainly born from the ordeal of the past two years. It is impossible not to cheer for a woman who for so long was defined in relation to others first a pop group, then a husband taking the risk to strike out on her own. And although many were surprised when she left her high-profile marriage, there has long been a more independent streak in her than her hotter-than-average girl-next-door image suggested. She did, after all, leave Eternal in 1995 after their hugely successful debut album to launch her solo career.

Id just had enough, she says. We were very different and had different directions. We werent harmonised. Girl bands are tough.

Does she mean they were fighting? Not fighting, just, um, different, she says, diplomatically.

She talks excitedly about her plans for the next decade: more albums, more musicals, and, of course, bringing up two teenagers.

But what Id really like to do is buy the rights to a movie and produce a stage show from it, she says.

Any in particular? Thelma and Louise, she replies, and smiles.

Louise Redknapps new single, Stretch, is out now. She appears in 9 to 5 The Musical until 29 June

Read more: http://www.theguardian.com/us

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‘Devilish Joy’ boasts of familiar faces, great acting, beautiful cinematography, a mix of romcom plus melodrama despite being a bag of cliches.

This recently completed series from MBN has captured my heart by its heartwarming story that started from love at first meet and miraculously ended happily without much complications in the story line. Though it’s filled with bordering cringey sweet romance that will definitely result to a toothache, you won’t be able to get enough of each episode.

The Story

This drama is about a genius doctor who has “Cinderella Memory Syndrome” and falls in love with a has-been actress.

Gong Ma Sung (Choi Jin Hyuk) is the successor to the Sunwoo company and is a genius doctor that excels in his field that involves the human mind. He is well respected by many and is known widely in the world.

However, on his trip to Hainan he meets a woman whom he falls in love with. He spends the entire day with her until she has to leave. They promised to meet again an hour after they parted, but Ma Sung isn’t able to keep his promise after getting involved in an accident that changes his life completely.

He loses the ability to remember what has happened to him in a day after he’s gone to sleep at night and the next day it’s as if yesterday didn’t happen. To cope with his daily living as Gong Ma Sung and memorize what happened the day before, he makes sure to note every important event from that one day into his journal and reads his notes the day after.

One day, however, he meets Joo Gi Bbeum, a has-been actress and singer that was loved by all three years ago. Her career fell apart because of a false accusation of murder that turned her into the most hated person in just one day. Since then, Gi Bbeum has been living a hard life trying to bring bread and butter to her family’s table despite her life still continuously crumbling because of her unfortunate fate.

Once their worlds collide, Ma Sung realizes that even if a day or two or three days has passed, he remembers this one face that won’t seem to go away. Her. And as he tries to remember her and figure out who Gi Bbeum really is, Ma Sung falls in love with her.

  But how do you love someone when you will end up forgetting this person? And how do you love a person who keeps forgetting you? Heartbreaks are bound to happen, but is it worth taking the risk?

Review:

The Good

Despite a mix of cliche themes in the story, it pleasantly managed to surpass my expectations. They used the poor girl and rich chaebol trope really well and it has effectively managed to create conflicts that people can sympathize with. It gave the female protagonist, Joo Gi Bbeum, a really good lesson about life, that despite her A-level status before, she didn’t turn out to be one of those annoying has-been actresses that still has their noses up despite their unlikely style of living. It gave her more dimension and it showed us a vulnerable side of her despite her toughened exterior.

On the other hand, Gong Ma Sung was a really perfect man when Gi Bbeum met him in Hainan, but because of his mental condition, he felt more human to me. Despite his prickly personality that keeps him alive while being surrounded by vipers, it made Ma Sung more vulnerable when he’s by himself. All throughout the drama, I felt all his emotions while going through the hardship of facing his illness alone as his world has it forced on him.

The build up of their story wasn’t abrupt. It has gone through a really hard process that will make you believe they are so in love with each other because of what they went through together despite disappointments in the relationship–being stood up in dates, secrets, and when you know soon enough your boyfriend is not going to remember you–and struggles because of their personal troubles–villains trying to bring your life to bedrock bottom, an aunt who’s just waiting for you to be dead, and a million anti-fans.

