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peri-berrypawductions · 17 days ago

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WANDERGRIEF.. BUT SWAPPED! :D

I’ve actually had the au for a bit! Just never posted about it until now!!! Finished the designs now, too! ^^

Basically, in this version of Wandergrief (which I’ll call swapgrief) instead of Kiwi losing their loved ones.. it’s Miriam.

While Kiwi gets to keep their Mom and Sister, Miriam.. is not so lucky. Grandma Saphy dies of old age. Miriam had been expecting this, as she and Saphy had divinated that she’d pass before the end of the world, which was coming soon. Miriam obviously wasn’t too sure what to make of this.. so she just.. spent as much time with Saphy as she could before waking up one morning to find her still and at peace, a smile on her face, not breathing anymore.

She didn’t cry, though.

She had been expecting this…but it still hurt.

Miriam, in this au, is a lot less grumpy, more or so just.. Numb, in a way? Melancholic? She isn’t as rude, if rude at all, not really feeling the energy to really get mad unless it’s someone like Audrey or someone REALLY presses her buttons. Sometimes when she’s in a REALLY bad mood she’ll lash out at the smallest things, but what do you expect of a person who’s grieving but believes they’ve already accepted it?

She isolates herself a lot, Used to the feeling, but is actually just.. really lonely. It’s as if she were the only person left in the world, feeling like she has no purpose. Even emerald, her and grandma Saphy’s cat, still didn’t seem to help with how alone she felt. To try to get rid of this feeling, Miriam wants to bring Saphy back with the resurrection spell in her grandma’s old spell book…BUT UNLIKE WANDERGRIEF KIWI she is FULLY aware of what could happen to her if she actually did it, she just doesn’t care. Anything to make her feel less alone. Anything.

And, as a final little “proving myself” moment, Miriam takes on the challenge of trying to save the world, throwing herself into work and adventure to try to ignore all the grief, forcing herself to believe she had accepted it right when it happened. She meets kiwi at Langtree, like normal, And decides to bring them along with her when she herself decides they could be useful, if not to just sing the overseers songs and do the talking so she didn’t have to, not feeling up to it. Like normal, their friendship grows overtime, Miriam slowly opening up more around the bard, having been pretty closed up for most of this! Kiwi soon notices how.. just, not okay she acts in general, and soon figures out Miriams plan. And, since Missi’s alive in this au (who’s dating a witch), they know how self damaging and possibly deadly that spell can be, Growing even MORE concerned when Miriam states she simply doesn’t care. after that kiwi’s main mission is to make sure Miriam KNOWS she’s not alone, so that maybe.. just maybe she’ll reconsider.

She’s not alone.

She never has been.

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OKAY Story out the way, here’s some more stuff about her!!

Y’know how Wandergrief kiwi’s sleep deprived? Gotta make Swapgrief Miriam sleep deprived too!! Surprisingly, however, she doesn’t suffer from chronic nightmares like Kiwi (cause it wasn’t as traumatic for her as she saw it coming, still traumatizing so yes she does have nightmares sometimes but not often like SOME LITTLE BARD who had to see their mom DIE in a FACTORY ACCIDENT)! For her, It’s a mix of insomnia (which, yes, Wandergrief kiwi has) and overworking herself. Shes basically become a workaholic to try and ignore her icky feelings, feeling that they don’t matter and she shouldn’t bring them up cause she’d probably get all sappy and gross if she does! Her work really consists on plans if things go wrong, making back up potions with anything she can find, doing extra chores or things to keep herself busy (even if she wasn’t asked), All sorts of stuff, which.. is really taking a toll on her mental state, as you’d expect- Even when she DOES try to sleep, insomnia kicks in and BOOM she’s thinking about things she COULD be doing right now…Or her feelings and emotions, which almost instantly makes her get up to do more work until she can get her mind off it, ignoring them completely.

She kept, and wears, grandma Saphy’s hat! Just a little thing to remember her by besides her broom.. and since it broke in act 5 (I think) that just got her even worse mentally. She still hasn’t forgiven the spell squad for breaking it. Most of that act after that has Miriam looking even more melancholic and upset, sentences being dry and even more emotionally distant. She gets better eventually, though.

Emerald is being taken care of by ash back in Delphi until Miriam returns! I like to think her and Ash in this universe were actually kind of “friends” (more or so acquaintances) in these events.

I don’t have an ending to this au yet, and I don’t have any ideas for how it’s gonna go when Miriam got hurt in that one chapter and went home.. but leave suggestions if ya want! Thanks for reading :D

More of this “au of an au” might come soon!

#wandersong #wandersong audrey #wandersong bard #wandersong kiwi #wandersong miriam #wandersong au #bard song #indecisive miriam go brrr #miriam wandersong #miriammmm #MIRIAM MY BBG #grandma saphy fuckin dies????#poor Miri :(#kiwi’s so worried it’s not even funny

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