#im still figuring out the specific of my gender but im pretty sure im agender

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Why is men's mental health awareness month the same time as pride month?

It's like someone trying to make me choose one?!

[foulserpent]

what ages does everyone who transes gender realize theyre trans? i think shaps view on his life is extra interesting because i also feel like i really was cis in my previous stage of life and now ive grown into a different stage and gender and i feel like thats not a common experience/way of thinking represented (or i just dont see it often in my circle of online)

xikeel: comes from a culture where gender exploration is generally encouraged (though shadowscale culture is a little more restrictive), so pretty early on. was referring to herself as a girl almost as soon as she was aware of the concept. experienced a little outside pressure to be cis, but luckily she had people that supported her.

ned: no distinct moment of realization, just gradually came to acknowledge himself as a boy. he actively told his ma he was a boy in his early teens, but mom was referring to him as a son by age 8-9. got alchemical puberty blockers around 11, and finally got HRT around 18. has historically been a little jealous of men with top surgery scars because he thinks they look cool (but appreciates the hell out of his ma for how she scraped together enough to get him blockers as a very poor woman)

shap: he transitioned for semi-spiritual purposes tied to argonian sithis worship. went at it from the perspective of wanting a rounded out experience that a distinct life phase could provide. transitioned around 20. comfortably refers to his younger self as a girl, but is very happy being a man and would not want to change.

dusty: early 20s, though they really dont have things figured out until even later. its pretty much during the events of morrowind (theyre around 30) that they start considering themself somewhat of a woman (they still consider themself mostly agender, but connect to women as a woman). its kind of a personal victory for them in the face of being shaped into the image of a specific man (nerevar) at the cost of their own identity

niviiran: around 10, but didnt come out for another few years. shes the eldest child from a mercantile family from a culture with matrilineal lines, so as eldest daughter she would have high expectations placed on her and family obligations. her family could have pulled together to afford a full transition, but she put it off because her relationship with them was difficult and she did not want them controlling this deeply personal thing (did it herself in her late 20s)

ahanabi: shes still a developing character so im not sure on what her personal journey with it was like, but im thinking in her 30s..

[kinkymagnus]

Ik this is kinda random so feel free to not reply (cw: mentions of dysphoria because of a nickname ? ) but do ever get kinda dysphoric for a thing that isn't even like misgendering you ? Like my friend always called me Sunshine Child because I'm clueless about everything but I do my best to assume everyone has good intentions (and because i had dyed my hair blonde briefly before we met) but I recently came out to her as agender, and she asked if she could still call me that and I say sure because it's pretty gender neutral and she gets really happy when she calls me that, but recently it feels like bad, like I'm Being Misgendered On Purpose Bad™ so like wtf ((also love your content so much, and the 16 personalities test it's pretty cool but loooong, just search 16personalities and you can do it)) sorry for the spam i just want to sya is this relatable?? Does this happen to people??

it’s alright!! i dont mind rambles

i can’t give u insight into ur specific situtation bc im not u, u kno, but i can try my best? 

i kno that i feel misgendery/bad from different things on different days because i’m kind of fluid? some days i feel very neither gender, and something like “lady” might not bother me (still no she/her or super feminine stuff, but some more feminine things than i would normally not be ok with don’t bother me that much) and other days i feel very masculine and even purposefully avoiding gendered terms can feel kind of icky. but it changes on based on how im feeling.

and that’s just my personal experience

but yeah sometimes even like, just having something that didn’t really bother you before just starts to feel weird/bad for no reason, or something that technically isn’t misgendering because like, it is gender neutral, just feels wrong, i think that’s pretty relatable? for me personally i don’t like the modifier thing “Mx.” even though Mr. isn’t perfect either (my preferred gender neutral term is DR. but i still need to get a PHD FOR THAT) but it just feels weird

i would say you might privately explore alternatives (similarly gender neutral, or just shortening it to “sunshine” or if youre like me and you have another gender you kinda flux towards you might try something leaning more in that direction?) and see if anything works, or try and figure out why it bothers you, or if it just isn’t working for you, or even it’s bothering you for another reason (like it’s obviously meant as a term of endearment, but sometimes things like that can get to you, you know?) then try talking to your friend about it. i’m sure she’d understand. it’s not like you’re telling her she’s done anything wrong, you can just try communicating your feelings on it and how you’re not sure how you feel about that. it sucks, since she likes the nickname so much, but your comfort and wellbeing is more important than a nickname, and i’d think she would agree.

im not sure this is the best advice, but, im trying my best lol 

im glad!! <3

oh wait, is the 16 personalities thing like the INJTP or whatever like the letters people put in their bios sometimes? i’ve been avoiding that one on purpose, it’s a weird mental hang-up about different results and so on lmao 

[citialiin]

ZIGGY ✰ STARDUST

i jacked this from @cardinalrot​. thank you dad. tagging: @gothsic​ ; @blossomingbeelzebug​ ; @betelguide​ ; @thatcertainnight​ ; @prophesyed​ ; you, specifically, reading this.

𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐬

FULL NAME.     [ redacted ] * NICKNAME.     ziggy  GENDER.     agender (he/him or they/them) / typically presents as a “man” for simplicity’s sake and also because he doesn’t care enough to think about it for more than 4 seconds HEIGHT.     5′10″ AGE.     26 (earth years) ZODIAC.     ??? (he wasn’t born under our stars ... so .......) SPOKEN LANGUAGES.     any/all (he doesn’t really know them, though, he uses an internal translator)

𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬

HAIR COLOR.     bright red, seemingly unnatural -- but it’s natural EYE COLOR.     left pale blue, right black SKIN TONE.     very, very, very pale BODY TYPE.     skinny. very skinny/slender/svelte.  willowy and tall and bony.  good for looking waifish on magazine covers but bad for lifting even vaguely heavy objects. VOICE.     posh, nasally, low, the slightest bit condescending.  speaks with an english accent despite not being english, let alone human.  drawls his vowels and enunciates his letters.  his voice is strangely clear and bright when he sings, unlike his somewhat unpleasant speaking tone, and he tends to sing in higher pitches than his speaking voice. DOMINANT HAND.     ambidextrous -- but he can only play the guitar left handed POSTURE.     very straight and proper, holds his head high and his shoulders square.  uncertain if it’s height alone or if he really is looking down upon you.   SCARS.     small incision in the back of his neck where the translator was placed. barely there and usually covered by a collar or his hair, anyways. TATTOOS.      none BIRTHMARKS.     a large yellow disc on his forehead, rimmed with a slightly darker yellow/bronze with the slightest hint of a chromatic shift affect due to reflecting/light catching pigment in skin cells.  this isn’t unique to him, however, as every member of his race has it. has the tiniest hint of a freckle above his lip, on the left side, and he hates it and wishes he could nuke it off his face.  both of these are usually covered, anyways. MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S).     the circular mark, his unusual eyes, his sharp features, his bright hair. everything about him is weird and outlandish and strange, but it helps him maintain a striking, marketable image.  

𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝

PLACE OF BIRTH.     far away.  HOMETOWN.    faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar away. SIBLINGS.    [ grabs the steering wheel and veers straight into worldbuilding headcanon territory ] the society he comes from is no longer sexually dimorphic and typically doesn’t reproduce the natural way.  having evolved far beyond such icky things, they use genetic samples from large swaths of the population to make consistent batches of new individuals -- the genetic samples are screened for defects and aberrations and sort of tossed together into a genome salad, and out comes however many individuals they need to fill in gaps in the population.  there’s a lot of consistency in his species due to this: everyone has reddish hair, everyone has heterochromia, everyone is about the same height, etc.  so technically, he’s related to everyone in his “batch.” PARENTS.   he wouldn’t ever know -- a lot of people, probably

𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞

OCCUPATION.    rockstar -- cultural icon -- celebrity -- musician -- singer -- model -- jerk CURRENT RESIDENCE.    london, LA, NYC, but he’s constantly moving and tours quite often CLOSE FRIENDS.    few and far in between -- he’s friends with his drummer who is named priscilla but usually goes by the stage name WEIRD, as well as siddharth, his bassist, who goes by sid in his personal life but GILLY on stage.  they were the first two humans to encounter him and taught him everything he knows, from how to tie his shoes (aliens wear boots, and you should know this) to the C major scale -- because they are among the few humans who know his secret, he views them as his closest and dearest friends.  his stardom isolates him from them, just a little -- he likes the spotlight but they don’t mind just being “the drummer” and “the bassist.”  they don’t quite have the star power that he does.  his manager  -- tama ahinariki, some guy from new zealand who seemed to bumble his way into becoming in charge of one of the most successful musicians of the decade -- also knows he’s an alien, but they tend to be more business partners than close friends.  tama is more interested in the money side of things whereas priscilla and sid are only interested in the music.  ziggy has stock in the music, money, and his personal brand.  

