#im unwell about them 😊

[cat-with-a-keyboard]

aborted mandrake and stillborn monster.....

[skythealmighty]

gang ngl i miss object universe. i should rewatch it again and get way too emotionally attached to Ice Cream and Map

#rocket talk #i made fanart of them with a steven universe song once i'm unwell

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why does gamey get to be on ii TWICE. who gave him permission

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thanks for the suggestion @cabtube-truther

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You don't hear PBSB complaining about this...

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well they're in a show that's super popular

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Yeah, and you're in one that got cancelled

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shut up you didnt even finish season one

#just one more cameo mephone4 thats all i ask

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anonymous asked: not sure you're gonna want a cameo rn mephone is going Through it

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hold on im not actually caught up lemme see

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holy shit

#I TAKE IT BACK

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anonymous asked: omg fan pleaaaase marru me ill do anythinggg ❤❤❤🥵🥵🥵

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hey @test-tubular just checking was i ever this weird

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Weird? Always. This weird? No.

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COOL just checking anyway

no please stop sending me these

#fans fantastic asks #this is the least weird anon ask from i think this specific anon #ive blocked them but oh my god #NO!!!

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💥🔃 fans-fantastic-features Follow reblogged 4️⃣ four-therecord

2️⃣ hey-two Follow

Hello everyone!! 👋 Since I've gotten many an ask about my cheesecake recipe from previous TPOT episodes, I've decided to make a longpost and put it here for you all to use!! Feel free to use without credit but credit is still appreciated 😊

Keep reading

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i hate you

#so they ARE on here #followed both immediately #how did i not come across them earlier...

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Recovery across different universes, a scientific theory

(Full post below the cut)

((Thank you to @not-tally-hall for the testimony regarding the S*n!))

Keep reading

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boring 👎👎👎👎

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Get off my post

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This is incredibly fascinating and an enjoyable read! There are some points of debate I've brought up in DMs, but otherwise this is a very solid theory. Good job!

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Thank you, that means a lot!!

#I follow your papers closely so hearing that coming from you is an honor #anyway back to my regularly scheduled nonsense

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Bonjour! J'ai découvert ce cite grâce à des vidéos amusantes

Je suis encore en train de m'habiteur à la société et je pense que c'est une bonne façon de me faire des amis! Enchanté de vous recontrer tous 😃

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bienvenue sur le site de l'enfer ! la plupart des gens ici ne parlent qu'anglais, vous pouvez donc m'envoyer un message si vous voulez parler à quelqu'un en français. je peux également vous montrer des endroits en ligne pour apprendre l'anglais

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Cela signifierait beaucoup pour moi, merci

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bien sûr!

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Baguette we all know you're not actually French you don't need to keep pretending 😒...

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K

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anonymous asked: your iconic quote from episode 10 has unfortunately become a vocal stim for me. please help, i'm suffering

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Hey? This is the funniest ask anyone's ever sent me. Can we make out behind a Denny's

#my condolences though oh my god 😭

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Guys, this site is easy! Just watch

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Based ball? Based on what?

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#hey. are you doing okay

No

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Finally watched II! Good show. I want that twink OJ dead why is he like that

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Date of origin: November 2nd, 2020

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I DIDNT MEAN IT I DIDNT MEAN IT I DIDNT MEAN JT I DIDNT

#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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Thanks everyone for the help so far! I'm not too much of a science nerd, unfortunately, @bossy-bot, so I didn't understand everything in the papers you sent me- but they still helped a ton! Especially the coding help. I was a telemarketer, not an IT person...

Now that I know what I'm doing, I have some free time. With some recommendations from @fans-fantastic-features:

If you have any other recommendations, just leave them in the comments. And please go and send help to @fire-cartoon-schtick while you're at it!

[roxygen22]

Any of these fever prompts with timothee pls and thank you 😊

Love you 😘

Link 🔗

https://www.tumblr.com/lawrencespen1777/751448171874533376/whump-fever-prompts-comment-your-favorite-im?source=share

Love you, too, doll! 🥰

Prompt: "You're not thinking clearly right now."

Tether

My fingers carded through Timothee's hair, damp with sweat as he lay unconscious on the hospital bed. The rhythmic beeping of the monitor must have lulled me into a trance-like stupor; I nearly jumped out of my skin when the ER nurse pulled aside the blue curtain.

