#imchangkyun scenarios

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Monsta x Changkyun

Animal

By maroon5

Changkyun and I just lied in the dark on the bedded fur. His room a dark Victorian with wolf fur bedding and his bed low to the ground. A soft cushion of a bed and the size of a California king. The shape of a circle in the corner of his room. I sat up suddenly not wanting to over stay my visit. I got up and put my clothes back on. Changkyun sat up in bed and lit a smoke. I slipped my pants on and buttoned them back on. Slipped my tennis shoes on and then placed my jacket on.

“See you.” I waved good bye and my heart beat almost stopped. The pain in my heart over whelmed me.

Tears stung to escape my eyes. I sniffed them back inside after I had closed the door and left his house what I would call looked like a den.

Tears fell from my eyes as I drove home.

The love I feel for this man has no meaning to him. All I am is a toy and nothing less and nothing more.

I decided to go get coffee as it is early morning. I walked into fan cafe.

I ordered my drink and waited for it to be brought out.

“One white peppermint mocha frappe. Extra sweet..” a soft voice whispered in my ear. I felt gentle arms wrap around my shoulder and my coffee brought in front of me. Lips barley grazed my ear.

A smile creeped on my face. I looked over and saw Hoseok.

He looked worried but gentle and cautious.

He sat down in the chair in front of me.

“Hey Y/N, why is a beautiful girl like you sad on a fine Friday?” He said and grabbed my hand softly and played with my fingers softly.

I smiled and took a a sip of my drink.

“Well hoseok-ssi, that indeed doesn’t matter anymore I am starting fresh today.” I smile shyly and before I could move a strand of hair behind my ear. Hoseok bear me to it and placed a strand behind my ear and slightly touched my cheek.

“How bout we go to dinner at 8 tonight, meet me here at 7:30pm.” He winks and shyly waved goodbye.

My cheeks felt hot and red. I blushed and grabbed my drink and walked out of the cafe.

The strange thing is. I felt uncomfortable as if someone was watching me. I looked around and couldn’t see anyone.

A shiver ran down my spine.

A thought of Changkyun popped up in my brain.

“What if he found out?” I asked my self.

“Who found out what?” A husky voice rang in my ears ina. Beautiful sequence.

I looked up shocked to see the man I had just thought of. Changkyun.

“Changkyun.... what are you doing here?”

He stood in front of my porch of the my home.

I slowly took out my keys of my purse.

“Well... I came to see if you wanted to come over tonight?”

He didn’t ask it was more of a suggestion.

“ and you couldn’t text me?” I ask annoyed and pushed past him to unlock my door.

“Well that’s why I came in person so I can see you.” He said and jolted me in my tracks.

He pushed me against the door and leaned his body against mine. He softly growled sexually in my neck. My scent strong and lovely to his nose. My breath caught in my throat. Oh god how I love his touch and his attention. How I love the way he smells and makes me forget about the world.

Until I remembered Hoseok. My hand softly pushed Changkyun away. He froze and looked at me in confusion and shock.

“Actually Changkyun. Whatever we are or whatever we keep doing, we’re done. Whatever this is, it’s over, I have a date tonight with someone else.” I say and left him standing At my door. I closed the door in his face.

Was that to harsh? I thought.

When 7pm came upon I tried to stay strong all day. I felt like crying all day because I love Changkyun but it’s time to get over him. All he is doing to me is keeping me around for entertainment and pleasure and I’m much more than that.

I met up with Hoseok and he drove us to a fancy Italian dinner. He ordered some sort of noodle soup and I ordered chicken fettuccine.

I could barely eat and take bites though. My heart ached and I felt this wasn’t right. With all the memories I had with Changkyun....

“Is something wrong love?” Hoseok asked and sipped his wine.

I shook my head no and took a bite.

Oh my gosh it was so good but my stomach just couldn’t handle the guilt and pain of Changkyun.

“I’m so sorry Hoseok, I am not feeling as well as I was. Thank you for the lovely dinner I must go.” I say and lie down a 50$ bill. I felt bad. He’s a beautiful person but for some reason I fell in love with a dark and bad person.