via rp, he’s made some friends with other characters! a few. very few.  RELATIONSHIP STATUS.    single -- he intends to stay that way.  he gets all the action he could ever need from his legion of devoted fans and groupies.  even in situations where he’s romantically involved and emotionally invested, he would never consider himself exclusive or monogamous.   a lot of tabloids make rumors that he’s involved with cardinal copia, fellow rock icon, but he tends to be sneaky at hiding any time they spent together.  it’s hard to keep things private when you’re both massively popular public figures, though. he goes out of his way to be sure no one knows about his predilection for spending time with thomas, because the last thing an awkward alien in disguise needs is a lot of public attention because people think you’re dating a celebrity (who they don’t know is also an alien). he hangs around annie a lot, too, but this is extra extra under wraps, because annie has a stalker named jonathan who may or may not go apeshit and try to tear his head off or something if he finds out.   FINANCIAL STATUS.    filthy rich. should be guillotined.   DRIVER’S LICENSE.    doesn’t have one. he has some paperwork, somewhere, with a “real” name and all that, but he has no idea where it is and lets his manager deal with that stuff. CRIMINAL RECORD.    none ! clean slate.  that doesn’t mean he doesn’t do illegal things, though.  he just doesn’t get caught.   VICES.    smoking, drinking, la cocaina, sex, impulsive spendng, rockstar stuff.  

𝐬𝐞𝐱 & 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞

SEXUAL ORIENTATION.   bisexual. PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE.     submissive  |  dominant  |  switch  | top |  bottom | verse. this doesn’t really come up in rp because i dont write nsfw. the way i view it is that he’s lazy and would rather you take care of him than the other way around LIBIDO.    pretty high, but it’s difficult for him to have as much sex as he might prefer because, uh, he has, uh, alien..............parts...........and stuff ..... like ....... some parts down there look different ....... so he’s stuck having sex with usually in the dark, under sheets, and he has to zip his pants up really quick afterwards. maybe it’s a little bit hilarious and i just think it’s funny idk LOVE LANGUAGE.    selflessness (which is big, for him, king of all douchebags and lord selfish dickhead the third), rambling to you about his day, physical affection, gifts, letting you see him without make up, opening up to you about his life before earth.  he might play you music, sing to you or write you songs if he’s feeling particularly sappy.  this is stuff reserved for people that he finds himself incredibly romantically/emotionally attached to, though, not the people he has one night stands with.  and he almost never forms any sort of lasting attachment to the people he sleeps with casually. RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES.    he tends to fall for people who challenge him in some way, who aren’t easily beguiled by his status and physical looks, but who aren’t outright mean to him.  that being said, he is very vain, and he loves being showered in compliments, praise or attention.  he matches well with people who can put up with his antics and moodiness and odd behavior.  he likes the idea of being someone’s muse or someone’s idol, so he finds himself drawn to other creative types.  he has the most intimate/special connections with other nonhuman beings, especially other aliens, cuz he feels like they Get him and he wouldn’t be really giving himself in his fullest form if he had to still play pretend that he was a human being.  for whatever reason he goes apeshit for goth guys/dudes with black hair who wear a lot of black.  he really doesn’t like people who are too much like him, because HE’S HIM, and you’re YOU, and he really wants it to stay that way.  GET OUT OF MY DRESSING ROOM

𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬

CHARACTER’S THEME SONG.   there’s a whole album about him .......... theres a song called “ziggy stardust” .......  HOBBIES TO PASS TIME.    singing, music, writing -- he lives for that shid.  he likes art in all forms, so he reads, watches movies, looks at paintings -- he has a lot of human culture to catch up on, and he loves all of it, from any time period and any culture.  he also likes buying things, shopping, looking nice, gossip.  he tends to be a party animal (party alien?) and often indulges in more hedonistic fun. LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED.    his brain is not structured like a human brain. also, head empty.  no thoughts. FEARS.    being perceived as ugly or untalented, being outed as an alien, being rejected for being an alien, becoming a nobody, losing his social status, becoming a conformist, becoming “outdated” or “uncool” SELF CONFIDENCE LEVEL.    somehow sky high and on the floor at the same time. he usually thinks he can do anything and he’s pretty perfect, but that may just be from a solid few years of repeating that to himself and empty praise given by people who are just crazy obsessed with him -- he built his confidence level on a very shaky foundation, so it’s easy to start making him doubt himself and panic if you know what to criticize him on VULNERABILITIES.    a lot of things, and im sick of typing

* pay me 100000 USD to unlock my LEVEL 20 ZIGGY STARDUST LORE pack now with NAMING/TITLE INFORMATION, HOME PLANET CLIMATE/WEATHER PATTERNS and PAST OCCUPATION/EDUCATION information.  includes a piece of gum i found on the floor.