"Oh, sorry hun. I just need to hang a new bag for his meds."

I nodded and stepped aside so she could do her job. I wondered what drug they were switching to now, seeing as how the doctor wasn't even sure why Timothée's fever had spiked high enough to trigger convulsions.

Flashbacks of my best friend writhing on the couch plagued my mind and seared into my brain. He had been feeling unwell for a couple of days and had to cancel a work trip that he was looking forward to. Knowing he would be bummed, I decided to go visit, bearing his favorite snacks and a couple of movies I thought he'd enjoy from my DVD collection. He hadn't answered my texts, so I figured he was resting. I used the spare key he gave me to let myself in and-

I shuddered and shook my head to clear my thoughts. He was more than just my best friend, no matter how much I tried to convince myself otherwise because he didn't feel the same.

I don't know what I would do if I lost him.

Once the nurse left, I resumed my position by Timothee's side, slowly drifting off as I rested my head on the bed, my hand clinging to his. I thought I was dreaming when I felt his fingers clasp mine. I quickly sat up, blinking and rubbing the sleep from my eyes. I couldn't tell if hours or just minutes had passed.

"Hey," he said through a strained whisper as we locked eyes.

"Oh, Timmy, you're awake!" I lifted and kissed the back of his hand and pressed it to my cheek. "I was so scared."

"How did I get here?" he questioned, looking around as he became more lucid.

"I- I found you. I came to check on you, and...and-" The dam broke, releasing the flood of tears that had been held back by a thin veil of adrenaline. He flipped his hand to gently wipe them away with his thumb.

"You have a knack for always being there when I need you. [Y/N], I- I love you."

"I- you-?" I struggled to form a coherent response as my face contorted in disbelief. I loved him dearly but never thought he saw our friendship as anything more than that.

"[Y/N], I could hear your voice while I was out. I grabbed onto it like a tether. I wanted desperately to come back to you. The thought that I may die without ever telling you how I feel was killing me over and over again. I love you and I want to marry you."

I felt my jaw drop as my words failed me. Time crawled before my neurons fired again. "Timmy, I- I love you, too. So, so much. But I'm afraid you're not thinking clearly right now. How about we talk about this later so you don't say something you regret. Who knows if these meds have made you loopy. They wouldn't tell me anything." I stood and anxiously walked around the bed to look at the IV bag for a clue of how genuine his declarations were.

Timothée shook his head and grabbed my hand again with surprising swiftness for someone who just regained consciousness only a few minutes prior. He nervously rubbed his thumb over my left ring finger. His eyes brimmed with tears, and his voice cracked. "My [cleared throat]- my only regret is not saying it a long time ago. I know it's a little backward to ask you to marry me and then ask you out on a date, but -"

"Ask me again when we aren't in a hospital, and I will say yes to both." I bent down and kissed him gently for the first time, but certainly not the last.

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[lollytea]

Adore your writting so much it s honestly undescribable but imma go ahead and try to.

First of all characterisation<3 rlly like how you balance them out without being consumed by few traits (even thought it s so easy to <my own experience)

But most importantly im such sucker for the descriptions of small actions that highlight emotions characters is going thru. It add so much to the experience and for me conveys it that much better? Putting emotions/experiences into words is hard (so many of us don t know what we are feeling in the moment) so tapping into what people remember doing/see other do associated with such emotion? Love it. I could read stories solely about 2 characters talking sitting somewhere but with detailed illustration of their surroundings/small actions/though process step by step. I want to grab those feelings of theirs put under microscope and study!! What about slightly different enviroment? What then? How would they act?

Thank you so much for those things + goofy scenarios

my huntlow brainrot is only getting worse and worse

OH MY GOOOOOOODD!!!

Thank you SO much this is the loveliest thing ever!! 💕 😭 Makes my day better, makes my week better, makes my YEAR better etc

I am obsessed with DIMENSION. Every character's got multiple layers and I'm constantly thinking about those layers all of the time. It's so fun to me. To be fair though, when it comes to the little writey things I do in response to asks, they might be a little sloppy characterization-wise sometimes. Mostly cuz I don't take them as seriously as the stuff I put on ao3 so I'm not constantly rereading and analysing what I wrote to make sure it's perfectly in character. It's just for fun! But I genuinely ENJOY keeping characterizations as accurate as I can so I think they're passable most of the time.

