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Reason To Hate You.
// masterlist //
Word Count: 5k
Category: Angst
Warning: Some strong language, as usual. Just angsty. It’s good for the skin and some soul cleansing.
Summary: He loves her, but has no time to show it even when she asks him to. But she’s had enough, and Harry writes a song.
Based on Reason To Hate You by Rhys Lewis.
..
You were sure when Harry sang “comfortable silence is overrated” he wasn’t joking, because maybe your boyfriend appreciated the uncomfortable silence more, or at least he had been showing so.
Familiarity was out of the window when it came to the both of you, because that would be an understatement. Your friends and families had joked about it for the one year and 7 months of your relationship, about how you were one soul in two bodies, how alike you and Harry were and how the differences completed one another.
You knew when he was stressed, sad, nervous, even when he was a combination of every emotion there is and it had always assured you that he, too, knew you like the back of his hand.
One look at you and he’d offer the best support; let it be a shoulder to cry on, a celebratory dance, or a shared cup of blueberry yogurt.
But quietness had barged in like an univited guest, one you weren’t ready for and the more you thought about it, you would have never been ready for it.
Empty was one word to describe it; the bed, the kitchen, the living room, the balcony, the house, the trips to the grocery’s – the relationship.
It began around the time of Fine Line’s release. Biting back your tongue, you had managed to not feel small whenever you listened to all the tracks on there that Harry had on his ex, especially the one that had his ex talking at the end of.
But Harry had showered you with love and assurance, telling you that he couldn’t believe he had ever lived without you by his side and how he had never felt this sort of love with anyone.
You, too, had showered him with affection and the undivided pride you felt for him, making sure all your friends and family purchased the album, playing it at all times, working online so you could accompany him to some of his press because he needed you there with him.
“Mom’s birthday is coming up. I think we should get her that dress she talked about last time, remember it?” You had asked one night as you lied in bed, eyes on your boyfriend as he moisturized his face while standing in nothing but his boxers.
Harry glanced at you before looking back at the mirror one final time before walking to the bed, “I don’t, no.”
“The Marc Jacobs o-“
“When is it?” He rushed, getting under the cover, turning away from you before turning his head back to look at you.
Your lips parted before closing again, before you replied. “Friday.”
“This Friday?” And at your nod, Harry pursed his lips, “I’m sorry, baby, I can’t make it. Have a meeting all day to talk about tour.”
“But H, you knew about this for two weeks.”
“I did?” Sheepishly, Harry asked.
You slumped before shaking your head, “It’s alright. I’ll just tell her you had an emergency or something.”
“You do that.” He nodded, reaching behind him to give your thigh a squeeze, “Get whatever gift you want, pay with my card.”
You didn’t reply, watching as he let his head down on his pillow, back to you as he got comfortable, the only light in the room coming from the lamp on your bedside table.
On the day of your mother’s birthday, you remember the halfhearted smile you offered to her when she asked you where Harry was,
“Says he’s really sorry. Family emergency, but this is from the both of us.” And then you had given her the neatly wrapped present, a card attached to it with a birthday message from you and Harry, only that it was only you who had written it because Harry was up and out of the house the minute you opened your eyes that morning.
And then it happened, again, and again, and again,
and some more.
“Good morning,” you had smiled at him one morning, watching as he rubbed his face before he approached you, capturing your lips in a kiss that had the butterflies in your stomach cheer and dance, “How did you sleep?”
“Fine, love. What about you?” He smiled tiredly, hands on your waist and chin on your shoulder from behind as he watched you flip the cheddar cheese and omelet toast on the pan.
“Great.” You smiled when you felt him rub your skin from over your nightgown with his fingers. You turned off the stove before turning, reaching up to wrap your arms around his neck, leaning to peck his lips, “Hey, I know we always get Chinese takeout for our Sunday night date but how do you feel about Thai?”
And instantly, Harry tensed, guilt already taking place on his face and the smile on your face faltered at the change of demeanor, “Y/N, I’m sorry, lovie, I can’t make it tonight.”