[moved-to-femmesun-blog]

all the lgbt asks :+)

fuck you.

What do you identify as and what are your pronouns?transmasc (technically genderfluid but i’m very much transmasc) + he/him and ae/aem/aer

How did you discover your sexuality, tell your story?idk. i just never rlly liked girls. didn’t really care much for dating at all but i was def more attracted to guys, and so i ID’d as mlm for most of middle school to high school. now i lean more towards bi - and ID as bi - but i still use mlm for myself.

Have you experienced being misgendered? What happened and how did you overcome it?hahah yeah. even when i was going by “Benjamin” back in high school i was constantly misgendered. i just dealt with it. was too much of a pushover to say anything so i just ignored it kdnsknaksnd

Who was the first person you told, how did they react?some guy i was friends with that who obviously liked me. he took it pretty well, told me to tell my friend if i really wanted.

Describe what it was like coming out, what did you feel?i was impulsive and so i just. did it. i don’t really remember much about it - it didn’t feel that significant to me because i was SO disconnected from gender and identity, and i also just don’t remember small details well.

If you’re out, how did your parents/guardians/friends react?parents just. took it well ig. made an effort to use the name i wanted, were supportive enough. mum’s done more research than my step dad has - he thinks he can say the q slur lol - and was there along side me for a lot of my transition progress, but overall they’ve both been okay. at least with the binary stuff. i’m not open to them about my sexuality or the indepth details of my identity, aka my new pronouns and name - so it kinda sucks - but overall it was pretty good. friends were okay about it, had a few name hiccups with them using “em” for me instead of emmett (which i was going as at the time) but *shrug*

What is one question you hate people asking about your sexuality?no one ever asks me shit KDNSKNDkdn and tbh i don’t think anything would bother me? unless the person is being an asshole about it, i’m really open to answering questions.

Describe the style of clothing that you most often wear.i don’t really know what Style i have but like, lately i’ve gone back to just wearings leggings, big jackets, and then tank tops/my croptop. i used to be rlly rlly anal about like, Presenting As Male, and tbh i was really uncomfortable during that time. being overweight, i just felt ugly and gross and clunky. and so i’m glad i’ve gone back to wearing more fem stuff bc like. it fits me better, i love and feel better, and i have more options.

Who are your favourite lgbt+ ships?uhhh for bnha i’d say my faves right now are: bakukami/bakukirikami, kamisero, todoiida, iiseroyama, and then minamomojirou.

What does makeup mean to you? Do you wear any?i’ve never been one to wear make up. the furthest i ever went was using BB cream and then nail polish, and i haven’t used BB cream in years. i own One bottle of nail polish now and it’s this clear stuff with gold glitter chunks in it.

Do you experience dysphoria? If so, how does that affect you?not... really? i USED to big time. but now i’ve just mellowed out since shifting towards nonbinary/genderfluid and stuff. back when i was Set on being “100% FTM” i was super dysphoric. i just hated hearing she/her pronouns, and that’s really the only time i get dysphoric now - and when people call me a girl, but y’know dknskndd - and so... most of the time i’m good. i’m on T (have been for 2 years, though i havent been taking it lately due to complications with my endo clinic - and i’m almost a year and a half past getting top surgery - which im happy w/ bc i had a huge chest, though i do sometimes miss my boobs - and so i’m pretty good!

