#imperfectlychaotic

[mightyjemma]

okay 6 (i feel like i can probably guess a couple lmao), 20 (bc we were raised on scrubs and greys and physically cannot stop ourselves from doing this), 24 (THE current mood) and obvs 17 for the hell squad

6. A song that’s on at least 3 of your playlists 

i don’t really do playlists, which is a SHAME bc it would help keep it all in place but if i had to make three different playlists for let’s say three different characters i’d choose: 

brother’s boat by eliza and the bear, ghosts by kensington, on my way by lucine gregster, not easy by alex da kid feat. x ambassadors, elle king, and wiz khalifa all my friends by dermot kennedy, epiphany and death by a thousand cuts by taylor swift and third eye by florence + the machine.

20. A song from the soundtrack of a film that you like so much after the film finished you immediately looked for it

the most recent one is “this is the world we made” by ruelle after finishing the old guard. it’s so good and i use it as a writing background right now. (also it’s the title for the 12m og fic, lmao). also “husavik” from the esc movie.

that being said, remember when enchanted came out? ever ever after by carrie underwood is still a bop. 

as for tv shows “keep breathing” by ingrid michaelson after the grey’s s3 finale and the song from the s2 trailer for mozart in the jungle - “say it out loud” by katie herzig. 

24. A song to listen to on a long drive when you have the really strong urge to keep driving until you find somewhere to start a new life (preferably a europian city whose language you don’t speak)

this is the most difficult question, okay?  calma (alicia remix) by pedro capo feat. alicia keys & farruko, probably. it has this beach mood, you just wanna drive until you hit the ocean. (also “how big, how blue, how beautiful by florence + tm, i recently discovered it in my car cd player again, and it’s just so good. ship to wreck, delilah, third eye, queen of peace? HYMNS, all of them. 

17. A song that makes you want to grab your friends jump up and down dancing and screaming the lyrics

SCREAM AND SHOUT by britney spears ft. will.i.am (it’s britney, BITCH). also narcotic by liquido. plus basically any abba song ever, but i’m gimme gimme gimme right now (we really all need to get an island and have a dance party) 

[appleciders]

❤

sarah!!!!!! ok tbh i dont even know where to start? you’re just like. epic big sister material, like you’ve helped me thru a lot and i hope you know that? with the add stuff and everything else before it. and you’re honestly so so so strong, you’re kinda inspirational. you get back up every single time, and it’s not always pretty or glamorous but you claw yourself back to your feet and you keep remembering how to live even when it would be easier not to. im also always in awe of ur your commentary and interpretations of fiction! you’re able to read so much of both the intent and impact of every screenwriting choice, and you extrapolate so perfectly from that. you hold true to your convictions and you love characters—and by extension, humanity—so much that its admirable. your recs are always top-notch! found families and grubby jock girls and bleeding-heart, guilt-ridden protagonists!!

honestly i’m probably gonna think of like ten other things the moment i hit post, but you’ve impacted my life for the better in a lotta ways, so i’m rly grateful. keep doing you! who you are now is worth it, and who you grow into will be worth it too. do it for carrie!! 

[creacherkeeper]

i was gonna write a really nice thing about your vibe but then you went and reblogged something that looks suspiciously like fursonas. dogsonas, if you will. so like. do i have to say it

you hUSH 

[zephyrvos]

@imperfectlychaotic replied to your post “I haven’t started Runaways yet, and I swear I mean to, but I also can...”

lol you're gonna die it's very very you

I’m very much living vicariously through your liveblogs and posts about it, so, uh, sorry about all those notifications!! <3 

@babd-the-crow replied to your post “I haven’t started Runaways yet, and I swear I mean to, but I also can...”

You gotta start dude!! I wanna yell about Molly!!

She’s tiny and fierce and so kind from everything I’ve heard, and racebent to be a tiny hispanic badass and I already know I would kill for her. How are all of them so many of these types of characters I love?? It’s not fair

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imperfectlychaotic replied to your post “BITCH JUST BOUGHT HERSELF A TICKET TO DEAR EVAN HANSEN ”

GIRL,,,

MMMMMMMM

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imperfectlychaotic replied to your post: imperfectlychaotic replied to your post: ...

they want me to give up trash food AND alcohol like??? what’s the point what are we working towards here

death obvs. If we’re gonna grind for the rest of our lives and blink out in mediocrity anyway, might as well eat and drink to our sad hearts’ desire

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imperfectlychaotic replied to your post “imperfectlychaotic replied to your post OMG sarah this is the single...”

oh babes i remember when you 'weren't' a lesbian those were wild times for everyone

they really were i don’t know how i made it through them

including but not limited to the time the girls like girls video came out and i told myself i was only watching it (on repeat) because i recognized hayley’s name from lemonade mouth and then was disappointed hayley wasn’t in it so i didn’t get to see her

[awkwardspiritanimals]

i can’t believe i live in a world where @imperfectlychaotic has never cried about ‘night watch’ by terry pratchett, but i am thankful that i get to be a part of her probably crying about ‘night watch’ by terry pratchett at some point in the future

what a privilege what a time to be alive

[youdidnttellmeshewassoferal]

HOW GOOD WAS DEAR WHITE PEOPLE OMG

HOLY SHIT????????????????????

it’s unapologetic honesty was breathtaking.

