#is it fucked up of me to say that pearl probably only couldve become her full self without rose? like. sigh. codependency whatever

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okay but she was literally made for rose. made to be roses. she was made to always be by her side and serve her and dedicate every second of her endless existence to her. it was written in her code. it was established by their society on every level.

not to mention she wasnt just assigned to any random high ranking gem, but one of the four leaders of the entire species. this is not a role to be taken lightly, even if she was never supposed to get the credit or appreciation a pearl deserves for such devotion and effort and action.

you have to imagine how it felt to be by roses side, especially when rose began to change, not to mention how she cared for pearl, and actually wanted to treat her like a person (the best way rose could, even if it wasnt perfect. in fact, it was far from perfect.)

rose began to do genuinely admirable things, in my opinion. she wanted everyone to be treated equally, and to save an entire planet from obliteration, and she was willing to fight for it, give up everything for it. again, she was far from perfect at this, but she had her intentions.

and in it, they were always by eachothers side. rose even gave pearl the choice to leave, save herself, but pearl didnt want to leave the person she was literally made for. also lets be real, both choices kinda sucked. she could go back to homeworld and be a slave, or stay on earth and risk shattering, or at the very least be stuck there forever far from her people and everything about gemkind except for the ruins of a brutal war.

but pearl didnt care that those were the choices, she was made to stay by roses side, and she adored rose. the untold thousands of years theyd known eachother, weve only seen small glimpses of it. you have to imagine how it felt. they did almost everything together.

not to mention the biggest moment in the show, rose giving pearl her darkest secret that would shatter (no pun intended) everything that happened when it came to the war and homeworld vs the crystal gems. she trusted pearl to help her do this, even though it was really clear pearl was miserable in doing it, and rose did her final diamond command to make sure pearl kept it.

but in this fucked up scene, comes a bond. not a healthy one, but one nonetheless

but really, isnt that what summarizes this whole thing?

they spend thousands of years by eachothers sides, almost always together, knowing almost everything about eachother, theyve made a life together, and changed so, so much together.

and then a human arrives. humans, who only live to be around 80 if were lucky, as compared to the immortality of being a gem.

and rose falls for this temporary creature.

thousands of years of gem-baked devotion, adoration, effort, life... it meant nothing, it felt like. her feelings that she was made with, they didnt seem to mean anything to the person who they were made for.

rose starts giving this creature attention that we have to assume she never had before, not in that way. i believe we heard that shes had flings with humans before, but never like with greg.

and you have to wonder how it compared to how she was with pearl all those years.

and eventually rose makes a decision that is, quite literally, unheard of. something that has never happened in the entire universe, and who knows if itll even work, or how itll work, or why. and this thing will take away rose, and rose knows that.

rose wants that. to be gone. forever.

and she chooses this with greg.

i mean, gems dont even die, not really. and this is something that gems seem to know, at least homeworld does. the way they use gem shards, they know that the shards are still alive, fractions of a consciousness.

so... how should a gem even feel about death?

they experienced shatterings on the battlefield, but you expect loss in battle. it still hurts like hell, but its what happens.

but this isnt a battle. this isnt even a fight.

and its not against roses will, her life isnt being taken away from her. shes giving it up, to bring new life into the world yes, but what would that even mean to pearl? she doesnt care about organic life forms, especially humans, and especially not more than she cares about rose. id even argue pearl didnt care as much about what rose stood for as she mightve thought she did, she mostly did for rose.

so why should pearl care about new life, especially at the cost of rose?

but how she felt didnt matter. it happened anyway, and she lost the person she was made for.

of course she wasnt a good parent. to her, 13 years is a blink of an eye, she was still grieving as if it had happened yesterday.

she wasnt equipped to raise a child, for every reason imaginable. i dont even know if anyone actually tried to prepare her, not really?

this isnt to excuse her actions, of course. she did a lot of things she shouldnt have, and contributed to stevens long list of traumatic memories, but im just explaining, yknow?

so yeah. she was bitter. and yes, she wasnt chosen by rose. she was bitter because she wasnt chosen.

can you blame her?

i dont even blame rose, either, not entirely. do i think rose handled things well? uh, fuck no. i love rose so much, but she was not good at like, most things.

rose knew the situation she was in, that she was given what was basically a toy that was made for her, one that was literally made to replace one she broke, and that toy was living and had thoughts and feelings, but those thoughts and feelings were programmed to be made for her. to think about her, serve her, live for her.

