#im watching you tobias forge

[antichristual]

remembering that one night where i was pondering if copia was going to die..one candle, the only light in my room, me sobbing over my journal writing about this italian guy and my emotional attachment to him, mitski playing in the background

[drug-called-fangirling]

Rite here Rite now made me fall in love with Ghost all over again bro😭 hearing the ghouls and seeing them up close (not Swiss tho for some reason :')) omg i loved it. Tobias Forge i wanna kiss you you talented man

also im glad i watched it on the first day cause im seeing a LOT of spoilers on tiktok and instagram 0-0 like no warning or anything people recorded the whole thing and are posting it everywhere that sucks tbh

[ghoulangerlee]

Orchid, edelweiss, aloe Vera, jasmine and papyrus!

aaaa thank you so much!!

orchid - what's a song you consider to be perfect?

oh this is such a hard question haha. im gonna go with what song ive listened to the most rn bc it's a 'on repeat' for me, but it's As Above, So Below by Jutty Ranx haha. I love the music, the way it starts slowish but then picks up by the chorus <333

edelweiss - how did you think of your url/username? what's it associated to you?

on tumblr, specifically, uh it's just an amalgamation of my name (lee) and the word bakery in French lmao (boulangerie), but other places I use either leeoser or leeooser haha.

aloe vera - what's something mundane you really want to experience in life?

i want to stand in the woods at night and listen to the sounds, which is weird I know, but like...ive always wanted to do that despite it being like...dangerous?

jasmine - do you have a movie or a book you loved but will never watch/read again?

A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness -- its an amazing book AND movie! but like, it hit me so close to home after my mom's passing (it deals heavily with a mother passing because of illness) and it was such an amazing cathartic cry for me, but i could not do it again

papyrus - if you put your 'on repeat' playlist on shuffle, what's the first song that comes up? what do you like about it/associate with it?

Necropolis by Subvision wow lee another ghost adjacent band huh lmao

i get the chorus stuck in my head all the time, it's oddly catchy to be singing about y'know....death bahaha. I just love the overall sound tbh, like I used to listen to a lot of bands that sound like Subvision ngl, so this fits in so well with what I already listen to. and tobias forge is a lyrical genius bahaha

thank you so much, once again! sorry for the late response, i started the reply and then went to dinner, so here we are!

[catboy-joyfriend]

hiiiiii can you tell me abt ghost lore? i’ve been meaning to get into it but idk where to start (⌒_⌒;)

Ok I have made a couple very long posts about this and im not gonna make the same post again but i will link them. One important thing is that the music itself is generally separate from the lore. For trying to get into the lore the basics r that its all over the place, satanism, the band has been going on since 2010 but also stopped in the 60s but also has apparently been around for centuries. and all the papas are related but no they're not. Performance clips are good to watch, not really for lore but for understanding the personalities of the different papas (altho if u want lore u could find the clip of papa iii being dragged offstage during his last performance). Also just browse ghost's youtube channel, the chapters are definitely good to watch, there r some music videos with lore, the summoning m, the papaganda series perhaps (which is not on the ghost channel but should not be difficult to find), interviews, etc. a lot of what seems like lore is made up by the fandom so its very muddy lol. also because tobias forge has no clue what hes doing

More In Depth

[leonsleftbicep]

im telling you my little hyper fixation bands because my god they are all masked and i don’t know why

for the longest time it was lemon demon, you ask me if i knew what potter puppet pals was i would answer you with a “yeah the series neil cicierega made with his sister and one of his friends. of course i know” or if you asked me if i knew who made the posible song for bill cipher and the demo for mables pet pig along with other songs in gravity falls i would always answer “yes, neil cicierega. hes every where and you just didn’t know”

recently (and i mean like a year ago) i started my ghost kick, started listening to them because of cirice. and now here we are i know all the lore, all two band that tobias forge was in before making ghost, and i still need to watch that movie he is in, went to a ghost show and didn’t get to see them because the stage and their equipment got flooded (i saw unmasked phantom in a tour bus). and im still laughing about the fact that omega and alpha got there names from fanfiction

we also have the whole sleep token thing. where i went into a rabbit whole after granite showed up on my youtube feed, and i started listening to all of their music and cried when i heard missing limbs for the first time (plus the is it really you? cover made me sob because i resonate with it so much). i also now have a love hate relationship with britiany broski (i use to watch her art analysis videos when i was doing the arts)

oh and the steam powered giraffe hole i was in for a total of two months, thats how i started my tumblr blog lmao, i literally found honeybee on accident and then kept going further into the hole. its a very cozy hole, i like it a lot.

