#is all :)))))

[greensaplinggrace]

the fact of the matter is that buffy ends up isolated no matter what the scoobies do because she bears the burden of the slayer alone at the end of the day and nothing can change that. the problem with this isn't that she's separate from them, it's that they don't want to acknowledge that she is, and in doing so they drive a wedge between them that just grows and grows. the best thing about spike is that he's similar enough to this other side of buffy to understand it and her by extension. he is the only person around who can support that side of her.

most of buffy's issues in season six stem from the scoobies rejecting a part of buffy that spike accepts. and this shame she feels for her reliance on spike and the presence of this darkness and isolation she cannot avoid is largely because of them. i'm sick of this bizarre assumption that pointing out where the scoobies go wrong in their relationship with buffy somehow equals an uncritical uplifting of spike. just because he understands her and represents a certain aspect of her doesn't mean he doesn't fuck up. i mean that's kind of the whole point of their season six dynamic. one of his biggest issues is that he thinks he's helping her by enabling her completely because he doesn't have the ability to properly identify the line between self acceptance and self destruction - pursuit of the id is one of his biggest character traits. that's what makes the end of season six and his decision to get the soul so interesting (although of course there's just as much i can say about the narrative framing of that in regards to lore consistency and the story's obsession with angel, but that's a whole other thing).

point is, the scoobies cannot understand all of buffy, and when they refuse to acknowledge this they destroy their chances of building any bridges to even a simple relationship with that other side of buffy or helping her carry that burden in any way. meanwhile, spike is in the proper position to understand buffy as the slayer and hold his own with her in such a way, but his definition of love is wholly obsessive and destructive. while i disagree that he's incapable of love and even of loving selflessly without his soul, i think spike's version of love in particular is self destructive in a way that enables buffy's own desire to hurt herself through hurting him (see the aforementioned shame regarding her shadow self). spike cannot identify why allowing buffy to give in to her dark side in such a way is bad because he struggles to understand how she could use this to resent herself - although i do think he realizes it's happening on some level.

spike is also buffy's only form of catharsis and the only one that actually listens to what she is saying during a time when everybody else is dismissing her because of the aforementioned inability to understand her as the slayer. it's a clusterfuck - and a clusterfuck that needed to be shattered with a hammer for any kind of relief. and quite frankly to disregard the scoobies' own part in this situation does a disservice to buffy as a character. to be honest, she deserves fucking better than what everyone in her life gives her, especially the scoobies, who grow to take her for granted and feel entitled to controlling her life as a way of keeping her conformed - again, due to the aforementioned lack of desire to acknowledge this other part of her that they cannot connect with.

which leads to season seven, where spike is the only person on the show who has developed and changed enough to remain at buffy's side helping her carry the burden. while everyone else suffered during season six, none of them opened their eyes to what they were doing to buffy - and if they did, none of them acted on it. spike is the only one to acknowledge the damage he's done and work to become better for buffy in any way he can. he is the only one that ends up able to carry that burden with her because he is the only one capable of facing the truth and acting on his desire to do better.

the fucking problem isn't that he hurt buffy - because to be quite frank everybody did - it's that he's the only person on the whole damn show to acknowledge his place in buffy's life, and to acknowledge the burdens she bears, and actively change himself for her. did you know he has almost all of the genuine apologies in the entire show? seven seasons and all of the harm the scoobies cause buffy, and it's fucking spike that is acting like a mature person capable of being a proper partner.

[localshoulderdevil]

So. Imagine the opposite of simplifying a design to make it easier to draw

[arisveah]

crazy theory. actually nuts.

hetch = frank? im wrong, but what if?

