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ahamkara-apologist · 1 year ago

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Hmm hmm debating making Crow's fear-infatuation with Aeris into a genuine short-term crush post-SOTH that Aeris knows about and is uncomfortable with, not only bc it would be a very good harsh lesson for himself given the fact that he is Not In A Good Place right after he escaped but also bc Aeris himself doesn't have enough problems so I gotta slap him with the aroace axe of 'I wish I could be this for you but I cannot' as well as 'I don't know if it's because I can't feel as other's do and I worry if there's fundamentally something wrong with me' autistic aro experience on top of it. Crow grows out of it eventually ofc and in the long run Aeris as YW can't exactly linger on himself for long but it would be an interesting take to spin on the whole concept since Crow/YW pairings are so common in fandom (for good reason)

#guardian musings #aeris sharphawk #the crow #ftr I go with the concept that Spider's use of Crow extended to sex work because it a.) is a very him thing to do #b.) would be a great way to keep him in line with shame and humiliation #c.) makes for interesting trauma recovery fics that I'm all for #and d.) i never half-ass a tragedy #in this case tho im interested in how crow's desperation for affection and desire to please would cross wires dangerously with his abuse #because aeris as his savior has a lot of power over him and he sees that as normal. which is a problem #but on top of that all he cannot say no bc he's been had that beaten out of him and aeris of all people is the one who can say it #so its. a safe crush in a way?? crow realizes he dodges a bullet later and feels only relief but still #aeris has to deal with the guilt of failing someone when his whole shtick is that he cannot fail anybody

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