#insurance i never use bc i dont fucking go anywhere

[kudae]

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[dancing-cockroaches]

I got a prescription for a nebulizer atleast 2+ months ago and I really regret not filling it, everytime my asthma comes around to kick me in the ass I'm like "damn i should really hand in this script" but I cant do that at 8 PM which is the time at which I go out (I hate going out during the day) and the time the thought occurs to me. And at this point I dont even know if the pharmacy would fill it. Or if theyd be like "bitch this script is from June. It is september. Get out". My pharmacy is CVS, they dont even have nebulizers in my area, so I'd have to go to a different pharmacy, and I've been going through CVS for so long I dont even remember how to enroll in a pharmacy. Sometimes it just feels like CVS just knows what insurance I have through magic or some shit, because they've never asked me for my card and I've gotten my medicine from them for pretty much my whole life with 0 issues. I just walk up and they're like "ok here's your adderall that'll be $5" even if it's a different location and I'm pretty sure the process would not be that simple with a completely different pharmacy. I know fuck-all about pharmacy billing despite working in health insurance because of how seamless CVS makes it seem. I moved thousands of miles and these employees didnt even skip a beat, no "oh uh we'll just need to see your insurance card" or "you're in Nevada, but your insurance on file was last updated 2 decades ago and is a NY state insurance so that's weird" nope just "hey, you've never been to this location before, but here's your birth control. It's free by the way".

Do they have to like, contact my insurance? I have NY state insurance, these people are thousands of miles away from NY so they've most likely never seen this insurance. My insurance would cover it, I already know they would, but would the pharmacy fumble it? It's happened - once my claim was submitted to blue cross blue shield of fucking Arizona for some reason. I don't even have BC/BS (you could say technically I do, but I really dont) and I dont live in Arizona. My insurance just confuses the fuck outta people for some reason (ok tbh for good reason, it is kinda funky cuz it's called NYSHIP but is technically UHC but depending on circumstance some of it is BC/BS and some of it is Beacon health, now owned by Anthem, which all sounds very confusing but I swear to fuck it is miles better & less confusing than bitches like Medicare.. fuck Medicare, this is a pro-Medicare slander blog, so I'll shit talk them wherever I can squeeze it in), not like they're combative or deny a lot of things, they'll fuckin approve anything (UNLIKE FUCKING MEDICARE), they're just not common here. It's also literally called Empire Plan/NY State Health Insurance, making them assume it's only a NY insurance despite that not being the case, you can only get it in NY, but it can be used anywhere.

[locktobre]

very mean!!!! very negative!!!!!!!!!!!! rant ahead lmao

my brother told me the other day that he doesn’t need friends and that’s like the saddest thing ive ever heard and it also pisses me off bc it s like no wonder ur depressed!!! you don’t talk to anyone!!! you don’t go anywhere!!!!!!!! you’re not even fucking TRYING all you do is sit in your room and play video games and watch tv that’s not living, at all. you’re not trying so of course you’re not going to get better!!!!!

im depressed too!!! do u know how hard it is for me to leave the house 5 days a week for my job? its so hard and i hate it but also, it helped me so much bc im like, out of the house. i get up and go somewhere and even tho i don’t go very many other places, it’s still SOMETHING. im busting my ass to be alive! im trying hard and i don’t even have the benefit of medications!!!!! (long story short i used to take antidepressants and then i kept forgetting to take them and so i just. stopped and never got back on and now i have 0 insurance so its not really an option anymore) 

im TRYING!! really hard!!!!!!!! and it doesnt get any easier but its better than what hes fucking doing which is NOTHING! and then im supposed to feel bad that hes suicidal? fucking do it then!!!!!!! thats a horrible thing to say but im so tired of going through this, im tired of being afraid of what hes going to do, im tired im tired im fucking TIRED!!!! leave me alone!!!! stop ruining my life bc i am trying my best to live right now!!! im giving all i got and you just keep fucking dragging me down. go ahead and do it i dont fucking care i just want it to be over so i can get on with my life. my mom would be devastated but im so past caring. im so past it. i was past it YEARS ago and you have to ruin my day telling me hes suicidal again!!! what did i fucking do to deserve this just leave me ALONE