#im terrified of confronting the people who are a major part of my little ✨️problem✨️ | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

schizononagesimus · 7 months ago

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sobriety update: feeling nervous and unexcited for today. seeing one of my drinking buddies and the girl she introduced me to before i had to leave the room to hurl. originally the activity was gonna be "mix a buncha drinks at the girl's house" and I said im sober and you guys can drink but if the only activity is drinking id like to do something else. So they made the hang out sober. I should note that when i told my drinking buddy i was getting sober she said she knew she had a problem too but didnt intend on stopping. I'm not feeling optimistic but luckily she has to leave pretty early and we're not hanging out at her place for once so it shouldnt last long.

#it also doesnt help that i appear to be getting the dissociative angry psychosis episode which sucks bc it means No Talk Me I Angy #i dont wanna hang out at fucking all #i have work to be doing #they live far #maybe i can fake something idk #she'd get it if i told her the depression was getting me #which it is #im terrified of confronting the people who are a major part of my little ✨️problem✨️#just even seeing them brings me so much shame #and this friend is just so intense and tiring #I'll have to see her eventually though #sigh maybe i can take her out to eat or smthn #lessons of the hand and the mouth #sobriety update #drugs tw

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