#into it :(

[glados-kisser]

JUST hadthe urge to ask a friend if she wants to play through disco elysium with me, bc i think she'd like it. then i remembered. EVERY TIME i HAVENT finished disco elysium, it's been because i am playing it with another person and we end up stopping playing it.due to circumstance.

[revvethasmythh]

I Lived It: flirted sluttily with Davrin and then immediately after flirted sluttily with Lucanis

[fuckyouandyourhorses]

Group play

No | rather not | I dunno | I guess | Sure | Yes | FUCK yes | Oh god you don’t even know |

[rachie-neyiea]

Beetlejuice Beetlejuice really gave me Lydia Deetz as a medium who has been going into haunted houses for years, meanwhile Beetlejuice obviously spent years building up his bio-exorcism empire. I have connected the dots I see the line here, Lydia this ghost man has been following you (like a very dangerous lost puppy) wayyyy longer than you know.

[teathattast]

Ooh, I'm holding my, holding my breath

Until I'm turning blue (yeah, yeah)

Ooh, don't save me, don't save me, don't save me

I'll fall into you, fall into you

The gravity can't hold us, your hands are outer space

I can't make sense of nothing, oh

This couch is getting smaller, but it's my favorite place

Don't even ask the question

You know what I'm gonna say (say baby)

I'm into it

[revvethasmythh]

intentionally seeking out spoilers for Harding’s romance was great because it single-handedly bumped my priority for romancing her from 5th place to like 3rd

[jamiemaybeme]

i've realised why i'm so scared of losing my friends: an essay of sorts

(this is long btw. there's a tl;dr at the bottom if you really care lmao. also people's names have been changed to their initials, and they're in pink so you don't read them as actual words accidentally)

i think at the end of year six, sh and il moving away left a sort of gap. and i think i tried to ignore it. i kept in contact with them. i texted sh for a year. her forgetting who i was felt like the biggest betrayal ever tbh. i know she just moved on, but i develop such deep platonic connections to people. at the time, i didn't realise this. i mean, i was 12/13 years old, struggling with lockdown and my mental health, i didn't have time to figure out WHY it hurt. i just knew it did.

as the world came out of covid, i started to form relationships like this again. with js and dr, mostly.

come year nine, and i'm in a class with lf. we start to hang out more. shit happens. we don't hang out anymore. but we're still friends. my friendship with dr was brief. i liked her, but i think her ability to shit talk people just immediately threw me off. more shit happens. i don't hang out with dr anymore. lf eventually starts to hang out with us again.

year ten, and i'm in the same class as just lf. and we spend so much time together. i also am in the same dt class as aj, who starts to hang out with us as a group around january i believe?

fast forward to now (end of year eleven). it's coming up to five years since year six ended. it's been about three years since sh stopped texting me back. it's been around two and a half years since i last saw il. it's been two? maybe?? years since things started to return to 'normality'. i've accepted the loss of my primary school friends. it took nearly half a decade. but i did it.

but i don't want to do that again. i don't want to go through the pain of not seeing these people i care about and love so deeply everyday. i struggle to make new friends. i didn't used to. but ever since covid i've changed. that sounds so dramatic and kinda corny, but it's true. i don't want to lose contact with lf. i don't want to never infodump to aj again. i don't want to stop speaking to js. i've found my people, the ones i'm comfortable with. the ones who are my home. it's taken so long, and i CANNOT lose that. i don't know what to do.

i'm bad at staying in contact with people. i forget to text them back. i get scared they don't want to talk to me. i never have any time. i'm always busy. i over commit. to people. to hobbies. i'm very much an all or nothing person. and that's why losing friends hurts. but i don't WANT the moral of this to be "oh i'll get over it in time." i want the moral to be "i will make the biggest effort possible to keep in touch with these three people."

i see bears in trees and i know callum and iain met in primary school. i know callum, iain and nick have been friends since secondary school. and i want that so badly. i want to go to the same uni as my friends. i want to buy a house we can all live in together. i want SO MUCH and i can't have it all. i'm jealous of what they have. i'm jealous they managed to stay together. i don't cope well alone. and i have such a deep love for and bond with my friends that if that breaks i don't know where i'll be. i don't know what i'll do. i don't know who i am without them, to be completely honest. maybe that's a bad thing, but i don't really care. they are everything to me. just like sh was. just like il was. like dr could have been. like [my sister] is, but also not quite like that.

it's why i've asked if we can make music together. i want something that keep us connected. because if and probably when i leave [my school], what do we have? what do we have? we have nothing. nothing except a bond that i hope will hold strong against the test of time. i so badly hope it does. i don't want we don't speak anymore to be relatable. i want it to stay nothing but a fear. i need my friends.

tl;dr: i'm a little bit emotional and i'm scared of losing people i've dedicated my life to

(i exceeded (well reached) the tag limit lmao)

[missmitchieg]

Oh, shit. Ten points to Shady Whistledown.

[pansexualspider]

Nocrushnocrushnocrushnocrushnocrushnocrushnocrushnocrushnocr-

[doctorwhoisadhd]

10 sucks so much in this book

[deepcuts]

Maybe when I can… figure out the best way to put it into words I should post about Staria and my personal belief system with magic and the connection between love and hate- very important things to me I want to devote more time to… but man mental illness and life do be some shit.

[lanaevyssmoved]

[kingandrewburnap]

Photo by Tom Midler for The New Yorker

"the elegant performers Marin Ireland and Andrew Burnap - two experts at seeming torn from another time"

[east-coast-lit-thot]

would you ever lock it up

I have lol

[shormenta]

mana's stsq!!!

[skinnypaleangryperson]

I feel disoriented, there was some parts where Rick spoke that sounded exactly the same as Justin's version if not even better, especially towards the end when he was talking to PB, but there was times at the beginning when I couldn't get into it at all. I'll probably get used to it the more I rewatch which will be frequently, considering that he's my muse and the only thing that I have left in my life to keep me from going crazy, but it's definitely a little bit all over the place.