#intersubjective requital

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On the first day of Christmas my nightmares gave to meee~

A patch to seal away god.

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iNtersubJeCtiVe requital chapter 20 spoilers

“'You said that you were effectively a god…and you were defeated, laid low, by an eleven year old girl with a keyboard and a heavy dose of spite.'"

I was thinking about making another doodle page for IR but HOO BOY there was a lot to love about chapter 20.

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OH HEY LOOK IR!

theyre in a polycule

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-_-

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Through a Mirror Darkly

Someone woke up after death...and had a bit of an existential crisis...

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Also made and saved this version of Simon(?) :]

I SEE THAT LIL TINGE OF YELLOW THERE OWWWWW

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So this made me spit take as things exactly the dynamic I have them in IR LOL

Pictures that make you go Hmmmmm

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So...lil bit of a spoiler/teaser for the new IR chapter...mainly because I'm proud of it and because I'm also just...heartbroken as heck after writing it.

“Nothing!?” J demanded, “Did nothing happen when you stabbed It with the applicator gun? Was it nothing that happened to the Mildenhalls? Did nothing happen when you refused to take the blame for It dumping food on your mother’s chest? Was it nothing that happened to N? Or when we found out about that Thing! Did nothing happen to V, to me, because we went after it!? Boss…if you don’t stop…It will kill you. And I…” she was shaking, trembling with restrained fury and terror as the hollow ivory rings turned up to face Tessa, “I cannot, in good faith, believe that Cyn would want that for you. Because I sure as hell do not. And I’d like to believe…that I knew my senior coworker better than to believe she would be ok with our most precious asset, our Tessa, to throw her life away like the trash her parents believe her worth to be.”

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Been writing so much manor crew and manor era stuff it took me a hot minute to remember how to write Uzi.

I need to split my stuff up a bit more haha.

Don't worry, I think I still got her down pat :3

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Hey guys, just wanted to give a little heads up...uh, kinda going through a rough patch at the moment (no, not from political things I promise).

The chapter for iNtersubJeCtiVe requital is still being worked on but it's a little slow because it's...dealing with a lot of manipulation tactics and it's dredging up some sucky memories. It kinda needs to be done so that I can get to the fun stuff later. I'm just...not in a good head space right now and wanted to let you guys know that hey! I'm not dead! I've not forgotten you guys! I'm just...trying to wade through a subject with some awful memories.

And a lot of second guessing myself asking if I did the right thing.

But uh, as a treat I have a little snippet of Suns, Moons and Stars section I did the other night and I'll post that under the break. I want to give you guys something...even if all I've got to show are a fantasy human AU (chapter 2 which was posted last night) and a snippet of something that will probably get changed up in the future.

So uh, sorry for all that.

"…N…do you…want to have kids?"

He didn't look at her, his claws ticked against his knees and his tail coiled around his ankle in a self soothing notion. Uzi gave a sigh and put a hand on his wrist.

"Dude…look at me," she said.

He turned to her, but…she had the distinct feeling that his true eyes were roaming.

"All of them," she reiterated, giving a smile when she heard the soft whirr of the other five cameras looking back at her, "Ok. Dude, I'm not gonna be mad if you don't. To be honest…I…think I'd be a pretty shi-" she stopped as she saw his screen flicker, "Crappy Mom," she amended, "but…I think you'd be a great Dad. I think…I'm kinda the expert on bad dads. Even if mine's trying to fix things."

"You wouldn't be a crummy Mom, Uzi," his voice was soft, "I think I'd be the expert on that…"

"Yeah the Spazz's mom was just…yikes," Uzi winced, "So…why would you think you'd be a bad dad?"

"…Y'know how back at the mines…there was the collapse that separated us?" he started, "Um…well…I got…cornered. By the Solver. It um…It tried to make me betray you. By…showing me a future that It could make come true if I…helped It."

He swallowed and his hands trembled.

"…She looked like you," his voice cracked, "She looked…so much…like you. And I just…gave her up. An-And her brother…I-I gave him up too…he looked like me…he…he hugged me. Called me 'Daddy'…I…I-I just…" he took a long breath, "…I didn't want to leave…I-I know that makes me sound horrible but…I just…I-I…" he put his head in his hands, "I'm sorry…I-I killed the dream. I-I killed them…I-I had to get back to you! I had to keep you safe, to help you…an-and I…I killed them. I made sure…they wouldn't exist."

"First off…That stupid program can bite me for doing that to you," Uzi glared, "Second off…that doesn't mean you're a bad dad. You knew it wasn't real. They weren't real. And I highly doubt any kid would want to look like me. Not when they have a sick as hell Dad like you," she lightly socked him in the shoulder. "I…dunno if I'm really kinda…ready for kids yet. Dude, I'm 21. Just because we got married doesn't mean we have to have kids right away. Besides…I'm still kinda a mess myself. I want to…y'know…kinda live a little first? Mom didn't really have the chance to heal after the whole thing at the labs before I was born. And as much as I love, loved…" her voice cracked slightly as pain flickered over her screen, "my Mom? I…I don't want my kid, our kid…to go through what I did, y'know? Having them grow up hearing their Mom screaming in the night, having them grow up with people calling their Mom crazy? Because of ramblings she had a tendancy to do? I don't want that for them. I want them to grow up…normal, y'know? Well…not normal. Normal's lame. But you get what I mean."

He looked at her, a ghost of a smile tugging at his lips.

"I thought I was the one supposed to be 'emotional support incarnate'?" he gave a weak chuckle.

"Oh bite me N," Uzi glared.

"Mmmm later," he purred as he pulled her into a hug, resting her forehead against his collar strut, "But…I do know one thing, Universe,"

He pulled her back slightly before touching her forhead to his. A spark of blue-white electric static arced from between the screens.

"If we have kids…the only person I could ever dream of having them with is you,"

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Hey y'all, so those reading iNtersubJeCtiVe requital right now met Serial Designation T and her fluffiest of fluffy ponytails. Well, she belongs to this AMAZING guy right here and he gave me permission to use her for IR. So if you wanna see more of T (and of Levi!) please go check this story out. It's one of my favorites and I'm honored beyond words to have been able to use T for this recent chapter of IR.

LETS GO NEW UPDATE

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The Morozovs (Yeva and her husband Alexei) are that one spy/soldier couple that have weapons on their entire person and every time they try to get intimate they spend like three hours disarming from places that realistically there should not be weapons hidden.

Yes this includes the human versions of them in my stuff.

Doll has this habit ingrained as well.

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On the ninth day of Christmas my nightmares gave to meee~

Nine berries rotting

Eight chessboard pieces

Seven meals a week

Six geese a dying

Fiiiive silver knives!

Four broken drones

Three Solver glyphs

Two mementos

And a Patch to seal away god!

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Me reading all of the comments on the IR chapter I just posted. Grinning. Kicking my feet and giggling.

Oh. Ohhhhh you guys have no idea what I have planned coming up :3

And it will be glorious.

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On the third day of Christmas my nightmares gave to meeeee~

Three Solver glyphs

Two Mementos

And a patch to seal away god!

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Debating on doing another Suns, Moons and Stars chapter or a Jaded Stars chapter….

And at the same time just…frothing at the mouth wanting to drop the IR chapter that’s been written because I’m a horrible person but I need to waaaaaait.