⁰. hogwarts, aka her hell away from hell. how she had longed to return & how she now longs to escape. a cycle as familiar as it is vicious. if a certain rag hag didn’t stir the school up, she would have been gone the second they let a broomstick back in her hand. (well, no, but she would have fantasized about it.) but misery loves company, so here she is, miserably laughing at someone else. it’s basically free therapy for someone as masochistic as her.
“and here i was thinking the goblin’s gazette wouldn’t have anything juicy to report on in the first month. rarely am i wrong, but at least when i am, it’s worth it.”
I have many names but you can call me MONI/MARK/MIGUEL/TEGIRI (TEG)/ICHIKA/GIDEON/DANTE/EZEQUIEL (you dont have to use all of them, as long you respect them, im okay), im a weird freaky guy who likes to do silly things
im a GNC CISTRANS TRANS MAN/TRANSMASC GIRL AEGOSEXUAL GREYROMANTIC ACHILLEAN GAYBIAN who uses HE/IT pronouns (use masc + fem terms)
More info about me under cut:
BASIC INFO:
Minor (16 y.o)
My birthday is June 20 (gemini gang ♊️)
ESFJ
For the Homestuck fans, im a heir of breath and prospit dreamer (my true sign is Gemus)
Chaotic good
multi / rarepair shipper
multifandom
white latino (argentinian) (ESP/ENG)
selfshipper (ezekiel's bf 🤭💚✨️)
artist and writer (Sometimes)
in my total drama and avril lavigne era
INTERESTS:
Total drama (lol)
Homestuck
Scott pilgrim (all medias)
Lacey Games
Horror media content in general (games, shows, movies, books, etc)
Literature
History
Creepypastas + MLP Creepypastas
DDLC
Vocaloid
Internet
PJSEKAI / Project Sekai
Bandori
The Eltingville Club
Madoka Magica
Animanga
AUs (Alternative Universes)
Shipping
Zero Day
Etc...
BYF / B4 U INT.:
I use and need tone tags, its not obligatory to use them but I would be grateful if you do so
I write fast so I will often have mistakes in words.
Stupid to clarify this but im neurotypical
Im okay with gore and nsfw content, as long it isnt a problematic thing (like pedo, zoo, etc)
I usually do nsfw jokes and flirt in a jokingly way, if u are uncomfortable with this, let me know
I am a slow person when it comes to make (art) requests or answer some questions in my askbox, be patient and feel privileged if I get to answer ur question in the askbox fast (😅)
I can be annoying about my interests (including my AUs)
I don't like to talk about political issues and I don't tolerate questions regarding my political opinions or views on something, I don't mind arguing but I would prefer that you leave out the political stuff when talking to me (and also because I'm stupid and don't have the skills to debate about it)
Im pro mogai and i support ‘contradictory labels’ (mspec lesbians/gays, straight lesbians/gays, lesboys/turigirls, etc), i dont mind if u dont support them but dont be annoying about hating it or avoid sending me hate bc of it
TAGS FOR THE ACC
#sacc_intro: self explanation
#sacc_reblog: all my reblogs
#sacc_art: all my art posts
#sacc_talks: texts or things I say for no reason
#sacc_ask: all my asks
#sacc_fankids: my fankids / fankid requests
#total drama island of the chaos / #tdiotc: my td swap AU posts
I dont have a DNI list, if i dont like u or i find u annoying i will just block you owo 🎀✨
Week 15 kicked off with Thursday Night Football Chargers @ Raiders
Nothing short of an embarrassment for the Chargers under backup QB Easton Stick as they get mollywhopped 63-21 by the Raiders on TNF.
Stick, who is replacing the injured Justin Herbert, didn't really have a bad game going 23/32 for 257 yards, 3 TDs and 1 INT but it couldn't match the Raiders electrified offense tonight with rookie QB Aidan O'Connell going 20/34 for 248 yards and 4 TDs, and their defense also adding 2 TDs, and a trick play by WR Jakobi Meyers throwing to star WR Davante Adams for another TD. 👀
Chargers coach Brandon Staley's seat getting pretty hot with the team losing their last 5 out of 6 and sitting in last place in the AFC West at 5-9.
Canadian companies holding assets in Luxembourg, according to the report:
Thomson Reuters, Restaurant Brands Int.(Burger King & Tim Hortons), Brookfield Corp, Enbridge, TD Bank, Magna Int, Sun Life, Cenovus Energy, Kinross Gold Corp, Great West Life Co/Power Corp, CAE Inc, CIBC, Bombardier
It is irrational, but I was wishing I could return to the hospital, last night. I wanted Angela close by again, but in the safe place of the hospital.
And this leaves me wondering if I push her away because I am unsure if I have the strength of will not to give in to her preference.
But I will be in a therapist’s office again by the end of the month, and we will begin the work to make us whole again. I hope.
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It is a pattern that we find ourselves in conflict with authorities. We do not break the rules, necessarily, but we attract their anger anyway.
I played chess with a friend in the hospital. I described to her the challenges I find when playing games like chess. I do not have the focus for the game, but there is more to it than that.
