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chocoboyjames · 5 years ago

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#FFxivWrite2019 - 2 - Bargain

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“James!” a panicked female voice shot through the stables of the Bentbranch Meadows. The blonde Midlander dropped his broom in fright, a loud clattering followed, when hastened footsteps came closer to him. “A pack of Poachers stole Lucia!” James turned around, his eyes widened as he witnessed his Mi’qote colleague catching her breath as she leaned against the stable door. “I was out with her, giving her a nice walk after she’s been in the stable too long, you know? Because she’s finally healthy again, and she’s not sick anymore!” The young man blinked a few times, before he began to soothe her. “Hush now, H’olga.” he tried to remain calm, yet hearing the words ‘poachers’ and ‘stole’ in one sentence when it came to chocobos, was never a good sign. “Where have they taken her?” H’olga tried to take a deep breath, but it turned into a loud sniff. “The South Shroud!” James gritted his teeth, the South Shroud was known to be home to a few poachers, but for them to go at a chocobo. “I’ll get her back.” the blonde Midlander hissed out, clearly not to be trifled with, if a chocobo was in trouble. “I’ll take Dorian, and ride for the South Shroud.” “Be careful, you know they are not to be trifled with!” She made a yammering sound, and James but his hand on her shoulder, making a weak smile. “It’s going to be alright, I’ll bring Lucia back, I promise.”

After grabbing his jacket, lance and saddle for Dorian, he prepared himself and his chocobo to set out for the South Shroud. Not soon after their small journey began, raindrops started to fall. “By the Twelve, such a great timing.” he mumbled under his breath, yet he didn’t let this stop him from going. A bell later, he arrived in the South Shroud, and looked around the area to see if there were any poachers about, he could spot before he would need to venture out too far into their territory. Yet, little did he know a poacher already catched the sight of him. An arrow flew by James’ ear, who in shock tugged heavily at Dorian’s reigns. The chocobo made a loud kweh, and with panic of what just had happened. The Midlander slipped off and with a loud grunt he landed on the muddy ground. His chocobo was about to run away, but more poachers approached from the bushes. “Seems that female stablehand has called for help!” one of the poachers shouted, the arrow still nooked on her bow, which was aimed at James, who still lay face flat on the ground. “And another chocobo to capture!” another one laughed. Dorian made a few threatening shoves with his talons, ready to defend his master, but it seemed now five poachers surrounded them. James spit out some mud that came into his mouth from the fall and looked up seeing that same display. “I’ve only come here to retrieve our chocobo.” he carefully began, and raised his hands to show he was unarmed. “Retrieve the chocobo, lad?” one of them laughed. “And what is your offer?” “Offer? You see this as a chance to bargain with our chocobos?” James hissed, and clearly became the more furious. “There won’t be any bargaining if we just shoot you down and take yours as well!” The young man wiped a bit of the mud from his face and had a hard time containing the rage that was now building up inside him. His lance was strapped on Dorian’s saddle, who now was a few steps away. If he could just reach it, he might give a few good swings and take them down.

“Fine, then my offer is this.” James began with a tone of confidence in his voice. “If I beat all of you, you’re to return her to the stables anon.” “And what if you lose, little boy?” she sounded all the more menacing. “You’ll get to take my chocobo.” The rest of the poachers laughed and James saw this as his chance.

Without further ado, he made a slippery attempt to reach out for his lance. Another arrow was shot, and razed past his shoulder. Every single poacher reacted, a fellow lancer already lunged towards James, who in the meantime had a wonderful opportunity to get ahold of his weapon.

“Dorian! Now would be a good time!” James shouted, and the chocobo made an aggressive chirp, and shoved a good amount of mud towards the poacher with the bow, who then slid on the ground. James was now engaged in fighting the lancer, which was more a slippery dance, than clashing weapons.

“You little shite!” the poacher growled, and James made a grin on how easy it was to dodge them. It was far easier than the sparrings with his father. In a flash, he found a chance to grab the poacher’s lance and give a good tug at it, making the man slide over into the mud as well. Two down, three more to go. James glanced over, and saw how Dorian was playfully yet aggressively made two of them trying to catch him. A smile formed on the Midlander’s face, the chocobo really had learned a lot from his training. Pride engulfed James for a mere moment, before a sword swooped down on him, which he blocked just in time.

“You should’ve taken the faster way out!” She hissed and pushed her sword closer to James, who was still blocking it with his lance. A loud kweh was heard from behind James, almost as if his chocobo was in distress, and in an instant he looked over his shoulder, seeing if his companion was fairing well. The two men had their weapons drawn at Dorian, who didn’t seem impressed by it at all. A strong kick into one’s stomach, and with a loud thud he landed on the ground. Yet the female poacher didn’t let this moment slide, and when James looked over, she lashed out to his face. A loud gasp echoed through the forest, when the young chocobo caretaker felt a sharp blade rush past his right upper cheek. He covered his wound with his hand, trying not to let the pain overcome him. Dorian made a few threatening steps towards his opponent, yet the man shivered slightly, dropped his weapon and ran away. The chocobo then rushed over to his master’s aid.