rose doesnt strike me as the type to completely understand power dynamic issues the way she probably shouldve, especially not for the first few thousand years, but i have to imagine she found a level of discomfort in this, because she knew pearl didnt really have a choice. rose loved pearl, but could she even know pearls feelings were real, when they were artificially made? was it fair to either of them?

how was she even to let pearl down? did she even really want to? would pearl have even listened, considered it for a second? what would pearl even do if she was told the truth about it?

she deserved the truth, of course. but she didnt get it.

i have to imagine that maybe rose was trying to drop hints when she would go off with humans, not that that was entirely her motivation for doing that of course, but what does that say to pearl except for 'i dont think i can be what you want me to be for you'? rose couldnt devote herself to pearl. rose wanted more, anyway.

rose loved humanity, something pearl couldnt do for a long, long time. pearl only had eyes for one thing, and rose wasnt the same. the ultimately wanted different things, and those things werent compatible, at least, not for them.

to me, theyre tragic, to put it simply. they both couldve had it all, had they just known how, but there was no guide book. there was no one like them before them.

and it was always doomed to fail, because how do you love someone whos created to love you?

"pearl is just made of bitterness over not being chosen" wow what an absolutely horrible takeaway from the complex and fucked up story of this character

[virgo-dragon]

Loz Fanfic Thing

for @du-hjarta-skulblaka and whoever else is interested note: this /did/ have some formatting but ut didnt copy/paste, im on movike, and im lazy Open on Cosplayer Dude at convention in Link Cosplay, having a good time (maybe in vendor's hall?) Bam! Fuckin Ganondorf comes through the wall like the Kool Aid Man going on about “those god damned goddesses fucking putting the triforce in this shit hole” Ganondorf sees our hero and is like “Agh! /YOU/! I thought I took care of you! Oh well, once more never hurt anyone” and Hero immediately shits pants Ganondorf essentially takes our hero prisoner w a planned execution Zelda in hiding as one of his minions frees Hero at last minute, runs off w them Big Epic Chase Scene. Hero runs off something/into something/is nearly caught but saved at last minute which leads to blackout and meeting Main Ally (but not Companion. No Companions) Cue “You’re the hero!” “Im most definitely fucking NOT the Hero! Im only dressed up as him! Im not even guy! MY NAMES NOT EVEN LINK!” (Maybe a “Who’s Link? His name was ’(Our Hero’s Name)’”and then an “Oh jesus fuck” “Ok well if ur gonna be fighting you gotta get a proper sword and shield” “Well I GUESS!” *cue raiding the ruined Vendor’s Hall for a sword and shield (neither look like the things but that get painted like them later) Cue Search for the Stones/Pearls/Pendants and travelling between dimensions via lame old plastic ocarina and the rushed learning of Legendary Hero (comment on cheesiness) Courage: needs hammer Wisdom: Needs boomerang Power: Needs floaty glidey thing (sailcloth-type maybe?) Cue Hurdy Gurdy Get and Main Theme Learn (acts as Zelda’s Lullaby in OoT) Cue Quest for Master Sword (cue quest for Master Sword Sheath) -found in Temple of Time (but what about the sheath tho) Cue Quest for Hylian Shield Cue Return to Ally -learn Clocktown Theme as Home Warp Song Oh no! Ganondorf has found the Triforce of Power! (Of course) Chase after Ganondorf as he tries to get the Triforce of Wisdom -End up protecting Zelda on her way out/sneaky leading her out maybe bc she got there first -maybe Look-Alike plan? Race to the Triforce of Courage -Rejects Hero at first bc idk they dont accept their role as Hero or smth. Maybe they just need to accept the courage in themself? Accept that they value courage and have been denying it bc it’s “cliche”? -but also rejects Ganondorf bc he values Power above all and he’s got that piece Cue Standoff with Ganondorf Cue ToC finally accepting Hero “Oh now i can take you you piece of shit” “to be fair, if youd taken it at first, Ganondorf couldve taken it from you.” “.../why/ did you have to have the Triforce of Wisdom” Cue Return to Ally Zelda stays behind at Ally’s bc she thinks she wont be found and/or shell be able to hold her own and/or she can make it defensible/hideable -this place becomes a