And actions!!! Yes I love little actions and gestures!!! I really like utilising body language but the usage of it is very much visual, so I like to put lots of emphasis on little details like that. Also yeah ESPECIALLY if the scene is heavy and the character is having a difficult time processing how they're feeling so their brain just zeroes in on what's going on around them because they're unable to think of anything else. There's these stubborn repression vibes about it. And I also really like the whole "showing not telling" rule where its never explicitly stated how the character is feeling but their thought process, dialogue and body language is coated with obvious emotions.

I LOVE CONVERSATIONS!!! I love writing about tiny insignificant moments but trying to make them as Big and Significant. The two big toh fics I have an ao3 have SUCH boring premises. Like there's nothing all that enticing about either of them from summary alone. But I think they turned out to be pretty cool in spite of that!! 😊

I am so very Not Normal about delving into characters experiencing complicated conflicted sometimes ugly emotions. Love when shit is RAW. It makes me unwell. And how the complex system of circumstances and environment effects their personality. Love it so much!!!

Anyway thank you!!! Thank you so so much!!!! I hope our huntlow brainrot can proceed to get worse together!!! 💕

[unofficialadamtaurus]

SORRY BUT review pt 2 because i CANT drop this chapter and I NEED to scream about the parts I can’t stop thinking about. hollow people is currently living in my head rent free homie and i freak the fuck out every time if i even THINK ABOUT THINKING about this chapter

god gOD GOD the way you sell adams spiral is just so painful. he doesn’t want to feel this way, so helpless and afraid and hurt as his worldview continually shatters right in front of him. it’s just siwnwoahnsndowjbskxu

also Blake’s hands hanging by thread made me SEVERELY uncomfortable. (in a good way!!) like. FUCKING OW.

> "I did love you, Adam."

>He paused. Glanced at her. "Your love was a lie."

LIKE he really truly believes that in that moment and it’s just DUMBASS PLEASE STOP.

> Was he just afraid?

> But he was so angry.

> Killing Blake was supposed to set things right. It was supposed to erase the cracks spiraling through his foundations. It was supposed to fix him. How could this be wrong? How could it—no. Why was it just making things worse?

duuUUUUDDDE my heart HURTS reading his anger and confusion. fuck I can FEEL it. that burning sensation and spiraling mind and frustration and its just. no words. no fucking words

> Good gods, he was unwell.

BITCH i be saying that this WHOLE DAMN TIME. YES YOU ARE VERY UNWELL.

> Something that, for years, everyone had left to fight its fear alone.

AGHHGGAHHHHHHH GOD that just STINGS

> She drew in a breath—

> And the ceiling caved in.

JESUS FUCK you are NOT forgiven for that. FUCKING HELL IT WAS SOWNSNALZWONAIS DJW

> "No, Yang," she strangled the urge to cough again, "you need to stop. I was getting through to him."

> "Blake. He was going to kill you."

LMAOOO honestly take a shot every time yang tells her stubborn as fuck gf to stop heading into situations that’ll kill her. or at least stop being blind to the goddamn high ass probability????? legit you’ll get alcohol poisoning.

and that little ruby vs Adam bit??? i LOVE how you write rubys combat. it’s so fluid

> Adam took most on Wilt and pushed against the last with a fierce grin and his hair aglow. She froze, terror she couldn't control locking her muscles and preventing her from dodging.

FUCKING CALL BACK FUCK YEAH

> Blood dripped from the new wound on his forehead.

serious moment but bloody Adam?? thank you 😋

and blake apologizing to him and he just can’t believe it DAMN IT that hurts. AHGH GOD those two.

Also homie DO NOT thank me for screaming at you about your fic because IT IS A PRIVILEGE TO READ. seriously this is absolutely amazing thank you.

(im too much of a dumbass to pick up the heavy foreshadowing you’re blatantly putting down IM SORRRYYYYYY)

cannot believe you just and hit me with a part two lmao and I will thank you as much as I damn well please. I get so few reviews that I cherish the ones you send in 😊

I'm so glad that your reaction to everything Adam did in this chapter was along the lines of, "You absolute idiot, please stop." Like we can all see that he's about as lost as a person can be but all he can see is the purpose he's so desperately clinging to. It takes Blake putting her whole life on the line solely to refuse him - not to win the fight, but to say he's wrong - for him to realize it.