It has gone from really romantic, to comedy and then full throttle drama that will wear out your tear ducts and will really make you think whether their love is really hopeless or by some miracle it’s still gonna be a happy ending. I’m just glad that despite the unrealistic turn of events, the drama opted for the ‘happy ever after’ the character deserves, wherein Gi Bbeum pursues her dreams of getting herself out there in front of the camera  and gaining back her popularity despite her longing for Ma Sung, instead of wallowing in her misery after a lost love and not doing anything to uplift her family’s living condition. It’s also good that Ma Sung is recovering from his illness, but that they didn’t completely make him fully recover from it, but at least that there is hope he would and he’ll be healthier.

Let’s not forget the interesting plot as a whole. You get a whole package that’s gripping until the end, and that you won’t easily get tired of. Plus, it has done really beautiful cinematography that all throughout the scenes are food to the eyes. Each of them situated at really good spots thoughtfully decided on to give more highlight to important events especially for a sweet kiss, a reconciliation or meeting after so long. The songs are really cute and catchy too.

And let me tell you, you will definitely get enough of the kisses you don’t see in other dramas. It’s to the point you’d wonder whether they are truly dating because it’s as natural as real couples would do. With raw emotions displayed by the actors, you’d be touched by what unconditional and timeless love really is.

As a bonus from the drama, though Gi BBeum’s drunk father’s poetry seemed misplaced in the beginning of the drama, he managed to create poems that are befitting to the mood of some scenes and made them even more touching or poignant to a point it would make your heart cry. It was as if I am somehow watching  ‘A Poem A Day’ all over again.

The Bad

I have a lot of praises for this drama. However, talking about shortcomings of course this one has it’s own share:

The villains are portrayed as one dimensional characters: as examples, Kim Beom Soo and Ma Sung’s aunt are shown as really bad people that only wishes bad things to both protagonist. They don’t show any other kind of emotions like guilt or sorrow and doesn’t have a rich backstory as to why they hate Ma Sung or Gi Bbeum with a passion

Though it’s nice the conflicts with the bad guys are resolved without complications, I felt like it is so good to be true that it is done fast and without struggle, that there are times when I wondered whether they will somehow appear somewhere at the ending, but of course they didn’t. Plus, it’s as if they aren’t punished enough after all the bad things they’ve done. They easily got away from killing someone by getting locked up and the story being vague as to what happened to them after that.

I’ve also expressed disbelief with some takes of the story to sort out matters: (1) Sung Ki Joon is like a ball of sunshine that’s ultimately the definition of immature, that’s why I still question how he’s able to run Sunwoo group in a year without plummeting; (2) How Dr. Yoon is able to treat Ma Sung despite of his deteriorating health that made us all think he was gonna die, when he isn’t able to do anything like that as a doctor in the beginning of the story; (3) How Ma Sung is able to recover when they’ve described his condition as something degenerative like ‘dementia’

I think that a relationship should always be a trusting one, so I didn’t like it that Ma Sung kept things from Gi Bbeum even when she knew already of his condition. He should have at least been honest when he’s in pain so that she could care for him when nobody’s there for him, because that’s what a relationship is. It is a two way road where two people share all their happiness and pains. If a relationship isn’t a give or take thin and only flourishes in joy, then how will it withstand extreme hardship in the future, right? I mean, I get it that Ma Sung grew up doing everything on his own that’s why he must have acted as if he should carry his own burden, but what does that make the other party feel? Insignificant because she didn’t even know he’s about to die? Well, anyway that’s just my take on this part of their relationship.

Characters

All of the good characters has portrayed a flawed side that really made them more relatable and three dimensional unlike the villains who were rather one dimensional. This is nice to know even though you can tell the writer’s biased opinion about their characters. Protagonists are given more importance while the villains are left unpolished. Not saying it’s super bad to the point it sucked, but I think even villains deserve a back story and a real reason why they are doing things.

