#im tired and i feel like this is baaaad :(

[pumpkinspicedlesbian]

Walter White I am awake dot gif

[starlooove]

I love thinking of next gens or whatever but like. I KNOW I was a rio defender but to be fair I hadn’t rewatched in a while and rn I’m not even done I’m just remembering I completely blocked out that rio was THAT jealous??! Especially while cheating but anyways he seems like the type of guy to have a child with Jerrica and try to name them jem 😭

[konigsblog]

I'm so happy that your asks are open because I've dying to tell you that I saw (and kind of befriended?) König cosplayer during Halloween and she was super super sweet and her costume was incredible. I may have freaked out a little when I saw her. We even took photos 🥺

As for ask, since my birthday is this Tuesday (can't believe I'm turning 23 in two days) I'd like to be self indulgent and ask for something with Simon <3 anything really because no one writes him like you do but preferably smutty

birthday sex (s.r x f!reader)

so sorry this is late :( i hope you had an amazing birthday!!

simon riley isn't the best with birthday's... not just his, but also yours. the sex he gives you is amazing though, and the cake he claimed to have ‘made’ tasted delicious. your favourite kind – he knows you so well. just don't pay attention to the container in the outside bin!

he'd bought you new lingerie, one you'd had your eyes on for weeks yet never deciding whether to pay that much money for it. you were so excited when you got it, kissing him on the cheek before you saw the lust in his honey hazel eyes, smirking and giggling before he took your hand and brought you upstairs.

simon waited patiently for you to try it on, and god, when you came out, his jaw dropped. smirking and chuckling lowly, a hearty laugh leaving his throat from the shock of your beauty. he was proud of himself for buying you something so gorgeous. feeling you sit on his lap, he leaned in close and pressed his lips against yours. eyes shut tightly as he made out with you sloppily, sucking on your tongue while you unzip his trousers and play with his belt.

bent over the edge of the bed, giving him a beautiful presentation of the lingerie. seeing you bent over like this... god, it felt like fantasy, dreamlike and heavenly to see this for himself, only for him. he flipped you onto your back, making you smile softly at him. “attagirl–say i chose a good choice, yeah?” you giggled, nodding and wriggling your hips to attract him.

“my, my beautiful. how'd i get so lucky?” he smacked your thigh teasingly, a light slap to make you bite your lip, humming. he placed the panties of the lingerie to the side, dragging his thick, weeping tip up and down your slit, easing inside slowly and grunting out at the warm, tight hole wrapped around his dick.

he couldn't hold himself back when you began pulsing, gripping the bedsheets tightly when euphoria ran through your body, pooling at your slickened cunt. simon's large hand moved up your body to your left hand, holding your hand tightly—dwarfing it—whilst gripping your hip firmly, angling you toward his thick, wide hips while sliding into your wet hole repetitively.

full and heavy balls pressed flat against your ass as he grinded into you sloppily. your sex drooling and weeping, sweet like nectar arousal drenching his thick cock as he began rocking his length into you harder. he buried his head in the crook of your neck, sucking hickeys onto your collarbone while whispering muttered praise into your ear. “god—you're just too perfect..” he breathed out, panting due to the tightness of your pussy around his dick!

you whined, squirming when you felt him speed up. your back arched, his broad hips smacking against your own, driving his leaking dick into your wetness continuously. the sloppy sounds of your cunny weeping around him, coating his shaft and balls in your sweet cum.

you mewled out, lips parted, feeling him press his soft lips against yours to muffle your loud, ecsasty-like moans. “good girl, good fuckin' girl.” he groaned, rubbing your clit with his wet, calloused thumb, the hand laying against yours moving to the top of your head, gripping a tight fistful of your hair while making out with you.

simon's wet tongue ran over your bottom lip as he ploughed his bulbous, veiny dick into your swollen slit. he tightened his grip, pulling your hair as you clutched around him. squeezing around his girthy dick with each thrust.

“please—si!” you gasped through sloppy kisses, making you shudder and tremble, bucking your hips as you squirted all against his muscular abdomen. he quickened his already ruthless pace, panting and praising you with that rough, manchester accent. your cunny sloppy and messy, covering his heavy, hard dick in slick before he spurted his load into your walls.

your gummy walls squeezed around his inches, making you whimper out loudly. a pure, dumb little mess with cum-covered lingerie. panties cum-soaken and stained. “so full, yeah, sweetness?”