And yeah, Blake's injuries are a bit graphic if you bother to imagine them. But if Weiss can be de-impaled, then Blake will probably be fine. Probably.

[the59er]

Aug 2020!

My August 2020 😊

1 Aug 2020 Listening: Burn Baby Burn - Ash

My attempt at documenting everyday in July did not go as smooth as I hoped because I kept on delaying, making most entries to be backtracked / not posted on the date itself. But re-reading the past month was a joy because it enabled me to remember things better and that’s something that I’ve been working on. It was also oddly fulfilling.

1 Aug started with me hunting for butane to refill my candle lighter and we found it at Ace, where the cashier is. Very happy that I did not need to buy yet another piece of candle lighter. 

For the remainder of the day, I wasn’t feeling fantastic. 🤕😵

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2 Aug 2020 Listening: Cannot Contain This - Moloko

Yesterday’s funny feeling led to today’s bug! Was sneezing the entire day which sucks balls because I was looking forward to seeing Mars & HH for tea 😩 These days, we have to be extra cautious and stay home if we are feeling unwell so as to NOT infect other people or make OURSELVES feel worse. 

Oh ya! Earlier in the a.m., @nevermind-doesntmatter​ came by to drop off lemang! I love lemang, it’s always the first thing I look forward to every Raya ever since I have stopped receiving duit Raya lol

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3 Aug 2020 Listening: Lusty Scripps - Fugazi

Day was spent unproductively due to migraine and was slathering my head with minyak cap kapak every hour of the day. 

On the bright side, my selsema & fever subsided, BUT left me with this agonising headache 🤕 

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4 Aug 2020 Listening: Turkish Disco - Fugazi

Horrible horrible day. I couldn’t focus, head throbbing, and ear still oozing even after the recent check up and somehow the skin on my ear was blistering and very itchy WHICH could probably be the cause of my migraine & mild fever. Immediately called the hospital & thankfully Dr Hussain slotted me in for tomorrow.

I had cholesteatoma a few years back, and eversince then, ear infections are aplenty because of the huge cavity after the cyst was removed. I had to take extra care to not make the inside of my right ear wet, which is close to impossible. Post cholesteatoma not only made me partially deaf, but also made me suffer with vertigo 😩

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5 Aug 2020 Listening: Cats in the Cradle - Ugly Kid Joe

You know you’re problematic when the doctor prescribed some type of steroid and 80% part of you is hesitant because side effects include weight gain.

I do not feel like I am harming myself. I am home with my folks so I eat. I never skip a meal. 

I have also somehow developed an allergy against my usual meds hence why I was under the weather 💤 Received the rest of the week off!

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6 Aug 2020 Listening: 505 - Arctic Monkeys

On sick leave so I took it easy. 

🥀

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7 Aug 2020 Listening: Soft Shock - YYY

Getting a bit concerned at my own money. I am aware that while saving money is always a good move, investing it is always smarter. And then there’s the talk about risk? I’d choose to be a kid any day..

2017′s drawing of bathing in money lol. 

Visited Dr Arial again. It is frustrating at how extremely self conscious I am with myself and I am more than glad to wear a mask these days not only for the prevention of covid but also because of the fact that I can hide half of my face.

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8 Aug 2020 Listening: Duet - Gonjasufi

Mars accompanied me at the hospital today for Dr H.

We coincidentally colour-coordinated 😊 It’s always nice to have him with me at the hospital.  

Post-follow up, I “rewarded” myself with unnecessary phone cases 🤦🏻‍♀️ 

And then Mars, HH & I went to Shimmy!

 It’s a very cute cafe next to the lobby of some office building. & coffee was GOOD! I give it a 4 out of 5 coffee cups! ☕️ ☕️ ☕️ ☕️/☕️ ☕️ ☕️ ☕️ ☕️ 

Random A&W stop for a “nightcap”. Love me a fulfilling Saturday 🤗 

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9 Aug 2020 Listening: A Sunday Smile - Beirut

Not feeling it at all today on top of my allergies acting up so Im home all day crep protecting my shoes even though they still get stained anyway when I wear them most likely because: a) I might be spraying them wrong; and/or b) my inability of keeping my shoes clean in general. 

