#im still deeply affected to the point where i cant form relationships without feeling on some subconscious level

[separatismor]

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[sukirichi]

hey, so i have just recently stumbled across your page and when i tell you i'm so amazed OMG your writings and stories are so immensly beautiful, i've read almost all of them - home from war, scarlet, pink hearts, acquainted and fall from grace especially made me feel things and are probably my favorites. 💖💖 you have such an amazing amazing amazing way with words,, the way you characterize the characters, the dialogues and the plots are just CHEFS KISS. you are so so talented i'm almost jealous hahahahha.

and since i have JUST NOW finished "fall from grace" and the emotions are still raw lmao i wanted to say: WOW. i'm beyond heartbroken but my heart is also about to burst. it was so beautiful???? i can't really describe it in words but the story really did something to me omg i already know that i'll probably think about it the next weeks coming or while writing my exams 😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄 but no really. y/n and gojo's relationship was heartbreakingly cute and while i really hoped that they would maybe end up together at the end it was much more realistic and logical that they didn't, and i'm happy that it ended the way it ended. especially the last passages were amazing, i shed one or two tears reading it lol, it was a perfect ending for them. i really sat their for a moment collecting myself ngl hahahahaha. them looking at each other through the crowd, fleeting memories, emotions of the past and acceptance - accepting and acknowledging what was and is between them and still deeply caring and loving one another, being happy for one another. yeah, i am mesmerized.

but i actually have a little question bc i was confused at one point. so y/n got kicked out from the studio and didn't get the role for black swan and gojo saw her that one rainy (and ✨fateful✨ hahahah) night, how exactly did they come to form the agreement?? and did y/n then got the role back bc of the agreement (yk bc of her connection to the crown prince)?

anyways thank you so much for taking your time of the day and writing all the masterpieces 💗💗, i'm sure it's not easy :/. keep up the hard work and thank you once again 🥰 also sorry for the long message i got a bit carried away hahaha. have a beautiful day/night!! ❤️ - 💎 anon, if you don't have that one yet. (ALSO EVERYTIME IM READING OR WRITING 'BEAUTIFUL' I CANT STOP THINKING ABT YOUR STORY PLSSSHSJ)

i wanted to answer this yesterday but this ask really had me rolling on the floor in tears and giggles cuz im so so happy wtf first of all THANK YOU SO MUCH holy unicorns thank you 😭💕 im extremely honored you like my works and OMG I SEE NAOYA FIC I GO BRR thank you so much oh my gosh waaaa and omg no fjekeks the talent is just the blog's theme of "If I Simp, I Write" LMFAO omg damn thank you so much im so so happy you like fall from grace, its different from what i usually write for jjk but its actually the most similar to what i originally write for non fanfic related works of mine abdksks so like thats a sneak peek for my other writer side HEHEE. Also THE ENDING HURRR now you guys get why I said in the notes i love and hated that story, that ending scene with her performance lowkey fcked me up ngl 💀 oh actually, y/n is the original black swan because of her talent, dedication, and experience but her classmate was rich and had connections, so a few bills slipped in there and she lost the role, then accused that she 'stole' it from the girl. satoru actually stepped out his car and asked her to come with him where they came up with the agreement that she dated him just to clear his reputation of being a playboy so he could solidify his inheritance of the throne, in exchange, his connection with her could increase her chance of being scouted by a better company and hopefully even make her a respectable person for being the prince's first "stable relationship." and nope, she didnt get the role back - not from her original company anyway - and the prince's connection with her doesnt affect her success either. a company overseas recognized her by her talent alone and scouted her without connections to her "dating" him. the last part just pertained that they helped each other to grow emotionally and mentally, both as people and as actual humans, without inclusions of their roles in society. it was more of a personal growth and rekindling of souls rather than him ascending as king and her reaching her dream, because both paths of their success was their own journey from now on as said in the line "when the other stood firm, tall, and ready, you pushed each other in your respective directions." and thank you so much for this message, i dont mind the length of it all since im talkative too ahdkelwsl and i love responding to these types of asks 💕 tysm for the support bb, im very thankful for it! Have a great day/night too sweetheart, and diamond anon is all yours, WELCOME TO SUKI'S EMOJI BABIES FAMILY 💕💕💕

