#indecisive miriam go brrr

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Eeyyyy so remember that swap au I made?

Here’s a little thing I made with Swap Miriam!!!

Awwwh look at the silly goober!! I really need to show her more, she’s probably one of my favorite Miriam’s I’ve made!!

…Uuuntil the angst hits..

BUUUUT before that have a silly happy Mim with some facts to her!

She really likes nightcore! Yeah, uh.. she just.. does- The hyper nature of it is like her form of coffee since she personally thinks it’s too bitter!

She loves animals! Shocker, huh? Nah, I’m just kidding, it’s not a shocker at all- She is allergic to cats however.. and yup, before you say it, she won’t admit it for some reason. She even has her cat, Emerald!

She genuinely does want to make a difference in the world! In fact, she was the one who dragged kiwi along on this adventure! Poor kiwi just wanted to go back to bed 😭

While still not too good with icky feely feelings, she still tries her best for the sake of others! Specifically Kiwi! She IMMEDIATELY noticed how grumpy they were and felt bad (since she was like that once..), wanting to show them the joys of life so they won’t feel so upset anymore! However, with their trust issues and attention to detail, they aren’t really having it.. All she wonders is why they keep insulting and pushing her away. Is this not what they want her to be? Isn’t this what others wanted? So why don’t they seem to think so? Nonetheless, she sticks by their side and lets them get their anger out so she can try to help them! That’s.. all she’s good at, anyway.

Despite her bubbly and positive attitude, there’s only so many insults and hateful remarks she can take. Sometimes she’ll snap out of her Happy-go-lucky nature and lash out for a moment, acting like the Miriam we all know, before stopping, clearing her throat and saying something along the lines of “Oh! Uh.. pardon me, where are my manners? Just.. ignore that.. please?-“

I really wanna share the rest of her lore but HMMMNNNGGGFFF IM BUSY SO MAYBE LATER TONIGHT

Also, don’t worry! Both Swap kiwi and Miriam have their fair share of angst. >:)

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Guess who’s birthday it issss..

Iiiiiits MIRIAMS BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

Happy birthday Miriam!!

Have this drawing me and @gregorio-stars did to celebrate!!!! YIPPEEYIPPEEYIPPEEYIPPEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!1!1!!1!!!!!!1!1!!1!1!1

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@superkitten176 your wish is my command

WANDERGRIEF.. BUT SWAPPED! :D

I’ve actually had the au for a bit! Just never posted about it until now!!! Finished the designs now, too! ^^

Basically, in this version of Wandergrief (which I’ll call swapgrief) instead of Kiwi losing their loved ones.. it’s Miriam.

While Kiwi gets to keep their Mom and Sister, Miriam.. is not so lucky. Grandma Saphy dies of old age. Miriam had been expecting this, as she and Saphy had divinated that she’d pass before the end of the world, which was coming soon. Miriam obviously wasn’t too sure what to make of this.. so she just.. spent as much time with Saphy as she could before waking up one morning to find her still and at peace, a smile on her face, not breathing anymore.

She didn’t cry, though.

She had been expecting this…but it still hurt.

Miriam, in this au, is a lot less grumpy, more or so just.. Numb, in a way? Melancholic? She isn’t as rude, if rude at all, not really feeling the energy to really get mad unless it’s someone like Audrey or someone REALLY presses her buttons. Sometimes when she’s in a REALLY bad mood she’ll lash out at the smallest things, but what do you expect of a person who’s grieving but believes they’ve already accepted it?

She isolates herself a lot, Used to the feeling, but is actually just.. really lonely. It’s as if she were the only person left in the world, feeling like she has no purpose. Even emerald, her and grandma Saphy’s cat, still didn’t seem to help with how alone she felt. To try to get rid of this feeling, Miriam wants to bring Saphy back with the resurrection spell in her grandma’s old spell book…BUT UNLIKE WANDERGRIEF KIWI she is FULLY aware of what could happen to her if she actually did it, she just doesn’t care. Anything to make her feel less alone. Anything.

And, as a final little “proving myself” moment, Miriam takes on the challenge of trying to save the world, throwing herself into work and adventure to try to ignore all the grief, forcing herself to believe she had accepted it right when it happened. She meets kiwi at Langtree, like normal, And decides to bring them along with her when she herself decides they could be useful, if not to just sing the overseers songs and do the talking so she didn’t have to, not feeling up to it. Like normal, their friendship grows overtime, Miriam slowly opening up more around the bard, having been pretty closed up for most of this! Kiwi soon notices how.. just, not okay she acts in general, and soon figures out Miriams plan. And, since Missi’s alive in this au (who’s dating a witch), they know how self damaging and possibly deadly that spell can be, Growing even MORE concerned when Miriam states she simply doesn’t care. after that kiwi’s main mission is to make sure Miriam KNOWS she’s not alone, so that maybe.. just maybe she’ll reconsider.

She’s not alone.

She never has been.

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OKAY Story out the way, here’s some more stuff about her!!

Y’know how Wandergrief kiwi’s sleep deprived? Gotta make Swapgrief Miriam sleep deprived too!! Surprisingly, however, she doesn’t suffer from chronic nightmares like Kiwi (cause it wasn’t as traumatic for her as she saw it coming, still traumatizing so yes she does have nightmares sometimes but not often like SOME LITTLE BARD who had to see their mom DIE in a FACTORY ACCIDENT)! For her, It’s a mix of insomnia (which, yes, Wandergrief kiwi has) and overworking herself. Shes basically become a workaholic to try and ignore her icky feelings, feeling that they don’t matter and she shouldn’t bring them up cause she’d probably get all sappy and gross if she does! Her work really consists on plans if things go wrong, making back up potions with anything she can find, doing extra chores or things to keep herself busy (even if she wasn’t asked), All sorts of stuff, which.. is really taking a toll on her mental state, as you’d expect- Even when she DOES try to sleep, insomnia kicks in and BOOM she’s thinking about things she COULD be doing right now…Or her feelings and emotions, which almost instantly makes her get up to do more work until she can get her mind off it, ignoring them completely.

She kept, and wears, grandma Saphy’s hat! Just a little thing to remember her by besides her broom.. and since it broke in act 5 (I think) that just got her even worse mentally. She still hasn’t forgiven the spell squad for breaking it. Most of that act after that has Miriam looking even more melancholic and upset, sentences being dry and even more emotionally distant. She gets better eventually, though.

Emerald is being taken care of by ash back in Delphi until Miriam returns! I like to think her and Ash in this universe were actually kind of “friends” (more or so acquaintances) in these events.

I don’t have an ending to this au yet, and I don’t have any ideas for how it’s gonna go when Miriam got hurt in that one chapter and went home.. but leave suggestions if ya want! Thanks for reading :D

More of this “au of an au” might come soon!

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EVEN MORE WANDERGRIEF!! This time it’s traditional art!!!

Don’t like it a WHOLE bunch, anatomy’s a bit off, hands look a little wonky, so on, but I still like it nonetheless!! I just like to call this “Bard Snaps” :]

For context, Audrey insulted kiwi’s Mom and/or sister (whichever one is up to you) and he got really upset…

…Miriams just not sure whether she likes this new Kiwi or is concerned

And then we got Audrey (first time drawing her! Absolutely hate her.) of whom he actually managed to scare. Good job kiwi! :D

Some say my handwritings hard to read, so here’s a translation just in case!

Kiwi: “YOU TAKE THAT BACK OR I SWEAR TO EYA WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU—“

Miriam: “Eya almighty..”

…Yeah bard’s not doin too good