#in between caretaking for mom and - atm - managing the snow outside

[pastafossa]

“I will not have you without the darkness that hides within you. I will not let you have me without the madness that makes me. If our demons cannot dance, neither can we.”

-Nikita Gill

Okay I randomly found this and it has such gigantic TRT vibes!

Also how are you doing? I hope you are doing a bit better!💗

YOOOOOOOOO that's TRT 100%! 😭 I love love LOVE that quote, and yeah, it fits - both of their darker sides, their demons tangled together just like they are. Definitely going into my quotes folder, thank you! And I'm doing a little better! Mom's doing well enough that her PT person signed off on her being good as long as she's doing her stretches, although she still can't be alone and needs some help getting around, so I'm still in caretaker mode. As for how I'm doing missing my old kitty, like people promised me, it did wind up helping me by bringing his ashes home even if it was really, really hard to go into the vet hospital and ask for them bless the receptionist for being so nice when i started crying in the lobby while trying to tell her what i was there to pick up. He's beside my bed on the end table for now, since he always slept next to my pillow. I still miss him so, so badly and the grief is really raw - I don't know if it ever won't be - but it's slowly getting easier to manage. So I'm getting by! Ironically the snow storm's helped cause I like snow, and it's also given me something to focus on, and I've been playing a little BG3 every night for an hour or so to take my mind off it even when the snow can't.