Nonetheless, besides Gi Bbeum and Ma Sung, I came to love Gi Bbeum’s family, Nan Joo, Woo Jin, Ki Joon and Ha Im, especially as their personalities evolved as the story progressed and as I came to understand the magnitude of their care for both protagonists and warmth they showed outside their more unlikable traits displayed during the first few episodes.

Acting

I believe that the drama is able to shine because of Choi Jin Hyuk’s superb portrayal of Gong Ma Sung’s character and how he’s able to show layers of his personality throughout and also Song Ha Yoon’s acting that made Joo Gi Bbeum as relatable and touching as she can be. The raw emotions she displayed felt all real that not a single moment with her went dull. She’s a really good actress and hopefully she gets more lead roles like this that will show her different colors.

Ending

The ending is really good for people like me who loves happy endings. It has given justice to the frustration I felt while watching their romance unfold and fall apart continuously. Plus, I really like how Ma Sung didn’t fully recover from his illness, it keeps things more at bay and not overly done when everything else is already ‘overly’ made, yet they also give us hope that he will recover soon and that to keep it that way, Ma Sung and Gi Bbeum marries each other week after week (since Ma Sung allegedly always forgets he’s already married to her). It gives a dreamy feel to their relationship, which is perhaps still in the honeymoon phase. But admittedly, it feels unrealistic to hold a wedding of their caliber each week, not unless your chaebol like Ma Sung. If that happened to ordinary people I think one could only dream. Yet, the concept is refreshing just like their enduring relationship that goes beyond borders.

Someone more realistic, however, will take this ending wrongly. I mean, it’s too good to be true. It takes away the rawness of Ma Sung’s situation wherein we’re already shown the fact he has a degenerative mental disease showing signs like dementia and that in reality a person cannot recover from that. Pallative treatment is perhaps the best solution to these kind of people and yet by some miracle Ma Sung is going to recover from it? Wow. That’s the power of fiction. Really. Anything can happen, but it’s as unrealistic as it can get. It would be more believable if he just went senile and Gi Bbeum still loves him and cares for him, but I know either way, people won’t be happy as well with this kind of ending. So, better yet just stick to the happy ending, right?

And well, that surprise at the ending is a real icebreaker. lol. Watch it to find out what I’m talking about!

Rating:

Cliche, but raw and beautiful unconditional love story to the finest. So, I’m giving it 4.3 out of 5.

      [Completed] Drama Review on ‘Devilish Joy’ 'Devilish Joy' boasts of familiar faces, great acting, beautiful cinematography, a mix of romcom plus melodrama despite being a bag of cliches.

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Thank you for your audition, MANDY. We are thrilled to welcome you into the group as the Third Berry who you have chosen to name ISABELLA MARIA, with the faceclaim of Lea Michele, and we truly cannot wait to meet them. Please send in your account in the next 24 hours, and read over the new members checklist before sending in your link.

ALL ABOUT YOU ➝

Mandy, 25, PST, She/Her

YOUR ACTIVITY ➝

7/10, since Im in my last year of college and I will have finals coming up along with other rps.

ANYTHING TO ADD? ➝

Same as Matthew’s & Sawyer’s!

YOUR CHARACTER ➝

Isabella “Issy”/“Bella” Maria Berry FC: Lea Michele

AGE, ORDER & BIRTHDAY ➝

Age: 22,  December 18th. Isabella is the third quint born in the Berry family.

GRADE & MAJOR ➝

Grade: Junior, Major:  Graphic Design with a minor in Publishing Arts and .

SEXUAL & ROMANTIC ORIENTATION ➝

Sexual: Bisexual Romantic Orientation: Biromantic

BIOGRAPHY ➝

Isabella wasn’t for sure what to think being born into the spotlight, since she felt like they needed her to put on a show or something for them. Over time, she had learn to be on her best behavior since she wanted to make sure that the  to be on her best behavior throughout her childhood since she didn’t want to ruin her fathers and grandmother’s reputation. She gathered that people would get her and her siblings mixed up, which didnt hurt her none because she loved her sisters. Even though she felt like she was the black sheep of the family.

