#in summation her hallucinations are a manifestation of her conscience fear of being alone

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Random headcanon that I'm making pictures for:

Undiagnosed , Rosie suffers Bipolar-2(Bipolar depression, with episodes of Mania), - PTSD, with Psychotic features(mild visual and auditory hallucinations) , and some aspect of DID

To which, the most prominent vision she sees is a reflection of what plagues her the most at times. Mainly guilt driven. In her 20s, she'd see the dead she killed from the Calvary days, and the men who's heads she used to keep after having butchered them to feed Nikki.

These symptoms have been occurring since she was 18 years old, after she fully left to Calvary, as stress finally got to her enough to manifests. When she fixated on something, sometimes the symptoms would wane(Ie. When she was focused mainly on a person, when she felt comfortable and safe. They would fade, she would be stable for a while)

The assistance of her dogs(Sergeant and Major) helped her through her worst patches, having them since she was 15 years old. The dogs provided her security to ground her to reality, lick her if she was on the verge of a breakdown, or in worst case scenarios, they would even bite her just enough to bruise in order to snap her back to reality. For the 8 years in Tennessee, her hallucinations were of the dead Calvary team, and her victims. When she left to New York, they followed her, til she eventually met and settled down with Rocky. Despite the stress, having him settled her mind down to the point that hallucinations were a very rare occurrence. Though she still suffered from the symptoms of bipolar disorder with heavy depressive episodes and manic highs, it was more tolerable because of Rocky's patience.

When he died, and she was alone once again, a single mother of 2 kids, the hallucinations began to return. Though, no longer were they a sea of corpses , now it was only Rocky. A very dead, eyeless Rocky. Who seems to appear in every moment of doubt or longing hits her.

Rosie, a grown woman in her 30s, is afraid to sleep. Not just sleep, but more importantly shes afraid to sleep alone. She works herself to death practically to avoid sleep, or to avoid sleeping alone in her own bedroom because she's afraid of the hallucination that the dead man is there. He'll hold her and touch her lovingly, but his skin is the wrong shade and she knows there wont be the warm eyes if she looks at his face. For as long as she can, Rosie would rather have the kids sleep with her, or she crawled into their beds until they were old enough that they didnt want her there anymore. But she takes every chance she can to be near them.

So why doesn't she just see a therapist for medicine?

Simply put, Shes paranoid and afraid of any hospitals and doctors since Toruga attacked her before Mia was born. Shes afraid of the connections he could have, if they give her the wrong drugs to weaken her, because she is a high profile person with what she does. Most important, as much as it plagues her, shes afraid to be alone. Shes afraid to live in a world, to be normal, without this ghost of Rocky following her around. As scary as it is, it's the last piece of him she has besides Mia, who stays with her. And if she were to take medication that stabilizes her, she really just wouldn't know what to do without it.

So she lives as the persona as the Unbreakable, Invincible Sphinx.

Just a tired woman who works herself to death to ensure that the Angel Project runs smoothly, that people see that people with powers are not monsters to be feared or ostracize. A single mom spending every waking moment making sure her kids dont know she's threadbare and on the verge of coming apart at any second. The world knows shes an even tempered, diplomatic leader of powered people. And friends know shes a reliable hand to take, an ear to talk to, and a shoulder to cry on. She's everything that everyone needs, and she'd die before someone knows how weak she really is inside .