“What? Why? We never skip on our Sunday night indoor date.”
It was a ritual you and Harry were devoted to since the very beginning of your relationship, and not once had neither of you flaked on it, always having plans around it but never during it because it was when the both of you would kick your heels up, pig out, watch a movie, talk, and just get ready for the start of another week.
“Told you I’m going to Miami for a few days to meet with the director for Watermelon Sugar, baby.”
“You’re travelling?” You frowned, “You never told me.”
Harry paused, eyes going slightly big before he looked away for a moment before looking back at you, “I’m sorry. It must have slipped out of my mind with how hectic everything has been.”
You didn’t reply, suddenly feeling a tad uncomfortable with your position which had you remove your arms from around him and turn, holding the pan and moving out of his grasp to put the toast on his plate.
“I’m really sorry, Y/N. It’s just my job and I can’t reschedule.”
You sighed, feeling as if your heart strings were being tugged at. Nevertheless, you managed to give him a small smile. “It’s alright, H. I understand. You gotta do what you gotta do.”
To be honest, if anyone had a say in this, they’d say Harry took advantage of how accepting you were, but you would never. You would never say – nor admit – that he was taking advantage of all your “I understand”s and “I get it”s, because you knew he was busy. You knew he loved you. You knew it, until you weren’t so sure anymore.
Standing in the corner of Adam and Emi’s living room, you sipped on your Sprite as you watched people from Harry’s band and those behind the album mingle, your boyfriend standing out of earshot but in front of you, conversing with Tom – Kid Harpoon – and Naomi, his hands moving around as he talked which made you smile a little.
“Why are you standing here all lonely?” You felt a nudge to your shoulder before you looked beside you, seeing Sarah leaning on the wall beside you.
You shrugged, “Just watching.”
“You never texted me yesterday after your date. How did Harry react to your dress? Did you end up wearing the white sh-“
“We didn’t go.”
“-oes? Or- Wait, what?” Sarah frowned.
“We didn’t go on the date.” You repeated, avoiding her eyes by looking down at the small soda bubbles in your cup.
“Oh,” Sarah’s shoulders slumped, taking notice of your gloomy mood, “Oh, um,” she cautiously looked at you, “You were dressed.” She mumbled with a frown, genuinely sad for her friend.
You chuckled, putting your weight on one leg, “So was he, but we had different intentions, I guess. He had a meeting with Jeff.”
“Y/N…” Sarah, with a frown, offered a hand of support on your shoulder.
With a small, very fake smile, you looked at her and shook your head, “It’s alright, really. He’s been busy with tour and the press and all that.”
“Doesn’t make him less of an arse, you know?” She raised an eyebrow.
You only chuckled, looking down at your shoes, “Don’t worry about it. Hey, at least I got to watch that show you’ve been bugging me with.”
You were patient; something many of the people you knew in your life always praised, some even were in disbelief at how patient you were with the shit life threw at you. Like that one time your laptop lagged in the midst of your presentation at uni and instead of freaking out, you remained calm, collected and patient, and it was why you ended up acing that presentation.
But that didn’t mean you didn’t feel like crap, because you did.
Since communication was key, you had decided to do just that – communicate. Harry was better than you when it came to confrontation. For a long time, you had trouble with approaching anyone and telling them that things weren’t fine, but as yours and Harry’s relationship blossomed, you learned to.
It was why you had decided against going to bed early one night and opted to stay and wait for Harry’s return, knowing that it was the only time you would be able to see him with how tight his schedule had been.
In a crewneck of his and plaid pj pants, you sat on the couch with a cup of green tea in your hands, watching a talk show that you mentally criticized as shit in your mind before you heard the click of the door.
Taking a breath to steady your heartbeat and breath, you put aside your tea before you clutched your hands together, cracking your knuckles nervously as you heard the sound of Harry’s home sliders against the floor.