[cixteenyne]

Alright, I just thought of something really dirty so it's okay if u don't want to write and ignore it - but imagine being the perfect slut for some My Hero Academia guys 👀

Like, always being available for them to use your body, no matter what day or time it is. To the point where they got addicted to you and don't want any other pussy but yours, where their favorite topic of conversation is about how good you feel and how you're always tight despite getting fucked every day, whether it's just for a single cock, two or all at once.

I think it would be interesting if you write short drabbles for each guy, for example:

Monday, 7:30 PM: Doggy style with Kaminari while he films it

Wednesday, 9:21 PM: Spend hours sucking Kirishima's monster cock

Friday, 6:10 AM: Nothing better than starting the day that morning sex with Monoma after fucking you just last night

Sunday, 11:45 PM: The weekend ends and deserves to end with rough sex in a threesome with Todoroki and Bakugo

And so with the boys that you want and the ideas that comes to your mind :) sorry for my english btw and thanks! 🌝

Ok! this will be a multiple part thing, it wont be quick, ill just kind of do it when im not tired (im always tired). but! here is part one! Sundayyyy, with bakugou and Todoroki (i kept alternated between shoto and Todoroki so my baaaad)

Content warning(s): Cunnilingus, Kinda Poly? idk they all like you, Threesomes, Face fucking, Dacryphilia, throat fucking, wrote this at 3AM, so don't expect mind blowing (get it?) smut.

Ah, Sunday...

A rather relaxing day, if you said so yourself, no classes, nothing to do all day. Maybe for you that was true, but Todoroki was in a bit of a pickle, and if Todoroki has a problem, he's going to make it someone else's.

That “someone else” happened to be Bakugou.

This is always how it starts, todoroki gets horny, so he riles up some other friend of his, and then they both come to you, this time he managed to work up Bakugou enough to come see you.

You knew exactly how he did it, too.

He would sit next to someone in the common room, and talk about tons of downright disgusting things he would do to you, he knows they’ll always agree with him, to take you apart with him.

Sure Shoto was oblivious about many things, the effect he had on others, more or less. But he wasn't oblivious about the effect his words had on the other guys in the dorms. All he had to do was say something with pretty packaging, involving you in some way, and Midoriya was already packing a boner and ready to come see you, or Kaminari was already stalking his way towards your room, and Bakugou was already stomping in front of him to get to your door,

To say you could hear them coming from a mile away was an understatement.

Which is why you should have expected to be bent over by someone like him. Like bakugou.

He was hogging you, but Shoto didn't seem to mind, content to scheme while Bakugou marked and prepared you. He was planning to have you take both of them in some way, he just needed a minute to think is all.

The second he was done with your back, biting it up and leaving evidence of himself all over you, he flipped you over to mark up that pretty throat of yours, licking and sucking up the column of your neck.

The noises were obscene and purposeful, he wanted you to hear how much of a mess he was making of your skin, he wanted you to hear the marks, not just see them.

Bakugou began to let up, taking a breather as Todoroki took the chance to hog you for himself, Bakugou scoffing at his eagerness.

Todoroki kissed over top of bakugou’s marks, soothed them with the kiss of a sweetheart, Shoto had a way of ruining you without making it look like he was, he could be destroying you, leaving you no room to do anything but hiccup and cry as he shushed you into a whimpering mess, and as long as he smiled like that, it would look like he was doing nothing wrong,and could do no wrong.

He could blow up a village on live TV and cover it with a smile, and everyone would convince themselves it was CGI, despite having been there to witness it.

He began to undress you, his lips ghosting over your body, over each piece of skin revealed, his hands running up your sides, sliding the shirt off of you, the more your stomach was revealed the further his lips followed, finishing the route with a kiss on your abdomen.

He didn't want you to look away from him, was he staring this whole time?

He never broke his gaze, not even as Bakugou slid his frame beside you to kiss at your neck, not liking being left out. Not even as he slipped his lithe fingers into your waistband and pulled down, not even as his tongue poked out to taste his prize, only ever closing once he got what he wanted.

His mouth closed around his tongue. Around your clit.

The moan that left you is always what he chases after.

Bakugou did want you to forget about him, so if you had his cock in your mouth, that would make it impossible for you to forget he's here, since you seem so enamored with ‘Icy-hot’ over there. He grumbled, getting his hips in your face, he palmed himself through his pants at your moans, he almost felt bad for Todoroki, he was going to have to muffle you. Almost.