I absolutely adored how they went through each character, showing us the extensive, complex, full, and diverse lives these characters live, despite how most representation out there wants to tokenize them into this one simple character.

their unique experiences and how they went about them was so well done.

the writing was clever, refreshing, and funny without ever taking away how serious it was?

when gabe’s episode started I thought “oh of course....they just had to have a white person episode....” but shit, it was so well crafted, without ever making him the poor little white savior that just wanted to help so we should all put him on a pedestal, but it also didn’t demonize him unnecessarily?

the monologues were just so damn heartbreaking and full, and every line from reggie was so amazing. “right now I just need to be a man not a movement” “set us supposedly free” i mean?????

and the cinematography, the acting, the costumes, just my lord. everything just fit in so nicely.

this was so good and so important, and I can’t understand how this website is sleeping on it? they talk about everything without it seeming they are checking things off a list. abusive police, passive liberalism, institutional racism, lighter skin privilege, intersectionality, and holy shit I can talk about it forever.

[hardfeelingsmp3]

yay!

@gaybinch replied to your post “I GOT IT I GOT THE TICKET I’M GONNA SEE HAYLEY KIYOKO LIVE IN NEW YORK...”

omg congrats!!!!!! i saw her earlier this yr and she was amazing, she's so sweet and genuine on stage ur in for an awesome concert :D

@tobiramasenju replied to your post “I GOT IT I GOT THE TICKET I’M GONNA SEE HAYLEY KIYOKO LIVE IN NEW YORK...”

u lucky gay

@imperfectlychaotic replied to your post “I GOT IT I GOT THE TICKET I’M GONNA SEE HAYLEY KIYOKO LIVE IN NEW YORK...”

AHHHHHH I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

I’M SO EXCITED it’s gonna be amazing omg she’s the best i’m. (!!!!!!!)

[mightyjemma]

17 and 37!!

17. Did you make any big permanent changes this year?

well, i graduated and got a new job, which i think were the biggest ones, even if they happened naturally. i was so excited and so scared at first, because it’s quite the long commute every day and a lot of responsibility, but i really enjoy it and i’m so glad i decided to take the risk to go to uni 3 years ago. If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it?

37. If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it?

i wish i had been braver and more outgoing, but tbh i regret my personality every december. overall, i’d say no. i like the place i am in life and everything else is gonna fall into place one way or another. 

[appleciders]

BINONNA!!!! BINONNA BI FUCKEN NONNA

I JUST WATCHED THE EP AND !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS SO REAL! WHAT KIND OF STRAIGHT GIRL IMPULSIVELY SAYS “YOU HAVE GREAT TASTE IN UNDERWEAR” AND THEN LOOKS AWAY AND MENTALLY BERATES HERSELF? NONE!!!

literally we’ve been saying this from the beginning, so let’s see if this season is the one where the masses Finally See The Truth. honestly, after that last ep, i WANT to watch someone defend the Oblivious Straight Wynonna Bullshit. I want to see it. with my own two eyes. come at me.

[creacherkeeper]

ESTABLISHED SKIMMORSE BUT IT'S JUST DAISYBOBBI DURING THE HIATUS WHEN THE SPACE ROCK ATE JEM

~1100 words 

cw for perceived character death and general angst 

read on AO3 

Daisy slams into the bedroom without really seeing whereshe’s going, working to get her tac suit off before the door even shuts behindher. She’s tired, she’s frustrated, and she just wants the day to be over. Orat least to be in bed.

Bobbi peers at Daisy over her glasses, propped up in theirshared bed and reading reports. She has even more reports to read now thatshe’s working in the lab. And she’s glad for it, she’s glad to be workingagain. Glad to be doing something besides laying in the med bay all day. Evenif it does mean lots and lots of reports.

She watches Daisy, who’s not facing her, growling andswearing as she can’t rip her arm free of the harsh fabric.

“Babe,” Bobbi says softly, trying not to startle her.

Daisy is startled anyway. She whips around, eyes wide, andstares.

Bobbi smiles a little. “You’re never going to get out ofthat thing if you keep trying to go that fast.”

Daisy swallows and nods a little, looking away.

After a moment, Bobbi grabs her crutch (which she doesn’tneed all the time anymore, but it’s been a long day), heaves herself up, andmakes her way over to Daisy. She props the crutch under her arm as she startshelping Daisy undo the zippers and clips on the suit.

“What’s wrong?” she asks.

Daisy shrugs.

Bobbi flicks her side. “You know you’re gonna tell meeventually. I’ll keep hounding you. I’m good at it.”

“Fitz is back,” Daisy says quietly, finally managing to pullher arm free.

“Oh.”

“Yeah.”

“And you’re upset because—”

“Because he shouldn’t still be going out there!” Daisy says,voice raised. She pulls away from Bobbi, the top of the tac suit draped aroundher waist. There are some new bruises on her arms, Bobbi notices, that weren’tthere when she left for her mission earlier that day. “He had no backup—again.No real plan—again. He’s pretty roughed up—again. He’s gonna get himselfkilled.”