What is the stupidest thing you’ve heard said about the lgbt+ community?there are SO many dumb things i’ve heard over the years of being on tumblr/online/at public high school, so i don’t know how to give this just ONE answer dknsandnknds

What’s your favourite thing about the lgbt+ community?the “i can’t read/drive/do math” jokes bc i’m gay

What’s your least favourite thing about the lgbt+ community?i could say a lot of things here but i do NOT wanna risk starting any shit so KDNSKNDSKND

Have you ever been to your cities pride event? Why or why not?i’ve been to pride as part of my school’s team for the parade once! i haven’t gone since just bc i don’t really have anyone in my city i’d like to go with

Who is your favourite lgbt+ Icon/Advocate/Celebrity?i’m REALLY disconnected from celebrities... i really can’t answer thiskNDksnd

Have you been in a relationship and how did you meet?a bunch! currently i have two boyfriends and i met both of them through bnha discord servers - specifically rp servers KDNSKDNSKNd

What is your favourite lgbt+ book?i can’t read! (i genuinely can’t remember the names of any gay books i’ve read so SOBS)

Have you ever faced discrimination? What happened?yup! i’ve been called slurs in public, had people obviously try and figure out my gender - fun fact: one time a guy very obvious leaned over at me as i passed by to try and look down my sweater to check my chest B) - uhhh misgendering on purpose. nothing physical yet thankfully, but y’know.

Your Favorite lgbt+ movie or show?i am LOVING carole and tuesday rn im ngl KDNSKND

Who are some of your favourite lgbt+ bloggers?all my mutuals ;)

Which lgbt+ slur do you want to reclaim?q slur, that’s all i can claim KDNSkdn  i’ll use it when i know the people around me are comfortable seeing/hearing it but otherwise i just keep it to “q slur”

Have you ever gone to a gay bar, or a drag show, how was it?nope. almost did once - this dude in my city wanted to take me, and at the time we were friends and i had a crush on him, and we would’ve had a uh. fling. if we’d gone - but never did end up going. shit happens KDNSKND

How do you self-identify your gender, and what does that mean to you?idk i’m just like. i’m a dude - i’m NOT a girl, 100% not a girl - but at the same time, i’m not a dude? i’m not agender but it’s like... i’m just SO disconnected from the idea of having a gender but i’m super comfortable ID’ing as a guy because i find comfort it in (and in being able to say things like Yeah I’m Transmac and Yeah I’m MLM) but really it’s just. a big blur. i shift between being a Dude and then being Kind Of A Dude and then Not Being Anything and then Being ???   so yeah kdsnkdn

Are you interested in having children? Why or why not?nope. trauma fucked me up and i don’t wanna ever risk putting a child through anything. i wouldn’t be able to handle parenting a child. if ANYTHING i’d adopt an older kid, early/late teens, but idk.

What identity advice would you give your younger self?you don’t have to MAKE sure every one knows you’re a Dude. you don’t HAVE to pass at male. you feel so much more uncomfortable when you confuse people about your gender, when you wear want you want and what you feel comfortable wearing. you’re gonna hate looking back on yourself in a couple years because you’ll realize just how caught up you got in toxic masculinity, but it gets better. you get more comfortable being You and doing what You Want, and you’ll find people who accept that more than your current friends ever could. it gets better. you get better.

What do you think of gender roles in relationships?*throws them out the window* 

Anything else you want to share about your experience with gender?toxic masculinity is a BITCH and i wishhhh that i’d had more understanding friends. there’s something just so sad and... weird... about the idea of FORCING yourself to have to “pass” at all times - when “passing” is a dumb enough concept itself - but idk. i learnt a lot from it, even if it sucked.

What is something you wish people know about being lgbt+?it really isn’t easy. every day you’re dealing with stuff, from yourself and from other people, so let us have our jokes. let us have our pride. let us be loud about who we are.

Why are proud to be lgbt+?cause it means i’m not cishet LOLif you read through all of this: why? why do that to yourselfkNDKSNd

[kennexara]

silly dilemma regarding crafts and pride flags

like it’s june, i gotta do a queer craft, right? last year i did this cool cross-stitch with lightsabers in the bi flag colors. i bought the pattern on etsy and then added ‘may the pride be with you’ bc i think i’m clever.

and i kinda wanna do that again but as like a wall art piece or an iron-on tshirt. and the other day i saw that ‘only a cis deals in absolutes’ post and it cracked me up and i decided i also wanna do a lightsaber flag for gender and include that phrase. 

now the dilemna: im pretty sure agender is the best description for how i don’t understand or feel gender and how i get headaches every time i'm asked my pronouns. the issue is the flag for it has gray for a color. and i have this perfectionism thing where it’s like no i want canon colors with the hilt to match. it’s the, ‘not actually ocd but i still haven’t figured out what the fuck you call it so i say ocd-like’ thing i have. like how when i visit my parents i have to rearrange their towels so the same color towels aren’t touching. 

