#in b4 someone accuses me of having sent that shit to myself to reignite this bullshit that I avoided talking about in depth for years

[smonk-wonk]

people who send hate like that are pathetic and abusers hate when you have support. they want you to respond with equally bad things or namedrop so they have more reason or can go public and accuse you of wrongly blaming them. i've been there and done that

They've been doing this for years and I know it's them or someone in relation to them bc no one else is gonna be as obsessed as someone has to be to search for posts about me, block my best friend on the same day, and then come to or send someone to my account on another platform to harass me. And again for years while they've publicly slandered me over and over I've refused to even talk about the situation in depth due to the trauma and not wanting to bring that attention to them?

I mean this is most likely either the toxic ex friend/original accuser who fucked me over or it's the callout author who gave a fake ass apology, manipulated me, and admitted to lying in the callout and then gaslighted me saying it was an "awareness post" made out of concern that I MIGHT be faking when it was just fake claims and shit that deadass didn't happen with some being provably wrong so that doesn't add up bc if you're concerned and looking for input why would you lie about pretty much everything in the callout?? But if you understand how gaslighting works, you know someone can be manipulated into believing anything in abusive circumstances They've never called it an awareness post publicly, and ppl have asked them before if they wrote the callout and they said yes so they obviously know what they did lol. But when I brought it up it was suddenly "speculation" gone about the wrong way. A misunderstanding. I was stupid and just wanted to hope they weren't actually willing to abuse me or go as far as they did It's also possibly the old abusive anon himself that my ex friend is bffs with and whose friendship has lasted longer than ours did. How sweet. Tell him I said hi if this is his bff tho! Happy 3 or so years as besties! The anon starting with "we all know" is reminiscent of him but like also not only him 🤷‍♂️. Phrased to make me feel what I felt when hundreds of people hated me and I had developed intense paranoia. Except it's just kinda cringe now Couple others are possible, I'm just speculating is all. I know at least a few ppl that aren't gonna stop until I'm dead. But hey at least I didn't post their names for the world to see. Not that I have the power to ruin their lives the same way they did with me if I wanted to- most people here don't know who tf I'm talking about. At least I didn't cheer on people saying they'd harass them and then when asked why, get furious and gaslight them for "making me question my intentions". At least I didn't talk shit about them by name and go "oh sorry for what was said about you, that was actually my alter that hates you :/". Didn't claim to be their friend while allowing others to believe lies that I created about them. Didn't accuse them publicly of faking a disorder so severe due to complex trauma that your brain doesn't form a fully integrated identity I know they want me to be just as mean back. My best friend writes a post saying to leave me alone because being dehumanized and publicly shamed and humiliated for years can drive someone to kill themselves. This person's response is bitter telling me to kms (yeah they said "die" but u know exactly what they meant), said my life is worthless, said I'm unloved, and that my friends are only pretending to be my friends. Funny when it's likely coming from people who pretended to be my friends. Funny calling me all this shit while clearly wanting to drive me to that point mentally. Someone says "Are you not going to stop until he kills himself?" and someone comes here telling me to with more baseless claims to smear me some more and calling me nasty things

They painted me as the evil piece of shit for years and get to do all this shit with no repercussions. You know what would've happened if it came out that I said something like this to someone years ago? Hell I stopped being friends with a couple of people in part because I asked them not to confront these people (and when they did it wasn't even like hate it was usually them rightfully expressing anger that my life was ruined and I was traumatized by that) and they continued to and the abusers used it to drag my name some more. Meanwhile the abusers cheered their friends on and all publicly brought attention to me. Told me to get over it when I literally was silent about it, as if you just "get over" trauma like that. My amygdala ain't over it and I don't blame him lmao. I'm healing though, I recommend it over being miserable and sending anon hate when you know damn well what you did wrong But yeah. They're not gonna stop. They're probably talking about me again. They're probably self victimizing again. They're probably going to make some vague posts or talk in servers behind my back, again. They have never stopped bringing it up. They have never stopped trying to hurt me with this. They're the ones that have told/condoned others telling me to kms and supported the ppl that tried to make me do it. Yet when someone calls them the abuser, they run over to me like I said it (even tho I'd be correct to) bc they're just mad the shoe fits. They're mad that the million and first time they searched me up someone wasn't kissing their asses or laughing at me

As if hundreds of ppl will not still go the rest of their lives believing I have Munchausen's and abused a bunch of people (plenty of others came up with absolutely bullshit stories about me abusing them and some of them I didn't even fuckin know). That's part of my legacy and there's no doing shit about it. Maybe get the fuck over yourselves cuz this is actually pretty cringe