Also I think my meds are giving me trouble sleeping ☹️

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10 Aug 2020 Listening: The Lost Art of Keeping a Secret - QOTSA

Sent the car for service. I don’t remember what else I did after that other than McD drive thru. 

Sorta kinda feel exactly like this drawing I made in 2016.

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11 Aug 2020 Listening: Jaded - Aerosmith

Unfortunately could not recall anything specific happening.

All I know is I need a proper, uninterrupted sleep.

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12 Aug 2020 Listening: Virginia Moon - Foo Fighters x Norah Jones

Is it ridiculous that I specifically look for PINK Medicos disposable masks? 😛 Unfortunately the one I found on Shoppee was not from Medicos but an SG brand called Ultraguard. And it arrived in the mail today!

It’s just a matter of personal preference. I find Medicos more comfortable and cloth masks not so much. Everybody needs to be responsible so mask ON!

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13 Aug 2020 Listening: Shame - Young Fathers

Chatted with some of my work friends whom I havent seen since the WFH notice started. I missed them.

But do I miss work? Not really :p I especially do not miss this view below 😂😅

Old illustration from 2017.

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14 Aug 2020 Listening: Perfect - Smashing Pumpkins

I went to the grocer’s just to buy mineral water for my Sunday activities and please somebody tell me why does evian water tastes better or am I just naive ? ? ?

But found out later that our Sunday physical excursion had to be postponed because J is recuperating from a bug so we’re going to be taking it easy breezy instead 🏄‍♂️ 

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15 Aug 2020 Listening: Under the Bridge - RHCP

Ordered Zati’s cake again for Seburba day tomorrow and I brought some to Mars for a first taste and it did NOT disappoint! Mannn I highly recommend her burnt cheesecake, they are extremely lush.

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16 Aug 2020 Listening: My Favourite Mistake - Sheryl Crow

Happy Seburba Day!

So there was a hikmah behind having to postpone our early morning physical activities.. I ended up waking up close to 10am lol.

We went to HH’s aunty’s place to celebrate the Man of the day!

And then J whipped out his new toys and one of it was a really cool polaroid printer!

J took loadsa photos as usual, making me feel pretty as usual teeehee. It was a fun day out!

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17 Aug 2020 Listening: Robert De Niro’s Waiting - Bananarama

For real, Robert de Niro would be the only old man I would want to marry and I’m not even kidding.

Happy Birthday Bob! ❤️

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18 Aug 2020 Listening: Sweetness - Jimmy Eat World

Ordered this rice bowl of chicken and eggplant and as delicious as it was, it was extremely filling or lemak that I ended up not finishing it.

I have also gained weight which I am blaming my meds for. 

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19 Aug 2020 Listening: Sidewalks - Story of the Year

Happy 19!

If it’s not because of RMCO, Mars and I would’ve gone on a dinner date tonight :( Highly likely at one of our fave go-tos:

This was way back in February, on the 19th! Before MCO hits MY the following month. Ya Allah please make Covid-19 go away for good 🤲🏼

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20 Aug 2020 Listening: Letters to You - Finch

Welcome, 1 Muharram!

Spent the a.m. rushing to get Princess’ bday gift because we are finally meeting after many many moons but only for a duration of her lunchbreak! Boo! Anyway, I settled on a cute (or so I’d like to think :p) birthday pendant!

This random cafe that we went to called Caravan had nice grilled chicken that I actually finished. Too bad no pictures at taken at Caravan because the three of us were too busy talking 😝. Sent her back to work before Mars and I met up with HH at the usual rendezvous 🏄‍♀️ 

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21 Aug 2020 Listening: Juneau - Funeral for a Friend

Today, I JUST learned how to use the MySejahtera app to check for Covid-19 hotspot 🤦🏻‍♀️ 

The key is to type in as specific as possible instead of generally typing “Bukit Damansara” or “Petaling Jaya”. Type in the actual place you want to go to, for example “Bangsar Village II”. Then you’ll know whether the place has any recent reported cases or otherwise. I feel extremely stupid for not exploring the app much earlier.. Kudos to the MySejahtera app team & developers! 

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22 Aug 2020 Listening: Push - Matchbox Twenty

Today’s hospital sesh took longer than usual. By the end of it I was feeling extremely tired. On the bright side, I think I’m getting there.