“You did well to take them all down, but let’s see if you can take me-” before the female poacher could finish, Dorian ran her over, and she rolled a few malms away. James blinked a few times, realising what had just happened and made a soft and relieving sigh.

“Well done, my dear friend.” He gave his chocobo a big hug and once more touched his wound to cover it up a little. “Now, please do bring me back Lucia.” he panted, making a firm grab on his lance, shuffling over towards the female poacher, who lay on the ground defeated, her squad too, inshame alongside her. “Do as he ask…” she spit towards James’ boots, and one of the poachers nodded heavily and took off. “Take this as a warning, that we are not to be trifled with.” James spoke up, pointing the lance into the woman’s face. “You do not want to touch our chocobos ever again. See this as a lesson.”

The female poacher looked away with anger in her eyes, clearly still ashamed by her defeat, frustrated even. A kweh was heard from a behind a few trees and suddenly Lucia was in view with the poacher who was ordered to get her. Dorian made a very loud and excited chirp in return, clearly happy to see her back as well. “My thanks.” James grinned, and got ahold of Lucia’s reign. “Don’t even think about trying anything.”

A last warning, and the young Midlander walked away from the group of poachers. When they were far away from them, James finally knew he was able to relax, and call this a well deserved victory. Little did he know that he would be so brave to take on a band of poachers. He shivered slightly of what might’ve been had things gone wrong. Yet, when he arrived back at the stables, the smile of H’olga seeing her beloved Lucia back, made it all vanish. Today was a victory, it was now time to celebrate.

#ffxivwrite2019 #I suddenly discovered a new treat! bravery xD #when it comes to chocobos!

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babyawacs · 3 years ago

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indigomountaingirl · 4 years ago

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20 Year Old Me

I am living in Hawaii - this year all my previously unfulfilled dreams became realized.

I am in the yin time of my year - taking several months off to recharge and heal. In the stillness, so much has bubbled forth to be felt and released.

My feet have been hurting for almost two years - but that isn't necessarily a story for now. - Ancestral

In the past few days, I have had a flare of up Staph infection. The first time I got it I was 20.

I didn't tell a soul, I was too ashamed. Unstead I lied to my teachers and friends in college saying I had been badly burned by hot water on the stove.

What was actually true is that every day for a week I had to waddle in excruciating pain to the med clinic on campus. Every day they proceeded to splay me open on the table and squeeze the puss from my infection which happened to be located on the right side of my yoni.

Inflamed, infected, inshame I was.

They let me bring Kaia every day as my emotional support pup and this is when she overcame her fear of men. She somehow feels a part of this story.

Anyway, the infection came back here in Hawaii. At first I thought it was an ingrown pubic hair but after a day or two I realized that it was a resurgence and it happened around Thanksgiving this year when I was with this new family in Hawaii.

It has stirred so much and rather than continue to try and find willing ears (of which i am not sure there are any who fully want to hear) I shall share the stirrings here.

I also had a re-emergence a year or two after the original and I was able to heal it rather quickly in the shower on some LSD. I stood under the running water and shook and shook while I released endless shame from my family, the festering energy I received from my fathers line. The disease of my ancestors. After many hours, cold water and a healing stone I was able to clear that infection in a day or two which felt miraculous and clicked on my awareness that I can heal karma through my body. I was 22 or 23 at the time.

Currently the flare has brought much with it. I am rapidly remembering many things from my 20 year old self.

When I drop into her energy she is fragmented and lost. It has been quite painful and aggrivating to re-experience.

Memories that have arisen:

This was my second senior year of college. I was living in the basement apartment on Loomis street only a few houses down from Spencer (not surprised - karmic loop).

I had fractured 4 bones that year due to my Adderal addiction and shitty nutrition + eating disorder. When I broke my foot both me and the person I was with were too intoxicated to remember how I had broken it.

I was largely checked out on adderal, pain meds, exstasy, weed and alcohol.

I had recently gotten picked up by an ambulance and taken to the hospital because I was too intoxicated and drugged to deal with - I am grateful the cocaine in my pocket wasn't discovered and I wasn't charged with anything beyond the ambulance charge.

I had $2,000 worth of weed stolen from my house and pretty much outed myself to the police which ended my dealing career.

My mom kept saying " we are not getting the trip to Costa Rica until we know if you are graduating." I finally said, can you just say "WHEN I GRADUATE INSTEAD" and she bought the trip soon after.

Good decisions: I did my first ever Master Cleanse and quit tobacco.

I broke up with Jordan, who I wasn't even in relationship with so that I could focus on graduating. Ended up with my best grades of college experience with a 3.8.

It seems I need to continue on another post

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