He reached into his pants, tugging his painfully erect cock out, never stopping the slow strokes of his hand.

He threw his head back as he stroked himself in front of your face, his head rolling to the side, leering at you through his lashes.

“Open”

Was all he had to say for you to immediately obey as best as you could while todoroki ate like an animal. Bakugou slid his cock into your mouth slowly feeling the slickness of you mouth, leaving a moan falling from his lips as he advanced into your throat, slamming in so suddenly and without warning, you gagged and teared up, that pretty glittery look in your eyes, all because of him, it had precum dripped from his tip just looking at you.

He thrusted into your throat, shaking your body- pushing you into Todoroki, into his mouth.

You were so close, so, so close.

But then Todoroki stopped, a satisfied sigh falling from his lips, like a job well done.

That smile was back as he started leaning over you, watching you take Bakugou's cock up close as Shoto fiddled with his belt, seemingly in no rush to get it off.

He wanted you to hear him taking it off as best you could, he wanted to make you heat up in anticipation, maybe even in fear. As long as you linked it to him.

His belt clinked and clanked against itself as he undid it, leaning back, retreating with his hand sliding down your body as he left your face, he was going to need both hands for this.

Bakugou on one end, and he on the other, this was just too perfect.

His cock springing free, seemingly magnetizing towards your pussy, you could barely see shoto as bakugou used your face like a fleshlight, but shoto didn't mind, he wanted to keep you as oblivious as possible, this would do.

He walked up, placing a hand on your hips and immediately pushing inside of you, your eyes blown wide as you didn't expect him of all people to be so sudden with you, not even giving you a second of rest, he places both of his hands on your hips and snaps his hips as he pulls you back and forth on his cock, forcing you to meet in the middle.

Your moans were muffled by Bakugou and the sound of his balls slapping against your face, and todoroki slipping in and out of your pussy, making sure he was absolutely relentless with his hips.

His hands moving from your hips to your waist as he tries to ground himself, his eyes squeezing closed as you squeezed his cock lifeless, milking him for all he's worth,

He knew he was gonna cum soon, Bakugou was too.

You'd already came, Shoto knew that, that's why he kept going.

To see the whites of your eyes get bigger and bigger as your pupils rolled into the back of your head, unable to think as they both used you for everything you had, as they fucked their feelings into you.

He almost didn't want to stop even after he came, Bakugou didn't either.

Bakugou didn't want those other extras to have their turn with you, they didn't deserve you like he did. The thought made his hips snap faster and his head roll.

But he knew they all had to share.

You could barely think of them as you were reduced to brain mush, all except what the others had in store for Monday.

(Do not copy or translate anywhere! ask first lmao. Yes, you can still reblog bbg aha)

[bakugohoex]

RIAAA! Ria, how are you, how have you been, today,? Was studying for my tests from about six o’clock in the morning (in England) up until when I’ve sent this message (nine P.M), baaaad idea, I’m so tired I haven’t even cooked my dinner yet and I was supposed to do that at seven. :/

But, anyway, I hope you’re doing fine, hope you’re eating your meals, drinking your water (but why tf should I be saying that? 🙄), here’s your tree boi thirst, ig;

He’s hurrying you, voice monotone, pocky stick between his lips; you’re already hot and sweating, slick dripping onto the head of his cock as you hover above him — but he’s too big, and you just can’t fit him in.

The stretch is hellishly painful, and your already throbbing cunt feels like it’s splitting apart when even just the tip enters, and you always recoil from the discomfort. You’re close to tears now, they’re already threatening to well from your eyes, and you try one more time only to draw back again. “ Big . . . ‘s too big, Atsushi . . . ”

“ Such a crybaby. Let me help, then . . . ” ♥︎

— Thirsts Anonymous

BABES, i’m doing good we’re both from England damn and yes was studying as well cause of hellish school, but please hope you’ve had some dinner 50 minutes later and have some good food. 