I decided to clear my head and walk down the streets until I need the edge of the woods. My heart told me to just clear my head and take a stroll down in the abyss.

I step into the forest and played some music from my phone.

I sang to my self softly until I felt uncomfortable now. I turned off the phone and called out. “Hello?” As if I felt Someone was following me.

A growl pierced my ears and my hair on the back of my neck stood up.

A black/Carmel colored wolf snarled from behind the trees and came forth. I stepped back and it closer. I rushed and turned to run.

A push of my body fell to the ground and I scraped my hands and knees. A cry escaped my lips. The wolf forced me to roll over on my back and snarled in my face. It’s eyes a dark hazel that looked angry and forgotten. It’s paws clawed into my shoulder blood deeper through my shirt and it’s paws. When it smelt my blood it let go. Tears fell from my eyes. The thought of Changkyun keeps coming into my head. My head hurts and the fear of my life is at risk.

The wolf wimpered and stepped back acting as if it was scared. Maybe it didn’t mean to hurt me..... “shh shhh shhh. It’s ok. It’s ok. I am not afraid of you. I won’t hurt you.” I say as I slowly stood up on my feet and put my hand up as to steady the being.

It snarled again and turned to run away. I sighed in relief that I was ok.

For some reason I worried about the wolf more than I feared my life.

I found my way back to the road and I lived near by and walked to my house.

I see a figure standing at my door step.

“Changkyun...” I softly whispered to myself.

“Y/n, can we talk?” His deep voice that was beautiful to my ears sounded sad and lonely.

“Sure.” I say as I let him inside my house.

We were in the kitchen and I grab us a drink to mix and give him one of the cups. He takes it lightly and smiles softly. Was that a smile I saw for the first time?

“Y/n... I will never let you leave again. I need you to be mine. It hurts to much to know you left me alone for another man.” He steps closer to me. I roll my eyes and didn’t move.

He steps closer. His eyes a dark hazel.

I squint my eyes at him. I stare into his eyes as if the wolf was back in front of me.

“Changkyun....”

He steps closer this time he chuckles a little and grabs a hold of my waist and pulls my hips towards him.

I gulp in excitement and place my hands against his chest.

“How far do you think you’re gonna get by leaving my side?”

He growled softly at me.

He slowly removes my shirt as he did so I winced of pain in my left shoulder.

I look at it and but my lip. It stung a little.

He kissed my shoulder softly and with the wound a lick from his tongue for some reason felt better. He licked it a couple more times.

“This wound you kinda deserved for breaking my heart.” He whispered against my skin.

“It was you... you are the black wolf.” I say knowing it couldn’t be possible.

“Indeed my love I am that wolf that angrily attacked you on accident. In my defense I thought you were prey. I was gonna eat you. Your scent kills my lungs as if you’re a fried steak sometimes.” He licks his lips and leans over me now. I look into his eyes and I wrap my arms round on top of his shoulders and I run my fingers through the back of his head. I push his head forward a bit and I lean up to kiss him softly. His lips always so passionate and gentle but not this time. It’s passionate and loving. Deep and meaningful.

He growled again but this time like he was heated. He grabbed my thighs and wrapped them around his bottom torso around his hips. He walked us back to my bedroom while still kissing me.

He closes the door with his foot and lied me against the bed on my back and undressed me himself.

When we finished he crawled us up onto my pillows and this time he didn’t hesitate to bring me in and hold me.

A couple of bite marks lied across my shoulder blade, my neck, and thighs. He traced the marks with the tip of his fingers.

“These markings mean you’re mine. If any one or anything tries anything to you, they know the alpha is coming.” He snarled but lovingly.

He leaned over me and placed his hand against my cheek and kissed my lips upon his and pushed me against the bed. “I love you Y/n. You’re like a drug that’s killing me. You think you can hide but you can’t stay away from me. I can always smell you around. I’m always going to find you and I’m always going to love you.” He sighs and finally lies his head in perfect between my head and shoulder.

He stays silent and then i look around my room. “I can definitely say I prefer your home more than mine.” I giggle.

