#im sorry to anyone enjoying it but it feels like a bad fanfic rewrite to me

[sojourner-between-worlds]

I usually try to find the positives in things I watch, but this new animated Spiderman series just ain't it, bestie

[vyladromeave]

If MCD gets turned into a book I am almost certain the autism ghosts will possess me again and I’ll have to making a 5 hour long rant with a conspiracy style string chart on my wall

GOD mcd as a book genuinely makes me both so excited and terrified at the same time. I've had this ask sitting in my inbox for like a day now because idk entirely how to voice all the opinions i have about this. AT THE VERY LEAST: It's cool that Jess hasn't forgotten entirely about MCD, and while it sounds like the plans to continue myst are more clear/doable (its the same format she's always done, all it takes is for her to write a conclusion she feels satisfied with. which is definitely a large feat but it feels more in-reach than expanding on mcd right now), its cool that theres still an interest for MCD as well.

SORRY THIS POST IS ABOUT TO GET LONG TURNS OUT IM VERY MENTALLY ILL ABOUT THIS SERIES WHO COULDVE GUESSED. SORRY. HERE'S YOUR CHANCE TO ESCAPE PLEASE TAKE IT NOW.

CONTINUING: MCD continuation sounds like it is not in reach right now, and not entirely a priority either. It's not even in pre-production yet, it sounds like she hasn't even decided on a format to release it as, which means relatively zero work has gone into making that yet. (Beyond the guideline that has already been written for it in the form of the existing MCD story that we know and are familiar with.) We don't even know if it would be a book!! JESS doesn't even know if it would be a book!! I don't know how I'd feel about it if it WAS a book! She's been vocal about wanting something akin to an anime or animated series before iirc (though i dont remember the source for this so correct me if im wrong), so it could be that thats still something she wants to pursue with and getting a whole animated show at a good quality is hard! I don't know!!! Nobody knows!!!! (And I don't know if she's ever even produced anything aside from Youtube Video Storytelling/RP series. Sure she has a very successful toy line, but that's not really a writing/storytelling medium. And I guess there's the music videos, but those are... um......... bad........ And we know she's no stranger to fanfic, thanks to the fucklist if nothing else, but i've literally never SEEN her writing go towards something that wasnt a Minecraft Youtube Video. On this note, if anyone is familiar with work Jess/the team has done for something that ISNT the medium of things she posts to her youtube channel, please send it my way I'd be very interested in checking it out.)

I think I'm glad that at the very least, it wont be produced in the same style as her modern rps (the style used for mcds3 + modern mystreet content + Rebirth too actually...) because I really don't enjoy that style... to me a big part of MCD honestly is the fact that things are for the most part kept in Aphmau's POV of things, something they ditch alot in modern rp content. But switching that format to something else might not lend to telling it the same way. Which is scary to me!! (honestly I personally think mcd would function really well as a first person visual novel or something along those lines. but if anything, that might require more writing than a book would, since there'd be choices and paths...) And obviously ppl HAVE attempted things similar to retelling mcd as a book before, there might be more MCD rewrites out there than MCD fanfics at this point tbh im not blind. But there's still the difficulty of being able to tell that story well in a medium it was not originally produced in/arguably meant for.

There's also the point of: I don't really Like a lot of the more recent choices Jess has made with MCD's story somewhat recently. The stuff with Irene in Mystreet just feels like a mess, I don't like the idea of the two having crossover. And while Rebirth for the most part was pretty good, there are still some things I have gripes with, mostly with how Aphmau is presented as a character and agency problems she's had since all the way back in mcd s2. There's a very real possibility that I just wont enjoy MCD as the way Jess wants to tell it now. And thats like fine, obviously, but it is also a little disheartening.

and then there's the point of: still knowing that i probably won't like how it ends, WE WILL LIKELY GET AN ACTUAL END. can you imagine that. MCD with an ending. a canon ending. I doubt it would be in the first installment of whatever MCD gets published as (if it gets published at all), seeing as even in Rebirth jess was planning on it having 2 seasons, but still. Even if I don't like the ending, the idea that there will BE ONE OUT THERE for me to bounce off of is incredible to me.