When I play games with other people, I think of the game as a puzzle, and I want to solve the puzzle as a team with the other person. We do not solve so that one person wins and the other loses, but that we explore what can be done within the solutions.
I enjoy Scrabble most when we do not hide our letters but work to find the highest scoring words we can make of them together.
I work best with employers who do not lead from the top down. I work best with employers who lead as a team. This is why I do poorly in traditional employment organizations.
Authorities who imagine leadership in gradations of absolute power tend to see me as disrespectful of their authority. They tend to see the organizational structure as the last word on who is right and who is wrong. Then I walk in and size up the environment, as is our survival skill, and break implied rules willy nilly and unfound their authority. So, they entrench themselves over a point that is unsustainable, and that becomes the hill they will die on. They will bring me into line if it kills them.
I rarely understand why they have made such a great fuss over so little a point [“I” rarely understand, but I think the unfused part understands more quickly than I do], and neither does the rest of the world, usually. It tends to cost them credibility.
But, I can tend to be seen as attempting a coup.
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The Tech Director of a theater. The Vice President of a small company. The Vice President of the next. Countless teachers. A smaller number of Sunday School Teachers. And now at least two doctors.
There is a definite pattern. And perhaps I flatter myself too much for thinking this has not come at a price to me.
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As a child, we spent the most time with two friends. R was the leader because he would whine and complain endlessly if he was not. V was second because he would not be last. We followed.
But big decisions, or new ideas, tended to come from us. R and V would argue and find no compromise, then they would turn to us.
We led from behind.
At the theater, the (second) tech director over-designed sets and had the leadership skills of a four-year-old. He announced that we would work on our traditional weekly morning off before a matinee, so we said “I” would not. Nobody worked. (Between setting up for work, and then breaking down again, we could only have completed an hour of work anyway, so why not get rested up so we could do that work the next day?)
This did not blow over well, but we were employed the next season, when the TD was not invited to return.
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In maybe a less than admirable way, however, we came to recognize when an authority was ready to pick a hill to die on. Experience taught us to make one hill more enticing for battle than another, then we would give them their victory. Except their battle and victory would appear unnecessary to everyone, and they would appear unreasonable and irrational as a result.
The authority figure would then need to regain credibility and to make amends, and they would be less likely to want to battle with me afterward. Or they would search for their next hill to die on. Either way, we would appear only an innocent target of their irrational anger.
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While this was not the intent at the recent hospital, it may have been the result.
But no, I know that we picked the hill for the doctor to die on. This has the signature of the unfused part all over it.
I contacted a disability rights lawyer. The doctor assumed I would try to take him to court, and we both knew that my arguments would be insufficient to carry the burden of proof in a courtroom. But I kept him focused on the lawyer until I knew he had gone far enough to warrant an internal complaint against his actions. He had behaved poorly enough for the hospital to take notice, even after the lawyer had already closed out the file. The presence of the lawyer only increased the potential threat the hospital would have been under, should they condone the doctor’s bad behavior.
I initially said it was not the intent because it was pretty far from my intent. I can piece it together after the fact, to see that this had to have, at least at some point, the unfused part’s intent.
The doctor may have squeaked out of the complaint against himself easily, but we then filed a complaint against his superiors for permitting an environment in which a doctor could commit abuses. Regardless of the burden of proof, the hospital does not want risk going to court so needlessly in the future. Plus, it looks pretty bad when a doctor is allowed to freely contravene the explicit mission and values of the statewide organization that just bought them out.
We read the environment and protected ourselves from abuse. Primarily. We also gave the hospital impetus to bolster protections for those who follow. These are good things.
But I still feel the pattern of destruction that follows me. I still feel the wounds of battle.
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My life would be so much easier if this was not the pattern.
We have encountered those who can see the pattern and manage to sidestep our “traps.”
Or they have been very lucky.
And then we do not protect ourselves. We do not do good things.
In these times, we walk away only with the wounds.
I take no more pleasure in victory than in defeat.
The Texans are already down the rabbit hole as they struggled offensively and rookie QB CJ Stroud got battered by 5 sacks in his NFL debut. Ravens QB Lamar Jackson had a mediocre outing throwing for 169 yards, 0 TDs, 1 INT and 2 fumbles. He also ran for 38 yards on 6 attempts.
Jackson Arnold & Denton Guyer GET BUSY vs Rockwall-Heath 🔥 | FULL GAME H...
I really don’t expect many or any of you to watch this so I’ll tell you real quick what it is.
Jackson Arnold in a big game in high school. He throws a ball 51 yards effortlessly for a touchdown. You can see how big he is, but is a fast runner. He scrambles very well and is strong. He throws mid range passes that are darts. His stats for the year 3,931 yds, 68.8% completion, 34 TDs and only 5 INT.
In hindsight you notice he does lock on his receivers.
Remember the Sooners have no running game this year. He was our running game. He was our leading rusher coming into the Tennessee game. I think his numbers when you pull out the sacks were 201 yds. Not great but the best we had.
His running style - in case you’ve already forgotten. Fast, strong, makes sharp cuts, but they are sharp north south cuts. He could definitely get out of trouble and make big yards on a scramble, but is not “elusive.”