His face showed confusion at the light being turned on, knowing that by that time, you usually slept, but he saw you sitting there, too in your head as you looked at your fidgeting hands to notice that he was a few steps away.
“You’re still up.” He stated in surprise, watching your head snap to look at him.
“Um, yeah,” you nodded, “Was waiting for you.”
Unknowing why, Harry smiled to himself as he approached you, leaning down to press a kiss to your temple, “Yeah?”
You nodded, “Can we talk?”
And then his smile slightly faltered, eyebrows furrowing in slight worry before he sat. “Are you alright?” His hand reached up to brush your hair.
You hated how loving he was that moment, how he made you feel. How he showed you care when he was there for a few minutes, but you hated how he had trouble showing you that by making time for you.
“Harry,” you began and he immediately felt like shit because you rarely use his name, “Are you ever not going to be busy?”
“What?”
You felt stupid, not knowing how to articulate how you’re feeling but gave it another go anyway. “It’s just that, you’re never here anymore. It’s always the album, meetings, press, and when it’s none of those, then you’re out with your friends-“
“Is this about me cancelling that date?”
And you knew he was starting to get defensive and you made note that you hated that, too.
“Which one?” You asked tiredly before sighing, turning fully to look at him, “I’m not asking you to choose between me and your job, your life, but I’m just asking you to make time for me. I just feel out of place, Harry, and it sucks.”
“You know this album is important to me, everything about it.”
“And I absolutely love all that for you, I’m so proud of you,” you held his hands, “I just miss you, that’s all.”
“But Y/N, that’s-“ Harry let out a deep sigh, closing his eyes for a moment, “That’s my job.”
“It’s not your job to cancel on our quality time more than twice to be with your friends, all of whom you see everyday.”
“I see you everyday.”
“Seeing me when I’m sleeping or kissing me goodbye is hardly anything, Harry.” You said gently.
He contemplated it, staying silent for a few moments as he looked down at your joined hands. “What do you want me to do?”
“Just, make time for me, for us – please?”
You had kissed then, almost like a promise, and for the first time in a long time, you cuddled.
You wished you received enough assurance that he was trying, wished to see it, but it seemed like too big of a wish to come true.
You had a career of your own, one you were proud of and worked hard for, so when one day your boss asked you to their office to break the news of your promotion, your smile might as well have resembled a painted one like the Joker’s, from ear to ear.
Your colleagues had cheered for you, even interns approaching you to tell you that you deserved it, and they had all decided that a celebration was due. While they were planning for the celebration, deciding that it would take place at a nearby pub the following day as it Saturday and Friday was a good day to recover from hangovers, you took out your phone, composing a text to Harry.
‘H, please be home early tonight. Big news! 🥳 Love you!’
“You sure you don’t want to join for a quick drink? You earned it.” Your colleague Mariah asked as she walked you to your car.
“I’m sure. You go have fun and we’ll meet tomorrow.”
“Hey, tell your boyfriend to tag along!” She said as she waved before leaving.
That day, you went back home, showered and changed before cooking a nice meal for yourself and Harry.
You had checked your phone multiple times, checking if you might have missed a response or missed a call but granted, your phone only notified you of few congratulatory messages from people in your workplace and your family’s Whatsapp group after you had shared with them the news, none from the one person you longed for.
When the clock struck 8 that night, you found yourself grabbing your phone, tapping on it until you were calling his phone. One missed call, you called again and that time, he answered.
“Baby, I’m in the middle of something.” Harry rushed.
“What is it?” You found yourself asking.
“Mate! You fucking cheated!” You heard him laugh, sounds of different people in the background, “Don’t wait up, yeah? I have to go now. Love y-Wait, I’m coming!” And with one final laughter from him – a sound you had always loved and cherished but that moment, it only made you feel like crying – he hung up.
You stared at your phone, eyes stinging and nears getting itchy, swallowing the lump in your throat before you angrily tossed the phone onto the couch before walking to the kitchen to eat your share of the food. No way in hell were you going to sleep sad, angry, and on an empty stomach.