PLEASE TREE BOI THIRST THOUGH YA GONNA GET ME H WORKING, BABY IM OBSESSED PLEASE LITERALLY I KNOW THIS MAN IS THAT BIG THAT YOU’D PHYSICALLY NEED HIM TO HELP YOU OUT, LIKE YOU GOT ME THINKING OF HIS DAMP HAIR AND HOW IT STICKS TO HIS FACE AS HE GRIPS MY HIPS TRYING TO PUSH HIMSELF INTO MY CUNT, BOI I’M THINKING H WORD THOUGHTS BECAUSE OF YOU

LOVE YA ANON

[readbythestarlight]

c2e109

Sam

Why must you hurt me in this way

Any bit but a k-pop bit I beg

STOP xD

[[MORE]]

Ooooo Yasha joining the tattoo crew!!

Runes?? Orphanmaker??

Is that a name she wants to keep claiming? Reclaim??

Niiiiiice

I can’t wait for tattoo art

"The horses had dresses?"

I do NOT remember the horse dresses

Shopping episode yayyyyy!

Beau is about to get some highly illegal fireworks

lol 50 gold

"Beauregard. Pirate Beauregard."

"Interesting first name, your parents really had a plan for you."

lmao I love this

A whole fricking cart of fireworks

Oh my god this is so PRECIOUS ajslalkss I LOVE JESTER AND MARION

"I wanted to know where my family lives" that’s both funny and sad

Anyway guys I’m like kinda in love with Marion

Fjord and Yasha shopping trip?? Excellent

Alchemical Fire is something Veth will be sorry she missed

Fjord xD

They’re gonna buy something cool and have the rightful owner on their ass for it

They are having too much fun fucking with those poor shop owner xD

"5000 gold!?"

"What if we go to hell or something??!"

Do iiiiiit Yasha

lmao noPE

Yasha and Fjord are disasters together and I LOVE IT

More of them wandering off together

Matching yellow family overalls xD

Poor Yeza lol

xD Fjord

You could have had it for 5k and now you’ve spent 5500 you dork

Wait we know that name don’t we

Sutan?

Wait did they KILL that guy??

What are the odds?

Wouldn’t it be fucking amazing if they killed him with fire?

Marion with the open invitation to her ex and if he doesn’t answer it I will be SALT

Veth please, keep your bedroom stuff in the bedroom :P

Niiiiiice transporting home??

I don’t think Caleb likes the idea of leaving Veth and I get it but... he needs to understand that she needs to be home

Beau realizing she has Authority

Breaaaaak?

I just read the coin story and Lol

This store plays music when you walk in??

Good lord

This shop sounds like Jester’s prank haven

My god

It’s a shame they didn’t find this shop BEFORE traveler con

What’s this other ring I missed it

Oh the spell ring

See THAT’s 5000 well spent

They’ve cleared the stock of so many shops lol

"Anyone interested in small clay doggies?"

F: "Do they move?"

"If... you... make them...?" *wiggles hand*

These losers finally get so much money and they spend it mostly on dumb things and I love it

Please buy the unicorn and give it to Jester I beg you Fjord

Aww dancing and drinks that’s cute

Lollllll Jester

Of course

YES the unicorn

good boy Fjord!

I’m so pleased

Oh look, Jester giving her blessing for a BeauYasha kisssssss ;)

They all ship it at this point let’s be real like Jester over here giving Beau a nudge "you have to give her the chance to make that choice" and Cad with the "thinking about your future" like

Guys you’re amazing

Oh okay imma need Cad doing some bonfire dancing

And Yasha doing bonfire dancing

I NEED it

Uhhhh

WHAT

WHAT

IS BABY GIRL’S HAIR GOING

IM SO HAPPYYYYY

"How it used to be" that’s amazing I’m gonna cry

Cad: "I miss it, but I’m afraid I might miss this more." <3

"You might be stuck with us for a little while longer."

"That’s a fine future."

"Yeah."

God I’m so soft for all the soft bonding tonight!

I’m so tired I haven’t been properly following but fuck here we go

A Godkiller weapon huh

Eor is an interesting name

But yeah I’ve got a baaaad feel

Oh shit so it’s a fight to find weapons capable of destroying the gods

Oh my god, icy and desolate, he CALLED it when he said earlier they’d end up somewhere frozen xD

I like how just everyone hates Trent

Like they’re just “ew no he sucks” all the time

Too many giant floating cities going on here

They’re not going to go without Veth tho I assume

“LAAVAAAAAA!” xD

Ice breaker ship?? Nice

75,000 gold NICE

“Who are we gonna run into”

God I hope it’s hotboi

“Are you Bren?”

