#imagine this part with the previous part

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: trauma / ptsd / violence / brainwashing / ]

I’m not done talking about Raph and Leo yet because you know what kills me? How the beginning of the movie with Raph very angry at Leo to the point of lashing out at him is paralleled with how the end of the movie has the Krang very, very angry at Leo and beating him horrifically.

Both Raph and the Krang are so much bigger than Leo, both have been very angry with him, and both deem him responsible for ruining their respective missions.

To make matters worse, Raph’s body was used to hurt Leo. So it’d make sense for Leo to just…flinch, sometimes. To have his body reflectively brace for a blow that will not come because Raph would see this and just be horrified. Their fights, their roughhousing, their existing together all have a newfound and unwanted extra layer to them.

And Raph? Raph is traumatized enough having been brainwashed the way he was, turned into a monster in a way he always dreads in general. To be made into the antithesis of a hero and instead be a villain’s pawn, made to hurt his own family…poor kid, to say the least.

Can’t imagine what it must feel like, the first time post invasion that Raph gets mad at Leo and they fall into their old dynamic only for Leo to see the Krang and for Raph to feel like he is the Krang.

[laika-of-the-stars]

that scene with cyn/the solver and uzi at the very end where the solver/cyn is still a part of uzi.... so OSSDID/System coded fr fr.... im going insane abt it. im so autistical abt this

please please PLEASE send me asks abt this i am so eager to talk to ppl abt it

(rambles in tags)

[peachyhoneyadventures]

EDOLISSE AND VARRICK

These Hands, If Not Gods by Natalie Diaz | Still from When A Man Loves (1927) | Snippet from Richard Siken's "Crush" | Still from Lodger (???) | Poem from Margaret Atwood's "You are Happy"

[tomriddlehyperfixataion]

you guys ready for the "good" ending?

[franeridan]

something that's been driving me insane about dgm 253 is that p!Lavi says that the innocence favours those with a particularly adverse fate and he considered himself a bringer of disaster, yet bookman and he were on the side of the noahs during that war meaning that they were not chosen by the innocence back then? their fate wasn't tragic enough for the innocence to take interest in them?? But current Lavi's is??? p!Lavi was abandoned by his village took part in the holy war chose to abandon his clan to follow neah sacrificed his body heart and soul for p!Allen and you're telling me current Lavi's fate is worse?? head in hands I can't do this

[sforzesco]

The Art of Dreams: Reflections and Representations

The Tomb of Caterina della Ratta and the Iconography of the Reclining Reader in Renaissance Sepulcharl Art, Yonni Ascher

Ancestor Masks and Aristocratic Power in Roman Culture, Harriet I Flower

okay so just. play connect the dots with me for a second. Girolamo Basso della Rovere is Giuliano della Rovere's (Pope Julius II) cousin. Ascanio Sforza was a long time rival, and later ex-enemy of Giiuliano's. this kind of familial mirroring in the tombs, the way that Ascanio is being subsumed into a matching visual with someone of della Rovere's family is. interesting. because it goes well beyond the expected patron-client relationship between the pope and his cardinals. like, these were companion monuments.

there's also a kind of tragic romantic violence to it, given Ascanio's persistent loyalty to his family and Milan, and Ludovico's plans to have Ascanio's body brought back to Milan in the event of his death and interred in the same chapel as Beatrice d'Este.

[daisywords]

where's my meandering, character-focused, meticulously worldbuilt fantasy novel about a character being exiled from their homeland and forced to start a completely new life in a very foreign land. would love to write it but I have too many other things in line. I deserve to read it though

[dbphantom]

I can only dream of seeing a fraction of the discourse that happens on OP tumblr

[midnightfangz]

There's something about silly cafe AUs that soothes my soul so much

[qwortywarrior]

“Burn.”