most of these are all that consume and inspired a lot of my art and has helped me mentally some how, mainly ghost and sleep token.

im very neurodivergent (i have adhd and most likely am on the spectrum)

I NEED TO KNOW WHICH BANDS YOU'RE AUTUSTICALLY OBSESSED ABOUT SO I HAVE MORE MUSIC RECOMMENDATIONS I'LL GO FIRST WILL WOOD/AND THE TAME WORMS (+ I INTEND TO GET INTO EVERY WW RELATED THINGS LIKE CAMP HERE AND THERE JAMFACE THE STEREOSEXUALS WATCH THAT ONE MOVIE HE APPEARS IN + ALREADY LISTENS TO A VERBAL EQUINOX) LEMON DEMON OINGO BOINGO (AND DANNY ELFMAN IN GENERAL) DEVO TALLY HALL STEAM POWERED GIRAFFE SARAH AND THE SAFE WORD EMILY AUTUMN i also rlly like sopor aeternus and the B-52's but not in an autistic way i know a couple of the cog is dead songs but I either don't like or really really like their songs and i wanna know more abt vernian process cuz something wicked sounds SO GOOD OMG ANYWAY IF YOU KNOW ANY GOOD DARK CABARET/STEAMPUNK/THEATRICAL BANDS PLEASE TELL ME

[thetomorrowshow]

a jig in plaited time

Happy holidays, @under-the-blue-moonlight ! I really enjoyed writing up some intrulogical content for you (and this may actually get additional chapters lol, I’m really happy with it).

Here is your @sanderssidesgiftxchange gift!

ships: Intrulogical, background Royality

cw: anxiety, intrusive thoughts, panic attack, mannequins, mentions of food

~

Why was Remus at the mall?

That was a simple question, with a just as simple answer. He was at the mall for a suit and tie, one he needed for his brother's wedding. It needed to be “salmon” or whatever, with a blue tie.

A much less simple answer was to the next question.

Why was Remus at the mall on Black Friday?

In all honesty, Remus hadn't known about Black Friday until he arrived. He hadn't really had a good feeling about it on the way here, but he'd paid no mind to his instincts. He didn't often have a good feeling about anything. There had been far too many cars for this time of morning on a weekday. What had really tipped him off, though, was the huge sign in the window of Nordstrom's.

'BLACK FRIDAY SALE!'

Even at that point he wasn't entirely sure what that meant. It became far more clear when he entered the building to find it absolutely packed. Well, there could be an upside to this. Maybe there would be a sale on the suit he needed.

Remus hadn't been this close to someone since he was in the womb, and he could not say that he was very comfortable with it. Remus didn't care much for close spaces and touching people, he hadn't since middle school. It just made him feel sort of icky.

As soon as possible, he ducked out of Nordstrom's, only to find that the rest of the mall was in a similar condition. JC Penney actually looked worse. Normally when Remus was feeling overwhelmed, he'd sidle into Hot Topic or somewhere else with obnoxiously loud music. By drowning his feelings in the noise, he generally was able to recollect himself. The mall was certainly loud, but not in a good way at all. Even if he tried to find someplace with music, he wouldn't be able to enjoy it with all these people.

Remus was stressed. But he needed this suit, seeing as his brother's wedding was literally tomorrow. Why did he leave it this late? Well, Remus knew he was nothing if not a master procrastinator. He also knew he couldn’t be the only one.

Remus waded his way through the crowd to a relatively people-free corner and wiggled his phone out of the pockets of his definitely too-small jeans (not that he'd admit they were too small out loud—his brother had told him they were on every occasion he wore them) and texted the wedding group chat.

Remus: hey im at the mall. anything yall need?

Robro: Why are you at the mall on black friday?

Patty-Cake: ooh can you get me a pair of sunglasses? Mine broke last week

Remus: sure. stuff for wedding?

Robro: idk. Let me ask mom

Remus shoved his phone back in his pocket, then extracted it again as it buzzed a moment later.