Shit

Matt that’s amazing

But shit

It’s gonna be fucking Trent isn’t it

You CREEP

Nasty creepy freak

Bad vibes bad vibes BAD VIBES

“A proper family reunion” I’m going to stab him

Matt you sneaky bastard

Shiiiiiiit man did not see that coming

We love you too Matt

[borhapstyles]

Can you write for Joe based off the song The Maccabees - Toothpaste Kisses, please? I lysm 💕💕💕💕

i just watched angus thongs and perfect snogging for the millionth time (we love poetic cinema) so this is veeerrry much inspired by that as well :) i hope this suffices, i think this is really cute and hope to have this someday with someone i love 

(and i know the film doesn’t take place in Brighton but I was just going for that cute couple day out vibe that Georgia and Robbie have in the last scene xx) 

it’d be a sweet summer’s day 

well as sweet as a summer’s day could be in England

(im sorry im american i dont know if they’re that warm or not yet heh)

they’d be in the process of getting Bo Rhap ready to begin filming

and you were so excited for him, knowing how special the project was 

but you also knew that this meant long days and nights, sometimes not seeing him at all

and the glittering spring and summer days you spent with him would soon come to an end (or at least be put on pause)

Joe could sense your bittersweet feelings on the situation

and decided that day that he’d give you one last good summer’s day before filming 

so he woke you up one morning

with gentle neck and jaw kisses, nuzzling his nose in the spot behind your ear as he whispered

“wake up, baby” in his morning voice

at first you’d groan and say no because you two had a late night last night

u know

playing scrabble

and you were tired, but Joe was persistent

“please?” he’d say before kissing your sweet spot

“i have a reaaally good day planned for us and without giving away too much, there’s churros involved”

“are we going to the pier or something” 

“how the fuck did you- okay, no. but yeah, we are.” 

aaand then you guys would get up and get dressed 

and took the train ride down from London to Brighton to go along the pier

on the couple hour’s ride you leaned your head against his shoulder and watched the go by

“please promise me we’ll move into a little cottage somewhere out here when we’re old” 

and Joe just would just laugh and kiss the top of your head and told you he’d do whatever makes you happiest

when at the pier, your fingers would lace together with his and never really let go

with all the little kids running around, it was easy for the two of you to catch baby fever

“i’m hoping that’ll be us someday” Joe would say before pointing out a couple who had a young daughter and young son as they played along at one of the games

he told some of the lamest dad jokes but also some of the wittiest one-liners as you two strolled along 

“y/n, can you take a picture of me here please” he’d ask you in front of one of the rides before doing some odd pose that he’d no doubt send to Ben

not that you needed an explanation, it would probably end of confusing you even more

speaking of rides tho

you and Joe would definitely go on the bumper cars

and wreak havoc on everyone else and each other

Joe would also try to record your screams on the rollercoasters

it’s a miracle he didn’t drop his phone

and at the games area

he’d watch some teens fail at the ring toss game and go “pft, I can do way better than that” but then just go crazy at tossing all of them in hopes that most would just go in 

he got like one in 

and when you jokingly told him you wanted the giant stuffed penguin at one of the other booths

you can bet your sweet ass homeboy was determined to win it for you

“Joe, no, I was kidding” you’d say when he went for the second round after losing the first

“no, babe, it’s the principle of it now, i’m not leaving Brighton and neither are you without that penguin in hand” 

like 40 pounds later and Joe finally won it

and you were like we could’ve bought a nicer stuffed animal with that money

or more food for that matter

but after spraying the penguin with some of Joe’s cologne u slept with that thing every night when you two were apart

anyways

let’s face it you and Joe got food babies from all the things you ate there

you two wouldn’t buy a lot from one place but just share a churro here, a milkshake there, fish and chips at some point, maybe even split a burger 

that by the end of it

you two were like all that fried food was a baaaad idea

and didnt eat fried food for a while

but the experience was good and y’all didnt regret walking around bloated

cause you were bloated together

but perhaps your favorite part of the day was when the sun was nearly setting

all the fairy lights around the area were turned on

you and Joe was tired from the day and lazily walked around

but that didn’t stop him from doing that cute little thing where he lifts his arm and yours to spin you around

then kiss you passionately for a few seconds

before you two continued walking and tried not to run into people

and repeat the whole process over again

you sighed contently in his grasp and smiled as you heard the waves crashing along

“thank you for today, it was perfect” you said, feeling as if you were light as a feather

Joe would smile down at you and kiss your temple 

but then say something super cheesy like “i hope i brightoned your day” 

to which you’d roll your eyes

but laugh profusely as he’d wink at you

Joe made you laugh all the time

Didn’t matter what, he just always had the ability to bring giggles out of your lips

you could be crying nd he’d be the only person to cheer you up

on this particular date with him, you felt as if you laughed more on that day than all the other times combined in your life before having met him

and that’s how it’d always be with him

just happy

[booksbroadwaybbc]

Don't know what to do with myself. via /r/selfimprovement

Don't know what to do with myself.