anyways, i fell down a pride flag rabbit hole and eventually discovered there are a few alternate agender flags but uh quick google and etsy search revealed the one i liked is used literally nowhere else except these really specific gender-devoted sites. so like, i sorta don’t want to use it? like, i would prefer a halfway recognizable flag.

and i know the genderqueer flag has canon lightsabers colors in it and genderqueer, for me personally, feels like a better umbrella term than non-binary. and purple, white, green? easy enough to do. 

but...the alt agender one was literally the same except white was replaced with black and having the darksaber for a flag would be really cool. (like i’d do the philly pride flag just to use black but brown has the same problem as gray)

“can’t you trick your not-ocd thing and just use a random hilt for gray and/or brown?” buddy i’m already pushing it by using cal’s lightsaber for pink (magenta IS a color option in the game so it counts brain!!)

[mercenarypark]

tf2 gender/sexuality hcs since i never posted them here bear in mind i typed most this out at like 2 AM #transitioning #long post #text heavy 

for clarities sake: tf2 has a really confusing universe that is both incredibly modern[esp technologically] and very backwards, due to australium’s influence and the time period. so while i wont go into too much detail, i generally assume tf2′s universe is pretty advanced when it comes 2 gender stuff like hormones, surgery, etc, but the mindset of society at large is still kinda hit or miss, since the series mostly takes place in, well. the 60s-70s. i dont wanna detail that too much though bcause it makes me uncomfortable, but its smth 2 keep in mind for all these

medic is a BIG GAY,, im not totally dead set on whether he’s gay or if he’s bi w/ a definite preference for men. he’s a nonbinary man, he figured out he was trans very early in life, the nonbinary part he figured out later; he uses it/its pronouns some of the time [but most ppl go w/ he/him, which he’s fine with]. he’s known he was gay+trans since he was very young but much like his jewishness, it was something he had to hide for a long time, until he was in college and decided to Finally be open about all of those. and G-d help the man who challenges him on them

heavy is gay aaaaand he’s like, none gender with left man [so hes also a nonbinary guy, but he/him only]; he’s generally very private about both his gender and his sexuality. his father’s death and the gulag taught him to keep quiet about anything that might paint a target on his back, unless he knows he can strike back.

spy is genderfluid and bi, alternates he/she/they pronouns[though using just he/him is fine too if thats too difficult], presents however the hell she wants on a given day; usually wears skirts while at the base just bcause its more comfortable to them. spy doesnt really pay much mind to her gender, doesnt really see it as something important, at least not to them. how someone else might react is a different story, of course

soldier is bi and bigender, preferably she/her, but they/them and he/him are ok; she’d been openly trans for years bfore joining the mercs but she’s never bothered w/ hormones and stuff bcause she doesnt deal with much dysphoria, she’s fine w/ her body

engie is pan, transmasc nb, he/him or they/them; he’d been on T for a while prior to joining the base, maybe a year or two, and like heavy, hes extremely private about his gender+sexuality. living in the south, you learn to keep your mouth shut and your head down [speaking from experience, sadly]

pyro does not have a gender. they dont even id as “agender”. theyre null gender. gender is fake 2 them. [they/them only, also] their sexuality is also similarly unlabeled, but they’re definitely Not Straight by any means. they don’t remember much of their childhood or really, much of anything before joining the mercs. 

demo is bigender[sometimes he’s more of a guy and sometimes hes ???], pan, and any pronouns are fine they dont mind. he’s generally been aware that hes Not Straight and Not Cis for most of his life, and for a while it was another source of self loathing on top of Literally Everything Else [Please God Help Demo], but eventually he worked through that. they’re still very self-hating though. dont get me wrong. for the love of god i love demo so much please help them work through their childhood trauma please GOD

scout, upon arriving at the base, is a very closeted trans nb woman who is unlearning a lot of internalized stuff and self hatred that comes off in the form of her acting out for attention, a lot of hypermasculinity and heteronormativity,and just overall being a rude asshole for a while before she finally figures shit out, straightens up, and goes through a lot of character development[tm] with the help of her New Adopted Parents aka The Majority of The Base[except sniper and spy]; she’s bi w/ a preference for girls, and she/her + they/them

sniper is..........

