#im worried ive peaked too soon/will never live up to this fic! lmao

[inyoursheets]

i got tagged by the lovely @missmaxime to do this fic writer tag game thingy!

Talk about the fics you wrote and tag 10 other authors you’d like to hear a little about their own insight of their writing!

* Favourite fic? And why?

warm water. i got......overwhelmingly emotionally invested in it. and i cant believe it’s over?!?!?!?! now what am i supposed to do w all my feelings?

anyway idk, i think it’s my favorite bc it has most if not all my favorite things, in terms of tropes, themes, setting, feelings. i really have a sense of the space they share so writing it felt like wandering around their apartment. and then stabbing them, repeatedly, with angst. plus i love the intimate friendship between them and just, messing with that?

and it’s the first longer fic ive ever written! ive been working on it for months, it’s been my pandemic buddy. makes it hard to compare to other fics bc they’re all a lot shorter and tend to be heavy on the smut, not so much on the plot. and it’s gonna be a while before i’ll so much as start another multichapter fic! so! it’s special!

(ok wait let me save your dash)

* Most intimate fic you’ve written?

id definitely say warm water, bc intimacy was pretty central to the fic as a whole? the intimacy of their friendship, how entangled their lives are, the whole dance of feelings? it also feels intimate bc of how much i accidentally injected my own feelings into the fic, so the vibe reads more intimate to me than any other fic ive written so far, but i think the quick exes!fic i wrote is a close second. or, maybe not that close. the intimacy in warm water gets a lot more space to grow thanks to the size of the fic and the slowburn aspect. but there’s something intimate there, too.

or....actually wait, i just opened my author page on ao3 and saw a fic i completely forgot i ever wrote that’s pretty intimate, too. how do i even... say that? is about learning how to communicate during sex, which, id classify that as intimate, despite it being 2k of smut? and in a sense the threesome fic is intimate as well. ok maybe i enjoy writing intimate fics? but warm water definitely wins

* A fic you’re ‘meh’ about?

uhhh well, in terms of quality, definitely my first fic, the bounce house guy!AU. and tbh, if the short pwps that followed would disappear, i wouldn’t lose any sleep. that said, for some reason, i have a lot of mixed feelings about the exes!AU i wrote? even tho i dont hate it in terms of the writing per se. ive mentioned it before, idk, i think it’s bc i wrote it so quickly and purely bc i was stuck with warm water and the instigator and i wanted a distraction. i need closure!? there was just a lot of crying ??? so im debating writing an epilogue a few years into the future (cough, wedding, cough). it’s at the bottom of my WIP list tho

* Which fic is best received by readers? And why do you think that is? And does it surprise you?

warm water for sure. i dont comprehend the stats for that fic, i dont comprehend the response to that fic as a whole, im absolutely blown away. safe to say i didnt expect it! mmm idk why exactly... i guess people like slowburn fics? and there weren’t that many friends-to-lovers fics (or roommate AUs for that matter) in the fandom as far as i can tell? but im not sure

i was also very surprised by the response to the beth/rhea/rio fic i wrote for ggpat2020 tbh. i didnt expect that many people to be into it.

* A fic you wrote for fun that now you’re oddly very proud of?

i definitely wrote both installments of the grocery store manager!AU just for fun and im pretty fond of them. i didnt tell anyone except @medievalraven i was working on the first part, which helped really write it for no one but myself. and part 2, oh my goodness, i just keep adding pieces of dialogue and sex positions and stuff just bc i like em. they serve no purpose. truly just for funzies.

although, slowly a plot started taking shape so now unfortunately i need to actually think about what im writing for the second chapter of part 2, but.....yes, very much a self-indulgent fic that im happy with no matter the response bc im writing it just to please myself

tagging @bathroombreaks, @mrslackles, @fairhairedkings, @storiestoldbyjazz​, @sdktrs12, @lilliloves, and anyone else who hasnt done this yet soz

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writers meme!!! 31-40 (hehehehe)

ash oh my gosh ily THANK YOU (but also some of these were tough as heck omg ahah)

31: Do you take liberties with canon or are you very strict about your fic being canon compliant?i take a looooot of liberties i think? which is why i always tend to write modern aus, because i feel like it’s less bad for me to do so in those instances. not that taking liberties with canon-canon is bad, but i do worry a lot about getting things spot on because ive been in fandoms before where cocking up a canon fact could get you a raft of “yOU DONT KNOW A DAMN THING”s and yknow what? i dont know a damn thing but i dont need to be called out on that tyvm

however! since hbowar is an awful lot more chill and lovely, i have found myself delving into more canon-era writing than i ever thought i would, which is lovely! and whilst sticking to canon is still something i try and do my best with, i don’t mind mixing things up a little bit with it either as much as i used to!

