#in which i expand on that one post about techno clearing his ledger always

[theminecraftbee]

a slight expansion on the concept of ledgers.

technoblade isn’t an organized person. just ask phil! or his chat! or anyone! he’s not an organized person, like, at all. but he does like lists. lists - those are nice. great for organizing his thoughts when his thoughts are still full of the chorus of the damned yelling at him about “protect michael” and “ranboo no” and “save tommy” and “lol” and “e” and “michael” and -

well, you get the point! he has some thoughts to organize. the most important: the internal list of everyone technoblade owes.

for example: dream can now be crossed off the list. techno’s done with that guy! sure, techno kind of wants dream’s revival powers, but dream hasn’t done anything to really deserve techno going after him, but also hasn’t done anything to deserve techno keeping an eye out, so sure! washing his hands of him! and doesn’t that feel good? it’s like that debt has been hanging over him for an entire year or something!

(heh.)

next on new additions to the list: sam. sam, sam, sam. that man doesn’t know when to quit. techno has a thousandfold things he owes sam, and all of them are pain. now, the other prison guards - they’re going to get what’s coming too. the. the whole one of them that showed up. (thanks, bad.) but sam... sam is going to die a thousand deaths. maybe not even die. maybe more... destroy something sam loves. doesn’t sam still have that dog?

...techno kinda likes dogs, though. dog didn’t do anything wrong. probably easier to just like, murder him with extreme prejudice. he deserves that, doesn’t he.

now, a surprise addition to this list: tubbo. techno can’t let tubbo know he’s on the list, but tubbo told him what ranboo had been trying to say with that picture. a little favor, but worth trusting the kid for. they’ll find michael, and then...

...

there has always been one name on the top of the list, because techno will never be able to repay philza. too many things over too many years. techno doesn’t need to repay phil, phil would say, but techno knows better. so he gives phil the world, because it’s at least some headway on something techno will never have time to repay.

there’s another name at the top of the list, too, of people techno can never repay. ranboo -

- that’s enough sad thoughts for the day, isn’t it? techno has like, a limit of those. he doesn’t like brooding. he tries not to do that anymore after the, oh, last three times he’d been horrifically betrayed by someone he thought he could trust, or at least thought would leave him alone, and left as the one person no one cared about. besides, he doesn’t need to brood about things like that now that he has actual friends, and also a cool horse, and also whatever connor’s doing?

god, where does connor even go on the list? as a freeloader? as a new friend? doesn’t connor technically owe techno? he was so out of left field, he doesn’t even know what to do with the man!

ugh. this is why he’s not actually organized, chat.

(he stands up from where he’s sitting in the snow in front of ranboo’s house and goes to talk to phil. talking to phil normally makes him feel better, and his limbs feel cold, and heavy, and like they’ll creak like the floorboards. he doesn’t know why.

he was barely hurt, today.)