#im sorry that Sam doesnt snark and bitch anymore and looks miserable/pained all the time. he was in the cage for over 1000 years.

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

first of all, please be warned that I am NOT normal. I'm an archeology major/medieval studies minor who sees all of spn through the lens of folklore, writes long meta abt it, and has constructed a 3+ yr postcanon timeline using the other shows the actors appeared in, as well as a massive crapton of folklore. I am FULLY convinced that both Sam AND Dean are actually monsters.

(Also on that note, anything seemingly rude/derogatory/villainizing I say about Sam, please know that I 1) mean it with the UTMOST love, respect and protectiveness, and 2) think more or less the exact same thing about Dean. the only thing worse than acting like Sam isn't a Grade-A Freak is acting like DEAN is somehow normal. Absolute animals the both of them.)

anyway, yeah seriously! like whenever I see someone (90% of the time this is a Heller, but there's a couple ppl who rly hate Cas) saying this shit, I just want to tell them to imagine themselves IN SPN for a second, with whatever level of god-author powers they'd prefer, telling Dean that "for the sake of the story" or "for Dean's own well- being" (I hear that specific form of BS in Sam hateposts all the time) , he has to choose between Sam or Cas.

like. bruh if you told ANY of them that, they would literally just kill you. either you fail immediately and humiliatingly at this and end up as a monster-of-the-week, or you actually get somewhere and are the new BBEG.

I'm not threatening these ppl to be perfectly clear, just, like. I don't think they realize what role they're playing in the story here. yknow?

also absolutely LMAO at the Sam Hate thats like

"ugh, Sam, he doesn't even do anything. he's big and awkward and always looks like he doesn't belong in whatever scene he's in. his face is shaped weird and he always looks like he's constantly tense or in pain and he never even talks anymore, at least in earlier seasons he talked. his vibes are so bad why does he have to be here"

like wow, I wonder if that's from being fed demon blood as a baby, or maybe the blood of Cain, or maybe the THOUSANDS OF YEARS IN THE CAGE BEING TORTURED TO INSANITY, maybe its the living with Lucifer and Michael far longer than he ever lived w humanity, maybe its having his soul taken out, put back in, flayed to bits, walled back off, being burnt alive body & soul from the inside etc etc. Maybe its ending up stuck forever in the life he tried so hard to escape, because it turned out that "not hunting" was never an option, something he learned from watching his first-ever true love burn on the ceiling of his college dorm. Maybe is spending his whole life being told he's fundamentally unclean, unnatural and evil.

...sure would be crazy if the majority of his character/plot arcs were spent addressing the fact that Sam is aware of ALL of these things that the fandom points out as being "wrong" abt him, and how he feels abt/struggles w this stuff.

okay NEXT unpopular opinion, I DON'T see Sam and Dean's relationship as primarily being "brothers". nobody else raised Sam except Dean, and that's that. Sam is Dean's eldest kid, because despite "single parent of an infant at AGE 4" being deeply fucked up, it is canonically what happened to them. in canon.

I don't care what ppl ship, but personally? wincest grosses me out. I don't think you're evil for it, just, ew. yknow what else grosses me out? "they're literally just brothers, brothers is all they are, their relationship is unhealthy because brothers should be that close, they're not normal for brothers". that grosses me out too.

like I'm sry, throwing away your own life/even the whole world for your CHILD is in fact normal. Having trouble letting go of your CHILD as they grow up is normal. Especially if you're a single parent!

and also!!!! Dating someone who has a child already!!! is normal and ok!!! Especially for a middle-aged/older couple like Destiel, in fact, for a couple their age its ESPECIALLY normal and okay for one or both partners to have previous children who are, themselves, now adults.

sorry ik this turned into more of a Destiel Ramble than Sam, I promise I DO have actual Sam Thoughts, but this post has gotten long and I just wanted to get out of the way how much I hate ppl trying to make it "Destiel vs Sam & Dean" as though there's some issue with them all co-existing.

like.

have they watched the show.

Fuck, I was looking at Sam's tag to look for things about him and I can't do that without being bombarded by Destiel's posts, and Sam isn't even mentioned in the posts. I'm angry as fuck, you know what? This has gone on for too long. Do you want war? Then there will be war! I'm going to start tagging my shit as Destiel and other tags that you like, just to feel what me and others fans feel. Starting with this one.