when it comes down to it: i honestly don't have much hopes of MCD ever being officially finished in any capacity. I hate to be a downer about it so soon after news that Should be Good. But the fact that she doesn't even know what MEDIUM she wants it to be in is not a good sign. If it Will ever be officially published in some form, it's likely it won't be for a very very long time. Not like mcd fans are strangers to waiting, but still. As a professional MCD Waiter, I would not be surprised if we are left waiting forever. It happened with original mcd, it happened with rebirth, i do not doubt it will continue happening for a very long time. I'm scared to get my hopes up for a finished story of any kind, because it's never approached Finished before. Its very hard for me to get excited over something I know will likely be abandoned, possibly before it's even been started.

but yeah if we get mcd book ill read it probably. ya know. whatever or something. <guy who is trying not to look like he cares about this a lot

[nightklok]

chickles for 2? or toki for 3 if someone asked for chickles already :3

Fandom Memes [open!] (shout out to firefox for crashing and making me rewrite this like twice-so i continued to add more to this because why not)

When I started shipping them:��Oh this is actually a funny story- I can’t quite remember when I started shipping them but according to AO3, I read a chickles fanfic in November 2019 (the only one i didn’t reread because im sure there were others i read too) and that was around when I began starting the show. But around that time, I SWEAR when I looked at Charles wiki, there was some line there that was along the lines of  ‘Charles and Pickles had slept together sometime before Dethklok. while pickles doesn’t remember it, charles does’ I don’t even know if it was possibly a fever dream, mixing up a fanfic as canon, or I just happened to scroll through it when someone threw the line in BUT I CONSIDERED IT CANON and I lowkey waited for that scene as I remembered it on/off and it didn’t take until April 2020 when I finally finished the show to realize that it wasn’t canon D: so thanks to fanfics and probably misreading something in November-december 2019 that’s when I shipped them :D (Also if anyone knows where I may have gotten this from pls link me)

My thoughts: I love them!! They’ve made me happy shipping them and they’re just a good and wholesome ship to me! I think it has everything I could ever want in a ship; the angsty and sad moments but also the happy ones- I don’t know how I can articulate just how much they clicked with me but they really did! They’re like the ultimate band parents,

What makes me happy about them: I think I love how they can bring something in each other that they normally wouldn’t be able to do themselves. I headcanon Pickles as someone with ADHD (and aries because hi im an aries with ADHD) and I think Charles would be able to help calm him down and keep him focused or at least stimulated when he needs to be. Being with Charles can help him be a bit controlled (Though sometimes not by much when he wants to be a tease haha). I love the idea too of Pickles being able to bring Charles to have a more exciting day or just being able to help break routine a bit. Pickles sometimes likes to do things on the spur of the night just to keep himself entertained and Charles prefers to keep things in a schedule. They would find a compromise where Charles clears out a day and Pickles just takes him somewhere random. Is it a concert? Forest? Amusement park? Half the fun’s in not knowing! But Charles enjoys that he can be a bit looser and actually get to laugh and smile and just be having the time of his life with him-

What makes me sad about them: I think Doomstar/Post-doomstar and even the events between season 2 and 3 makes me sad, it breaks my heart in two just thinking about it. Pickles...would be so fucking devastated  when Charles died, especially if we go by if they met during Snakes N’ Barrels and he may have never gotten a chance to confess his feelings (or he did for more sadness) and Post-doomstar? He probably ends up blaming Charles leaving on himself and- though depending on where we’re thinking of the possibility of the timeline of their relationship, Going Downklok may have wrecked their relationship because alternatively, Pickles may not have flirted with Abigail but probably something else caused them to break up or destroy their relationship. There was a lot of tension/build up in that episode so I guess their build up and eventual burst would be feelings having to resurface, possibly Pickles getting too far in his addictions and Charles still revealing nothing about what happened during his absence or why he came back; so then you get  the dinner scene and it was the straw that broke the camel’s back to get him to quit and then all the events unfold and Pickles just blames himself so heavily on it  oh god i need to WRITE THIS

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: I don’t think there’s anything in fanfic that annoys me when people write them- It’s more of being uncomfortable/disturbed?...there were a few fics I came across where Charles was borderline abusive/overly sadistic (and one where I wish I hadn’t read-) that left a bad taste in my mouth after reading it. I just feel like that’s way too OOC and Charles definitely isn’t the type of person to be an abusive asshole and/or would definitely know the boundaries of being sadistic in the bedroom while still making sure his partner is into it/feels safe. But i guess that kinda goes in general for any Charles/character fics- 