Robro: Yeah mom says get some classy decor or something

Ant: I don't think remus knows what classy means

Remus: shut up i got this

Toby: wait what's going on? It's like 10am why are you all awake

Robro: idk if you knew this tobes but I'm getting married tomorrow

Toby: shut up man

Ant: even Remy knows

Sleep: even i know loser

Remus: toby do u need help

Toby: I hate it heeere

Patty-Cake: Aw Toby that isn't very nice! And good morning everyone!

Robro: hello sunshine!! <3

Sleep: i need you both to not start that

Remus: get a room dorks

Okay, classy decor. Sunglasses for the groom. Pink suit. Blue tie. Probably some dress shoes. A wedding present. Dress socks too. Did Remus need to have a tie pin? He'd ask later. Napkins, definitely. No one ever had enough napkins at events. Did he need to have a pocket handkerchief?

Remus checked the list of what his suit needed that Roman had sent him a month or two ago. Yes, a blue pocket square. This was a lot.

Remus swallowed back his sudden panic and took a few deep breaths, jamming his still-buzzing phone back into his pocket. He could do this. Sunglasses first, there was a Sunglasses Hut within eyesight. All he had to do was fight through the crowd.

He reached the kiosk with few incidents and surveyed the sleek glasses for five minutes before seeing a pair that were shaped like a cartoon frog. Patton would love those. And if he didn't, then Remus just got a neat pair of sunglasses! He purchased the glasses and moved on to the next place to conquer.

-

By the time Remus was back at Nordstrom's, he was completely out of energy. Nordstrom's had two levels, and so much stuff, and so many people. He still had to get the suit and socks, and the wedding present. Maybe it seemed like he hadn't done much, but he had actually done a lot, considering how busy the mall was. He'd barely escaped a fistfight outside of the electronics store. The fact that he'd been able to get shoes and so-called 'classy decor' and napkins? Remus was pretty proud, all things considered.

Nordstrom's was even busier than when he left, which was certainly distressing. Remus couldn't even see any clothes. Was that a mannequin or a really tall lady? Was that the escalator, or a bunch of people climbing on top of each other?

What if I set off a bomb right here? Would the whole tower fall down, the ones on top not actually hurt until they hit the ground?

Remus shook off the intrusive thought. This was getting bad. It was already almost one—that meant that not only was he stressed, but he was getting hungry. His thoughts would continue to devolve until he got out of here and got some food.

I could eat that man! That would certainly clear the place out, and I'm sure he's delicious!

Remus groaned. He needed to sit down, but there were no seats free anywhere. He hefted his bags higher on his shoulders and forged on. He had to get this suit, or else the wedding would be ruined. The man in question (who was fairly attractive) bumped him, and Remus had to close his eyes to fight his brain. This was getting out of hand.

There was a little square cut out in the wall where a headless mannequin stood, no doubt showing off the latest in boys' fashion. Remus ducked between its legs and pushed his back up against the wall, knees drawn up close to his chest. He pulled out his phone with some difficulty.

Remus: hey so ro does my suit need a tie pin

Robro: Don't worry abt it, mom got matching tie pins for everyone

Sleep: ree babes are you buying ur suit now?

Remus: shut up

Sleep: on black friday?

Remus: no

Ant: did you even know it was black friday

Remus: ...

Toby: wait the wedding is tmrrw

Robro: Believe me tobias I'm aware

Remus: yah ik im not buying the whole suit just shoes

Robro: Good I almost had a heart attack, you almost certainly wouldn't be able to find one

Now truly panicking, Remus dropped his phone onto his stomach and buried his fists in his hair. How was he supposed to find a salmon suit and a blue tie, as well as nice socks? Plus a wedding present? Especially in this crowd, when he had no clue where to even look for a suit. And he still had to go to the party tonight, then the wedding tomorrow, and it was so loud. Everyone was yelling over each other, and Remus couldn't even hear his own thoughts—except the bad ones. Why did he have to put this off so long? He needed out, he wasn't going to be able to get any of the stuff, he was going to ruin the wedding, like he ruined everything—

“Hello, may I help you?”

Remus looked up—at least, as up as he could look, with a mannequin just above him—to see a bespectacled store clerk looking down at him. 'Logan', his nametag read.

