#im sure ill be more productive but like idk ik this is stupid trust me i know this is stupid i just need to vent about it
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once again im being dramatic on here lmao
#vent#personal#i just like am so miserable actually#like the past week or two ive been actively sad and crying a lot#but now thats worn off and im just like.....idk empty ig but also maybe i was feeling that before too who knows#idk its all so silly but the closer i get to when im gonna have to work in person full time every day the more i feel like i cannot do that#like i know that a ton of ppl work in person#in fact most ppl do#and i shouldnt be upset about having to go into what is objectively a really cool office for a p low stress/low pressure job#but jfc i dont think i can do it like im so scared like i know no one will be masking except me for one thing#and im gonna have to interact with ppl all the time and do makeup every morning and find outfits that are appropriate for every single day#and like i *know* this is all fucking stupid champagne problems but i just do not know how im gonna cope#up till now in person work has been about three days a month and that was super damaging to my mental health every single time#how am i gonna do five days a week every week from august for the rest of the time i have this job#plus in the past it was structured stuff for a specific initiative but this will just be normal work and im gonna have to sit and focus#like rn i spend most of my work time fucking around and not being able to focus and idk what im gonna do when theres ppl watching me#and i *have* to get work done for the entirety of the eight hours im working a day#im sure ill be more productive but like idk ik this is stupid trust me i know this is stupid i just need to vent about it#and im afraid to vent in servers rn bc of my stupid brain so this is what yall get sorry#actually also while im just ranting i also am so tired of feeling so sick all the time like wtf is that#how am i gonna deal with the fact that i randomly feel so sick and out of it like so much of the time when im in an office all day lmao#ugh i also just like hate myself so much like i *know* its privileged and bratty for me to be like 'im so sad im gonna have to do *work*'#idk what my fucking problem is like i just need to....stop being so sensitive and stop getting so upset#speaking of that working full time in person will also big time cut into my daily crying over nothing hours rip#ugh i am so fucking.....not doing well slkdhfasdlkfasdf sorry again yall hopefully no ones actually reading all this bullshit lskdfhasdlkfh
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