[daz4i]

to me the funniest part of going "oh this person made me feel something big enough to want to give life a chance" is. ok first let me ask. does this thought process remind you of a certain someone. who felt that way about another certain someone after spending time with him. anyway can you take one guess what brought us together in the first place

[frumfrumfroo]

Have you heard of the rumors that have been swirling for months now that Disney has been practically begging Adam Driver to play Reed Richards in Fantastic 4 and he's repeatedly have told them flat out no? They at least acknowledge that he's a money maker if it's true and will eventually give up. But they'll be back after repeatedly being upstaged by Reylo authors within the next few years and will probably offer full college funds for his kids plus $20 million in exchange for starring in a sequel to the 1998 version of The Parent Trap with Daisy Ridley as Annie/Hallie or some shit.

I kept hearing that they were 'in talks' with him or he was all but cast etc. and never bought it. I see no reason to believe he'd agree to sign on for that given what he's doing right now and what he's said before about corporate movie products.

It'd be a terrible career move for him at the moment and he doesn't need the money. Maybe if/when he wants to get into producing or to help a director he wants to work with, they'll get him in some MCU dreck, but I doubt he ever considered saying yes to this.

[lady-lycany]

When your maladaptive daydreaming has been so intense again for a while, that your brain tricks you into missing things that literally never happened in the first place 🗿👍

Just had that and was like "🥺🥺😪😔...🤨🤔😀❓❓"

[aerialworms-art]

October wrap-up

So! October is at an end! And I have not finished Spocktober/Trektober. Let's see how I did!

My goals for the month were:

To have fun :3

To get used to finishing drawings

To get used to posting them, too!

To have fun :3

To improve my sketching and lineart skills

To end up with a bunch of finished drawings (of Spock!!!) :3

To let go of a bit of my perfectionism

TO HAVE FUN :3

So how do I think I did?

Having fun:

I had a lot of fun with it this year! In previous years, I've pretty much immediately devolved into an anxious mess because there were too many options and I bit off more than I could chew. This time around, thanks to my guidelines (only inking, not spending too much time on each day, sketching and thumbnailing in advance), it was a lot easier to let loose and have fun thinking up ideas and enjoying the process. Plus, I let my friends know I was doing it this time around and got encouragement and support, which was lovely.

Getting used to finishing drawings:

I did better at this than I thought I would! There are several drawings I've finished this month that I would have given up on if not for this goal. Do I think they were all my best work? No. Did I learn from the process? Yes! And some of the ones that have gotten the most notes were ones I thought no-one would like and struggled to finish. So! I also figured out new ways of motivating myself to finish things, which is also very helpful.

Getting used to posting things:

Also went better than I thought! Although I didn't manage to maintain a cushion of queued posts like I wanted to, the response I've gotten from actually posting my art has been amazing! I've gained several new followers (hello!!) and gotten so many nice comments, and went from being afraid of posting anything to tentatively looking forward to people's reactions, which is a huge improvement for me. Getting that accountability of posting publicly also helped keep me going when I felt like giving up - seeing my friends laugh when I showed them my silly comics or getting nice comments really made me feel like sharing my art is worthwhile. So thank you to everyone who reblogged my art, commented, liked, etc. I'm glad you did!

Improving sketching and lineart:

I definitely think I improved my art skills. Getting into the habit of thumbnailing really helped take the pressure off the sketching phase, and trying so many different ideas pushed me out of my comfort zone and forced me to try drawing things I wasn't so confident on - look how many hands I drew!!!! As for the lineart, I think I've gained a bit more experience in using pens, although I did buy a whole new set of them halfway through the month which put me on a new learning curve. Lineart's never been a huge favourite of mine, and I do miss using my tablet to do lineless art, but the nature of the challenge did help me to loosen up and experiment to keep my mind engaged the whole time.