Mars accompanied me again today. I remember many years ago when I was at Damai for emergency ENT, and because it was all the way in KL, in the middle of a work week and a sudden last minute call (well it WAS an emergency op for a reason..) so none of my siblings could make it and Mars couldn’t make it either so I felt terrible and alone in that strange hospital. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone because vulnerability and loneliness do not mix well.

Rounded up the long day by having super late lunch at Frisky and caught up with HH for kopi at good old Artisan ☕️ 

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23 Aug 2020 Listening: Someday - Sugar Ray

Today is Pwincees’ birthday!

The 3 of us have been friends since we were 7 and I am very proud of them 🥰

I also met up with the NeoKL / NeoKL(AR)  boys for kopi before M leaves us to the cooler breezier side of the world! I pray he’ll be healthy throughout his trip & once he’s settled there. You know how unpredictable Covid is! One day the numbers are down, and the next, a new cluster appears outta nowhere 😩

Mars gave us an upcycled shirt each! One of his many many projects. Dude just cant sit still, unlike me, I can lie in bed all day. It’s nice to see him constantly creating. You’d know something is definitely wrong when/if he stops making anything. 

I also feel very lucky that all of the guys I’ve met & directly worked with through Transit/NeoKL are incredibly pleasant & polite, like the time when I went to Ipoh and was the only girl working, they definitely carried their own weight and then some. If anyone is looking to do any creative project involving music, visual, AR, I’d highly recommend this team!

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24 Aug 2020 Listening: From the Sun - UMO

Budget meeting, schmudget meeting.. the pain is when I have to write the minutes of meeting 😴 

The night before I slept slightly better. But I still wake up with a sweaty head. I looked it up and it says due to “stress or other underlying health conditions.” Im still on meds so that could be it but it’s making me feel extremely heaty?

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25 Aug 2020 Listening: The Rat Cage - Beastie Boys

WOW I DID NOT SLEEP UNTIL 3AM last night.

Blaming it on work and my overall imbalanced qi. 

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26 Aug 2020 Listening: Everything will be Alright - The Killers

Hospital again but thankfully a quick one with not much questions.

While waiting, I made a list of what to buy at the grocer’s after my session is done, but...

I’m very sure I’m not the only one who can’t seem to commit to a list when it comes to grocery shopping. Self-control? What’s that?

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27 Aug 2020 Listening: Loser - Beck

Supposed to be on leave today and tomorrow but surprise surprise, WORK. On the bright side, tomorrow’s budget meeting has been postponed. On the downside, I’ve already moved tomorrow’s dentist appointment to make way for the now-cancelled meeting. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Part of me can’t wait to be braces-free. Another part of me is holding on to the memories of youth! I had my first braces at 16 and despite all the emotional turmoil largely caused by my raging teenage hormones, I’d trade it with my current timeline of having to abide to the social construct of being a responsible adult anytime. 

DONT GROW UP, IT’S A TRAP

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28 Aug 2020 Listening: Shine - Collective Soul (MixedUpEverything cover)

They are officially my new favourite band of brothers!! 

Took it extra slow today. Went out to tapau tofu chicken, bought my usual bread, stopped by for green tea latte.. I am not obliged to check my inbox because I AM on leave, but I still do anyway because I feel bad 🤷🏻‍♀️

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29 Aug 2020 Listening: Little Sister - QOTSA

I went for dim sum & some serious shopping  🎉 (when I initially only needed a hoodie 🤦🏻‍♀️). I figured I should reward myself after a morning of housework. Is that justifiable enough🤷🏻‍♀️ Well at least I DID NOT BUY SHOES. 

I know I’m not supposed to support “fast fashion” but when it comes to office pants, H&M and Topshop sizes fits me best without the need to send for alteration. I’m sorry. 

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30 Aug 2020 Listening: Everlong - Foo Fighters (Acoustic)

Iced chocolate & kopi from Aitch today was good. I give it a solid 4 out of 5 cups of coffee ☕️☕️☕️☕️/☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️.

I’ve finally finished watching The Umbrella Academy season 2. Wow.

I took that buzfeed quiz on which character I am, for fun. I was hoping to get Klaus but Im Five 😂 But I do wish Im as smart and ruthless as Five for real though! 