dungeon later on -”You won’t listen to me when I tell you I know for a FACT this won’t work, right?” “Well, no. But also i cant fight im gonna fuckin die if i go out there w you.” “Tru” Shakey Shakey its an Earth Quakey Cue Trip to find Wise Guy Sahasrala to find out wtf’s going on “Its bc the worlds have been forced close together. They’re becoming unstable.” “Well how tf do I push them apart?” “Ya gotta get both Zelda and Ganondorf back into Hyrule bc they’re keeping it here” Question of whether or not our Hero needs to go w them or do something else- WAIT -The Goddesses just merged the Spirit of the Hero w out Hero one day bc that Link fuckin DIED and so at the Very End the spirits un-merge and our Hero gets to meet THE Hero YES (note: Decide what Kind of Link this kid is) Parts of Hyrule start appearing in our world and Vice Versa Return to Ally’s Place to find it dungeon-ified, Zelda missing presumably deep in the dungeon, and Ally lying bleeding, dying “Yo Zelda’s in there but you’re gonna need a whole HOST of other items to get through there” *dies* Cue Questing for Other Items (Both Tunics / Environment Devices, Bow, Hookshot, and Bombs) -cue instructions and/or panic about learning to use the items (Water Thingy on breathing, Hookshot on fuckign BONES, and Bombs on ignition and usage) Back to the Ally Dungeon! HOLY SHIT LEARN SONGS FEATURED AND/OR USED IN THEGAMES THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE THING (Zelda’s Lullaby doesn’t do anything here go fuck urself) (here it’s the main theme) Go through JUST in time to see Ganondorf take Zelda (of course) (but she at least puts up a fight this time) Standoff w Ghost/Shadow/Phantom Ganon “Well Shit What do I do Now?” Goes back to convention Cue Reflection on all this fucking shit Cue another Link Cosplayer coming up and being like “Dude holy fuck what the fucking shit” Cue Useful Information on Ganon’s Whereabouts “How’re we gonna get in tho its fucking heavily guarded (bc i figure you could use some help im coming with but i also dont quite recognize you’re /really/ the Hero bc thats not a real thing at least i dont think it is)” “Take this old replica shit I got at the start of this fucking fiasco and come confuse w me, his monsters are rly dumb theyll never know we’re diff heights and maybe even skin colors” They succeed “Yo bro this is getting a bit much for me and you look like you’ve got it good luck and let me know if you need my help again. Heres my number” “god i forgot phones were a /thing/” Cue finding Ganondorf and Final Standoff in Our World Cue Sacred Realm or some bs scene Cue Message from the Goddesses in form of Big Mysterious Voice saying “whoops we fucked up cant push away the worlds until Spirit of Hero is unmerge” (clever hints all along that Spirit of Hero was there and at least part of the time acting) “Looks like you gotta Stab the Thing in the Temple of Time. Also leave all your cool shit there please” -actually maybe not bc most things can be made -maybe its like “look we know there’ll still be residual effects and shit in your world so a) Take these Ghost Versions of shit that work the same and go fight it or b) take the Actual Items and they’ll find their way back to Hyrule later Cue journey to Temple of Time to stab sword in pedestal Cue Meeting w the Spirit of the Hero and subsequent near fan-personing of Our Hero Long talk about everything (and maybe the bringing up of the Link name) -”nah bro my name’s Link idk what that shit was probably the Goddesses doin shit” “So you mean I wasnt actually destined to be the hero?” “No you were, but the name always helps.” -I imagine this Link to have much of the personality and maybe look of Skyward Sword Link which makes sense bc he was the Original Link Cue Return to Our World and Wrapping Up of Shit Cue Epilogue Our Hero Agender, but if asked will say Mayonnaise Needs glasses so has to wear those fuckin sports glasses -I hate those glasses -they have silver/gray ones. The kind that look like weird goggles After Inciting Incident they go and fucking use ALL the bobby-pins to keep their hat on -”Suddenly I kinda maybe rly wanna wear this through the adventure. At least it’s well made and I’ll get several kicks out of keeping it on” Swears at anything and everything in a dungeon -“OH BOY A BOSS ROOM NOT LIKE IM FUCKING SURPRISED” -“god damned FLOOR/WALLMASTERS I WILL SLAUGHTER YOU AND YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY!!! FUCKIN LEAVE ME ALONE” Has played many a Zelda