#im still too nervous to talk in the big gc tho

[nicepersondisorder]

torn between asking in the t groupchat if its still possible to get hrt withouy changing documents/gender marker (which is now illegal) or if i have to leave the country completely to finally get hrt

[angelblumes]

food ment. Helllooooooo ugh would you like me to beat her up perhaps end up like her namesake, og mischa?(jk im not a (cannibal)) time to bust out the therapy voice tho , you will find your people and they will love you. Ok. ok wtf is happening? are we like the same person or something? wellbutrin buddies ❤ my room needs to be clean and moved the whole sha bang but I cant😔 life needs to be lived and such. I hope you arrived safely and happily and that everything is slightly better for you than it was last message and that you didn't get too carsick. my power went out today for like 3 seconds everything turned off everything , it usually takes alot for that to happen for my house just because its old and other reasons that I dont actually know. I've had a jam out session yesterday, it was so relaxing 😌 🙌 danced my little heart out to them guys I told you about. There's something abt the murders in hannibal that just does it for me... the artistry of it all. I love it when we talk outside of the 5 daily things too!!! hey, did you get that 'you're so mature for your age' as a kid or 'you've got an old soul' ? whats ur thoughts on that? I personally cant really imagine saying that to a kid maybe its a generational thing? ok 🙄😁 I like commentary ive been watching reactions? on youtube its a guilty pleasure, also I've been getting into some reality tv. Wife swap is crazy I love it alot and then the dating ones because ofc. whats one of the 1st reality show you remember watching and not hating? Honey Boo Boo and I Am Jaz (I think?) were my top two choices of reality. maybe a rewatch is in order for me. ok daily things um a guitar got brought into my house today i... its very.. it made me weirdly happy I love music and its instruments. thank goodness tbh my med were just a little later than usual, the pharmacy gave me emergency 3 days for they can figure out whats up because this is the second time we are having the same problem 😅 I had the best brownie of my life, it was store bought but like from the bakery fav dessert. I got this "new" shirt on so comfy, its tie dyed splattered different blues with an astronaut and nasa logo in white, its cute but also like 3? sizes too big (its a hand me down) dont worry abt the guy if a next time happens ill be ready for it 💪 it will go down, I personally know the man's family I will ruin his life if it comes down to it (we live in a town idk if it's small)or realistically just sic my family onto him. I found out my cousin has a gf now and is apparently very much happier than she was with her ex man (who made awesome cheesecake btw off topic tho) gay people stay winning, I did not know she was not straight tho so happy little surprise 😁 jeez its a lot of words uh I hope you're doing good and you had a good sleep and other nice stuff happen to you and you had a good trip🌷🤟🤙❤