You hated how small you felt, how you felt unwanted in his world. It wasn’t like you wanted much either, just some time.
It was why the following morning as you got ready for your day at work, you might have loudly closed a drawer or two before looking over at Harry’s sleeping figure.
Huffing as you looked into the mirror while adjusting your top, you were unaware to Harry stretching and rubbing his eyes before you heard him.
“Good morning, love.”
Your heart raced, turning instantly to look at him. You tried to smile but when that failed, you turned back to give yourself a final look before grabbing your bag, mumbling a halfhearted “good morning.”
“Leaving early?”
You nodded, “Yeah, I want to grab donuts before I go.”
Harry smiled sleepily, “You usually get them donuts when there is good news.”
“I got promoted.” You said, still avoiding looking at him as you walked towards the door, lingering by it before you finally looked at him, finding him looking at you with a grin.
“Really? Baby, that’s wonderful! Congratulations, Honey. You deserve this. C’mere.” And he opened his arms, making grabby hands at you.
That moment, you also hated how you couldn’t fight the urge to go to him because that was exactly what you did. You walked towards him, sitting beside him and letting him embrace you, peppering kisses on your head.
“I’m proud of you.”
You sighed, wrapping your arms around him as you closed your eyes. “You are?”
“Of course. Always am.”
You smiled, nuzzling your head into his neck.
Harry wasn’t dumb – he felt it. You missed him, and he, too, missed you. He just couldn’t seem to say no to all the plans that he was invited to – except yours.
“They’re celebrating me tonight. Do you want to come?” You said, and although it was a little muffled, he heard it.
“Tonight’s Steve’s birthday. Remember hi-“
“Oh my God.” You rolled your eyes, pulling away from his embrace, shaking your head at yourself before letting out a chuckle, “You’re unbelievable, you know that?”
“Why? What did I- Y/N, you know I can’t miss it. Steve has helped a lot with the album, it wouldn’t be right.”
“He helped with-“ You laughed bitterly, “Right, and I have never helped you with anything. Nothing at all.”
“Don’t take it like that, Y/N.” Harry huffed.
“I’m not taking it like anything, Harry. It doesn’t matter. Don’t wait up. Oh wait,” you stood, giving him a sarcastic smile, “You never do.”
And with that, you were out.
Any other time, you probably would have felt guilty. You would have felt like running back into his arms the moment he opened them. Only, he hadn’t called you, nor had he opened his arms.
There you were, sitting on a stool at the bar as your friends danced and drank, sulking with an untouched cocktail glass, staring at the door every time someone walked in.
But 7 became 8, 8 became 9, and before you knew it, you had driven one of your very drunk colleagues home at 12 and you were back home at 12:30, too sober for your own liking. That was a pathetic celebration, you thought.
You weren’t sure why but the moment you stepped foot inside your shared home with Harry – it was initially his but by the 12th month of your relationship, he had asked you to move in – you couldn’t stop the tears.
Ugly sobs broke the silence in the house, your body shaking with the extra weight of emotions it carried for months.
Maybe it was because even then, Harry wasn’t home and surely, he wasn’t beside you as your friends celebrated a big event in your life. Maybe it was because you received a notification that Harry had posted to his close friends story list on Instagram, the story being him holding his phone with the front camera, Harry singing along to a Queen song with Alexa Chung as she had one arm around his shoulders, her other hand holding a cup that resembled the miserable cocktail you had earlier to celebrate yourself.
But you were packing a suitcase.
You were neatly folding some of your clothes in it, putting some of your undergarments in the zipped-up area. You hadn’t bothered to quit crying, you figured that you owed that yourself.
One thing Harry didn’t expect to return to was to see you out, closing your car’s trunk as you stood in your black sweatpants and a grey hoodie, comfortable sneakers on your feet and your hair left with no hairbands or as much as a clip as if you hadn’t bothered to do anything with it.