Hi. I'm 21 and still in community college, but I did get my provisional admission to this university I wanted to transfer to. I work as a runner at Din Tai Fung and I'm supposed to make bank, but I don't really know yet because I'm a new employee. Headtitle question at the bottom

I think I've lived an okay-ish life, kind of. story time, skip to the end if you dont wanna read it I come from a Korean family, can't say I remember much of my childhood except mostly being beaten and yelled at. There were good times too, but they usually ended prettily shittily. Moved around a bunch, went to a lot of schools. I've dealt with a lot of abusive stuff from both parents, but I'm not going to talk about my mom because things have gotten better and she's still here for me(?). For some extreme stuff- my dad broke my brothers toes in elementary school. In my senior year, he threatened me at knifepoint and forced it into my hands and told me to stab my brother or he would stab me. Beatings from him were pretty bad, and it's not just belts and sticks bad. I played co-ed baseball in 5th grade, so bam, there was that too. He liked to throw chairs and literally flip tables when he was angry (hes a private construction worker, so he's pretty strong). Broke a lot of his phones throwing them at us, the wall, the floor, whatever. Ive had a lot of problems with my social affairs in highschool- anxiety, being cold, being short tempered, aggressive, violent, sharp tongued. I started warming up in senior year because of this girl I dated, which was a pretty big deal because gays are not allowed in this household. And well, im bi but its the same thing to them. Can't say that went too well, because my brother found out and blackmailed me in the situation we were living in. But who cares, because siblings hate each other right? Anyways, broke up with her, broke her heart, treated her poorly and whatever two years later we made up and was able to be friends again. Back to dad- he was usually never around for things like elementary grad, middle school grad, and highschool- my mom made him come, but he sure didn't seem happy about it. In highschool, he only laid down on his phone playi ng his shitty phone games. Doesnt talk to me, doesnt talk to my brother, doesnt talk to my mom. His routine: wake up, go to work, come home, phone games, eat, phone games, sleep. If you try to talk to him, he ignores you. If you press it, he'll give you some boring answer like "go away already".

Anywho, that abusive fuck was caught cheating. Had an affair with a client's sister. Sold the house we lived in, mom moved to Newark, him to San Leandro. Mom didnt want to deal with me, so I got the boot and lived wjth acquaintances in Hayward. Couldnt afford it, so mom told me to move to San Leandro with him. I moved in with my best friend helping me and we saw the evidence. Bambam, hello lady clothing and shit. I went apeshit nuts and he tried to convince me, then threatened that I would be in big trouble if i said anything. (Parents were separated but not divorced). Alright, ill keep my big mouth shut.

I worked for his "girlfriend" at her cafe in Berkeley. Why? Well, it was easy money and i needed it to keep up with my shitty coping habits- partying and party favors, mostly e. You dont have to deal with stress if youre always out partying.

Anywho, fast forward, skip a lot of details. Mom gets a phone call one day from mutual acquaintance saying dad is sick and asks her to bring him some food. Alright. So she does because she still cares, and finds out the truth. Calls me and demands me to come right now and unlock the door- note that this is a 40 minute drive. By the time i get there, theres hella police and a window is broken and theres hella shit going on. Things settled down but being my immature ass i scream at my parents for both being immature, and they shouldve just cut things clean. I yell at my dad for being a fuckhead and cheating, you didnt raise a liar but you are one. I yell at my mom for being irresponsible and breaking things. Police grabs my shoulder but i swipe it off and bam. Im on the floor, face into concrete, chipped teeth and i cant even see where my dog is. Tbh i was more worried that he ran off because he was still a puppy and i was holding him during this whole ordeal. My glasses got knocked off my face when those two officers fucking bodyslammed me into the ground. I'm 5ft4, i weighed like 130 at this time but im just a legit smol asian girl.