Remus opened his mouth, then closed it again before a string of curses could come out. He really wasn't doing well. There was just too much, too much everything.

“Is there anything I can help you find?” Logan asked, his voice rumbling a bit—or maybe it was the thunder of people in the shop. Whatever it was, it made Remus's stomach drop a little.

“Um, uh, pink!” If Remus had any shame, he would have slapped his own face. As it was, he started trying to pantomime a suit while stuck in a tiny hollow in the wall. Logan watched kindly, his face not betraying the disgust he was probably feeling.

“Pink what? Shirt?” Logan guessed. Remus shook his head, running his hands down his legs. Pants too, pants too.

“Pink . . . coat? Shorts? Pants?”

Remus traced back over his arms, almost crying. Here he was, bothering this poor clerk with his stupid non-verbal self.

“A pink suit?”

Remus jumped for joy, hitting his head on the crotch of the mannequin, instantly shuddering at the thoughts that flooded into his head. Logan held out a hand, and Remus took it, allowing himself to be pulled out of the wall.

“I can direct you to the suit section, right this way.”

Remus let himself be led by Logan, who occasionally looked back to make sure he was still there. The man had a curly mop of dark hair, and was slightly shorter than he was—not that it was a problem. Or anything important. Remus wasn't looking for a date. He was inconveniencing a store clerk on Black Friday. Although, he did need a plus one for the wedding. . . .

No, it was out of the question. He didn't even know this man. Roman would be upset if he ruined the wedding even more by showing up with some rando who would probably jump in the wedding cake or spill food all over the nice tablecloths or turn out to be really ugly because he was just wearing a mask made of someone else's face.

“Here is where the suits are. Do you need anything else?”

Remus stared at him, his mouth opening and shutting a few times. He wanted to say something stupid, like yeah, I need those eyes in my life, or something far more obscene, but he was okay. He could do this. He could survive peopling.

Logan gave him a sympathetic smile. “I can help you find the right suit, if that's what you require.”

Before he could stop himself, Remus was nodding. He let Logan pull him past a crying couple and two arguing families to a rack of suit coats that were red.

“Will these suffice?” the clerk asked, gesturing at them. Remus frowned. They weren't pink. Was the man messing with him? Seeing his look, Logan checked the tag and groaned. “Apologies, I'm colorblind. I could have sworn these were pink. Hopefully the last customer who I pointed this way was not upset.”

That was a joke, right? Remus almost laughed, but knew if he did he would start crying. Logan led him through the crowd with seemingly unending patience, occasionally smiling gently at him. Remus felt his heartrate spike every time one of those smiles was sent his way, but for a reason completely unrelated to the overpowering noise and crowd.

Logan found him a probably very nice pink suit—Remus wasn't really looking at it. Then Logan was kind enough to let him into an employee restroom to try it on, seeing as the dressing rooms had a line that ran all the way to the front doors. It fit nicely, tight (though not as tight as his jeans) and sleek, accompanied with a blue tie that Logan had found while he was changing.

“That looks very sharp on you, sir,” Logan informed him, as Remus blushed.

“Remus,” he blurted out. Logan raised his eyebrows.

“After the character in Roman mythology?” asked Logan, his tone betraying something like excitement. Remus nodded, then looked down at the tie.

“We—didn't look at—at ties yet,” he stammered, trying to make his voice work. “Where—?”

“Ah, it happens to be one of mine,” Logan said. For the first time, he looked a little uncomfortable. “I keep one in my locker for emergencies, and I thought it would look nice on—it would look nice. With the suit.”

Remus finally found the courage to smile back. “Thanks, Specs. Uh, sorry for taking up so much of your time. I'll just buy this, it's dope.”

“Oh no, I do not at all mind assisting you,” Logan said quickly. “At least I don't have to deal with . . . whatever is going on.”

“You could assist me by being my date!”

Logan stared.

Remus clapped a hand over his mouth.

“. . . What?”

“Nothing, nothing nothing,” said Remus. “I just—um—you need to get your tie back right? And I—if you let me, of course—I could just wear it, save money and all that, and you could come and then take it home so that I don't steal it or whatever?” He scrunched his eyes up, turning away so as to catch no sight of Logan rejecting him. Why did he have to say that? The noise pressed down on him again; despite still being in the staff restroom, it was almost too loud to bear.