HELPPP u are an angel. thank u❤️. and right exactly. normalize thinking fictional murders are artistic or something . thinkin abt how i used to think criminal minds murders were interesting but never had the right words so i'd just be like "woah he *kills them weirdly*? cool"😭. BUT YEAH i did get that all the time omfg "ur so mature for ur age!!" like thanks it's because i have issues and problems 💀....hmm i hate reality tv HAHA. this gc i'm in was just talking abt wife swap the other day how crazy !! idk if i've EVER liked reality tv .... i like watching commentary abt it (like uhh cody ko's stuff) but watching it myself... nope😭. daily things lets see!!! i went to the baltimore aquarium:) i was exhausted tho. saw that a tiktoker i like (hello fem will graham cosplayers...) went there a few days before me. how funny! i wish we had met and fallen in love or something. i went to bed at 5pm yesterday and slept til 3am. then went back to sleep from 6am to 10am. i think my new adhd/anxiety meds are the cause. sadly. cuz they work! but by making me too tired to be nervous or start thinking too much🥲. i'm tired 24/7 already and thats not helping LOL! i had this fancy meal ok multiple fancy meals and it was really nice. i got chesapeake chicken (haha like chesapeake ripper am i right?!?) and it had crab but i'm crazy i'm crazy i didn't eat the crab. the texture was soooo bad. anyway at another place i got a burger bc i'm lame i don't eat seafood (besides shrimp. which i am allergic to.) and i ate almost the whole thing and my friends mom said she was proud of me😭❤️. i always feel so guilty after eating a lot and that made me feel good. i've started watching more vampire video game play throughs. what can i say. vampire masquerade: bloodlines did something to my brain where i like vampire games now. it's the same guy which is cool. i dont like finding new youtubers becuz i've never kept up w whose problematic or not... like what if i get really into someone and mention it and someone's like oh yeah he preys on women. wtf. like umm cry? is he a youtuber? is he evil? cuz i was looking for a pathologic gameplay and he had one and i was like hmm... he sounds familiar. he has probably done something ? maybe? mm lastly.... i read this hunger games hannibal crossover WEEKS AGO but it's just still on my mind. i don't particularly love the hunger games but it's only bc i don't really know a lot abt it. i enjoy it but i've only seen the movies and read the first book (until rue died. never picked it up again after that! i cried a lottttt) and there's like an absurd amount of hannibal crossovers. i guess bc hannibal would totally rule in the hunger games. like come on a CANNIBAL? the uh.. capitol? they'd go crazyyyy for that. the fic itself wasn't even that groundbreaking or anything i have a lot of criticism for it tbh but it opened my brain to the concept. i have another one opened in a tab but it's super long so i haven't made much headway. i want one where it's like.... the one where the old winners come back for a game! and then they escape😈. but in the one i read will and hannibal sort of just escape anyway in a normal hunger game. like ok cool but i don't think that's plausible. but then how would it work ? like could will win a game on his own? maybe i should write my own fic. but then i'd have to understand what happens in the hunger games /j. ugh ok i was thinking abt that one scene where idk they do the little hand signal thing and drag katniss away and go to shut the door like right as they shoot that guy in the head. THAT WAS SO CRAZY. or when katniss shoots the lady instead of president snow and then everyone just descends on him💀 i feel like there's a level of nuance and understanding that i just don't have so i say "woah! cool :)" i hope ur doing well too ily❤️❤️💗

[daddyseggy]

all the even numbers, for the ask-thing :P

alrighty get ready 

2. You talked to an ex today, correct? nope, dont have any4. Is trust a big issue for you? i mean i wanna be able to trust people but nothing has happened that has made me have trust issues or anything6. What are you excited for? im going on a trip in the summer with my dad8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? yea kinda its definitely not cute10. What is the last beverage you had? i had a cup of orange & spice tea this morning (this reminded me that i really need to drink something)12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? i only wear skinny jeans14. What are you going to spend money on next? probably hockey tickets or theres a leafs hat that i want too 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? i hope so18. The last time you felt broken? i dont know honestly i was sad when i found out i wasnt gonna go to the leafs game and i cried but idk if i felt broken20. Are you starting to realize anything? the fact that i need to get my shit together regarding school22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? fuck no24. What do you want right this second? chocolate 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? my hair is naturally right brown but i dyed so that its like ombre so most of my hair is blonde rn28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? seeing the headline “sid triples his pleasure”30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? i want to say yes but i can probably think of some people who dont so idk32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? ha i dont have feelings :)))

34. Listening to? currently the hawks v avs but ive been a lil obsessed with baby came home 2/valentine by the neighbourhood lately 

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? ha never been kissed so !38. Who did you last call? my mom40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? n/a42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? yea today is my grandmas birthday, she died seven years ago so ive been hugging my mom all day

44. Do you tan in the nude? im pale as fuck so i dont tan i just burn46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? my gc was really active last night but there wasnt one person48. Do you sing in the shower? sometimes, other times i accidentally fall asleep50. Ever used a bow and arrow? yea and i was really bad52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? high school musical was a masterpiece 54. Ever eat a pierogi? i dont know what the fuck that is 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? doctor bc my uncles a doctor58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? not really 

60. Wear slippers? nopee62. What do you wear to bed? a big t shirt and underwear64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? TARGET66. Cheetos Or Fritos? fritos, i fucking hate cheetos68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? the song she did for the hannah montana movie70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? nhl player72. Ever won a spelling bee? no im a good speller but i have a nervous breakdown whenever i have to talk in front of people so it never works out74. What is your favorite book? i dont know honestly ive been reading the zodiac trilogy and its pretty good i still have to get the third book tho76. Regularly burn incense? not incense but candles yes78. Who would you like to see in concert? EDEN80. Hot tea or cold tea? hot82. Favorite type of cookie? chocolate chip84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? yea86. DJ or band, at a wedding? dj maybe idk actually88. Ever have plastic surgery? nope90. Opinions on sex before marriage? doesnt bother me92. Do you want to get married? so bad 

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