Quickly parking and turning off his car, his eyes had glanced at the time quickly, finding it reading 2:21AM. Harry was quick to get out, noticing your movement to your driver side halt as you heard so.
“Where are you going?” He asked as he approached you, feeling worried and scared as he stared at the back of your head as you were yet to turn.
But you did, and Harry found himself staring your puffy eyes, tears in clouding the color he loved too much and his heart broke.
“I’m leaving.”
If it was possible, his heart would have beat its way out of his chest.
“L-Leaving wh-where? What?”
You sniffled, wiping your eyes with your sleeve, “I’m leaving, Harry. I’m done.”
“Y/N, baby,” he cooed, stepping closer, “Let’s talk, alright?” He gently put his hands on your arms, only to have you shrug them off, breaking his heart even more and causing a lump to form in his throat.
“No! We’re not going to talk, Harry. I’m done talking. I’m done waiting. I’m done being alone in this fucking house – in this- this fucking relationship!” You cried.
“Baby, please,” his jaw clenched as he tried to control his breathing and to push back the tears, “Y/N, please. Don’t do this.”
You shook your head, “I gave you everything. I tried everything and it’s just not working. I’m done giving, Harry. Please, just understand.” You stepped closer to him, cupping his face, “You’re never here for me anymore and I’m done holding on to the ghost of you.”
“What can I do? Anything, please,” his nose reddened, eyes going tearful as he was just about to melt in your hands, watching you shake your head, “Please, lovie, anything.”
“I’m done.” You whispered in the midst of a sob, leaning forward to press a kiss to the corner of his mouth, “I tried.”
And with that, you got into the car before speeding off, leaving Harry standing there, his heart seeming to wave him off as he watched your car disappear.
//
He was shit.
He had tried to contact you, even tried to visit you at your work only to get told that you were taking a few days off.
He messaged you everyday for 3 weeks, called and left voice notes.
His friends felt bad for him when they knew, but they felt worse when he broke down one day when his band visited to check up on him,
“If only I wasn’t part of all of this! If you didn’t drag me into all of this shit, she would have still been here! Right here in her fucking home with me!”
“Hey! You got no one to blame but yourself. You’re the one who decided to blow her off every time, even when Mitch and I asked you about her and gave you an earful so don’t fucking put the blame on anyone but yourself, Harry!” Sarah had knocked some sense into him, “I love you and all, but this is all you and whatever will happen next will be you. Don’t wait for anyone to pick up your mess because it’s about time you act and show her you love her.”
He deserved that.
Harry had tried countless of times, visited your old apartment only to face an old man holding a puppy who had no idea who you were.
He found himself sitting in his studio one night – where he slept because he couldn’t bring himself to sleep in your bedroom – his journal perched up as his pen worked on it. It was like he didn’t need to think about it, he went on auto-pilot and before he could realize it, he had written a song.
You weren’t any better. 2 months later and you were still avoiding his calls. It didn’t help that you got another phone and number but kept your old one, only to know that he still remembered you and you felt pathetic for it.
His fans were bombarding you with questions on yours and his whereabouts, saying that you’ve been inactive for way too long and it wasn’t like you to not interact with them, but you couldn’t. You couldn’t pretend that everything was fine when it wasn’t.
By the 3rd month, you began to go other places than your workplace.
You met up with 2 of your friends, giving them short answers and “yeah”s as they talked. With your mind being somewhere else, you unlocked your phone and opened Instagram, checking your explore page.
And there it finally was; a picture of him. His beard and moustache had grown, untrimmed and messy as his hair. His eyes were hidden behind a pair of sunglasses, yellow sweatpants and a grey hoodie worn along with his running shoes while he walked.
Your breath hitched in your throat as you opened the photo, checking the caption to read it;
‘Harry out a few minutes ago!’
As fresh as your favorite home baked pastries this photo was. Your eyes moved from him to the shop behind him, zooming with your fingers before letting out a gasp.