“Wear it . . . where?”

Remus would already be curled up on the floor were it not for the very un-purchased suit he was currently wearing. “Um, my brother's wedding tomorrow?” he chanced, hands clenched over his eyes.

The utter disbelief in Logan's voice was clear as a bell. “You are buying a suit . . . for a wedding . . . that is tomorrow. On Black Friday, of all days.”

Tears choked Remus's throat. “Y-yeah, I'm really bad at planning.” Why was he even asking this cute clerk out anyway? Just because Roman kept teasing him for not having a date to the wedding? Or did he actually have a crush on Logan?

He searched his feelings briefly, and found almost instantly that he for sure had a crush. Okay, that was a lot to deal with right now. They had just met! It was just . . . the way he smiled at him, the way he didn't abandon him even though he'd been having a panic attack for about an hour at this point, how gentle and kind he was. Not to mention how put-together he was. And his hair? That was just hot.

Now though, just seconds after realizing he liked Logan, the guy was going to reject him because he had run his stupid mouth. Remus cringed. The silence had gone on for far too long.

“Well, I expect you to pick me up an hour before the event begins. I do not currently have my own means of transportation. You are quite fortunate that I do not work tomorrow.”

Wait.

What?

“You—you really—?” Remus's voice broke. He jumped as Logan lay a warm hand over his own, which were still pressed into his eyes.

“Of course,” Logan said kindly. “I know very little about you, but I rather feel that—and no offense meant—you will be distressed at such a large event as a wedding. I would love to continue to assist you.” He coughed, then added, “Also, the streak in your hair is very attractive.”

Remus almost sighed in relief. This was okay. He let Logan pull his hands away from his face, then ran a sleeve over his eyes and nose. Logan froze.

“Well, now you have to buy that suit,” Logan said. As an aside, he muttered, “At least it looks good on you.”

“Aw, Lo, you think I look hot?” Remus asked shakily, managing a smile. “What about my jeans? Think I look good in tight clothes?”

Logan turned away, unfortunately letting go of Remus's hands, the tips of his ears turning pink. “Are you always this insufferable?”

Remus slung an arm around his shoulder. “Yep! And you're stuck with me for a whole date!”

Logan pushed his glasses up his nose. “If it doesn't work out, we can just pretend we never met, if you like. We will both move on with our lives. There is no obligation that comes with this date, we are both free to back out at any time.”

Remus quickly retracted his arm from Logan's shoulder, then nodded. That made sense. He did like Logan, and he didn't want to upset him. Shameless flirting was definitely on the table, though.

“When's your lunch break?” Remus asked, as casually as possible. Logan snorted.

“I only have a twenty minute lunch today, they don't want me to leave them without as much help as possible.” Logan went to open the door and exit the restroom, then glanced back. “One o'clock. I plan on getting a sandwich at the Subway in the hall outside of the store. It would be wonderful if someone would wait in line for me and order me an Italian BMT and a bag of potato chips, so that I am not late in returning.”

Remus grinned. Easy-peasy, and just like that he would get to spend some time with Logan before the wedding.

Logan made to leave, but Remus grabbed his arm. “One sec, hot stuff,” he said, butterflies racing through his stomach at Logan's blush, “not to bother you any more or anything, but do you have any suggestions for a wedding present?”

The utter disbelief on Logan's face completely wiped out any blush that had been there. “The wedding is tomorrow, Remus.”

Remus's breath caught. Logan said his name. It sounded so beautiful coming from him. If a heavenly chorus had been singing around him at that moment, it would have been dull compared to Logan saying his name.

Logan sighed. “Of course I have some ideas. Do you need anything else?”

Remus pulled himself together, then grabbed his phone from the pile of his clothes on the floor. He checked the list, ignoring the notifications from the group chat.

“Uh, yeah. A pocket square to match the tie, and some nice socks.”

“That's doable. Tell me about your brother and his partner while we find those items. Perhaps you and I can put together an ideal gift.” Logan stepped out of the restroom to give Remus privacy while he changed back into his clothes. Remus shucked the suit off as quickly as possible. All the intense stimulation had blurred into the background, Logan being the only buzz he needed to keep going.