A chuckle escaped his lips and he looks into my eyes with his wolf like eyes. “Then, baby, come stay with me.” He stated. “And I’m not gonna take no as answer.” He runs his fingers through my hair and plays with my long strands. I smile and bite my lip with a nod.

[darkthoughtss]

Don’t Get Too Close

Chae Hyungwon | Chapter Six - FINAL

pairing: Hyungwon x Reader

genre: angst, smut

warnings: swearing, angst

word count: 3279

A/N: This is the last and final chapter guys! I’m sorry it came later than promised but a lot of things came up. And I apologize in advance for any mistakes. Anyway, I really hope you liked reading it as much as I liked writing it. I didn’t really prepare or plan anything, I just went with what came to mind while writing it. This is actually the first fanfic I finished. But yeah, I’m not a professional writer and I know I lack a lot, but I hope you enjoyed it anyway. Thank you for reading and take care! <3

Previous chapters: 1 I 2 I 3 I 4 I 5

18/4/2020 - 10:21 am

“How can it be a surprise if I know that there’s a surprise?” Hyungwon asked, lurking around your room.

“Oh shut up,” you said, folding your clothes, “You don’t know what the surprise is yet.”

“Why would you even prepare a surprise for me? I don’t think I deserve it,” he said. 

He opened your drawer and whistled teasingly when he saw it was full of your underwear. He pulled one of your lingerie up from your drawer. You quickly ran up to him when you noticed and tried to grab it from his hand. 

“Uuh, I can’t wait for you to wear this in front of me,” He said, teasingly.

You finally managed to grab it from him and glared at him.

“What?” He said, as a smile spread on his face, “Too soon?”

You placed the lingerie back in the drawer and placed a hand on each of his shoulders. 

“Relax,” You said, “I can tell you’re all worked up ever since I mentioned what I had planned for today. You don’t need to be so tense. It’s nothing big, don’t worry.”

He grinned and pulled you closer to him.

“I’m as calm as I can be,” he assured you, “Especially because you’re right here with me.”

He leaned in and kissed you softly on the lips.

“I will never get tired of kissing you,” he whispered.

You could feel yourself blush as he let go of you and poked your nose with his finger.

“Let me help you with that,” he said, grabbing a pile of your clothes.

You smiled by his gesture. 

This morning you had taken a shower after he went back to bed with your blanket. When you were done, you had given him a new toothbrush and some newly washed towels before he entered the shower after you. His clothes from yesterday were drying in the sun on your balcony after you had washed it. You let him borrow some of your baggy, oversized clothes temporarily. Your oversized “Pikachu” T-shirt fit him okay but his legs were too long for your sweatpants. Thankfully, it was hot outside, so his clothes would probably dry fast.

In the meantime, both of you had enjoyed the breakfast that Hyungwon had helped you cook. He wasn’t a bad cook after all. While eating Hyungwon told you he needed to stop by his dorm to change clothes and you told him you had to prepare his surprise anyway. He wanted to help pack your luggage for tour first while he waited for his clothes to dry. He was too embarrassed to walk out in public with your “Pikachu” T-shirt and purple sweatpants.

18/4/2020 - 1:13 pm

“No! Close your eyes,” you said, covering his eyes with your hands while standing on your toes.

He placed his hands over yours.

“Okay, okay, I’m closing them. How far yet?” He asked, laughing.

“Just a bit more,” you said.

You had prepared a romantic picnic and had chosen your absolute favourite place to go when you wanted to be alone. It was a nice spot on top of a hill accompanied by a stunning view. Surprisingly, it was a very quiet place where you rarely saw anyone. You used to come here every time you wanted to pause for a minute. 

Yesterday, you used some time to prepare food you could finish make today. While Hyungwon went to his dorm you prepared rice (shaped like turtles and decorated with seaweed), sausages, egg rolls, sandwiches, snacks and fruit. You had tried your best to make it look cute and hoped it would cheer Hyungwon up. 

“Okay,” you said, shyly, “Open your eyes.” 

You slowly lowered your hands from his eyes. He observed the view in awe and absorbed every detail in front of him. He noticed the lovely picnic and jokingly gasped. You had placed a basket with the lunch boxes and wine on a picnic blanket.