Granted, she still had her manners that LeRoy and Hiram installed their children, but one thing she was worried about was fading into the background. When she was growing up, she remembered  having a hard time staying out of trouble with having paparazzi following her every move and keeping her nose clean. However, being the tom boy of the family had its ups and downs. She would ride motorcycles, ninja bikes when she was older and wanted to join the motocross team along with being a graphic designer for her high school yearbook. If you saw dirt trails leading up to the Berry household, that was from Isabella and she was proud of them. She would often play the guitar or even sing some tune, so that way she would balance out her academic side and her new found love for music.

As she grew up, she found it hard to live in the spotlight. When Isabella was in middle school, she had told her dads that she had a Motocross event but sometimes they couldnt make it. She would get her hopes up, but then all of them were shattered by the end of the event. All of the kids were calling Isabella, the “forgotten” Berry and it stuck with her until they showed up for her national basketball championship game her freshman year. During high school, she found detention to be her second home away from home. It seemed like every day around lunch time, she would be defending her sisters and protecting the Berry name and would be sent to the office because of her mouth. She was quickly labeled the trouble child but she was lucky enough to have her childhood best friend by her side the entire time. She would escape from the house, and sleep over at his house until the morning where she would sneak out of his house.

During the summer between her junior and senior year of high school, Isabella had discovered she was pregnant with her best friend’s child and didn’t know what to do. She didn’t want the pregnancy to be leaked to the press, so when her parents found out, they sent Isabella to Vancouver, Canada and made sure that they were careful. She  knew that she couldn’t raise her child, knowing that she would become a teen mom but she knew bette so she had found a loving family  who had tried to get pregnant but she couldn’t. So after meeting them, Silas and she had agreed to do an open adoption between the parents.  She had become a Canadian resident, despite still going to school in America. Isabella gave birth to a healthy baby girl, Lyric Aria Faith Russo who was born on April 4th 2014, four months after her 18th birthday. After the pregnancy, Silas and she flew back to Los Angeles to walk with their class at graduation. There were a lot of rumors that Silas didn’t want the open adoption but Isabella figured this was better than instead of the baby growing up in the spotlight and that way they could make sure Lyric had a loving home. Isabella went through a period where she didn’t want to get up, until Hiram introduced her into the things she once loved. The summer after she graduated, she went to a camp where she could build up her motocross career and graphic design. After a while, she was becoming her old self again and broke up with Silas shortly after she found out that he was cheating on her. She packed her bags, and headed backed to Canada, knowing that she could be close to Lyric while she could put her life together.

When she heard about Pacific “Privilege” State, she wasn’t so certain if that was for her but the more she looked into it. The more she liked it and wanted to go there, but due to her crazy schedules, she couldn’t attend personally so she signed up for a few online classes to see what it would like. After a while, she fell in love with the school and packed up her bags after she found out that her sisters were attending. Once she arrived, she liked the atmosphere and glad that it was refreshing. However, she couldn’t attend classes since she didn’t have her visa but luckily enough, she gotten her visa right before the deadlines were for school. During her sophomore year, she fell in love with a girl named Lacey and experienced a whole new world with her. She fell into the bad crowd but she didn’t care because for once. She could care less what people thought about her except for Lyric’s adoptive parents. So now she’s struggling to get out of the rabbit hole but apart of her doesn’t want to get out of the rabbit hole. She had also found an underground street racing scene, where she had fallen in love with it and would often go to the fights that they have.

AESTHETIC ➝

Isabella stands at 5'2, noting that a lot of people have been calling her cute and adorable ever since she could walk. She has black fingernail polish, like her sisters, she has long brown hair but she has blue and hot pink highlights in it. She also has two double helix piercings, and she has five tattoos. She has a music note (in honor of Lyric) on her left shoulder, Imagine on her right foot, one on her inner finger that she had gotten when Silas and her were together, a bird on her left hip bone and a small tattoo on her inner left wrist. She also loves her kickboxing class, even though her abs are becoming more defining then they have been. She often wears beanies, flannels with her sunglasses and leggings along with Marvel, DC comics and Star Wars shirts. She likes high heels, but she loves wearing her boots and flipflops along with her sneakers. She wears a leather jacket once in a while with jeans and a t-shirt.