Remus didn't often have a good feeling about anything, but this? Oh yeah, there was definitely something good here.

[soulnottainted]

Kelsey WHAT is going on in the band ghost. Is there lore, please tell me?? Im so interested bc I'll see ur f/o sometimes (little figures n what not) but I don't *actually* know anything??

ANON!!! BLESS-ED DAY! OH MY GOSH YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW EXCITED I AM TO INTRODUCE YOU TO MY HUSBAND AND THIS BAND!

Seriously, this means a LOT to me! Who knew that a metal (mixing with other genres) band that talks about Satan and themes of corruption and not giving a crap what people think of you would be my coping mechanism for two years! Well it IS!

First off, the basics!

Ghost was formed in 2008 and is the brain child of Tobias Forge! You know how Panic at the Disco is still called that despite it just being pretty much Brendon Urie with musicians playing instruments? Same deal here! Tobias actually does all the vocals and instruments on every album! Speaking of vocals, each album is “sung” by a different Papa, aka my brothers, Copia, and my dad Papa Nihil! Tobias is the frontman, so he also plays all the Papas (except for Nihil, he was played by an actor in videos. But the VOCALS are Tobias’ tho). So literally he is playing his OCs on stage and it’s fANTASTIC!

The musicians besides him are called the nameless ghouls! Obviously they don’t have names, and they always wear masks. The ghouls have a different look for each era too! And sometimes the ghoul lineup changes. In Papa III’s era, they were given names based on elements, but in the current Copia era, they were reverted back to being nameless. But the fandom has adopted names for the current ghouls anyway. The ghouls, according to the fandom and by me, in the lore, are actual demons! Okay that’s the BASICS

So I found this post that explains pretty much what the band is and also the lore and characters! It’s pretty straightforward and isn’t really missing anything!

(I have to disagree with the opinion that Imperator DIDNT have anything to do with my brothers’ Murder. My opinion is, that copia is unofficially her son, and killed them off so he could be in power. I see it as more as her living through her child’s eyes). Also Nihil was probably a bad dad yeah, but he has tried to do better in recent years I think!)

I also have a YouTube playlist that goes through all the videos that has any lore in it! I also sprinkled in some music videos to get a feel for each “era” of Ghost! Papa I isn’t included because at the time, there wasn’t much backstory! (Also to warn you: the summoning videos get pretty loud, watch your eardrums friend)

If you have any questions or want to learn anything more, PLEASE I’M BEGGING YOU, IM ME!

[koussevitzky]

so it turns out im really fucking stupid and i fell for the ghost effect(tm) all the papas are actually tobias forge. one guy. girl help! anyway i hope u are enjoying the little gay people

I am enjoying them! I fucking uh. Fell asleep last night but I will watch the videos you sent me

[catacombsaint]