You smiled excitedly, anticipating his reaction. He turned to look at you with the biggest smile on his face. 

“Are you telling me you prepared all this just for me?” He asked.

You nodded.

“Do you like it?” You asked, “It’s nothing special... I just felt like you needed it.”

“That is so thoughtful of you, Y/N,” he said, “Thank you, I really appreciate it.”

He embraced you in a hug and you gladly returned the embrace.

“Now, let’s eat some of that! It looks delicious!” He said, full of delight.

18/4/2020 - 2:09 pm

Hyungwon received a couple of calls and messages while you were eating. You didn’t really notice it at first, since he completely ignored the calls and continued your conversation. At some point he got annoyed and muted his phone. That’s when you started to wonder.

“Aren’t you going to answer?” You said, as you munched on some cookies.

He sighed, “I probably should.”

“I don’t mind,” You said, “What if it’s an emergency?”

He poked your forehead.

“Hey!” You said, taken aback.

“I’ll answer,” he said and stuck his tongue out before leaving.

While you continued to eat, he chattered over the phone. You looked at the stunning view and let out a sigh. Everything felt so perfect right now, you were scared it would end. Was this even real? You turned to observe Hyungwon and felt the warmth of happiness spread in your heart.

Suddenly, you noticed he looked tense. He tried to refrain himself from raising his voice, but you could tell he was furious. It sounded like an argument. He hung up and took a couple of breaths before coming back.

“Is everything alright?” You asked.

He looked at you. You could tell from his eyes that he was frustrated. He was debating on what to tell you. He sat down and lowered his gaze, not being able to look you in the eyes.

“Don’t worry, Y/N. Let’s not think about it,” he said after a while. 

“It’s okay, I can handle it,” you said and offered him something to drink. 

He shook his head and refused.

“I’ll fix it,” he said.

“Fix what?” You asked, confused.

He ran his hand through his hair and tried to calm himself. He finally looked you in the eyes. It took a minute before he decided to tell you.

“I messed up,” he said with a serious tone, lowering his gaze again.

You didn’t say anything because you wanted him to continue. 

“Pictures of me yesterday have been leaked. They show me in front of your apartment,” he said.

“What?” You asked, shocked.

“The boss managed to hold the articles down. Thankfully, the pictures haven’t reached the media yet. They are receiving many calls from reporters wanting to confirm the rumors. And they want me present at the office now,” he said.

Your heart began feeling more heavy in your chest. 

“Now?” You asked, surprised.

His gaze slowly found yours and he nodded. You looked down, disappointed. 

To be honest, you didn’t care whether or not the public knew at this point. Hyungwon was one of the best things that had ever happened to you. However, if this made Hyungwon regret what happened yesterday that would mean he regretted being with you. You were still confused whether or not he felt the same for you as you felt for him. After he was so cold to you the past few days, it made you question his feelings for you. He hadn’t explained why he wanted to leave your apartment yesterday either. You could feel yourself becoming a bit anxious, questioning yourself if you let him come too close.

He lifted your chin with his hand.

“Don’t worry, Y/N, I won’t let it ruin today,” he said softly. “I know you worked hard to prepare today, and I won’t be able to be with you again before you come back from tour.” 

He stroked your hair and smiled at you. 

Maybe you were wrong. It probably wasn’t anything serious. He was obviously so warm, kind, gentle and lovely. It’s not like he kept secrets from you. You trusted him with all your heart. You had to stop doubting him, right?

“I won’t miss this for anything,” he said and leaned in to kiss you.

“But Hyungwon,” you said before his lips met yours, you looked at him with curious eyes. 

You had so many questions. How did he feel about the situation? Did he regret last night? Were the pictures bad? Was the chief angry? 

You gulped.

“Are you going to be in trouble?” You finally asked, worried.

He shook his head with a smile.

“Silly you,” he said and squeezed your cheek, “Don’t worry, okay?” 

You nodded your head, “Okay.” 

He leaned in and gave you a long kiss on the lips. You realized you were tense because the kiss made your whole body soften. It made you feel more calm. It was as if it answered all your questions. He pulled back and looked you in the eyes.