To end up with a bunch of finished drawings of Spock:

Check! I have 14 finished drawings, with another four sketched and needing inking, plus a whole load of thumbnails to work from in future. I may go back and add colour to some of the days for funsies, but there's several that I can just put on my wall as-is and be proud :)

To let go of a bit of my perfectionism:

I definitely did! Like I said, there's a few of the ones I've posted that I'm not too proud of and know I could do better on, but I've spent all month purposely smacking my hand away from perfectionism, and I know I've tried my best given my limitations. I'm still proud of myself for getting this far, and for posting when I was anxious, and for improving my skills, and now I get to stick up my art on my wall and be proud of it! I'm not magically cured by any means, but I do have a bit more evidence that perfection is not a good goal to pursue, so I'm going to keep this experience in mind for the future.

So what now?

I do have thumbnails for almost all of the rest of the prompts. I am doing NaNoWriMo this month, and I have a digital piece that I want to finish for the 5th (holy shit. three years.) So I think I'll take a little pause on these prompts, but I don't want to stop. I'll keep coming back to them, and keep posting them, until I run out of prompts or motivation, whichever comes first. I've really enjoyed seeing people's reactions to my Star Trek art, especially the comics! I also have a backlog of SPN fanart I want to post, so I'll probably queue some of that to come out soon.

TL;DR: Watch this space!

And if you've been following along/commenting on/reblogging my art this month (or anytime), thank you so much! It's folks like you that make sharing art worthwhile!

[chodoyodes]

reading the dark artifices (never read it as a kid, i have basically no fandom exposure to it, it’s an endeavor of pure curiosity) and the first book is FINALLY picking up and it’s sooo classic cassie clare badgood ohhh my god i kinda love it? the writing has improved but in a strange horizontal fashion where the prose is pretty average like the first 9 (nine?!) books but there is a lot more uhh variety in the words to varying levels of effectiveness

[disabled-dean]

Listen. If you were not a child of the 90's, I don't think you can fully comprehend how fundamentally bizarre and life changing it is to see so many queer love stories just blossoming in mainstream media.

I know that in a lot of ways it is a fully shit time- and there's a very valid media literacy component to the type of queer representation we're getting- particularly as our rights are stripped away.

But you have to understand that for a lot of us, growing up, this kind of content was totally unthinkable. We absolutely did not see our identities represented on TV- unless it was as a side character (often a stereotype played for laughs) or some kind of over the top melodrama (ex: queer as folk & the L word) with SUPER questionable characters and storylines.

And the 90's were supposed to be progressive! But the specific period-typical homophobia and transphobia was so subversive. It leeched in everything, and I think a lot of us kind of thought it was normal- that that was how things were and they weren't going to change.

Growing up in a small, conservative town, I remember illicitly scanning the public library for any type of even vaguely queer books, obsessing over queer-coded tv shows, and delving super deep into fandom and fanfiction without ever really understanding *why* I was so hyper-fixated on queer representation- assuming that I was straight and that my gender identity matched my assigned sex.

Not only was my highschool super conservative, but our town didn't get high speed internet until I was 18. I had "liberal" but strict parents, who eventually figured out how to check the history on the family computer, stumbled on fanfiction my sibling had been reading, called a friend's mom to talk about how concerned they were, and sat my twin and I down to have a serious "talk" about it.

I wrote in my journal "sometimes I wish I was a boy" and had no fucking idea that that even ment anything.

I didn't meet another nonbinary person until I was 21 years old, and then in a couple of weeks I had broken up with my shitty boyfriend, and come out as transmasculine and bisexual. Because of the way my folks continued to control me as an adult, and medical complications from my first attempt at HRT, I was finally able to start surgically transitioning when I was 27, and at 30 I have just passed my 1 year mark on very low dose T.

Obv there's a lot pent up here, and I could go on- but it's so fucking important that people are growing up today with access to specific queer vocabulary and queer narratives.

I know it isn't perfect, and I know that the current national backlash of homophobic and transphobic hate margenalizes people in very real and scary ways that I've never lived through before.

But we're seeing more and more stories told, and I just think that if that had happened when I was younger, my life would have been so, so different.