Things I look for in fanfic: I think them being in character, an interesting plot line, and just it being well written is all i can ask for haha-I honestly love any Chickles fanfic out there; I think the things I look for in particular are either his reactions to seeing Charles when he comes back or anything post doomstar but also implying that they met during Snakes N Barrels help

My wishlist:

I guess I’m just gonna shove in things I hope to write actually- (screaming at me to write particular fics helps motivate me so go @ it-)

A Star reader AU: this actually would be the one of the first (probs second or third) Chickles fic I had ever written as I had drafted it around ago even though I had initially planned for the Chickles to kinda be hinted at but with what I know now, would make it more prevalent. If anyone has read Blood Red Road by Moira Young you might see where I’m going but basically, there was a character who was able to read the stars and predict the future. (if you’re hoping the novel goes more into that i’m sorry-) So if we make Charles one of those people, then probably adds more depth to why he chose to work with Dethklok right? :D  Secret singer fic: I AM writing that one!! I just got sidetracked but God I’m gonna get back to it as soon as I can!! Basically for anyone else reading this, Charles and his friends put up a bet to see how difficult (or easy) it would be for Charles to become internet famous by having him post covers/original songs under an anonymous name. It becomes a chaotic mess when he gets more than he bargained for and does end up gaining some popularity, someone on the internet spreads the rumor the singer is someone famous, and a particular someone came across those songs and finds the lyrics almost a little too relatable. That fic where instead of Pickles being happy that Charles is back from the dead and they can live happily ever after, he becomes incredibly distressed and heartbroken because he ends up suffering major trauma. because seeing your bf ‘die’ all bloodied and mangled and coming back with only a scar and secrets he won’t tell you? That’s definitely years worth of therapy right there. That is like the only fic of this list even remotely close to finishing but God, definitely one of the most difficult to write- Fics where they met before/during Snakes N’ Barrels. I need to write one or two fics on that because I consider it canon. I’m sure I have mentioned drafting one or two fics like that?? Gotta look through my evernotes-

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: I’m sorry but no my mind refuses to delve further- And i mean I’ve been digging Magnus/Charles lately and we all know how that wouldn’t last either so they’re meant for each other fjkdsfjlk

My happily ever after for them: The boys defeat Salacia, Charles and Pickles reunite and kiss for the first time in such a long time. They’re finally happy together and get to officially date (or continue where they left off). Charles is able to retire as the priest as his work is completed (or he manages to get it more public considering they saved the world so most likely it’d be a recognized religion) They get married, and when Dethklok officially retires, they buy a few houses, maybe even do music projects together or Charles takes over Crystal Mountain Records actually and Pickles helps out by being one of the music producers, they adopt a cat or dog or both, and just be happy with each other :D

[emiliachrstine]

2018. WOW, what a year. It’s been filled with a lot of ups and downs--mostly downs, both personally and within the community here. I’ve definitely done a lot of reflecting on the downs. One of the things I’ve realized is who actually supports me and who only interacts with me when it means getting free things. It’s a blow, but I’m glad it happened. I don’t want anything to do with people who just want to get something from me and then slink off until the next round. Despite the negatives, there have been a lot of GREAT things that happened for me. I’ve met some new people, got my muse back for my marvel series after a six month hiatus, started outlining the rewrite for my supernatural & star wars fics, made some different lifestyle changes to better my health, joined ocappreciation, my best friend came back home for the holidays, and I saw the ICONIC Elton John in concert. It hasn’t all been bad. While I know 2019 will bring new challenges for all of us, I can’t wait to see all the good this new year will bring. And I can’t wait to see what you all create!! And I do hope to make even more friends, I’m an awkward, shy wreck. HERE’S TO A NEW YEAR, A NEW START. I would now like to thank some amazing people!

THE FAM:

@missjanuarylily & @itsaprophetthing: MY OG BUDDIES. I still remember the moment I found Elle’s story and the feeling I got when Maria posted her first review. You both became my first friends in this amazing community. I’ve known you both for almost five years, THAT’S INSANE. I can’t believe it’s already been that long. The encouragement and support you both have shown me always keeps my head up. I love you both so much and I’m excited to see what this new years brings for us.