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31 Aug 2020 Listening: Seven Years - Norah Jones

Out of random craving, I went out just to buy cake from Nourish. It’s 31st August, Happy National Day 🇲🇾 

And then out of boredom, I decided to try on one of my many many old baju kurung to see what I can do with them. Normally I would wear one for each day of tarawih at masjid (yup, I have almost a month’s worth of baju kurung!) but this year we all had to forego tarawih at the masjid because of MCO so up til now, my old baju kurungs have not yet been worn in 2020.

I experimented by wearing it with my work pants. Seems like a viable option to my regular office shirt. It looks like a normal blouse now, I think?

As for kain baju kurung, I’ve always doubled it as casual midi skirt by rolling up the waist to make it shorter, but I’ve only done it using my plain baju kurung or the ones with simpler, geometrical patterns. So to style a floral patterned baju kurung is trickier to me, considering that I’ve never really worn floral patterns on casual clothes before.

I don’t know.. Maybe I will test it out when I go out next week. I fully intend to wear all my old baju kurungs in some way or another this year. I’m very proud of them because they are all sewn by my lovely Mother 🥰

Farewell August! 

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Amber crow ...

why do my eyes leak so much....

The reason today in particular are memories of a dear witch, one which I'm am very honoured to call my best friend and soul sister As it is fast approaching the 1 year anniversary of her passing to the Summerland a quote I had posted popped itself up....causing the said eye leakage 😊

Amber was a wonderful woman (as long as she liked you) she said it how it was never beat round the Bush and if she didn't agree with you her "no Lovie, your wrong' would firmly let you know .

Amber was one of the strongest women I have had the pleasure to know, right untill the very end.

I remember the day they told her they had to remove a tumour from her stomach ...i hear her words now 'size of a watermelon" even though she was scared she put on her make up and just got on with it. (not even the postman seen her without it).

Eventually the news we had all been dreading it was cancer and so her fight began.

always dignified and always with her makeup and eyelashes on.. this beautiful woman carried on. she refused to talk about it, said it wasnt important and she had no time for it.

As time passed she continued as always being there for everyone else weaving her magick around us all.

laughter she believed was the best medicine Although some unorthodox methods where tried too...along with much magick from many different sources.

Time passed and a move by the sea to help with the healing. Along with some visits to a very well known witch and her partner who aided the healing.

Eventually good news nothing could be found all clear was given and home she came ...once more to her family and friends, for now she felt she could... because she never wanted anyone to see her unwell or be a burden.

Again she wrapped us alll in her magick protecting us and fixing all our problems.

while dealing with personal grief this woman still found strength for everyone else.

knitted shawls, witches,fairies and clothes all with there own bit of magick woven in.

Untill the day came when problems started to develop with a great fear of hospitals and especially needles through tears she carried on.

we never really discussed what was happening just a glance that we would hold longer the normal said it all!

many memories where made over the coming months my daughter passing out day, road trips to Glastonbury, avebury, afternoon tea list goes on.

we spent every Tuesday Afternoon together when possible she would always arrive with some potted plant, flowers and cake or other trinket she had picked up on her travels.

Amber spent her last few months giving us all happy memories ...of love strength and compassion she hoped to make Christmas for her girlies she so loved them dearly, alas this wouldn't be so.

I was lucky I had many memories one of the most showing her strength was the wild hunt at Glastonbury, this woman not only made her outfit she drove us there and walked to the foot of the tor to join the celebrations..to this day I don't know how she managed it, but with her frame to help she did....even though she was tired and in pain, still she stopped and had pictures when asked and spoke to everyone around.

Samhain arrived and together we celebrated, with champagne in a pink glittered bottle which she decorated a birthday cake for sue and drumming and laughter this was to be our last memory.

Amber was admitted to hospital and the time came she wanted to make arrangements, I listened to what she wanted and offered to give her a blessing....still hoping not accepting, untill the time came when she said in tired im ready,we all tried but stubborn till the end she even chose this time......

In a few days 1 year will of past and still daily i think of this courageous woman and still my eyes leak for the emptiness she has left behind.... as I lay the besom i made today for her resting place I will tell her how ....

For the next year I will celebrate her life and once a month I will set aside a day to be purposeful, doing what she loved most maybe not the hexing though amber 😂

my beautiful friend, sister and teacher always in my heart 💚