[becausebuckley]

anyway i know we’ve discussed the parallels between tommy and buck’s other exes but have we considered the parallels between tommy and ana

[simmyfrobby]

(x)

[princeblue]

does fem genya refer to a gender bend, or is it a transgender (or specifically nonbinary, gnc, etc) headcanon? if its the latter then what is the point for specifying "fem genya" when any genya would be a fem genya? I'm asking because I think that if it's the latter case you might get much more out of the headcanon when you don't place the reservation that there must be another type of genya that is a "normal genya" rather than just the possibility that genya as her normal self could simply be a feminine person in identity or in expression. it's also kind of othering, why not just fully assert that you want to see genya as feminine? I think it's a great thing overall

There’s really nothing much to it besides genderbends have always been one of my guilty pleasures? When I say fem genya I’m talking about always a girl genya, but that does not mean I don’t love/support people who draw genya as feminine presenting when i also love genderfluid!genya and just like, queer genya in general, femininity isn’t also linked to just your gender identity, but rather a choice in expression as well. Which is also amazing!!

And I’m not looking to get the “most” out of anything when I’m headcanoning female!genya, all I’m simply doing is having fun on the internet.

If it’s a thing you find great overall? Then hooray! But I also have my own ways of enjoying things and at the end of the day it isn’t that deep.

[ghirahimbo]

watching your pesto breakdown in real time with all the recipe reblogs

there is just

there is so much (shoe for size reference):

we had chicken pesto pasta for dinner and that did not make even a dent in the basil send help

[starpros-sunshine]

This opens up so many possibilities...wataei reenacting the Romeo and Juliet balcony scene....Eichi on his own dorms balcony and Wataru who somehow managed to get onto the second floor balcony of these people he definitely doesn't rool with....poetry in motion really if you ask me

[qumiiiquinnquin]

sometimes i really really really want to experience physical touch

[blanketforcas]

i honestly do not understand anna regarding this picture for the album and that she didn't get paid. it's THEIR image on the picture, she is selling pictures with THEIR image and is making profit off of them/jensen mostly of course, she also sells shirts with their lyrics, jensen's pictures she took at cons and wow i cannot believe this. is she paying them/jensen for the money she makes off him? no she isn't so in this case she should be thankful they chose her picture and she can use this fact for her reputation and that's it.

she should be grateful that millionaire even lets her profit off of the shirt designs she makes!!!! she should be grateful she even gets to breathe the same air!!1!!

...

[wastrelwoods]

sdlgkjfd i always feel a little silly expressing that an acclaimed film actor is handsome on this website bc the ghost of myself and a bunch of other closeted lesbian teenagers performatively saying weird over the top shit like “uwu i think my ovaries exploded” about any slightly rodent looking man with an RP accent circa 2013 looms large in my memory. but this isn’t about proving anything in any way about my personal sexuality or gender or whatever the fuck i must push all of that aside and allow myself to simply double down on the opinion that lee pace is a very fine looking man

[ethicstownpod]

I'm gonna ask you all a serious question: if I replaced Rhys' headshot on the website with a headshot of Steven from Hill House would anyone even notice?

[would-holden-caulfield-like-nge]

Losing the preppy fight

[cupcraft]

btw im thinking about dsmp scars bc im thinking about this ctommy oneshot i wrote about his scars again okay and it was such a flop fic readers wise but i will never not be ill about these hcsof mine!!! if you want to read it is here: These Scars I have Remind Me

[aparticularbandit]

So going through a bunch of Tsumugi art because, you know, want a new phone background.

And so many of the pieces have Tsumugi with a red string, and I'm like, yes, yes, sure, she's the writer, giving her the red string of fate makes absolute sense, mm-hm, just nodding along, like you do.

And then some of the art had the red string as puppet strings for the other characters, and I'm still nodding along, because yes, red string of fate imagery, I see you being applied here in a twisted sense, I get it, but also brain's like, wait, did they have red strings tied to them in the Monokubs background? I can check that later.

And THEN there were images of Tsumugi with needle and thread and the thread is all red and I'm just wait was the thread red in the official character art?

It is.

I'm unpacking layers backwards this morning apparently.