@hellenistictitties: MY "LITTLE SISTER”. Honestly, where do I even begin. I’ve known for about four years, almost five. You said in a post not long ago that we started talking when you were in eighth grade and now you’re going into college soon. Like...just thinking about it, I FEEL SO OLD!!! AHHH. But as I’ve said before, you are like a little sister to me. It’s been so incredible seeing you grow and overcoming challenges. Like, I just want you to know how PROUD I am of you. I don’t say it enough, but I want you to know that I am! PLUS YOU ARE SUCH AN INSPIRATION TO ME WHEN IT COMES TO WRITING. I CRY EVERYTIME I READ YOUR WRITING. I love you bb!! And know that I will always be here supporting you through everything!

@nellie--crain: THE BUCKY TO MY STEVE. My crossover buddy. I honestly don’t know what I would do without you. You sent me one of the kindest asks for fanfic author appreciation day and from then on we’ve been friends. THAT IS CRAZY. We’ve been friends for just a little over a year but I feel like I’ve known you longer! I’m so grateful to have you as a friend. You’re always there when I need opinions on a story idea, to work out story problems, or if I just need to talk. You’re always there for me and I will never be able to fully articulate how much I love you!! 

@susiesamurai: MY FELLOW STEVE ROGERS LOVER. You may already know this, but our conversations ALWAYS have me in stitches from laughing so much. From talking about Steve’s sex life to worrying about Chris’ mid-life crisis mustache, I know that anytime I talk with you, it’s going to be memorable. I love your openness, creativity, kindness and HUMOR. During my hiatus from Renegades, your constant love and support for that story is honestly what kept my muse alive for it. And I can’t ever tell you how thankful I am for that. I love you BB!!

@chuck-hansens: MY BATES MOTEL AND MARVEL BUDDY. I know we’ve been sporadic with out conversations, I still enjoy seeing your posts on my dash. And I love that I now get to work with you on ocappreciation. You’re definitely someone I look up to, especially with your “take shit from no one” attitude. LIKE WHAT A QUEEEEN. I love you so much and I’m excited to see what 2019 brings for us and for ocappreciation! 

@fraysquake: MY BUZZFEED UNSOLVED BUDDY. I love that we can bond over our mutual love for these dorky ghoul boys. But more  importantly, you’re so incredibly kind and inviting. Our conversations, though sporadic, always put a smile on my face. ESPECIALLY, that message you sent me about Renegades. Just thinking about it is making me smile, I can’t even articulate how much that message meant to me and I still go back to look at it. AND YOUR EDITS...OHMY GOSH ESPECIALLY YOUR POSTERS. *DEAD* ilysm <3

@yourpalmoony: MY DAFT PUNK BUDDY. I know that the later half of this year brought some challenges for you, but I am glad that you are taking time for yourself. I am so grateful to have you as a friend. Your talent and creativity is such an inspiration to me. And your humor always puts me in the right mood. If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m always here for you. I hope 2019 brings you nothing but happiness! <3

@cptainsrogers: MY NEWEST MARVEL FANATIC. OH MY GOSH. I know I haven’t said this to you before but I have ALWAYS admired your work from afar. Being the awkward dork that I am, I couldn’t bring myself to send a message. I know it’s dumb. So you can imagine my surprise when you sent me an ask about Jackie. LITERALLY, I had to take a couple minutes to allow myself to calm down. I couldn’t believe that this massively talented person wanted to know about my oc?!?! And after getting to know you, I SHOULD HAVE SENT YOU A MESSAGE WAY SOONER!! LOL. Anyway, I don’t know what I would do without you. I always enjoy the conversations we’ve had and the time we both mourned over Chris being done with the mcu. Robin and Jackie are my girls and we need to do more for them. I love you so much and I can’t wait to see how things turn out in the new year!!! <3

OTHER AMAZING BEANS YOU ALL NEED TO FOLLOW:

@darknightfrombeyond, @curious-fools-howl-to-the-moon, @luucypevensie, @laurenstruckcrs (again thank you for the message you sent me about renegades), @seize-the-droid, @missbb8, @drewtanner, @drbobbimorse, @hennigshelleys, @chlobenet, @perfectlystiles, @curious-kittens-ocs, @carryonmycobaltangel, @blckthcrns, @veroinnumera if I missed anyone else IM SO SORRY. You all are so talented and amazing! And I hope to talk with you all more in the new year!!