“Y/N? Is everything okay?” One of your friends asked.
“I have to go.” You quickly said, slinging on your bag before you shot out of your seat and outside, frantically looking left and right before walking towards the shop you had seen in the picture.
You didn’t even know what you were doing. Hell, you shouldn’t have been doing that, looking for him like that.
You panted, reaching up to place a hand on your rapidly beating heart as you stood in front of the shop.
God, you felt stupid.
“Y/N…”
You heard it, then you felt it; his hand, gentle on your shoulder.
You turned, coming face to face with the man you had sworn up and down was the love of your life – and you knew he still was.
He snatched off his sunglasses, as if they played a trick on him but they weren’t because you stood right there.
“You’re here.” He breathed out.
Harry’s green eyes were staring into yours, hand still on your shoulder.
At the feeling that rushed through you; one that made you feel that one more minute and you would be in his arms, kissing him and going back home with him, you slowly shook your head. “I have to leave.”
“No, please, please, a minute. Just a minute.” Harry pleaded with wide eyes, desperation in his voice.
“If I stay for one more minute, I won’t control myself. Please let me go.” You closed your eyes as you spoke softly.
“I can’t.”
“You can. You did it more than once.”
One final jab to his heart, you turned, rushing to cross the street before getting in your car.
//
The news of a sudden single drop was everywhere.
Friends and family texted you to ask if you had heard the song, most asking you to “please talk it out with Harry, he seems really sorry.”
Your coffee, sat waiting for you as you read the wave of tweets that crashed on you from fans, most of asking you what your friends and family asked of you, some others apologizing on his behalf, some others questions if the song was about you to begin with, and some others giving you shit for “breaking Harry’s heart.”
You were quick to click on a YouTube link that was attached to a tweet of a fan reacting to the song, sitting up straight and suddenly feeling nauseous as the screen changed.
Harry Styles – Reasons To Hate You.
Your stomach dropped as you saw him. In a white tee and black shorts, his hair was held back with your light blue clip while he sat in a chair behind his mic in the comfort of your home studio, holding the black guitar you had gifted him for his 26th birthday.
“Can you just lie to me
And ruin these memories
'Cause I've gotta forget somehow
So I'm begging you, burn us to the ground,” Harry sang as he played the guitar.
“Cause I know it's over
But I don't know what to do
So help me get over
Help me get over you,”
With no intentions to stop the tears, you let yourself cry, reaching up to stifle a sob by putting a hand to your mouth.
“And tell me you love somebody else or something
Or say you've been unfaithful to me
'Cause I need a reason to hate you, a reason to let you go
A reason to move on 'cause without one I know I won't
So tell me you love somebody else or something
Or say you've been unfaithful to me.”
He had looked up to his camera, and as he did, you felt like he was physically there and singing for you.
“Where do we go from here?
Do you just disappear?
'Cause I don't think I can be your friend
When it feels like the break isn't gonna mend.”
You stopped questioning your moves, and as proof, you had no idea what you were thinking when you grabbed your car keys and bolted out of the studio apartment you had rented, the song still playing.
“'Cause even after all this time, I'm hoping I can change your mind
'Cause hope's the only open door left to choose
So let me out for good because I know that I'm not strong enough
To stop myself from feeling things for you
So don't give me the truth.”
And you drove to him, right back to your home.
The song had replayed itself 4 times before you were finally out of your car and rushing to the door, ringing the bell and knocking, cursing yourself for forgetting your keys back at that apartment.
The door opened and there he stood, in the same clothes with the same clip holding back his hair.
Harry didn’t have time to comprehend before you threw yourself at him, crying into his chest.
“You’re such an asshole.” You cried, “How can you release something like that, you shit?”
He held on to you, hiding his face in your hair as he took you in.
“Next time, even an album won’t bring me back, you understand?” You mumble, feeling his arms tighten around you as he kissed your head then shoulder.
“There won’t be a next time.”
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