Suddenly, he grabbed your head with his hands and placed kisses all over your face. You fell back in giggles as you felt him kiss your forehead, cheeks, chin, eyelids, nose and lips. Hyungwon started laughing as you tickled his sides to make him stop. 

24/7/2020 - 7:45 pm

He had ghosted you. Or that’s what you thought. You finally came home from tour two days ago and you couldn’t wait to meet him and get an explanation from him. You wanted to know why he hadn’t picked up your calls. The first week after you left you had called each other back and forth without problems just like you used to. However, after that he started to respond to you coldly. He felt distant in his text messages. It didn’t feel like he wanted to speak with you. At first you respected his choice and figured he needed some space. But after the first few days without any contact you realized something was wrong. You missed him like crazy and wanted to hear his voice but he always came with excuses. Today, you were finally going to see him. However, something just didn’t feel right. You couldn’t push this odd feeling in your stomach away.

There hadn’t been any articles from that night. Your chief had shortly called you to inform you that you had to be more careful with your surroundings without revealing the reason. He didn’t know that Hyungwon had already told you. Hyungwon had told you about the meeting as well. They came to a mutual agreement, which he didn’t tell you about in detail.

You parked your car in the parking lot close to Monsta X’s dorm. You had informed Hyungwon you were coming and he had responded with a short “K.” You quickly wrote a message, telling him that you had arrived and speculated if you should walk inside. 

After waiting for twenty minutes without an answer from him you covered your face with a mask and got out of the car. You got the gift you had bought for Hyungwon with you. It was something you had spotted while in Japan and it immediately reminded you of him and you knew you had to get it for him. You knocked on the door and waited for somebody to answer. Wonho opened it.

“Y/N?” He asked, shocked and confused. 

“Wonho!” You said, pulling your mask down and showing him a smile.

“You’re back from tour right? Welcome back!” He said, “Come inside!”

He gestured you to come in. You walked inside before he closed the door.

“If I knew you were coming I would’ve prepared a gift. I’m sorry about that...” he trailed off, “Do you want something to drink?” He asked.

“Don’t worry, Wonho,” you said, touched by his gesture, “I told Hyungwon I would be here, isn’t he home?” You asked.

“Hyungwon?” He asked, his eyes widened. “Uh.. I,” he stuttered, as he quickly glanced at Hyungwon’s closed door.

You clenched your jaw and walked towards Hyungwon’s room. Something was definitely wrong. You noticed laughter inside of it and reached for the door handle. 

“Y/N!” Wonho said, failing to stop you from opening the door.

As soon as you did, a smell of perfume hit you. You immediately knew it didn’t belong there. Your eyes widened from the scenery in front of you. Inside lain Hyungwon on his bed, shirtless, beside a woman with his blanket covering her. The laughter came from the woman. You dropped the gift from your hand and it fell to the floor. Both the woman and Hyungwon immediately turned to look at you. You were in shock.

You felt your heart shatter so deeply that you felt like it would never be the same again. What hurt you the most was the look in his eyes when his gaze met yours. He didn’t look shocked at all, he didn’t get up to tell you that it wasn’t what it looked like. He didn’t even look like he wanted to explain. He just stared at you with cold, dead, distant eyes. 

You could feel a strong pain spread from your chest to your arms and stomach. You felt sick. Your body felt numb and weak. The tears had already fallen from your eyes and ran down your cheeks. You couldn’t move. The whole situation was so humiliating that you wanted to escape. But you trusted him so much, you wanted his explanation. Your legs couldn’t move because you knew deep down that you didn’t believe what you saw in front of you. He could explain everything, right? You didn’t want to give up on him so easily. This was just a joke, right? It looked worse than it was, right?

Wonho grabbed your wrist and tried to pull you back. He wanted to stand in front of you to protect you from the scene. But you pulled your wrist back right away. Why did Hyungwon just look at you with those cold, unrecognizable eyes? Why didn’t he say anything?

“What the fuck is the meaning of this?” You finally managed to whisper.