 if uve paid attention to some previous headcanons i’ve posted, u can probably guess that, my friends and i do not like sniper much. at all. for a lot of reasons, some more personal, some more joke-y, some just out of spite for the fact that a lot of the fanbase really loves the shit outta this dude and ignores characters like demoman or heavy, who have such vivid and detailed, SAD fucking backstories, and a lot of depth and character to them, and- alright im rambling. basically. sniper is usually either a cishet dude in our hcs, or hes some variation of a “cisgender demi-heteromantic heteroflexible sapiosexual” mogai tumblr abomination.  finally, ms pauling and zhanna are both trans women[she/her for both], ms pauling is a lesbian and zhanna is bi, and merasmus is genderfluid and goes by he, she, or xe pronouns -- below this are basically who everyone is dating, in our hcs almost everyone is polyamorous, also, we[em+gabby+myself] do have specific hcs of why there’s two of every merc and how that works, but i’d rather not spoil our ideas, so im just gonna say- yes, in our hcs, there’s two of everyone, and we have explanations for it. but also we’re not gonna have like, medic/medic, or any other selfships. we lived through undertale fanbase. we know better also all the above gender+sexuality hcs apply to both RED and BLU variations [IE, both BLU solly and RED solly are bi trans women] - RED spy is dating scout’s mom, RED medic, and our OC Phillip; BLU spy is smitten with both scout’s mom and phillip but for spoiler reasons, is officially not allowed to contact them; [not sure if BLU spy is also dating BLU medic] RED heavy and RED medic are dating, and BLU heavy and BLU medic are also dating; BLU heavy is ALSO dating BLU demoman RED demo and BLU solly were in love but had a bad breakup because of the administrator’s influence; RED demo fell in love with RED engie and RED pyro afterwards. its possible he continues seeing BLU solly as well, in secret[not cheating ofc, pyro and engie know, but the administrator doesnt] both RED and BLU engies have crushes on their respective medic, but medic is Incredibly Oblivious to a fault RED solly and zhanna are in love  scout did have a crush on ms pauling, but it faded over time bcause pauling just wasnt interested; we’ve been spitballing an OC that scout gets a crush on and eventually starts dating, we dont rlly know much about her except that she’s an nb girl ms pauling, meanwhile, dates one of heavy’s other sisters sniper is alone with his piss jars.

[cronagorgon]

Identity asks...oh shit. Do all 30!!!

damn damn ok

1. if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?damn lemme think….. i mean i guess just reading keter scp pages would be a start.. there’s a few i LOVE though like 093 and 2264.. then just, LOTS of mcelroy content and scary game squad videos (on jesse cox’s youtube channel)

2. have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?have i ever found a what…. no… not really

3. list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.http://drakenlong.tumblr.com/shipsi identify at least a little bit with anyone from the “partners” list really, but i especially identify with crona gorgon from soul eater + lapis lazuli from steven universe

4. do you like your name?  is there another name you think would fit you better?yeah i mean.. no i guess i don’t like my ““real”““ name but the name i have now, drake, i picked because it fits me (though i wouldn’t mind being called any variation of “dragon” in any language. its all the same)

5. do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?oh doing for sure. i don’t feel real like.. even a little bit. just a meat machine accidentally affecting others’ lives

6. are you religious/spiritual?i guess. i don’t worship any…..thing, but i believe in a natural energy that flows within everything, that’s higher than us + even this one dimension

7. do you care about your ethnicity?i’m white, so no, not really. if i knew where i came from though, (which i suspect may have been in or near italy) yeah i’d be more into it

8. what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?ehhhh not a lot? imogen heap is one just by her song “hide and seek” (i know nothing of the actual artist). i don’t know what it means really or if it has a concrete meaning but it’s been a favorite of mine for years. more recently though i heard “self” by ANIMA! and it too is relatable, though i can’t really speak for their other music

9. are you an artist?i like to think so. i draw stuff sometimes so thats like, a start. is it good though, or meaningful? i can’t really say

10. do you have a creed?i don’t really know what a creed is so i googled it, and going by the definition that it’s a set of steadfast beliefs then… hell no

11. describe your ideal day.going somewhere new to eat, miraculously liking the food (therefore discovering something new i like), going shopping in antique + gem/new age stores & finding something unique, old, haunted, or just the sort of thing i never knew i wanted, then coming home & making a favorite meal that turns out perfect, then eating it while watching a video or new episode i’ve been wanting to see

12. dog person or cat person?dogs.. cats are really cute but i’m allergic ):

13. inside or outdoors?inside but there are times and places outdoors that i adore, like quiet gardens in early morning.. just a little warm, with the sound of a bubbling stream