“I know. I know, and I hate it too. But he’s an adult,Daisy. There’s nothing we can do about it.”

“Coulson could! Coulson could stop him right now if hewanted to.”

Bobbi shakes her head. “Fitz would just quit. At least thisway we can keep an eye on him.”

Daisy growls in frustration, because this is a conversationthey’ve had before, and it never goes the way Daisy wants it to. She turnsaway, raising her arms to press the balls of her hands against her forehead,trying to rub the tension away. “Why can’t he just … Why can’t he just acceptit?”

Bobbi is silent, tightening her grasp on the crutch’s grip.

“She’s gone, Bob.”Daisy drops her hands, and when she turns back there are tears pooling alongher eyelids. “It’s been four months. Four. Months. She’s gone. She’s not comingback.”

Bobbi bites her tongue, and nods. “He thinks she might.”

“Well it’s stupid,”Daisy cries, barely contained anguish. “It’s stupid and he’s stupid and selfish and- and- and—” Her chin trembles. “I hate him.”

“Daisy—”

“No, I do,” Daisy swears, two fat tears dropping down herface. “I hate him for doing this to us.”

Bobbi’s brow pinches, and she mindfully smooths it out. “Hejust needs closure.”

“We all do,” Daisy snaps. “We haven’t told her parents. Wehaven’t had a funeral. It’s been four months, and she doesn’t even have aheadstone. Our girlfriend is dead, Bobbi, and he won’t let her die.”

“He’s just …” Bobbi sighs. “He’s not ready to move on.”

Daisy’s brows furrow, looking at Bobbi in open-mouthedanger. “Do you think I am?”

“No,” Bobbi says quickly, “that’s not what I meant.”

“Do you think I am, in any conceivable fashion, ready to move on from this? From her?”

Bobbi pinches her lips together. “You know that’s not what Iwas implying.”

Daisy’s face falls into a more neutral expression, seemingto agree, then screws up again. “He just … He needs to accept it. None of usare going to be able to start healing unless he stops doing this.”

Bobbi tries to speak as gently as she can, but withoutsounding patronizing, which is always a hard balance to strike with Daisy. “Areyou really mad at Fitz here?” she asks, voice soft.

“Yes!” Daisy immediately responds, throwing her hands up.“And- And … I don’t know.” She growls, bringing her hands up to her foreheadagain. “I’m mad at all of it! Everything that’s happened! I’m mad at him, I’mmad that stupid rock, I’m mad at the fucking universe, okay? I’m just so angry at everything now, and I don’t know if I’ve always been this angry insideor if I’m just … broken now, or something. Maybe …” Her voice drops. “Maybethis just broke me.”

“Daisy,” Bobbi says, reaching out a hand to place on Daisy’selbow, a gentle caress, an invitation, “you’re not broken.”

Daisy wipes her cheeks, and then drops her arms. More tearsstream down her face. “Maybe I am. Maybe we all are.” She gazes up at Bobbi,mouth quivering. “What if we’re not okay after this?”

“Who?” Bobbi asks. “Us?”

“You and me. Everyone. I don’t know.”

“Well—” Bobbi touches her again, beckoning her closer. “Iknow one thing. You and I are going to be okay. Worse for wear, but okay.”

Daisy takes the invitation and shuffles closer, dropping herhead to rest on Bobbi’s collarbone. She shivers against Bobbi’s chest, bothfrom the conversation and the goosebumps that have risen on her bare arms fromthe cold. “How can you be sure?” she asks.

“Because we’ve made it this far.”

Daisy sniffles and nods, pushing closer. Bobbi holds her fora while, one arm wrapped around her shoulders, and eventually they get Daisyout of the rest of the tac suit and into bed. Daisy has started crying again inthe meantime, and Bobbi doesn’t know what else to do besides pull her closer.

Daisy’s breath hiccups, tears soaking through the fabric onBobbi’s chest. “Are we ever going to be okay?” she asks in a hush.

“One day.”

“Are we ever going to stop missing her?”

“No,” Bobbi says honestly.

“Then I don’t think I’m ever going to be okay.”

Bobbi lets out a sigh. “When you lose someone … part of younever really moves on. You never forget that hurt. It’s just … something youlive with.”

“How?” Daisy asks.

Bobbi presses a kiss to the top of her head. “By notforgetting the people you still have.”

Daisy only clings harder.

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imperfectlychaotic replied to your post “surrounded by piles and piles of books, knowing I have too many: “am I...”

i'm actually going through the exact same thing right now, trying to pack for moving. like, what if i NEED this super old textbook one day???

I know???? and they’re so expensive! I don’t want to throw them away but as soon as there’s a new edition it’s not like you can sell them?? 

the only real solution we have is to hoard them forever.

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imperfectlychaotic replied to your post

what's happenin baby bird

GUESS WHO DONE WENT AND SLEPT WITH A MARRIED DEAN

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imperfectlychaotic replied to your post: me: i should probably look for some weight loss...

jesus christ this is too real

i mean there are probably healthier coping mechanisms out there but are any of them this delicious?