IM STUCK AT THE AIRPORT FOR FOUR HOURS SOOOO here's my summary of my first ghost show THE FUCKING TOUR BUS WAS AT MY HOTEL FIRST OF ALL??? i pulled up to my hotel friday night in the cab and i saw this big black bus and almost shat myself but i was thinking nahhh that's just. someone's RV or something. so i describe the bus to the discord server and everyone is like THATS THEIR FUCKING BUS DUDE and im like NAHHHHHH so yesterday i met up with @dearbaphomet and cute gf. she gives me GIFTS and we head to the venue whatever theres goths everywhere its lit wE FUCKING SEE THE BAND'S BUS AND ITS THE SAME FUCKING BUS THAT WAS PARKED OUTSIDE OUR HOTEL B I T C H WHAT so we're waiting in line and we saw [AETHER] and [AIR] just meandering around up and down the street and nobody but us seemed to recognize them lmfao. [AIR] was with his wife and daughter which was cute and [AETHER] looked like his shiny-headed british ass was gonna die in the 100 degree heat. some ppl in line talked to us also and they were in their 40s and fucking Turnt WE GOT REALLY. FUCKING. CLOSE TO THE STAGE. it was a very small intimate venue and we were right up against the barrier on the fire ghoul side of the stage. there was a kid in front of us with his grandma and they both looked terrified of the opener it was great. the crowd kept screaming every time it sounded like ghost's spooky intro music was over and then kept going lmfao we were being EDGED so it finally fucking starts and bitch......BITCH IM SHAKEN TO THE CORE. MY LIFE IS CHANGED. MY PINEAL GLAND HAS BEEN DECALCIFIED first of all my god ifrit is fit as fuck and his cassock looks really good on him and his eYES ARE SO BEAUTIFUL UNDER THE MASK HOLY FUCK??? I WAS GASPING FOR BREATH OVER HIS ANIME EYES and then papa fucking poofs into existence and have you ever seen a man so beautiful you started crying because i legitimately had tears in my eyes. they did not actually fall but i do not tear up over things i dont get that emotional but oh my god papa is fucki g gorgeous and shOcKINGLY....REAL??? LOOKING? i thought seeing him irl would completely break the immersion but it actually did exactly the opposite. that's a Real Man. a real and beautiful man oh my god like why is this greasy old man so beautiful honestly i was so overcome with Emotions that the show is mostly a blur but i remember making a lot of eye contact with papa and ifrit. papa fucking looked directly at me like 0A0 at one point and i astral projected. his googly eye is so pretty. dewdrop kept fucking doing the head tilt thing and i lost my mind over it THE ABSOLUTE BEST POINT OF THE SHOW THOUGH WAS WHEN DEWFRIT HAPPENED AND THESE FUCKIN BWOIS NUZZLED THEIR MASKS TOGETHER??? I LOST MY SHIT SO HARD THAT I FORGOT WHICH FUCKING SONG THEY WERE EVEN PLAYING AT THE TIME BUT I THINK IT WAS DURING THE YEAR ZERO SOLO. THEY DID THIS LIKE PLAYFIGHT/HEADBUTT/MASK CLONK NUZZLE THING BITCH I FUCKING LEFT MY BODY I AM C H A N G E D chair's solo was rough but you know what he has great stage presence so fuck it. he sits there posed like a genie or, like, an ocarina of time NPC? and like crosses his arms and rolls his head around to the music and strokes his chin its cute. dew kept hangin out with him which was also cute. nünü was also beatin the shit out of those drums he's a good ghoul we should keep him sadly i couldnt really see chops much because he was on the other side but the windmilling and jumping was so real he looked like he was gonna fly away fucking......ifrit though. holy shit. honestly......who the fuck is alpha lmao im sorry but ifrit is the superior fire ghoul he's just so fucking HYPED he goes NUTS??? HIS STAGE PRESENCE IS PHENOMENAL LIKE I HAD TO ACTUALLY FORCE MYSELF TO LOOK AT PAPA BECAUSE IFRIT WAS HAVING SUCH A FUCKING PARTY he does a lot of posing and fistbumping and he's so expressive, it's like watching a cartoon character. and because papa iii is such a memey cartoon character too they compliment each other really really well. the entire current lineup is like that actually: everyone has very unique sort of charisma and a character that they put on, so they play off of papa and each other very well and make it more of a Show. with the old lineups the only ghoul that ever really did that was omega, imo? but he didnt even get into character as much as these current guys do. the ghouls feel like...not human. like they really do give you a vibe like they're some kind of supernatural creature rather than just guys in masks playing music. rather than papa being the central Character and grabbing all the attention, he can bounce off of the other guys and get really playful with them. it feels like papa is showing off his selection of prized show ghouls and he is very proud of them lmao SO ANYWAY ENOUGH OPINIONS(TM) the show ended and we met up with @necessary-glitter who gave us REALLY FUCKING COOL PRESENTS they were like boxes that looked like books with grucifixes on them?? she made them wtf so talented we creeped by the bus and saw [AIR] and then [AETHER] hung out to sign things and stuff and he signed the book box and i told him that she made it and he was all excited over it. he got all excited over baph's art too. and then i, like, didnt want to initiate a hug but he came at me like HUGS YES??? so i was like HUGS YES?????? and it was the firmest most wholesome hug i have ever received. my soul is cleansed. he smelled very nice also like his Scent lingered around after he walked away lmao. he's a very good english egg boy 10/10 would scramble ALSO HE HAS A VERY NICE ASS IM SORRY I NOTICED SO YEAH TL FUCKIN DR IT WAS INCREDIBLE, IM SHOOK, IM SHAKEN, I HAVE DIED AND RISEN, TOBIAS FORGE OWNS MY LIFE FOREVER NOW FUCK