[toukaisbetterthanyou]

Hey! Now i know my ask might require a meta or probably a long explanation, and i need you to know that i alrdy ship touken so hard , im just overwhelmed by the way kaneki loves touka, what is the reason he got to love her so much he went insane for her? What did she ever do to him to make him love her so deeply wow It cant be just because she helped at the beginning there must be more! There must be a moment that he started loving her from.. mind if u can feed my poor heart with the answer TT

Mod K:

You have to remember that Ken has always been a character that has been starved for love and affection. He was abused by his mother for years, before moving into an even more unloving environment with his aunt after his mother’s subsequent death. Since then, he has always been incredibly lonely.

He had a hard time making friends aside from H/ide. Interestingly enough, he is only able to form the most bonds after he has transitioned from being a human to a half-ghoul. He has always yearned for a place to belong. This was part of the reason he is initially so horrified when he first becomes a half ghoul. e feels as though he has no footing among either humans or ghouls. Eventually, Yoshimura assures him that he can belong among both humans and ghouls as a half-ghoul, but this is Kaneki’s primary struggle throughout both series. He still hasn’t found a decent balance yet, either. He flip flops -- either trying to cling to his humanity or his ghoul nature. He still has not learned to embrace either.

Chapter 125 of re: is significant to Kaneki’s character because it is one of the few moments where he has felt truly accepted -- and truly wanted. Sex can be a profoundly powerful and intimate experience. You are opening your body to another person, and Ken was touched that Touka wanted to share that experience with him. He is affected to the point that he cries and is moved by her desire for him. She wants him to stay with her -- she doesn’t want him to leave.

In the above panel, we can see the moment that he realizes what he means to Touka -- and this exactly the kind of thing that Kaneki has always craved.

With other friendships, I feel as though this is not something that Ken never really understood. He often pushed away his friends, like H/ide, Touka, or the others because he believed that they would be better off without him. He believed that he could protect them better if he wasn’t near them.

His relationship with Touka begins the change in that mindset, as he understand that she truly wants him in her life. Note -- this seems to be the FIRST time that Ken has realized this, despite his previous friendships. These are not rational thoughts, and not true -- but this was what Ken believed.

Why would he not be profoundly affected by this?

Not only does Touka want him in her life (and actually made him believe and acknowledge this, since it’s clear that Ken’s other intimate friendships also care for him deeply and want him around, too), but she also did something that Ken has always wanted.

She chose him. She put him and their child first.

Ken’s primary flaws and struggles have all stemmed from his mother’s inability to put him first. His mother abused him, and constantly put the needs of her sister over his own. She chose to over-work herself for her sister, rather than live for him. He holds a lot of bitterness and resentment towards her over this and it has come up again and again through out the series.

However, Touka makes the very choice that he always wished that his mother had made.

Ken had been planning to figure out a way to save Yoriko, even if doing so would probably lead to his death -- but Touka instead decides to not bring up the letter underneath his pillow at all. They both know that she had seen it, but she chooses instead to not save her close friend so that he and their child could live.

I believe that this is the moment where Ken truly fell in love with Touka. He asks her to marry him, afterwards -- as thanks for placing him first -- and is shown to be so happy and amorous around her directly after this chapter. When someone comes along and does the one thing that you’ve always wanted, it would of course create strong emotions, and a very strong attachment.

She is the first person that Ken has acknowledged that has put him first -- and chosen him over someone else that she cared deeply about. So, he wants her to survive so that they can live on together and be happy. He fights for that reason. We also need to keep in mind that Fur/uta manufactured the oggai and this entire attack on the underground for the sole purpose of driving Ken insane in order to produce the dragon. Had he not eaten the oggai and ingested such a massive amount of RC cells at one time, he probably wouldn’t have become a giant beast, though he still would have fought for Touka.

Ken’s current predicament isn’t entirely his fault, and it’s not entirely because of Touka, but he chooses to fight for what he wants and finally choose so that he can hold onto those who he loves. It’s just sad that Fur/uta was already a few steps ahead of him. We’ll just have to see what happens next.