#in her head when her brother and pran collide

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i just keep thinking about pha. pha who's had pran disappear from her life once before w no notice, who must have waited every weekend, every holiday for him, thinking 'this time, he'll be there' 'now he'll come' till an entire year later she realizes the hard truth: pran won't be coming back, they've maybe lost him forever. pha who now reaches home bc she can't find either of her brothers or get a hold of them, who finally learns about what her father did and thinks back to when pat kept trying to tell her smth she'd ignored, too caught up in her feelings for ink. pha who's going to sit around, nauseated, wondering unreasonably if this time too, she'll wait and wait and time unbothered by her worries will turn into a year, that again she'll lose ppl important to her w/o the chance to say goodbye.