What happened next? Well yknow, i got arrested and sent to jail for assaulting a police officer, nbd. Sat there for a few hours, listening to some psycho making weird noises. Finally get some call saying that my mom was waiting for me, and she bailed me out. She was crying a lot and told me that my dad didnt even bat an eye as they took me away, that he smiled and tried to fix his goddamn broken window. I believe it too, because I saw that shitty smirk on his face when i got to the scene. My mom has a bit of an uncontrollable temper so she looks psycho when the other person was the wack one. This was in January 2017.

Skip forward to the next police thing. June 2017. My mom demands that i pack all my shit and move back, and she wants to go with me. I plead no, but what am i gonna do against her? Alright, we drive and she starts saying stuff about lying and calls the bitch a slut and homewrecker and stuff, dad gets up to stand inbetween and stuff. Tells her to move than basically shoves her across the living room towards the door. **insert hysteria and bam again, screaming and each other, his hands on her, me trying to squeeze my body in between them and get his hands off of her. Doesnt really work cos he turns on me, hits me away and goes back to beat her. My screaming doesnt really help either, but i try what I can to claw his arms off of her. Nooooo, bad idea, but better me than her. He grabs me and my head is locked into his elbow so I bite down, arm. Baaaad idea again, but its in self defense imo. Im just trying to help my mom. He p much beats me up into a pulp her, grabs my shirt all the way up and yikes thats embarassing. The struggle goes on and eventually its calm again because slutface is like "honey staph"- note: only words and no actions to get close, buuuut, it works. Me and mom move to my room and start removing all my weebshit from the walls. Mom is muttering and saying a bunch of bs for him to hear and he storms into the room because hes fucking triggered and start the violence again. Oh but this is where i do the fun thing- i lunge myself at him so im like on top of him but holy shit, he legit pulls me off of him and throws me against the wall cabinets, and two hand chokes me, with his knees on my chest. Mom starts screaming at him, claws his face and soon the police are here and shit. Bitch called the police, and this is where it gets more fucked up. I legally live here, its on my license. I came back to move out, so its okay for me to be here, because i came to pack my stuff and take whats mine. So why exactly did the police not believe me? Why did my mom get arrested for putting dumb scratches on his face when he beat us, with pictures - that day- to prove that he inflicted more wounds on us. We were just defending ourselves. He put his hands on us first. Anyways, that starts my worries cos im like. Im 20, but idk what to do. How do i find money to bail my mom out? How do i even do that in the first place? But i managed.

Anywho skip forward, jackass is no longer in my life, tho i have to deal with him through my brother from time to time. Parents officially divorced Feb 2018. I've lived with my mom, she bought a cafeteria for a little bit so I worked there. Things were really hard because my mom had a lot of pent up anger that she would take out on me. My brother moved out because he went to university so he didnt really have to deal with much. Im also the older child, so bam. Anyways, we fought a lot. A LOT LOT. Like apeshit crazylot. I took a lot of beatings. It was like the weekend before Christmas of 2017 where a took a huge beating and ran away from my problems by going to my now-ex's house. He offered me to move in with him and his family, so I did. I had the choice of going back to my moms lifestyle and attempt to make up, or trying to live a different life. I lived with him from like Christmas to March 2018. We started having a lot of problems because he regret inviting me, he wasnt ready to give up his personal space and I was done babysitting someone who was older than me. Doing his laundry, doing his dishes, cleaning his room. I was done with being bored, never going out, being ignored while he did the same thing my dad did. Sit on his phone and not speak a word. Yeah, there were good times too, but they seem so fleeting when it seeps in with your own personal trauma of being ignored. Btw- when i moved to his place, my brother moved back home to fill the gap, but my brother is better with dealing with my mom and she doesnt blow up at him.

After I moved back, it was better. Yeah, shit went down sometimes but i guess overall it was better? My mom cried a lot. I would hear her talk on the phone with her family members in Korea and cry about how she was tired of everything and didn't want to do it anymore. I know exactly how that feels. Well, in the later months of 2018, we got along better and havent really had those blowups. I tried my best to stay home more instead of going out at night because she hated it. I tried to be nicer to her and more compromising. She's in Korea rn and things suck. During the whole parents thing, it sucks to feel like your parents are passing you to each other likea toy they dont want. It sucks to not really feel familial love growing up, where mom is just doing things because shes supposed to and dad just flat out pretends you dont exist. It sucks that it takes two years of partying, drugs and cons to find out

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