#in the lower schoolgrades; back when it wasn't as intense (it was still intense) I would go on Tumblr regularly but I don't have the energy | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lunaria--annua · 1 year ago

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For the few people that aren't my friends but remember me/ my art (or friends I haven't stayed in touch with), I wish to give an explanation for my constant week or months long disappearances:

I am a school kid stuck in an incredibly brutal school system, with a born in disability that only increases the difficulty to an insane degree. I have 10 hour schooldays and am still expected to do homework and study for intense exams (that can be up to 130 minutes long) when I arrive home late at night. This translates to my weekends also being used up for study and any free time being used for recovery from the chronic exhaustion (I do not use the term »chronic« lightly here, this is something noted by my doctor).

I really do not like letting this art blog rot only to be temporarily revived for a very short period of time once in a blue moon, but it is out of my control.

I hope (and I do think that will be the case) that in the future I will have more opportunities and energy to be creative, and will be able to share the fruits of my creativity. I miss doing art, but the constant grind from school erodes my creative passion to a degree that I barely even doodle in my notebooks anymore.

I'm optimistic this will not be forever though 💜

#harmonica noises #I have a multitude of international friends and acquaintances and they were all appalled when I explained the details of my school system #except from my buddy from Thailand; he was able to sympathise a lot 🤝...#There's so much I would love to show; and develop and update about my world #especially things I'm dissatisfied with and are outdated (it's a lot...)#but it will have to wait.#in the lower schoolgrades; back when it wasn't as intense (it was still intense) I would go on Tumblr regularly but I don't have the energy #to do that even more #I am so tired and stressed all the time! it has become my default state of existence pretty much. But it will not be for forever 💜#I am unsure if posting something so personal is wise... but I still feel the need to explain myself #So tired... I cannot afford to go to bed on time. maybe on the weekend but that's it. I have to stay up late and do homework and study #because again; 10 hour schooldays.#and even when I can sleep 8 hours; there's still the chronic exhaustion I will face for... forever.

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