Hyungwon slowly got up from his bed. He stood in front of you with a lazy attitude. You couldn’t recognize him at all. You shook your head, not believing anything you saw. 

“We need to talk,” he said coldly, “in private.”

24/7/2020 - 8:19 pm

The woman had left after picking up her clothes from the floor. You couldn’t even look at her. You were disgusted. Hyungwon had gestured for her to leave with a single head nod. 

Did he just invite over some fucking whore? You could feel yourself become more angry at the situation. 

Wonho glared at Hyungwon before closing the door. The two of you stood in awkward silence, as he put on his shirt, not looking you in the eyes once. This was humiliating. Here you were, standing, crying and so fucking hurt. And he just acted like nothing was happening. What the fuck was going on? 

“I don’t share the same feelings for you anymore,” He told you coldly, blandly. 

You could feel a lump in your throat. It felt hard to breathe. Hearing the words leave his lips didn’t feel real at all. 

“I don’t want you anymore, so, let’s call it quits,” he said, looking down, lazily.

How could the words leave his lips like that? How was he able to break your heart so brutally without any sign of guilt? Did you really not mean anything to him? 

“You’re lying,” you whispered. “You can’t even look me in the eyes.”

He clenched his jaw and straightened his back. He looked you directly in the eyes with a firm look.

“Listen. You shouldn’t fool around with your coworkers and be such an amateur. You have been in this business for several years now, you should at least act like it,” He paused, “You either accept that or you get lost,” He almost spat.

You looked at him in utter disbelief. You felt exposed, fragile and broken. He had seen every side of you, your bad sides and your good sides but most importantly, your most vulnerable sides. Your darkest and deepest secrets. 

All the confidence, validation and happiness you had gained from him disappeared in a glimpse. You immediately snapped back to feeling self-conscious and insecure. He had taken a part of you that you would never get back. You had trusted him with your whole heart and given him all the love you could bear to give. 

You wanted to say so much but you couldn’t find the words. You felt cheap and disgusting, just the thought of him paying that woman made you feel nauseous. As soon as you felt the tears run down your cheeks again you just turned around and ran. You tried to hide your face as you ran out of the door.

Hyungwon’s expression turned from cold to painful as soon as you turned your back to him. He watched you as you disappeared from his sight. He hesitantly took a step forward but stopped himself. His heart wrenched as he tried to swallow the lump in his throat. The look on your face broke his heart into a million of pieces. He had forced himself to watch you without flinching. 

Right now, he hated everything but he hated himself the most. He hated himself for hurting you. Watching your lively face lose all it’s colour and your beautiful eyes lose it’s stars almost made him drop the act. He couldn’t stop thinking about how much you didn’t deserve any of this. 

He cursed himself out under his breath. Everything in his body was telling him to run after you and tell you everything was a lie. But this was the only way of ending it. You had to hate him, he thought. 

Now that you had gotten too close, everything was escalating. The public couldn’t know. He couldn’t risk it. Heck, he couldn’t risk your life. He knew he would risk his own life and career to be with you. He could manage it. However, your life and career had an important value and at the same time it could be destroyed so easily. He had to save you. This was better than receiving hate, death threats and losing your career. You had to live. This was the only way. 

Hyungwon recalled what the boss told him. He had to end “whatever business” he had with you without letting you know the reason. Only that way it wouldn’t cause trouble for the company and for you. He had to sacrifice your relationship with him for you. If saving you meant you had to hate him, he could live with it. 

“What the hell is going on?” Hyunwoo yelled, as he appeared in the door frame.

Hyungwon’s gaze were still locked on the same spot where you had disappeared. He didn’t respond.

“You’re a fucking coward,” Hyunwoo said and sent him a death glare before running after you.

Hyungwon fell down to his knees as he covered his face.

Maybe he was a coward... But he just couldn’t see a way of continuing a relationship with you without hurting you. He didn’t want you to suffer, he couldn’t let you suffer. He didn’t want his own greed and desires to be fulfilled if it meant you had to suffer.

“I’m sorry, Y/N ...I really am,” he whispered under his breath, “I just... I couldn’t... I don’t know,” he continued as he repeatedly hit himself in the chest, trying to make the pain go away.

