#in act 1 I was relying on THEM for happiness what do I do nowww
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crimson-constellations · 1 month ago
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I’m too mentally unwell for Viktor posting rn y’all wait till the end of the week until I can actually express what I feel with words
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brothalynchhung · 7 years ago
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2017 overview
FOR FUCKS SAKEEE IVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR 5 YEARS LMFAOOOO anyways lets goo... this gone be a lot i learned a lot this year
the year started out...
kinda weird tbh like i was in a weird state
i was back to being obsessed following jk/gl lool
it was nice but i got to hopelessly obsessed
but they came back and it really motivated me it made me happy
hes so comforting until this day
he earned so much!! achieved so much! I'm so happy for him
i gained a lot this year too .. in a way
yeah 2017 was weird introspectively...
lot of internal rebuilding...
i did video 1 which was fun i got to make some cool shit and work hard on projects
i met my girl xy lol her talented ass
ate out a lot tbh i was a fatass beginning of 2017 wtf
still am tho wtf who am i kidding 🙄🙄🙄
jus classes with z as usual but winter 2017 was so weird cuz like.. i barely went to any of those classes LOL
video 1 was fun
adv com theories was ass idk how i got a B+ in that class i failed everything LMFAOO
phi was whatever
women and media was weird cuz of that weird girl but we got a good mark so whatever
quantitative LMFAOOO fuck that class and that bitch ass prof i didnt learn shit
other than that personally...i was going through some mental shit.. i felt alone. i felt out of it. i felt regretful
i felt so regretful i felt like shit
i fell into such a nostalgic moment like i just missed everything
jk kinda reminded me of like.. how i was? happy? in 2016 i kinda of left everything and secluded myself in a weird way other than fighting with ayt/mh on some bullshit i just was out of it.. i was chilling with weirdos lol
i was thinking like.. i miss how it is??? I'm not that different? i like all the people from my past why are we not that close
spring day came out.. that hit it. bullseye. 
childish gambinooo....
just really looking back, looking back on who i AM who I WANT to be truly. who i really want to be around and create
i valued my friendships
i was super creative... working on my book, investing in artistic pursuits.. 
i wanted to recreate everything i lost, i wanted to reclaim my trauma with that bitch.
i got to spend fun times with my friends, running around train tracks becoming closer again like how it should have been all along
jk had me looking forward to leaving to dubai
and so i did. 
i tried chasing him there but it didnt really work out
its not really meant to be sr...
he's just an inspiration for what you want and for who u are
the whole groups a blessing lol
even tho i left that shit cuz it got too much and too weird why bitches gotta make shit mediocre🙄
anyways dubai was kinda ass but i got to realize something important... who i miss, who i wanted/wished were with me, who actually cares about me..
WHO ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT ME
yo sr... if someone really cares.. they'll take the effort. STOP chasing people who don't care.. STOP damaging yourself and the people who love u for people who don't give a fuck
i dropped that bitch so hard i hope she fucking rots in hell
2017 . APRIL 2017 LAST TIME EVER I WILL EVER SEE THIS BITCH. NEVER AGAIN.
my life got so much better.
dubai was a detox but after i came back it was so good
hot as fuck
ramadan lol
fat as fuck -_-
dubai was just weird lol kinda realized its not my place but it was nice(ish)
need to learn not to rely so much on material shit lol
my family is the best
they really tryna teach u and care for u, u will never have another family.
also met nr!!! she was sweet kinda weird tho lMAO the cat shit jesus lol 
misk lol
WENT TO LONDON IT WAS AMAZING I LOVED IT
but fuck... lmao u know what the fuck u did yesterday -_- u DUMB bitch lmao who cares tho (...>_>)
came back... greeted by my friends who care 
chilled with them, adventures with them
but came back.. sorry. sorry to myself. sorry to the people i hurt
ayt, mh
i was thinking about it since winter i knew i had to make it right again, i knew i was wrong, that fucking bitch fucked shit up for us, we could have had so much memories in 2016 if shit didnt go sour
i gave the wrong person another chance they didnt deserve
so i reflected.. and swallowed my fucking pride
apologized. to who i needed to
and u know what? we good. like it was never bad. we good
...thats real. no flop shit, no fake shit, we good. loyalty. blessed.
u really gave the wrong bitch another chance u real did
stupid ass
then it was good.. adventures with my friends, rebuilding, forgetting, growing
together.
beach!! hiking!! badminton in the middle of the streets singing backstreet boys!! lol music!! 
