#im thisclose to committing an unaliving of someone

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guys i am screaming and like, i gotta vent about something. so i guess if you’re interested, feel free to read below the cut.

aight so i’m with a student publication on my campus as a videographer, so i edit videos. it’s been a chill gig during the fall semester, but everything subsequently gets worse this winter semester. so we had a meeting in january and one of the things the senior videographer brought up was the agony aunt promo video. the meeting was in mid january and they needed the video before february. i kinda got volun-told to do it since the other two videographers have projects that were assigned to them by the sr. videographer. so im like, aight, chill. i didn’t mind because like.. i had no assignments that was due until mid february and i’ve got the time. so i got the agony aunt promo done pretty quickly. side note though: i ended up buying $50 worth of stock footage for this one video since i didn’t know that there was a thing such as free stock footage until much later. i have now learned my lesson.

anyway, i get the video done before february and the sr. videographer gives her okay on it and says that it would be posted in the next few days.

it wasn’t. 

fast forward to february 20th (and they still haven’t posted the agony aunt promo on the publication’s instagram page). it’s the long weekend and also my mom’s birthday, so we were out of town for the day. on our way back home, i check my messages and see a message from the sr. videographer at 7pm. she’s requesting that i make a promotional video for the upcoming open mic. she tells me that all the information is on the instagram post. not thinking much of it, i go ‘alright’. so i checked the instagram post for details.

tell me. why. the announcement regarding the open mic was posted on february 2nd. and the date of the event (which is to be held over zoom) was february 23. 

i’m given basically less than three days to work on this video. so i’m frustrated and annoyed, but i messaged her and said i could get it done by the 21st. 

this was when i discovered the beauty of pexels and free stock footage which helped me IMMENSELY. i stayed up late, even though i was tired as fuck that night, to finish this video and upload it on the google drive. i message her that it was done but i was still seething. it’s not the best video i’ve done (and lemme tell you; editing a damn video takes time especially if you’re making it from scratch), but it’s good enough. i was like “idgaf if she critiques it. i am drunk rn and i have the confidence of a mediocre white boy and will gladly tell her to eff off and do the video herself”. 

she messages me not on the 21st but the 22nd, a day before the event. guess what she says? 

“hey, so they changed the date of the open mic from the 23rd to march 5th. can you change the date in the video please?”

WHAT THE ACTUAL MOTHERFUCK?!!

you mean to tell me. that you had me working tirelessly over this video to meet such a tight deadline... ONLY FOR YOU TO CHANGE THE DATE?!! i was so mad but ofc when i message her i just go “alright. got it”. i change the date and reuploaded it. this was on the 22nd.

they posted the open mic promo video a couple of days ago (March 1-2), and the agony aunt promo video (finally!) yesterday. 

the story should end there. but nope. there’s more.

 she messages me again today at 11am. “hey, would you be able to attend the open mic event tomorrow at 6pm and emcee with me? we can host a meeting in the morning so there’s no unpredictability and plan everything out.”

again: WHAT THE ACTUAL MOTHERFUCK?!!

i have work tomorrow. and i only get scheduled one day a week at work. technically, my shift is from 11:30am till roughly 5pm (it depends on how busy it is + how long my tables stick around for, but normally i’m done by 5pm). but even then, i’m exhausted as fuck after work since i’m on my feet and running around. 

so i’m like “oh so sorry but i’ve got work till 7pm tomorrow!” she has yet to reply.

but seriously: how inconsiderate are you of other people’s time that you consistently ask them to do things last minute/rush them to do something and not have their work be posted quickly enough? 

i get that this would help me work with tighter deadlines and i have experience, but for a student-run university publication, this shit is ridiculous. the only good thing is that i’m graduating in june and i won’t have to join them again the year after. even if i wasn’t graduating, i wouldn’t join them again because they’re a mess. also the only reason i joined in the first place was so i can say that i joined an extracurricular in university and didn’t just do nothing my four years in undergrad.

okay, that’s it. rant over.