He couldn’t hold it back anymore and let himself cry, “It’s over. I’m done. I ruined everything.”

[sukunasxsub]

Lost in a dream

Monsta x Changkyun

Changkyun

Lost in a dream

Part 1

Clouds softly eliminate the sun and cast a gray in the sky, darkening the day. The day couldn’t go by any slower than it was. An hour felt like years and minutes felt like months. And seconds felt like weeks. Changkyun stayed at the studio to by pass time. Only it was only making it worse as he was thinking about her.

Her scent, her touch, her vibe. His lover he lost a year ago. The woman of his dreams. Literally. Every morning he wakes up with a sweat and choke. He never wants to leave her but it’s not like he can sleep 24/7.

With a sigh he gets up and leaves the studio and heads home for the highlight of his nights.

For the past 6months she’s been visiting him in his dreams but can’t understand the meaning.

He walks inside the dorm of his shared band mates apartment and showers real fast.

He gets out of the shower and stares into the mirror. “My love, if you can hear me, why are you here? Why have you not moved on to the light? I don’t want to keep you here any longer.” He balls his fist up and slams his hand against the mirror. A crack shifts inside the mirror. A soft voice whispered in his ear.

“Do you not love me anymore?”

He gasps and turns around. Nothing. He feels or senses no one there.

“Changkyun! Are you alright in there?” Minhyuk and Kihyun could be heard outside the bathroom door.

“Uh... oh. Yes. Im sorry I accidentally broke the mirror.” Changkyun opens the door and rushes past in between them.

Kihyun and minhyun look at one another and look at the mirror with worry. They don’t question but help Changkyun clean it up.

Changkyun lies in bed and stares at his ceiling. This is when it’s hardest to fall asleep. It takes him a few hours to sleep.

Then when he slowly drifts into restless mode and dives deep into darkness he can smell the scent of roses and dirt. But earthy good dirt.

His nose nuzzled up in her soft, combed, straight, long black hair. Messy to the touch. His arms holding her waist bringing her closer every time he shifts. Her skin warm and gentle as she traces her fingers against his arm that wraps around her. A smile lies upon her lips with soft gentle eyes closed as she feels Changkyun wrapped around her. “Do you not love me anymore kyunnie?” The same whisper he heard a moment before bed.

He opened his eyes and nuzzled more into her. “I love you with my heart and soul my love.” He says in her neck softly.

“Then why do you insist on me leaving you.” She asks with a frown and now looking at changkyun’s fingers. She plays with his fingers and runs her fingers between them.

“I fear you are lost in this forsaken world when you can travel to the next life or light. Why must you be here with a soulless me?” He asks now turning her body around to face him.

She sighs and lies her fingers against his cheek. Her gentle touch has pure love and compassion for him.

“I must stay for a message. I have not moved in because I have unfinished business.” She sits up and suddenly they are no longer in their bed.

He is standing by a public pool. A pool full of blood. Then another flash gone. No more pool was seen. They are standing in the fog. Rose bushes all around.

“I can’t lose you my love. Please tell me why you are here.” Changkyun steps closer to her only to be pricked in the foot with a thorn. He doesn’t care he winced each step and not even getting near her.

“I need you to find me.” Changkyun looks at her confused and reaches towards her.

Her hand barely touching the tip of his middle finger. He can’t reach any more. His feet burn with pain. Tears slide form his eyes down his cheeks.

“F-find you? I’m the one who buried you! Please Bebe! Please my love! Don’t leave yet!”

Light burns the eyelids of his eyes and forces him awake. Another night he feels he hasn’t slept. He feels he hasn’t slept in a full year, since she passed.

All he remembers is the words “find me.” He gets up and gets dressed. His members are worried about him and make him breakfast. He looks at it and says “no thanks.” And walks out the door. He was told his love was found dead by accident at a gathering. She slipped down the stairs is what he was told. But now he’s gotta find out everyone at this gathering and who was there and who they were to her.

His first step was his company. She was part of monsta x staff crew.

He walks inside the company of lies.