14. are you a musician?absolutely not. i can play instruments and i guess i can make shit up but i never really found any real interest in making music

15. five most influential books over your lifetime.(trying + failing to even come up with 5 books ive read in my whole life) haha yeah totally. anyway books ive loved: here there be dragons (james a. owen); the last dragon (silvana de mari); half world (hiromi goto); moribito, guardian of the spirit (nahoko uehashi); how to train your dragon (cressida cowell); the dragonet prophecy (tui t. sutherland); deltora quest series..es (jennifer rowe); and guardians of ga’hoole series (kathryn lasky). i know thats more than 5 but these are pretty much the only books ive ever read other than some school assigned stuff.. some short stories by ray bradbury (all very good).. i remember reading the guardians of ga'hoole, deltora quest, + how to train your dragon serieses? series? when i was really young + i loved every book. they were fantastic. could not tell you if they were any good today but u know what? thats ok. im keepin the nostalgia as it is. the other books i read more recently.. half world + moribito were VERY good bc they were.. unique. stories i didn’t often see in my school library. i remember feeling incredibly sad having to return moribito specifically, and i remember it went on the bottom shelf of the library, and that it was not a month after id graduated that the school flooded with about a foot of water and i thought that it must’ve ruined it ):

16. if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?absolutely. i grew up one of the most deadly environments for someone like me and yet here i am. perhaps id be more successful, id be flourishing, id be doing the things ive always wanted to do, but i think i’d still be the way i am now personality-wise

17. would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?uhhhh random shit that dont make sense? maybe so

18. what’s your patronus?i think there’s like a test for this but i’m not gonna take it. if i had to pick an animal as my patronus i figure it’d be a dragon. i’ve always been really close to dragons and more recently discovered that i’m dragon kin, so i don’t see why not

19. which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?i don’t know. sometimes i think i’d be in ravenclaw, but other times i figure i might fit better in slytherin or maybe ….. none? they’re all a little bit relatable but none are really “me” you know

20. would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?literally anywhere other than here would be fantastic and of course my hyperfixation is always fluctuating and i could just name what i’m into right now but honestly? it’d be great to live in beach city. nobody has to pay for anything or do anything particularly difficult, everyone’s friends, nobody gets mad when you come out as gay. its good stuff all around

21. do you love easily?yes and no? i get attached to stuff easily but i feel like i can just as easily get over anything at the drop of a hat. there are only a few things that really make me tear up and many of them are things i never personally interacted with.. and one is a toy i used to have?

22. list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order.uhh fuckin sleeping, eating?, sitting, watchin videos, fuckin drawing, typing. thats 6? whatever

23. how often would you want to see your family every year?never. 0 times. fuckin absolutely not

24. have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone?a what. no. i’ve never connected with another human person in my entire life

25. could you live as a hermit?Hell Yeah babey

26. how would you describe your gender/sexuality?its unbelievable how badly i wanted to just post a meme or like, a picture of my favorite character + thats it but also that would break my theme of text only and no pictures so i guess i gotta describe it for real. i’m agender but masc presenting (whether that’s to distance myself from being a girl as quickly as possible or just because of trauma + fear of being a cis girl, i’ll never know) + my sexuality is complicated but im polyamorous and at least grey-asexual + panromantic with a strong preference for boys (with this combination i sometimes refer to myself as mlm)

27. do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?yeah i think so. id like to be taller but beggars cant be choosers ig. i’m a good mixture of “kinda ok, pretty sharp, weird but in a way i cant describe (its because my face is VERY asymmetrical but you cant tell unless you edit a picture of me lmao)” so thats like, a good aesthetic i guess

28. on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?uhhh about a 1. maybe a 0.5. but i don’t usually express this, because then i’d be picking fights withhhh everybody. does that technically put it at a 10 then? who knows

29. three songs that you connect with right now.i guess i already said this but right NOW…. self, the bleeding of mercy, and down down? or maybe grace kelly (down down is very feminine even if it is a Mood)

30. pick one of your favorite quotes.well i have a few but the first one that popped into my head was: “All Alone!Whether you like it or not,Alone will be somethingyou’ll be quite a lot.” -Dr. Seuss, Oh the Places You’ll Go

[beardedlink]

So far in my NonBinary journey I've started presenting as not entirely masc but not completely gender neutral either. Like masc but soft. I have some women's clothes (mostly cardigans and stuff like that) but nothing overly feminine, it's subtle but it's there and I'm really liking it so far.