#infertile!dickgrayson agenda

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👉👈 can we get any headcanons on pup or adult Damian and his crush on Jason plss

The Pup Years

Damian makes an indisputable claim over Jason regardless of Jason's status as Damian's nursemaid. It causes quite the scandal in the League because what (it's not even an intent to court; it's the boldest proclamation to make and ahhhhh)

Even Jason is alarmed because he's just the damn nanny what even?? ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)━

Damian remains adamant about it though because Jason isn't 'just a nanny.' Jason is competent and capable - a skilled warrior, a fierce protector, a partner to grow with and be challenged by; Damian is not interested in a mate that cannot be his equal.

Which is a separate scandal because 1) Jason is an omega with negative pedigree and 2) he came to them impure; it would look poorly for Damian to stoop so low and--

It takes the nursemaid to subdue Damian after such a personal attack. People still talk shit, but Damian minds himself per his omega's request.

Jason anticipates it being a puppy crush that'll fade with time. He's the only kindness that Damian has known so far, so -- it'll pass. Everyone else comes to anticipate this, too. A youthful folly unbecoming a Demon's heir, but it'll pass.

In the meantime, there's just a lot of shenanigans of Damian being a lovesick pup and embarrassing the fuck out of Jason with his romantic overtures.

Still Pup Years

Jason doesn't remember Damian, not even his scent and while that kills a part of him, it's fine. Jason is still his omega.

And Dick is - well. Dick holds a respected position in Damian's life, but smelling him on Jason provokes Damian's ire like none other

So he throws down his glove with every intention to challenge Dick for Jason's hand

And Dick and Jason are very Σ(ﾟ口ﾟ;)// because they're not actually together - just fucking around for convenience and how the fuck did Damian sniff them out?

Anyway, Damian putting Dick through the paces to win Jason

It's the catalyst for Dick and Jason actually falling for each other and Damian is seriously so (ʘ言ʘ╬) because he did this to himself??

Alpha Years w/ Dickjay

Damian's puppy crush persisting until even after Damian presents as an alpha. His devotion to Jason isn't so shallow though; he doesn't need reciprocated feelings to adore Jason or find peace in his happiness

Jason will always be his regardless of how Damian has him

Content with Jason's choice in partner (if only because Dick fought for him and won -- fights for him even still and makes Jason happy)

There is one problem though: Dick can't pup Jason.

It's something they say they're 'fine' with, but Damian is no fool. The solution is obvious though and--

Just Damian casually offering himself up to pup Jason on Dick's behalf and Jason gets so flustered and embarrassed because omfg this fucking pup thank you but ahhhhhhhh OTL

[002yb]

if you're up for it, could you say more about infertile alpha dick? or recommend any fics?

It's a detail about himself that Dick keeps close to his chest

Went through all the stages of grief over it. Straddles the line between acceptance and resignation because Dick has a complicated relationship with how he feels about having a family of his own

On the one hand, no. Absolutely not. He's aware of the lifestyle he chooses to live and he's conscious of the fact that he won't give it up for anything. Doesn't matter how he wants or yearns for something - Dick chooses vigilantism and he won't put his mate/his pup/any child through that stress/potential for danger/capacity for loss. Dick's life isn't conducive for stability or happiness (he doesn't deserve it).

On the other hand, yes. Please, yes. Because Dick has always wanted a love like his parents. He's nostalgic for the family that was taken from him too soon. He wants a mate, a pack, pups. A whole litter of them - a circus of his own.

The softest alpha when he comes across an expecting omega; always unwittingly lights up because of it.

The same goes for pups. Dick adores them. Is good with them. They congregate around him because he's fun, sure, but more than that it's this hindbrain thing of recognizing safety

Dick doesn't think he'd make a good alpha, let alone a good dad; he doesn't recognize that a lot of people already see him that way in both regards

When anyone asks about his plans for that part of his future, he deflects. He's good about it; discreet. Some people pick up on it before others, but regardless of who figures something might be wrong, Dick doesn't want to talk about it. It's forgotten about, soon enough. A secret for Dick to keep.

It's a bit painful when people talk about what a lovely family he'll have one day though because he knows that's not in the cards for him. It's not even a choice.

It's for the better though, he lies to himself. Again and again.

Basically longing x10000000 but Dick will deny that

Dickjay Portion:

Dick lays with his head on Jason's stomach a lot. His ear pressed to Jason's abdomen, arms wrapped loose around him as Jason scratches his fingers through Dick's hair

Spaces out a lot like that. Thinking of what a beautiful mother Jason would make. How if there was anyone for Dick to share that with - but he cuts the thought off there because it hurts. He nuzzles into Jason's stomach and forces his thoughts elsewhere.

Meanwhile Jason is internally cursing up a storm because fuck, Dick's head on his stomach like this is sweet. It's like what Jason has imagined Dick would do if Jason was -- if Jason could -- and he gets self-conscious because Jason can't give that to Dick

Basically them both making assumptions and wanting each other to be happy without realizing they're experiencing the same struggles

When they do share the truth with each other though - fuck.

Relief but also empathy and heartache and devastation for one another. Jason bringing Dick down to rest Dick's head on Jason's chest and just holding him. Because Jason is stricken by the loss on Dick's behalf. Because he's not blind. Dick can say what he wants; he can lie, but Jason sees how this man wanted that life and he can't have it. Even if Jason wanted it for himself and could give it - Dick can't.

Not getting into adoption debate here. Because guilt complex so big neither of them could pick one and leave others. That aside, concept is different from practice either way. Their lives are too dangerous and they know firsthand what it is to be damned by their livelihoods - this community.

Dickjay, but the comedic bullet point that doesn't really match the rest of the vibes here:

Dick is a kinky guy he mourns the loss of not being able to make Jason plump with his litter of pups it's just kind of tragic

Extras:

Some world where he meets Mar'i somehow and it devastates him. Not in any way that breaks him, but his heart is so full that he sure it bursts. He'd be so awestruck by her. Tender and soft and proud because she's wonderful - sweet girl.

Less niche, more general. Where Dick still helps Roy get baby Lian. Just Dick holding this precious pup to his chest, supporting her and smelling the top of her head for that pup smell and being so in love and the pup isn't even his. Dick not being so much reluctant to let go, but struggling with it all the same because he wants this; he wants and wants and wants. But it's okay because Roy treats Lian just as dear and Dick loves to see his friend have that happiness. That besides, Roy lets Dick stay. Dick gets to help look after and raise her. It's not the same, but Dick is happy for it regardless.

This idea of soft and sweet alpha!dad Dick lives alongside a separate headcanon that Dick would be the sort of dad that is peak casual. Just holding pups like footballs and rigging up questionable contraptions to keep the babe occupied while he works on something.

Oh geez this ask is becoming about Dick and babies more than anything I'm sorry but like. Dick doing pushups and kissing the top of his kid's head every time he lowers himself down? The baby giggling and smacking his face?? Meanwhile Jason is sat a little ways away, completely enamored and endeared and oops - here comes the baby fever; pup him the fuck up, please.

Only not because this is an infertile!alpha!Dick ask. Big sad.