#imagine whenever the band got a stage on a small event ot festival he sent her a letter to the monastary

[sincapjelly]

I don't think Lou can answer when people ask what he misses the most about Lilly. He misses when she was in the corner of his eye, doing her own thing. He misses when she layed her head on his lap and kept fidgeting there while he was trying to figure out a song late at night. He misses hearing her talking to herself from the next room, he always heard the most out of context part of her yapping and got confused. He misses her excitement when she can sing a song of the band so much more comfortable, she never realised he purposefully made the song for her range whenever he could. He just... misses her. Every little thing, just the fact that she existed, that's what he misses.

Everytime a show ends, he looks at the backstage, hoping to see her with her eyes sparkling with joy, hoping to celebrate how far the band has come with her. Because without her, even acomplishing his biggest dream is not enough. There is something missing, there will always be something missing. And he may not realise how much it's visible to his loved ones, he doesn't know how obvious it is for Cole either.

Whenever I read this part in Way of the Departed, I just remember that he not only lost his wife, but his soulmate.