KENDRICK LAMARRR
i made friends w ht again amazing lol
really remade friends w a lot of people lol
kendrick was so good tho fuck he was amazing my eyes were tearing/shining i cried like 5 times LOVE.. PRIDE. fuck those got to me
my ass saw get low live?? by YG fuck i love him too 
best night
amusement parks x3.. lol mtl with my fams..
yo me and lina got so close
i love my family. always.
NTCCCLMAOOOO 
they gave me so much hope after i dropped stb cuz or their weird ass fandom.. i couldn't deal with that shit they're ruining my damn nostalgia. but whatever I'm not gon hate on their success.. jk is still jk to me i hope he reaches the stars with his success
but yeah damn ntc made everything sooo good damn how u not have 1 dime but like 8 LMAO in one group
literally lights of my lifeee
jn😤jh😤hc🍅😩m😤jn😭jm😭WTF BITCH so much possibilities tf
love them they made me so happy
also their fandom is so funnny love the bitches i been following and talking to
anyways i saved up my money a lot but now its like all gone cuz nadas work so idk
UHMMMM I BOUGHT MMM??? WTF BITCH WTF
I WIN IDC I WIN fuck all these bitches
glow up glow the FUCK up
lost a lil weight.. probably gained it all back idk fuck me -.-
since fall 2017.. i been happy.. i got my friends..my groups..
rm, mc, ys💘 
nz,suz,lul,mar💖
prgl,sr,joan💞
hct!
nm💗
ayt
zainb,rame
xiny, jelly
and more...
hearts 4 all I'm just lazy lol
nice to have friends, nice to know there are people who actually like u and care for u and are fun to hang with, nice to know people like u for who u really are unconditionally 
nice to know bitches i hate will never NEVER have that
stay lonely pitiful boring unsuccessful and fake . 
priorities straight. emptying out ugly shit, rebuilding myself and who i am. having fun, fixing my look. investing
music music music GOOD MUSIC
movies movies movies
books books books
those 3 things will never change
unbrainwashing myself
realized so much shit.. istg my glow up is associated with freeing my mind from all this bullshit...
RATHER BE PROUD OF WHO I AM RATHER THAN TRY TO BE SOMETHING IM NOT JUST TO FIT INTO SOME LOWKEY RACIST UGLY BORING BULLSHIT
crazy how deep into my coma i was
BITCH IM BACK OUT OF MY COMA
going forward.. going forward.. investing.. changing... 
mentality shifting.. my image of diserable.. who i want to be 
better important goals, fun goals, fun shit, cool shit, new shit
destroying the fuck bitches who tried to kill me
bunch of fucking losers. 
I'm better now I'm happy now i ended 2017 happy as fuck
i DONT have my gl but i don't need him rn. I'm loved. i love me. my family and friends got me. so until i act on some long awaited shit and gain more resources and achieve more personally UNTIL I'm ready and deserve some shit. then ill get gl. I'm going towards him. 
you're with me.. even when you're away.
hope u feel all this happiness too, hope you're warm, hope you know I'm not where u are right now and hope ur working your way towards me too
ill meet u in the warm .
happy. i spent many nights happy no fights no drama no sadness (other than not having gl i get hopeless being in love with someone i don't know yet but i cant help it)
soon tho dw.. it 2018 now lol
anyways!! i grew so much in 2017 I'm back to who i really am I'm motivated I'm happy I'm inspired I'm ready for the next year
i ended this year losing my bitch ass acne studios scarf!! like a dumb bitch!! so I'm still a dumb bitch!! but who cares -.-
need so stop buying dumb shit.. ill get the trousers when i get a job and the fucking scarf won't matter.. yo ass don't even like scarfs wtf -_-
lool see this optimistic dgaf mentality.. 
CAASH DONT LAST MY FRIENDS WILL RIDE FOR ME
and thats exactly what we did tonight, dance and sing to disney hits and sean paul . happy and careless af 
I GOTTED WHAT I WANTED RIGHT NOWWW 
GOD DOES IT FEEL SO GOOOOD
2018 lets fucking go. I'm ready . I'm going to make so much shit. I'm out my coma, i know what the fuck i want . no more dumb shit, we do dis. LETS FUCKING GOOOO.
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