32: How do you feel about smut?i dont wanna get too weird and intense and personal here, but i have an incredibly complicated relationship with smut. it’s primarily to do with The Past, and because it still lingers around me a lot, so do the complications. having said that! things are a lot better than they were then (my bf isn’t an addict OR a controlling asshole like it was, for starters), so i feel… less bad about reading it than i did? “less bad” isnt the wording i want for that, i think less weird is better maybe? either way! i still read it and tbh i kind of like reading it too but it’s usually just for the aesthetics and also! the feelings. i love feelings.

i personally don’t write smut! for the reasons listed earlier but also a) in case anyone i know in real life ever stumbled across it, b) im not somebody who’s particularly interested in sex myself so it’s like- it feels a bit bizarre writing it sometimes, and c) i can’t write it for shit. i genuinely cannot. i think about it. i have headcanons about it (ron speirs is UNREAL at oral, for instance). but i can’t write it, and so i don’t. no hate to anyone that does though!! i think it’s a wonderful thing.

33: How do you feel about crack?you’re asking this of the lady who superimposes the faces of easy company onto farmers for a living, i’d just like to remind you of that ;)

i looove it. i love it. i’ll admit that i sometimes find some of it a little bit cringey (less so in the hbowar fandom but like! back in the anime days. oh god. i have seen and read some shit in my time). but for the most part! it’s something i adore, cause its just really nice to have fun, yknow? it’s like the spice girls luztoye stuff i did- that’s arguably cracky, i think? but it’s a lot of fun to write! and it can sometimes be a sweet bit of relief amongst the oh-so-beautiful and yet utterly gut-wrenching angst we have here too ahah

34: What are your thoughts on non-con and dub-con?non-con is an absolute no go for me. that goes kind of without saying.

dub-con is also a no go for the most part except like- okay, im going to give a personal example of this because it’s the best way i can explain how i feel about it;

last night, i was pretty drunk. not completely out of it, can barely walk, is absolutely not able to think or fend for herself in any way drunk, but still pretty drunk. my bf (who was sober and who is also an angel) came to walk me home for extra safety, and we kissed a couple times cause yknow- i love him and he’s got a very smoochable face. now i know that can sometimes be seen as dub-con perhaps because one party was drunk, however! i was still able to think and act for myself, and i was fully consenting (i remember doing so clearly, and also we’re in a pretty tactile relationship where those kinds of things are just a given)- so dub-con in that sense, then yeah im okay with that. 

however, anything more than kissing, or stuff where one person has said yes but only after a hefty amount of persuasion, or anything else that isn’t an explicit “yes, i WOULD like to do this with you”, then yeah- that’s a no go.

35: Would you ever kill off a canon character?yeah!! i have done before in fact (though never in hbowar writing- however i do plan on it with this pacific idea i have muhahaha). for the angst, innit?

36:Which is your favorite site to post fic?ao3 for sure!! i used to use ff dot net, and im pretty sure my old account is still floating about on there too (thankfully a completely different username to any of my current ones lmao), but i love ao3 a lot and it’s so much more efficient and wonderful and it makes interactions with other writers a little easier. also! the format is sooo much nicer oh my gosh

37: Talk about your current wips.oh gosh i have so many!! im currently working on some playlist prompts i got the other day, that were just supposed to be playlists but i ended up writing ficlets for too. there’s a farm/webgott one (that’s pretty long!), a baberoe, a luztoye, and then a buck/malarkey one that im curious about doing since ive not written for them before.

outside of the prompts! im working on a luztoye twin peaks but not really twin peaks kind of thing, and some baberoe stuff, and a couple of other drabbles ive had in my drafts for a very long time too!!

38: Talk about a review that made your day.oh gosh this just reminded me of all the super sweet comments i was supposed to reply to but i havent been on ao3 in a while (logged in i mean) and keep forgetting to! i’ll have to get around to that soon!!

each and every single review i get brightens up my day a lot! it means the world that people take the time to read my stuff and leave comments and each one means so so much more to me than i think i could ever really get into writing. so thank you!! thank you

this one from an anon called Lynn, this is one of my favourites ever- it just warms me right up to know that someone’s rereading fics and getting the same amount of joy out of them that i get from writing them; especially with take my hand, cause that’s one that i still think about a lot when im upset and it always cheers me up a little!

39: Do you ever get rude reviews and how do you deal with them?luckily! ive never really gotten any rude reviews and im really appreciative of that- though i feel like this is generally because the hbowar family for the most part is one of the most mature and respectful fandoms around, something that never gets old to me!

40: Write an alternative ending to [insert fic title] (or just the summary of one). okay so!! you said Scar Tissue for this one, and i guess a summary of an alternative ending for this one would be that they would kiss!! because they didn’t kiss in the original and i kind of wish they had done but at the same time i didnt want to rush things. the fic would be longer, and they would kiss, and george would open up to joe a little too since there are a lot of things i think george has going on that he doesn’t really talk about either- things im hoping to explore in a different fic in the future (key word being hoping) !

thanks soo much for the ask bab!! and sorry for rambling so much ahah, i hope some of it makes sense!! love ya!!