#is it real rational fear abt how im acting?

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god i love women so so so so so so much

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ok time to go get breakfast and therapy but my takeaways under the cut

lisa. i hope we see more of her but i fear this is a one off just to tie up her character. either that or she killed lottie

ben. well i can finally add him onto the muse list ig! god he's so tragic tho, even in death not getting to rest, having to be used for the girls' comfort and rituals in ways he would have hated. and nat having to cut him up it makes sense and it is probably what had to be done to save nat but im ILL

also on the ben note. what do we think abt his confession? was it real or was he just trying to get nat to kill him? i think it was real, honestly it does make sense especially the most sense compared to other theories but i could see it going either way

teen tai behaving exactly as i expected, trying to take charge but each time getting shut down because she's too diplomatic and rational with it.

adult tai. i don't know how i feel abt where they're going with it. so far i dont think anything's happened to change how i feel about other tai, but we'll see. the idea of her being trapped is. eh? other tai is still in my opinion what happens to tai under high stress, it makes sense that she's out in full force right now, acting on what tai usually represses. it's just like what she said this episode, she's lost everything, and now she's trying to feel good.

travis having his doubts and morals my boy youre so doomed :(( and akilah is doomed right w you :((

the little travis and nat scene again just ahh. them constantly reflecting each other even when they're more or less at odds.

jeff is. jeff. too much screentime overall but i did like the little soft moments with callie

callie beloved. is at an absolute crossroads of staying up above things with jeff and going further down the rabbit hole and she is choosing the rabbit hole because she's so desperate for that connection with her mother. and 'get out before i do something i regret' and callies reaction??? im ILL. you dont see callie genuinely hurt a lot but this episode we got fed

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jar of rebuke liveblog-ish

So I started listening to jar of rebuke and it’s very cool (and VERY gender)

I’ve been jotting down notes for each episode, some during, some after, bc I have a feeling this goes far, far deeper than Jared having movie nights after work. It’s... long, bc I binge, so it’s under the cut

spoilers up to ep 9

there’s none for ep 1 and 2 because I didn’t think to do this yet rip

Ep 3 • Pretty certain that Jared's backstory is Not Good, very dark • *martin imitating Jon voice* curse this flesh prison • Headaches are directly related to the memories arent they

Ep 4 • Gay • I refuse to be an oblivious aro this time. I ship it • Hell yeah immortality in action • But why is he immortal??? Is he a Spooky creature? • God I can't wait for the Dramatic Reveal to Darius that Jared is immortal

Ep 5 • Fuck todd • Yeah I fully ship jared with darius • Jared your job is evil (by this I mean the Enclosure, obviously not Jared. He’s too sweet to be evil)

Ep 6 • Good for him he needs a break and friends • Dog-inspired gender crisis hell yeah • Oof pls no more dog noises I hate it. Freaks me out. I have a semi-rational fear of dogs and dont like this

Ep 7 • Jared get a better therapist. I understand why you can't but. Pls. • Really jarring going from jared meaning flesh monster jock to mysterious spooky introvert who just wants friends • Once again, jared your job is evil • GET!! THIS!! LAD!! MORE!! FRIENDS!! • FUCK YEAH CANON NB PROTAG • Ngl all the Gender Talk is making me so happy it just hits so deep in my heart

Ep 8 • Wear a toque dude • He's so empathetic towards these creatures this is how he'll save the world • HEY NO BAD. Dont tell jared not to have empathy!!! • I dont trust this new doctor guy • RIP Jared you better get good at your natural scientist cover real quick • IM SORRY WHAT WAS THAT GLITCH?

Ep 9 • Jared's having a generally bad time isnt he • (Fun fact: my autocorrect wanted me to type "Jared's having a genderfluid" which uhh mood) • The fact that he's tied to the Enclosure through sheer isolation sounds uhhhh cultish • His therapists are OBVIOUSLY not acting with his best interests (making friends and being at peace with himself) in mind, I bet they're part of a larger plot • THE GLITCHING IS BACK • WHAT DOES IT MEAN

As of ep 9, I have 3 theories:

the amnesia thing is legit and jared got his abilities through the Incident

the amnesia thing is legit, but intentional,  bc jared is a supernatural creature that the Enclosure is trying to control

jared was created by the Enclosure for some deeper nefarious purpose

I'm leaning towards number 2 rn, because :

it's cool

explains why no one from his past came after him, since the records are probably falsified

his therapists are sketch and arent helping him remember, which leads to

whatever they're hiding abt him is hella sketch, like, if his backstory was truly as normal as they say, they wouldn't go to such measures to hide it, which ties in with

they dont let him see his medical scans so there might be something physically up with him

he doesn't know what type of creature could make scenario 1 happen, and the only good reason they have for hiding that is bc they’re sketch af

the supernatural just REALLY likes him. maybe it senses something in him???

Anyways I'm really enjoying this, I only have 2 thoughts and they are "oooh cool mystery I can't wait to theorise" and "GET!! THIS!! LAD(?)!! MORE!! FRIENDS!!"